#just needed to speak my truth

[strangerhands]

J PLEASE

(I'm dying!)

hiding my face in shame

^me laying in a puddle of my drool after looking at oscar isaac again..

#just needed to speak my truth #i was just looking at his neck. and forearms. and just. #i froth #mail from: friend #fenomenal

[merlinemrys]

sometimes u just have to think about how gwen is thee it girl in camelot 😌 favoured heavily by morgana, courted by arthur and then became queen (not to mention that arthur was willing to forsake his entire kingdom just to be with her), lancelot loved her at first sight and he carried that flame of his affection until he died, gwaine stopped in the middle of the street to flirt with her, leon basically goes and shoots his shot while arthur’s dying, merlin’s willing to disguise himself AND die for her at any turn… nobody does it like thee babygirl ever <3

#shows #bbc merlin #guinevere pendragon #gwen #text #tais toi lys #i NEED to make more everybody loves gwen fics #ONE ISNT ENOUGH #merlin needs to head like a Gwen Love Club (open to the public) and u get the usual suspects (arthur/lancelot/gwaine/leon/morgana) but then #u just get a SLEW of random citizens of camelot who barge in and they all speak very earnestly abt gwen #and one day gwen pops in and sees this odd group and when arthur comes to kiss her hello (they all STARE AT HIM WITH ENVY) and she’s just #like ‘am i missing a meeting? open audience?’ and everyone murmurs ‘no my lady’ and merlin winks at her and says ‘we all gather here every #week to discuss our love for you of course.’ and bc it’s MERLIN and he looks like he’s JOKING gwen just rolls her eyes and takes her leave #arthur then turns to merlin as is like ‘HOW DID YOU DO THAT?’ and merlin shrugs ‘she doesn’t take compliments like that very well it’s easy #for her to think we’re kidding than actually contemplating the idea that i may be telling the truth!’ #*

[viivdle]

hey guys it's me again

#no but look look look #i know what ur gonna say #cardan is the black cat. #THEY'RE BOTH BOTH BUT #idk. #i felt like this fit more #jude is so white cat coded #i KNOW jude is a black cat but just listen to me okay #i'm sorry buT I NEED TO SPEAK MY TRUTH #cardan greenbriar #jude duarte #jurdan #the cruel prince #the wicked king #the folk of the air #tfota #tfota memes #the queen of nothing #holly black #holly blacj #chai and anna #incorrect tfota

[longtallglasses]

it’s very interesting to me amongst the different fandoms i’ve been a part of in regards to their attitudes toward nsfw fanworks bc with the marauders those teens are always wildin’ - smoking, drinking, sleeping together - if they’re not i would even say it would be out of character for them? wolfstar is messy and horny and so in love, even if in a lot of fics they won’t admit it to each other. in atyd everyone is shagging up a storm, the girls, the boys, it’s still juvenile of course the way they discuss it and go about it. very little communication, feelings are hurt, they don’t know what they’re doing all the time. and it makes sense, they’re teenagers!

i have never once heard of discussion around it being ‘wrong’ to write them this way. that it’s ‘objectifying’ and if you’re thinking about it you must be weird or unnecessarily sexualizing characters. sexualizing characters? they’re already sexualized wdym? they have a sexuality, everyone has a sexuality, whatever the author/artist wants to give them, whether that’s a sex crazed maniac or the most sex repulsed asexual, they Have a Sexuality! even before the exact moment they turn 18, they have a sexuality. it’s just another facet to explore character through, to understand them more fully, and also sometimes for the author to help understand themselves.

i’m sorry age doesn’t matter when it comes to fictional characters. it just doesn’t. they’re not real you can’t hurt them. if someone wants to write through trauma, something ‘wrong’ and ‘problematic’ let them use fictional people. it may seem gross and you don’t have to read it, but its existence does not mean promotion of harmful behavior. it can mean so many different things to that author but it doesn’t equate to that.

i say this bc i myself have written some horrid things. i’ve never posted them, was not in a place where i wanted to, i wrote it all in a period of my life where i was seriously hurting, and writing fucked up horrific things stopped me from hurting Myself. i’ve read some ‘problematic’ fics that made me feel better, hurt me in a good way, reading comments of people who related and appreciated what was being explored.

most people who write about fucked up shit, SA, or some form of trauma porn or whatever it is have probably gone through something similar in their life. the people who read it and seek it out are usually drawn to it for a reason but we don’t need to know why. there is also just curiosity. and being curious doesn’t make you a bad person, it doesn’t mean you ‘like’ it. you may like the power dynamics at play, you may be intrigued by desires different than your own, you may… ANYTHING what you enjoy to read or write speaks to nothing regarding who you are in your day to day life. your morals, your beliefs, or what you want sexually or otherwise. i say this to a younger me, there’s nothing wrong with you!

with all that being said… there is also porn that is just porn. and that’s perfectly fine and good too. people have always written porn about whatever and whoever they want and they always will. if you don’t want it, scroll pass. you won’t be given a gold star for announcing you think it’s gross or wrong, you just look silly. i’m not saying that you must like it too, but attacking the moral character of those who do partake, shows an immaturity and lack of tack when it comes to these subjects. go out in the world and you will discover just how ‘abnormal’ and ‘depraved’ sexual desire can manifest itself as.

as someone who grew up a Very sexually confused person. not knowing i was queer or on the ace spectrum exploring sexuality through fiction was like my saving grace. and those books and those fics that made me feel seen, made me go huh! woah! ooooh my god that’s me! or made me go … wait why do i kinda like that? more often than not they were written by adults. bc they had made it through to the other side so to speak. and as An Adult now i find the traditional adolescent experience very intriguing as i did not have that growing up. the sexual experiences i’ve had now have shown me so starkly that that feeling which accompanies a new experience never really goes away. people are fumbling well into their 20s and 30s. reading the plight of a young person discovering who they are sexually i don’t think will ever not be relatable or make someone reflect. that includes the sweet and innocent as well as the ‘gross’/depraved horniness. it is not necessarily enjoyed on a basis of attraction to these characters, it is enjoyed on a basis of ‘i know this feeling’ or ‘i also do and have yearned for this kind of intimacy’. and if who you are isn’t represented in those stories, oh well damn, looks like i have to write it now. that’s how we have Are you there God, it’s me Margaret and the edge of 17 (the ‘98 and ‘16 iterations), all these stories written by Adults! that make us all sigh in relief and laugh and cry and aaahhh

fiction is fiction, idek what anti-ship means, let people be freaks in peace, fandom spaces are created to have fun in, let’s pls have Fun!!! explore and write and draw and fantasize whatever your heart desires bc there can be no right or wrong, it is just discovery.

if you feel kinship with characters and it feels natural to extend yourself to them, to take them and make them your own, amazing, gorgeous, beautiful. play dress up with them in all the ways you can, do whatever You Want!!

#i really surprised myself w how much i wanted to say here but #i started writing and just couldn’t stop #byler #marauders #spicy byler #fandom #fandom discourse #fandom discussion #fanfiction #byler fanfic #marauders fanfiction #stranger things #speaking my truth #bc i can’t believe what i see sometimes #gritting my teeth as i post this #i just feel like this message needs to be reiterated #i know there are a lot of young people in this fandom and i find this censored attitude so harmful #longtallglasses

[captainshakespear]

"Nicky vs Primo unarmed cage match" "Nicky vs Primo armed combat" "Nicky vs Primo track and hunt in the forest" there's no version Nicky doesn't win. it doesn't matter how much cocaine Primo has done beforehand. because Nicky could do exactly that much cocaine beforehand and still turn Primo into a paste if necessary.

#I love the passion this brings out in people #but everyone going 'given enough time to make a plan Primo could win' is Nicky not also getting time to plan!!! #could he not also get in a lucky shot? or are you admitting Nicky doesn't NEED a lucky shot to win? #Primo may be insane but Nicky is also incredibly insane in his own special way. to me. #p.s. this is in good fun and op thank u for the hilarious bracket it's been so joyful to witness #but I need to speak my truth. Nicky has done cocaine also and he could win a fight high just as well. #The Old Guard #the captain's log

[thepoisonroom]

not to care about blonde white guy actors but jack mcbrayer and alexander skarsgard are so the weirdest gay couple you know vibes

#they are so old hollywood roommates to me #i just need to speak my truth #personal nonsense

[lolexjpg]

george looks his absolute best when he's wet and glistening. u agree. reblog

#no one needs to reblog this actually i'm just speaking my truth #my favorite wet dog of a man #she speaks #f123lb #i mean u can reblog. if u want

[sophiethewitch1]

Show us 👀

you know what? sure. i dont think tumblr will like this post but if it stays it stays idc. below is a very messy and bad pixel art wip that's barely been coloured of two homies fucking so 18+ or whatever.

#sophie speaks #sophie answers #sophie arts #tw nsft #me rising from the grave: i want to make a degrees of lewdity and monster girl/boy encyclopedia inspired game where you fuck monsters and- #add them to your party and beat the game by fucking the demon king and adding him to your harem. and everything is animated too #and of course theyre yandere too so you have to also deal with that #its called teratoquest and it is one of my dumber ideas but i want to practice making a game anyway #might as well #i want to bug yun about this i think he'd love the idea lmfao #i always said i have the best ideas. i just need to get better at executing them #horrifying truth is that i am literally just like my father in that aspect

[bluesadansey]

As a Kandreil enjoyer and known Kandrew lover, I think it’s weird and embarrassing as hell when Kandreil/Kevin stans who’s least favorite pairing in it is Andreil try to frame them prioritizing each other more and more as the series goes on as somehow insidious or toxic. Like, you can dislike the direction For Sure and wish it was written differently, but be honest that it’s because of Kevin being your favorite (perfectly valid, I also react disproportionately when my favorite character is hurt by something narratively vs when it’s other chars even if I like/love them) and has nothing to do with *problematic messages about romance* (BAH!) or whatever you are trying to frame it as being the concern instead. 

#especially funny when they’ll try to be like ‘it isn’t JUST about Kevin Andrew also chooses Neil over his family and that’s unhealthy!1!’ #the choosing Neil over his family in question being him and Aaron’s deal being null which is a positive for their relationship and they’re #in therapy together now (I mean you could poke some holes in how good a therapist Bee is but like. Definitely a healthier place than where #they were to start) #Andrew and Nicky are more distanced but honestly also a good sign for their boundaries in the future because that needs work #and Neil is very much closer to the other foxes by the end of the series than he has ever been. So what’s the truth lmao #I could write a detailed meta about the shifting dynamics and Andrew and Kevin in the last two books specifically but I’ll save that for #another day… #s speaks #also have thoughts on why the shift in prioritization occurs as it does for the characters #Aftg #and yes I’m most annoyed by this pattern because Andrew is my favorite and I acknowledge that #andrew minyard #kevin day #neil josten

[astrobei]

talk by hozier is a will byers song but idk if y’all are ready for that convo

#this should not even be an incendiary thing to say but atp i just don’t know. #i will not be silenced any longer. #i need to speak my TRUTH #been sitting on this thought for MONTHS #it is also my absolute favorite hozier song. others come close but like GODDDDD #ID BE THE IMMEDIATE FORGIVENESS IN EURYDICE????? #IMAGINE BEING LOVED BY ME???????? #SO I TRY TO TALK REFINED FOR FEAR THAT YOU FIND OUT HOW IM IMAGINING YOU. #literally him. not sorry #will byers #byler #/astro posts

[arsenicflame]

ran out of time to finish my full feelings write up before s2 but i wanted to put something out there before we start getting content so this might be a bit incomplete

ive been thinking about what i really want to see in s2, and in general im happy to trust the crew with whatever they do but there is one thing id like to see

id like to see izzy not forgive ed

ive already talked about how serious i find the act of severing his toe & surrounding details in general and i think, given we KNOW its going to get worse (at some point izzy loses his leg, so) i dont think the amputation can be brushed off as just a pinky.

what i want to see is their relationship worsen and worsen and get to a breaking point and just. when everything starts to goes back to how it was before, ed tries to treat izzy like he used to (not during the kraken era, but before that, before the revenge, back when they knew each other, when they were friends) and izzy doesn't take it. he flinches, or walks away, or does anything to brush ed off. ed hasn't apologised yet, of course, its izzy, its his izzy, they understand each other! or he thought they did but now hes realising that mayyyyybe he should give him a proper apology.

so he does. and:

"i dont forgive you"

and if course. ed doesn't know what to do with this izzy always forgives him, has since they were kids! why not now?

from izzys perspective, he simply cant take it any more. he will take the consequences of his actions, but he cant lie anymore and pretend he wasn't destroyed by what ed did. and maybe hes learning its not just ed and izzy against the world anymore. there are people who will stand beside him- they might not always like him, he might spit and hiss at calling them his friends, but he knows, deep down, he is not alone anymore. and that its time to take a stand. to put himself first for once.

he cant forgive him, not for this

its at this point ed realises that he might have fucked up. really fucked up. its not that he doesn't care about how the crew feels, hadnt already realised what he had done but. again, its izzy. there was a time he thought there was nothing he could do that izzy wouldn't forgive.

the way i see it this is the point that ed starts to properly rebuild. oh he thought he was doing it before but it was more masks and layers, but now he has to truly confront his actions and the consequences they have on his relationships and that maybe. he is like his dad. but at the same time, he has the space to learn that even if he is, thats not all he can be. he can be better, choose to do better, and it's hard and doesn't always work but he has to try, has to keep trying because if he fails? he has no one to fall back on any more

so izzy doesn't forgive ed.

and ed learns to forgive himself, in time. and maybe he will apologise again, and izzy still doesn't forgive him. and maybe ed learns to be ok with that. and maybe in the wreckage of decades of blackbeard and first mate hands, they can build something new. it won't be the same, and maybe there will always be a distance between them, but in time, with work, they can be friends again.

#id started on this thread before the e1 clip but that really solidified how i was feeling #caveat that there is obviously forgiveness both ways im not ignoring that im just speaking specifically about izzy to ed here #got fed up of trying to make this a proper post (see top note) so this is kinda just. run on. train of thought #get it out my head before it eats me #originally this was gonna be heavier on WHY i wanna see it but its a bit more narrative now idk #i don't control my brain #if this is a hot mess i am sorry i Did Not reread it once #and my handle on words is spotty at best on a good day #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #vaguely #izzy hands #israel hands #blackhands #edizzy #i need the izzy hands intervention squad to show him he has people who will back him on this 100% #hes not alone anymore hes safe and he doesn't need to take it #idk i just think. the loss of izzy would be the final straw for ed (izzy stays. thats the one truth. izzy stays) and it would destroy him #but maybe in a way he needs to be destroyed #idk what weve seen so far is very hot and cold and up and down and A Mess and jst. idk im pushing him over the edge #they consume me i want to lock them in a small room together i want to get them both 500m restraining orders #i did not include the 'Izzy leaves the boat' tangent on this but the door is open. to me. (sam. sam is there. To Me.)

[solpuff]

All crucible knights are subs and like to be called good boy/girls. There. I said it.

#elden ring #theyre mad at me because i speak the truth #take their cute tails as an example. there is only one need for a cute tail as a humanoid. to wag it and look adorable #im keeping it real #honestly im just using tumblr as a diary for my secret thoughts dont mind me #you CAN share with ur thoughts on if theyd be subs doms or switches tho thats fine

[sidesteppostinghours]

I raise you to: Chen knows where they came from and could have stopped it but made a mistake resulting in said scars

hey what if i start shaking you Right Now

#mr wei “i live with the guilt of my mistakes as a constant quiet reminder from the person i hurt most with it” chen #ok but now im just thinking abt that as added flavour text #like during the chen autopsy conversation it could be #“You don't miss the way his eyes flit to one of your scars–you know it was left behind during surgery–but it can't be more than coincidence #There's no way he could know the truth.“ #just #i need these two to be put inside a snow globe basically #sidestep #chen #fhr #pulp speaks #pulp answers

[fisheito]

I forgot my stylus at home

Anyway here's a phone finger drawing of Guard Wolf Karu

#he is in fact a very good boy. #i was like THANK YOU #karu speaks truth while being appropriately protective #misty vale #it's like those situations with cheetahs in captivity #u have this slinky murder-capable creature who's actually quite shy so u need to get a puppy in there with them #so they can be best friends and eat together and make the slinky more sociable #MY FINGER DRAWINGS LOOK JUST LIKE MY STYLUS DRAWINGS 🤣😂😂 #karu #yakumo

[an-american-crisis]

no one understands me (I think brutus by the buttress mischaracterizes brutus (julius caesar) as a character)

#needed to speak my truth sorry girls #i’m just yapping #brutus #brutus by the buttress #umm yeah idk what to tag this #also I’m aware the song isn’t JUST about brutus as it’s a part of a metaphor or something but I’m not talking about it that part

[xo8ball]

actually many mental disorders and illness have been converted into digestible. palatable. easy to consume. easy for neurotypicals to understand and relate because they wont pay attention until its slightly about them. and easy for capitalism to seem as functional or non functional instead of diverse humans with diverse conditions with determinated needs that deserve respect and wellbeing EQUALLY. what and why.

#im kind of distressed because its all pink and silly memes #like yeah some memes are funny and relatable. but where is the truth. where are the voices of the disabled. #the voices of people who struggle badly and have higher needs and can't communicate the same way. #i think english is failing me right now (its not even my second language. i just know how to speak. i cant do too much when stressed) #and i hope my message gets through?? #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #like dude its so fucking ableist because they see humans as Workers only. and those incapable of doing said work are left behind. #WHAT THE FUCK. where is the fucking humanity. #messy it's so messy this