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headkiss · 2 months

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heyyy, how are you?? i love your work so much!!! i was wondering if you could write something about steve having a crush on r, but when they are together he gest shy and quiet and r misunderstands that and thinks he doesn't like her like everyone is telling her he is ???

im sorry if its confusing, english is not my first language,, anywayy feel free to change anything !!! ❤️

hi baby thank you so much!!! i’m so sorry this has been in my asks since september but i hope u enjoy all the same :,) i finally wrote something!!! yay!!! | 0.7k teeny tiny angst and fluff!!

You’re pretty sure Steve Harrington doesn’t like you. That’s what you tell Robin when you see her at the Family Video counter, alone for once. She bursts out laughing.

“I’m being serious!”

Before Robin responds, Steve walks out of the back room, grinning that grin you wish you didn’t love so much, his hair a little messy, like he didn’t have enough time to style it this morning the way he usually does.

He’s looking at Robin when he says: “what’s so funny?”

“I bet you’d love to know, dingus.” She nods at you and shrugs, “it’s girl stuff.”

It’s only then that he notices you’re there, his eyes flicking over your face quickly, his head ripping in a small nod. You might not have noticed it if you weren’t looking right at him already.

“Oh, right.” He smiles again, tight-lipped this time. “Hey.”

“Hi, Steve.”

“Hey,” he says again.

Yeah, you’re pretty sure Steve Harrington doesn’t like you, because this is what happens whenever you’re around. He goes quiet, awkward, where others have always found him outgoing and kind.

You suppose it only makes things worse when you want him to like you so bad. If only as a friend, even.

“Um, I was just grabbing…” You flounder before picking up a random movie by the front desk, “this.”

“Right,” he scratches the back of his neck as he says it.

Meanwhile Robin’s head is turning to look between the two of you like it’s a tennis match. You widen your eyes at her and she gets the signal, scanning your movie and letting you head out with it when she knows you’ll be returning it before even opening the case.

“You’re such an idiot,” she says to Steve as the door shuts behind you, the bell jingling with your departure.

“Robin-”

“No! You are, Steve. Listen, you know I love you, but she thinks you don’t like her. At all!”

Now, Steve knows that he acts like an absolute dork wherever you’re concerned, but he never wanted you to think that. Never. If anything, he likes you more than he’s ever liked anyone before, and it terrifies him.

Any ounce of the confidence that’s left over from his ‘King Steve’ era seems to evaporate, and the words just don’t come the way they should. But fuck, he didn’t want to hurt you. He’d never want to hurt you.

“Shit,” he runs a hand through his hair, uncaring about how it might look for once.

“Yeah, shit.” Robin nudges her shoulder against his, “she’s still in her car, by the way. Just saying.”

Steve nods, muttering some kind of encouragement for himself under his breath. He pushes his way out the door, picking up his pace to a jog when he hears you start your car.

The knock on your window startles you, surprises you when you look over to find Steve standing out there, the sun a halo around his figure, his Family Video vest just a little crooked.

You shut your car off and roll your window down, squinting up at him, “Steve? Everything okay?”

“I do like you.”

“What?”

His chest is rising and falling quickly, his eyes wide and something like worry looming in them. “I do like you.”

“Steve, did Robin put you up to this? ‘Cause you don’t have to-”

“She didn’t. I promise she didn’t,” he leans down a little, his hands resting on your door. “She told me you thought I didn’t like you and I couldn’t let you leave still thinking that. I like you. A lot.”

You blink up at him, mouth opening and closing, trying to figure out what to say. For so long, you’d been convinced that he wasn’t a fan of yours, and here he is, sincerity written all over his face.

“You never talk to me, I thought-”

“I know. I know and I’m sorry.” Steve hangs his head for a second, inhaling once before looking at you again. “The truth is I, uh, have a crush on you. Probably more than a crush, and I didn’t know what to do with it so I acted like a fucking idiot.”

“You have a crush on me?”

“Yeah, I do. Kind of a big one.”

You can’t fight the smile on your face at that. “I have a crush on you too, Steve.”

It’s the first time you make Steve Harrington blush, the first genuine smile of his that you earn. And it won’t be the last.

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ilwonuu · 2 months

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. '•.¸♡ sweet kiss ♡¸.•'

↴ hansol vernon chwe

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᯽ summary- one of your not so close friends asks to be kiss you at one of your friends parties.

᯽ warnings- fluffy, kissing, some heavy petting, strangers ish to lovers, seokmin interupts, lmk what else!!!

᯽ authors note- happy birthday vernon!!!! i love him so much. (also look out for a seokmin fic today<3) lmk if you want another part/parts!!!! also so sorry about these fics coming out today i know it’s technically not late but i wanted to posted them yesterday </3

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you are currently sitting in the living room of seokmin’s party. you’re not having best time that you had intended. you quickly looking around for the boy. you feel a soft hand on your shoulder causing you to turn around.

“oh my gosh vernon you scared me!” you laugh at his straight face and the half smile he’s giving you. “sorry. i just saw you alone. where did seokmin go?” he asks you. you shrug in response. “i don’t know. i went to grab another drink and came back he was nowhere to be found.” you taking another sip of your drink.

“well if you wanted i can stay with you until you find him.” he smiles at you. you nod following him into the backyard of seokmin’s house. there isn’t many people out here. you calming down from all the energy inside.

“you seem tired.” he observes you as you sit next to him by the pool. “i am a little. i think the alcohol just isn’t my friend.” he doesn’t say anything for a moment. “i get that. a lot actually. i don’t really drink that much but i smoke. which is definitely worse in a way.”

he doesn’t say it in a jokingly way. you laugh anyways. his expression making it hard for you not to smile. “i like smoking too. drinking is usually fun. i just always get sick.”

“me too. that’s why i stopped. it’s lame plus weed is more fun. at least for me.” he pulls out his half smoked blunt. he lights it taking a couple hits before offering it to you. you smile at his gesture taking it from him. you take a few hits passing it back to him. “why haven’t we done this before it’s nice.” he has moved a little closer to you now. causing your face to heat up.

“yea i agree also you have pretty good company.” you lay your head back. he smiles to himself. “can i ask you something kinda um- bold?” you smile at his words looking up over at him again. “yea anything.” you mutter to him giving him a quick smile sitting up completely facing him.

“can i kiss you? i kind of- i really want to kiss you.” you don’t expect his words at first. you comply easily. wanting to kiss him now as well. “yea? okay-“ he moves so he his grabbing your face. he pulls you in slowly. kissing you softly. both of your slow kisses turning into desperate kisses.

his hand that was against your cheek is now moving down your body gently. he pulls away from your kiss. “is this okay?” you just nod pulling him back into the kiss. he lips are immediately moving with yours. he is his immediately addicted to your lips.

the two of you are completely forgetting about the other people outside with you. you guys don’t care. it’s just too good.

is this actually as good it feels in the moment? or are you just desperate? probably thoughts you shouldn’t be having while making out with him. i think you’re high is kicking in.

his hand is going underneath you shirt to the back of you bra. you pull away from the kiss. “is this okay?” he asks again. you take off your bra while keeping eye contact with him. you are pulling him back to kiss you whispering a quick. “yes vernon..” he smirking slightly into the kiss moving his hand to cup your breasts before the two of your make of sesh is interrupted.

of course it’s seokmin and all he can do is laugh. “you guys were about to fuck if i didn’t come over here im assuming?” he looks at you for an answer but vernon answers quickly. “um if she wanted but that’s not the point you left her for a while. she was looking for you..” he just smiles. “well im here now!! sorry was a bit distracted. i can still take you home y/n.”

you look over at vernon and then look at yourself and how unorganized you must look to them. should you go home?

you decided against leaving with seokmin deciding to walk to vernons when you two were ready.

“whatever you say. have fun!! use protection please!” seokmin hugs you before going back into the house. vernon is already rolling another blunt for the two of you. “i had fun tonight. i know you’re now leaving yet but i just wanted to say.” he looks away from you. you think his awkwardness was cute. too cute that is.

the barely had met the boy already knowing he wouldn’t be a stranger for you. everything about him was attractive. you had a hard time focusing. he was such a sweet boy. his lips, his lips were so sweet. his kisses were sweet and gentle against you. he never denied any of your kisses.

you wanted him so bad already.

#Spotify #seventeen #svt #vernon #vernon fluff #vernon smut #vernon seventeen #svt vernon #svt x reader #svt fluff #svt imagines #svt smut #svt fanfic

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lovelyrotter · 4 months

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okay but i actually kinda wanna know ur take on stridercest being canon compliant O_O <- autism stare

oh hey i am also hitting you with the autism stare. ill try to get my thoughts down in a way that makes sense to more than just me hahaha

bear in mind that im an epilogue lover and i think Meat/Candy are really valuable pieces that further all of the characters and are also hard canon in the sense that we're looking at just 2 post-game universe outcomes out of an uncountable number (the book in the picnic basket representing post-canon fanfic). i think the characters actions in the epilogues make sense and are satisfying to me. yes even jane (i love alpha jane and i will not do her the disservice of 'cleaning her up' w/o showing her work for it. thats not how you depict a character who grew up with fascist programming). i could totally go on a whole tangent about this specifically but thats another post lol we'd be here forever and its also not stridercest

but okay. canon stridercest. under the cut cause it got kinda long

basically it has to do with the cherubs and how their relationships and mating rituals are pretty obviously incestuous leaning even though cherubs dont have the human concept of Siblings or blood family. the cherub who predominates will search across paradox space to mate with another cherub who closely resembles the cherub they predominated which is like textbook Freudian sexuality. theres a lot of Freud and Jungian stuff in HS imo even if im kinda [wobbly hand gesture] at the validity of these theories applied to real life and real people. but theyre super fun tools and lenses to use in fiction and i mean. gestures at all of dave

so the incest aliens cherubs. the whole reason why im talkin about them is bc Caliborn is so incredibly interested and invested in the Striders in particular. caliborn as both Lord English and Lil Cal shapes earth NOT OVERTLY but more so embeds himself in earth society, but again, the Striders lives in particular. dave is full of incest jokes. hes even apparently got a list of his friends arranged in order of how likely theyd incest-elope with each other (thank you epilogues for this amazing factoid). he seems to think about it often enough to, yknow, Do That. have a good solid think about that and construct an organized list about it. bearing in mind dave makes jokes about stuff thats a) bothering him, or b) generally camping out in his brain. hes not even really aware of it most of the time (as we see in one of the openbounds where hes all 'why am i thinking about puppets???' after seeing dirk for the first time in that dream bubble. he is thinking nonstop about dirk at that point and going off his only frame of reference for ANY dirk, which is his bro. his bro who was most likely deeply warped by Lil Cal)

sorry for the long blocky paragraph lol. but now onto the next thing

Caliborn as Lil Cal is the centerpiece in the beta strider apartment. dave cant escape him and beta dirk grew up with him. what the fuck do you do when youre childhood comfort item is also the most evil creature across all of paradox space? if youre a dirk you try to fight it. but how long can you keep fighting something like that. its safe to say that bro was affected by Caliborns particular brand of perversion and sfw kink. i dont think i have to say how insidious abusive and toxic he is about those things. and looking at the truth of beta bro (16yo alpha dirk) you can start to see just how warped beta bro became. beta bro is a false dirk (still a very Real dirk but not the Truth of dirk. beta bro has been toxified and made infinitely worse by an absolute evil influence over decades of life. in 80s fuckin texas. presumably in the system. anyone would be fucked up after that)

so for this analysis/theory im stating beta bro as a false persona. using jungian terms he is apha dirk's shadow

both dave and dirk live with a fake, carefully manicured version of their bros. they live with personas (or shadows of their guardians on the walls. hello platos allegory of the cave). they dont actually know e/o and they dont until the striunion

alpha dirk especially grows up embedded in the Public Persona Of Dave Strider 400 years post mortem and completely alone with unlimited internet access. hes a self admitted expert on his bro and we dont get to see a lot if any of his early childhood but i can hazard a guess at how much he clung to that persona of his bro. he fuckin idolizes dave. he LOVES dave. right off the bat he is in some kind of love with dave and i think if you try to argue against that then thats you slippin. i think youre a fool and have to reread homestuck because i wholeheartedly believe the striders loving eachother is part of the win state

once again this is speculation cause we get barely anything about alpha dave, but from what we already know about him im guessing this bro-persona is

achingly effortlessly cool

oozing masculinity (toxic or not, not really interested in categorizing that although toxic coolboy masculinity IS something the striders contend with & is an important facet in their lives)

a skilled fighter

a dedicated moviegoer (hes a director need i say more. this one is probably the only genuine thing about his on-screen persona)

and now lets look at jake. someone whos grown up on pretty much nothing but movies, whos doubtlessly been influenced by hollywood and its idea of gritty 'main character' masculinity through that, and who also clings to more old-school ideas of manliness (think victorian/edwardian era gentlemanly-but-loves-a-good-scrum kinda manly. moustache twirly with a monocle kinda manly. basically everything that grandpa harley is)

but okay lets look at what jake wants to be. lets take a look at his teenager persona

achingly effortlessly cool (his own 'hollywood star' kind of cool also def influenced by his favourite characters like lara croft who is indeed achingly cool. you see him succeed in inhabiting this hollywood star persona on earth c)

oozing masculinity (the old school manly mans-man kind)

a skilled fighter (two pistoles always. harder to aim cause you cant use a free hand to make up for kickback. that takes skill)

a dedicated moviegoer (again one of the only genuine parts about his persona. his questionable-to-wretched tastes aside. but bearing in mind that the SBaHJ movies are intentionally bad which is what makes them loop around to good. such is the nature of intentionally 'bad' art. jake fuckin lives in this perpetual bad-good art loop. okay enough with the art tangent keep focused man cmon)

because dirk has obviously way more contact with jake i dont doubt he sees through jakes own (admittedly way more flimsy) coolboy persona but the point still stands i think. different flavours but the same kinda guy. dirk has a type and i dont think its a stretch to say that hes looking for aspects of the bro-persona he grew up looking at in other boys, much like the winning cherub looking for the one they lost in the cherub theyll mate with

also wtf is with dirks obvious boner for dave chasing him across paradox space to decapitate him huh?? the last few sentences in Meat are about that very thing. he wants to fuc fight dave sooo bad. haha remember how the cherubic mating ritual is one of the most violent and long running spectacles in paradox space? i sure do

#stridercest #davedirk #dirkdave #alphacest #my t #thank you if you read all this HAHAHA #i am dedicated to my craft (autistic) (indulgent)

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anzulvr · 13 days

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୨୧ On Purpose Karma x (fem) Reader || Chapter: 04 ୨୧

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— Since the entire student council was present and the library was notably crowded with students who had signed up for the lecture, [Name] entered the library on her own.

She felt guilty, having to ditch her plans with Karma after an unresolved argument they decided to brush over. To make matters worse, she has to sit through a two-hour session and watch Ren shamelessly flirt with every girl in the room. On the brighter side, this ordeal counted towards her volunteer hours.

"You're late. You missed my introductory speech."

"My fault, I'll make up for it by working extra hard!"

She mentally thanked Karma for convincing her take the longer route, saying, "It's not a big deal if you're 10 minutes late... or 30." It was impressive how Gakushuu's speeches managed to put her to sleep every time, missing it was a win in her book.

Koyama called him over, something about a broken printer and an angry librarian.

...aaand she was all alone again. [Name] decided to go check on the group at the back table.

"Oh, [Name] made it—she can help us!" The first year, Chisa blissfully smiled.

"But I wanted Asano to help. [Name] could you please ask him to?" Chisa's friend insisted, clearly not as enthusiastic about the anyone-whose-not- Asano's arrival.

[Name] tried not to let it bother her, being the only girl in the student council came with a lot of pressure.

She’s just as helpful and capable as the rest of the group but no one seems to acknowledge it. Everyone calls them the “Big Five” even though there’s technically six of them as her scores tie with Seo.

"He's busy with Koyama, but maybe later."

The girl groaned and sulked laying her head on the table. Chisa looked apologetic for her friends dramatics. [Name] offered them a polite smile and said, "Let's get through your assignments then."

After half an hour of helping the girls turn in missing work, [Name] decided to take a short break. She left for an empty table in the very corner of the room, the short break turned into a long one when she got distracted texting Karma.

‧₊˚ Message Log ‧₊˚

[Name]: can we talk? im super bored!!

Karma: Whose fault is that?

Karma: should have ditched to be with me the whooleee day

[Name]: ugghhh don't. Can you believe I still have another hour of this

[Name]: anyway what are you doing?

Karma: I bumped into Nagisa on my way back from the library

Karma: now were at Maehara's house with Rio and Fuwa.

[Name]: Rio?? That one beautiful, smart, sweet, blonde girl in your class?

Karma: Sounds like you like her alot.

[Name]: She makes me nervous

Karma: Hey that's how you used to talk about me before we went out

[Name]: I can hear the disappointment through the text lmaoo

‧₊˚ Message End ‧₊˚

"You haven't even been here for an hour and you’re already slacking off on your phone?"

"Gakushuu! Geez you came out of nowhere." [Name] shut her phone off and patted the seat next to her.

To her surprise he slumped down next to her instead of insulting her and walking off, like he usually does.

"Are you feeling alright?"

"I'm exhausted to say the least. This was a stupid idea no one is making progress, well no one but Ren, he managed to pick up quite a few desperate ones today."

"That's not completely true, I helped Chisa and her friend turn their C's to A's. As much as I hate being here it's not useless. Useless was the Bakesale we tried last year where the cupcakes we sold tasted like horse crap. It was funny watching people pretend to love them and hold back the throw up because they came from you."

"Could of stopped at the first half, but thanks, I think. My father said I wasn't being organized enough, that this would be a failure on my half and an embarrassment on his."

"That's a little harsh, you're doing your best and you've done more than anyone else in the council. Ren's been giving out his number more than he's been lecturing, Seo has been in the bathroom for 20 minutes, Teppei has been stuck on the same group this entire time and to be honest Koyama is hard to look at. Im pretty sure I saw the girl he was teaching closing her eyes while he was talking."

The corners of his mouth twitched upwards.

"You're right I'll go yell at them in a few. It's not a big deal though, My father has said much worse."

"To be fair, I haven't exactly kept my promise either. Hard work turned into hiding in a corner to text my b- actually I should get back to work, actions speak louder than words!" [Name] stood up to leave. Asano grabbed her sleeve, it was impulsive and the immediateness of it made it all the more awkward."

"Uh, Asano? Is there something you still need?" She crinkled her eyebrows.

His cheeks became somewhat pink, [Name] thought he couldn’t have been blushing, maybe it was allergies.

“No, just don't get distracted on your phone again."

"Yeah Ive got it!" She waved him off and went back to work,

Gakushuu sat there slightly conflicted with his thoughts and his feelings, He faulted the all nighter he pulled last night, sleep deprivation does negatively impact mind clarity. He decided he should get back to work too.

Meanwhile ☆ ༄

"Let me get this straight, instead of asking me like normal people the class collectively decided to stalk [Name] and I?"

"Pretty much... but I was against it the entire time!" Nagisa replied sheepishly, to his surprise Karma's response was a relaxed nod.

"You're acting weirdly cool about this."

It sent a shiver down his spine, in a weird way Karma was scarier when he didn't react. Not knowing what he's thinking was an uncomfortable feeling.

"It's not a big deal- unless you guys tell people, that's when things will leak."

Fuwa's voice highers a few octaves in concern "What things?!"

"Telling you would ruin the surprise wouldn’t it?”

Maehara, reckless as always chimes in “I wanted to go and see [Name] but I couldn't. We were almost a thing before you stole her ya know?"

Nagisa, being the good friend he is, rushes in to save him "That's not it at all! Isogai told us she rejected him a bunch of times since he's a womanizer!"

"I'm not a womanizer, I'm smooth."

"Smooth is the surface of the floor you'll be on when I knock your sorry ass out."

Maehara quickly moves behind Rio who changes the subject with a flood of questions;

"How long have you been dating? Why would anyone go out with you? Did you scare her into saying yes?"

"I’ll tell you if you buy me soba. Better question is: Why wouldn't someone go out with me? I’m tall, handsome, smart, charismatic… and I have a sick spice collection.”

“Im also all of those things.” Maehara jokes, cautiously this time, using Rio as a human shield.

#AkabaneOnPurpose #karma akabane #karma x reader #assassination classroom x reader #ansatsu kyoushitsu #karma akabane x reader #akabane karma x reader #anzulvr #akabane karma #akabane x reader #karma akabane x you #reader x karma #assassination classroom

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dendro-bunny · 2 months

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My Only Star

Xavier x (fem) Reader

Genre: Hurt to comfort, fluffy but angsty

Synopsis: He’s an attractive guy, so it’s only natural that he would get a lot of attention. You know he prefers to be incognito, yet that voice in your head is loud and can’t be ignored.

Warnings: Anxiety, body dysmorphia, Jealousy, Depressive thoughts, FLUFFY ENDING I PROMISE

(A/n): hhhhh my bias wrecker. ISTG THAT BUNNY MEMORY HAD ME SQUEALINGDNKAVDKSBD, Also I saw someone say that my last fic made them feel beautiful. YOU ALL ARE BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE YOU AND I FEEL LIKE IM WORTH SOMETHING CAUSE YOU READ AND LIKE MY FICS JDHAHAJVDJA. Anyway TO THE FIC!

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The sound of your shoes hitting the ground is muffled by the harsh rain. Your pace isn’t slow, but you can’t find the strength to run. The rain doesn’t bother you. It hides the constant flow of tears going down your face.

You know you shouldn’t feel like this. You know it’s stupid. You know he thinks you’re stupid for acting like this. Yet every bone in your body aches with sadness. Because it’s not fair. It’s not right. You were standing right there and it still happened again.

You look across the table at your wonderful hunting partner and boyfriend. You see he begins to doze off again.

“Sorry babe am I boring you?” You give him a cheeky smile. Xavier jolts awake and gives a tired smile.

“It’s not you. I was up late for a job and hadn’t had much sleep. Not to mention rain always makes me sleepy.” He gives a big yawn and rubs his eyes. He picks you hand up and gives it a soft kiss. You feel you face start to heat up.

“Just know, you could never bore me. I sleep easier at your side not because you’re boring but because yours soothing. And I-” He’s interrupted by the waitress coming over with a drink in her hand, menus in the other.

“Hi sorry for the wait, this drink was sent by the lady at the bar over there, in the green. And what can I get you started with today.” You can tell she’s nervous when putting the drink down especially when she sees you hand slink back to your side of the table.

Xavier has an unreadable expression. His eyes locked on the cup then on you. Then he looks over to the bar with his eyebrows furrowed. You turn over slowly fearing the worse.

And your fears come true, she’s gorgeous… From her hair to her heels she’s perfect. Poised and graceful. You can tell by just the way she laughs with the bartender that she’s outgoing. Her body was everything you wish yours was. Ofc she took interest in Xavier they would be perfect together…

“Babe… Babe.” Xavier speaks firmly snapping you back to reality. He gives a concerned look. “Are you ok? It’s your turn to order.” He fiddles with his fingers nervously wondering what is going on in your head.

“Uh- Sorry the game was on the tv over there . Heh, got distracted.” You manage to play it off and order normally. You’re able to push away the thoughts for a second. As the waitress walks away you turn to you hunter boyfriend.

“Are… you going to drink that? Yk, the… gift.” It’s your turn to fiddle as you stare at him with pursed lips.

“Uhm I wasn’t planning on it. Yk I’m not much of a drinker outside of our home.” He gives you a questioning look.

“But… I don’t know what to do with it… I don’t want to be rude…” He really seems deep in thought about it.

You give a small sigh of relief, that immediately gets sucked back in with a gasp and the green dressed lady stands in front of your table.

“Hello cutie… and girl…” she gives you a side eye “I see you’ve got my gift! Why don’t you come to the bar and drink it with me. We don’t want it to go to waste, plus I’m sure sucks in the mud like your friend here don’t party well.” She completely ignores you for him. Giving you snide snarky remarks. You hear giggles at the bar and see similar dressed women in different colors looking over at your boyfriend.

“We’re actually dating.” He says bluntly.

“I’m sure she won’t mind if you have fun. What kind of girlfriend would she be?” She tilts her head and the strap of her dress falls down her shoulder.

You feel your breath picking up, your jaw begins to hurt from holding your tears back. Your hands shake and tremble with every thought.

This is the part he leaves you.

It gonna happen eventually why not now.

He’s too good for you. They are perfect together.

How could you actually believe he would love you when people like her exist.

You stand up and bolt for the door. Xavier’s calls fall deaf on your ears. Only the bell of the restaurant’s door is heard as you speed to the nearest train station. Which is where you are now. At least you’re out of the rain in the underground station. You can feel the pneumonia seeping into your bones. That feeling is none compared to the heart ache you feel. He hadn’t even chased after you. He probably is with her right now.

You rub your shoulders to shake off the cold. Then you feel a warmth cloth being set on your shoulders. You look at see ash blond hair and blue nebula eyes staring at you.

“I was looking all over for you… I didn’t see where you went cause our food came and I knew you would be hungry so I asked for to-go plates.” You look and see the bag in his hands. You turn back to face the train and stare ahead. Your eyes sore and dry from all the tears ripped from your tear ducts.

“Did you think she was pretty… Of course you did… how couldn’t you. I mean look at her, not a strand of hair out of place. I wish I had her body…” You brush your hair out of your face as it sticks to you. You’re soaked and couldn’t care less about the fact you look like a drowned rat.

“She was perfect, you would be nice together-“ you speech is ended by his lips crashing into yours. Normally is kisses are chaste and soft, conveying is endless patience and care for you. But this kiss of full of unconditional love and all the words of assurance you could ever get. He’s not the best with words he knows that. But today he’s willing to try.

“Fuck her. Not literally like I wanna fuck her. I- hhh I mean to hell with her. I don’t want to spend my entire existence with some girl who throws herself at every attractive man she sees.” His motions to towards the restaurant. You can see he’s struggling with how to convey how he feels. He collects his thoughts and speaks again.

“I don’t want to be with someone who only looks at me from the outside. I want you.” He cups your face.”

“I only want you. Out of all the stars in the sky you shine the brightest. Because you’re my star. My only star. The perfect laugh, the perfect body, the perfect personality, the perfect smile, the perfect heart. You are my one and only perfect star.” He gives you the most passionate kiss he can muster. Hoping you reciprocate it.

When you do he relaxes in the kiss. You begin to sob into his chest with you pull away. Apologizing for ruining the night. Him insisting that it wasn’t you how ruined the night.

“How about we go home, I’d much rather be there than some restaurant and bar. Plus I’m tired of people hitting on us.” You give him a questioning look.

“Oh when you left the bar. Some guy asked if you were single now and I punched him in the throat… which is also why I took so long and we’re- I’m not allowed back at the restaurant.” He gives you an awkward smile.

You begin to bend over laughing at the absurdity of the situation. “You’re not the type to punch someone!”

“He was just unlucky, I wanted to punch something and he spoke last. Honestly he had it coming.” You laugh harder and in your laughter you miss the way he gives you a soft smile.

How could you not know he’s beyond whipped for you. He would transcend space and time just to be with you in the next life… like he has before.

He’ll do it again.

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It’s 4:30 am as I’m finishing this. What did I say about bias wrecker?! HELLO SIR GET OUT MY HEAD!

Guys understand something though you are not your body, or looks. You are a person with feeling and emotions and every feeling you experience is valid and someone has felt something similar to. And I love you for who you are and what you could be. Not what you were and what you aren’t 🫶

#bunnix #bunnix writes #fluff #angst with a happy ending #light angst #xavier love and deepspace #xavier lnd #xavier l&ds #xavier lad #love and deepspace #love and deepspace Xavier #xavier #love yourself

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feyascorner · 3 months

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please skip this if you don't want to read me being a sap 😭 it's not about astarion (ik very surprising!) but about my personal life

I'd rather not go into specifics but, I've worked very hard for something in my life and the results are not as expected. And by hard I mean I skipped everything else others are doing at my age to pursue this goal, spent countless nights just sobbing, and lost a lot of what I loved and things just ugh…everyone else around me seems to be doing a lot better with their luck and as happy as I am for them (because they really do all deserve it!!!!), I'm also sad because things aren't working out as much for myself 🫠

Im trying to remain optimistic but it's very very hard. I have a history of completely shutting everything out for months if things get too bad and I'm hoping it doesn't get to that point because it's very damaging 😞

Id talk to my friends about this but they don't take me very seriously because I'm always joking around so I have no idea how to cope but spill my feelings onto this silly blog bec at least here people won't judge me for this!!!

I'm just getting very hopeless about everything and it’s also reflecting on my hobbies!! Like this blog and other aspects of my life, it's a lot harder to do things but it’s also the only things that bring me joy so it’s just a repetitive cycle💀

I hope this doesn't sound like I'm asking for pity, because I'm not!!! I really just don't have an outlet for things like this and I'd rather not just bottle it up until everything comes down ten times worse 🫠 ive already lashed out at two people and I felt so bad about it after when apologizing and I'd rather it not happen again!!

For anyone who's going through something similar or just aren't feeling their best please know you are not alone!!! Life sucks sometimes but there is joy in it too! Like this blog and my thousands of other social media platforms, games, and hobbies I like to take up :) and as corny as it sounds this game and this character really do make me feel better 😭 seeing people react to what I write and interacting with random people on the internet truly does make my day and makes me forget what’s happening in my actual life :)

so genuinely, thank you all for being here ❤️

#feyascorner

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kumezyzo · 8 months

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hellooo! can you write something about breaking up w bf!sapnap?

im not joking when i say i got two seperate asks for this. and im all for it. i made sap seem like a huge asshole in this btw. like, so insanely shitty that its almost out of character/it probably is.

anyway, enjoy! or dont :) m.list

it built up slowly over time. once the honeymoon phase had passed, you two were comfortable. and then you two needed a break. he needed breathing room and you need to reevaluate where you wanted this relationship to go. when before you could see yourself marrying him, growing old with him, having a family with him, now you just saw his flaws.

he didnt know why but he felt bored. it hurt him to admit to himself. and it hurt even more having to tell his friends about it. the same friends that had grown to love you and you had grown to love aswell.

"you're... bored?" dream asked his best friend, looking at him like he was crazy. "of a person?"

nick winced as he heard it out loud for the first time. he looked at george who looked at him in complete concern.

"it sounds worse when you put it like that..." nick responded. he rubbed at his eyes.

"it was that bad to begin with," george said shaking his head.

during the break, you felt as if you two had broken up. and the longer it went on, the more he acted like you two actually had. and it really solidified it when he started talking to other people.

you didnt think he was doing it seriously. maybe it was just to make you jealous, maybe he did stoop that low. but then you saw how how george and dream were just as confused as you.

he really did try to hide it from you. from everyone. but no ones perfect.

"nick, who are you texting?" dream asked over his shoulder, startling him. he looked at dream with wide eyes.

"what the fuck are you doing?" he asked defensively. you looked up from where you were sitting at the kitchen island to the other two on the couch. he glanced at you before looking back at his best friend.

"i was just trying to scare you..." dream said walking towards you in the kitchen confused. he had gone upstairs to get his laptop to show you something. "but really, who were you texting?"

"your mom, thats who,"

when you found it he was talking to someone, you couldnt help but feel terrible at the idea that he had already gotten over you.

you walked into your old shared bedroom, nervously avoiding eye contact with your ex-boyfriend. he looked at you blankly as you stood there with your arms crossed, trying to find words to say.

he was sat up in bed, looking up from his phone at you. "...whats up?"

"we can agree we're not together anymore? like... this isnt gonna work out, right?" you continued to stare at your socks as you waited for the heart breaking answer. but you couldn't hold it in and looked up to see his face.

he looked small and deep in thought. he glanced down at his phone screen and back up at you.

"why are you thinking about it?" you ask offendedly. "im asking to make sure we're on the same page here. it wasnt an actual fucking question."

your words rang through the air. he sat there, hearing them play over in his head. it was like he was suddenly understanding the situation. he replayed your relationship, remembering how much he loved you. how happy he was.

im sorry if this seems all over the place. this idea was a lot more elaborate in my mind. but i didnt wanna make it longer. sorry...

if you want a longer version, it would take a while for me to get it out. im gonna be super busy for a while so domt expect as frequent uploads. im also in a lowkey bad mood rn so... im sorry if this is kinda dry. -nony

#sapnap #sapnap x reader #anon #sapnap x you #sapnap fluff #sapnap x y/n #dteam #asks #sapnap x streamer reader #sapnap angst #sapnap x reader angst #sapnap x yn angst #angst #dteam angst #dream team angst

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aubreysheadspace · 1 year

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Can you do Real World! Omori gang hcs (separate&romantic) that likes talking about their interests a lot? I have like 20 things im fixated on rn and i love talking about them but apparently it’s annoying when i tell my friends about stuff i like!! so i would really like to see this . thankss and love ur writing!! :]

MAIN CAST WITH A READER WHO TALKS ABOUT THEIR INTERESTS A LOT

I’m so thankful that ppl enjoy my writing sm..!!! I like when ppl talk to me abt their interests >:) and OFC, hope u enjoy!

SUNNY

SUNNY is a really good listener according to BASIL, so it’s no surprise when he likes to listen to your interests! he stays quiet when you start to talk about them, sometimes you think he ain’t even listening, but he for sure is!

if you like to hold his hand while you talk then that’s perfectly fine, he’d be so HAPPY that you wanna hold his hand close to you!!

he simply nods and listens as you explain absolutely ANYTHING about your current interests, whether it’d be something he didn’t really understand or like some sort character you grew fond of

you couldn’t help but throw all of this completely new information towards your sweet but shy boyfriend, who was currently listening to everything you were saying and trying to process it all. he didn’t seem to be uttering a word so nervously, you looked to see him actually giving you his undivided attention. it made you feel happy knowing that he’d listen to you always no matter what

if your interest was something that required creativity of sorts, SUNNY would definitely be a little interested to hear a lot more about it

he actually has a creative mind under all that shyness and stoicism he shows most of the time

he might as well learn more about your interests and see if they’re his taste. if they are, then he’s gonna surprise you one day when he quietly mentions a few things about your interests

AUBREY

okay yeah sure, AUBREY would already know you like your favorite interest by simply talking to her about it

but if you keep talking about it multiple times, she’s gonna get a tiny bit annoyed, especially if she’s busy with something else

she’ll apologize if she tells you to tone it down a bit, she’s very short-tempered and can get a bit frustrated easily, so please forgive her if she does

"jeez— [READER], could you like, i dunno, let me talk for a second please??" AUBREY lightly snapped, seemingly a bit frustrated, which caught you by surprise. you show a guilty look on your face as you apologized to her, making AUBREY feel a bit worse for snapping at you like that. "sorry, sorry AUBREY..! I can’t really help myself sometimes.." AUBREY huffs out a guilty groan and hugs you awkwardly, "it’s— not your fault at all, i just get pissed off sometimes, sorry. you could uh.. continue if you want."

she knows it’s not your fault, she knows your friends find it annoying as well and gets pissed off at them a bit.

AUBREY will at least try to calm herself down and listen carefully to the things you like and ask a few things about it that caught her interest here and there

she wants to be a good girlfriend, so please accept her apology if she snaps a tiny bit and tells you to be quiet, she can’t help and be easily frustrated

KEL

KEL would LOVE to hear what you like!! he’ll do the exact same and tell you a lot about basketball and many comic books!

despite this, he might talk over you a tiny bit. he tries not to, but he’s not sure when you might speak up suddenly

please forgive him if he ever does this, he’s not even trying to be a jerk, he just also wants to talk about his own interests as well!

"oh, there’s also—" "oh yeah, i also scored many times during a game of basketball with my pals! i think around.. 5 or 4 times!" oh, looks like your boyfriend KEL spoke before you did.. it’s fine though, you thought to yourself. "oh hang on, were you gonna say something, [READER?]" KEL asked, as you simply nodded as a response. "oh jeez, my bad, [READER], i had no idea! okay, what were you gonna say?" KEL asked with his usual dorky smile and his full undivided attention on you.

he’ll ask a few questions about your interests and maybe, just maybe, you can get him interested as well!

if you do get him interested, oh boy you guys will NOT stop talking about it for minutes, maybe even hours

KEL is a very nice guy who’ll will love everything about you, including your favorite stuff! he could go on and on how you really got hooked into one of your interests and how it made him smile to HERO

HERO

HERO is the most lovable guy in the entire universe, he’s universally loved! so it was no surprise that he didn’t stop you when you started talking about your interests to him!

he’s a very patient person when he’s not stressed out or depressed, so he could just listen to you for hours with a small smile on his face

HERO LOVES your voice, absolutely LOVES IT, even if you don’t. he thinks your voice is music to his ears and absolutely loves hearing it when you’re talking

you started to ramble about one of your interests to your lovable boyfriend HERO. you went on and on how much you loved it and way, but it was really quiet. you turned to look towards HERO, who’s actually looking back at you. "uh-huh, go on, what’s next, [READER]?" HERO politely asked with a smile on his face, eager to learn more. you felt really HAPPY that HERO was paying attention to you and your rambling about certain things you liked. HERO was deep down enjoying your amazing voice as you kept rambling.

HERO loves that you can share anything about yourself towards him, it’s like he learns something about you every day and is dying to know more!

like KEL, he’ll ask a few questions and ask for some facts about whatever current interest you have

with enough convincing, maybe you could get him interested too!

BASIL

BASIL isn’t that much of a good listener like SUNNY is, but will definitely try his best!

BASIL is more used to talking about his own stuff rather than listening, so it might be a bit complicated for him at first

he’ll definitely get the hang of it and once he does, he’ll love to learn more about your favorite things/interests at the time!

BASIL was just staring at you with a nervous expression as you started to ramble about your recent interest and how much you love it. he really wanted to talk about his own stuff, but felt bad if he told you to at least let him speak for a second. you looked really excited to talk to him about your interests, so he didn’t want to steal your thunder!

at least let him talk about his own thing as well, BASIL would absolutely appreciate it

his special interest is photography and obviously plants, so expect him to give you a plant fact every once in a while

he’ll also take a photo of you if you’re talking. he likes that you’re so in-the-zone about whatever you were rambling about, he thinks it’s cute!

MARI

being good listeners runs in the family, because MARI will always listen to you when you need to talk about absolutely anything!

you two could just be having a special picnic with just the two of you and you could just be rambling about absolutely anything you liked recently, and MARI would always listen to you

but if she’s practicing the piano, it’s not a good idea to make her stop focusing on it by talking so much, especially since she wants to get even better at the piano. she loves you, really! but she just needs to get this part of the song correctly without fail

you were currently resting your head on your amazing girlfriend MARI’s lap, taking about your current recent interest. occasionally, you’d get a simple "uh huh", "mhm..", "really now?" from her, implying that she’s definitely listening to you. it made your heart flutter knowing that she enjoyed spending time with you and listening to whatever you said.

MARI wouldn’t tease you for talking so much, she knows you didn’t really have anyone to dump all this info into because your friends found it annoying, but she didn’t!

she likes that you can practically talk to her about absolutely anything on your mind, as she thinks proper communication is the key to having a healthy relationship

she’d occasionally ask a few questions about your interests and it made your heart jump in joy. she seemed really interested and she could even get into it herself!

#aubreysheadspace!~#aubreys writing!~#omori #omori x reader #omori aubrey x reader #omori basil x reader #omori hero x reader #omori kel x reader #omori mari x reader #omori sunny x reader #omori sunny #omori basil #omori kel #omori hero #omori mari #omori aubrey

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burby2007 · 1 month

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I need to apologize I need to take a break for a while I might occasionally post something Eddsworld related but yeah going to take a break I'm a very mentally ill person and sometimes during a mental breakdowns I do some not great things mostly just cry and wish death upon myself and tell people that they deserve so much better than me which sadly I still agree with I generally don't understand why anybody wants to do with me but they do the main reason why I wanted to take a break because of my disappointment in the team on Eddsworld

I don't dislike them but there's certain attributes about the team that I'm not a big fan of me and one of my friends agree that Matt's kind of seems a little greedy now I know especially one of my fans / friends will disagree and you know what she has the right to feel that way I like Matt but he's kind of seeming like he's a little greedy with certain things but that's just me no one's truly perfect I'm not a big fan though so they did the Yootuz thing with tord like the man just wants to be left alone you probably what about the end part 1 and 2 honestly yeah it's kind of the same thing but when it comes to that at least it actually has some married to it because without tord it really would have been the end.

Anyways here's my opinion about the crew the animators no issue with really honestly I like no issue with 90% of the crew the only ones I have an issue with is really just I think I'll have an issue with Matt possibly to be fair I can judge him completely though we truly don't know what's going on behind the scenes and I guess diei because I texted him and he has never responded for like 2 weeks and it really bothers me even though he said he's busy a lot but at this point I just gave up sorry that he doesn't like me or something.

Also another issue I have is Beyond's kind of slowly going downhill like the comedies kind of stretched out and honestly that's all it's more commercialized and it's ever been which that I'm nutshell isn't bad but the marketing is like so forced it's kind of annoying and honestly like Tom's voice actor like makes a kind of worse because it's like it's like such a marketing voice it's kind of sad but you know he's a good voice actor so I can't hate him too much now with all these criticisms towards the crew do I hate Eddsworld no do I need to take a break from them yes it does not help the fact I am still grieving over my father in my mental health is slowly decreased ever since his passing and I worry that I'm going to say something wrong so I should probably take a break.

That doesn't mean I'm completely done with Eddsworld forever though I think I'm forever stuck to it call me edd head addict if you will but I think it's time for me to step down for a little bit I hope you all be okay and understand it it might not be a long break to be honest cuz my attention spans like a nutshell so I don't know I do know one thing I'll never talk any of the Eddsworld members ever again Miuns if they want to talk to me or something which we all know they don't want to. But yeah um its edd day soo yeah im tried so gn

I love you edward

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allamericanb-tch · 13 days

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marauders as eliza mclamb songs

** i limited myself to the ones she has on soundcloud because i did not want to go through her entire tiktok page to find links for all of her old songs sorry im a lazy queen.

pretend my explanations are not convoluted and poorly worded

the playlist of songs mentioned please go listen to it (with the marauders in mind !! ) i am obsessed with eliza mclamb currently. i tried to use every song on this playlist since i couldn’t use every song on her tiktok but i did skip some so. sorry? also the lyrics are just the ones i thought were the most them. i did not type out every single lyric to all these songs im not a MANIAC

james — look at me and lie / “daddy issues”

genuinely this song makes me tear up every time. it’s so jegulus from james pov coded which i think is absolutely devastating. in my mind this song is james thinking about regulus, knowing he has the mark, and regulus is wasting away knowing that he can’t be with james anymore, unknowing that james knows he has the mark. ugh it just breaks my heart every time.

i fucking hate when you look at me and lie // but i see it in your eyes you haven’t given up anything, except maybe the last three years of your life

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jegulus 💔

i know i remind you of the life you couldn’t live, you make that pretty clear when you lose your shit weirdly i like that side of you better. // to see you angry is more fulfilling than the apathy

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remus — wendy’s parking lot / autopilot / dial tone

cigarettes i mean this is literally remus. but in all seriousness, this song is so remus feeling alone, very first and second year of him, before he really got on with the marauders.

smoke a single cigarette out the window // i want to go driving till i run out of gas, speed till i pass everybody in a baby blue subaru with their 401k’s // i don’t have anyone to cry to

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remus trying to live his life after sirius leaves

doctor said i need routine // it’s time to drive around aimlessly and listen to music that used to make me cry, i wish it still did // i miss the feeling of feeling something

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remus calling grant after sirius leaves

who can i call? // you don’t have to say anything at all // just stay on the line, to know somebody’s out there will do me fine

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sirius — 2007 / haunted house

this song is sirius thinking about his time with regulus before hogwarts, and regulus idolizing his older brother and wanting to be just like him, and they grow up and grow apart, but really they’re scarily similar and sirius knows it and hates it because he hates himself.

you were still a baby, of course you’ll always be my little lady, but then you were freed // god, you’re turning into me // i want to hold your little face just look at you and say, ‘it’s not as good as it seems’ // it never gets better than being a kid with a dream

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this is sirius returning to his apartment he has with remus after he escapes azkaban

i swear this house is haunted, i can’t be here without wanting to go back ten years and do it all again. // i just can’t make myself fit back into place

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peter — speak

this is peter being quiet and shy and following james around like a lost puppy dog because james has always been his only friend, and he couldn’t bear to lose him, so he goes along with everything james does.

i never could talk loud enough so i learned how to listen. // i find my place in other people’s shadows. // i wait for you to ask me, ‘how is it you forgot how to speak?’

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mary — pornstar tits / anti-cinematic

this song is so mary being oversexualized by the fandom, and only used as a device to further the plot of wolfstar fics by being a rival love interest for sirius.

they trade that shit like pokémon cards, swapping my body with somebody else’s // it’s either jezebel or madonna and i’m not sure which one is worse

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this i think is mary leaving the wizarding world, and losing all her friends (..because they died) and trying to go back to life as a muggle

what if my best years are behind me? // what if i just keep getting older and lonelier?

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lily — elastic band / american wasteland

this song reminds me of lily reminiscing on her life before she found about wizards and magic and became involved in the war, and knowing she can’t go back to the life she once had.

so many memories i can’t recover existing in only a feeling // sometimes if i think real hard its like i’m there again // i’ll think i’ll stay in this moment for a while

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american lily evans. there i said it. but this song actually feels more petunia to me. petunia after lily leaves, feeling out of place without her built in best friend.

two kids in a double wide // take the city bus home // get off at the next stop and walk the rest of the way home in the dark

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marlene — twin flame

marlene and dorcas, dorcas and marlene.

i can read your mind like you can read mine // do i like you, or do i like that you’re fucked up like me?

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regulus — hydroplaning

this is regulus being in love with james, and being so deep into his self-hatred that he can’t even fathom why someone like james would like someone like him.

something about you liking me just doesn’t sit right with me i think it probably means you have bad taste. // and then of course i’ll whine about how no one could ever love me.

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evan — drunk in a fancy shower

evan at a party feeling out of place because party is drunk kissing other girls, and not drunk kissing him. poor evan :(

it’s so clear that i really don’t belong here // is it so cynical to think that no one would give a shit if i crawled out this window? // i need to get the fuck up, get back out there fill my cup up

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barty — zoned out

this is so barty losing his mind slowly after evan’s death

i came back into my body to find somebody else in it // i hate that i can’t listen to you over the sound of my heartbeat // sometimes i just have to leave

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pandora — witching hour / all alone

pandora is very much the kind of person who would find comfort in being alone in the middle of the night, and being awake while the world is asleep.

it must be the witching hour if i’m awake // it’s like the universe has picked me up, i’m a tiny baby in her cosmic cup. // i’m not scared of the unknown

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pandora being self aware and knowing that people think she’s weird and creepy but knowing she is on the right path for her <3

all alone, in my little world. if it’s a one man universe i’m my favorite girl. // ‘you’re all alone, well aren’t you wasting time?’ no i’m just taking mine.

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dorcas — dreamgirl

dorcas being dorcas

i wanna be your dean girl // i like the version of me that lives in your mind // i’m still a mystery to you

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a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire · 4 months

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Ive made through chapters 4-7 today and good god, I feel like i had basically nothing to say about acotar as I was reading it but with this book theres so much to talk about for some reason, its wild. Truly, I did not realize how much I liked Feyre in the first book until I was under threat of losing her

Now, I will say that Feyre seems in-character so far, shes still the same woman but traumatized, but I am worried for her. Tamlin is a whole different story though, SJM might as well shoot him dead right in front of me for how thoroughly hes being character assassinated. Like, if Tamlin actually cares about Feyre as a person and not just in a douchy, possessive alphahole way, which he should because Tamlin was not that kind of guy previously, then he would force Feyre to train so she can defend herself if necessary, not forbid her from it. Even if he didnt want her to use her magical powers, surely he would make her practice with her knife or with a sword or even with her bow just to be safe, because hes not always gonna be there

I think his actions do continue to make sense if you look at them from his perspective, but I also maintain that he's doing a really bad job at responding to Feyre. But also, its so laughably obvious what sjm is doing by having Tamlin say shit like "you were stolen from me", shes trying to paint him as some objectifying asshole. Even Lucien calling her "Tamlin's bride" feels like its part of all this, and I know Ianthe is gonna turn out to be a traitor and a rapist at some point, so it really comes across as an attempt to villify the entire spring court for its association with Tamlin

Speaking of Lucien, I genuinely think part of the reason Feylin is doing so badly in this book is that his dynamic with Tamlin is completely different now. For some reason hes all like "oh, my High Lord" instead of "my good friend Tamlin", he suddenly cant say a word against him when he was talking to shit to him just a few months ago in-uinverse. Like, if their dynamic was the same as it was in acotar, Lucien wouldve probably been like "hey man, I know youre stressed and I get it, I know what its like to watch the love of my life get brutally murdered I dont know what its like to have her magically ressurected again but thats neither here nor there, but Feyre is clearly not happy being inside all day and you need a break, go take her out on a date in the woods, I'll stay here and take care of everything, dont even worry about it" or gotten him to comprise with Feyre or chill tf out or SOMETHING but because theres suddenly this rigid hierarchy in the spring court in order to make the night court look better

Speaking of the night court, Ive heard some stuff about it feeling very orientalist but it still managed to completely blindsight me with its badness. Feyre got fucking harem pants to wear, really? And a short-sleeved croptop, and no fucking shoes, probably because Rhys didnt want Feyre throwing shoes at him again. That was the one moment in this book that brought me genuine joy btw, I would read a thousand fanfics about her just throwing shit at him

Anyway, speaking of my guy (derogatory) Rhysand Nolastname, hes so incredibly annoying I dont even have any coherent thoughts about him right now, like, if I were to write down what I think of him I would just write "he fuckinh pisses me off" over and over again. Im actually a really big fan of edgy shadow bois, but only if theyre like, sad and angry and closed off, if theyre like Rhysand and theyre all flirty and teasing and cocky and shit, theyre just annoying and nothing else. And the romance has barely even started yet, I cant imagine how much worse the flirting is gonna get later. Not to mention all these desperate and obvious attempts by sjm to make him sympathetic and morally good now, its honestly pretty pathetic

Now Im gonna be real with you, I didnt get a lot of sleep yesterday and I can feel myself and the things Im writing getting less and less coherent, so Im just gonna hit you with the very last of my thoughts bullet point style

The fact that Amarantha apparently didnt actually go rogue and it was all part of Hybern's plan feels misogynistic ngl

Ianthe's entire character already feels so misogynistic and slutshame-y and she hasnt even assaulted anyone yet

Something about Mor bothers me, I cant quite put my finger on it but its there. I think I do like her for annoying Rhys though

God, Im gonna have so much to say about the Illyrians but for now, its awfully bold of Rhysand to be like "they wasted no time throwing themselves before her feet" when THATS WHAT HE DID

Thats it for now

#anti sjm #anti acomaf #anti rhysand #flames and darkness liveblog

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devilcat3d · 24 days

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What's your favorite new Thunder Junction card/commander? (Personal opinion: Akul)

akul the unrepentant is so fucking sick i love him and his rakdos swagger. i cant help but feel his stats are kinda pushed but also he's hard to cast so thats okay i suppose. i hope you enjoy playing with him!!

my favorite cards are kinda random but here's the ones i can think of!!

1: return the favor

i love this kind of effect. i think the change targets of spells protection red gets are so fun and feel really good to use. they essentially play like counterspells against removal and such (i also once stole a time warp with one lmao) and i think they are incredibly balanced. obviously they are all worse than deflecting swat (one of my fav cards) but even worse swat is super strong. this one requires 3 mana to do its thing but has the upside of stealing spells with it's other modes and also just copying your spells and abilities and that's incredible upside. this spell seems super strong and flexible to me and im super excited to play with it

2, also one of my favorite commanders from the set: rakdos, the muscle

this is my favorite comamnder from the set and i have a deck built for him already!! i played him the other night and he felt kinda slow and maybe hard to play but i did get to mill my friend with the exile and an altar of dementia. this guy is really cool and such a unique effect and i really dig him!!

3, my other fav commander from otj: vihaan goldwaker:

look at him. i love the colors, i love the art, and i love the effect. treasures are busted and bad for the game but i really like them and playing with them is super fun. beating face with a bunch of treasures is a dream of mine and this guy really lets you beat face. im building him currently and i think he'll be rather strong. he has lots of fun and unique synergies and i love his vibes

4: gila courser

my favorite mount. i love lizards. and red cards. this guy is so cool i love him. i dunno where ill play him besides a mount 60 card deck. that is all.

5: geralf, the fleshwright

honorable mention, but i just really like this guy the art is great and his effect is fun. i dont love zombies as a kindred type but this card makes me happy!! ฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ

anyway those are the cards that stand out to me i hope this was a fun read!! thank you for the ask <3

#mtg #magic the gathering

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andreal831 · 10 days

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I got a lot of edits on my fyp prior to watching any TVDU show so I knew a solid amount of the plot lines prior to watching either show, which also means I knew what characters were normalized to be hated/loved. I started these shows and expected to absolutely despise Matt, Elena, Tyler, and Cami. None of them are my favorite, but I never understood the hate for any of them whatsoever.

The Matt hate just makes no sense, I’m convinced people just want to “fit in” and hate the person that everyone else hates. You pretty much explained everything I would say for him so I’ll hold back a bit here. And yeah, I’m tired of people pretending he’s not attractive cause there is not a single actor on this show that doesn’t look good.

Everyone calls Elena a crybaby, but if they had lost the amount of people that she had before they’re even 20 years old, I guarantee you they’d be crying even more than she did. And calling her selfish? She very rarely ever put herself over anyone. There’s also the argument that she ‘played Stefan’ which in my opinion is just straight out wrong, it’s not like she was pretending to be in love with him while she was with him, but if you hate her for that, you’d have to hate like half the show. I swear everyone dated everyone within that friend group, why do people only hate on her for it? Also this has nothing to do with my point, but why does everyone hate on her NH era? I liked it, it gave her character something different.

Everyone hates on Tyler for one of two reasons. One being that he tried to SA Vicki in season 1, which you would think is a valid excuse, but then they go onto say Klaus, Damon, and/or Katherine is their favorite character (and I’m saying this as my Damon and Klaus are both in my top 5 TVDU characters). The second reason would be something along the lines of Tyler wanting to get revenge on Klaus. I do think he went too far with trying to kill Hayley/hope, but aside from that, he had every right to get revenge on Klaus. He killed his mom and practically ruined his life, including messing with his relationship with Caroline. I actually love Forewood, but I don’t think they could’ve been endgame after that. So I don’t get why people hate on him for leaving Caroline, because I feel like continuing to lead her on when his head is nowhere near the right space would’ve been worse.

Then there’s cami, which is honestly the most confusing one out of all to me. I completely understand her not being your favorite, especially if you’re into more of the anti heroes or villains (like me), but I do not understand why people just absolutely despise her. She plays a major part in the originals, especially early on, as she is the only person Klaus seems to care about listening to whatsoever. He isn’t paying Hayley any sort of attention, and he lied to/betrayed Elijah left and right in season 1. She’s also never betrayed anyone that she considers to be friends or family. The biggest reason she’s hated on is because she ‘stole Klaus from Caroline.” 1. I genuinely just do not get what people see in klaroline. I don’t absolutely despise them, but I do not like them either. Klaus hurt her multiple times (which, by the way, why do people act like Klaus is a hero for saving Caroline from a bite he caused…?) and Caroline was manipulating him every chance she got. I totally understand the whole ‘enemies to lovers’ trope, considering I like delena, but I just do not get it here. 2. How did anyone see that Klaus (and the originals) was getting his own show, and still expect klaroline to work out? 95% of interactions they had post TO being made was complete fan service. It would’ve been WAY too difficult to do a long distance thing with two different shows, especially when neither of them were (im so gonna get hated for this) never in love with each other, they weren’t even in a relationship. Oh and back to the forewood thing real quick, Tyler had every right to be pissed at Caroline for sleeping with Klaus.

Well that turned into a klaroline bashing towards the end. For the record my top 5 characters are Damon, Elijah, kol, hayley, and Klaus in that order and there really aren’t any ships (canonical ships anyway) that I absolutely hate so.

Side note, thank you for being able to hold characters accountable. I like characters as villains/anti heroes because they are a villain/anti hero, I will never understand why people try to defend their favorite character and make them seem like a hero. Like the character for their character, don’t make them into something completely different. If you wanna debate anything further (or something entirely different) let me know, I enjoy debating about shows, I just typically can’t find anyone in this fandom (or any fandom for that matter) that is able to have an actual debate without someone starting to scream over an opinion lmao.

There really isn’t a question here I just kinda felt like ranting after reading your post about Matt Donovan so here it is. Reply to this as you please!

I was fortunate enough to watch the shows before I got into the fandom so I didn't get spoilers (at least for TVD), but more importantly, I didn't have anyone to influence me on which characters to like or not. Which was why I was so surprised when I joined the fandom and saw so much hatred. But I do think some people just "bandwagon" hate characters. Especially Matt. Because anytime I ask people why, they can't even truly express why they *hate* him.

Elena was never my favorite character but I loved early seasons of Elena. I even enjoyed her NH era. I didn't like her sire bond era much. But she definitely gets too much hate. Even at times when I think she can be selfish, she's still miles better than the men the fandom loves.

I've actually posted about Tyler before, you can find that here. Sure, he's done questionable/problematic things, but who hasn't? The hate he gets is ridiculous, especially because it always comes from Damon or Klaus stans. I actually like Caroline and adored Forewood, but I hated how she handled the breakdown of their relationship. I blame the writers. They continuously tanked Caroline's character in order to get views with klaroline.

I love Cami and she is the one character that I truly believe has done no wrong. Cami was truly a turning point for Klaus. Cami was not only an important person for Klaus but for the entire Mikaelson family and the entirety of New Orleans. I also wrote about that recently. But yes, 100% of the hate she gets is because of Klaroline stans. I used to be indifferent to Klaroline. Like I don't like them because they are toxic and I would never ship them, and there are plenty of ships I feel this way about, but the fandom has made me actively dislike them. Klaroline had no possible way of working out and was just lust, but people build them up in their head and then attacked and harassed a real life person because of their delusions.

I'm glad you found my post and enjoyed it! I love finding people that want to engage and have actual discussions about the fandom. Too many people get so set in their views and can't discuss the characters without getting angry. I completely agree. We can all love the characters but 99% of the characters in this show are problematic to say the least. We can love them and still acknowledge this. I love to analyze the morality of the show because it is interesting as we can't use are real life standards to do so. I obviously love over analyzing everything about the show as I spend so much time doing so.

Feel free to ask anything or reach out!

#tvdu #the originals #the vampire diaries #tvd #anon ask #fandom asks #tvd anon ask #tvd ask #fandom answers #tvdu metas #metas #anti klaroline #just to be safe #i kind of went on a rant there too

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look-how-they-massacred-them · 9 months

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Preliminary Poll

Marinette Dupain-Cheng

Submission reason:

Reduced to only having her motivation be her crush on a boy repeatedly. Disallowed from being able to make mistakes or have faults. Made to take on responsibility for the mistakes of other characters to learn the ‘lesson’ of the episode.

They make her loose all logic when thinking about pretty much at this point nonsensical crush and make everyone against her when faced against the worst lies. They also make her know less about her own heritage than a white boy. Overall just the writer's only caring about making their white boy look good and limited her character growth and potential

victim of both the crew's misogyny n racism she cannot have something genuinely good happen to her a rule of the show's bible is that marinette must always be the one to learn a lesson pretty much every character in this show could be submitted including the writers' favorite boy adrien but im submitting marinette specifically as shes literally the protagonist of the show n they cannot be fucking normal towards a 14 year old asian teenage girl theres a lot of shots that show off her ass for ~totally~ no reason (there was even like a screenshot where it compared her normal ladybug model to one of her kwami fusion models n the kwami model dont remember which one literally had a bigger ass like what the fuck) surely theres nothing weird about how she has the most obvious body paint suit among the girls had a comic where she was depicted as not having any clothes after she changes back from being ladybug (something invented entirely for that comic alone n has never been a problem otherwise) leaving her to having to wear a fucking cardboard box n one of the crew literally drawing her naked n the show's creator defending them (ive never seen the actual art but the creator defending them does imply that someone on the crew did do that) n thats not even getting into the writing im not gonna touch on the racism myself cause i dont fully remember all the moments n might get some details wrong but from my experience it was relatively easy to find fans of color talking about it anyway the writers on this show seem to have a personal fucking vendetta against teenage girls n especially teenage girls in love i know chloe's been submitted a lot n shes is only one of many victims of it if girls like the same guy they will get into cat fights n be mean as hell to eachother (marinette chloe n lila) while if guys like the same girl theyre allowed to be friends n it not really factor into their relationship (luka n adrien) they write marinette as being weird obsessive n stalkery towards adrien simply because shes a teenage girl with a crush n lack awareness that some of the stuff would be entirely reasonable for her to know cause yknow adrien is literally a celebrity just cause they think peak comedy is bad stuff happening to marinette when she tries to move on from her crush on adrien (something they literally wrote her to do) cause its only ever resulted in her getting humiliated they yanked her back after giving her an actually good love interest who respects her boundaries just god theres a fucking lot going on here n i dont think i even covered the worst of it

her parents are literally based off of the creator n an ex girlfriend of his (his tweet stating that is still up btw) so to me that adds like a whole nother layer to the way shes treated in the show cause he called marinette his virtual daughter

Propaganda:

this is a show specifically designed to be as unpleasant as possible for anyone who isnt interested in watching a dumpster fire n there are aspects of it that make it legitimately concerning that its target audience is children especially young girls i wouldnt have as much of a grip with it if it was just trashy adult show but no this is for kids n its just gotten worse as time goes on it had a decent first season i watched most of it in one night when i was like 12 but godddd kids deserve media that actually respects their intelligence time n doesnt seem to viscerally hate them n this aint it

#look how they massacred them poll #look how they massacred my girl #miraculoustalesofladybugandcatnoir #mlb #miraculous ladybug #miraculous marinette #marinette dupain cheng

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tmntxthings · 2 years

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Heartbreak

request: can you please do the rise turtles helping y/n through a rlly hard breakup? Like the kind of breakup that happens out of nowhere after everything seemed to be going fine? But also (bc im a criminal) can you make the turtles be in love w y/n, they just don’t wanna make them feel worse so they pine for the affection?

a/n: here we gooo <3 @b00tyshakerr9000 these are for you my dear friend

warning: angst, cursing, fluff, comfort endings, slight alcohol consumption

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Raph

Raph had been having a great time with you, the two of you lazing around together showing each other music the two of you were interested in at the moment. Or silly memes/tiktoks. He loved days like this where nothing was on the agenda, and yet the two of you could still have a great time together.

You had been showing him a music video on your phone when it was suddenly replaced with the call screen, Raph saw briefly who the caller was, a bunch of hearts added onto the end of the name. “Oh! Let me take this real quick,” you said a smile forming on your face. As long as you were happy, Raph was happy, he couldn’t help the grin taking hold of his own face at your cute reaction.

“Heyy~” you answered not bothering to get up or leave the room because you were comfortable with Raph. “What’s wrong?” You said tone going serious and Raph who had been looking down at his phone trying to pretend he wasn’t listening in, glanced your way. “What do you mean..” your voice was barely a whisper now, and you stood up suddenly. “Wait, no don’t hang up, please!” And Raph was on his feet, in front of you as your arm went slowly back down to your side.

“Y/n? What happened??” He asked worriedly not liking how emotionless you looked. You looked to the sound of his voice but it was like you couldn’t seen him, you were looking straight through him. “They don’t love me anymore,” you said. And Raph scrunched up his face, “Y/n..”

“No, they just broke up with me, three years, and now nothing.” You said starting to pace. Raph wanted to hold you, but he settled for, “it’ll be okay, Y/n you don’t need them!” He hadn’t known much about your ex but you talked about them a lot. It hadn’t always been happy, he knew of the fights but you always were so sure they were the one, and that the two of you could come out stronger together.

You placed a hand over your heart, closing your eyes tightly trying to keep from crying. “Y/n I’m here for you,” Raph said pulling you to him gently, hugging you close. And you let him as you cried, not understanding where it had gone wrong. It was silent tears at first, then sobs that had shaken your shoulders. Raph held on to you tightly, “Raph what if I’m just unloveable?” You cried into the fabric of his grey hoodie. Raph tilted your head up slowly, “Y/n that’s impossible,” he looked down at you with teary eyes and a small smile.

“You’re my best friend, and I’ll always care about you,” Raph said hands going around your center and pulling you close again. He had almost kissed your forehead. But he knew he shouldn’t, he was already walking a tight line, he didn’t want to overwhelm you right now, this wasn’t the time. But all these emotions made him want to pour out his heart to you, he could love you, he did love you. He rubbed his cheek on the top of your head. “Thank you Raph,” you said and the two of you finally pulled away. “Anytime,” he nodded and it was quiet for a moment.

“Let’s go do something,” you said as you wiped your cheeks trying to get rid of the tear stains. “Like what?” Raph asked, “I don’t know something fun!” You laughed weakly wanting to just forget about everything for a little while. “I think I know just the thing..” Raph nodded and you let him lead the way.

You’d been on a rooftop before, but being on top of Raph’s shoulders, as he jumped easily from building to building, it was a different feeling entirely. At first you had been scared, but it wore off. And soon you had one hand in the air, the other clinging onto the top of his shell. Though even if you wanted to let go completely Raph was holding onto your legs securely, he was positive he wouldn’t let you fall. You yelled out excitedly the lights from the billboards making everything more colorful.

“You always know what to do,” you said as he came to a stop. Your hands going to hold his face as you leaned forward so your face came into view of his. He smiled up at you and shrugged, “I get lucky most times,” he said sheepishly and you shook your head, “No you’re perfect,” his cheeks darkened at the compliment. “Do you think we could have a sleepover tonight?” You said going back to sitting straight up and he nodded immediately. You smiled as he turned around, “wanna stay on my shoulders?” He asked as he squeezed your ankles, “yeah I like it up here,” and the both of you laughed.

Donnie

Donnie peeled off his gloves and lifted his goggles. Oh how the time flew by when he worked on his precious inventions. He patted the metal hood of an unfinished turtle buggy. Smaller than the tank, bigger than the motorcycle. Donnie liked having options. He stretched out his arms as he left the garage, heading for his room because he didn’t have his phone.

He usually carried it with him always, but he hadn’t wanted any distractions so he left it in his room. The downside to that was he really had no idea how much time had passed unless someone came looking for him. Donnie landed on his bed face down sighing, he was tired and sleep called to him but he reached for his phone. First noticing the time, it was really late, he must’ve been working in the garage for hours!

The next thing he noticed was a missed call from you, along with a voicemail. You had called an hour ago which made Donnie immediately open up the voicemail, you weren’t this much of a night owl. Sure you stayed up and had late nights on occasions but he knew you had work in the morning. He clicked the play button and at first all he could hear was silence, “…Donnie?” your voice was soft as if you were trying to hold back emotion. “I really-“ your voice broke off and he heard you take a shaky breath, “can you come over when you get the chance?” and then the message ended.

Donnie was up and moving, he wondered if you’d still be awake, by the sound of your voice whatever had happened it was serious. He decided to send you a quick message letting you know he was on his way. But he didn’t get a response back. He mulled over waiting til tomorrow but as he listened to your message again he was out in the sewers and climbing the ladder to the surface before he could overthink it.

“You came?” You said in slight disbelief as you opened the door to find Donatello on the other side, in a purple hoodie and black track pants. “You called,” he smiled at you but it faded as he saw tears spring in your eyes and you lunged at him, wrapping your arms around his neck. He was shocked to say the least but held you close, “Y/n, do you wanna talk about it?”

His heart was pounding, as you slowly let him go and opened the door wider for him to enter. He waited for you to close the door, you were sniffing and trying to maintain some composure but now that you had someone here it was like every wall you had built up came crashing down. “They broke up with me,” you said leaning your back against the door. Donnie’s eyes widened, “what happened??” He asked concerned as he watched your eyes water again, you shook your head.

“I don’t know, they didn’t give an explanation. Just ‘I’m done’ and I haven’t heard from them since.” you muttered bitterly. And it hurt Donnie to see you this way, he wanted to fix it, make everything better. But he didn’t know how, “I’m sorry Y/n.. but they didn’t deserve you anyways.” He said reaching for your hand to pull you out of the memories that were flashing before your mind. You blinked and looked down at his hand holding yours, “thanks Dee, I just can’t help but feel.. I don’t even know, confused? wronged? betrayed?” You squeezed his hand as you continued,

“I thought we were in love, i thought they loved me just as much-“ you sighed not having the strength to continue on. You had been stuck with these thoughts in your head. Dragging you down into a depression so deep that you had called Donnie, your best friend, in your time of need. He squeezed your hand back, offering comfort with touch rather than words because he truly didn’t know what to say.

He didn’t want to make things worse either. Like he could say, “I love you, just as much, if not more than anyone could ever love another person.” But he didn’t. He didn’t want to throw his emotions in to an already emotional situation. “Can you stay the night?” You spoke quietly, not looking up at him but clinging to his hand like it was a lifeline. “Of course Y/n, I’ll always be here when you need me,”

That night Donnie sat with you on your couch as the two of talked about anything and everything. Movies playing in the background that both of you would pay attention to when there was a moment of silence. You fell asleep first, head leaning onto his shoulder, and he gently leaned his on top of yours. “It’ll be okay,” he murmured to you knowing it was true. You were one of the strongest people he knew, and with that thought he closed his eyes, drifting off to sleep with you.

Leo

“They said WHAT?” Leo spit out his drink turning to face you, standing rod straight. “That it was all a mistake,” you slurred, waving your hand around wildly. “That we don’t work anymore and that I should move on,” your head slumped down to the table and you continued to whimper to yourself about love not being real.

Leo had portaled in about 30 minutes ago. You had been drinking and texting him about how upset you were. But every time he had asked why, you wouldn’t answer and just texted something random. He knew something was up and took matters into his own hands. Portaling in and seeing the cans he immediately cut you off (and helped himself to the can you had already opened… what?! it’d be a waste to chunk it!)

You hadn’t made a fuss and after some convincing Leo had you spilling what you were drinking over. “Damn,” Leo muttered and you turned your head to the side, blowing out a breath to move a strand of hair. “Yeah,” you agreed. “Fuck ‘em!” Leo said and thumped the can to the counter before chugging the rest of the drink. Crushing the empty can in his hand before throwing it in the trash. “You can’t drink and portal Lee,” you said narrowing your eyes.

“Exactly, sleepover at your place!” He said with jazz hands as he shot you a wink. “Perfect, just what I need the night I’m dumped,” you said sarcastically. And Leo flopped down on the seat next to yours. “You wound me, I know you want me to stay and cheer ya up,” he said it jokingly but it was the truth. Your face went still, “yeah,” you said before turning your head back to the table.

You felt his finger poke your cheek, and you groaned, but he kept poking until you finally turned, “what?” You said not surprised that he was now copying you, head on the table, turned to look at you. “Y/n, you’re better off without them.” He said seriously, “and if you need someone to lean on, lean on me,”

He kept going, “and I promise you that I’ll always look out for you,” at the last part you noticed a dark green blush underneath his bandana. You smiled softly, “thanks Leo,” he smiled at you too, then stuck out his tongue, “got anymore of them cans?” and you scoffed. “No and even if I did, you’re not getting anymore, bad enough you had half of one!” You groaned wondering how long you had til Raph would come to find out and bite your head off.

“I’ll protect you,” Leo said out of nowhere. “From anybody, Big Raphie included,” and you shook your head, “Raph would most definitely kick your blue butt,” and Leo gasped. Looking at you with disbelief, “I’m the-“

You finished off his sentence, already knowing what he was gonna say, “greatest ninja ever,” you teased and he smirked, “that’s more like it,” Leo said and you couldn’t help but laugh. The rest of the night had been a blur, Leo mainly doing a great job of distracting you, and acting a bit more tipsy than he really was. Prank calling his brothers, mainly Mikey. And playing intense matches of board games or cards. “Let’s call it a night,” you yawned and the cards flew wildly out of his hands as he tried to shuffle for the tenth time. “You sure?” He said giving up on the cards completely.

“Yeah I just wanna sleep it all off,” you sighed and leaned back in your chair. Leo copied you again, keeping his eyes on you, “want me to head out?” and you shook your head, “sleepover remember?” and you got up to go get your pillows and blankets. He watched as the dragged on your floor, your arms full and overflowing, “Allow me,” he chuckled and portaled it all to the couch easily. “Handy,” you smiled and both of you were on the couch, under the covers in no time. “You can watch a movie if you want, I’ll probably pass out in a couple of minutes,” you said as you got comfy. Stretching out your feet and Leo placed them on his lap so you could do so fully.

“Goodnight Y/n” Leo said as he watched your eyes flutter close soon after, you mumbled back your reply too tired to stay up any longer. He sighed, “and good riddance to the ex,” he whispered, looking up at the ceiling above him and wondering about a lot. Mostly his feelings for you. He knew he liked you a lot, but what he felt now was all-consuming. He hated how you tried so hard to act like you weren’t hurting. You were a lot like him in that regard. Trying to put a front and stay strong. But he’d be there for you, like he promised, and his eyes closed.

Mikey

It had been over text and Mikey had been holding your phone. He hadn’t meant to click it, but it was like second nature, if he saw a notification he just clicked it, not thinking much of it as he handed over the phone, teasing you at who it was. “It’s themmm~”

You shoved Mikey after snatching your phone back. Looking happy and expectant at the message. But as your eyebrows furrowed and he watched as you eyes read on, he started to get anxious. “Y/n?” He said worriedly as you kept quiet and kept rereading.

“Hm?” You said absentmindedly, and Mikey tried again, “Everything okay?” his pointer fingers coming together tapping quietly. “No,” you breathed out heavily. “Are they okay?” Mikey chewed on his lower lip and you finally looked up from your phone. “Yeah,” you said, closing it and then completely shocking Mikey as you threw your phone down to the ground, it hit an orange rug with a loud thud.

“What’s going on??” Mikey said grabbing for your hands but doing so too late, you were out of his bed and going for the door. He ran after you, “Y/n please,” Mikey said not liking the lack of communication between the two of you. Not understanding what was happening at all just that something was definitely wrong. “I can’t Mikey,” you shook your head, “not here, I wanna go home,” you said and tears fell down.

You touched your cheek in shock, not having felt like crying but feeling rage. And yet you were crying, that realization only had more tears spilling out and Mikey was there pulling you to him and down both of you went as your legs gave out. “I- they- it’s over! We’re done and I’m alone again!” you said in disbelief.

You had put everything you were in that relationship, never had you thought of it ending this way, so out of the blue. “Shhh” Mikey said softly, petting your hair as he tried to calm you. “Don’t worry, I’m here, you’re not alone Y/n,” he said to you, trying to be calm. He too was angry, he’d never seen you like that before, so completely devastated. He wanted to fix it, to hurt the one who had done this to you!

He squeezed his eyes shut and tried to hold back from gritting his teeth or locking his jaw. You calmed down and so did he. Your hands rubbing his shell and he rubbed your back. “I think I’ll be going through the seven stages,” you tried to joke, already having felt multiple emotions like disbelief, rage, sadness. You wanted acceptance to come along already.

“Well I’ll be there for all seven, and every stage after that!” Mikey promised breathing out a deep breath and pulling back slightly, to smile at you. “Thanks Mikey,” you smiled back at him and he wished he could tell you more than that. He wondered how you would react to his feelings, he didn’t want to rush things, he didn’t want to ruin things. It was fine the way it was now. Especially with what you were going through. “Promise?” You teased knowing he’d immediately agree, “Yes!” He said confirming your thoughts. His heart was yours, whether you knew it or not.

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