#journey.

[euthanizeher]

0̲1̲.̲ ／ㅤ ✿ ⸺ sudden epiphany

after putting off reading through 4dbarbie's non-dualism posts i finally said that enough was enough. funnily enough, i read @4dkellysworld 4dbarbie adaption post on how to realise self. i'm not sure why i read the second post first instead of going in order, but i fully plan on reading through them all.

p.s, anything that is indented comes straight from 4dkelly's adaption post about realising self!

p.p.s, all dividers belong to @v6que.

There is no external life, there is no need to use any methods to recondition or train your mind. It is much faster, much easier and you are hundreds times happier just letting go of the mind. The process is one of letting go more and more until you find yourself having nothing, being nothing.

immediately i felt relieved upon reading this. being in the law of attraction & assumption, and shifting community meant that i had to "recondition" my mind if i wasn't manifesting my desires - to constantly think only positive affirmations. if i wanted to be blonde, i'd have to think "i am blonde, i love being blonde, i adore my blonde hair" constantly throughout the day. and it was tiring.

Stop thinking you are Vanessa, the thoughts of needing this or that drop away. By thinking you are it, you create a character who desires and then identify yourself with it. You can only have when you let go of thinking that you don't.

this seriously spoke to me as i can recall countless times i desperately tried any method i could, two cup, 5x55 challenge, pillow method, you name it! but it makes sense now. i was caught up with wanting and thus identified with a character who wanted, when in reality i always had.

i say "identified" and not "became" because, and correct me if i'm wrong, you cannot become anything - only identify with. the only thing you are is self.

I've said it before, you don't have to convince Vanessa that she's unreal. Just stop taking the thoughts you don't like for truth or reality. There is no convincing involved, it is all letting go... you're holding so tightly onto your ideas now, that's why you can't see their falsity. 19 You don't have to convince anyone of anything. What I teach here is to leave your mind alone, that is all. Don't go along with it. 2 Thoughts will keep on coming for a while, just now you know they have nothing to do with you.

i understand. simply observe the thoughts as clouds passing by, do not take them as truth and do not fight them. previously when i was still in the loa community i would combat them. a thought would enter, "you won't shift!" and i would fight him back, "yes i will! i already am in my desired reality! i am a master of shifting!" but this isn't right, as kelly said there's no need to convince anyone - especially your own mind.

First you start doubting "the facts", then you become indifferent to the facts, lastly there are no facts anymore and you can establish your own.

the beautiful process of shedding the ego! metamorphosis.

her post is rather long (and informative, go read!!) so i don't want this entry to be taken up of me nodding and going "yep so true!". instead as i read through it yesterday and allowed the info to soak into my brain i felt enlightened. i wondered why on earth didn't i read through this earlier? for the first time since late 2020, my mind became quiet on its own.

i observed the world differently, as if it were a dream - a lucid dream, because that's exactly what it is. it was mind-blowingly peaceful. a damn breath of fresh air to be told to simply let go, wholly, instead of repeating affirmations 69x, get into SATS every night, etc.

although, i will admit a part of her feels anxious at being told to "let go". many of us from the loa, subliminal, and shifting community, LOVE doing things and putting in an active effort because it's been instilled in our minds that hard work pays off. however, i shall only observe her fears and treat it with indifference.🦋

if you made it this far, thank you for reading! ⸜(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)⸝♡

#my first diary entry yay! #non dualism. #journey.

[meistoshi]

the trainer sits awake, looking at the stars.

this is the one time of year that he pays attention to the passage of days, to the numbers on a calendar. it makes him increasingly restless as this day approaches. makes him excited. fills him with so much love.

chin rested on crossed arms, satoshi glances to the right of him, & smiles at seeing pikachu mirroring his pose. he turns his head to pillow it on his forearms, looking at his partner. voice quiet in the night.

❛ ne, d'you know what day it is ?? ❜

the pokémon's ears flick lazily, one then the other, turning a curious look at its trainer. its pika guesses at the end of march. the trainer's smile deepens & his shoulders bunch with it. he can't shake his head in his position. he settles for a tired shuffle.

❛ no, it's the middle of the night. midnight came 'n' went long ago. ❜

sleepy comprehension passes over the mouse, & it extends a paw to just - barely graze a pat on satoshi's elbow with a soft chirp. the trainer's chuckle is equal parts sleepy, more breath & shake than noise.

he knew it'd get it.

as the soft laughter wanes, he sighs into his smile, a content & warm thing, burrowing further in the crooks of his elbows, bleary vision full of dark blue & silver & most of all yellow with a red that looks black in the moonlight.

❛ mmh. happy anniversary, buddy ... to a dozen more ... ❜

the morning will find them cuddled together. satoshi & pikachu. pikachu & satoshi. no one without the other. partners & brothers until the sun explodes.

& even after that.

#AAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU #ic. #journey. #v. continues on & on & on ...

[screamingatmyfandom]

Dang. I'm sad about Bertie but at the same time that's some solid Fantastic storytelling. It's literally following the hero's journey. Mentor appears and offers apprentice(s) knowledge or purpose, trains them, then dies, sparking a trauma-based quest to fulfill their dying wish/save the world/avenge them.

#journey. #I had wondered if something like that might happen since Matt as Lord Eshteross kept using the word #critical role #c3e3 #sir bertrand bell #heros journey #literary techniques #i hate the feelings it makes me feel #but love the brilliant use of it #never let it be said that matt mercer is not a Master Storyteller #man could teach an english class

[kunoichiblossoms]

@kiyokokaguya​ ♥

The sun was setting, giving way to a pleasant breeze rather than the scorching heat Sakura had endured all day. She’d just arrived in Otogakure, a stop that wasn’t really planned, but she would need to stock up on water if the heat would continue to be this severe during her travels; she figured she might find a place to stay the night, in that case. Sakura wiped the sweat from her brow and drank the last of her water before looking around, finding a young woman with white hair right down the road. 

“Excuse me,” Sakura started, her guard up, fearing her headband with the Konoha symbol on it might not be a welcomed sight here. “Do you know where I could fill up a few canteens of drinking water?” 

#kiyokokaguya #journey. #hi! thanks for liking the post! hope this is fine :) #i still haven't written this verse for sakura but it's post war while she's travelling in medical research #q.

[thelove-rs]

STOP THINKING THERE IS A DEADLINE. THERE IS NO DEADLINE. TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND TAKE YOUR TIME.

#healing #self healing #journey #mindfulness #self care

[twinwound]

mary shelley writing about a monster rejected and abandoned by its creator and dedicating it to her own father i need to smoke a blunt with her i need to give her head

#there are parallels even in the creature’s journey to geneva to find frankenstein and matilda’s fantasies of a pilgrimage across the world #in search of her father #searching for eden finding yourself in hell #the fall into monsterous womanhood #and so on

[a-gay-poptart]

I have found the best ally

Straight and cis people will say that they are allies, but you will NEVER measure up to my dentist.

Me: "Hey, is it ok if I can change my name on my info from [DEADNAME] to Sai?"

Random woman that I wasn't even talking to in the chair next to me: "Honey, if that's the name you had at birth, [DEADNAME] is your only name."

My dentist, very slowly turning her rolley chair towards the woman: "Shush."

Random woman: "Excuse me?"

Destist: *closes privacy curtain while staring bullets at the lady*

Me: *pissing myself laughing*

My dentist while changing my name in my info (reminder that English is not her first language, she immigrated from Russia): "There, Sai, you have pretty boy teeth. Smile and make all girls swoon."

Me not having the heart to tell her I'm not transmasc but I'm Agender, and still pissing myself laughing: "Thank you [DENTIST NAME]."

#trans pride #queer #nonbinary #lgbtqia #queer pride #queer community #lgbtq #lgbtq community #queer joy #queer jokes #queer journey #fuck transphobes #transgender #anti capitalism #anti zionisim #anti trans violence #trans ally #lbgtqia #gender is a social construct #Why are all Russians such good allies I stfg

[zealockthegreat]

#bill and teds bogus journey #bill and ted #dank meme

[8pxl]

so a huge list of artists that was used to train midjourney’s model got leaked and i’m on it

literally there is no reason to support AI generators, they can’t ethically exist. my art has been used to train every single major one without consent lmfao 🤪

link to the archive

#AI #anti ai #midjourney #ai art theft #midjourney theft #mid journey

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[elodieunderglass]

changes and trends in horror-genre films are linked to the anxieties of the culture in its time and place. Vampires are the manifestation of grappling with sexuality; aliens, of foreign influence. Horror from the Cold War is about apathy and annihilation; classic Japanese horror is characterised by “nature’s revenge”; psychological horror plays with anxieties that absorbed its audience, like pregnancy/abortion, mental illness, femininity. Some horror presses on the bruise of being trapped in a situation with upsetting tasks to complete, especially ones that compromise you as a person - reflecting the horrors and anxieties of capitalism etc etc etc. Cosmic horror is slightly out of fashion because our culture is more comfortable with, even wistful for, “the unknown.” Monster horror now has to be aware of itself, as a contingent of people now live in the freedom and comfort of saying “I would willingly, gladly, even preferentially fuck that monster.” But I don’t know much about films or genres: that ground has been covered by cleverer people.

I don’t actually like horror or movies. What interests me at the moment is how horror of the 2020s has an element of perception and paying attention.

Multiple movies in one year discussed monsters that killed you if you perceived them. There are monsters you can’t look at; monsters that kill you instantly if you get their attention. Monsters where you have to be silent, look down, hold still: pray that they pass over you. M Zombies have changed from a hand-waved virus that covers extras in splashy gore, to insidious spores. A disaster film is called Don’t Look Up, a horror film is called Nope. Even trashy nun horror sets up strange premises of keeping your eyes fixed on something as the devil GETS you.

No idea if this is anything. (I haven’t seen any of these things because, unfortunately, I hate them.) Someone who understands better than me could say something clever here, and I hope they do.

But the thing I’m thinking about is what this will look like to the future, as the Victorian sex vampires and Cold War anxieties look to us. I think they’ll have a little sympathy, but they probably won’t. You poor little prey animals, the kids will say, you were awfully afraid of facing up to things, weren’t you?

#this is the sort of observation I make here that people #go off and write their thesis about #so while I’m not expecting to be the first or cleverest person to say this #if you do use it as a springboard #tell me if you get a good grade ok? #I’ll be tremendously proud of you #like if you take a shitpost and use it to craft deep attentive thought on something important #I just think that’s probably the most noble use of a human brain #it makes me want to take off my hat and slam it to the ground in inexpressible emotion #it’s a cowboy hat btw #and I say something like GOLDURN IT THAT KID SURE HAS DELIVERED. #ok so don’t deny me this #especially if you correct me after a long research journey #GOLDURN IT THE KID IS RIGHT!

[meistoshi]

you will die for everyone. none of them have a choice.

work song, hozier // world war i memorial in church of ss peter & paul, aldeburgh, suffolk, gilbert bayes // i don't smoke, mitski // ?? // planet of love, richard siken // thank you when i’m an axe, emily skaja brute. // ??

#my brain says somethin's missin but findin the good good is hard #so this hehe will just have to do as is uwu #isms. #narrative. #aes. #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture. #journey.

[ruporas]

dragon meat, you, and me

#marcille donato #falin touden #farcille #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #tw blood #tw body horror #tw gore #as a normal farcille fan this revival has been on my mind since i first read it and getting to watch it is like yippee!! #like messy revivals are everything - the consequences that will haunt u for the rest of the time they are alive #the initial hopeful moments where it all seemed well but quickly descend to That not being the case - losing not only the bit of evidence #evidence that your dream may work out but also someone you deeply care about in the process… marcille my Beloved #ofc wholly thruout the journey - at the forefront of it - getting falin back was the most crucial point but so wuickly :(( it was lost #on the other end its crazy to think about the compoments of falin now - human - dragon (dungeon) - marcille’s magic and desperation #the food the crew cooked (digested) - she is made of many parts!! #also i did not realize how medical it feels to draw smth like this. i dont usually explore the inner parts or use a lot of blood #in my work so rendering everything and looking up refs it felt quite magical (?) #ruporas art

[kunoichiblossoms]

→ @sun-flowerfields​ ♥

The boat ride had been a pleasant one, but still Sakura couldn’t help it if the thick fog was a little daunting. A little too reminiscent Team 7′s first mission away from home and the very first time Sakura realized how hard things could get out there. The good Samaritan who had offered her a place on his boat seemed used to navigating through it and soon enough there was land beneath Sakura’s feet. She thanked the local profusely and offered to pay him for his assistance, but he seemed nothing but pleased to be of help. 

That mission back then was exactly the reason why Kirigakure had been one of the places she wanted to visit. Haku’s techniques were quite intriguing, from faking Zabuza’s death to nursing him back to health after the battle with Kakashi. Clearly Kirigakure had something to offer to Sakura’s research; she could only hope the locals were willing to share. 

Not long after stepping off the boat, Sakura runs into yet another stranger and considers passing on by without acknowledging them - but Sakura can feel eyes on her and turns her head fully towards the stranger with a friendly smile. 

“Hello. My name is Sakura - would you know where a traveler might be able to spend the night?”

#sunflowerfields #journey. #hi hi! hope this is ok #lmk if you want me to change something c:

[yeahiwasintheshit]

#heros journey #i made this shit

[hearty-an0n]

if i was orpheus i just wouldn't have turned around lol

#<3 #this post is oneof my little reblog journey posts #greek mythology