#im catholic im allowed to think this

[dlfgnns]

thinking about kim jaewook as choi yoon in the guest again and god DAMN he had no business looking like that as a priest

like,, hear me out

how is it my fault that he looks like that

#im catholic im allowed to think this #and say it too #he looks good how can that be my fault #i might rewatch the guest just for him #like explain his face #obsessed #my feelings toward him are entirely normal #kim jae wook #kim jaewook #kim jae uck #kim jaeuck #the guest #손 the guest

[mourningmaybells]

This game used the audio recordings of Anneliese Michel? It has a girl’s slow death under negligence because of her epilepsy and psychosis (using the brain scans to debunk it makes no sense it was the 70s and even doctors, their machines, and their medicine were ill-equipped. The "proof" was her acting strange around religious iconography, having different personalities, and eating bugs and urine. Nothing as supernatural as 'speaking in different tongues' occurred and her parents were deeply catholic so they're inclined to believe it's the devil. If you look at the dates, it coincides with the rise of the satanic panic.)

So, Airdorf mixed it into a video game boss battle. Yeah I’m not fucking with this game anymore what a sick joke.

#faith the unholy trinity #’you draw the line at this but not Rosemary’s Baby?’ Im not denying its conservative roots but. including the sounds of the disabled for #‘Spooky Points’ is a line I have to draw. I once thought I was being stalked by a cockroach and other such things. #gary miller #michael davies #amy martin #faith by airdorf #john ward #if anyone makes a joke about the cockroach delusion they’re getting blocked my mind isn’t very nice to me already. #and that roach example is the relatively light delusion. #anyways i already have a complicated with catholic horror which is why ive only allowed myself to watch the exorcist. rosemary's baby #and the omen. i think any other movie would make me too mad because i remember conservative movies never stopped being made #the exorcism of emily rose

[soldier-poet-king]

Oh man I looked at the notes on that evolution & Christianity poll (a mistake, clearly), like, how can so many people be so fkin stupid. Yes thats mean of me to say but. Y'all are really out here being strict biblical literalists?? Not even most of the early christian theologians & church fathers were strict biblical literalists?? There is no historical basis to being an extreme literalist abt the bible?? Presumably you received SOME sort of education and can read and think critically?? You can't ALL have been raised in an information restrictive cult??

99% of the time im ready to throw hands with Catholicism because oh boy we have beef and I hate it here, but at least we're not Like That TM.

Oh Fr Georges Lemaître, father of the Big Bang Theory, we're really in it now.

#not to dunk on my Protestant friends ily #but like. protestantism is one hell of a drug. holy shit #like do i think ultimately what you believe about the evolution is the end of the world. no #BUT it indicates underlying literalist thinking which leads to problems that ACTUALLY affevt everyday life #and also just. deliberate ignorance. conspiracy theory thinking #not to b like. one thing leads to another. but these r definitely related patterns of thinking #and as much as im like. I fuckin hate catholics #its current western catholics that i rlly hate #theres at least a long history of intellectual freedom and science #yes at times obvs limited and repressed. but at least its not yknow. literalism. i would fuckin die #are yall really out here thinking abt literal adam and eve and creation in 7 days. really. REALLY? #altho. i went to hs with a young earth creationist who thot dinos and humans existed at the same time #so why. am i not surprised anymore #anyway yeah individual catholics are largely insane and i will fistfight trads #but at least like. INSTITUTIONALLY. we're allowed space to think and question #doctrinally thats allowed. even if trads refuse it in practice #ho ho holy shit yall #deadass did not think there was a significant amount of biblical literalists and creationists on TUMBLR of all places #both atheists and trads who think religion and science are fundamentally opposed. #think again. u r all. dummies. i am too tired to be polite abt it #im tired of ppl with no thinking skills <-its elections here today im extra full of rage #mrk saunders can catch my hands ALSO #i saw someone say that theres no basis to interpret the bible as allegorical #as if everytime Jesus said a parable ans the apostles took it literally #he had to sit them down and be like #boys. i love u. stop being stupid. its an allegory for the people. #WHAT THE FUCK IS A PARABLE IF NOT AN ALLEGORICAL INSTRUCTIVE STORY #genuinely. maybe i am naive. but deadass thot the adam and steve crowd thing was a joke. not a genuine argument against the gays #or at the very least a rare opinion blown out of proportion #ARE YALL OK IN PROTESTANT MAJORITY AREAS???????

[fellhellion]

tunes talking about the same shit again etc etc but something i find really compelling about the 90s run, that you can feel sitting under the narrative even if Miguel the character (understandably) doesn't dig into it, is this awareness about the unsaid and deeply complicated relationship Miguel must have with physical retaliation given the fact he suffered a household with domestic violence, and he's a character terrified of becoming his father.

how he never fought back as a child because yes, he was a kid, but also he lived in the actively instilled fear that retaliation or rebellion would incur his father's abuse down upon Gabriel and Conchata.

how miguel doesn't strike his father as an adult because he thought he might accidentally kill him yes, and he didn't want an easy end for george o'hara, but just. the fact that miguel refuses to linger on any connection between his refusal to hit george, and the fact miguel's also so scared of becoming his father. he never connects those two concepts in his own introspection but given how deep that fear runs, i can't help but think on the connection between them.

vs again physical retaliation as spiderman but solely as a means to protect and defend. finally hitting back but it's against the oppressive forces that seek to grind you down to dust.

#or even miguel's miserable walk through the rain after seeing conchata fkjsfjds where hes thinking about the fact he doesn't feel #guilty for tacitly allowing vulture's death and how guilty he feels for allowing himself for remain blind to the suffering his actions have #perpetuated in nueva york. LIKE. miguel never lingers on it but man. i cannot help but think he must supress lingering on the fact he doesn #feel sorry vulture is dead. and to be clear im not alluding in any way that he's like. morally bankrupt for vulture #i think its a really REALLY interesting piece of characterisation to have a character go i WOULD allow this threshold because the #damage and destruction he sought to cause - my own DISGUST at the kind of man he was - was too much. #i think it was also as much about the fact that vulture kept trying to allude to them being the same. and it was a violent reckoning for #miguel about the kind of work he'd been complicit in. in allowing vulture's death u get the rebirth of spiderman idk idk he's a lapsed #catholic im running w what i got here for the Imagery purposes lmao #long post #tunes talks 2099

[forestofsprites]

i'm at 33 bastardly pages of notes from my research this afternoon, and the absolute best that i have to show for it is my desperation to explore cas's confession and death through the lens of death sentence speeches & subsequent executions in 17th/18th century england!!!!!!!!

#there are more parallels than youd think #i could extend it to french capital punishment too #but that was a staunch roman catholic gig compared to england's little protestant fanfare #and the most crucial component is the notion of your little predeath spiel in english hangings. absent from french #(save for amende honorable?? could argue that maybe) im so tired i cant make this make much sense atm #but for the english system. the sort of best possible ending was giving your autobio speech of ideally guilt #youd bare your sins. youd ask for forgiveness. #youd fucking die #^ very oversimplified im exhausted #and here you have cas #who in the context of spn was never allowed to be gay and in gay love #not by the confines of the show #and his admission to dean was just that- admitting his greatest sin #in turn his true happiness #anyway #then he fucking dies #look #it makes a lot more sense when im not tired #i will make a post #with citations #and we will all love it

[corvidcall]

i think everyone should take time to think about their religious background and how it impacts their morals, manners, and their idea of what a religion even IS

But also when i do that for myself i think the results are really funny

#anime life #i went to Catholic school but got switched to public school when they raised tuition #my family is Catholic but my dad would leave mass after communion to beat traffic #and we stopped going when they asked him for money too many times #(my mom never took us to church bc my dad told her she wasn't allowed to since she divorced him) #(normal behavior) #but also i grew up in an extremely Jewish neighborhood in an already really Jewish metro area #we lived next to a synagogue. my childhood best friend was the son of the rabbi #also my stepmom is a secular Jew #so its like. YES i am Catholic but im not good at it #when i say I'm Catholic people assume my family must be really conservative #(my mom's a socialist and my dad+stepmom are die hard democrats) #really the main thing that being raised Catholic left me with is that im a shame-based organism #I think pleasure is good and hedonism is good and there's nothing immoral about it but also IM not allowed to do it #why? I don't know. that's not my business #also i remember when Bernie was running i saw some women on twitter say that he yells too much and its scary #which was funny to me because every time i hear him im like 'oh yeah this sounds like every adult i knew as a kid' #'that right there is a friend. feels safe' #anyway i miss living in a really jewish area. i can't get good corned beef ANYWHERE out west #there's no point to this post really #i just think it's funny what a huge presence Judaism has had in my life when im literally Catholic #and also how very bad my family is at being Catholic

[iscariotapologist]

one thing about growing up sda is despite being otherwise largely unable to do math i learned from a strangely early age how to calculate 10% of an amount of money. which i now still use to calculate tips since i have not paid tithe since i was like 13. also it's kind of fucked up to make a kid pay tithe on their chore money and the whole time i was convinced that god would somehow manifest it back to me pressed down shaken together running over and so on. still waiting on this return on my investments

#of course it helps that its a very simple operation lmao #my parents were republicans so i didnt get a regular allowance i had to do chores and keep track of their corresponding uhh salaries? #it was a pretty efficient system for my parents i think #i feel like this system went away after a while and i just had to clean and not get money. im not sure though i don't remember a lot of it #anyway im sure other denominations are equally weird about tithe but i never heard my catholic friend talk about it so as a kid i had #the impression that it was an adventist thing but i don't think that's true #like obviously all churches want money lmao #me

[supercantaloupe]

love that to give awards/recognition out to the uni’s top donors they got Just Some Guys

#sasha speaks #ig it's nice of them to want to involve the musicians more than just playing during the cocktail hour #but still. i think it's funny. lady i'm just Some Guy. i'm not even a grad. #you want ME to give the guy who donated a cool mil to the theology school an award?? i'm not even catholic #also theyre not even paying me real money im getting a GIFT CARD the uni is ONLY ALLOWED TO PAY US WITH GIFT CARDS #LOL #academia is WILD #at least it's something

[menotthatkindoforc]

why must Catholic families bury their dead at church cemeteries. what if i want to visit the resting places of my grandparents and not run into people that are probably going to judge the fuck out of me

#i think my uncle is a deacon at that church now #idk when me and my bf will venture that deep into Louisiana because it's 6 hours from here #but the thought of visiting that cemetery with my bf is a little intimidating #not sure how those ppl feel about an interracial gay couple #and there's like no chinese ppl there either... #anyway although my dad's parents had some views i strongly disagree with (namely the racism even tho one had kinda recent black ancestry) #they brought a lot to my life and I'd like to visit their graves sometime #and absolutely not visit any of my living family UNLESS it's to slap my aunt across the face #anyway my bf wants to go to lake charles sometime (which is 2 hours from here but 3 hours from the cemetery) #and the thought crossed my mind #but im not gonna make us do it on this trip whenever it may be #some damn good food in Louisiana tho.. #im sorry if you're Catholic I don't have anything specifically against you because ppl are allowed their faith #and i think religion on an individual level can be a really beautiful thing for ppl if it helps them get through life #but for me.. i never really felt it #and i also have issues with religion as a... institution

[dyke-ulaura]

for lent im giving up jokes about giving up for lent

#i dont think im religious enough to be allowed to joke like this #im catholic in theory okay

[barnbridges]

no but it's funny that.... bunny corcoran doesn't just hate women, he hates nuns, the virgin mary and his classmate. women with agency. women revered and regarded in catholicism.

#he wants to be a catholic so bad #ghjk #the only thing that stops me from writing the idea that.... the catholic/protestant divide plays into how bunny views camilla #is that ofc... in terms of watsonist analysis yes he actively chooses to be a sexist and preach this #but in doylean terms i think it IS the greater cultural hatred of that catholicism treats women differently #and uplifts nuns and the virgin and women of the faith #as opposed to protestant denominations which yes allow women ministers and such #but have an overall lesser view of women in the scripture and church #especially when we speak to that... bunny was not as much a hardcore episcopalian to where his personal beliefs can be 100% confounded #with his particular denomination #but rather an umbrella protestant and a vehicle for general sentiments of greater calvinist ideas #which im again ... an atheist raised in an orthodox environment i only know my shit from the internet #so #i dont want to be mean when protestants clearly don't go around like fucking saying women shouldnt have jobs

[cruelsister-moved2]

i think western society is sadly missing like safe ritualised enclosures for expressing emotions which may be frightening/irrational/destabilising/taboo etc. im sure someone has pointed this out long before i have, but one of the purposes of ritual is to create a space which is outside of daily life, to say that what happens here won’t impact life outside this ritual space (for example, there are a lottt of ritualistic traditions where women are temporarily either empowered or allowed to behave in a way which would normally be unacceptable, because a closed space has been created where everyone is assured that this behaviour will not threaten the social hierarchy). and frequently it allows for the safe expression of emotion which potentially poses a risk to the society (for better or worse; e.g allowing women to vent their anger at being subjugated is cathartic, but also insulates that anger from doing any damage even when that might be kind of a good thing). of course sometimes we need to take our anger into normal life and use it to change things there, but every single person, especially marginalised and suffering people, is carrying around huge emotional burdens which are not useful to them or anyone that have nowhere to go. i also think we see a lot of really dark and nasty shit going on in private because people don’t have these safe, communal outlets that are designed to direct ‘dangerous’ emotions in a harmless way so they learn to vent them in a private space with absolutely no boundaries instead 

#we are also always coming up with new things to try and replicate that #but i think a lot of people are just crying out for an opportunity to go somewhere and act a bit fucking insane for a bit #in a process that like guides you through an experience which is opened and then sealed off #allowing you to like empty it all out and then go back into the world as normal #which ofc like i said can be a bad thing but also sometimes we like really need that. it hink we need it more than ever #it doesnt work just by thinking that though because the point of the ritual part is actually shaping a scenario #that effectively convinces all participants that they are experiencing something other #and we are a lot harder to convince nowadays hdfghfdg #and obviously i say western society as a general like there are a lot of individuals and groups in the west who Do have this #but western society doesnt have it as like a built in part of the society #interesting to me how many catholics are like . secretly absolutely depraved in some way #because you literally believe god is watching you all the time and judging you for almost anything #then you snap and do something and then you think well. im going to hell anyway now #but catholic confession would be like a textbook example of what im talking about tbh #i just think its not a supportive and cathartic environment but a shame inducing one so its very backwards about it

[lakesbian]

here's every way wildbow accidentally made pre-meiosis "russel" thorburn transgender that i can remember. if you can think of any reasons i forgot please add on

his parents named his younger sister "ivy," as if the obvious grandmother-pandering name "rose" had already been used up. blake theorizes that they used a male version of "rose" for PMT, but this is nonsensical--there is no male form of the name rose, and everything he comes up with as a possible option (in other words, everything wildbow came up with as a possible option) is a major stretch. most don't sound even tangentially like the name "rose." it makes far more sense to assume that PMT was afab and had the deadname rose. (this also makes sense on a thematic level wrt how rose thorburn jr is supposed to be the Real heir that grandmother is forcing blake to die for, but that's getting besides the point)

rose has memories of being harassed over the inheritance by her female cousins, and the idea of these memories just being wholly pulled out of thin air when basically everything else involves memories either being split btwn blake and rose or erased altogether is weird

blake is friends with, like. a lot of gay people. textually runs in poor gay artist circles. the idea of them adopting this weirdly cool cis straight guy is funny but it makes a lot more sense if PMT was trans + gay and only got turned into a straight guy (and a straight girl) yesterday, due to the homophobia demon

PMT literally thinks "Besides, why devote any more attention to your son, when you could just start over?  Have that beautiful baby girl you wanted, right?" which is also like one of the only pieces of internal narration we get from PMT in the entire story. first girl they named rose ran away and did some shit with their gender so now they have a second girl they can't name rose but can still try to raise to go for the inheritance

in the same chapter as when pmt says that, callan is like ohhh you think youre going to worm your way in-, implied sentence ending being "-to the inheritance," which is, like. the family knows it's going To A Girl. so.

PMT was childhood friends with paige, who is The Gay Cousin. it is deeply sensible to imagine them bonding over this, regardless of whether or not PMT (or even paige) knew at the time

it is, like, fully possible for a cishet dude to get sick of living with his shitty toxic abusive family and abscond at the age of 17, but also homelessness is an extremely prevalent issue among transgender kids in abusive families. the narrative of a transmasc kid growing up in an abusive, catholic extended family where girls are pressured to compete for a very gendered inheritance + leaving at the age of 17 & finding a new home among a bunch of gay artists is Significantly more compelling than the cis dude alternative. it just is.

okay i think im running out of, like, logical errors that make sense only if pmt was trans prior to the Obliteration, so as for the thematic stuff. like i said, rose being the half grammy decided was supposed to be "real" and blake being the half that's supposed 2 die for her 2 exist, rose just being unhappy and disconnected by nature of existence while blake is the parts of pmt that escaped from the constraints of the family + found happiness, so on and so forth. "catholic grandmother literally obliterated her transmasc nonbinary grandchild by splitting them into two binary gendered halves & expecting that the man they could've been die to allow the acceptable woman--literally forced to dress in grandmother's clothes--live on and do as grandmother wished" is Everything, doing the same thing but to a cis man grandchild is significantly less compelling

Others who r very old/operating on what are explicitly stated to be oppressive and antiquated gender roles as per the book's themes about inherited/traditional forms of harm keep mistakenly calling blake she/her and rose lmao

??? probably some other thangs im forgetting

#pact time #pact textpost

[knightsickness]

you didn’t say if criston had seen house of 1000 corpses

criston hasnt seen ho1kc but not for the reason youd think he doesnt have any religious or moral objection to the content. he sees larys in a directed by robb zombie shirt and kind of scoffs and larys needles him like oh was it too much for you catholic baby? and hes like no its too derivative of texas chainsaw massacre. and larys is like so youve seen it? and hes like no i read the synopsis and larys is like how could you know you dont like it if you havent seen it thats ridiculous. and cristons like im allowed to have opinions and larys is like ‘too derivative’ nobodys saying midsommar is too derivative of wicker man. and cristons like i wouldnt know i dont watch woman directors and larys is like ari aster isnt a woman and cristons like shes not? this conversation takes place in cristons car he has a blue lives matter air freshener

#asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #hotd #house of the dragon #criston cole #larys strong #robb zombie is a joke do not call me a fake fan

[camryntheking]

Ok! My thoughts on 7x05!

First, i just wanna say that the whole Hen and Karen storyline is awesome! I love that the show is giving queer people so much screen time, especially a Black lesbian couple! And i think its super sweet that they really want to try for Mara! I hope it works out!

Next, i think that has been my favorite cold open so far. The “ITS MEEE” gets me every time (i have already watched it loads of times). I dont have much to comment on it other than it was funny as fuck

Ok. The date scene. I was hoping to see more of Eddie watching them (especially after the stills), but oh well. The second-hand embarrassment i got was… a lot. But i dont think its necessarily a bad thing. It showed how out of his comfort zone Buck was and how he was trying to navigate a terrifying situation. And Tommy? I might have to retract my earlier retraction. Cos wtf?? Literally had just finished talking about how its hard to accept yourself in a “macho” field, then makes a dig at Buck when he fumbles? Not cool. Then not communicating what was happening until he was getting in the Uber? You dont just abandon someone at a restaurant like that. I understand the “you’re not ready” thing, but that was a dick move.

Also, Buck, baby. Sweetheart. Darling. “I look at hot guys’ asses.” Sweetie. Like Maddie said. You are more than an ally lmao. I also just love how Maddie showed interest in getting to know who Buck was talking about and treating the convo after like a normal convo. Because it is! And i love it! But she also emphasized talking to Eddie, because she knew that Eddie would not react poorly. I feel like that just shows how everyone knows how close Buck and Eddie are. TLDR, Maddie is an awesome sister and Buck is lucky to have her ❤️

Next point, the scene where Buck and Tommy talk over coffee. I do think that the hand holding at the end is very sweet and shows how Buck is really trying to be more open, but Tommy is just really starting to rub me the wrong way. Pretty much everything he said contradicts what happened in the date scene. I feel like him being at the wedding is really gonna spark some Jealous Eddie, tho, so i am excited to see that lmao

And Eddie and Marisol? I feel like the show is going in a direction that leads them to breaking up. Like yes, it is showing growth for Eddie and allowed him to acknowledge that he has Catholic guilt, but theres just. No chemistry. It feels awkward. I feel like her being an ex-nun is gonna bring up some issues with Buck and Eddie will not stand for that. I also wanted to point out that i got even more vibes that Eddie could be demisexual, cos he didnt straight up say that he loved Shannon, just that he loved being married to her. And he knows that he is moving too fast and needs to step back a bit

Finally, Buck coming out to Eddie. I do find it funny that Eddie seemed more shocked that Tommy wasnt straight than figuring out Buck isnt straight. But its awesome that Eddie showed interest and genuinely wanted to help Buck through the issue. And the hug? Finally! Give me men not being afraid to hug each other! I feel like this is allowing Buck and Eddie to become even closer (i do hope for Buddie eventually)

Overall, i feel like this episode was great for setting up the development of Buck and Eddie’s relationship (whether it ends up being platonic or romantic). And i am all for Buck exploring his sexuality with someone that isnt Eddie. While Tommy isnt my favorite right now, i do think that he is great for the progression of Buck’s story. I do hope to see more of Dad!Bobby in the coming episodes and how Buck’s parents might react to Tommy. I dont wanna wait three weeks for the next episode 😢. Im ready for the chaos of the Madney wedding

If i think of anything else ill add on, but i think thats all i have for now. Feel free to share your thoughts!

#911 abc #bi buck #buddie #evan buckley #9 1 1 abc #911 cast #911 on abc #911 show #buddie 911 #tv: 911 #eddie diaz #tommy x buck #buck x tommy #tommy kinard #hen wilson #karen wilson #maddie buckley #chimney han #911 marisol #gay #bisexual #evan buck buckely #demisexual #bobby nash #bucktommy #buck x eddie #henren #911 7x05

[screech-bling]

i finished TSATS a couple hours ago and i have a lot to say on some of the shit it’s been getting (keep in mind, i truly did not care abt solangelo before this novel… so this isn’t even coming from a solangelo stan)

TSATS SPOILERS

on nico’s characterization:

- before reading TSATS, i was the FIRST person to complain abt fanon nico. i’ve always HATED when ppl make him dark humor-y and proud and stuff bcz he literally grew up a catholic in 1930s. in the HoO and lowkey ToA era, his ass was NOT frequently making gay jokes and “lol i’m so dead inside” jokes

- i like how in ToA we get to see him be slightly less brooding than in HoO, bcz it shows us that he’s evolving as a person (kinda like real three dimensional human beings tend to do)

- in TSATS, with him now being in a healthy relationship and a safe environment, i think it’s fair to assume he’s changed. i would say the change was fast… but he’s a teenager, and coming from another teenager… im a completely different person than i was 3 months ago so honestly i can 100% believe it

- the one nico characterization thing i didn’t love was his talk w/ piper (and the lil nas x thing but i like to pretend that didn’t happen) … it was pushing it. but i’ll allow it bcz i imagine it could be beneficial to some kids… just wish that same message could’ve been conveyed through will or something?

on will’s characterization:

- i don’t think it’s fair to say he was just “dumbed down” or being an asshole… he was in tartarus. and he spends 90% of the book being injured or severely exhausted.

on them being cringe:

they’re teenagers and it’s a middle grade book. if ur gonna tell me u wouldn’t have said that kinda shit in ur first or second relationship as a teenager… ur fuckin lyin.

on them being a percabeth “rip-off”:

honestly, i truly thought this was the case until they started genuinely bickering. that’s when i realized that they’re a completely new archetype to the riordanverse… a VERY fresh and nuanced one at that.

- love for percabeth comes easy, percy’s bullshittery is endearing, annabeth’s know-it-all-ness(???) is endearing, they’re obsessed with each other 100% of the time. even when the other does something stupid it’s always “i was annoyed, but i love them so much”.

- for solangelo, they have moments where they are genuinely just annoyed and frustrated with each other because- say it with me now- they’re three dimensional!!! not every couple is percabeth, not every couple has to be percabeth, and not every couple should be percabeth. they’re very sweet (they’re my favorite ship in all of riordanverse btw), but also pretty unattainable and rare in the real world.

- i also think it should be noted that percy and annabeth went through a lot of their trauma together vs. will and nico, who didn’t experience most of their trauma together… so instead of it bringing them closer like percabeth’s might, it puts a strain on them.

in conclusion: TSATS is my second favorite percy jackson book. (my first being HoH)

⭐️ ☀️

#TSATS was not even bad guys calm down #don’t let the milennial humor ruin it all #and don’t let the concept of characters (who are teens) changing jumpscare u #rick riordan #riordanverse #rrverse #pjo #hoo #toa #the sun and the star #tsats #tsats rant #tsats spoilers #solangelo #percabeth