#it has been. one fuck of a day

[pink-spaceturtle5]

In a fucking glorious turn of events, my weed pen is working again

#it has been. one fuck of a day #at least the ppl I work for at very kind and reasonable and understanding about my car having issues #the baby was very fussy and I am so exhausted from walking #it definitely is not tenable for me to take the bus entirely both ways from work #I'm gonna have to call a Lyft after the first bus bc Ho Lee Shit public transport needs better funding and more options #also I still need to buy groceries and pick up my meds AND finish my hw before I can even relax at home #I'm gonna do as much hw as I can on the bus but it's getting too dark out to do it at the stops #at least the immediately upcoming bus was comfy this morning #and also Rubie is back in business #hazard to my lungs tho she may be at least she doesn't carry nicotine #that's one of many addiction roads I definitely want to avoid going down. among like. literally everything else #1 chemical crutch is all I need to depend upon #also as fussy as he was towards the end the work baby was very cute and silly and cuddly today so that was nice #and I do enjoy the dark #lmao I can feel the dab kicking in

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[clouvu]

Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine

#genshin impact #arlecchino #peruere #clervie #ouhhhhhhhh im never gonna be able to emotionally recover from watching that animated short #ever since it came out a couple days ago just thinking of these two makes me feel like my heart is physically being ripped in half #i cant stop thinking about how Clervie was the only person in Arlecchino's life that she truly loved #like dont get me wrong Arlecchino loves her children in her own detached-fucked up way as much as any person with her amount of trauma can #but Clervie meant so much to her that even just her presence alone kept Arle's curse at bay #and it seems that no one other than Clervie herself has ever been able to break this unemotional/detached wall that Arle has put up #and maybe no one else ever will #DONT GET ME WRONG I still fw arle x other female harbingers like that shit is still peak #but oh my god the idea that arle never moved on after clervie's death and will never love anyone the way she loved her makes me want to SOB

[charlie-artlie]

Bonnie in the real world 💖

#five nights at freddy's #fnaf #glamrock bonnie #fnaf ruin #fnaf security breach #arts #obligatory ‘’i’m sure this has been done before’’ #showing up fashionably late to the barbie memes party #but this really is like. the core of my fanon interpretation of him and the glamrocks in general #one day i’ll write the fucked up melodrama fic that lives rent free in my head about this very topic

[prinsomnia]

smitten 🦋

#illustration #aesthetic #butterflies #fantasy #flowers #maximalist #romance #sapphic #purple #pink #magic #digital art #art ph #art fart #prinsomnia #portfolio #this piece was a bit of a “one for them one for me” sorta thing #i've been so busy with my day job and just clearing out my backlogs and it was so hard for me to realize day by day how little i do for mys #myself anymore. #more and more i feel trapped in a really fucked up world. but nothing that a nap can't fix!! #i hope life has been kind to you. and i hope you have been kind to you. <3

[rambles-about-minecraft-ocs]

one of my favorite things about zedaph is that on a server full of people that find strange and oft-overlooked minecraft mechanics or rare events and then see just how far they can push them in the name of spectacle or efficiency or world-breaking, zed is over here finding these mechanics in order to do the weirdest things he can think of in as entertaining a manner as possible

like i 100% have faith in zedaph's theoretical ability to be just as efficient or spectacular or world-breaking. if he wanted to do that stuff, i trust that he absolutely could. but thats so far from being his priority. instead, hes going to spend around a week of irl time focused entirely on eventually having the good luck to spawn in something insanely rare so that he can convert it into something even rarer, the result of which being something that 99% of the server reacts with complete and utter shock that it even exists in the first place, just because its zany and funny and he wanted to. and i love that

#zedaph #hermitcraft #genuinely i adore the clucky few project im not even done watching the episode and i had to pause and make this post #i saw impulses video first and went ''that HAS to be some sort of datapack or something-'' #only to immediately go ''no. no it cant be. because this is zed #and its practically a trademark of his to push the limits of the game as far as possible in the direction least expected #not for the purpose of efficiency or spectacle or intimidation or whatever like some players who push limits #but purely for the purpose of making something so funny you cant help but laugh at whats going on #and maybe being a bit impressed that he ever thought of it in the first place'' #at which point i went ''holy shit. since its zed doing this. somehow he ACTUALLY got a villager on a chicken. with no cheats. thats INSANE' #i was relieved when i checked my subscriptions to see what the next video i had to watch was and saw he would be next in line #bc if i had to sit through 19 other hermits videos before i could watch his and find out what the fuck he was doing i would have been so sa #sidenote but i feel like a zed video where he interacts with this many other people all in the same video is so rare #idk i didnt watch season 9 and i know he started collabing a lot more w/ other hermits then #so maybe its not nearly as rare these days #but like the last one that *i* saw where he interacted with this many people at once was towards the end of season 8 #when all the people he experimented on earlier in the season came back to experiment on him #and like i would like zeds videos with or without the collabs. but its a lot of fun to see him interact with people #so its very cool to me when he does it with a lot of people all in the same video

[andthebeanstalk]

Me: hm, I want something to put on the TV as background noise... Huh. Looks like YouTube is recommending something called The Last Unicorn. That's perfect, it's probably some old shitty animation that has aged poorly! I can watch it ironically!

Me, 2 hours later as the credits roll: *crying, cheering, buying the book, composing the songs*

Me, 2 weeks later: So I have compiled all of the quotes from the book that I think could make good tattoos, and also, HOW HAVE I NEVER LEARNED ABOUT HOW THE LAST UNICORN FUCKING SLAPS??? This gay-ass little fairytale fed my soul! Watered my crops! Transed my gender! Can't believe I heard of this story from youtube recommendations, of all places!!

#original #the last unicorn #tlu #peter s beagle #molly gru #schmendrick #schmendrick the magician #two of my favorite characters in anything right there in the center of the story! and I'm glad I saw the film first! #my reading ability has diminished due to trauma disability etc. but it seems like having a visual reference actually really helped! #no wonder i only ever want to read fan fic! turns out reading is not actually Superior to other types of Storytelling. it's just different. #to say otherwise is snobbishness I have been eminently guilty of in my life! #but like it is easier for me to consume tv and movies and that is fine actually. also that's why I'm doing a graphic novel lol #because i wanted to make something i would actually be able to read if i found it at a library. altho the audio book IS gonna be bomb #the audiobook is for visually impaired readers and anyone who wants or needs it! accessible stories for everyone! yeah!! #my gender was already transed but now I've gained an ADDITIONAL gender! which one? I'll never tell 😘 #i am so powerful i have so much fuckin gender. my wife has no gender. and she is equally as powerful. #and also she has STUDIED THE BLADE #mostly zoro's blades from One Piece #normally YouTube recommends me shit movies like idiocracy or smth this is like if every day ur cat brought you a piece of rotten food and #then one day it brings you a BEAUTIFULLY ANIMATED TALE FEATURING MY BELOVED TWINK FUCK-UP WIZARD FRIEND AND MY ALL-TIME HOMEGIRL MOLLY GRU #and also it's soft and beautiful and funny and fucking weird!! i wrote melodies to the songs in the books on my ukulele

[marypsue]

So if you follow me (and aren't just stopping by because you saw one of my funney viralposts), you probably know that I've been writing a bunch of fanfiction for Stranger Things, which is set in rural Indiana in the early- to mid-eighties. I've been working on an AU where (among other things) Robin, a character confirmed queer in canon, gets integrated into a friend group made up of a number of main characters. And I got a comment that has been following me around in the back of my mind for a while. Amidst fairly usual talk about the show and the AU and what happens next, the commenter asked, apparently in genuine confusion, "why wouldn't Robin just come out to the rest of the group yet? They would be okay with it."

I did kind of assume, for a second or two, that this was a classic case of somebody confusing what the character knows with what the author/audience knows. But the more I think about it, the more I feel like it embodies a real generational shift in thinking that I hadn't even managed to fully comprehend until this comment threw it into sharp perspective.

Because, my knee-jerk reaction was to reply to the comment, "She hasn't come out to these people she's only sort-of known for less than a year because it's rural Indiana. In the nineteen-eighties." and let that speak for itself. Because for me and my peers, that would speak for itself. That would be an easy and obvious leap of logic. Because I grew up in a world where you assumed, until proven otherwise, that the general society and everyone around you was homophobic. That it was unsafe to be known to be queer, and to deliberately out yourself required intention and forethought and courage, because you would get negative reactions and you had to be prepared for the fallout. Not from everybody! There were always exceptions! But they were exceptions. And this wasn't something you consciously decided, it wasn't an individual choice, it wasn't an individual response to trauma, it wasn't individual. It was everybody. It was baked in, and you didn't question it because it was so inherently, demonstrably obvious. It was Just The Way The World Is. Everybody can safely be assumed to be homophobic until proven otherwise.

And what this comment really clarified for me, but I've seen in a million tiny clashing assumptions and disconnects and confusions I've run into with The Kids These Days, is that a lot of them have grown up into a world that is...the opposite. There are a lot of queer kids out there who are assuming, by default, that everybody is not homophobic, until proven otherwise. And by and large, the world is not punishing them harshly for making that assumption, the way it once would have.

The whole entire world I knew changed, somehow, very slowly and then all at once. And yes, it does make me feel like a complete space alien just arrived to Earth some days. But also, it makes me feel very hopeful. This is what we wanted for ourselves when we were young and raw and angrily shoving ourselves in everyone's faces to dare them to prove themselves the exception, and this is what I want for The Kids These Days.

(But also please, please, Kids These Days, do try to remember that it has only been this way since extremely recently, and no it is not crazy or pathetic or irrational or whatever to still want to protect yourself and be choosy about who you share important parts of yourself with.)

#also Kids These Days please if nobody's told you: you can't send cheques through email #and if somebody sends you one through email They Are A Scammer and Yes They Are Scamming You #that's not related I just am constantly tearing my hair out about how many people of ALL AGES don't know that #something something something invoking the fuck word in the hopes it will keep this poast from search #i love how the internet has created Magic Words Of Power #unfortunately most of those words perform the action of 'summon jackass idiots to comment on your post' #i am paraphrasing the comment that was left on my AU fic because I am too lazy to go looking for it right now but #it was very similar to that wording #this is just a thing that has been rattling around in my brain and it was finally smoothed out and polished enough to come out

[omtai]

we brought too many guitars. we can’t get rid of the guitars, so………

#the jersey or bust video has been looping in my mind for days #2 in 3 tumblrinas would keep driving if they saw her at the side of the road 😢😢😢 SAD! #anyways. adventure in paint pens #omtai art #gerard way #hesitant alien #also i fucked up the face on the bindle one so. ignore the sticky note

[housewifebuck]

buddie + sharing looks part 2 (p1)

#buddie #buddieedit #911edit #911 #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 abc #evanbuckleyedit #eddiediazedit #🪐 #my gifs #I had more gifs to add to this set but my computer has been fucking not working for the past few days #like I’m having major problems with my programs AND my harddrive #I can maybe make one gif at a time and then have to restart my computer #and it’s so fucking frustrating #a set like this takes fucking forever bc of it #I’m about to quit gif making

[3amsnek]

weird (not quite) autumn- one layer practice Mae with some vague leaves stuck on for funsies

#nitw #night in the woods #night in the woods fanart #nitw fanart #mae borowski #mae nitw #mae night in the woods #nitw art #night in the woods art #my art? #i have neither the hands nor the spoons for proper lined stuff so I’ve just been messing around w lineless maes in different colors #i do know she doesn’t have a tail but i did not consult a ref and also she should. tails r fun #she remains one of the hardest things for me to draw and this didn’t rly help with that but i Did actually learn to draw simple leaves #which has also been a difficulty for many years #so I guess that’s something #i seem to have severely damaged my right arm/elbow trying to Sleep. life is so much fun rn. #i literally just lightly leaned on it and bam three days of screaming stabbing pain why are my limbs made of fucking glass this is absurd #anyways. look a rare fanart appears #at midnight. because i simply cannot be arsed anymore

[simplyender]

spiderpeople that could defeat spot first try:

1. spider-ham (cartoon logic dictates that he can just pick up the holes)

2. sun-spider (disabled solidarity. would probably get spot to come to the realization that hes 100% disabled and be empathetic about it)

3. spider-punk (would explain that a majority of spots problems originate from the shitty system hes in and that capitalism is the problem, not miles)

#atsv #sun spider #spider punk #spider ham #spiderman across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #the spot #spot #johnathon ohnn #once again spot 👏 is 👏 disabled 👏👏👏 #spider punk and sun spider teaming up against spot would end him instantly #youre disabled + capitalism is evil + ratio #(i dont mean that as in 'disability is bad'i mean that as in a lot of his troubles and the mistreatment he experiences is because #people are shitty to disabled people #especially visibly ones #and i mean. johns body got fucked up by the explosion+dark matter and people are cruel to him because of his unsettling/''funny'' appearanc #also we can discuss all day the possibilities of how he mustve had to adapt to all the ways his body changed and how #hes missing organs and very likely had to relearn a lot of how his body functions #but looking purely at canon spot outright calls his holes a curse and has been shown to be inconvenienced by them several times over #hes also brought up how nobody is willing to hire him #so....idk yeah the system and how it treats disabled people (especially those that look different) is fucked up. sunspider and spiderpunk #get his ass) #charlotte webber #I FORGOT HER NAME SORRY #hobie brown

[politemagic]

have we talked about this video yet??? because mr. token the fourth was FEELING himself during the summoning 🖤

source

#i'm sorry if this has already been posted but i have been thinking about this video all day & i haven't stumbled upon it yet #because first of all sweet mother of god ivy. what the hell (affectionate. so affectionate) #but also because this is actually EXACTLY what i look like during this part of the summoning. like. its scarily similar. #and i mean all i'm saying is that no one's ever seen us in the same room together. 🤷🏼‍♀️ #and if we know anything about em it's that she's a iii lover to her fucking core so.................... open to interpretation #sleep token #sleep token worship #sleep token iv #tw flashing lights

[castiel-left-his-mark-on-me]

What I want to know is WHY?

Why'd you say it, Jensen? You didn't have to. You were talking about cooking for fuck's sake! COOKING!! You said you like spicy food-- and that your wife often makes you spicy food.

How great.

How wholesome.

Sure, you kinked it up a bit. You went on to say that she knows how to "spice things up in the kitchen."

Ha Ha

*wink wink * nudge nudge*

And Misha of course responded in his very Misha-like-way with -- "Oh yeah she does!"

So you go "Ayye!" in your trademarked Dean-ish, mock-grumpy tone.

And that was fine.

That was all good, Jensen. You could've left it there, son! You could've gone back to the fucking innocuous topic of cooking.

Go on and share Danneel's recipe. Maybe your favorite spice while you're at it. Or even just go back to saying Italian words in your very Mario & Luigi type accent ... any of that would've worked, my guy.

The world is filled with non-implicating topics!

But NOOOOO .... instead you take a fucking eon-long pause, rub your thigh in the universally known nervous-jackles way, and then you say:

"SHE DOES REFER TO MISHA AS HER BOYFRIEND"????

and then

AAANNDDD THEN

ANNNNDDD THEN YOU SAY

"WHICH IS FUNNY 'CAUSE SO DO I????"

YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT COOKING, SIR!!!

COOKING!

MOTHER FUCKING COOKING!

#Cockles #Jensen Ackles #Misha Collins #JIB11 #JIB2023 #This has been the inside of my brain all day #WHY DOES HE DO THESE THINGS?!!! #HE DOESN'T HAVE TO! #HE HAS 34000 LOGICAL ROUTES TO TAKE WITH ANY TRAIN OF THOUGHT #AND HE TAKES THE ONE DIRECTLY INTO MISHA'S ASSHOLE EVERY FUCKING TIME

[kiiingsnake]

you (your mind), you (your body), you (the rot that’s growing inside you), and you (the corpse of your twin)

#art #my art #cyberpunk #day deblanc #scavenger ai #illustration #digital art #drawing #oc #day’s become one of my most important characters and i’ve been drawing so much of him lately #i’ve been. writing stuff too but knowing myself it’ll never be finished. and if it is itll never be out there #but this version of him has become so much of his own thing that. #it’s difficult to not keep going #so enjoy this art which is completely devoid of context but still fucks regardless #model decay

[marc--chilton]

house finding wilson ""interesting"" amongst a literal crowd of thousands is one thing but then to be proven right later when wilson flips his lid at a bar. theyre literally fanfiction but real but not

#house md #hilson #interesting is very subjective but whatvevr #one has to wonder how wilson felt during all that too #theyre freaks. affectionate and an insult #imagine getting served divorce papers right before big fuckoff conference for doctor things #and you blow your top because of a song on repeat so you cause property damage #only to get bailed out later by a guy who's sort of been stalking you all day with his blue x ray eyes #then you guys become best friends but also he makes jokes about wanting to fuck you a Lot #i want to study him like a little rat i wanna crack open his skull and touch his grey matter and see what twitches #anyway. im normal now