#if it happens again i WILL kill myself

[loserdiaz]

hi again april!

i saw your art it was so good! and your edits, you're so very skilled <3

learning portuguese is so real

how are you today? what are some of your favourite movies/shows? do you have any hobbies? what's your aesthetic (like idk if this makes sense lol)

💌 anon valentine 💌

omg anon valentine!!! hiiiii

also, im in my second lesson of portuguese and i already know how to say eu gosto de mulheres (which, if i said it right SHOULD mean i like women and that's all i really know how to say, i think. what else could i possibly need???)

im good and hope u r too! some of my favorite movies are mamma mia, hamilton, mean girls (both the 2004 version and the 2024 movie musical), 10 things i hate about you, she's the man, the hunger games (all the thg movies, including tsobas). and my favorite shows are 911 (duh), grey's anatomy, yellowjackets, trying, the artful dodger, the rookie, new girl.

my aesthetic is a pathetic gay girl if she were also deeply fucked up in the head and also a fucking annoying bitch. hope this helps!

#this is my fourth attempt at trying to answer this ask #it's cursed bc everytime im about to press post something happens like my phone dies or tumblr crashes #if it happens again i WILL kill myself #anon #anon valentine 💌 #april gets mail 💌

[pictureday2005]

DONT REPOST THIS thanks

#home #mine #turning reblogs off and taking it out of tags for a while #i might just delete it #it feels fucking dehumanizing none of you were here nobody knows what happened in these walls #even the people who live there now who probably trashed the place #neither did the people who took that grand piano out in pieces #none of you will ever understand how much i lost when they took me from here #that little girl is dead shes fucking dead and im living in some cruel imitation of her #and every time ive tried to kill myself its been so i could go home again #but i cant ill nevet go home shell never go home home isnt real anymore #r

[murk888]

Aro 👉👈

I DIDN'T HAVE MY TWILIGHT STAGE IN TIME, OKAY?!? Now I watch the films while dying from laughter most of the time, their faces I can't-

MICHAEL SHEEN >>>>> 🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐

#i liked frollo and snape what did i/you expect.. #GUYS. GUYS. HEAR ME OUT- #sketch #art #digital art #artists on tumblr #twilight #twilight saga #volturi #aro volturi #michael sheen #one word about me having father issues and i will fucking kill everyone in the room and then myself #jk i know i have them☠️ #mommy issues too #bruh #sorry spamton lovers #its human time #or vampire time? #кровосися короче #hahahaaa i will suck your di- blood i mean blood #drawing characters who are extremely rarely liked #again #it happens every time i swear #spamton is the exception #he's popular and liked by lots of people fr #true big shot indeed #no but real Aro is nuts tbh #everyone who I like is!☠️ so I just change their characters to my own liking (and suddenly everyone becomes psychologically healthy hmmm) #be cringe be free #have a nice day everyone

[kaltacore]

the way cole makes varric conflicted is so delicious i think. most of the characters are uncomfortable around him because they're genuinely terrified of demons and the fade and magic in general but varric is a completely different case. the thing is, he doesn't see cole as a demon at all because he doesn't want to.

he acts like he doesn't care about this stuff. that's a little weird kiddo around here and he wants to befriend him. teach him something even. why not. that's a little guy who's a little too good with knives and can't pick up a single social clue at the same time.

but there it is. the "he could have been a person" line if cole is made more spirit. varric is so upset about it because it's not like he saw cole as, well, a spirit who got a little too human. for varric, he was a human first, a weird kid second. the spirit part didn't even come into consideration because. well. it would make him question things. you know where it goes.

every time he starts bitching about anders he brings up justice. justice drove him mad. justice took over him. justice this, justice that. justice is a scapegoat because the thought that someone varric was friends with was actually willing to blow up the chantry and it wasn't just some evil demon's wish is a very unsettling one. varric's friends may be crazy but they're cool and make no irreversible life decisions of that extent, don't they? blondie turned out this way because he let a demon possess him and make him do terrible things. completely out of the blue.

it's either varric's ex-friend has never been driven crazy by some inherently evil entity and there was a whole other person around him all along and that anger he used to mock was coming from the same place as compassion's urge to become a killer or that little weird but kind kid he started to care about has never been and will never be a real kid. he can't have both. a bitter pill to swallow for someone who has never picked a side in his life

#got a lot of cole thoughts yesterday. can't help myself #anyway. varric really must have not just apostate issues but also spirit issues now. a whole existential crisis #i mean. yeah. he was backstabbed (from his perspective) by his apostate buddies twice #but he also almost adopted a spirit guy. and before that he never took another one seriously for 6 years up until he and his host teamed up #and set varric's favourite city on fire. well i guess he has some mental gymnastics to do from time to time now #because cole is nice. he also kills people but who doesn't these days. also these people are bad so it's fine. #he wouldn't blow up a building for a greater goal or something. or would he if he becomes a spirit again #or maybe it's not about spirits and humans at all. i guess varric would rather not. find this out. #ofc his problem with anders is understandable on a character level and it's not only about justice. but he brings him up. well. a lot #and he never was interested in justice as a separate person. he was like. an evil unhinged anders for him. and then cole happened. and. yk #cole #varric tethras #dragon age

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

wooooo warlock Wally and his delightful totally normal patron

#in my mind home can change his form drastically #like they only have hands or a humanoid form if they so please #theyre simple a writhing pit of darkness with red eyes/teeth #i imagine that when they first met home had zero affection for wally #it was purely an 'im using you. youre nothing but a puppet to me' #but then yk time passes shit happens #and before you know it home is all 'if anything happened to wally id kill everyone in this room and then myself' #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #and yes i Will restate their dynamic over and over and over again bc i love it and i love repetition #to home wally is.... a companion. a pet. a puppet. a home. a friend. a lover (kinda its complicated). a host. a plaything. an accomplice <3 #and then wally looks up at this horrific Demon and goes 'my home <3 @:)' #he doesnt get why everyone is afraid of home... hes just a lil guy c'mahn.... #(except hes not little at all and the home shown here has scaled itself down to hang more easily with wally) #wally likes to paint for home! his paintings are the only physical objects home keeps in their house form! #theyre like 'yeah you can drive nails into my body so i can keep pieces of you with me. thats cool no no it doesnt hurt at all i promise'

[haemosexuality]

why are so many adventure time fans just straight up stupid. about how stories work. and i dont even mean kids i mean like adult fans just with the absolutely dumbest takes

#i was watching a streamer react to f&c which ok i admit i brought this upon myself #but oh my godddddd #''i think farmworld finn's wife was pb'' even ignoring that one of his kids looks exactly like human huntress wizard WHAT #WHY IN THE HELL WOULD THAT BE TRUE. AFTER THEYVE SPENT S I X S E A S O N S SHOWING WHY PBXFINN COULD NEVER BE A THING #LITERALLY SEVERAL SEASONS SHOWING 1-PB WILK NEVER LIKE FINN BACK THEY ARE INCOMPATIBLE 2-FINN HAS MOVED ON HE HAS ACCEPTED THAT AND GOTTEN #OVER HIS CHILDHOOD LOVE ON HER AND ONLY AFTER THAT THEY WERE ABLE TO FORM A FRIENDSHIP #THATS LIKE ONE OF THE MAIN THINGS OF THE SHOW #WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY TAKE THAT BACK AND MAKE HIM HAVE FUCKING KIDS WITH HER IN AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE????????? #''did prismo just die in the end of episode 4??? oh no what a mystery'' oh yeah dude they totally killed off one of the most important #characters in like 5 seconds with almost no ceremony. without even acknowledging it. thats totally how character deaths work #this is totally plausible #''what the fuck im gonna get so mad of simon actually becomes ice king again'' ARE YOU STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD #HAVE YOU NEVER HEARD OF ''CREATING A CONFLICT AND THEN RESOLVING IT'' #HOLY FUCKING SHIT #sorry this is making me go insane a little bit. #adventure time #fionna and cake #every time i see some guy mention pbxfinn and a thing that could have happened i fly into a rage. you are so fucking stupid. you have the #mental capabilities of a child. never open your mouth again. #as a thing* that could have happened

[br1ghtestlight]

During a neighborhood block party, Linda makes a mistake that could threaten the life of her favorite alley raccoon in the "The (Raccoon) King and I" episode of BOB'S BURGERS airing Sunday, Nov 19 (9:00-9:30 PM ET/PT) on FOX. BOB’S BURGERS © 2023 by 20th Television

#literally screamed NOOOOO 😭😭😭 when i read the description for this episode #if anything bad happens to the raccoons in this.episode im killing everybody in this room and then myself #little king trashmouth. AND HIS HUSBAND GARY. AND BIG BABY PUDDING SNATCHER AND HER BABY RACCOON KIDS #andy and ollie return in this episode yayy!! and rudy again. season 14 is a big moment for rudy fans #txt #bob's burgers

[nergiigantes]

Oh yeah! Have you seen my new darling, precious Aurene? from the wonderful @mellifexfarm

#pigeon #fancy pigeon #lucerne gold collar #precious aurene #ive only had her for a week but if anything would happen to her i would kill everyone in this room and then myself #sorry for tagging you again 😭

[embraceweird]

I love Twelve Brooks and their froggy themed midsummer revel!

#wbn interlude #wbn fanart #umora #I love these three so much 🐸 #I hope we see them again #and Buckles 🥺 #I've only hade Buckles for a day but if anything happened to him I would kill everyone in this room and then myself #worlds beyond number #wbn pod #wbn fireside chat #wbn #brenan lee mulligan #erika ishii #lou wilson #aabria iyengar

[atalanteart]

I'm back and I'm not dead (yet)

I discovered Murderbot Diaries this summer and I finished book five and six about a mouth ago (I was devastated).

So I tried to draw the main crew for fun !

I really like the way I drew Mensah and Ratthi. The other are okay, I struggled to draw Murderbot because I usually see them with the armor (yes I'm very lazy for imagine them), but sometimes I make an effort and it turns out to be inspired by Markus from DBH- (hate myself for that)

Anyway, hope you like it ! If I can I will try to draw more stuff about the book because it s so freaking good and I love it so much

#AtalanteArt #my artwork #murderbot diaries #murderbot diaries book #murderbot diaries fanart #murderbot #book fanart #this book is so good #read it #you won't regret it #the main character is an anxious depressed autistic ace killing machine who only wants to watch TV shows in peace #i relate #if anything happens to them I kill everyone and then myself #I think I nailed it for the design of Ratthi and Mensah #my dyslexic ass just realised that it's Mensah and not Mensha #now I will disappear again cause I have work to do for art school #I m very busy so sorry if I don't have time to post

[cathalbravecog]

taco bell bong sfx

#color palette art btw!! i like didnt allow myself to add my own colors #all this is mixed and taken from the pallete #OR with the use of layer effects #looks nice that way i think... #it was like gonna be a painted experimental test doodle thing???? #bc ivebeen feeling a bit rendery again? except using the basic brush and adding texture with brush strokes #KILLS MY HAND BTW DONT DO THIS WITH BAD PAINS LIKE I DO LOOOL #(HAS NOT SEEN A DOCTOR ABOUT IT. BEEN HAPPENING FOR A YEAR) (IM IN AGONY) (KEEPS MAKING AMBITIOUS ART ANYWAY BC I LIKE IT) #BUT LIKE.. i was gonna do like. several managers #not just ben. several. i was hoping for at least 2 that day. just a painted doodle smthn nice. WRONG! #YOURE GUZMA CATHAL SPADES SPAMTONGENDER OF COURSE YOU OVERDETAIL IT! #BUT ANYWAYE... yeah.... i think the result is nice and im proud #ok what else did i want to say before i make these notes a diary again #uhhh #oh yeah. i plan other mgrs like this but i have other stuff in the works rn #that one brain doodle and high roller again sorry the obsession doesnt end with a few drawings #woops! okay to the actual tags hehe ........................... #toontown corporate clash #toontown #bellringer #guz art #oh thats it oop

[arom-antix]

Yuri!!! On Cards collaboration!

So, I know I've been pretty inactive recently, at least in posting my own art but for good reason! In the Yuri on the Web Discord server artists and writers alike have all collaborated to illustrate a deck of cards and write stories for each of them. And as a resident artist myself, I couldn't not take the opportunity to draw for this project UuU

Oh and if anyone was wondering, yes, I am to blame for inflicting this giant project onto the server BUT I REGRET NOTHING AND NEITHER WILL YOU IF YOU CHECK OUT EVERYONE ELSE'S WORKS. Trust me, they are amazing! The masterpost can be found here!

GIANT thanks to @lines-on-ice and @yaoiconnoisseur for helping so much and being amazing co-administrators and basically making this entire thing possible! You really saved me from my own overambition XD

The guidelines for this project can be found on the Yuri!!! On Cards blog as can the masterpost with all the links to everything. All the art that gets posted to Tumblr will also be reblogged by the blog.

With all that said, here's the actual art I made! (Break for those who don't want their dash to die UuU)

Okay, I lied. First, I'd heavily recommend for you to check out the guideline posts, both the general and artists' and even the writers' if you're up to it to get a grasp of the perimeters of this project. There's also some vague lore and AU stuff about the whole thing to find which will give you context for why the art looks the way it does to a certain extent.

You can also just jump right in and take everything as I ramble about it which, I mean, I won't stop you, the guideline posts aren't short. I will not blame you. You can still just look at the art. If that's your choice, go on ahead!

First up!

Ace of the Kingdom Otabek, The Deep Shadow

Being of the Kingdom of Diamonds, he's skillful and sharp. He moves quietly as a shadow and is just as mysterious.

Okay, I can't comment much on how he actually is, you'll have find that out by reading his fic(let?). They were supposed to be ficlets but as writers tend to do, none of us could manage that so take "ficlet" with a big grain of salt for every written work.

I've, by the way, not read any of the ficlets for this project beside my own so I'll get to experience the reveal with y'all and I'm gonna perish waiting.

Anyway, about the art. The yellow of course comes from the Kingdom of Diamonds' designated colour. As for the outfit, it's based on this handsome fellow I found who's supposed to be a Kazakh archer which I thought fit Otabek's whole shadow thing perfectly (and Writingfromtheshadow's fic Equivalent Exchange has me in an iron grip and I don't want to be released).

If there are any Kazakhs in the audience, you are free to laugh at me for any inaccuracies or missteps, I am but a humble little not-Kazakh, I don't expect to have gotten it all right UuU

Next up!

King Yuuri, Wanderer of Dreams

The ruler of his realm, he is as the mind flows. Kind and benevolent yet of fickle thoughts, the spirals of the subconscious are ones he both masters and bows to.

Again, gonna be waiting for his fic with everyone else but like. It's Yuuri. Anxiety is kind of a given.

In terms of art, I don't know if you can tell but this was where I started writing my will because oh my stars, what did I get myself into. If you follow me or my art, you'll know that I don't draw lineless. Like ever. And apparently I decided this project on a deadline that others were depending on me making look nice was the place to go all out.

And the worst part is that I'm not even mad at it so I have no argument to not do it again.

Anyway, the blue is from the designated colour of spades and yes, you've guessed right as to why this colour was picked for this suit. I'm predictable, leave me alone. As for the rest, the outfit is inspired by traditional Japanese dress that the Internet told me about (again, Japanese may laugh at me all they want UuU Your culture is very cool but also there was so much info, I hope I got it at least a bit right).

Also I spent like eight hours looking at hanakotoba for this and I've never been this happy about a decision I regretted so much while I was having to draw that many flowers. And you know I had to include The Gay Flower^(TM).

The Japanese iris is now Yuuri's btw.

All the flowers used are: Japanese irises, Jasmine flowers, Forget-me-nots, cherry blossoms, white roses, green carnations and blue roses (Viktor's flower. Read: I am predictable).

And finally!

Queen Minako, Tamer of Minds

Of the Realm of Dreams, she sees your fears, the snares laid by the subconscious and, strict and blunt as she is, she clears a path for the motivated and lets no potential go to waste.

Again, haven't read a word of the fic.

This one was by far the one that I made the fastest and I would've loved to do more with it but like deadlines. I'm gracefully skipping over the fact that I set the deadline and am fully to blame for being late.

But, as with Yuuri, blue is for spades. And since I wanted her to have a leotard but still match Yuuri and make her outfit look even slightly Japanese inspired, sheer fabric to the rescue! With cherry blossoms, of course, because CSP had the pattern preinstalled UuU

And I don't know if it worked but I tried to make her hair both look like her signature style, traditional Japanese hairstyles I found on the good ol' Interwebs and then kind of a spade by having that middle stick be the stem and the hair the spade's butt.

Also this probably goes without saying but the ranks of the characters are just titles. Yuuri is not married to Minako, she is just the Queen and he the King, don't worry.

Again, a BIG thank you to everyone who also participated, it was so fun to work together on this and see everyone's progress! Nic and Lil, you're amazing, thank you so much for everything you've done for this!

And to everyone who's made it this far, thank you for sticking around and please go check out all the other art and the ficlets! I promise it's worth it!

Masterpost | AO3 collection

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA this project almost killed me #i am so infinitely happy about everyones contributions they are so lovely and i am gonna die happy now #but seriously what idiot decided to try a new and more detailed rendering style on a deadline #its me #i am that idiot and if i had a time machine past me would have gotten the fattest slap #idk if im ever gonna do that again but if i know myself at all itll happen because this wasnt disastrous enough a result to dissuade me #and most of it im pretty happy with #also i had so much fun with otabek #i got to play with light and texture and light and those smoke tendrils in the back and light and that fabric and light and #also rendering minako was a BLAST even if i churned her out on severe sleep deprivation my only energy being spite for my own mortality #oh and yes it was a this we decided that the aces should somehow incorporate the king of the given suit so the anger kitten is there #in otabeks i mean #now ON TO ANOTHER PROJECT #THATS... ON A DEADLINE #UH #yuri on cards #yuri on ice #yoi #yuri on ice fanart #yoi fanart #fanart #art #arom antix art #arom antix #otabek altin #katsuki yuuri #okukawa minako #collab

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

oop oc concept posting! this bad bitch is for an original story of mine - the main characters are all from different "genres", and i needed One More to round out the group and well. puppet-y guy fit the bill! i can't decide on a name!

she's from a children's show that had a western themed rock group that would provide lessons through the power of Music! she was the band guitarist until she fuckin. fell into the labyrinth & got corrupted by her found family of idiot assholes

#SHE IS EVERYTHING TO ME. IVE HAD HER FOR ONE HOUR #if anything happens to her ill kill everyone in this room and then myself #she's LOUD she's CONFIDENT she's got an INFERIORITY COMPLEX her catchphrase is HAWYEE #she has a HORSE her LOYAL STEED her BESTIE who has KILLED BEFORE & WILL AGAIN #she is inspired by: cowboys. 80s rock. and roosters #in my mind she can bend reality a little so she can just pull objects out from behind her back #like her trusty guitar! and lasso! and hat that she never wears bc her hair is Too Big! #scribble salad #forced idiots <3 #oc #original character #i think i'll try to make her look more... puppety down the line #we'll see! she rounds out the group nicely i think #lets see for genres we have: slasher / sci-fi / high fantasy / horror / bizarre / ghost / puppet #anyway ill be So Honest #she is entirely based off of the tiny Clip i have in my mind #of her about to (badly) sing a song w/ her guitar after the group fucks something up #she gets One strum in. then Aces (featured in the post) grabs her guitar and hits her with it full force. like a baseball bat <3 #and i was immediately like Ah Yes Perfect She Fits In So Well <3 #it is important to me that everyone in the group gets on each others nerves <3

[likesummerrainn]

TNA Hard To Kill | 01.13.24

#TNA Wrestling #Nic Nemeth #dolph ziggler #tna hard to kill 2024 #my gifs #marie #well. i think i'm a ziggler girl again. #idk man my favorite thing is released wwe guys showing up in new promotions looking rejuvenated and renewed and reborn and all that #like he just looks SO happy???? and who am i to deny myself that... #anyways i'm excited to see how it goes! #although i do wonder what happens now cause he was in WK last week? and fought finlay so. good for him

[worstloki]

Thor was really going through it in Phase 1

#Loki having a mental breakdown and Thor's there like I don't have the capacity for one of those xx #Loki shaking crying throwing up: i am going to kill everyone. and then you. and then myself. #Thor: i feel you bro #Loki: you--what?!??? why are you--Thor get away from me. Are you DRUNK????? Right NOW???????? #Thor: shhhhhshhshhh tell me again about how you're going to kill me ~ #actually scrap phase 1 that's thor every phase he basically had depression in thor 2 and then IW and Endgame happened #i don't think he'd be very bothered by Loki threatening him he'd be like well at least it;s Loki it could've been a stranger

[itspileofgoodthings]

also I had a breakthrough today that I had in fact overthought a Specific Problem to Death and that I had created a monster in my own mind and that’s why it felt like I was being eaten alive every time I tried to solve it.

#not to put too fine a point on it but that’s what happened with the whole is Maria going to become a nun question tbh #and I needed a counselor to say to me objectively and yet also crucially without any knowledge of me or my past: #you have overthought this and now you’re terrified of it #anyway it’s so obvious but it came home to me today. slowly. #like it was just like. Oh. You did it again #you’re terrified of this because you have thought of every possibility and every outcome and every twist and turn and shadow—- #until it has become a bloated demon in your mind that is totally separated from reality #while made up of real facts and details! and tbh I know it’s a common problem #but the anxiety chokehold I can put myself in is something that is so impressive and so disturbing #I can render myself absolutely helpless through the meanderings of my own thoughts #and what makes it worse—immeasurably worse—is that I get OUT of problems through careful thought and analysis #I’m programmed that way #so I can’t escape it by the usual means. I have to back away from the monster and see it and NAME it and then it can die away. #and only THEN can I apply my usual ways of going about things. I don’t know it just all clicked today #these past few days have just been bringing it all to a fever pitch for me #anyway I guess it’s also important to me that I still be allowed to be analytical about it!!! I have to use my brain!!!!!!! #in my desperation I have tried to shut it off to feel only with my heart. To try to catch the whisper of God’s voice in the wind #but tbh I am meant to use the gifts I have! But only in the right context #and that’s only after the demon has been killed or more accurately —deflated #my counselor has been so good about this tbh. she’s so matter of fact and blunt and salt of the earth and also she sees how my mind works #and wants me to be able to use it!! #so I’m just going to tell her that I did the bad thing with this other problem and can she help me find a way forward #ANYWAY THE MONSTERS TURNED OUT TO BE JUST TREES