#ive been known to do that sometimes

[batcavescolony]

Young Justice #30

Spoiler with a sword, Spoiler with a sword, Spoiler with a sword, Spoiler with a sword, Spoiler with a sword, MORE Spoiler with a sword! Girls deserve swords!

#spoiler #stephanie brown #comics #dc comics #robin #tim drake #batgirl #young justice #young justice 1998 #young justice comics #batcavescolony reads comics #ive been known to do that sometimes

[jessiesjaded]

I really, really wish people who don't have the capacity to properly take care of animals would simply accept and acknowledge that about themselves. This isn't even a post of me trying to be mean or judge anyone, I'm sure most people go into getting an animal with good intentions, but intentions and actions are different. If you don't have the time and the space and the care an animal needs, the animal will suffer. The fleeting joy of having a kitten or puppy or anything else doesn't last forever and they aren't toys to be put down and forgotten once you've moved past the inital excitement. If you don't have the ability to properly care for an animal, just accept that and simply admire them from a distance.

#the amount of people i know who flippantly just. buy a random pet with no prior planning or thought #and like its not always outright neglect #you can technically feed and groom a pet get them flee treatments etc but if you lock it outside 24/7 and spend no actual time #like why do you have that animal? #you should not have that aninal #if you have too much in your life to adequately care for one its vetter for YOU and for the animal to not have one #like this little cat is so sweet #actually the sweetest cat ive ever known and my cat tigs has always been a massive sweety already #so its saying something that shes been even sweeter #i mean i brushed her teeth and got matted fur off her and cleaned her eyes and she NEVER bit or scratched me once #shes so quiet and sweet #but the people across the road clearly just left her outside to her own devices her whole life #seemingly no vet checks. didnt feed her properly and i sometimes wonder if at all bc their next door neighbour was feeding her apparently #and he has no pets!! even he knew that shit was wrong #and now shes so sickly and small and malnourished and her teeth are rotting out of her head #and its just like ???? #why have her #you could have realized you werent really the type for pets and given her to a shelter #and she would have been adopted 100% #but they kept her all this time but also not really bc its not like she was kept properly at all #its sad she didnt come over here sooner #i wish id had since she was a baby or even a year ago #bc then maybe i could have helped her more #its just so unnecessary. Animals are a privilege not a right. #and again like. go visit your cousin or uncle or sister or friends pet in that case #you might not have the time or ability but you could still enjoy animals wothout directly having one

[its-short-for-jackalope]

my sister just came up next to me and was like "I have a gift for you" and handed me this

and I immediately started squishing it as demonstrated above and told her with 100% sincerity that this is my new favorite thing because it is, I love this thing and I am positively tickled that she gave it to me

#really nice feeling Known sometimes like warm fuzzies all around #also yay new fidget toy #maybe if i remember to play with this ill stop touching my damn face ive been doing that a lot #jack jabbers #adhd #actually adhd #fidget toy #stim toy #stimming #spring #metal spring #neurodivergent

[chimeride]

Haku, the 212th Known One.

#Haku #Spirited Away #dragon #Ghibli #creatunary #creatunary 2022 #Asia #fan art #monster #chimera #creature design #bestiary #ink #848 #octem 106 #terra 3 #the Known Ones #ive got THOUSANDS of things to do lately so i dont draw as much as i want #but its for the better honestly sometimes ive been drawing a lot to cope with shitty things irl

[ghosts-of-love]

i love my friend so much but i don't like being a third wheel anymore i don't think

#just like. i was a third wheel all the time for a year and then their partner moved out. #but that means that its more pronounced when one of their partners is visiting #the the boyf stayed for the first time this weekend and ive not known how to exist really. physical affection feels off limits #but my friend is fine with it so has continued but it feels really awkward to have them be sitting in their boyfs lap while holding my hand #idk idk i think its because i basically have 1 person who im able to be physically close to #its then a bummer when theyre here but feel far away. on account of the presence of Some Guy. #sometimes i worry that im in love with my friend because several people have asked me if i am but i dont think i am #like i love him and we understand each other deeply but like. in terms of wanting to go on dates or have sex im like. no not at all. #but also recently ive been feeling like that about a lot of people. where i want to be close to them. but i cant tell if i want to have sex #with them. like fully how do you know? #i think my problem is that i would just die for my friends. #and people dont understand that bond ig

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

You know when you read/watch/listen/etc to a work thats like focusing on something someone experiences as a minority written by someone/multiple people who like are part of that minority group and it suddenly becomes kind of glaring the kind of decisions that get made when someone outside of that group covers that kind of thing.

Like how in alot of stories about anti-black racism written by white writers alot of them are like unable to resist a plot twist that ACTUALLY the hatecrimes were being perpetuated by a black person this whole time!! And in like stories about LGBT struggles written by cishets theres very often a HYPOCRITICAL LESBIAN or HYPOCRITICAL GAY MAN but a super nice Working Class Straight Who Doesnt Know All The Right Words But They Have The Spirit!

Like its not always these exact kinds of choices but it is very often like that. I think it comes from a desire to be like "see its not ALL us! Sometimes they do it to themselves!", and also often I think its like really ignorant and misguided attempts at nuance. Like hearing about community infighting and handling it in often the worst ways possible

#I read A Secret Woman by Rachel Pollack and I shouldve known she wouldnt do it because she was great and a trans woman #like obviously she gets it. But you know Ive read alot of stuff. So I was bracing myself for the supportive lesbian friend to be FAKING and #the cool anarchist grandfather to NOT REALLY MEAN IT while working class cishet dad police man guy is REALLY COOL RIGHT OFF THE BAT #and of course that didnt happen #The other main thing that isnt like That that is a example of what I mean is like #How in Get Out the racist white people are liberals and how if that movie was written/directed by a white person that #Would Not Have Been The Case like it likely would've been simplified into 'theyre racist so theyre republicans obviously!' #Like interesting how things get crunched down sometimes when made by people trying to cover stuff they havent lived you know

[vancilocs]

Alone, break, future, hate, hide and secret for konoe and raven?

its warm in here

alone: How does your OC deal with loneliness? Have they ever been completely alone before? How do they act when there's no one around to see them?

Konoe was raised with someone attending to him at all times, he would feel very weirded out if there was absolutely no one around. Chill for a while, then get restless and head out to find someone, even if they're just in the other room. Eavesdropping through a keyhole is enrichment enough.

Raven has spent a lot of his formative years in isolation and it fucked with his head, now he usually has at least his cat for company. If alone he sinks into depression and forgets to look after himself

break: What would cause your OC to break down completely? What do they look like when that happens? Has anyone ever seen them at their lowest?

Being ousted from court/throne probably, it's all he really knows. Angry crying. Not responsible for his actions if he gets a weapon. Hasn't happened, luckily.

His worst times have been when already anxious/depressed and then unmedicated and flaring up, pure paranoid panic and crying and throwing up. His cat and Lyssa have seen him like that.

future: What's the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it's a possibility?

He keeps his citizens happy to avoid a coup, and also because you should do that in general. Has read of former monarchs who were violently ousted and cleaved in twain

Raven has dealt with heavy self-destructive thoughts to the point where the only reason he made it home was because the cat needed to be fed, he tries to get better and medicate and socialize to avoid the deepest pits.

hate: What does your OC hate? Why? How do they act towards the object of their hatred?

Evil people in general, bad parents, abusers. He doesn't really handle judicial proceedings but hears about them sometimes (and sometimes a person might plead for him for help or lenience and he might take a look), and is rightly disgusted.

Hates abusers, abusive professionals like cops and nurses, and neglectful parents, they get the boot. Has not processed his thoughts towards his own parents though

hide: What does your OC hide? Why do they hide it?

His feelings, mostly, people don't really know what he's thinking. Even Vasili used to not be able to read him at all even when they became lovers. He's very detached and distant from many people thanks to his fae half, he kinda came out of his shell when he became a father and would show his kids love.

The severity of his illness mainly, and also feelings are something he didn't really learn to show as a kid.

secret: What's one secret your OC never wants anyone to know about them?

Don't know if he has any yet

He's quiet about his past in general but I think he hasn't really divulged to anyone how weird and lonely his childhood was

#long oc thing #two weirdoes #konoes fae half is smth ive been thinking of #you know how he does little human experiments on people and toys with their feelings sometimes just to see what they would do #hes always known hes different and that isolates him a bit #hes made an effort to Not toy with people and be more human and it has worked

[lordiavolo]

to be like frank here, redemption is an ever going cycle. when youve been the problem, the toxic ex, the abuser, you have to know you will have to apologize for that for the rest of your life. you will always have to live with the guilt and conscience of knowing how you hurt that person, or mutliple people. and you have to constantly CHOOSE to not repeat that behavior, and its not easy.

when you meet a new friend the topic of who you used to be will come up eventually, and if you have changed youll be honest with who you were. you cant run from it. you cant try to round the corners and make it seem like the other persons fault, or like it wasnt as bad as it was. its really really scary. because everytime you open up about it, its not just the wound of guilt but its also the fear that theyre going to look inside and not like what theyll see.

but you have to keep moving on and you have to keep being honest. and you have to remember that everyone is applicaple for redemption, you just have to work for it and admitting you were wrong with no buts is the first step.

#anyways cna u tell im kinda going thru it LOL #ive always been a toxic person thats why ive sort of secluded myself from society i avoid human contact w non household members as much as #possible bcuz i feel honestly like im a ticking time bomb that just hurts everything i touch #i dont think its fair to have to have someone deal w my shit when its such an emotional turmoil so even though i want friends im making my #peace w the fact that i like honestl dont really deserve rhem? ik this seems MOPEY but its like this is my geniune non like baiting thoughts #i was an abuser in high school and in an abusive relationship where for the first half i was the perpetrator. i hit my ex and u know i dont #even have anything to add to it other than it was fucked up. i was selfish in bed and sex addicted and sometimes did anything for my fix. #i will and cannot lie about my past as being a shitty person. its scary to say and post but i have to be honest thats who i was that IS a #part of my history as much as i wish i could i cannot erase. #i dont rly even know what to add here honestly. just watching mias vid got me thinking u know #there is more to this story ofc the same ex i was abusive to was also abusive to me it was just split into segments. like i was the problem #for the first year and a half then it switched to them but its not rly rhe best place 2 share that story when im talking about my mistakes #im not trying to detract here i just want 2 get this shit off my chest again. ive talked about it before but not since remaking a few times #anyways i dont have any excuses well i mean i can pull a bunch out but im not going to cuz at the end of the day i shouldve known better #than to be a bitch when i knew i was being a bitch u know? #being the bad guy is a constant struggle where u will have to really really fucking fight yourself tooth and nail to change and i want to be #that person. i want to be someone who can be 100% honest about how shit i was to myself and others (which i do already do to my friends) #hopefully this makes sense idk anyways if ur struggling with being abusive or toxic im here for u. u can get through this and you can be a #good person it is within ur hands i promise u #ok love u goodnight #personal

[the-kipsabian]

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#feeling really weird in my body tonight so im going back to bed #idk just.. have had gender and identity issues today. its just. a lot #like being ngc and not out of the closet cause i dont wanna talk about it is so exhausting and im just. yeah #not to mention the whole aroace thing #just been thinking a lot today. idk. i know im not faking any of it but bringing it out to ppl is just. so much sometimes #i have two irl friends who know. one thats thankfully very careful about it around other friends cause he knows im not out yet #but its still exhausting. especially when the conversation goes on those rails while undermining specifically my identities #without these ppl knowing about it. and i dont wanna talk about it cause technically its irrelevant but like.. #idk. im just afraid of being left alone. being called awkward and weird and faking it and that its just a phase and... yeah idk #idk where this is going im just complaining now. i would just like to exist as myself without having to explain shit #cause these are terms and things i would have to explain. oh whats an agender? then why do you still look feminine and not enby(???) #how do you know youre ace if youve never dated? or aro?? as if these things dont work the other way around #im just already tired of it but i feel like eventually i should break it out. these ppl are my friends. we have a trans person in this grou #and ppl understand him and his perspective. i guess part of that is the thing im afraid about tbh. that they think im following a trend #or an example. that i havent been dealing with this for at least like five or six years before they came out as enby and later trans to us #but.. idk. its just hard. these identities are so hit and miss with ppl and them understanding and being hurtful later on #aaaand now im crying. this is so stupid im going to bed good night #night is an absolute mess on main #(tho be clear tho ive known im ace for over half of my lifetime now. the five to six years was about being agender/enby. fyi)

[batcavescolony]

Young Justice #30

Cassie got Cissie a flower ❤ aww

#young justice 1998 #young justice #cissie king jones #cassie sandsmark #arrowette #wonder girl #comics #dc comics #they're gfs cus i say so #cissie and cassie #young justice comic #batcavescolony reads comics #ive been known to do that sometimes

[girlwithfish]

5am instagram stalking ppl i used to go to hs with. its crazy bc some people are still friends with other ppl from our hs. i guess crazy to me bc i dont talk to anyone at all from either hs i went to nor anyone from the same school district i was in from 4 grade-8grade. i hvent mantained friendships or anything w anyone from any place ive lived. thinking its me. . ...

#the realjty is i was just really shy when i was a kid. the ppl i went to school w from ages 9-14 i didnt really have lasting friendships #i follow like 3-4 ppl from that time in school on Instagram but thats it rly. ive never kept a friendship #then fhe school i went to for under 2 yrs in hs I follow several ppl from cuz i guess i was somehow a little more social where i followed #some classmates on instagram but yeah no contacg w anyone and yeah. i really doubf anyone from either of those schools remembers me #i just wasnt rly close w anyone ever to remain in contact w. and i didnt reallly make friends at the hs i graduated from #and i follow a couple ppl from my last hs but thats it i havent talked to anyone from any of those times in my life again rly #Which is crazy like #I guess ive always just been standoffish. never unfriendly to ppl but i never really connected w anyone #beyond school and stuff. nd i doutb anyone remembers me anyway. i really was a nobody in hs without even my own circle of friends #crazy how rhat wrks out nd not thay i have many relationships atall rn besides family and my s/o but like its crazy cuz #sometimes my bf when were in his hometown will run into someone he wnt to school w cuz he stayed in the same school district #k-12 nd theyll recognize him and talk to him and its ctazy cuz ive movd twice so i just never stsyed in a place where that would happen. #i like dont know anyone from my high school here in nc nd have never seen anyone barely #LOL #sometimes i wonder what itd be like if i had stayed in ohio and gone to hs with all the ppl i had known a bit for all of middle school #Cuz i just really do not know anyone maybe my life seems a little lonely bc of that. idk.. #its hard when a lot of ppls friendships r built on the fact that theyve known each otber for a long time or since x grade and are childhood #friends or something

[waylouder]

small vent in the tags! no need to read, just catagorizing :D

#n is venting #I think about my past in this community alot #because I genuinely don't remember most of it #which sounds like such a cop out but it's true I have diagnosed memory loss #and I remember ppl I used to interact with but not why we stopped #so I tend to just avoid them because the likely hood that we stopped talking for good reason is high #and I'm not about to put myself of them into a situation that is avoidable #I have only maintained one person from that time consistently #and I am perfectly okay with that tbh he's a great person #shout out to nate xkdhfk #and sometimes I have been known to shoot a message or two to one other person #but we aren't close anymore I just like to say hi to her #Ive left the community and created this little bubble for myself and idk if I ever wanna truely enter 'the community' again #but I do want friends #I'm just not great at keeping them #it's ok tho! I am genuinely happy where I'm at #I've just been thinking is all #:P

[florida3exclamationpoints]

Yall wanna hear about smth? good im gonna rant in the tags anyway

#so :)) my favorite animal hands down is orcas #i happen to live on the east coast. aka like the ONE place in the world where orcas dont like to hang out in #my family has taken a few big vacations to maine over the years and we're going again this year #we also went to the very edge of Canada and this year we're gonna spend more time in Canada #also side note...... every time we've gone to maine we've gone on at least one whale watching trips to see humpbacks #and we have NEVER ONCE SEEN A HUMPBACK. weve seen a minke whale a basking shark a sun fish like 100 dolphins and a million seals #but no humpbacks 😭 but that's why we've been so many times they guarantee that you'll see them so we've only paid for tickets once #anyway. FUN FACT. there is ONE singular loner orca who regularly visits the new england area #his name is old thom :) he's approx 30 feet long :) #from what ive read it seems like he comes down here between may-november and hes seen almost every year #sometimes he hangs out with white sided dolphins which is really interesting bc orcas have been known to eat dolphins #and hes never been seen with another orca which is veryyyyyy uncommon #well. hes been seen in the EXACT. WATER. that we RODE A FERRY THROUGH to get from maine to Canada #he was seen near boston LIKE A MONTH??? before we were in Boston #his whole route is like. the exact waters ive been on or near multiple times. #AND WE'RE GOING BACK THIS YEAR. #I NEED TO SEE HIM!!!!!!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND!!!!!! I WOULD SOB #so yeah. fun facts :) everyone send good vibes for me to see old thom in maine this year 😡 #gotta go back to work now bye love yall

[ruairy]

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#it has really been a long time since ive drawn anything really abd like #sometimes i sit and wonder if I'll even remember how to draw my ocs when/if i get back into it #i dont even mean this in a depressing way but more of a like. weird object permanence kind of way #this is probably the longest ive ever gone without drawing ecen one thing and its really weird!!!! #what am i without my One defining trait which is being able to draw lmao #i can also write but i have no intention of ever posting my writings anywhere lol #i think i wpuld kind of like to start getting back into the art thing in the new year but!!!! #whos to say if that will happen #at this point in time i don't really care aside from when i look through my art and think aaaaaaaaa #i miss drawing #and then im like ok well im over it like two minutes later #sertraline is weird and also makes me wonder what spurred me to draw while i was unmedicated #i think it really was entirely for attention lmao #awful awful little gremlin that i used to be ( like a year ago) #i do miss my ocs though!!!! #yeah they live in my brain and are constantly rotating like sweetly glazed rotisserie chickens but i miss seeing them u get me #and unfortunately im the only one who can truly draw them the way they are intended to be #i kinda feel bad for them rn!!!!! they simply cannot exist without me and if i never draw again then they can never be known #on other news i wanna make a new pokemon oc to go alongside rua #they will never see the light of day but they'll just have to be ok with that

[mrfoox]

I'm going to struggle to sleep and get up tomorrow

Curse it all

#miranda talking shit #At one hand i liked the conversation i had with fabian and i think i got some answers to questions ive been wondering about but im also lik #Unpacking all this.... So much to unpacking and to be put in a folder in my head where does it all go... Still hate how #He hit me with the biggest ... Maybe in the universe and i can't deal with it. No I'd be relieved and accept an no fullstop but he had to #Add in the.... Idk actually lol i dont have a reference and i would like to know how it is crossing boundaries in our relationship #Whag the fuck man.... You really gave me the strongest 'i think youre into me and it worries me' and then nullify it with an 'idk how i #Feel sometimes id like to explore more' how am i supposed to... Handle that information... I had been going around telling myself #What he said to me 2019 is the way he still feels and me thinking he might think more is just me being paranoid but then yeah #What a clusterfuck. I mean to me it wont change anything in the broader picture no matter what i care for him ya know? But now thats... An #Whole other thing like. Should i try to act differently? Be more careful? Or would that be unfair bc then id do what he've been doing to me #I will quote him again 'miranda i think if both of us got an gf/bf at the same time this would solve itself' i joked and said he could find #Me one and I'll find one for him. But yeah i think that would ... Be a solution in an ideal world. Idk how to do anything man #At one hand i think he's overestimating how much he's on my mind but also its true. I spend a lot of my social time with him so obviously #I think about him? But i also have a reference on how i am... With people i have crushes on and who im in love with and how o think of thoe #Its just so scary to think about how i am his reference ... To... Well basically a ton of things... Im not a good reference unless you want #An abnormal reference. I guess im anxious I'll somehow ... Ruin him or something. This was a big conformation that i am his reference to #Women and close relationships with women and i am not made for that... Most feminine tjing about me is being sappy and giving compliments #And encouragement. Otherwise im basically like ... A dude. Guess it also scares me that he knows me. I know i know him but the fact its #Mutual is aw man... Being known is still a struggle. He wasmt completely wrong is his logic bc he knows me i think too much about people #And things. I understand im so anxious bc i care about him and im worried about losing him or pushinh him away but shit #Hes sleeping rn and is at peace with this probably. He doesn't dwell on it. He even said hes been thinking about this... Bc he began to #Think about what i could be thinking? So its not even his own thoughts but thoughts about whaf i could be thinking? ?? Whack and im likebro #Flattering that you go to that length but also... Literally what??? Cant tell if hes somehow projecting or if this is genuinely how he was #Thinking but damn. Boy does have some confidence at least? He's such an fool. I love him but holy shit he blows me away sometimes

[klonoadoortophantomile]

why do people care so much abt other people blocking or unfollowing them who cares

#like 90% of the time its someone they havnteven known for that long n stuff #i enjoy silly little internet friendships snd being mutuals with ppl and all that stuff but st the end of the day i Do Not know #a good majority of you people. i have not spoken one on one with or known many for that long #so like. that kinda stuff feels a bit shitty in the moment but whatevrr ill move on thinngs change people grow apart #maybe its judt cuz ive met So many people over the years (especially jn online fandom type spaces) that like i dont reallyyyyy get it #<- used to move accounts consatntly and would end up with entirely new internet friend groups all the time as a result #plus like sometimes people just end up overstepping boundaries sometimes people decide they dont mesh well with certain others #all kinds of shit like that. yknow #inquisitivewaltz.txt #sorry im judt rambling this stuffs just been on my mind a lot as of late