#idk i’m not a speller

[dj-lilbitch]

not caught up on succession i’m gonna have to unfollow some of y’all

#succession #is that how you spell it #idk i’m not a speller #anywho i haven’t even seen season 3 #at a certain point #i just got tired of watching rich ppl absolutely suck while i struggled to pay my bills #i’ll get back to it eventually

[methinmycoffee]

It's funny the way Tweek was panicking over North corea tweeting about him and Craig was like "write a letter" as if it was nothing,lmao

*Sorry I left this for a couple days*

I absolutely love Put It Down, I think it’s my favorite episode. I love the contrast between the Tweek and Craig. I love that Tweek was more in the right, but we see more of the episode from Craig’s perspective so we’re sort of on both sides. I would also be losing my absolute marbles over the president tweeting my name at North Korea. But I get where Craig is coming from with his exhaustion at Tweek’s constant panicking. I love that Craig doesn’t really know how to handle the situation, but like, goes out of his way to try and help anyway! And then he immediately ditches school once he figures out what else he can do.

I love them and I love Put It Down and I love how Cartman and Heidi’s plot ties together pretty well with Tweek and Craig’s.

And yes, it is very funny that Craig was just like, “Idk Tweek, write to North Korea and try and talk them out of being angry at us.” And then Tweek makes them cupcakes and then Trumpisson pisses everyone off.

#south park #sp creek #put it down #sorry this got derailed #I didn’t proofread this #so I apologize in advance #anon you spelled Korea wrong idk if you know that #it’s fine though I’m a terrible speller

[biwitchedart]

I’m rewatching the new Helluva Boss episode and am just gonna jot my thoughts down here for future reference

• Stolas has a reminder on his phone about a deal with Ozzie. I think it’s set for three days from the ep so idk how that’s gonna go all things considered

• the sheer amount of Striker wanted posters (all saying preferably dead)

• “I’m sorry it’s a bad time yet again” my Stolitz heart is saying that whenever Stolas calls Blitzø, Blitzø always says it’s a bad time (definitely reading too much into this)

• Hospital is called St. Ans. Like Satan. Please end me

• Kinda digging the aesthetic for Sloth

• A lot of eye drawings in this one. I like it (Magnus Archive fan)

• With the mention of Via during that one interaction between Stolas and Striker, I’m worried about some potential future series angst that may occur

• Gotta love the characters constantly harshing on Strikers vibe

• The fight scenes always slap

• For someone that spent a good portion of the episode spelling things out, Blitz is a really bad speller over text

• I know everyone’s already talked about the “He loves me, he loves me not” thing with the flowers, but it’s making me sad so I’m making y’all think about it more

Anyways that’s all I have now, all add more if I think of anything worth noting

#helluva boss #stolas #blitzo #helluva boss blitzo #helluva boss stolas #stolitz

[miserye]

Thinking about how I started cheating in 1st grade because my teacher shamed me for failing a spelling test once

#rye uses this tumblr like fucking twitter #yeah #that was a thing #it rly made me go #yeah I’m cheating now #she made me stay behind #and was like #why did you fail #like idk what I’m supposed to tell you best friend #I’m stupid??? #bro I’m still ass at spelling #I’m a bad speller fr fr but my grammar is pretty okay so I think it evens out 🙄🤚 #I may not be able to spell but at least I know the difference between #to and too #your and you’re #effect and affect #their there and they’re #brooo #it’s a flex in this day and age

[lesbianrobin]

youtube com/watch?v=VhZIikh-z7g

i must say something now that the opportunity has been handed to me: little miss perfect sounds like it belongs in a sequel to the 25th annual putnam county spelling bee / revival where the spellers are in high school. i mean it isn't as good as the songs in putnam but like. it has the sound. idk how to explain any further idk shit about music i'm deaf but <4 those are my thoughts

#em talks #asks

[this-is-my-main-i-follow-from]

i just sepnt WELL OVER AN HOUR working on stuff that doesn’t even work

I’m SO FUCKING MAD I WANT TO FUCKING KILL SOMEBODY preferably me & I’M ALSO APPARENTLY ON MY PERIOD? WELL NO WONDER I’VE BEEN DEPRESSED AS HELL THESE DAYS!

I honestly wonder what heppened i CANT EVEN FRICKING SLPEL what hallened to make me get emotional like this while menstruating. I never had this problem before. Al lmy weird emotions just came from the fact that I find them annoying & uncomforable & painful & groww & dysphoria inducing 

Well

Maybe my doctor will listen to me if I tellhim tht yeah my period makes my fricking suicidal it makes me want to relapse into self harm huh tht’s bad? well mabye you should let me transition then you crow begotten maggot filled barely wualified doctor!

I’m giving up on in trousers

in trousers is dead to me

so are whizzer (it’s funny bc he’s actually dead) & blowjobs & music & swing dancing

all gone

yy IT’S just me accidentally hitting the caps lock button instead of the a button because tha’ts thust what I need

This is why I want to fond a good drug dealer. I want to be able to control my anti depressants as I see fit & take extra stimulants when I need them & get access to blCK market testosterone & stuh up everyone around my what’s not even a song you’re just whistling nothingnessss

I just want to cry

but I never cry

so

well

too bad for me

maybe if ai can’t cry through my eyes i can cry through my skin

borine

ihate how I groip on to these things that happened whan I was a kid. like in 2nd grade I was the best speller & the teacher would sen kids to me to help them spell their words. I used to read nocels in one sitting by staying up all night just to read. I used to be flexible & thin & active & I could plaay on the moneky barfs & go climbing in the mountains but now I can’t to any of thar. It’s not even that in 2nd grade I was at 3rd grade level & now everyone in total is past 3rd grade level it’s that if I was  at 2nd grade level now i’m at 1st grade level. How is it that people get worse? it doesn’t maek any sense, ppl should be improving constantly that’s what makes a good story, scharacter growth, development, improvement. but of course then they get perfect & boring but you don’t want to undo all your work & besides people don’t go backwards so whu I am going backwards>

I somtedimes just want to die but I know that in general that’s not a good idea

but like

in times like this I see how much I’m astruggling instead of blinding myself to my issues with anti depressants & anti anxietyes & please jp shut the fuck up your whistling is so damn painful i forget what i was saying so I’ll just leave this here & maybe to idk watch youtube or write a fic or no none of that i don’t want to do anything I just want my things to be fixed but u know what even than I don’t think I would want to get back into working on it. im not particularly interested anymore fucking adhd i had the motivation to do smth I thought would be really cool but now looking back it’s not even that cool & it’s unfinished & it’s just iknda fully shitty overall and i need to use words because k an d i need to think m these sounds or say them otherkwise my mouth gets anxiety which doesn’t make sense but idk why i need to make d these sounds fuck this im just g so mad g k ng b d why i hate making useles sounds it doesn’t make sense why am i getting tics i thought I was done with those & moving bak on to some other side effects which b k g ng nmara ok kk kng move over in cycles bc the meds make no sense idk what i was saying but juct cux gkmnlrg siblings were talking 7 being annoying nobody can read this anymore esp w.o grammar & puinctuation hoh lool ka da na ma ga re fa rha la ya words i need to say lol why do I need o say them?? I wonder if I ever commit a murder I would be deemed insane? 

#dom personal #s**cide #s**f h**m menion #murder mention #rant post

[track2hack]

actually u know what I'm gonna make a list of work horses I wanna take home IN ORDER

red is ones I know I can't get, orange is a long way off, green is Very Possible

1. Express (5yo pacing mare) - too well bred to be anything but a broodmare :( 2. Sugar (6yo trotting mare) - my BESTEST BITCH in the WHOLE WORLD i would DIE FOR YOU. unlikely but i would like 2 see it happen 3. Ed (coming 4yo pacing gelding) - still hasn't raced, trialed twice? maybe 4. Connie (5yo pacing mare) - 50/50 on if she gets bred but more than likely will be 5. Kahress (4yo trotting mare) - LOVE this bitch with all my heart but she's won too many races to be rehomed :( 6. Johnny (coming 3yo trotting gelding) - still in pre-training. nowhere near trialing lol 7. Whiskey (coming 3yo trotting gelding) - ditto 8. Hilda (8yo pacing mare) - owned by boss's wife so bonus points for that, well bred so might be a broody 9. Cole (6yo pacing gelding) - once his leg checks out we are GOOD TO GO BABEY 10. Shady (6yo pacing gelding) - boss's wife's favourite. unlikely but god he's nice 11. Mary (4/5yo? trotting mare) - she's just out getting fat on grass with the spellers atm. TOTAL smooch. kinda stressy tho. also large pony/small hack size. puff's halfsister by dam line if i rmbr correct? 12. Finn (6yo pacing gelding) - he's a ways off finishing still but he's a dude with some gait issues so idk he might finish soon enough 13. Hannah (4yo pacing mare) - she's a fucking weirdo and i love her. but she's by Rocknroll Hanover and u can tell 14. Puff (4yo trotting mare) - ok YEAH i ADMIT IT now that she's being worked and not completely dependent on mary she's not as nutty as she used to be but STILL. she's a red mare AND she's by Peak. but she has her nice moments :( 15. CT (4yo pacing mare) - watched her work the other day. i know why no one else likes her now lol

#work ponies #to be fair i do have a thing for ride or die mares tho #so i prob would still get hannah and ct #connie is the baddest bitch on the property tho and i want her very badly

[dezmondmyles]

haha ok i got tagged by @taruyison ilu <3

alright cool lets do this

Would You Rather - Fanfic Version

Do you prefer friends to lovers or enemies to lovers? Aw man, do I gotta choose? I really love both, but there’s something a little more mmm, intimate, about enemies to lovers.

Would you rather be forced to watch a terrible movie adaptation of your favorite fanfic or an amazing adaptation of your least favorite fanfic? "terrible” and “amazing” are very subjective, and I love trashy movies/games that are fun to watch/play so that’s kinda my attitude with fanfics haha.

Would you rather read fanfic chapters backwards or read them as parsed from google translate? Backwards? I guess? If I have to translates a fic, uhh, I just Don’t lmao.

Would you rather consume every fanfic as an audiobook read by a monotone narrator or have to read on a tiny printed piece of papers written in yellow highlighter? If I had to choose, probably the audiobook. My eyes have trouble reading black text on white background sometimes as it is.

Would you rather get a tattoo on your body of every fanfic title you read or never read fanfic again? Never read fanfic again ahahaha. I’ve read some trashy fanfic just based on the equally dubious title before.

Do you prefer vampire au or werewolf au? If you know anything about me as a person.... Well you know that answer. And if you don’t, it’s uh, werewolf.  

Would you rather get sold to a boy band or be stuck in a time loop with your love interest? Time loop I guess? I never listened to 1D.

Would you rather kill your favorite character or marry your least favorite character? What if my favorite character is already dead?? Also what’s stopping me from marrying my least, killing them, and cashing out on the life insurance??

Would you rather meet your love interest in a coffee shop au or college au? My big brain take is to combine both- The local coffee shop near campus. Boom.

Would you rather have your fic history leaked or never read another fanfic again? Again, I’ll just never read again lmaaaao.

Would you rather be able to read amazing fanfiction but it always has an mpreg plot twist or only read bad fanfiction for the rest of your life? I uh, wrote?? Some of the mpreg in a reasonable semi-thought out fashion?? Also I’ve already spent most of my reading subjectively bad fanfic so like, idk.

Would you rather gay ships or straight ships? I can do both?? Also are we talking gay-gay ships or “these two are in a samesies relationship but theyre bi” ship? cause i can do that too.

Would you rather ship a rarepair with almost no content or a pair with lots of content but almost all of it is cracky nightmare smut? Honey I’m already in rarepair hell don’t even talk to me lmfao.

Would you rather see your otp shatter years after their happily ever after or never have the happily ever after happen in the first place? I mean, both is already like, the Thing with them anyway lmfao. I fuck hard with bittersweet endings all the same.

Would you rather read a poorly written but complete fanfic or a literary masterpiece last updated june 2013? I mean I do both. The former esp if the content is compelling enough for me to continue reading just to see how much more terrible it can get.

Would you rather read SSSS++++ tier smut with almost 11k words or 70k words worth of fluff? I can do both, the fluff will probably make me cry though in the end lmao you don’t get that many words of fluff without something sad in there

Would you rather read only alternate universe fanfics or only canon fanfics? My bread and butter is AU by virtue of being a crossover shipper. No matter how close to canon I get with either, it’s still ultimately AU. Plus, canon is dumb af anyway for both so i’m doing everyone a favor lmao.

Would you rather introduce fanfics to your normie friend with an ongoing smut fic with great writing or a complete fluff fic with terrible writing? Depends on the normie. I have non-fandom friends who enjoy writing and reading as much as I do, and I feel like that a well written smut and fluff fic would be more compelling to them, if not just to analyze the characters.

Would you rather read your notp with all your favorite tropes and perfect characterization or your otp with tropes you despise and inconsistent characterization? I think I’d pick the notp honestly. Listen, anything can become an otp with the right convincing in my book. Though, for most of my notps, they employ a lot of similar annoying tropes I hate seeing in most of my otps so like, can’t win them all.

Would you rather have a major character death or have a bed sharing scene but it’s a ship you hate? Major Character Death in the bed they were sharing.

Would you rather every fanfic includes Jackson Wang or every fanfic includes at least one nsfw moment? dunno who that is so I guess one nsfw moment it is.

Would you rather read a fanfic that has constant grammar and spelling mistakes or one that the characters are wildly different than canon? Have you read any of my fics I’m the worst speller/grammarererrr ever. However, I can take “wildly different” to a certain point in the case of many AUs where you kinda have to fudge things a little for the sake of your setting.

Would you rather read the most absolutely messed up dead dove with your most wholesome ship or subject yourself to 100,000 words of your notp all written in a solid block with no punctuation and horrible grammar? Dead Dove, no contest.

Would you rather have the power to read every fanfic in existence or have the power to make any ship canon? Any ship canon. I literally have no interest in read every single fanfic ever.

Would you rather read a cringy 70 chapter harry styles mafia au or a high school kpop au y/n fic with horrible grammar? At least I know who Harry Styles is lmfao.

Would you rather have your otp get together in canon but one of them dies in a tragic way or all members of your otp survive but get together with other people? They’re already dead in their respective canons so it can’t get worse from here right?

Would you rather accidentally send your boss a super detailed smut fic or read a super detailed smut fic about your boss? I think the latter because I would rather I lose respect for my boss than the other way around lol.

Would you rather read smut fanfic aloud to your parents or submit smut fanfic to the employer of your dream job? Like taru asked, what is the context. I think the latter though if it was allowed and it’s explicitly what they wanted.

Would you rather pine after an oblivious love interest or be the oblivious love interest pined after? I’m both irl (probably lmao)

Would you rather hanahaki disease or your soulmate’s first words to you tattooed on your body (and they’re really stupid)? I had to look up what hanahaki was lol, so I guess soulmate’s first words. And I mean, how much more stupid would mine be anyway?

Would you rather be an alpha, beta, or omega in omegaverse? None, I hate omegaverse with a passion. You can’t dress it up in any form possible to make me enjoy it. Idc what character(s) is/are in it, it bugs the fuck out of me.

Would you rather read a fanfic where the characters turn into furries or a fanfic where the characters all get pregnant? I mean, out of morbid curiosity, I’d wanna read both?? I’d hate it but I’d attempt to read it at least once?

Would you rather be able to resurrect dead fics or have the power to create a plethora of new fics effortlessly? New fics, so long as they’re getting completed on top of that ahaha.

whoo, that was fun! it’s been a while since i’ve done one of these memes. thanks for the tag, taru!

ok so i guess i’ll tag in return: @cooldadmondmiles @theladyisapirate and @seventhstrife

have fun friendos!

#kel talks #memes #hopefully this was at least an entertaining read haha

[nowat-shesdaylight]

———  BASICS! ♡

NAME! ♡    lissa

PRONOUNS! ♡     she/her

ZODIAC SIGN! ♡     aries

TAKEN OR SINGLE! ♡     taken

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

1! ♡     idk if this counts as but i officially have a master’s degree!!!   which is....  so weird to say.   but also so fun to say like, that’s a thing that i did!!!   so i’ve got that going for me!

2! ♡      i have a list of places that i would absolutely love to travel to or revisit but one of my favorite places i’ve been to was aruba and i wish i could have revisited it because when i went originally i wasn’t really old enough to truly appreciate it’s beauty.  

3! ♡    i’m a terrible speller.   like horrible.   it’s a wonder how i’ve come this far in life with my lack of spelling capabilities.  

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

PLATFORMS USED! ♡    i’ve only ever used tumblr for writing, oops ~ 

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

GENDER! ♡    female.  i only have one male muse on my mutli and tbh i think it’s because i resonate a lot with jim halpert.

LEAST FAVOURITE FACE(S)! ♡    honestly, anyone who is no longer living.   and anyone who’s said they don’t like being used.  and also if someone’s just actually really problematic then i’ll probably turn away.

MULTI OR SINGLE! ♡    as someone who has both a single and a multi muse, i’ll write with either!!!   although when you look at the differences in activity on both blogs, you’ll find i’m more active here than on my multi bc..... idk.  less pressure???

———  FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡    

FLUFF:    yes !!  although the type of fluff will obviously depend on who i’m writing with and, in turn, will be selective.  

ANGST:  listen i love angst sm and this may be lame of me but i love when it has a happy ending bye.   but yeah, give me arguments.   give me frustration.   give me our muses TALKING it out and working it out.

SMUT:  i’ll try it but only with partners i have super duper good chemistry with and also no underage writers or characters.   also our muses should have a super developed dynamic bc chemistry in all aspects is important.  

PLOT / MEMES! ♡   i like both!!!   memes are such a great way to break the ice and get interactions started and plots are so amazing and fun and to me are a great way of deepening the dynamic between characters!

TAGGED BY: @xiaolindude TAGGING: @seesgood / @briillicnt / @rebelflight / @hisagony / @skysplita / @sichpleiga / @gonpleiga / @survivingpierce​ / @klarsynt​ / @floatmenow​ / @motherlcss​ / @frcznreign​ & you !

#000 / constantly thinking about chicken parm ⟶ mun things.

[thebad---catholic]

Things I’d like to see in a Superman movie

Jimmy, to maybe the big baddie: Hi, I’m Jimmy, this is my sidekick, Superman-

Superman: Sup

Jimmy: and uh, we’re here to kick your ass

—————-

Clark starting his daily routine, dancing along to music that’s playing over the sequence. Singing in the shower to “bulletproof”, humming along to “stronger” as he uses his heat vision to shave, doing some impressive footwork while he cooks some eggs- only he’s hovering off the ground, so it’s kind of cheating.

The sequence ends when he walks out of his apartment, still humming the last song as he walks past his neighbors door. A second later, the neighbor walks out and we hear that song playing muffled from their headphones.

———-

Some guy is giving Lois a hard time about a deadline or something trivial. From her perspective, we see a scrunched up paper ball bounce off his head. The guy whips around to Clark- whose absentmindedly writing on a notepad.

Guy: what? you think you’re funny?

Clark, deadpan: no

The guy gets interrupted and as soon as he leaves, Clark and Lois burst out laughing, with her throwing the ball back at him.

—————

Lois proposes

—————

Jimmy: I’m gonna tweet Lex Luthor everyday until he adopts me so I can be like orphan Annie

————-

A group of coworkers in the break room: *talking about how hot Superman is and other weird sex innuendos*

Camera: *pans to Clark, beet red as he pours his coffee*

—————

“Ope”

“Jeez Louise”

“Oof dah”

“Let me just squeeze right past ya”

————-

I really love the idea of Clark genuinely needing his glasses to see but I’m not sure how that would work. In one comic, his glasses are a part of his space shuttle that his parents used to absorb the heat rays that he’d shoot off accidentally. But maybe instead the glasses temper his X-ray vision instead? Idk.

—————

For the love of god if you’re gonna do the whole fortress of Solitude/jor el hologram thing the least you could fucking do is give his mom a hologram thing too. What? She can’t put her consciousness on a USB port too? Come on.

————-

Clark and Lois don’t really hit it off right away. One of their first exchanges goes something like this:

[Lois, asking Clark a bunch of questions about where he’s from and what he did in high school and college. His answers are very run of the mill- smallville Kansas USA, marching band and yearbook, English major, etc. Clark sits at his desk, thoroughly irked]

Clark: do you interrogate everyone you meet?

Lois: only the boring ones.

Clark: oh? You like being bored?

Lois: oh, I’m not bored, Smallville. I just don’t think you’re as ho-hum as you make yourself out to be

Clark: well I am, sorry to disappoint.

Lois: mm-hmm.

————-

Also, other little scenes when Lois realizes Clark isn’t like other people. He kinda becomes her little side project.

-he’s really good with numbers and dates. Like, math prodigy good

-likes music. Knows everything about said music

-really good speller with the broadest vocabulary she’s every seen

-likes the crossword, sudoko, and jigsaw puzzles

-he types....really fast

-knows Spanish...and mandarin? And Arabic? And Klingon, god what a dork.

-she was right, he wasn’t boring, but he is sincere and...an angel

Basically, I just really want Lois to fall in love with Clark, not Superman

—————

In the beginning, Jimmy has some fancy camera with a flash so bright it’s blinding. Lois likes her coffee in a thermos because she likes it hot.

Later, when the big baddie invades, its in the daily planet. Jimmy and Lois scream, before jimmy disorients it with a picture and Lois throws her coffee at it and then yeets the whole thermos

The baddie is then knocked sideways by an office desk, and the pair whip around to find Superman.

————

Clark, talking to some secretary- possibly at lex core: hi, I’m looking for two, small, angry reporters-

*a crash, someone yelling*

Clark: nevermind, I found them.

————-

I really want a montage of Clark being An Angel (tm). Little things, he holds the elevator for people, gives a stranger directions, helps a delivery guy put something really heavy in the back of his truck, calls up an old buddy to congratulate them on their anniversary, says hello to the lady at the front desk or the person who delivers mail around the office. Just being Clark, being the kind of person who would be a superhero.

————-

Cat’s shitty ex shows up at the office. She’s terrified, and everyone else is unsure of what to do.

Mild Mannered Clark Kent has a frown on his face. He gets up- to Lois and Jimmys panic, who insist that he’s gonna get his ass kicked- and very calmly explains to the man that if he doesn’t vacate the premises this instant, he’ll remove him himself. The guy is very pissy now, he gets an inch from Clark’s face, spit spraying while he talks shit.

This comes to a stand still when Clark, wordlessly, picks him up and walks out with him over his shoulder. And just. Removes him.

When she’s ready, Clark walks Cat home.

————-

Clark falls in love with Lois during the Daily Planet’s karaoke night when she agrees to sing firework by Katy Perry with him and puts on the performance of her life

————-

Lois, after Clark confirms that he’s Superman: Ya know, Smallville, you really had me going with the normal person act.

Clark, a little hurt and confused: I am a normal person, Lo.

#superfamily #superman #superman headers #clark kent #lois lane #jimmy olsen #daily planet #dcau #dceu #dc headcanon #dc comics #dc universe #dc #clois #clark x lois

[protozoass]

I’ve been asked by many people to explain how dyslexia impacts my life. I can try and explain it, but know that I don’t have anything to compare it to. I only exist in my brain. Idk how it is for the rest of y'all :) Also, everyone experiences it differently. This is just how my head works. 

1) It doesn’t matter how much help you get, it never goes away. That’s not necessarily a bad thing, but it still can occasionally get in the way. For example, b’s and d’s in close proximity fuck me up. Sometimes I need to s t a r e at the word for 10-15 seconds before I can read it. It’s like some form of cognitive lag. 

2) If I don’t sing the ABC’s I will mess up the order. It’s inevitable and a pain in the ass as I work at a bookstore. 

3) I’m not a strong speller. This used to really embarrass me. Only recently have I accepted that it be what it be and ask for assistance. I’m constantly asking my housemates how to spell words. Same for word recall. It takes me more time to remember certain phrases. I usually just stand there going “uhhh wait uhhhh hold on” while snapping my fingers. 

4) I’m a big picture thinker. I’ll make connections between things that seemingly have nothing to do with each other. I think this is super fucking cool and see it  it as a superpower. 

5) ALL neurodivergent people are incredibly creative and adaptive. I will die on this hill. 

6) I cannot study alone. I need someone to ask me questions on the material. So many people in college were able to sit down, write shit down a couple of times, and have everything memorized. For me, studying is a herculean effort. I cannot pull all nighters. I cannot just study a little before the test. I need time and space to shove it into my brain and it takes so much fucking energy.

7) Same with skimming works. Can’t do it. I need to read the whole thing slowly in order to figure out what’s going on.

TLDR I have no idea how I finished college as a history major with the GPA that I had. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Use the skills given to you (tapping out words, scooping, breaking down words, multi sensory approaches, etc.) Yeehaw 

#dyslexia #neurodivergent

[crispycrimebrulee]

Hear Ye...Here Ye? Idk if its here or hear

Bout time i did this lmao

I’m 18

she/her

terrible speller

from the US of A

I’m a psychology major with a minor in bio (planning to do Psychiatry)

im pretty friendly

Im a scorpio (for those who find it important)

Im full of hubris

in college

you can call me Liz if you so wish to (or Heathen, i suppose)

favorite color is periwinkle

favorite word is juxtaposition/juxtapose

i collect rocks/sea shells and snapple bottle caps

i like traveling!!

i will tell you a story if you ask :) (it will most likely be the story about how i broke a chandelier, if that entices you)

[my-lady-knight]

Going off @hethrewmyheartinthecut​ and @deadendtracks​ posts about Lizzie, I wanted to explore the topic of sex work in of itself in Peaky Blinders, and specifically Tommy and Lizzie’s relationship to Lizzie’s sex work, and how the show has Tommy be unhesitant to utilize women *as* sex workers when a job requires it and acknowledge sex work as a part of the world they live in, a part of both the dirty underworld and the poverty of Small Heath, while also having him look down on sex work itself outside of its immediate utility to him (as a client or as part of his plans).

It’s unclear in season 1 if Tommy hadn’t needed to mend things with the Lees by offering up John’s hand in marriage if Tommy wouldn’t have deliberately inserted himself into John’s plan to marry Lizzie by propositioning her and catching her out when she agrees to it, after she said “the past is the past” and that she didn’t want to lose John. But it’s also clear that the fact that she *was* a sex worker, even if she intended to stop (and someone who Tommy himself had slept with in that context) prejudiced Tommy, and Arthur and Polly, against her as prospective bride to John. That the fact that Lizzie agreed to sleep with Tommy one last time for money means she doesn’t “really” love John, because if a woman loved a man, she wouldn’t continue having sex for money, even if that’s how she’s been earning her livelihood all this time and presumably had no other options available, even though Lizzie’s decision is both practical and desperate - it’s practical because in what universe do you turn down eight pounds when you’re poor as dirt and it’s desperate because Lizzie isn’t thinking about the future per se where she’ll be married to John and financially secure, she’s thinking about here and now and she needs to eat now, and so she continues to see other customers, “to keep the wolf from the door”.

None of which the show presents as “understandable” or “the other side of things” - the viewer has to do the work to understand Lizzie’s actions because even as the show allows Lizzie to yell at Tommy afterward for what he did, the show nevertheless affirms that, after John found out the truth and was upset over it, that Tommy was right to do it, and that Lizzie wouldn’t have been a good match for John.

In season 2, he continues to see Lizzie and pay for her services until he offers her a job as his secretary and tells her she can stop all the other work too “this time, no exceptions” - deliberately calling back to the last time she was going to stop seeing clients but accepted his proposition, but also identifying himself as the “no exceptions”. A command he has Lizzie break the moment he needs her to distract Field Marshall Russ to carry out the assassination. Again, the show lets Lizzie be angry and bitter that Tommy is reverting her back into a sex worker when she didn’t want to, but, as you said, never implicates Tommy as having done the wrong thing for using Lizzie to kill the field marshal and putting her in harm’s way such that she was beaten and almost raped, and as @marsza​ and @hethrewmyheartinthecut have said, the show doesn’t give Lizzie the space to reckon with the aftermath of it all the way it did with Polly.

(With Grace at least, Tommy went back for her - he dared to upset his plan to woo Kimber and and get him to agree to do business with him to rescue Grace from his clutches. But then again, he was falling in love with her, and Tommy was never in love with Lizzie.)

Tommy’s aversion to sex work as a profession (apart from when he’s utilizing the service himself) is IMO largely in the context of respectability and moving up - Lizzie was an unsuitable wife for John both because she continued to see clients and because the fact that she was a sex worker to begin with would have made their marriage a laughingstock. (Tommy, Polly, and Arthur’s first reaction to John’s announcement is to snicker uncontrollably.) And when she becomes Tommy’s secretary, he orders her to stop his sex work because she won’t need to anymore, the implication that she’ll be earning enough money and she’ll be working a respectable job. And she does become a woman of (relative) class with a high position in the company come seasons 3 and 4, to the point that Tommy pulls a “not like the other girls” on her when she tells him that nice girls aren’t sex workers and he says “you were”. It’s also why in season 5 when Mosley threatens Tommy with Lizzie’s past and propositions her, Tommy tells her she may know him from “before you became who you are” - Lizzie has elevated in status alongside Tommy such that her past is as a sex worker really is that now - the past. The past has finally become the past. And it’s also part of why in that moment Tommy tells Lizzie he’ll kill Mosley if he lays a hand on her, because Mosley is threatening to make her past become the present again.

(That moment in season 5 when Tommy tells Lizzie he still pays for her in his head is IMO not so much an instance of his specific hangups with sex work and more him lashing out in general, since in that scene she’s threatened to leave and reminded him that she now has almost as much power as he does over the house, the finances, and the kids by virtue of being his wife, and so Tommy, feeling threatened, attempts to undercut her. (This scene also includes Tommy’s crack at Lizzie that she couldn’t spell in the letter she wrote to him, which still makes no goddamn sense - she was his *secretary*, for years, presumably she was a decent speller after all that time??? Maybe that was meant to be another indication of Tommy’s poor mental health, but idk it didn’t make sense to me.))

It’s also season 5 where IMO the show finally allows Lizzie to use her past as a sex worker as a fact, as a part of who she is and was, without being a source of shame, and in some ways as a source of power - specifically in episode 3 in which Lizzie tells Tommy she’s decided not to file for a divorce, that since he says he still pays for her in his head, she’ll treat their marriage as the transaction it is - she gets financial safety and security and privilege, as well as sex with Tommy, he gets (from her perspective) whatever it is he gets out of his marriage to Lizzie - power? control? familiarity? a mother for his kids? Regardless, if Lizzie is still Tommy’s sex worker, then he will have to pay a price (that he doesn’t fuck anyone in the house or soon after being with the kids and he lets her into his head sometime).  Everything is for sale. She is always for sale. By season 5, she may have become respectable, she may no longer fuck men for shillings, but she’s decided to once again make Tommy pay for the privilege of having her in his life. 

I’m not sure how to wrap this up, but suffice to say, the show doesn’t do right by Lizzie as a sex worker in seasons 1 and 2 and Tommy doesn’t do right by her in that context pretty much all the time - even when Tommy develops IMO a genuine fondness for Lizzie, he still uses her on an emotional level without reciprocating or minding the feelings she has for him. The show falls down in that it fails to write Lizzie as a sex worker outside of being specifically Tommy’s sex worker, and so every bit of her sex work in seasons 1 and 2 is processed through Tommy’s POV, which is in turns uncomplimentary or pragmatic without much care for the consequences to Lizzie. Again, season 5 is the only season where we see her relating to her sex work through her own lens and not Tommy’s. 

#I take waaaay too long to write meta #and so can't directly participate in conversations as they happen in this format #anyway here's a thing #Lizzie Stark #disaster human Tommy Shelby #Peaky Blinders

[tardisbadwolfrose]

17 Questions 17 People

I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I’M GONNA TAG 17 PEOPLE IT’S FINE I’M FINE!

Thank you, @leverage-ot3 for tagging me. I like answering questions even if the tagging part makes me crazy.

nickname: OK SO!!! WHO TF REALLY KNOWS? Y-shev is the most common one right now, I think. 

zodiac: virgo. Do I fit the “Classic virgo?” F no. But that’s technically what I am.

height: 5″6 and 1/2. Technically I’m considered tall. Technicalities are liars.

Hogwarts House: I like saying I’m Gryffindor. IDK if I am. I might be Hufflepuff. I might be Ravenclaw. People see me in different ways. I see me in different ways. I keep saying I’m Gryffindor bc it’s easier than admitting I have no idea. All I know is that I am not really a Slytherin. 

Last Thing I googled: “If you pass out from coughing, do you keep coughing while unconscious?” ...It’s for research. For fanfiction purposes. (THe answer was, google has no idea. I’m assuming probably not. I didn’t know though bc it didn’t make sense either way so I just... wrote around it. Let’s pretend it never came up)

song stuck in my head: I’ll be Good by Jaymes Young. It has a lot of Eliot feels. I’m dying a little bit.

number of followers: 275

amount of sleep: Not enough. Never enough. And yet, at the same time, probably too much.

lucky number: 7. It’s literally in my name. In hebrew, my name is Elisheva. Sheva is hebrew for 7. My cousin tried to tell me I had no reason to pick 7 as my lucky number when we were kids. I was like... bitch??? What???

dream job: Actress/director/writer. professional napper. Critic. Girl of the world. worldwide respected person. (AKA I’ll probably end up as a teacher or a librarian bc I can NOT figure out how to do what I actually want.)

wearing: terry cloth sweatpants and a t-shirt with glittery words on it. It’s nighttime. I’m going to sleep.

favorite song: DO PEOPLE JUST... HAVE FAVORITE SONGS??? WHO ARE YOU AND HOW ARE YOU DECIDING? HOW DO YOU DOOOOOOO IITTTTTT?????

favorite instrument: Harps are really fucking cool okay? I also like flutes, violins, pianos, and drums. Xylophones are kitschy and cool too. 

aesthetic: Depressed, anxiety-ridden bi disaster. I like leather and glitter and dying and being dead and denim and flowers and combat boots and sandals and... Okay, so i don’t think I have an aesthetic.

favorite author: right now, it’s Becky Chambers. “The Long Way to a Small Angry Planet” is a GIFT!!! Malindo Lo is also super amazing.

favorite animal noises: purring is everything. also, dog barks.

random: I spent all day  sorting pictures in my grandparent’s house bc we’re cleaning it out to sell and I figured out that I only really care about pictures when I’m in them and I look cute. I also figured out that until the age of five, I was V CUTE. And then I turned into the disaster I am today. I also found one of the first books I ever wrote. I was 8. It was about a girl named Anna who also happened to be a princess that eveyrone loved, and one day she found an apple tree, picked an apple, took a bite, and found a hole in it. Like a worm’s hole. There was no worm. The end. Fun fact: I spelled “series” and “hungry” wrong. I was a terrible speller at 8. 

tags: .... AHHHHHHHHHH OKAY SO @forevercharmed320 @breathlessammy @thesevenumbrellas @peanutbutterradio @jay-day-97 @the-fifth-marauder101 @imsososssssscared @gallifreanpotterhead @koshertaako... and IDK if you see this and want me to tag you, DM me and I’ll edit to add you I guess?????

[i-need-sleep-bitch]

Your title says ins't instead of isn't and idk if it's on purpose or not but it's cracking me up

I never noticed if you couldn't tell I'm a shitty speller

#q

[honeyyxxd]

STORY TIMEEEEEE

you know what's kinda sad ? ok so I have no friends , but as i was going to a new school I thought this would be a good chance to make some , right ? so i did .. i made about 3 friends, which to me is a lot , but we aren't very close.. like I can feel that it is going to be temporary .. But anyways , I never leave the house or talk to anyone and they know this , that is the point i am trying to make.. so one day i was in school and one of my friends was acting very agressive w me , so they next day i was talking to my other friend ( who i'm closer to ) and I mentoned something about her not liking me ( completly joking around ) They next day that friend came back to school bc she was sick the day before and we were talking and she brought up how I said I though she didn't like me bc our other friend told her that i said that , and she got v agressive about it like ATTACKED me for it .. i was still trying to smile and laugh about it but i lowkey wanted to die. She wassaying things like IF I DIDN'T LIKE YOU I WOULDN'T HAVE DONE ALL OF THOSE THINGS FOR YOU ...I WOULDN'T HAVE LET YOU COME INSIDE OF MY HOUSE .. which i thought was pretty obvious but anyways I was still laughing and smiling so the tears wouldn't fall, until she said something that actually shattered my heart .. She said " Is this why you don't have any friends ?" My smile dropped. everybody who was standing around us just paused . I made a joke trying to ease the tension and embarresment but my heart was broken. I just wanted to cry , but I had to hold it in. It may not seem like much , and I know others have been told much worse than that , but thst really hurt me .. idk just had to get that off of my chest. sorry if this was hard to follow I'm not the best writter/speller lol

#storytime #heartache #friends #lonely #heartbreak #sad #depressed #words #no friends