#if that's not me intentionally trying to avoid upsetting people Idk what is

[egg-emperor]

ya know I just think that if I write a villain being evil and doing fucked up stuff like Eggman (stuff he does in the actual games, might I add) people should assume by default that I do not genuinely endorse or support what I'm writing without having to slap 50 big disclaimers on it saying I know it's bad every time. like yeah I know, that's why I'm writing the villain doing it. and you should know too. as long as I tag it correctly there shouldn't be an issue

like there's no reason to assume that it reflects my personal beliefs and interests irl unless I specifically say that I think we should all do this shit irl, or that I already do myself, or think real people who do this shit are cool or something but I'm not at all. yet people are still quick to jump to the worst conclusions of "endorsement" without thinking about it for a second and realizing that claim is baseless and an awful assumption to make about someone

also making a silly concept with humor involved or saying I love Eggman being fucked up and evil and find it entertaining doesn't mean I'm saying the stuff he's doing is okay irl either, even though I do think it's badass, cool, epic, sexy, fun, interesting, and entertaining from him as a character and the concepts in a story. because guess what? his evil in the games is literally supposed to be entertaining too

there's no difference. if my portrayal of his evil and the entertainment I find in it is endorsement then it is when the game writers do it too because they write him doing the exact same things I do, for the purpose of entertainment too. and they actually make money off writing those evil concepts and that evil character too and I don't. where are the complaints for them portraying these things and making profit?

I feel like this shouldn't have to be said but I feel like it's a part of how people tend to heavily project onto their favorites these days so they think I must be too and that if I write Eggman doing something, it means I genuinely agree and support it and that it reflects myself. and just the way that fandom has become very sanitized and purified with a demand for wholesome these days, so anything darker is assumed to be wrong or intentionally upsetting

but sorry because my mind is forever in the edgy grimdark gritty dark era from the early 2000s - early 2010s where all my stuff would've been very welcome because it was everywhere on DA and YouTube and in fanfic and it was my shit because I'm an edgelord sue me lol. but I never contributed and finally want to now and it's unfortunate that I don't have the peace and freedom to do so as I would've back then- but as long as it's tagged accordingly I should

#plus I purposefully do not post my darkest concepts here for a reason #like when they're too gory or especially violent and torturous and stuff #I'm literally working on a blog that compiles my dark content from this blog and post my darker stuff #and I will promo it here when I feel ready #some of y'all already found it too #I made that and always try to tag accordingly and fix it as soon as I realize/ask #if that's not me intentionally trying to avoid upsetting people Idk what is #doesn't mean I have to stop altogether #and it should go without saying that I don't endorse it #I'm only sadomasochistic consensually and safely irl #but let me have fun with my fucked up evil guy Eggman doing stuff he does in the games pls #sorry just rambling until I have the energy to get up and do something else #chronic pain kicking my ass HARD rn #dr eggman #eggman #dr robotnik #dr. eggman #my post #important

[shorthaltsjester]

once again, begging, BEGGING everyone in the cr fandom to stop making posts critiquing how the fandom is being weird about one cast member by saying "if it was x, the fandom would love this/hate this even more." it turns out the cr fandom contains Multitudes of weird ass people and just because you haven't seen those reactions (or, even funnier if you are making claims about what the fandom does/does not do to other cast members, were not in the fandom during c1/c2) does not mean they do not exist. like there are certainly different social dynamics and injustices at play in some of the reactions the audience has to cast members, but almost always it is less a case of misogyny/queerphobia and more a case of people forgetting that storytelling is about understanding choices you would not yourself make and watching characters develop through conflict/struggle.

like, you can have the most salient point to make in the world about how shitty the reaction of the fandom to a certain cast member's (not their character, but the cast member as a person) choices but you immediately undo that if you make a claim like "if liam did this, the fandom would love it." perhaps the part of the fandom you are in, but certainly not the fandom that wanted to persecute him for having vax choose keyelth over gilmore, certainly not the fandom that consistently manufactured actual dislike between him and marisha throughout campaign 2 because of character choices.

likewise you might be absolutely right in criticizing the choices of the character that one of the cast members is playing, but if then in turn you say, "if this was a female cast member, everyone would hate it." my brother in christ, You are already the person who hates that character choice and it Wasn't a female cast member, so what is the truth? unless you have the statistics on the opinions every person who engages with the cr fandom has, truly just. you can make your point without appealing to a sense of misogyny/queerphobia/favouritism or whatever that you have no actual grounds for believing exists except for the fact that misogyny in general exists.

this isn't to say that things like misogyny don't influence how people react to things, all of our opinions are mediated through the social and material conditions in which we live. obviously, misogyny exists. however, truly, truly, the bigger problem in the cr fandom (at least on twitter/tumblr, idk about reddit and that is a choice I've intentionally made) is the consistent expectation that the cast adheres to what so many fans call 'comfort media' and a requirement that one's own opinions be validated by what the majority of the fandom believes (which aside from the obvious, is also an absurd expectation because trying to gauge the 'majority' of the cr fandom would be truly so much data). the cast have made it explicit many times that they value things like high stakes and big risks in their storytelling, and sometimes that means stupid character choices, character deaths, or interparty conflict. so much of the fandom has decided to engage with cr regardless of this and then gets upset when the liveplay of a ttrpg built around conflict contains conflict. similarly, people who claim to enjoy this conflict then get pissed off when other people in the fandom disagree with them and give away the ghost that what they want is validation by arguing that it is somehow problematic for the other side to have their opinions. it is much easier to blame any lack of satisfaction on how, actually, your section of the fandom has the right opinion and, actually, if everyone else wasn't queerphobic/misogynistic then they would see the proverbial light.

anyway, this is just me ranting out of both literal and metaphorical exhaustion with the "persuasive" (heavy quotes) tactics that some people in this fandom use. please look up some tips on like, how to avoid logical fallacies or formal critical thinking or just like. state your opinions and say you dislike the other options without thinking you need to provide some (often blatantly and horribly incorrect) rationale for how you're right. accept the pretentious bastard within yourself and stop seeking validation for your opinions in the fandom around you, your opinions are already correct if you assume them to be.

#yes this is about the recent ashton shit #yes ashton is a bastard. yes much of the fandom hates what he did. another bunch of the fandom Loves what he did. #i promise if liam had done it the same would be true it would just be different parts of the fandom #likewise if say laura had done something like that it might be opposite parts of the fandom than the opinions on tals choice as ashton #but the fandom would very much still feature both opinions heavily #anyway from one pretentious and exhausted grad student to a multitude of people in the fandom who have accurate things to say that get #undone by their false generalized claims about the fandom. you can just say something is fucked up/fantastic without having to address at #all the people who disagree #critical role #on fandom #my post

[sophieinwonderland]

(Anon who was talking abt trace)

That's a totally different subject. I will go ahead and disclaim something: my stance on endos is neutral. I really don't care the origin of people's systems, it's not even my business honestly. I think trauma and disordered only spaces need to be respected, as well as endo only spaces, and general politeness and respect for shared spaces.

You can't compare apples to oranges. I stand by that there's no good excuse to knowingly do something that hurts people. There's always a solution.

Don't get along with anti endos? Stay in separate spaces. If someone else isn't respecting that, they're an asshole, block them and move on. If they're upset by you, keep your distance and leave them alone.

I promise there's always a way if you look for one. Idk. It just rubs me wrong when ppl have a "sucks to be you" mentality and insists that the world is "you against me," "either you or it's me" because that's only the case when people make it.

This was longer than I meant it to be, sorry. I'm not going to waste any more of your time on this subject. I apologize for pushing it for so long anyways

And what if goals conflict so completely that no compromise can be reached?

I agree that people shouldn't invade spaces that aren't for them when we're talking about isolated groups. I don't believe non-disordered systems should be in spaces specifically for DID and OSDD systems, for instance. But what about more general areas?

What about when anti-endogenic and endogenic systems are together in a space geared towards something completely unrelated?

I have a dream. It's a distant dream, and one that will take a long time and a lot of effort to build. I see a world where plurals won't have to hide. Where we can have our names and genders recognized just as surely as the transgender community seeks to have theirs, even if ours change based on whoever is fronting at the moment.

To systems who are convinced that we're not real, the idea of endogenic and tulpa systems gaining this type of broad cultural support may be considered harmful.

I would love to live in a world where every side could come to agreements that would work in all of their interests, and absolutely no one would ever be hurt. But we unfortunately don't live in that type of world.

I'm sure you know of the high profile case of the caterer in the US who refused to cater a gay wedding. I think this case is a good demonstration of the type of situation where there's just no way both parties can win. Either you force people to violate their sincerely held religious beliefs, or you allow discrimination against LGBT people. Whatever path you choose, someone is getting hurt by the decision.

People are diverse and complicated with a myriad of different personal opinions and deeply held convictions. In a lot of ways, this diversity of thought is wonderful.

But... it also means that there are going to arise situations in life where whatever you do is going to hurt someone. Where the right thing is going to leave someone harmed just as surely as the alternative. (I personally believe the right thing in the above case would have been siding with the LGBT community.)

The idea that there's always a solution to avoid hurting people is a nice thought, but I think it's a naïve one.

I don't advocate intentionally hurting people. But I think we need to acknowledge a reality that when views are so conflicted and people are so deeply invested, there are going to be people whose feelings will get hurt along the way. We can try to minimize that and cushion the blow, and I think we have a responsibility to do our best to when we can, but we just can't prevent it entirely.

#ask box #syscourse #plural #endogenic #lgbt #transid #transx #radical inclusion #rad inclus #multiplicity #system #systems #plurality

[mermaidsirennikita]

I've noticed the historical accuracy purists avoid talking about The Great, I suspect because the show is very anachronistic so it's silly to complain about the costumes not being accurate plus they're just fantastic costumes all around and are considered as such so complaining about them would not be popular. This isn't Little Women 2019 or Bridgerton.

Again, for me, I don't really care about historical accuracy in costumes at all. I've seen "accurate" costumes that look like dog shit because a) focus was put on accuracy, but care was not taken to ensure that the budget wasn't compromised by that pursuit b) they do not translate well onscreen c) honestly? Not all looks are good ones, and alterations are sometimes needed to make the transition from "thing people wore 700 years ago" to "thing this fictional character is wearing in a production".

Costumes are not meant to be functional pieces that people wear day to day as the characters in their story and setting would wear them. They are meant to communicate character always, and (sometimes) story. They should not distract from that story, either.

But yeah, I agree with you--the reason why The Great isn't complained about as much with costumes is because the show tells it like it is re: its intentions. And honestly, the costumes are great. People who talk about costumes and know shit about historical accuracy re: costumes? Often love The Great's costumes. Because it really is done with so much intentionality and thought, and they are truly so well-crafted. I think the decision to dress Nick Hoult the way they do was a huge part of grounding us in that character, and honestly, helped make people open their hearts to the character sooner. He looked HOT in those clothes, and while his acting and the writing did the heavy lifting for the redemption arc.... the pants helped.

I also think some of them learned from Reign that when a show is truly balls to the wall, nobody watching that show gives a fuck about whether or not the costumes are authentic. Like, I remember people screaming "WHAT ABOUT FRENCH HOODS" with that show and it's like, my guy, I just saw Francis talk to the ghost of his dead father while he possessed a busty governess, I think we're past that.

I think everyone should just give up the ghost and focus on what looks good and what fits the story. Personally, I think the costumes in Bton look kind of cheap and poorly fitted much of the time; they were marginally better in season 2, but honestly, not by a lot (and I think the men's costumes look *marginally* better than the women's on a consistency level, but they've never known how to dress Luke Newton in a way that flatters his skin tone or his body type--and that's not a dig, it's a comment on the costumes). I don't think they serve the idea of a lush historical romance, but then, Bton doesn't wanna be that. If you look at the styling of Roxanne in Cyrano, eras aside, that's what gives me historical romance heroine more than.... many things I've seen. Or, if you want to look at something a bit more buttoned up and accurate, the way they styled Dido in Belle.

And Little Women 2019 fit that aesthetic, too; and that movie wasn't even trying to be about history, lmao, so I never got why people were upset. It was about the sisterly bond. It was about the emotionality. Change a few details and you could have transported the core narrative Gerwig was concerned with into so many other eras. And you had so many characters, and more narrative focus on Meg and Amy than other adaptations have granted, and as such it was so important that the sisters have different stylistic vibes. Meg's fresh youthfulness contrasted to her weariness post-marriage; Amy going from girlish to elegantly dignified refinement; Jo always being *very purposefully not of her time*, lmao.

Idk, I just wish people would focus on story and quality with costumes, versus accuracy. Everyone is creaming themselves over Alicia Vikander having a chin strap with her French hood in Firebrand, and while those costumes (from what I've seen) definitely look cool and high quality, I guarantee that much of the general audience will either a) not notice or b) think it's weird. But that's not me saying it's a bad move--it's me saying that these small details mean a lot to those of us who know, but the entire picture is much more important to everyone else.

[airlockfailure]

Use Your Words

I was tagged by @littlefeatherr

A phrase/quote/word you find funny: “Oh, look at that. I’ve been impaled.” -Olaf (Frozen) This is exactly how I respond to injury.

Some of your favorite SFW words: Catawampus, Tiddlywinks, Whippersnappers, Shenanigans, Pollywogs, Helter-skelter

Favorite cusses, NSFW or otherwise: Outside of writing, I don't usually curse, but my go to is Fuck or Cunt or "Fuck you in the cunt you bitch ass motherfucking dumb whore". Usually if I'm to the point of swearing, most of what I'm going to say is curses, usually growling under my breath because I'm in public trying to fix a machine. 😅

What language do you speak? English, French, ASL, some German, Russian, Chinese, and Japanese, Latin, and Arabic.

Favorite words in language(s) other than your first: Blitzkrieg, IDK, really, it's all about how the words sound to me. Etoile, mourir, humanitas, 森林, etc.

Movies with subtitles on or off? On. Side note: it grinds my gears when whoever translated the script for subtitles translates incorrectly. I can't tell you how many times I've watched a French tv show or movie and the English subtitles are completely wrong. 😬 Like, sir, you've just changed a major plot point that messes up the entire story!!! Also, censorship. If the character says a curse in their language, use the curse in the subtitles. Goddamn.

Books you've read/listened to the most times: 魔道祖师 (I may have hyper-fixated on all her books).

Do you listen to songs in other languages? Remember, we are all brothers. Hakkerskaldyr.Translation Galgaldr.Translation Norupo.Translation Vivre à en crever Latin cover of Green Day LOL Mando'a counts right?

Do you express yourself better with words, images or something else? I don't believe I'm good at expressing myself. I'm vague, and the truth is often implied because I always think of something else/more information after the fact.

Do you talk more or less when you're nervous? Mute.

How do you pronounce February? Feb-u-ary. When I'm trying to write it I have to say to myself "feb-rew-ary".

What kind of accent do you have? To make it easier for you to picture, it's a Boston accent, but around here we resent being lumped together with people from away. The more angry I am, or if I'm not at work, the more obvious it gets LOL. Most of the time, my accent is neutral (sometimes called Broadcast English, like you hear some newscasters using). But if you make me mad 😂 oh boy. Here, this is what I sound like when I'm angry/at home/with friends. This is what I try to intentionally sound like professionally. You can even see a bit of the difference in the first video of the lobsterman vs. the interviewer. (Also, warning for the first video if lobster death upsets you.)

If you literally had to eat your words, what would they taste like? I don't know. Cinnamon rolls?

Tagging anyone who wants to do this. I'm avoiding Tumblr a bit today to avoid TBB spoilers. HAHA

#tag game #airlock talks personal shit #oh man #i thought way too much about this

[isa-nofor-me]

PART THREE (wrapping this gameplay up) Annalise Darby x Adriel Kruse.

Annalise seems to start a routine of calling and asking for dates. Adriel never says no... I mean how could he, It's Anna-fkn-lise. (I wouldn't say no).

She's improved her date planning by not taking us to the STORE (if you didn't see, it was full of gnomes and boat *skin crawls*)- well actually now that i think of it, she took Adriel to StrangerVille... nvm.

When we arrived at the bar Adriel couldn't even gas her up at all before, she went to another man with the same hairstyle. Annalise whispered to the man, and they went to the only private place... the restroom. I was shocked, appalled, and flabbergasted. But guess what Adriel was CALM. He sucked it up, he realized they weren't in a relationship (yet) and he sat down at a table. That was until he joined some other people in the same restroom as Anna (pfft). (There was 5 ppl in there btw).

She ended first and when* she noticed Adriel, she was livid, heartbroken. She then went to AN ALIEN and did it all over again. This time Adriel had a reaction to her mess, he was hurt, "how could you" type beat. But do you know what Annalise said?! (when the date event ended) "yeah, um... don't call me again."

FYI- The romance was like -40% (in the red) atp and the friendship was at about -10%.

Adriel had to work (criminal activity fr) so he was out of there asap. When he got back home, he just wanted to talk things over with Bae. He called her on Facetime and told her to come over.

Annalise is so bummed but the whole time she ~wAnTs~ Adriel but he's like 'Not right now girl, talk to me' (once she got a taste, she couldn't get enough). After he asks her what her problem was, she replies "It's not my fault... not entirely at least" (...ma'am). Adriel kept trying to (smoothly) apologize but idk where that got him. (I think bc he rejected her advances MANY times she was getting more upset with him). He let her have him at one point (irrelevant) but she was still so angry.

Adriel tried; he really did. He then started an argument about her excessive "behavior" and how she was a bad parent AND said she ruined their friendship... (Why is he right tho.. I mean I get it). Annalise started to despise him.

FYI- romance = -100% and friendship = -78%

Adriel thought he couldn't lose her, so he gave her what she needed. BING. (and that's when I cheated the relationship % to: romance +44 and friendship = +10... it doesn't make sense but who-cares)

He took her back home and noticed that her daughter, Sheena was desperately in need of a new diaper and bath, so he took care of it.

Though he was annoyed by being soaked he was glad he could help Annalise with her youngster.

Sometime after this he confessed his feelings to Lise and asked her to be his Girlfriend. (It took me hours to find the button to confess feelings... ughh)

Final thoughts: Annalise is a khornball and disregarded her Loyal trait on her own terms but took it out on the man that wasn't even her man.

I really was team Adriel this gameplay. I didn't even intentionally create him to be a player or a toxic man so i went out of my way to avoid that.

oh jeez, this is long, sorry.

I ALSO THINK THEY WILL HAVE A BEAUTIFUL FAMILY, but FIRst Lise needs to ditch the flavored air sticks.

#sims 4 gameplay #sims4 #Adriel Kruse #Annalise Darby #sims 4 screenshots #sims4story

[lilgynt]

The imaginary therapist that lives in my head and won’t fucking leave: so you’re worried if your autistic it’ll just be another weird or crazy thing about you? why don’t you write down all the reasons you think you’re “crazy or weird” and then cross check what might just be autistic traits :)

Me: I will actually fucking attack you

#personal #hi welcome to I’m crazy #anyway it’s all fun and games till u sink in ur head and literally can’t get out for more than a few minutes for a couple hours #fake therapy where I’m just spit balling or just complaining or even just talking about shit I like? amazing wonderful mwah thank you #fake therapy where the not real therapist in my head actually wants me to do work try new shit or discuss very hard issues plainly? fuck off #anyway the idea that nothing about me changes just my perspective of myself really helps out but 🥴🥴🥴 #what was not fun however was me getting upset and arguing with and I cannot emphasize this enough #a fake IMGAINRY therapist #like I just felt #like you know how if you’re thinking of a yellow car you’ll see yellow cars everywhere? #I feel like I’m trying to do that with myself #like I know I’m not intentionally being like welllllllll I mean I did this shit one time so 😳🥴 #but it just feels like can I really mark this down as a possible trait? is that alright or am I just trying to convince myself #and he brings up the valid points of okay why would you be faking this? you talk about it occasionally with two people and have just #stsrted venting about it on tumblr what do you logically gain from this? #why would you avoid eye contact for a month and half? if no one knew? #how would you have faked the things your linking to ur childhood? #and I’m like idk I want to play mind games with myself? I’m just wrong? that can happen #I’m just looking for an explaination for all of this but in the wrong place? #and he’s like are you hurting anyone by trying to find answers in this particular area? even if you’re not you’ll have a better #understanding of yourself and I’m like PLEASE shut the fuck up #I’m like suddenly hyper aware of myself in the sense of oh? could this be a trait? and they just keep popping up and I’m just #mad? upset? like I’m not mad if I am autistic that explains so fucking much #I’m just mad at the possibility I’m not and I’m like. just lying to myself or looking for answers in the wrong place #also just the fear I’ll be like this forever ig? it’s silly but like #I always thot as a kid and teenager that like I wouldn’t fixate on stuff when I was older or dealing with people would be easier #my brain would make sense and I don’t know. like I’d just understand everything like everyone else did? I don’t know. #and like I’m fine socially I just don’t enjoy it but I don’t know. like I like myself and I’m cool with how I am but I guess the thought #never left me? like when I was older I’d finally be normal. like I knew my peers got it well enough but I would too #even the kids I felt like yeah yeah I’m not gonna be mean but I’m miles ahead of you social cue wise still understood something I didn’t

[ruby-whistler]

Alright curious anon here. All this is /dsmp /rp from here on out unless otherwise specified and is refering to characters. If i make any mistakes or am misinformed please let me know! So by the cat was nothing compared to mushroom henry i was meaning more toward the fact that the cow was killed as a punishment for something not worth or ok for it to be killed for at all and the fact that it belonged to tommy, wheareas the cat was killed more to annoy dream and belonged to tommy. (1/?)

alright then another lengthy reply, here i come! /lh /dsmp /rp

Dream also did not seem to mourn the cat much, shrugging it off with a "just more motivation to break out".

it was killed to hurt dream, not to "annoy him". it doesn't matter who it belonged to, c!dream was attached to it and it died, which had an effect on him and also further proved his point about attachments being weakness and caring getting you hurt, and it's still very sad.

you say that it was not ok at all to kill mooshroom henry, but the cat's death wasn't ok either, so i really don't see your point.

again, i disagree it was "nothing compared to" either way. i never meant to compare them in the first place, i was simply talking about the cat and c!dream so i don't see why it is in any way necessary to drag c!tommy and other dead pets into this. /nm

also, it isn't true he didn't mourn it. he is a very reserved person who doesn't show his feelings much, that's true, but the cat death still changed the way he acted afterwards, as well as the attempts he made to prevent it. he didn't "shrug it off", he yelled about it because he was understandably upset.

You mentioned that propganda was used to make dream seem like a tyrant, could you specify a bjt? Cus im a little confused srry /gen. Because the most i can remember from the lmanburg era at least is him being called a b'tch or other similar insults. You also mentioned how trauma responses can be differet which is true! I agree! Do you have any ideas to what caused dream the trauma?

wilbur would continuously make him out to be some sort of oppressive, tyrannical force, in front of his troops - a prime example of this being the lyrics of the l'manberg anthem itself and the l'manberg declaration of independence.

actually! here's a nice thread about l'manberg's establishment complete with links, timestamps and evidence :]

i also said in my previous post what could've possibly caused it, but since the character intentionally hides his emotions from the public, it would be difficult to see how things really affected him - which is why the way his spiral went is the majority of the evidence that would imply it, however it does make sense within the story as well with what i mentioned last time.

I would like to note that for sapnap at least had reason to leave dream. Some examples off the top of my head are dream leading an angry fundy to sapnap's pets on purpose, resulting in some deaths, dream assisting tommy in burning down sapnap's effiel tower where he got engaged to karl, and dream giving tommy either mars or the other fish at the battle of the lake. Idk about george tho other then the whole mexican lmanburg/el rapids thing and decrowning him

c!sapnap was actually at fault for most of this, and it wasn't really ever betrayal on c!dream's part.

c!dream is a mediator and he wants to stop everyone's conflict - c!fundy was angry because of c!sapnap's actions, and hence it made more sense for c!dream to centre him on c!sapnap's animals instead of running around killing everyone's pets (at that time, all c!dream knew was c!sapnap did something really bad and c!fundy wanted beckerson / mars from him, which were also his and c!george's fish).

c!sapnap was an instigator, and in multiple conflicts during the time as well as before he'd align himself against c!dream. he isn't "loyal" per se, he causes chaos and the reason c!dream helped c!tommy was because, c!sapnap, again, killed his pet. the first l'manberg war and then the 16th are signs of the fact that c!dream and c!sapnap were willing to fight together in actual war, but these small conflicts where c!sapnap continuously picked fights weren't about personal loyalty, nor did they seem to affect their relationship at all.

c!george was never really hurt by c!dream either. the dethronement was him very obviously being a guilt-trippy drama queen, but, well, that's just the character. he had stolen the l'mantree while he was supposed to be the diplomatic figure of the greater smp, which is why c!dream was justified in - very politely, may i mention - taking the duties off of him (seeing as he was also trying to keep him safe and c!techno had already assassinated him once).

Im pretty sure i remember cc!sam stating that his character never canonically physically tortured dream during his subathon but take this with a grain of salt as i am looking for the clip currently. So to the best of my knowledge dream did not have a physical contact trigger during tommy's visit which! I rewatched the vod and dream actually was first to hit tommy and i can give you my full writing downs but 10/12 of the phy-

you never finished this point because you had to go do something, but i'll reply to what is here at the moment (i suggest writing these down before sending next time, or even writing them out wholly before sending a single one could help avoid stuff like this).

i am 95% sure that the reason cc!sam stated this was because people were suspicious he had already been doing what c!quackity was doing after - torture within the storyline itself is associated pretty much only with what c!quackity is doing, so that's what he meant, just to clear up confusion - the starvation or terrible conditions haven't been retconned, but it was direct torture (like c!quackity is doing) people were asking him about.

i never said c!dream had a physical contact trigger at all, i don't think he had that, though he probably will after the torture.

huh, ok, i'm gonna have to rewatch then, but i remember c!tommy punching c!dream a lot and him just telling him to stop and only punching back to get him to stop. trigger or not, getting hit isn't very pleasant, if you know what i mean.

You mentioned tommy stealing dream's armor unprovoked. Do you have the vod or a general idea of the time so i can find it? Like before lmanburg after another event so and so because if you do not have it i can find it but any help is appreciated.

i am pretty sure you can find the video on cc!tommy's channel! there are also recaps of the disc war on youtube :]

I wanna talk a little on why the Final Control Room was so messed up. For starters, with the way the room was designed. It was small, and had labeled, empty chests with each person's name on them as a mockery. The next reason is that its bascially a kill box.

It's fairly inescapble with the stairs being ones you have to jump up, slowing anyone who climbs them down. The final reason it is messed up is that it is shown to have caused every person who died in it trauma. With tommy there are several examples, the time he saw it with techno, the way he refuses to go near it, the exposure trauma, etc. Fundy also appears to have trauma, as when the Red Banquet executions began, it can be seen as him being afraid of dying last again.

It can Be thought as tubbo having trauma because he buries most of his issues and pretends to be ok. Moreover this event took at least one of each person's canon lives, making it the most canon lives lost EVER in a dream smp event. (This is not hate on any of the ccs btw i loved this scene and its one of my personal favorites). Plus the fact Eret's betrayal just literally happened, giving at least Tommy and Wilbur canonic trust issues.

i wouldn't call the chests mockery? it was a trap. people had traps on the smp before. it was a trap in the middle of war, supposed to end said war by killing them all at once rather than individually which would be a lot more bloody and difficult.

i agree c!tommy and other people might have post-war trauma, especially if they were young during the time, but i think that's because the final control room was "messed up", moreso because the war itself was. it all happened fairly instantly as well? i don't think c!fundy would be able to realize he was the last one standing within the two second before he wasn't.

it "can be thought" and it can be interpreted like that but besides c!tommy there isn't much evidence for them "all" being traumatized by the final control room. of course betrayal would spark trust issues, i understand that.

The probation was humiliating in my opinion because dream was Sending tommy anatgonizing messages through out the whole meeting, plus he had to write a review of his day every single day, which fundy mocked him for.

i mean, it was definitely a strike to his pride, but he was being extremely uncooperative so i don't really blame the other members of new l'manberg trying to teach him to listen for once? of course i know c!dream was riling him up, and that should definitely be considered. i don't think it would be as humiliating if c!tommy didn't make it, is what i'm saying.

for the tommy being toxic to fundy? At least for the examples you gave, to me personally they come acoross as either in a meta way being the cc's bantering or in canon being the characters having banter. If you can send the post with the clips so i can read the tone better that would be cool but if not i will try and find em.

no, these were all in canon. canon isn't only when c!tommy is being nice, it's also when he's being a jerk. /lh

the first one was him threatening c!fundy about kicking him out of l'manberg and undermining his self-worth, and the second one was him trying to get c!sapnap to vote for them via bullying c!fundy.

i found these from a transcript focusing on c!fundy's character, so i don't know exactly where the first one is from, but the second one i am pretty sure is from when the elections were starting with the whole cabinet battle deal and all of that.

there are other instances, and all of them are canon. his personality was never being nice or compassionate, so i'm not really surprised? he still cares about the people he cares about and is very brave, y'know. but this part of his personality is definitely a valid reason for people to dislike him.

I hope the exam went well :). Hope u have a great day! (Ps i think theres something called a submission box to send in pictures? Am not entirely sure sry)

it would've gone well but my work-speed is a tad too slow for the schooling system (considering i'm three years younger than my classmates,,, probably that's also a factor) so probably not despite the fact i knew everything and would've aced it if i only had more time. i did as well as i could so i'm not worried about it, but thanks!

i think you're thinking submissions. sadly, i tested it and it doesn't work on anons, so idk how you'd solve that, maybe make a burner account?

Curious anon here one point you may wanna include in the redemption essay is that c!tubbo or c!tommy do not necessarily have to forgive him. What's important is that he recognizes what he did was wrong (exile, beating tommy to death, manipulating them both, etc) and does his best to make amends. Hope this helps! Can't wait to see your essay

it's out, idk if you've seen it yet, and i think i included enough of that so hope it's all good! :)

the mcc update video is out if you are an mcc enjoyer. It's very neat, if you wanna check it out

yeah! i am a fellow mcc enjoyer, saw it already, thanks for telling me though, i'm really hype for today.

Allo curious anon here sorry if the lots of asks bother you. I was just curious if i could share an interesting post i saw today about c!dream :0 (not necessarily negative i think? More of a statement of an often-confused canon)

sure thing! i don't know what you mean by often-confused since, the entire fanbase is very confused always, and often selection bias plays into the perception from both sides, but sure :]

you also sent in a thing for the other anon who said they didn't know what c!dream did that bad; pretty sure they couldn't really be alerted since, not sure if they watch my blog that closely, but i'll summarize your points just in case and add some notes;

the repeated blowing up of l'manberg (in my mind that's largely a positive since i,, despise that country, but fair enough), revealed c!ranboo as a traitor (they seem to be friends so i also,, think that might've been planned between him and enderboo), sent ghostbur away (i don't think c!dream knew it was dangerous for him and wanted to actually hurt him, but idk), participated in fighting against c!sapnap when he killed people's pets (that's only negative against c!sapnap and didn't seem to hurt him much at all), and then the whole vault scene where he was allegedly planning to steal people's things (though saying he would & being stopped beforehand and doing it are two different things, frankly).

so i still agree with the other anon that a lot of the hurt he did "to the entire server" (he only negatively interacted with like,, a half of them) is exaggerated both by the characters and the fandom, but i guess that's a consequence of most people seeing him as a threat to everyone's happiness rather than a complex personality.

Also he was aware of the butcher army going to kill techno but only got involved because he saw an opportunity to get a favor. (As he knew in advance due to him telling techno to get a totem, watching from afar instead of interveing or manipulating tubbo out of it)

i don't understand this at all, i'm sorry. how do you know he only helped techno in order to get a favor? last i remember he was only doing it to protect and strengthen his alliance, and techno came up with the whole favor thing entirely on his own. you might've not watched techno's perspective or their prior interactions, idk, but this really is a misinterpretation in my eyes. /nm

sorry if that is overly dream negative i just wanted to let yall know cus you seemed unaware -curious anon

nah dw, i watch the smp and i watched all of these things happen so, wouldn't say unaware, but thanks.

#long post #my asks #curious anon #tw torture #tw animal death #c!dream negativity in asks #nothing aggressive though #so safe to read

[gallickingun]

ding, dong, the witch is dead!

honestly, who didn’t see this coming? lol. but, anyway. i guess this is goodbye! i’ll ramble more below the cut, but just know that over the next couple of days, i’ll be exporting my blog so i can keep what i want, and then this will be the only post left here.

thank you to everyone who i’ve had the privilege of meeting, and those of you who have been so kind as to leave lovely notes on my works, and interact with me over our silly anime crushes. i really appreciate all the kindness i’ve been shown in the anime fandom. some of my best friends i’ve met through this stupid app, but overall, it’s just not a healthy space for me. i’m not blaming anyone else for what this has become, at the end of the day, i created a hell for myself. i’m just tired of trying to rebuild, rebrand, whatever. i’m just tired.

that being said, obviously not everything can always be so lovely. i don’t care about the discourse or the drama or the whatever, but i’m just hoping this post will bring me some closure, and maybe some for those i’ve hurt, whether accidentally or intentionally. if you click read more and you’re upset with what you see, well, idk what to tell you, friend.

i hate that tumblr can be so insignificant, and yet so all encompassing all at once. yes, it’s “just tumblr” and “it’s not that deep” because at the end of the day, it’s just an app. but, unfortunately, behind this app and these blogs are human beings. which means you create real bonds and real friendships, and real feelings get hurt.

i came back to tumblr during a really sad, dark time in my life. and that was honestly my first mistake. i latched on to whoever would pay attention to me, craving some sort of friendship that i never needed before because i always had someone in real life. but i had just moved away from my family, and was starting the process of what would end up being a notsogreat divorce. i felt alone, and was struggling a lot with my self worth, so instead of choosing to be kind, i chose to lash out. regardless of whether or not that was in private dm’s of those whom, at the time, i’d considered friends, it was still inconsiderate and childish of me. i thought i had to be some hateful version of myself in order to prove to other people that i wasn’t as sad about myself as i truly was. the words i said in private were rude, nasty, and just... not who i want to be? and, without going into immense detail, some of those things i wanted to move on from and no longer felt, were then used as weapons and spread around to others who i never intended to see what i’d said.

please, please, PLEASE — be careful what you say. you really never know who is watching, who is going to manipulate you, etc. what you say holds weight, and even if you don’t intend for it to hurt anyone, even if it’s just venting.. i dunno. just, be careful, okay? check yourself from time to time, friend. make sure that you’re not allowing the overall negativity of the world, of your own mind, of others, to affect you to the point that you don’t recognize yourself.

if you don’t know about my lovely little exposed blog, well, you’d probably be the last to know. at least, it feels that way. although in the beginning maybe it was justified? in some right? i’m not sure anymore, really, but regardless—it turned into some sort of stalking experience. at one point in time, i received 35+ messages telling me how horrible i was, telling me to off myself, telling me that my ex did the right thing by leaving me “on the curb”, etc. my full legal name was being released, with the intent to doxx me i’m assuming? i was being told i was “being watched”, which i fully believe was happening, with the consistency of the updates. people who claim to hate me, still followed me with the intent of watching my every move to “see if i’d changed”. i only have received updates through friends, because to be perfectly honest with you, seeing your worst mistakes splayed on the internet and turning you into some shounen villain is NOT the best thing for your mental health. that, and some of the “truths” were half-honesties twisted because i’d be a hypocrite to post private dm’s debunking these things when i was upset with the very same people for posting such things. i’ve addressed some things, such as the racism, so i won’t go into that again, but some of these other instances are stretches, to say the least.

the irony of the whole thing is not lost on me. the very same people who say i only do things for notes/recognition, are doing those very things. those who say i only care about tumblr, are proving that by running a blog dedicated to exposing some twenty three year old idiot on the internet. those who say i use my friends are the same ones who literally lied to my face so they could collect receipts behind my back and then leave me when it got convenient. those who say i talk to “insignificant” blogs to appear invested are the ones calling those blogs insignificant, i never once believed anyone i’ve interacted with was insignificant, contrary to popular belief. everything they focus on ends up being nothing but hypocrisy in the end.

that being said, obviously i truly hurt whoever all is behind this blog. intentionally, or otherwise. and i know that sometimes what you do/say isn’t meant to hurt anyone, however, you don’t get to control how what you’ve done effects others. all you can do is apologize. but, i know a few of them, because based on the “receipts” they’ve pulled together, the stories are too specific to be anything but those people i’m thinking of. i don’t enjoy blanket apologies, but i’m leaving this hellsite, so it’s all i’ve got left.

i’m sorry for giving you the fuel to your fire for this petty agenda, i’m sorry for creating the monster of myself that allowed you to string along this storyline for what seems to be the better part of a year. i’m sorry that i gave you material to fixate upon, rather than providing you with friendship and something better to focus on. i truly hope you can move on now that i’m gone from tumblr, and honestly i don’t plan on coming back, lol. i genuinely, truly, deeply feel sorry for you, and pray that you can turn this obsessive focus from me to something more productive, something healthier.

the angry part of me wants everyone to realize that the start of this, the matchups/refunds situation, was born from this stalkerish behavior. it has taken me months to put the pieces together, because i truly didn’t think someone who i’d called my friend once would ever string together such a lie, or rather an exaggerated, adulterated truth, but i guess it’s what happened, in the end.

there are a lot of, uh, conveniently timed “releases” of receipts even though they were months after the initial occurrence of the offense. i can’t go into each one, because, frankly, there are too many. i just hope that in the wake of all of these horrible exposes of things i’ve done, others are able to reflect on their actions. telling me one thing while currently speaking to another individual and telling them another, blatantly LYING, etc. are all things that i’ve been accused of, and yet they’ve also been done to me. doesn’t justify what i’ve done, nor am i seeking some sort of absolution, however i just hope that these individuals can see their hypocrisy and move forward.

which leads me to my final point — regardless of how shitty someone is, disallowing them the room to grow, stunting their moral/mental growth, is truly the issue. i am not going to sit here and play holier than thou. i know i fucked up. i was a nasty bitch because i was angry at the world, and then that anger was fueled further by consistent situations where i made the wrong friends at the wrong times in my life. but the fact that this exposed nonsense has been dragging on since... july? august? i’m not really sure, but whatever. since it’s been going on, i have been battling with myself and my ability to do the things i love, talk to those i care about, etc. all because i’m afraid of saying the wrong thing, hurting the wrong person, etc. and in trying to avoid it, i’ve been doing the very same thing i hoped to keep from doing.

i never felt like i could apologize to those i wanted to apologize to because it might be received as disingenuous due to the nature of the exposed blog’s very existence “forcing” me to apologize. don’t get me wrong, some of those who the blog tried to coerce me into apologizing to can suck a dick, because there are people that i truly do not feel deserve my apologies, and therefore, will never get them. but, i do feel bad for those i didn’t get the chance to apologize to that i really wanted to. the last thing i’d want is for my apology to be turned into something it’s not, but hopefully everyone who has been affected by my actions can move on with my absence.

and to those of you who feel the need to make public denounces of my name, i hope it provides you the closure you’ve been seeking. truly, i do. but know that i never did anything i’ve ever done with the intent to get ahead or buy someone’s friendship or take advantage of anyone else. if i truly only cared about the things people say i cared about, i would have never made this blog in the first place. i would have leeched off the popularity of my main blog if popularity was all i cared about. i was searching for a home, which, in the end, i burned down myself. me, joking around about follower count and notes, was literally nothing but sarcastic banter that’s been taken out of context. but, i digress.

i am very thankful for those who i can still call my friends, who are willing and ready to have honest discussions with me about the things i’ve said/done and analyze them and help me move forward. therapy, medication, life choices, etc. all have been rolled into me deciding that i’m done letting a silly little app stunt my growth. if the internet was unplugged tomorrow, i know who i’d have and what would matter. i have REAL LIFE to focus on. i am in love and i have beautiful friendships that i want to foster with honesty and kindness. i can only hope that you all have the opportunity to have those very same things.

will i stop writing? nah, dude. no way. i’m just getting started. in my absence, in choosing to stay away from a place that makes me sick to my stomach with anxiety, i’ve delved into my original characters and i’ve written thousands of words that i haven’t felt the pressure to post about. i’ve learned that just because i’m doing something i love, i don’t have to do it for anyone else.

the internet is a funky place, folks. just be careful who your friends are, okay?

anyway. peace out, girl scouts. i wish you all the best 💖

#morgan.txt #tw mental health #tw suicide mention #tw discourse #tw drama #THAT’S ALL FOLKS! signing off xx

[galacticnova3]

idk if the last ask sent but if it didn't HIIIIIIII it is the visjex i didn't get to send you a sleepy anon last night so im doing it now owo i realized i actually don't know all that mushc abt loa roa lon iru n mush would you be willing to summarize them and/or link me to information abt tgem hello i think you're very cool

Hi hello I didn’t get the other anon but will be happy to answer this one! I’ve already summarized Iru in the past, so to keep this as short as possible(which is still probably not short) I’ll skip him and stick to the others. They will be under a cut because just one character alone usually constitutes a long post, let alone four.

Roa

Roa is sorta Lor’s mirror counterpart. In that she’s technically not due to not being a reflection, but because of the counterparts around her she essentially experienced a lot of the same stuff as Lor but to the left. She’s an Umbramaker rather than a Starcutter, but they are all but the same thing on different sides of the mirror, the main difference being that Umbramakers are slightly newer as a result of Mirror Halcandra(MH) basically just copying Overworld Halcandra’s(OH)homework. Bootleg spaceships. While they’re both combination research and combat ships, unlike the friendly, sociable, somewhat mischievous Lor, Roa is a reserved and anxious rule follower; unlike Lor she prefers not to see how far she could push boundaries and authority. This is mainly because, in their times back in their respective Halcandras, both faced pretty different kinds of authority; OH’s government couldn’t afford to do the same things as MH’s government due to financial constraints, which reflected in their treatment of their ships.

As neither Halcandra really considers their ships people(despite being sentient they don’t meet most of the criteria for what counts as a living being, and have no soul to offset that); OH expected them to work and act like any other machine except when they didn’t want them to(which was hard to keep track of) and couldn’t really do much but get mad and yell and make empty threats when that didn’t happen. However, MH was the same way, with the added issue of the fact that if they deemed a particular ship problematic enough they had the means to just deactivate and recycle them. Since most of them were designed with specific functions and maintained by the government, they couldn’t just fire them and be done with it. Of course, that practice was generally kept secret so as to avoid the problems that come with some of your most valuable workers being aware that you’re not above killing and repurposing them as you please.

Roa had once been the sort to poke around and seek out information that she wasn’t supposed to know, especially if it was being hidden intentionally, and as a result she ended up finding out about that unfortunately early on, and it terrified her. She ended up becoming more or less obsessed with trying to justify her continued existence even when it wasn’t in question, doing exactly what she was told, constantly working on whatever projects she was assigned to regardless of her own motivation or interest, and in general became very formal and polite and just however she needed to be to never upset any of her superiors ever. While she didn’t appreciate getting the reputation of being a spineless bootlicker among the other ships, she also knew something they didn’t, and was too afraid of the potential consequences that would come with spreading the word. And that was assuming anyone even listened to her. And thus was the start of the deterioration of her social skills in favor of being a loner and not having to worry about being disliked.

Things went on like that for ages, until a major accident occurred that led to loss of life. A lot of people found out about it despite an attempted cover-up, and that left the government with a surplus of Umbramakers and a deficit of people willing to pilot them. As by this point the ships were a major cornerstone of the Mirror Halcandran Empire’s expansion, given that they could range from mobile laboratories to hazardous material transport systems, battleships, exploration vessels, passenger ships, etc, that was a really big problem. Since they couldn’t just put everything on hold until they could convince the people “hey we promise that was just a freak accident and flying into the depths of uncharted space is actually totally safe and also we will give you money for it”, they decided to experiment with allowing some of the ships with the best track records operate as their own pilots. Roa was an obvious first choice, because who would be a better candidate than the ship who acts like she would be allergic to mistakes and would apologize to you if you threw a rock at her?

And then as soon as she got admin rights she tried to escape because the whole time she was only so perfect and obedient out of fear. In her panicked frenzy she unintentionally caused some, uh, injury while leaving port, which she still feels terrible about despite everything leading up to that. She was ultimately corralled into and subsequently trapped in a cavern under a volcano by a piloted fleet, because there was no way she would let anyone get near her to shut her off. She was left there, initially with the hopes that she would give up and could eventually be dealt with, but she didn’t do so for a very long time. Plans were made to deal with her later, then more plans to deal with her even later, until eventually she was kinda forgotten there. Them some guy named Magoroa found some old government records, thought “hey maybe I can pull a horse girl movie and convince this boat I’m not a threat and then use her to obtain infinite power like a boss” and excavated her, only to find her inactive. That was until he took a few minutes to look around on board and her systems picked up on his activity, after which she immediately woke up, warped him outside, and fled because being stuck under a rock so long(approx 28,000 years) that you put yourself in the computer equivalent of a coma set to end every 6 years or when the environment changes/there is on-board activity tends to make you want to not be in that rock.

After a long while she ended up encountering Lor through Events, the two established “oh hey, neither of us are loyal to the government this is fine actually, we should vibe”, and now she lives in White Wafers like a hermit with wifi. She’s still getting used to not having to be on edge 24/7, but is still nervous and suspicious and if you scare her she will talk like a business email and just generally do whatever she can to Make The Upset Stop even if it means shoving aside her own feelings and just saying what is wanted to be heard. But she’s getting better at standing her ground. Partly because she met Iru and got some practice with not putting up with bullshit. She still has no pilot and has no interest in accepting anyone as a pilot, but friendship isn’t quite as off the table, assuming she’s given enough patience.

Loa

Due to the same sort of deal as the above, Loa is like Lor’s parallel counterpart but not really. She’s not a Starcutter or an Umbramaker, instead being an AICHS(Artificial Intelligence Controlled Halcandran Starship); in her opinion that is a shit name for a kind of boat so she just calls herself a Makercutter because it sound like she could kill gods. She completes the triangle by being outgoing, somewhat rude(not always on purpose), and a rule breaker when she feels like it. Parallel Halcandra(PH) was different from the other two in that their ships were treated as people-adjacent, which just means more or less on the same level with some slightly different expectations. This meant she was actually pretty cool with the government because she was actually valued for more than just being able to science and kick ass(she shares the same function as the other two!) and was generally pretty free, especially in terms of being her own admin from the start and having a co-pilot instead of a pilot. But then everything changed when Overworld Halcandra attacked. In short, the two found out each other exist, PH went for a handshake and OH responded with gunfire and subsequently invaded because it’s free real estate, resources, and information on Another Dimension that we could benefit from.

When OH tried to implement a lot of the same practices they already used, Loa basically went “fuck that” and embarked on a mission to be as much of a nuisance as possible without committing war crimes or whatever would get her shot at. This went about as well as one could expect and she was eventually admitted into the “put in a time out cave” club because OH didn’t have the information necessary to be able to shut her off. That only lasted for around 20,000 years before Parallel Magolor found out about her through old records and was like “oh boy maybe I can ally myself with this boat who also hates Overworld Halcanfuck and then use her to get infinite power!” And then he did. This led to an almost RtD type situation, except instead of Loa being unconscious the whole time, she was awake and actually knew better than to let this random teenager fly her, and also knew that Strong Allies Helpful When Taking On Government. They recruit the Parallels of the RtD four, who all nearly help him accomplish his goal until ParaKirby realizes hey wait maybe giving sole ownership of a powerful artifact to a morally ambiguous teenager with a grudge isn’t a great idea. ParaMagolor convinces Loa to stick with him in the ensuing battle, only to abandon her when he thinks she’s been shot down.

In reality a hit had just stunned her temporarily, but his response of fleeing without her was enough to make her realize she’d been used. She doesn’t know what happened to him but doesn’t care beyond hoping he got his metaphorical ass kicked until it was fucking concave. For a long while she just spent her time wandering Another Dimension and occasionally popping into dimensions to see what’s there, and this led to her one day showing up in Gamble Galaxy… specifically Popstar. While I haven’t come up with an in-universe explanation of how she eventually met the other two, in an rp she essentially showed up near Just Some Guy(Reloh) who was in a groupchat with the other two ships and he was just like “wanna join this groupchat theres like at least two other boats in it”, Loa was like sure why not.

She still just kinda goes wherever instead of staying in one place but now she does so while texting people threats or sending Roa coconut mall 50 times or asking people if they want to be her nemesis. Also she found and adopted a baby dragon(s) of Landia’s species that was alone on a crumbling island in the void of Another Dimension; when fused they’re called Dolonís(which translates to murder weapons in old Halcandran), while separate they’re Gat, Baz, Miss, and Mort(short for Gatling Gun, Bazooka, Missile Launcher, and Mortar). She refuses to admit she is basically their mom despite the fact that she is basically their mom. She’s unexpectedly good at parenting, all things considered, but would probably encourage it if they said a swear word because that’s hilarious. At least if they learn the word fuck she’s gonna make sure they use it correctly because what kind of self respecting parent person of culture who happens to be in a caretaking position wouldn’t?

Lon

Lon’s story is a bit more difficult to summarize but in essence they only exist because someone broke basic lab safety rules. Aka someone living on Cavius who worked in the potion industry, and who had paranoia, was fed up with being made fun of or looked down on for it, conveniently learned about a not very suspicious company called Nightmare Enterprises and a cool product it was selling that would be great for revenge. So they bought the fucked up monster making serum that’ll turn inanimate objects into creatures, made some changes so that those creatures would obey them instead of possibly making the plan backfire, and went ham giving their enemies reason to be paranoid as well by making them question the safety of their own home and belongings. That got old after a while, so they decided to get rid of the remaining serum by dumping it on a dead tree. When that tree inexplicably wasn’t there anymore later on they decided it wasn’t their problem.

Lon was the tree turned mimic, and initially stayed on Cavius because lots of caves to hide in and nooks to mimic hidden treasure in meant sticking around was easy because food would just walk up to them, and there was rarely anyone else nearby to hear them scream, and the echoing meant following the sound would be near impossible anyways. That was all fine and good until people stopped going to the caverns where disappearances kept happening, and resorting to cannibalism would only sage them for so long. Eventually they hitched a ride to Somewhere Else by mimicking cargo, and ended up on Popstar. Initially they just mimicked regular boats, picking up passengers confusing them for the vessel they were supposed to go to, or just picking off isolated swimmers who’d drifted away from shore and out of sight. Being limited to the coastline wasn’t ideal, though, especially when folks wisened up to boarding unfamiliar vessels being a bad idea at best.

I haven’t really figured out much about what they did when initially going inland, other than that they stuck to their niche of mimicking vehicles. Probably a car or truck. At some point in their aimless wanderings they ended up catching sight of Lor, witnessed her explanation of “>I’m a boat and a person”, and got the idea of graduating from just stealing appearances to committing identity theft. Lor was eye-catching and offered basically unlimited movement options, so they could go where they want and in sticking out they would only attract more prey. Figuring out the floating aspect was difficult and took the noble and very unwilling deaths of more than a few floating beings, but that was a sacrifice they were willing to make. While they’ve essentially been in that situation since, going around and tricking folks who think blue spaceship nice, they also had Iru thrown into their life relatively recently. They tolerate him more than expected but don’t know enough about relationships to know how to describe their feelings about him.

They like eating people because the challenge is more fun than just hunting animals, and they hate fish because the one time they encountered Lor directly she rightfully beat the shit out of them and they had to lay low and recover in the ocean for several months and they are just really sick of eating aquatic life. In terms of their disguise, their main struggle is not knowing much about Lor herself as well as not knowing a lot of things in general. They collect shiny things of value as a hobby, but aren’t great at determining what is and isn’t valuable. Like, they know a fork is worth less than a sword, but not the real difference between a quartz crystal and a diamond because both are shiny rock. They keep their collection in a cave and if someone were to pull a Great Cave Offend A Mimic they would hunt them down and violently tear them limb from limb. Do not take their rock collection or they will take your life.

Mush

They are just a little creacher. Also technically Lon’s offspring during their post-identity theft wanderings but before they met Iru, but the two don’t know each other beyond Lon having scared them half to death as a warning(which was preferable given that their other alternative was Eat Baby Reclaim Nutrients). That subsequently gave them an immense fear of Lor and Lor posers. Despite being basically clones, the two are nothing alike, and Mush is going to grow up to Not eat people. They were pretty much feral at first and would bite people if they touched them or tried to hold them, but are much less so nowadays because people have fed them, and food is nice so people must be nice. They’ve also learned some words by copying others, but they’re not great at sentence structure yet and mostly stick to babbling or perhaps blurting out single words or syllables at random. This has led to some interesting situations. Because they’re still just baby, Mush doesn’t really have much going on with them. They are cute and like food and sleeping and sometimes they will unknowingly do things that give people whiplash.

#asks #rambling #ask to tag #long post #my characters #roa #loa #lon #mush

[firelord-frowny]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is SO wild to me that any white people at all are ever audacious enough to assume that they ~lost~ an opportunity to a black person (or any other person of color tbh) Because Of Affirmative Action....

and yet NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONE of them have ever considered, even for a moment, if there was ever a time in their life where they were the one who was given an opportunity that should have rightly gone to a smarter/more talented/more qualified person of color. 

like, tbh, i’m SO POSITIVE that it does happen, on occasion, where an employer or a school or whatever, gives opportunities to less-deserving minorities simply to meet whatever affirmative action quota they’re being held accountable for. i don’t think it happens often, but i do think it happens. 

BUT IT ACTUALLY DOES HAPPEN OFTEN THAT QUALIFIED MINORITIES ARE EXPLICITLY AND INTENTIONALLY OVERLOOKED IN FAVOR OF WHIIIIIITE PEEEOPLEEEEEEEE!!!!! 

so while it’s possible that Daquon was hired for a job that Cody was more qualified for, it’s MORE LIKELY that Cody has been getting hired for shit all along that Daquon wasn’t even considered for. 

And honestly like...

if there’s one thing that i think white people deserve to complain about, and that they SHOULD complain about, it’s that white supremacy has made it difficult for some white folks to be totally proud of their own personal accomplishments. Like, sure, they got That Big Promotion, but did they get it only because their employer didn’t want to give it to their Equally Capable Black Coworker? Your dreams of getting a deal with a publishing company for the fiction novel you’ve been working on for years has FINALLY come true, but are you sure the company gave a fair shot to the writers of color who were trying to get a deal? Did they go out of their way to avoid stories that featured nonwhite protagonists?? 

Like... from my perspective as a person of color, i honestly feel like white people should be livid about the way this white supremacist culture has made it so difficult to know for sure if they’re actually worthy of all their achievements.  Difficult to know if any of their successes were made possible by discrimination. White people who are committed to Being Decent have to wonder: Is my neighborhood only Nice and Pretty because the city put all the unsightly/inconvenient things like power stations and factories and stadiums in black neighborhoods? Did the construction of my luxury apartment with easy metro access cause black and brown families to be displaced? Does my child’s school only get so much funding and support because the students are mostly white? Did the cop who pulled me over for speeding “give [me] a break this time” and then immediately pull over a black person and not only give them an expensive ticket, but demand that they get out of the car, intimidate them into consenting to a search, and then arrest them for possessing the same amount of drugs that I had in my car all along? How many customers of my successful small business are only using my services because my less-successful competitor is latino? 

Honestly like, i could imagine myself feeling SO upset with that shit if I was white. I wouldn’t feel guilty, because I’d know I didn’t do anything to cause myself to benefit from racism, but I would DEFINITELY feel insecure. My pride in my accomplishments would be ever so slightly tainted by the compassionate sorrow I’d feel for any hypothetical brown person who missed out on something they deserved all because a Powerful Person would rather lift me up instead.

I guess it’s kinda comparable to surviving an accident that killed someone else. you didn’t DO anything to cause it, and there was nothing you could have done to stop it, and you’re powerless to undo the damage, but you’re still hurting for the other person, and you’re left wondering: Why do I get to be okay while this other person died three feet away from me? 

idk man, just...

i guess what i’m getting at is that racism and bigotry in general is poisonous to EVERYONE’s mental and emotional health. Sure, the suffering caused by bigotry is nowhere NEAR as soul-crushing for privileged groups as it is for marginalized groups. But it’s still suffering. It just is. 

And ya know what??? bigots are suffering, too! Yeah! I fuckin said it! Bigots are hurt by bigotry because they wind up spending their whole lives being so fucking angry over something SO DUMB!! They exhaust their own humanity in unwinnable war against something that’s not even a threat to their wellbeing. They’re doomed to be angry when their kid marries a black person instead of being thrilled that their kid found someone they loved. What kind of piss poor quality of life is that?? To be miserable over something so fucking absurd? 

i’m sleepy and i have lots of Feelings  

[step-on-me-khun]

Hello i know it is still sometime till khun bday but can you do one where reader prepare a surprise party for him with the rest to the team. However cause khun is so observant he suspect something is up but thought the we gonna to prank him. Then he is shock and happy about the party but pretends to be annoyed rak says hes a ungrateful turtle. Idk really just make it fun? Tysm love ur work

🌠I have two requests for Khun’s birthday and I thought I’d do them today, on his birthday 🌠

You were moving around a lot, trying to keep yourself occupied by organising the surprise party you were having for Khun, who you were desperately trying to avoid. 

He knew something was happening, everyone moving around a lot, the whispering, the lack of eye contact people were giving him. He knew something was happening, but thought they were pulling a prank or something on him. He just decided to let them just be, avoiding them so he wouldn’t have to deal with their antics. 

He was hiding himself in his room, the door locked so no one would think of barging in. 

You had everything organised, you were waiting in the living area with everyone else, you were excited, but also worried and scared. This was probably going to be something he wouldn’t be a big fan of, you were aware of that, it made you feel more and more worried. 

You were hoping for him to just be thankful and fake a smile if he needed to, he’d make a big fuss over it if he was in the wrong mood, and that’s what you were worried about. 

You were waiting with everyone for nearly an hour, and you were getting more and more anxious. Did he find out and intentionally avoid you? You were starting to think that it was plausible. 

After waiting nearly fifty minutes the door opened slowly, Khun walking cautiously inside his eyes all around the room, waiting for something. 

Baam and Shibisu were the only ones to shout out ‘surprise’, you were fiddling with your fingers, waiting for him to say something. 

He was good at hiding his emotions, you were aware of that, masking one emotion and faking another. His face wasn’t really that impressed. 

“So, you’ve been wasting your day preparing this, huh?” He asks, his voice low. He sighs. 

“We thought you’d be happy,” Baam says. 

“We worked hard on this,” you say. 

He facepalms, his eyes back on the people who were in front of him. 

“You’re nothing but an ungrateful Turtle,” Rak says, nearly shouting, his own disappointment evident. 

The silence was awkward, you were desperate to leave, to just get away from this situation. You were worried that this was going to happen, your mood soon deteriorating. 

“Damn it Khun,” you say softly. 

It was quiet, everyone in the room was either upset or angry, and they had every right to be in that mood. 

The silence was broken by a low chuckle, you look up at Khun, who had a smug smile on his face. 

“What’s so funny, Blue Turtle?” Rak asks. 

“I’ve been watching you all day thinking you were going to prank me,” his face softens, you feel a wave of relief. 

“So, you’re not mad or angry?” You ask softly. 

“I’m anything but that, thank you guys,”

You were relieved, the atmosphere was back to how it was before, Rak was still hounding Khun for his behaviour. Now everyone had a smile on their face, but most importantly, so did Khun. 

#tower of god #tower of god scenario #khun aguero agnis #khun aa #tog #kami no tou

[transgenderteensurvivalguide]

Kinda off topic but idk who to ask I follow another lgbt account and they have a list of triggers and I don't understand tham. They won't explain them to me and it's driving me crazy. I'm not trying to be rude but my stupid neurodiverse brain won't give it up. What do I do??

Lee says:

It’s like if I posted “I like a certain type of jewelry...” and then didn’t specify. If you ask me to explain whether I’m talking about rings or necklaces or earrings and I say “NopE! I’m just never going to tell you!” that might be frustrating for you, and you might wonder why I even bother talking about something if I won’t give the details or context you need to really understand what I’m talking about.

But if you continue to harass me about it and send a bunch of asks when I’ve said “conversation’s over, I will not discuss this topic further” then you’re upsetting both me and yourself and gaining nothing here. Even if I didn’t have a reason to withhold info (which applies to the jewelry example but not triggers, as there are legit reasons why someone might not want to talk about triggers) it’s still my choice to stay mum and you can’t force someone into telling you anything. Sometimes you just gotta let it go. 

Let’s recap here.

Someone has something on their blog

You don’t understand the thing 

You want to understand the thing

They won’t explain the thing

Not knowing the thing upsets you

Now you have two options:

Just accept that you don’t know the thing they’re talking about and probably won’t ever know the thing and continue to follow the blog

Or unfollow the blog so you stop being exposed to the unknown thing and move on

Getting more specific to your situation, sometimes people are triggered by a specific thing because it was associated with a traumatic memory.

Let’s give a hypothetical- say I had a traumatic experience involving a Honda Odyssey. Now whenever I see posts with a Honda Odyssey car shown or mentioned, I get panic attacks. So I ask folks to tag things that are related to the Honda Odyssey vehicle. 

But I might not want to explain why I have that particular trigger because then I have to talk about something that I find really hard to talk about or think about, or maybe I don’t want to share something traumatic and personal with the whole world wide web. 

So maybe I was hit by a car once and was left with a traumatic brain injury and the car happened to be a Honda Odyssey. Or maybe I was abused in the back of a Honda Odyssey by a family member once. And so on. There’s a lot of things that can cause someone to be triggered by a random object/show/topic/etc and sometimes they’ll ask for their mutuals to tag it without them also wanting to explain why those things are triggering. People have the right to privacy.

Nobody “owes” you an explanation of their deepest traumas- but you don’t owe anyone a “follow” either. If you can’t accept that you don’t know what their triggers are or why they’re triggering and it’s becoming an obsession for you, you need to take a step back, disengage and take care of your own self.

There’s going to be a lot of stuff on the internet you find upsetting. There will be people who are intentionally trying to mess with you, there will be well meaning people who you have misunderstandings with, there will be hostile people, people who will refuse to explain themselves, people who are mean, rude, transphobic, racist, abusive, etc. There will be posts and blogs with triggering things and videos that are disturbing or have misinformation.

You need to take care of yourself, which means avoiding places you know will be upsetting, whether that’s certain blogs or entire websites, the comments section on most websites, particular tags, etc, and recognizing when you’re getting stuck on something that’s frustrating or harmful to you, and trying to redirect yourself.

Our Mental health page has a few links you may find useful, and I’d suggest getting a therapist because they can help you work on coping when you get stuck like this.

And yes, you gotta stop asking them about it.

#Lee says #abuse m #trauma m #not trans related #triggers #ableist language m #stupid / #Anonymous

[bisluthq]

Ok so I’m a project runway fan and I’ve watched both Karlie seasons of project runway and I can’t see that girl intentionally causing any conflict between people at all. Like that other anon said I really think Karlie is a middle ground type of person because she doesn’t want to upset anyone. Both of her seasons all Karlie Kloss gave was sweet, almost syrupy sweet to the point where I was like omg babe give me more one good jab, something. I’m sure some project runway og fans are gonna come for her ass if her personality doesn’t move beyond sweet. The only time she ever gave a near searing critique to their faces was the Dinner With The Kushners guy and even that wasn’t that bad because they didn’t dwell on it. She didn’t pop off when the panel was talking about his garments like I thought she would after her initial cheap pockets critique it was all kept professional I feel to a fault. I like some drama on the judging panel and Karlie’s presence almost feels like she’s a referee keeping the Brandon Maxwells of the show from digging in too much or the Elaines of the show from being too easy on some of the contestants. Elaine is the perfect example of sweet and sassy, she’s got a bite to her that Karlie doesn’t. Karlie doesn’t come across as being a conflict kind of person but it does make sense that she would try to tell her friend hey you just met this guy and stuff like that. But I feel like if Taylor was insistent Karlie wouldn’t double down I think she would be like okay I see your point. She really does have major people pleasing, conflict avoiding vibes.

I mean yeah but that’s exactly why she would’ve been annoyed with Taylor for being messy and causing shit like idk it makes complete sense to me that someone sweet and conflict avoidant and hyper monogamous would be grumbly about her bestie being a messy bitch on main and fighting with people who were fundamentally ~useful (Karlie has had Kim promo her shit and Karlie promos Kim’s shit, it’s a good alliance).

To me what I’m saying: “this pissed Karlie off” is completely in agreement with every fan of Karlie’s (or just someone who has watched a lot of her content like you) read of her personality. She would never have wanted to get embroiled in the Summer of Mess it’s like the antithesis to everything Karlie stands for.

#nat talks kaylor

[bisexualdaemon]

I respect your post a lot. After the chat box last night and the interviews today I'm really not feeling this album. I'm resistant to just stop "stanning" him because 1) coming to tumblr and talking with you guys has been a thing that brings me joy, it's fun and 2) I really think he's an awesome person but I just can't get myself into this album if all he talks about is her, 3) he just feels so disconnected from his fans. I'm really only here now for the tumblr community lol

fandom is supposed to be fun! and idk I think a lot of people are jumping to conclusions so fast about what he’s going to talk about. it’s not like these interviews are going on and on at length about her. it’s anecdotes. small things. add those up compared to how much he’s talking about the music itself it’s not even equal. like he’s talking about the music more. so it becomes about intentionality. what do YOU want out of this experience? what do YOU want to spend your time and energy on? I know this sounds like some kind of high horse but I know you’ve all seen the ups and downs on my blog. but last night....after watching that video six times....I found tears around the third time and just really thought about it and found some clarity. I’m trying out a new leaf. this year has been miserable and it’s only going to be more miserable if I let this affect me in a negative way. if I choose anger over joy. for me, anger is always the easiest choice (I’m a triple fire sign so like, yeah), but if I want to love him, if I want to be in this fandom....I gotta find the joy again. blocking her out...not bottling those feelings up but choosing intentionally to avoid things I know will upset me....that’s something I can actively change about my own behavior to give me the joy I want from him. the joy I crave. 

we gotta find our own serotonin in this life, babes ❤️

#asks

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #293

“your head upon a stick would look really sick, but they would call me crazy for the way i spoke to it”

Hey bitch, what's your fucking name? What a start, jc lmao. Brittany. What color are your nails? They're not painted. Last time you got some ass? Well this survey's gonna be a journey. Many years ago. Do your parents like your style/music choices? Yeah, at least most of it. Some music my mom really doesn't like or just hates, while I can't even imagine Dad's reaction to some bands I enjoy. Ever seen your parents make out? tbh would rather slam my ankle on a Razor scooter. What's your dream height and weight? Forget about my height, if I could just be at least 120 again... Do you put your hair up a lot or down? It's too short to put up. Most of the time do you straighten or curl your hair? Neither. What do you do when your house loses power? Light a bunch of candles and carry flashlights. What piercing do you hate? I'm not a fan of cheek piercings. Were you raised in a religious house? Yes. I grew up going to Sunday school and church, even though I hated both. Do your parents get mad when you're on the computer for hours? Gah... it was a very, very big source of argumentative fuel between Mom and me all the way up to my late teenage years when she just gave up; now, it's to be expected and is completely "normal." I always wanted to be on the computer once I was introduced to it; she tried to limit my time on it, and it was without fail what she would take away whenever I was grounded. I'd even sneak onto it when I wasn't allowed to if she wasn't home and Dad was in their room. My mom really did try to keep me from being hooked on technology, she really did, it just didn't work, but dear god I wish it did. I just about turn into a caveman without some form of it, and it's pretty pathetic. Dad meanwhile has never really cared much, but he'd make a comment here and there that would make me self-conscious about it. Have you ever been asked for a nude picture? No, and guess who would be ignored for the rest of their lives if they did. It's so fucking disrespectful and objectifying to me. If someone wants to send a partner something like that by their own volition, that's cool, but asking, that just seems incredibly rude to me and turns the person into an object of lust. Ever been so scared you pissed? Caaan't say I have. Can you watch scary movies at night and not be scared? Yeah, they've never really fazed me. Last reason you got your cell taken away? I actually don't know if that's ever happened, given the aforementioned computer thing. I was never hooked on my phone. Could you handle working on a farm? Nooooo, that is way too much physical exertion. Have you ever been attacked by an animal? No. Have you ever had to put an animal to sleep? ugh Do you have a favorite type of firework? Well, visually I really just like the big colorful ones, but I don't endorse the use of fireworks anymore. Some animals literally die from fear, they can be seriously upsetting to veterans with PTSD (you could have one in your neighborhood and never know you indirectly gave them a panic attack), and they're a large source of litter. Where would/did you get your first tattoo? My right wrist. What's your favorite kind of pet? Snakes. Favorite dinosaur? Spinosaurus is obviously the coolest. It's always been my fave. How many pets do you have? Sigh, just two. Our landlord doesn't want us to get anymore pets than what we came in with. What were two of your favorite Disney movies as child? The Lion King and Finding Nemo. They're still my favorite Disney movies. When carving pumpkins, how do you decide what you're going to do? I haven't carved a pumpkin in years... so idk. Do you own any art supplies? Some, yeah. Do you believe you have a higher IQ than most? Definitely not. What is the name of the doctor that delivered you? I have no clue. Mom knows him for sure because she's mentioned him from my childhood, but I don't. Have you ever seen a Lamborghini in person? Hunny, I live in rural North Carolina. You don't see that level of bougie here lmao. Shane Dawson: funny or annoying? I honestly think he's fucking hilarious. I just have such conflicting feelings about him after "the drama," hearing so many people's opinions (particularly from those who know him so well, like his fiance and Ryland's sister), fact checking, audio cutting and mixing, the whole "people change" philosophy... I don't know. When you have a container of Neapolitan ice cream, what flavor do you leave for last? I ain't touchin' strawberry. Gross. If you could choose to have any superpower ever, what would you pick? I'd wanna be a shapeshifter/druid. What would you be more embarrassed to buy: sex toys or adult diapers? Yikes, sex toys. Given my age, I'd say if I bought adult diapers, people would assume they weren't for me. I'm awkward enough with all things relating to sex to begin with, so. What’s the biggest animal you’ve ever killed? Yo wtf I never have and never will (intentionally) kill an animal. Well, correction: I've killed bugs before, the biggest probably being some spider or something, but I really try to avoid this now. Could you win the Hunger Games? lol hell to the fuck no, have you seen me??? For you, would getting amnesia be a good thing? ... Maybe? Not saying I wanna find out, though. Have you ever been punched in the face? No, plan on keeping it that way. Is morality universal or relative? I question this myself. Who is your favorite late night talk show host? I don't have one. Where do you put your keys when you get home? They stay in my purse. Do you prefer hot coffee or iced coffee? Neither. The sheer variety of questions relating to coffee and tea in surveys boggles my mind, always feel left out that I can't answer 'em lmao. What’s your phone background picture? My lock screen is this pretty, soft aesthetic screen that has "i am strong, i am loved, i am enough" written in the center. I've really needed it for my mental health lately. My home screen is some meerkats. I know, can you believe neither are currently Mark? Have you ever seen a snake in the wild? Plenty. How do you cope with anxiety? Deep breathing, mindfulness and grounding exercises, confiding in my mom, listening to music (usually my favorite calm, instrumental soundtracks, like from the Silent Hill franchise - particularly the second game! - or Shadow of the Colossus), try to nap, play a game as a distraction, watch my favorite YouTubers (typically something funny)... I'm lucky to have learned a lot. Now, if only I could cope with social anxiety... What was the last takeout food you ate? Oh Jesus, how embarrassing is this timing, seeing as it was one of my unhealthiest fast food orders: Son of the Baconator and Baconator fries from Wendy's. It was so fuckin good tho. Who makes you laugh the most? My friend Girt. What does a successful relationship look like to you? One with great communication and total honesty, and when you are able to build each other up and bring out the best in your partner. It's also imperative for you to feel safe being your authetic safe for me to consider it "successful." What do you like to put on your baked potato? "Salt, pepper, butter, cheese, bacon bits." <<<< That's how we do it, lads. What was the most memorable birthday you’ve had? My 16th, but not for good reasons. Would you rather go to the beach or the mountains? That's easy as hell, mountains. I don't like the beach. Do you look in the mirror before you leave the house? Yeah. Not gonna like what I see no matter what, but I'd like to make sure I don't look worse whan what's normal. Have you ever seen someone quit their job in a dramatic way? No. What do you like to dip your fries in? It varies between ketchup and honey mustard. What’s your favorite kind of museum? Science. Do you believe in alternate universes? Nah, I don't think so. Whose house did you last visit? My older sister's. What games do you play on your smart phone? Mostly just Pokemon GO nowadays. I haven't touched Dragons of Atlantis in a long time... Do you know anyone who is colorblind? Jason's older brother is red/green colorblind, I think? Are you the youngest, middle or eldest child in your family? Middle. What’s something you’ve been meaning to do but keep putting off? Ugh, I need to finish decorating my damn room... Got most of the stuff on the walls now, but it's still pretty skeletal in self expression. My motivation is abysmal. Have you ever flown a kite? Oh yeah, I loved to fly a kite with Dad as a little kid when the tobacco field just across the road was barren. Who was the last person you talked about sex/relationships with? My doctor. How many brothers does your father have? I'm almost certain he doesn't have one, just one sister. Do you think you act older or younger than your actual age? It depends on the situation. When it comes to "adulting," I don't have a fuckin clue what I'm doing. I doubt anyone would believe I'm a month shy of 25. In terms of general maturity, I think I act my age, if not older. When was the last time you swam in a pool? It's been years. What are your parents' views on your relationships? Mom is always very supportive so long as they treat me right; she's taken to all my previous partners very well and treated them like family, too. My dad is also supportive as long as I'm treated properly and happy. Is your best friend dating anyone? No. Have you ever babysat before? Twice, but not really willingly. Way too stressful. Do you delete pictures of you and your exes off of Facebook? It took a very, very long time, but all pictures with Jason are forever deleted. Ever had a huge crush on someone who still doesn’t know? Not a huge crush, no. Ever watched porn? No. You do you, but I don't see the appeal of watching some random people fuck. Ever performed in a talent show? No. Would you audition for a reality talent competition? Nope. How many celebrity crushes have you had? I'd say Jesse McCartney, Link Neal, and Mark Fischbach are my only BIG celeb crushes I've had. How many non-celebrity crushes have you had? I dunno, don't feel like reaching back and counting. Ever been compared to a celebrity? Not visually, but with my adoration of animals. Have any embarrassing pictures on Facebook? Oh, I'm sure. None that are horribly embarrassing though, or else I would have deleted them. Ever seen a therapist? I've regularly seen a therapist since the 6th grade. Ever purposely ignored a text? Yep. A Facebook message? Sure have, when I was beyond done arguing with a former friend. A friend request? No, I just decline or accept it. My page is private, so you can't see my activity, and it's not like they get notified if it's declined, Would you say you read into things too much? I am the fucking sovereign of this. If you turned out exactly like your mom would you be pleased? I love my mom to death, but no. I'd be disappointed. Ever had a credit card denied? I've never had one in the first place. Ever had the lead in a play? No. I do remember though in elementary school, I was real bummed that I wasn't Snow White for one we did for Music class. What about a solo in a concert? Never been in a concert. Would it bother you if you found out that your mother was pregnant? Well. One, she's long past menopause. Two, because of ovarian cancer, she had all those organs removed. So, that would be impossible. Have you ever had a threesome? No; I'm personally strictly monogamous and would feel it to be disloyal, even if my parnter was okay with it. What's the last game you used dice for? Not a clue. Are you interested in surfing at all? Have you ever been? No. What brand of bottled water do you prefer? Essentia. What is your favorite type of bird? Barn owls. What is your favorite chocolate candy? motherfuckin REESE'S Have you ever been called a racial slur? No, considering I'm Caucasian. Why did you last stand in line? I was at the doctor's office, I think? What is your favorite pirate movie? /shrug What is your favorite character from Orange Is the New Black? I've never watched it. What was the most unsettling film you’ve seen? Watching the ending to Paranormal Entity was VERY uncomfortable. It was a decently scary movie, but the ending was seriously intense. When was the last time you were snooping, and found something you wish you hadn’t? I don't recall. Which celebrity or band has the worst fan base? I don't know. What are you interested in that most people aren’t? The sheer degree of my love for meerkats would definitely be missed by probably most people. What smartphone feature would you actually be excited for a company to implement? I dunno. Anything I could think of, the most current products probably already have and I'm just uninformed of them. Like, I use a Tracfone lmao. What’s something people don’t worry about but really should? Their plastic usage and disposal. I'm certainly no saint when it comes to plastic either, but I try to do all I can. What movie quotes do you use on a regular basis? Hm, ARE there any? Do you think that children born today will have better or worse lives than their parents? This depends on what you consider "better" and "worse." Environmentally, I honestly don't think mankind can maintain itself for that many more generations at the rate we're currently at, so that's probably just gonna keep getting worse. On the other hand, advances in medicine and things like that will certainly continue to improve quality of life in that sense. Human rights are getting better and better. I do fear that we're becoming too comfortable with laziness and convenience, but I hope that's a decline we don't continue to venture down. What’s the funniest actual name you’ve heard of someone having? I had a college classmate named Apple. Which charity or charitable cause is most deserving of money? Oh, come on now. It's not a competition. What game have you spent the most hours playing? So. When you type /played in World of Warcraft, it will show you your total playtime, and mine is YIKES. Like, around a year's worth of time of pure playing since 2014, I think. What’s the most comfortable bed or chair you’ve ever been in? I don't recall. What’s the hardest you’ve ever worked? When I did WiiFit religiously and lost around 40 pounds in HS. I was in the best shape of my life. What movie, picture, or video always makes you laugh no matter how often you watch it? Oh, there's certainly something. Probably some Unus Annus clip. That channel was a fucking blessing and a curse all the same. If you could have an all-expenses paid trip to see any famous world monument, which monument would you choose? Oh boy, I'd have to think, but probably somewhere in Rome or Greece. What’s the coldest you’ve ever been? I'm unsure. Probably jumping in the pool as a kid. My sisters and I would nag Dad to put the pool up on like the very first day of spring, so of course it was cold, but as a kid, I didn't mind that. What’s the most ridiculous thing you have bought? Hm. What’s the most depressing meal you’ve eaten? Ha ha yiiiikes, struggle foods... I don't know, but I've had some. What outdoor activity haven’t you tried, but would like to? Herping, though I change my mind on-and-off about it. I'm not very into the idea of disturbing wildlife just because they're cool and you wanna check them out. I'd totally go exploring with a camera, though, and not actually pick anything up. If you were given five million dollars to open a small museum, what kind of museum would you create? Hm... I actually think something like an art museum for the mentally ill would be pretty interesting and educational? Even something that could build empathy. Maybe mix some psychology in there to understand conditions.

#survey #surveys #questions #questionnaire #lyrics: ''apex predator'' by otep