#ive got something else in the works

[applestruda]

"They never left the desert"

#i seriously think about that sentence #ALL #THE #TIME #i love the idea of little remnants of 3rd life being present in adjacent hermitcraft seasons #(tho ik s8 and 3rd life dont line up perfectly) #but like #the flowerss #bruises #and sand caught in their hair #if theres 24 hours in a day i spend 12 missing desert duo and the other 12 missing boatem #goodtimeswithscar #gtws fanart #grian #grian fanart #desert duo #3rd life smp #hermitcraft #oh and if you guys think im done with desert duo angst #ive got something else in the works #my art

[coolnonsenseworld]

Samurai and Ninja in crappy pics because December here is under a constant cloud and I just want y'all to see them all golden and cute without learning how to take aesthetic pictures 🥴 💙❤️😆🥰

linktr.ee/Mezzy

#klance #can i tell everyone to look away before i write tags to someone privately lmao no? damn #anyway yes i meant music!! and thank you for sharing something!! #baking seems like a hyperfixation #like i know you said you baked once but then look at me #...i was thinking if i could make salads.... i gotta be medicore at least at one food thing #its a joke its a joke #i will one day get used to focusing on more complicated kitchen work than heating up meat or cooking things in salt and water #anyone else had trouble getting out of bed this december? #once i do i try to pick physical activities that dont require creative thinking because man #at the post office i had small talk with a lady waiting in line she didnt speak polish so u know me it happened #and she recommended light therapy lamp #im very tempted to try it becase i had record bad thoughts sleepless nights and jerking awake this month #it might be rooted in economic instability growing inflation costs of living and shitty working conditions while still trying to buy gifts? #but hey there are things we cant have control over and there are things we can #ive got winter wonderland comic coming though #i will try my best to speed-finish it as a christmas gift aight #i hope its going to be a nice thing!! #wow thats a long set of tags

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

#i dont think i ever have it always feels cheap #but im thinking abt it now #sorta. runing right into it #bc 14 and his whole thing #but i think that like.............................you can never make 'i love you' FEEL as impactful as the feeling is #you know? #it's the ultimate telling>showing #similar with like 'i miss you' or smth #ive written it in earlier drafts sometimes to replace later with a line that would convey the feeling of it #bc i dont think the words do #or rarely #especially in writing #when youve got actors its a different story #different medium #but in writing idk ive never been able to make it work #im seriously considering it now tho #i think one way to make it work is when it's not about the line #when this line functions to show something else you know? #anyway just wanted to. see #reblog if you like or else it willj ust be my mutuals

[spikrock]

listen you idiots im just sick to death of your ba- arguing all the time i want you to shake hands and make up RIGHT NOW! happy valentines day :3

#i wish i couldve spent more time on this one because i like this episode i just got super unmotivated lol #also ive been working on something else the past few days which i was like more interested in so i had a hard time pulling myself away #alice in wonderland #adventures in wonderland #adventures in wonderland 1992 #wonderland watchthrough #my art

[fiddles-ifs]

"Hey Kiddo." [GREENWARDEN ANNIVERSARY SNIPPET]

Sometimes, when Dad isn't home, Mom lets you watch cartoons at the diner in town, lets you meet other kids at the park. Always home before sunset. Always wearing a hat. Never tell Dad where you went, what you did. Never stay for too long in one place.

Sometimes people from town stop Mom in the streets and ask how she's been, their eyes all a-worried. Asking if she can stay over at theirs one of these days, catch up, and she always declines with a look your way. There's a deep sadness etched on her face. It reminds you of the rocks at the beach. You see the same face worn into their sides by the unrelenting, salted tide.

Sometimes Dad doesn’t come home, out deep in the woods somewhere. That’s when Mom takes you out for ice cream at the diner and lets you watch cartoons as much as you want, and talks in hushed voices with people you don’t know. Their faces are friendly – but they look at you like you’re a monster. Something with teeth waiting to pounce. A few even look like they hate you. You feel it in the soles of your feet, bare on the tile.

Dad is home tonight. He has you out in the woods today, watching you from a log as you scratch a big buck between the antlers, its head bowed to give your stubby arms a little more access. It snorts and takes two paces backward when Dad gets up from the log and puts his big anvil hand on the top of your head. 

You can't help the flinch. He ruffles your hair. Slowly.

That is not your father.

“What's it thinking, kiddo?”

“Uhm,” you look at the buck, watching your dad with unblinking eyes. The animals don't really have thoughts. None that you can hear, anyway — you feel their minds through the soles of your feet, up into your shoulders. The squirrels and deer, the pillbugs under the rocks. The big buck takes another step back.

“I dunno?” Dad's hand on your head stops. Your little heart starts a hammering rhythm in your ribcage.

“Try again.”

Whose memories are these?

“It's — scared?” No, not scared. You don't know the word. If it were scared, it would have run — but the big buck just stands there. Watching.

In town, there's a big church with gargoyles (like the cartoon) sitting on the edge of the roof, staring down at the sidewalks. It's like that. If there's a word for it, you don't know it. You can barely read, all your schooling spent in the woods learning how to track, hunt, and bend the woods to your chubby hand.

You stick your fingers in your mouth to chew on. They taste like game grease and fur and a little bit of grit.

Your dad hums. A stick somewhere deep in the woods snaps, and suddenly the buck runs off. You wave bye-bye to it. The pillbugs and squirrels and whippoorwills scatter at the sound. You turn to squint into the black. There's a monster in there somewhere — you feel the emptiness on the soles of your bare feet, the surface skin of your arm.

Dad pats you on the head and turns you toward the house, pushing your shoulders a little. You almost fall. You scrape up the top of your foot on a rock catching yourself, blood bubbling from the split skin.

Not yours not yours this is not yours.

“Go on — your momma's waiting.”

“Okay!” When you run off, your heart finally slows to a metered rhythm. Somewhere, deep behind you, you hear the sound of crunching and ripping flesh.

#greenupdate #greenwarden: book one #no update this month as im pretty burnt out with graduating and working on some other projects #[namely patreon and tkp] #and what ive got written is a) pretty rough and b) not enough content that i feel comfortable posting it #so i cooked this up as a special anniversary snippet + something special you'll see in #[checks watch] about half an hour #im also thinking about some things so watch this space !! #anyways. are these your memories??? someone elses??? a secret third thing??? who can say <3 #have fun!!!

[arsenicflame]

hey does anyone wanna bounce bellhands/they all went to pirate school together ideas with me? im trying to figure out the missing pieces of my personal set up and it might be easier with someone else!

#if youve never spoken to me before please be aware i will type a whole paragraph in response to one (1) sentence #but if ur down for that! please. #ive got like. the start and the end and a couple bits in the middle fleshed out but it doesn't f l o w #this is the problem with trying to condense more than a years of ideas into one cohesive narrative. i usually swap and change things as #and when it suits so im like. i don't know what i need in this #its just for my silly little tumblr post but #i would appreciate it <3 #i can send you what ive wrote and we can go from there or we can start from scratch bouncing ideas or u can just ask me questions #or something to help fill in gaps idk whatever works for u! what ive got is like. a fuckin mess honestly its ramblings and half finished #thoughts and just. its. a complete state and thats not even touching on whats missing (like. anything that matters in the middle basically) #nyxtalks #ofmd #bellhands #sam bellamy #izzy hands #israel hands #if you're unfamiliar with the concept: its Hornigold era stuff; jack + ed + izzy + sam all sailing under him and learning the ropes togethe #im not trying to go into too many details; just the underlying structure that is what I think of when i think of them #its probably not something anyone else cares about but i think i need it for some of the more fun 'what if Izzy went with sam' posts #i realised if i wanted to say what the divergence point was i Needed to establish all this lol #'oh yeah its when izzy chooses sam after the mutiny despite their argument' NYX WHAT ARGUMENT. you need to tell us what u mean

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[deoidesign]

please take as much time as you need to rest and recover. burn out is so hard and takes so much to heal from. your art and your supporters will still be here when you get back :) take care <3

Thank you very much

Unfortunately, my situation doesn't really allow me to take the time I need. I've got a ~two month hiatus scheduled for my midseason, but much like my first hiatus I'll most likely be working double time during it...

It's unfortunate because I could really really use a bigger break!

Having the time and flexibility to work on other projects really fires me up and keeps me going, and being able to take a guilt free day off for family and friends is necessary to my mental health, and I've been having to turn people down lately...

This is a very kind message, and I'm sorry to vent in response! But I just feel transparency about the pressure I'm under is necessary and important. I'd love to take the time I really need, but due to deadlines and that pesky "needing money to live" I can't.

But, once the series is over I intend to take a pretty big break before I start whatever I'm doing next! I've got so many short stories and projects planned that I want so badly to get to, I can't wait to really get to truly dive in to them!

#im so sorry to take a nice message and respond like this! but just... trust me haha i know my supporters are genuinely here for me <3 #but webtoon... not so much unfortunately. i mean im sure i could take a longer break but theres the looming anxiety #that ill get in trouble or itll ruin my chances of working with them again etc etc #i took this week and i genuinely took it off. sort of? i flew to a convention which was exhausting #and i did paintings that i hope to print eventually #and i. started planning and prepping for a Kickstarter. for time and time again... #so ive still been working the whole time. but i love working! #i just... like to be able to work on things OTHER than time and time again... #and unfortunately for a few months. more than a few months. i haven't been able to do anything outside of it. #even all of my paintings have been for it cause i cant afford to switch my mindset! #my first hiatus i moved. worked on a pitch for my next series. and then i made two episodes a week the entire time #and i still ran out of episodes... #i dont know if im just not fast enough or if something is wrong with my brain that i have to fight to get it to focus but. #yeah i mean ive been burned out! been really burned out for like a year now #i can tell by how much better i feel after literally 1 week of doing anything else #and how tired i feel explaining this and knowing ive got another 3 months before i get another break #ok sorry i vented a lot more in the tags. it's hard to explain all of this eloquently and i like my posts to be somewhat professional #asks #anon #vent #delete later #and also how often my brain keeps wanting me to like. beg for 'nice words' from other people #(i always stop myself from asking people for compliments and stuff because otherwise i get very carried away and do it too regularly) #(people are very nice to me all the time. the kindness is endless and i need to let myself recognize and appreciate it rather than seek more #(its sort of a mental health thing I've been trying to like... force myself to do) #(for myself and my longevity but also for others sake lol. ive been bad about it in the past)

[deerpilled]

Just trying to watch an interview and q+a segment with a friend when bob starts flirting with one of the callers out of nowhere.

https://youtu.be/EvHq5UTRldo

#bob dylan #baab dylamb #both of us like 6 hrs later being like “still thinking about that....... also drew it.” #doodles #the way he softened his voice RRRRRGG #im just mad that it works #he knows his appeal #i guess #“ive got something else on my mind right now” shut up

[nerves-nebula]

Anything on Neglected Karai at all? Is she Splinter’s daughter? Personality, skills, relationships, pronouns, or anything at all?

nah she's a 404 imagine not found screenshot and she doesn't exist she has no pronouns skills relationships or personality and she isn't anyone's daughter she came from the void and to the void she will return. amen.

#nnstuff #ask #sorry but like. im in college. i already cant make the art i want to cuz im busy all the time #yea i know a lot of characters outside the main cast are underdeveloped #i know we barely see april #i know the foot clan basically doesnt exist yet #if this were my full time job and i got like. paid to do it or something maybe i could come up with something but as it is ! #im sitting at my work desk trying not to imagine killing myself because this next assignment is going to make me miserable for #at least another full month #and i didnt get to choose my partner because everyone else had already paired up because they all just. fucking known each other somehow #even though ive been with them all since freshman year #somehow im just not friends with any of them #and all i really want to do is attempt suicide to get out of it!! #but i CANT because god knows i wouldnt succeed!! and then i'd have to face making everyone i know fucking miserable #SO!!!! #TL:DR IM WORKING ON IT

[satancopilotsmytardis]

I don't even know what fic I'm more excited to see anymore! I'm at the stage of OMG THEY UPDATED! wait what did they update? Oh it doesn't matter. THEY UPDATES!

Lol good! This is ideal since I have so many projects I'm working on!

#tanco speaks #ask #asks #i may have 1 more kink prompt this week finished and then the plan is to have the sci-fi commission finished #then i may update a chapter of something else while i work on the subdrop commission too #ive just got so many things i want to write right now!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought. #i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper #thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times #like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks. #nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she #was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled #a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where #you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder? #but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what #then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student. #everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have #and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my #leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but #i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying #my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound #by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting #better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that #and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path. #one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do #what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it. #maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for. #unrelated

[wolfcat-hybrid]

Trying to do worldbuilding for a planet is very hard when you don't know anything about astronomy, physics, hard science in general, and haven't taken a math class in several years

I wanted the planet to be small but otherwise Earth-like but apparently a planet that small would not be dense enough to hold an atmosphere together unless it was real close to its sun and if I wanted it to be real close to its sun while still being habitable it'd have to be a red dwarf star and actually a planet that orbited a red dwarf star that close would probably be tidally locked and the colors would be all weird and wait, how old is the planet, what about the moon, fuck we gotta figure out the tectonic plates, how the fuck do THOSE work--

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..if this were a spec bio or sci-fi setting these would be interesting topics im sure. But I'm trying to put together a HIGH FANTASY SETTING. These guys wouldn't even appreciate the work I'm doing here!! In their setting the sun is a deity who handles LEGAL MATTERS they don't CARE ABOUT THISSSS

#the only reason any of this came up is because I wanted to figure out how big the continent was. which is fairly important #to figuring out travel distances and stuff. #and then i thought oh u kno whatd be fun. if in the setting theres only one continent. like if pangea 2 happened #and then i realized oh then the continents gonna have to be big or the planet has to be small #but a big continent doesnt WORK w the story so its a small planet #but it cant be TOO small or else ALL THE OCEANS WOULD EVAPORATE APPARENTLY!!!! OR THE SUN WOULD BE RED #or their wouldnt be a day-night cycle or. fuck the plants wojld be black or something #again this is an earth-like planet that evolved humans. its a high fantasy setting. #i want to give an astrophysics student like $20 and have them just do this for me #listen im a history major i can handle all the cool stuff. just tell me how big the fuckin planet is so i can calculate travel time. #please. #wolfy speaks #worldbuilding #planetbuilding #i guess. technically #i tried looking up worldbuilding resources for designing a planet but they all got into stuff ive never heard of. #sir im a history major. do i look like i know what the eccentricity of a rotation is or whatever #im a ding dong i need someone to give me ghe worlds simplest formula

[perfectly-clear-from-here]

i love how everyone's collectively calming down now and being like '...yk what. they were brilliant. good on them' BECAUSE THEY WERE BRILLIANT!!

like the whole ten pin bowling thing on steroids that made alex nearly miss the next verse and have to steal nicks mic?? fan-fecking-tastic.

singing the verse for star treatment during I wanna be yours?? TEARS IN MY EYES THAT WAS GORGEOUS.

the key change during pretty visitors (my memory is so bad i could be very wrong with what song it was BUT THERE WAS A KEY CHANGE)?? so tasteful, very interesting on the ears.

body paint solo?? on my hands and knees that was just JESUS CHRIST.

NICKS FLARED TROUSERS?? FECKING DELICIOUS.

#im just glad that they got to play in the end #and even though like for us the setlist is stale at this point cause on here we keep in the loop about every show #and yes i know it wouldnt kill them to swap r u mine or high or whatever out for something else #but i think everyone got a bit of everything #and its impossible to please everyone #especially for them #theres gonna be folk who are mad that they played few from their new stuff #theres gonna be folk who are mad cause they played a fair bit of their new stuff #and it sucks cause with their fanbase being so broad no matter what they do they are always gonna get criticised by someone #and i feel like alex knows that aswell and is tryna work out how to work with it #so theyve got a setlist they can rely on which sort of balances it a fair bit #but yeah #they sounded great #still sad that miles was nowhere to be seen but i doubt that any of them could do much about having him there #ive ended up writing more in the tags that the post HELP #glasto 2023 #glastonbury 2023 #arctic monkeys #alex turner

[lesvegas]

#polls #tumblr polls #self defense #i used to have a wallet knife but stopped carrying it after i almost got caught w it at work once #and ive never carried anything else because i always felt like #id forget to leave it at home when i go to work. and get caught with it #but now that im working from home im kinda thinking about getting something #although mace is illegal and a knife isnt much help #and idk much about guns #but also like. nothing has ever happened to me. like ive never even felt unsafe in my city #my brother meanwhile has been attempted mugged twice? somehow? idk

[mildmayfoxe]

bros it is a real trying not to cry at work day

#my coworker who just got hours cut is being treated so horribly by our boss. it is such a mess #i have been wanting to quit anyway but this is really the last straw. i have to leave #it is so appalling how big a talk she makes about being there for us & how fucking callous she will be as soon as you ask for something #like that’s not new to jobs. but this is something i would expect from a corporation. not like a person #i shouldn’t be surprised though ive worked at enough small businesses to know the bosses are uniquely horrible #it just sucks. idk. i was half waiting for something like this to happen tbh #chatpost #work tag #i am thinking about whether i should put in my two weeks & then just take a month off to make art. and then apply to something else. idk