#im not going to tag all of them. that would be terrible

[the-director]

So I'm obsessed with steven universe again. And I know there's a lot of discourse/heated discussion surrounding rose/pink diamond and pearl and Greg. Specific things seem to be up for debate. Did rose love pearl? Would that be fucked up considering the power imbalance when they first met, when pink owned pearl? Was pearl and rose in an open relationship, was pearl upset because rose was polyamorous?

I'm of the opinion that rose did love pearl just as pearl loved rose but there was no formal confession between the two of them. There was affection, and feelings were messy. After all they were fighting a war, and then after that they were traumatized with their many friends shattered or corrupted. I don't think rose was ever good at confrontation, and neither was pearl. It would make sense for the two of them to avoid their important discussion of boundaries and feelings. Especially since romance and interpersonal relationships are not supported on homeworld, and for humanity thousands of yrs ago things were different.

Now here's the main thing that I'm interested in: Greg and rose. Why Greg is *different* why he was roses "favorite" why pearl was so jealous of him.

Because he didn't put rose on a pedestal. I think everyone in the show is guilty of this, turning her into a figure beyond believe. Whether it's pearl, or garnet telling her tales of rebellion. Or jasper and the rest of homeworld hating her and as evidence from the off colors some even thinking she wasn't real merely a mythical figure. And this doesn't change from her as pink diamond, garnet telling steven and the off colors how evil and cruel she was, making her into a malicious villain. Or homeworld, blue diamond crying for the innocent pink killed by her own rose quartz.

But Greg didn't care about any of that, he didn't care about where she came from or how others thought of her (neither his friend Vidalia, nor the crystal gems) He saw beyond all that and got to know her by talking to her and showing her human stuff.

Greg is very emotionally intelligent, amethyst is too. Amethyst I think also put rose on a pedestal, at least a bit. But she approaches it in a different way than garnet and pearl. And I can't really blame her, perhaps amethyst saw rose as a mother figure? But I'm getting ahead of myself, I'll need to contemplate amethyst later.

Anyways. Greg is able to approach people in a different way than others. I think characters in the show, and perhaps some of the audience. Might get the impression that Steven's ability to talk to people, to calm them down, to get them to think differently, comes from rose. But I'd wager it comes from Greg. And I think maybe Greg had that sort of influence on Rose, too. This is somewhat speculation.

#also if you think rose is straight. a heterosexual. sorry. but WRONG #steven universe #rose quartz #pink diamond #greg #steven quartz #ig #agsjhdkdhf #pearl #amethyst #im not going to tag all of them. that would be terrible #character analysis

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

most days I'm so chill with the fact I'm non-contact with my father, it was the best decision, I hate him, my life is so much more peaceful without him

then bam it's a random Tuesday at 8pm and I'm sobbing because I miss having a dad, like, excuse me what is this??

#im ping ponging between its all his fault he made all those decisions to maybe he was doing what he thought was right #i barely ever had a dad so i dont know what im crying for pff #if he died tomorrow I'm not sure I'd go to his funereal I don't want him at my wedding #but sometimes I want him to just hold me and read me narnia like he did when I was 9 #my parents were terrible but its cause they didnt know what they were doing but i dont know how to make peace with that #would it have killed them to be nice to me? #this is very simplified but yk #gonna go read some draco scorpius centred fanfics now to make me cry more cant wait!! #i hate him i hate him i HATE HIM I HATE HIM #but i didnt always and i dont want to but there are things you just cant take back #anywayz thats enough trauma dumping on main lmfao #if anyone has any father child centred fanfictions do let me know and give them to me plz thanks #daddy issues #are screaming #scorpius malfoy #and god do i hate his new wife #this is way too many tags im sorry to anyone whos made it down here lmfao

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[iratusmus]

#hi im not dead !! tee hee #anyways its incredible how like 99% of the absolute most bonkers scourge takes #come from people who entirely erase her existence from his life! funny how that works huh #like you dont have to ship them i dont care. frankly ride-or-die evil besties fiona & scourge is something that i would 1000% be down for #being the aroace sonic truther i am. #however. if you rip her completely out and throw her to the wayside #despite the fact that she has been a major part of like all of his appearances after he becomes scourge #then there is a 99.9999999999999999999% chance your takes suck horrifically #and also you do not understand scourge as a character. or sonic for that matter since a lot of the time the terrible takes overlap #i was about to say ''i cant believe i came out of an entirely unannounced 3 week hiatus just to complain #about the fandom's take on something to do with archie sonic'' #but actually this is incredibly on brand #anyways fiona justice. its so sad its so sad #like whenever i post something with fiona in it and somebody tags her i immediately go check their tag #just to find that my 3 art pieces are the only things in there #come on guys lets do better #well. actually given the way half the fandom treats scourge im not sure if i want them touching fiona #well . then i guess *ill* have to do better #make it four art pieces instead of three

[steelycunt]

ridi im sorry i need to rant and i think youll get it 😭 like not to be a bitch but this fandom kinda going off the rails and annoying the shit out of me https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRbYASpf/ everybody in the comments unironically loving it,,, i mean wtvr ship who you want but its kinda getting delusional like ppl are just operating on thin air and pretty fancasts atp and i do Not understand or emotionally connect with any of it. at least w wolfstar theres so much material and foundation to explore but what is all the rest of this?? just hot celebrity fancasts and crack. to be fair part of me respects taking a terfs canon material and making everybody gay but the way it seems to be so oversaturating fics and the fandom that characters dont even feel like their original selves .. atp its all just surface level OCs

hello! yes! i'll be honest talking about things like this always make me a little nervous, and i feel obligated to preface anything i say with a disclaimer that none of it really matters, nothing i say matters, and you should do what you like, because--who cares. i am not an authority on--anything, frankly. my opinion holds no more weight than the next guy's, and all i'm doing here is giving it, so. essentially what im saying is--people are perfectly entitled to disagree with me, but people are not entitled to be mean to me about it xx

having said that. it is my personal opinion that s x barty is one of the worst fucking things i have ever heard lol. who even is barty who is that guy. why would s be interested in him at all. i do not understand it it does not make sense to me. from where are we sourcing the character traits and personality that we are giving barty that would ever endear sirius to him, because it objectively cannot be canon.

overall i do not get the new interest in barty + evan + pandora (+ regulus, but we won't go there)...at all, other than guessing that people were bored with the marauders and wanted a new version of them (and new celebrities to fancast) while simultaneously changing next to nothing about them other than superimposing them onto the first slytherin side characters they could rustle up. i expect ive become a bit of a broken record in regards to my dislike of the popular meow-meow-ification + complete absolution of regulus as a character in order to make him a loveable oc (just as i think erasing all the negative traits that r/s have in order to make them more likeable is just as boring), and all of that applies to those other guys as well (with the slight difference that they are, somehow, even less interesting and significant than regulus in canon), so i won't get into that too much. but i think what you say about having no emotional connection to any of it is exactly right lol--it is a sort of shift? i guess? in the fandom that is simply of no interest to me. they are characters that i just have no emotional investment in and admittedly struggle a little to understand why other people do. i am emotionally invested in, like, five characters overall (and even out of those--there's only two i'm really here for innit xx) and i personally cannot extend that investment to a creepy little side character who is mentioned maybe twice in the entire series.

and that is okay! i do not need to understand it. i don't want to say it annoys me because honestly--i don't go there, its nothing to do with me. if i dont like it i just wont interact with it, and the fact that it doesn't interest me has no bearing on what other people are into or want to do, and i couldn't give less of a shit what people do with the canon material, which is largely garbage anyway. take the bits you want from it, play around with those and ignore the rest. in that respect we are all doing exactly the same thing. but yeah i think s x barty is genuinely awful lol. hate it. very terrible. he's already got a loser werewolf boyfriend and he loves him so so much. leave him alone.

#i know most people are reasonable and thus it is perhaps overly cautious of me to insist on shrouding my unpopular #opinions in like. layer upon layer of placatory disclaimers but. well im a rather anxious guy i can't help it xx but im going to use these #tags to have a bit more of a consequence-less hater hour so. if you like regulus or barty or any of that lot i suggest you look away now #because i am about to express opinions about them that you probably wouldnt agree with + wouldnt enjoy reading!! #like full warning what im about to do is NOT any sort of analysis or defence of my opinion i will just be hating on them. is that clear. #okay. having said that. hater hour. barty and evan and honestly regulus were all cunts? like they were terrible people why do we care #about them now. regulus interests me solely as a piece of context for sirius' character. i could not give less of a shit about him as a #person in his own right. which leads me to my next hater moment: why oh why oh WHY on earth would canon james potter be interested #in canon regulus black. it makes sense in like a muggle au where they are virtually completely different characters but canon? #why would he be attracted to him. there is nothing. there is no chemistry i am ASLEEP and so is james. he would not give that #guy a second look. like it just baffles me it truly does. i feel like you have to bend over backwards to create a situation in which #james potter would ever show an interest in regulus. and i know jegulus is a fucking force to be reckoned with nowadays but god i just #do not like that ship. also i think the fact that barty and pandora and evan are essentially just oc characters who have been coloured #in by general fanon consensus shows in that what they have become is just. not interesting or complex or well fleshed out lol. like #idk i feel like they are just. very shallow. deliberately. so they are easy to like and easy to ship because that is what theyre there for. #god it feels so good to say all this. i will never be a hater again (<- lying) but i needed to be able to just. say this just once xx #also if you needed any more indication what barty and evan and regulus are here to do you just have to look at their #super-hot super-conventionally attractive celebrity model fancasts. like it all adds up its like but what if these death eaters were #not actually evil :-( what if they were really sweet and also? so so hot. like they were all so hot and actually really good #and none of them meant to be evil they didnt want to be :-( they were just hot good guys all in love with each other and the evil stuff #they did wasnt their fault :-( like that has to be. the most boring thing you couldve possibly done with these blank slates. surely. #anyway. im done now but i enjoyed hater hour immensely this was so fucking good for my soul xx thanks and goodnight xx #anon #telegram #scream hang on sorry. just looked at the comments of that tiktok where people are saying they were prison besties. girl. girl. #girl they were in prison for very different reasons baby. baby you know that right. baby look at me. look at me

[ghosts-of-love]

not to be mentally ill but today when i went for a walk in a nature reserve i was climbing a hill and it was cold but so so sunny and everything looked beautiful and i saw so many cool things and i stood there and was like damn what's this feeling in my chest and why am i smiling so much?? my guy,, it's called fucking happiness. i was just present and content in the moment and couldn't contain myself so kept doing the silly arm shake thing i do and grinning at everything and then was like woah what's this feeling. fuckin, happiness dude.

#think the arm shake thing might be stimming (??) i referred to it as pogging and was informed that i've been using that word incorrectly #but yeah stimming ig #the arm shakes!! we all know them... #anyway do you ever get the feeling that other people experience happiness differently to you? #idk last week i was v depressed and now ive had a couple days in a row where ive been giggling with people and ive been cuddled and kissed #and today i took myself off on a walk and i was so so happy and then as i was walking back to my car #i had the gut wrenching feeling that i needed to text my parents that i'd been outside and had a good day and saw multiple cool animals #and that i loved them. because i suddenly got really worried that i would die on the way home and no one would know i'd been really happy?? #even though id literally sent my bestie loads of photos and texts and a literal voice note while staring at a robin lol #anyway and then i was floored by the realisation that i carely deeply about whether i died or not #because i was pmsing last week and that is a terrible time for me and i end up being kind of passively suicidal ig #so to have such a big change in the space of a week was a huge shock #these tags are sooo incoherent and span so many emotions #i promise i've had a really lovely day. i just am anxious all the time and depressed sometimes #in a way that is harder to predict now my periods have stopped. #im realising this is the kind of stuff that should probably go in my diary but i've got this far with the tags that i can't be asked. #if anyone is still reading #you do not have to respond to this or like it in any way. i promise lol

[twilightarcade]

I loooove when people respond to you being mad by being mean to you. Like yeah thanks that's really improving my mood

#wordstag #IM NOT EVEN DOING SHIT TO THEM I AM DOING THE BARE MINIMUM TO MAKE THIS A FUNCTIONAL INTERACTION #I am not yelling at you. I'm not saying anything mean to you. Why do you keep bothering me about being mad #THEN THEY KEEP GETTING ALL OFFENDED !!!!! LIKE YOURE GOING TO POINT OUT HOW I SEEM TO WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE #THEN MAKE IT ABOUT YOU. OUHHH WHY DONT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU? WHY AM I GIVING YOU THE COLD SHOULDER ? ☹️ #like. Cod. Maybe stop being mean to me and I'll want to be with you again. But it's literally not ABOUT you #but for real I announced my intention on making a cake because like. I do that for fun. It brings me joy. Gives me stuff to do #and they would NOT stop bullying me over it yesterdat for some reason ????????? #because I was supposed to make it yesterday. Then didn't. And it turned into a game of #'Ohhhhh I wonder when Neptune's gonna make the cake ☹️☹️☹️ when are you gonna make the cake neptune? ☹️☹️ #you know I would have cake right now if neptune had made the cake but she didn't isn't she so terrible and lazy ☹️☹️☹️☹️' #like bro. You're lucky I like baking and cant eat a whole cake myself or I would personally ensure that you never saw a cake again. #vent #I guess. Hate to put a personal post in a commonly used tag but don't have a vent tag over here because I DONT !!!! #like cod whatever. I think we just need to sit in the dark for an hour or whatever. #eat some grapes.

[benbamboozled]

Always important to remember that Alfred Pennyworth is NOT the Designated Sane One of the Batfam.

(And poor Tim has to apologize to him lol.)

Source is Detective Comics #664

#alfred pennyworth #is not normal. #Bruce learned it from somewhere right. #reminds me of that one post about alfred being a mean bitch wrt Bruce’s terrible coping mechanisms and being like… #WHOMST are you to talk sir???? #‘I’m so sorry I said we should take Bruce to a hospital when he was beaten into unconsciousness and… #…had his back broken and was thrown off a building. i promise I’ll never do it again.’ #actually—I very much would like meta about alfred being a terrible father but a good grandfather. which is weirdly a thing? ime? #and as they get older they kinda recontextualize Bruce and Alfred’s relationship and they’re like— #‘holy unhealthy dynamics Batman!!!’ #idk maybe it’s just me. #i think also people want there to be a sane one in the batfam? #no they are all unhinged. don’t go looking for ‘the normal one’ you will not find them. #(albeit each one of them thinks they’re the sane one. except Bruce. he’s like ‘DONT PUT THAT EVIL ON ME!’) #comic pages #from knightfall btw #probably got that through context if you made it through the tags but just to put it out there. #meanwhile btw Bruce is in and out of consciousness being like ‘my life is a godawful wasteland of pain and suffering.’ #which makes Alfred’s insistence that this would destroy Bruce REAL life even more #hilaribad.

[always-a-joyful-note]

I...can't even begin to explain how much I love Han Sooyoung, Yoo Joonghyuk, and Kim Dokja's trio dynamic. I love all the relationship between KimCom but...just...

I guess KimCom is definitely a found family. It's so meaningful and heart-rending how all their dynamics work, how Dokja really acts like a dad to the kids, the sibling-like relationships between Jihye and Yoosung and Gilyoung, the camaraderie between the adults. Joonghyuk's status as the crabby uncle or something who usually does his own thing but gets dragged into family dinners, etc. etc. etc....

But those three. Author, reader, protagonist. They're...they're friends. Like, I called them siblings at first but I came to decide that they're friends. A trio of similar, emotionally constipated people who would literally die for each other while denying their closeness...they're really and seriously not family or lovers or allies but just...on their way to being best friends. And I don't really know why I get those vibes but I'll just let it end me because it's a rare moment in fiction when I see three (not just two) individuals be allowed to be best friends with each other in such an equally valuable way....

#spoilers for up to ch 387 on post and tags #but anyway #its the way they insult each other mercilessly but would literally forsake everything and die for the other #it's how easily they insult and converse with and understand each other #how they all have the moral compass of swivel chair with knives duct taped to it but still manage to result in something good #and also again how they're so emotionally constipated for real.... #and the banter between the three is PEAK...whether its just between two of them or all three #also dont get on my case if something ends up being romantic or anything im blind to that stuff #no literally....i had absolutely zero clue that heewon and hyunsung were supposed to be romantic..... #and i SEE it now but i literally thought they were pure friendship beans who probably got shipped by the fandom #but no im just dumb and theyre actually a ship #but yeah....han kim and yoo...their dynamic is everything and i fear that they'll only get worse #35% more to go yay... #fandom spamdom #disclaimer tag and a slight hope that im not terribly off the mark #(seriously i know a few spoilers and the way the fandom perceives the relationship dynamics but im still going into this pretty blind) #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #note's nonsense #orv spoilers

[fleshdyke]

ahsgsjaugejwjg

#sh/sui warning for tags #been having a shit day and just not feeling great overall and usually drinking water and eating helps but it hasnt today :/ #which means its an Actual Problem this time. like i knew it was an actual problem when i fucking cut AGAIN but idk #idk man. im just so so so scared of my friends hating me #and i know i have to see my partner again bc she is the one and only person that never ever makes me feel safe and unjudged and everything #but idk. as of right now im just not havin a great time. #like its actually so stupid the things i get upset about. there was some motivational speaker at my school today and when we got called down #to go watch the presentation i had to take like five seconds to grab my bag and phone from my desk #and my two friends got up and left together without waiting for me #and i know it wasn’t their intention and they weren’t trying to be mean or anything but man. doesnt make it hurt less yk. #and i saw some post from a guy in my school of him and his friends in the cafeteria and idk why but it made me so sad. it made me think abt #one time my friends said they wanted to walk around at lunch so i was like ok i’ll eat alone that’s fine bc i’m too disabled to walk around #the school. and then someone sent me a pic of them all eating together in the cafeteria. and i know they probably just stopped there for a #second and weren’t purposely ignoring me or anything but man that did not help yk #i want to leave them alone bc they never seem to want to talk to me but im trying to tell myself its just my mind but its so hard to #and i do love my friends and im making them seem a lot worse here than they are but its just. god im so scared. #idk. i dont actually want to die but i wish i could kms like. temporarily. #i know this is bad and manipulative but i just cant shake the want to know what would happen if i did yk. and this is a terrible train of #thought but like i want my friends to realize how scared this makes me and if i have to kms to do that. idk. #ive brought it up to them before and they pretty much told me to eat with someone else and i said i didnt have any other friends and they #kind of just said not my problem. so i dont want to bring it up again bc im mature enough to deal with my own issues and shit #it’s just hard man. i dont know how im supposed to communicate w them bc everything feels like im traumadumping on them and i dont want to #bother them. im trying to convince myself its not an issue and it doesnt actually bother me but i know it does bc i just fucking relapsed #and i had a city council thing in class today and i was the only person that was denied any funding at all and i was trying not to take it #personally and i was doing pretty good but i told my mom about it and she started defending the ppl that refused me anything and then it was #suddenly personal to me for some reason. its stupid and i know that but god that doesnt make it any better #rambles #vent

[aemondtragaryen-archived]

💭

#i need to rant so I’m going to do it in the tags #I went on spring break with a friend I made this past fall when I transferred to my current university #and we have known each other for quite a few months before we planned it and I thought it would be fun #but during the trip she was really mean to me #like making fun of me for anything being passive aggressive and just making me walk on egg shells the entire week #by the end I was gaslighting myself and just overall felt terrible #I saw her the week after we got back to get a purse I let her borrow but after that I did not see her at all #and she hasn't reached out to me #which is so weird bc before the trip we would hang out almost every day or every other day getting lunch together all the time etc #but I don't want to reach out to her at all but also im annoyed she isn't reaching out to me like I wasn't the one who was horrible #and the worst part is after the trip she was super nice again like right as we got off the train #and it is very clear she thinks everything is fine and nothing is wrong. that is to say she thinks what she did to me was not a problem #and it is so hard to be friends with her because how tf am I even supposed to be okay with her #but now I feel so lonely bc with my other friends I dont see them as much as I saw her so now I feel so alone and lonely #and I dont want to complain about this to my friend bc she heard enough about it already #but now I feel like im starting over bc I only have more casual friends now :(( #ugh I feel like shit but it really annoys me that she isn't reaching out. I dont even want to see her I just want to be like #no I cant see you blah blah blah #yes that is childish no I do not care! bye

[clumsyclifford]

“Come on, Calum. Clearly something’s wrong, you’re harassing Matt. Is this about Luke?”

Calum sighs. What a dumb question, he thinks. Everything is about Luke.

“He’s not here,” he says quietly.

you don’t go to parties songfic for you and yours

#calum hood #luke's not in this can i even tag him. i say no #cake #cake fic #5sos #5sos fic #fic #my fic #wow you guys wouldnt believe how terrible my night is #it's all stupid small stuff actually #except it's big and important to me #it really really matters to me #im to the point of considering skipping my classes tomorrow #but like...legitimately contemplating not like sort of wishing i would #the only thing preventing me from this is that if i skip them that means i have to catch myself up on the lessons #and i have even less energy for that #tomorrow is going to be so fucking shitty #i have moodswings on a loop. i have listened to it 31 times. #i put it on as soon as rehearsal ended tonight and i have not paused it once #it's been looping for almost two hours #i am miserable for so many reasons #sorry lol not to vent in my funky little fic post #but also this is My Blog! and i do what I Want! #i know my mood's been swingin all day so true lol #ok posting now bye

[underlying-purpose]

I hate feeling really really depressed and nobody noticing a difference.

#haha go to counseling #oh can you do this for me and pay for this #oh sorry you know how hard it is for me even though i sit around all day doing nothing #its not like i expect or usually even want people to notice #but idk it feels really bad that its not noticable. am i not noticable? are my emotions not noticable? #i have these periods where i feel terrible and feel so tired and feel like i LOOK so tired but nobody blinks an eye #im walking around doing everything as usual and talking to people but i dont feel the same #and i hate it #theres so many things i feel so bad about right now but the worst part is that nothing is going to come of these feelings. nothing. #i just have to sit here and wait for them to blow over like usual. #while im stressed as hell having to pick up the fucking slack #yes i can and yes i will and yes i know #but do YOU know??? would you want to? would you care. #thats all. #vent #vent post #and i know some of this is because im running out of my depression pills #but these feelings are still real. ive been having them regardless. im just more upset because of it #i forgot one of tumblrs functions but im missing some tags that said: #hey can you help me do this or hey can you pay for that or hey sorry haha you know how hard it is for me even though i sit around all day #even though most of my time is spent working or trying to earn money through my art that barely garners enough interest to work #like yes i can and will and know but why does it feel like if i asked or dis the same things you wouldnt care? #i want help. i need help. im WILLING to help you. why do i have to reach out so far for your help when i walk up and catch you when you #just barely trip. i reach to you before you reach to me 9 times out of 10. do the fucking same for me god dammit #AND #dont be like because i know #i know i know i know i know i know #i know #i just want acknowledgement #its all i want

[inevesgf]

LOVER BOY ⠀,⠀ george clarke.

synopsis ✩ what it’s like dating george clarke!

warnings: mentions of sexual behavior.

authors note: i have had so much muse and inspiration to write for george recently. love our silly guy so bad! i also have tried to write more sexual content for my thirsty folks out there so i hope it lives up to expectations. arthur next ;)

• love language is either gift giving or psychical touch!

• is the type of boyfriend that will randomly pick up things from the shop for you without you even asking.

• “want anything?” “no, i’m alright.” and then he comes back with your favorite snacks and a stupid little trinket.

• a big lover of hugs from behind + adds little kisses on your neck and shoulders when he does.

• will not let you be the big spoon ever, im sorry mates.

• he always has to be the big spoon. i have a feeling he definitely likes feeling like the more masculine person in the relationship.

• but LOVES to lay his head in your lap and let you play with his hair.

• kisses your thighs sometimes when he does because he knows it gives you butterflies.

• leaves hickeys there where only he can see them.

• doesn’t mind pda, but doesn’t overdo it. when youre out he will hold your hand and put his arm around your waist, but isn’t one to kiss you in public unless it’s an appropriate moment.

• his go to nicknames for you are probably “darling” and “love”, he’s pretty simple.

• likes to be dominant in bed, but also doesn’t mind when you ride him and pull on his hair slightly.

• always sends you the stupid black cat and white cat memes, but they are so accurate.

• loves when you tag around with his friends. bonus points if you do content creation, he likes when you all film together.

• he jokes about loving arthur(tv) more than he loves you, so you joke about also loving arthur more than you love him! have to keep that shit even

• but at the end of all the jokes he knows he loves you more than anything and you appreciate him the same.

• probably a jealous boyfriend though, wont lie.

• not in like a “don’t ever look at her!” way, but in a “im gonna give you hickeys all over your neck to show you’re mine” kind of way 🤭.

• secretly a massive sweetheart though.

• if you ever come home wasted from a night out with friends, he will clean you up and help you get changed.

• “you take such good care of me😌” and he just starts laughing about how absolutely GONE you are.

• and in the morning when you’re suffering from a horrible hangover he will bring you water and little snacks while you rest!

• might not be the best cook, but will attempt to cook your favorite foods on little date nights.

• even if it goes terribly wrong, you still appreciate it nonetheless.

• falls under golden retriever category alongside chris and ginge of course!

• super super giddy when you get home from wherever and he just gets to spend the rest of the night with you.

• dare i say baby i’m yours - arctic monkeys cover is the song you listen to and think of him.

• the type of boyfriend to wake you up at 4am to go watch the sunrise from a hilltop or the beach.

• love’s spontaneous little adventures like that!

• definitely books little trips on short notice just to surprise you.

• always always up for an adventure. you two have definitely faced your fears together with activities like rock climbing, bungee jumping, etc.

• prefers to go out for dates rather than stay in, but loves to have a lazy night with you where you two watch films and have snacks.

• would be hesitant to raise a dog or cat with you due to the responsibility, so he’d settle for a lil fish.

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