#just thinking to myself

[yooniesim]

I always heard people say that it's your former biggest fans that have the potential to be the most bitter haters, and I think that's probably true. I think those are the ones that get hurt the most by being blocked, etc, rather than those that are just out to troll you to begin with or don't really care that much about you. Of course, there's always the rare weirdos that rant when you've never interacted with them in your life lol, but mostly I've noticed it being people that were formerly friendly that turn the most obsessed and strange over time. For some reason they think they can cross personal boundaries without being blocked for it, like they're your best friend IRL or something, and then when you cut them off for it they make it their personal mission to spend all their free time thinking and ranting about you. This happens in a lot of fandom spaces and with celebrities and such, but I never thought it'd happen with just regular people talking about sims online... Yet I've seen it happen more than once here. Simblr is an odd place 🤔

#ceci speaks #nonsims #text #delete later #just thinking to myself #having my evening coffee lol

[sleepypuffpastry]

c!sam’s mourning island .... oh how much mental damage you give me

#just thinking to myself #pinkpuff.txt

[roetrolls]

Hm

One of my professors looked at my website a little while ago and gave me the note that, while my portfolio contains a lot of good colors, expressions, and character design, it's sorely lacking in action

And going through my art tag... Yeah....... most of my illustrations feel very. Posed. Cover art type stuff.

I think....... that's what I wanna work on this year. More dynamic pieces. Characters in motion. Action poses.

Even in this assignment from last quarter where I had to draw action poses for my character, only one of these actually shows him in motion.

I could also stand to experiment with more dynamic angles....

MUCH 2 THINK ABOUT !!!

And this isn't self deprecation or anything for the record!! I just wanna improve, and I can't do that if I don't know my weaknesses

Like, before this I needed to get better at keeping my characters on model, and that's still somewhere I could stand to improve, but I'm a lot better than I was!! And I got better by noting that it was something I struggled with

#just thinking to myself #but posting it is gonna make me feel more determined to do it #because now it's something ive put into the world #and something ppl could in theory be looking out for in my art #holds me to it yknow? #i love my art #i love getting better at it

[magicalgrimm]

I wonder how many followers I would still have if I manage to block all the porn bots following me 

#just thinking to myself #don’t mind me

[let-me-iiiiiiiin]

God, the lyrics of "Bury The Light" by casey edwards and victor borba is such a good fit for OG luo binghe. It's such a shame that the actual song doesn't fit the vibe I've assigned him in my head

Just look at these though:

Immortal temptation takes over my mind

Condemned

Fallen weak on my knees, summon the strength

Of mayhem

I am the storm that is approaching

Provoking black clouds in isolation

I am reclaimer of my name

Born in flames, I have been blessed

My family crest is a demon of death

Forsakened, I am awakened

A phoenix's ash in dark divine

Descending misery

Destiny chasing time

Inherit the nightmare, surrounded by fate

Can't run away

Keep walking the line between the light

Led astray

Through vacant halls, I won't surrender

The truth revealed in eyes of ember

We fight through fire and ice forever

Two souls once lost, and now they remember

[Chorus again]

Disappear into the night

Lost shadows left behind

Obsession's pulling me

Fading, I've come to take what's mine

Lurking in the shadows under the veil of night

Constellations of blood pirouette

Dancing through the graves of those who stand at my feet

Dreams of the black throne I keep on repeat

A derelict of darkness, summoned from the ashes

The puppetmaster congregates all the masses

Pulling strings, twisting minds as blades hit

You want this power? Then come try and take it

Beyond the tree

Fire burns

Secret love

Bloodline yearns

Dark minds embrace

Crimson joy

Does your dim heart

Heal or destroy?

Bury the light deep within

Cast aside, there's no coming home

We're burning chaos in the wind

Drifting in the ocean all alone

#svsss #just thinking to myself

[savemysoulmyartsucks]

Romance is boring (Los Campesinos!) and Sex Sells (LoveJoy) sound really similar and I’m pretty sure Wilbur took inspiration from Romance is Boring.

#lovejoy #los campesinos! #sex sells #romance is boring #songs #music #just thinking to myself

[sekhmet-heart]

I don’t know how to “market” myself or have any kind of “business plan” 

I’m just vibing with what feels right, and maybe it’ll be enough. 

#just thinking to myself #i want to start using tumblr again though because I miss you weirdos

[kharmii]

tbh I'm into the fantasy (emphasis on fantasy, where things can stop any time I the actual irl person want) of being controlled and made helpless. No need to manage anything or think for myself, just be desirable, obsessed over, and far away from my irl stressors. And yeah, there's a bit of a maso element there for sure. I also like being able to pity something and imagine the comfort aspect. The deeper the suffering the more fulfilling the comfort payoff is

(Response to this post)

Assuming you mean you'd stop before it got to the point of amputation, eye-gouging or getting your face wrecked unrecognizable. I suppose there is an allure behind making a show of dubious consent or terror over being abducted, just so long as the yandere is sexually attractive and someone you could eventually surrender to. I enjoy hurt/comfort, just so long as there's a provocative reward.

The Subway Bosses seem an odd choice for one of these fantasies. They are tall, fully grown men and capable trainers with champion-tier difficulty level on the Battle Subway. Then again, they have weak, girly builds and are coded autistic/disabled. They look rather spooky on one hand but have a childlike innocence on the other. Maybe the extreme mutilation fantasies have to do with creating a realistic situation where they'd be utterly at a stronger person's mercy?

I tend to believe it's the fandom version of the Coolidge Effect found in men who look at too much weird nsfw pr*n online. That's the impression I'm getting from certain people on the Blankshipping tag. Men crave variety so that they look at greater and greater extremes to the point where normal, irl forms of intimacy doesn't do it for them anymore. With the Train Twins, the edginess of incest in train conductor costumes gets rather....ho hum, and that's why we get the guy screwing a dog or mutilation or whatever.... Look into dopamine fasting, LOL!!

Art credit to: カニアﾉﾚキ@kani_working Twitter.

#subway bosses #yandere #blankshipping #ingo #emmet #srsly tho #don't mind me #just thinking to myself #black and white #psychology #coolidge effect #troll post #submas

[zushimart]

garu from pucca was my first crush

#& victor frm corpse bride #just thinking to myself

[dogwithglasses]

Scooby doo kin

#just thinking to myself #Otherkin stuff

[gemscales-and-tea]

... Ok but Verosika ABSOLUTELY strikes me as someone who would just storm her way into Cesar's office, appointment or not. I'm just saying.

#ooc #Just thinking to myself

[coldstyles]

how is it december? wasn’t it just yesterday when i was swimming under a warmer sun. winter you dog. you dark toothed thing. a prowling reminder that it is not always enough to drift. on colder days it seems that living is a choice to make

#delirious and sleepy #just thinking to myself

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[clown-owo]

been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

#i haven't drawn in like. half a month. which listen i know i don't post much here but i do draw a lot #i have another blog. but also sometimes i just don't post things. i draw for myself #just got burnt out from working on an animation final 😔 #so anyway. eased myself back in with a silly comic about portal #my irl saw my shitty sketch and thought glados was painting chell which is very funny to me. #chelldos #but like. unrequited. glados is obsessed with chell. chell is not having a good time #portal #chell #GlaDOS #GlaD0S #my art #og post #1k #5k #10k #20k #edit: i made this post almost a year ago and it haunts me. theres a typo. chell is out of character. #because i couldn't come up with a good reason for her to be there in the first place #and this was a shitty ms paint replicating drawing that i did just to get back into drawing #i didn't think it would gain much attention #i was Wrong #anyway someone in the comments said this is what happens when you speedrun thats an infintely better setup for the punchline #EDIT 2: ok i fixed it fuck you

[notbrucewayne48]

"aphobia doesn't exist"

bitch literally not that long ago an aroace youtuber animator was insulted by almost half of its community for being it

#i did some research about it and found out that the problem was principally that she had previous experience in the romantic area #so people just didn't take her seriously and said she was lying #even though she stated multiple times that she wasn't comfortable in those situations #now things are more calmed but damn #mind your own bussiness #i believe she knows more about herself than you #sorry if i offended you with this comment but i hate how aro/ace/aroace people are always left behind #insulted and rejected because they “dont know what they are talking about” #or because they “just have to wait for the right person” #or because they are “psychopaths and they are missing something” #i love that animator and she helped me realise a lot about myself #and now that i know the context i think i will start making a list and killing aphobes one by one #aromantic #arospec #asexual #aroace #acespec

[thatbarricade]

noo don’t cry about july ending and the time passing, just remember the july poem :)

#end of the month melancholy is so real #the feeling that i’ve gone another month without achieving anything or bettering myself just punches me in the gut every time #but its going to be okay #i think #not les mis #poems and quotes #morgan harper nichols