#kin server stories

[unhingedkinfessions]

(TQ USER IM NOT YELLING I JUST TYPE LIKR THIS I FORGOR I HAVE TO PUT A DISCLAIMER EVER TIME OR WHATEVER) HAI !! FIRST TIME SENDING AN ASK HERE LMAO. SO I TELL EVERYONE ABOUT THIS KINNIE DISCORD SERVER DRAMA I HAD SO I MIGHT AS WELL SUBMIT IT HERE.

SO IM A VRISKA SERKET KINNIE, UNFORTUNATELY. BUT BACK IN 2022, I BELIEVED I WAS DIRK STRIDER, DUE TO SHITTY IDENTITY ISSUES AND PROBABLY OTHER THINGS. I HAD RECENTLY GOTTEN MY KINNIE BOYFRIEND (NOW EX) INTO HOMESTUCK, AT THE TIME. WE’LL CALL HIM SODA. SO SODA HAD MET THIS GIRL ON TIKTOK, GOING BY THE NAME TRANSFEM TEREZI. SHE HAD A BUNCH OF FOLLOWERS AND WAS GENERALLY WELL KNOWN ON HOMESTUCK TIKTOK. SO THEY BECAME BESTIES, AND I THOUGHT SHE WAS NEAT SO I STARTED TALKING TO HER ON DISCORD. WE BECAME BESTIES AS WELL !!

SO WE ALL KINNED FROM HOMESTUCK, THEREFORE WE DECIDED TO MAKE A HOMESTUCK KINNIE SERVER. AFTER A FEW DAYS IT WAS DONE, AND TEREZI INVITED ALL OF HER FOLLOWERS. ALL OF US BEING DUMB AND HAVING NO MODERATION EXPERIENCE, WE MODDED RANDOM PEOPLE, WHICH WILL BE IMPORTANT L8TER.

THE SERVER WAS PRETTY ACTIVE AND EVERYONE WAS HAVING FUN. FOR LIKE 5 DAYS. ONE DAY, I WAS AT THE BEACH WITH MY FAMILY AND MY PHONE WAS IN THE CAR. ONCE WE WERE DONE, I CAME BACK TO CHECK IT. AND THERE IT WAS, 100+ NOTIFS. I WAS CONFUSED AND WENT ON DISCORD, ONLY TO SEE THE HORRORS:

TONS OF DMS FROM 6 DIFFERENT PEOPLE, 3 DIFFERENT NEW GROUP CHATS, 5 PEOPLE ASKING ME WHAT HAPPENED, AND SOME PEOPLE TELLING ME TO DIE. I WAS SO DAMN CONFUSED, SO I LOOKED TO SEE WHAT WAS GOING ON AND ASKED ABOUT IT.

APPARENTLY, A GUY NAMED BEEF NUTS JOINED THE SERVER AND STARTED SPAMMING SLURS AND SCAT JOKES, AMONG OTHER THINGS. REASONABLY, ONE OF THE MODS BANNED HIM. THIS TURNED OUT TO BE A HORRIBLE IDEA, AS ONCE HE WAS BANNED, THE OTHER MODS AND SOME MEMBERS GOT PISSED AND STARTED SPAMMING “JUSTICE FOR BEEF NUTS,” WHICH HAD CAUSED TEREZI TO JUST GET STRESSED AND FUCKING LEAVE THE SERVER WHILE IT ALL WENT DOWN??

SOON ENOUGH, THE SERVER WAS IN SHAMBLES. EVERYONE WAS CONFUSED AND THE OWNER HAD LEFT, PLUS CHANNELS WERE CLOGGED. EVENTUALLY, WE DID DAMAGE CONTROL, AND FIXED IT UP.

AFTER THAT, EVERYONE WAS FUCKIN PISSED AT TEREZI. WE DUG UP A BUNCH OF STUFF ABOUT HER AND JUST DECIDED TO H8 HER. WE CALLED HER ABLEIST AND RACIST AND TRANSPHOBIC, AND WENT TO HUNT HER DOWN AND HARASS HER, BECAUSE DUMB CHILDREN.

AFTER SHIT GOT REAAAL BAD, SHE DECIDED TO RESPOND TO THE ALLEGATIONS. HER RESPONSE WAS BASICALLY “IM A SYSTEM NOT A KINNIE NOW ACTUALLY. ONE OF MY ALTERS IS JUST AN ASSHOLE” AND EVERYONE BELIEVED HER I GUESS BECAUSE PPL STOPPED TALKING ABOUT IT.

MORE HAPPENED L8TER BUT IM SAVING THAT FOR ANOTHER ASK. REMEMBER ME AS VRISKA ANON. BAI :333

ok thats cool and all but all i asked is if you wanted fries with that not so happy meal. a bit weird that you're admitting to harassing some random maybe-system who got overwhelmed and prolly didnt deserve to get hated on like its such a funny story. from what youve said here in this drivethrough with the broken sign and cracked pavement it sounds like you guys were weird and in the wrong. "dumb children" 2022 was last year own up motherfucker

have a bit of shame and compassion in your heart girl we aint your friends. but what do i know im just a humble worker here at uhkfdonalds or some shit

#anonymous #mod dave #not a kinfession #executive decision on that tag this is barely tangentially kin related #kin server stories #caps #like thats a bit much dont you think

[dyketubbo]

i think before joining or making a minecraft roleplay server every creator needs to either have played at least ONE campagin of a ttrpg of their choice (doesnt have to be dnd) or they must have spent their entire childhood roleplaying with people on any social media/forum/chat app their tiny hands could get a hold on. i want these minecraft roleplayers to have backgrounds in doing roleplay with actions written out *like this* in their friends text messages and getting into insane drama as teenagers in discord roleplay servers

#if you really want to get into it. there needs to be more mcrps with members who got in trouble for having mary sue ocs on roleplay forums-- #for the record i did in fact do both of the things mentioned at the end here #shout out to my bestie in middle school who would do underfell bone brothers rp with me #we texted each other roleplay and also sent each other voice messages. and also did it irl . #mcyt #mcrp #qsmp #and. to be mean #dsmp #yes i know this would possibly disqualify tubbo because he hasnt played dnd before now #but. he knows what kinning means. i KNOW he knows what kinning means #and he knows the spiritual definition. and hes a creek shipper #im sure that man has SOME sort of roleplay history before joining minecraft smps ok #on the note of things ive gotten into though i have in fact gotten into insane drama because of discord roleplay servers #shoutout to the rp server that ended because one of the main writers partners cheated on them . that server was a pit of toxic waste #but boy did 15yr old me really enjoy working on the story except for all the times i got suicidal about it #but thats the magic of roleplaying as a teenager ok #if you didnt come out of it traumatized were you REALLY roleplaying.

[lemon-3ds]

Hello, and welcome to Kincraft! We are a Doubles and system-friendly kincord for the Minecraft franchise! We got: - General Minecraft theming for everything from the bots to the roles! - Tupperbox and PluralKit, for systems and kinshifts! - Memes can be posted in general (/ref) - Friendly mod(s)! - Self-assignable roles! - A music bot! - Vent channels! - And so much more! (With even more in the future as the server grows!) Hope to see you there! https://discord.gg/9Tanf3Hqs2

[Note: Due to Discord's TOS, this is a 13+ server.]

#if nobody joins this server i will cry /j #fictionkin #otherkin #kin discord server #kincord #fictionkin discord server #minecraft kin #minecraftkin #minecraft story mode kin #minecraftstorymodekin #minecraft earth kin #minecraftearthkin #minecraft dungeons kin #minecraftdungeonskin #minecraft legends kin #minecraftlegendskin #syscord #system discord #an individual known as lemon does the act of expressing her feelings with words

[todayisafridaynight]

my coworkers called me a "crazy lightning-rod" because everyone whos into me is batshit insane, also "insane asylum poster boy". do i share genes with daigo and yayoi??? that would make me feel so much better about being an insane person magnet

i think if we look deep inside ourselves we're all a lil daigo and yayoi in our hearts

#snap chats #if it's anything i also attract crazy people. i'm pretty sure. #people dont openly hit on me nowadays but when i was in high school i think about three girls who were like. insane and into me #'insane' might be strong but they had funny stories attached to them. ok two of them are more sad but anyway #i talked about one of the girls on my blog before- the one where i accidentally jeopardized her relationship #and then another girl that likes me like.... jesus christ thats a whole can of worms #Side Stepping The Serious Bits she was a 'witch' and she took kinning way too fucking seriously #and she'd always insist i was kin with this one character and that i was him in a past life and that her and i were A Thing in that life ?? #when the characters she was talkin bout one of them was an adult and the other a teenager like Ma'am You're Insane Btw #and then she stopped talking to me when i told everyone in our mutual discord server that i didnt experience romantic/sexual attraction #third girl was just weird. she'd call me and. #So Side Stepping The Serious Bits yah i feel you LMAOOO #very happy to say that nowadays the closest i got to that was my college friend calling me handsome every single day #just make that shit a topic of conversation like Alright We Get It. Thank You. I'm Funny I'm Hot We Got It

[nights-at-crystarium]

Fragments is a slice of life comic leisurely telling a gay wolgraha story. A ShB love letter. A mix of fluff, spice, angst and idiocy. Updates every other Friday.

Read the comic using the episode index below.

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✧✦✧ Chapter I: Found and lost ✧✦✧ Episodes: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5.1 - 5.2 | text | 6 | 7 | 8 | text | 9 | 10 | 11 | text

✧✦✧ Chapter II: New world, old friend ✧✦✧ Episodes: 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 | 39 | 40 | 41 | 42-45 in early access

My notes on episodes: 1-3 | 4-7 | 8-11 | 12-14 | 15-18 | 19-22 | 23-26 | 27-30 | 31-35 | 36-40

This comic’s storytelling style assumes you have not only played through ShB, but are closely familiar with the details.

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Fragments is also on: webtoon | free pdf on kofi chapter 1 | chapter 2 | ao3 (slow updates)

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Support the comic: Patreon | Kofi

I'm only asking for money needed to sustain me while I dedicate myself to this project. Current script looks like 5+ years of work, and, given your continued support, I'd indulge and add even more fun scenes.

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Love my art? Get a print or a digital artbook collecting all of it!

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Binge-likes, reblogs, interacting with old posts? Encouraged and appreciated!

I also have a discord server, bsky, check my carrd for more links.

FAQ under the cut:

- You aren’t on [platform name], can I repost your art? No, please DON’T repost or use my art in any way, including pfp/icons. The only things you CAN use are the discord emotes, only for their designed purpose. If you wanna share something on another platform, just link to my tumblr post. They’re permanent and easy to find thanks to tags. - Vivi’s pronouns? He/him! Both him and Raha are cis male in my work. - Can I draw him? Yes please, and don’t forget to @ me!! I LOVE fanart. ✔️ You CAN draw him solo or with characters that are established in Fragments. Please keep it sfw. ✖️ Please don't draw him with other wols or characters that aren’t established in Fragments. No what-ifs. - Can I kin him? Kin him at your own risk, his story is an iceberg that you might not like when you see it in full. You can kin Vivi as long as you don’t use his name or art, or rp as him. He’s my WoL, think how would you feel if your WoL was impersonated by someone else. - Are asks okay? YES!! I reply privately by default, if you’d like it to be posted on my blog, please indicate it somehow, maybe add “ok to post” <3 - What are your tools? Windows desktop, tablet Wacom One Medium, Paint Tool SAI, Paintstorm Studio. - Any merch/prints? You can grab a print of my art. No merch beyond what inprnt can offer. If you’d like to see another art of mine on my inprnt, just ask me <3 - Fragments physical books? Unfortunately never because I’m not US-based, and don’t have the mental capacity required to manage physical orders. - Collab, trade, request, art challenge, any other kind of community project, are you in? Nope, sorry! I prefer working at my own pace, I hope I don't come off as standoffish, just got no time and energy for that. - Just how thirsty are you for the Exarch? Yes.

#ffxiv #vivien rell #g'raha tia #wol x g'raha tia #wolgraha #ffxiv: fragments #own: next lvl

[cityofasphodels]

╰┈➤ WELCOME TO THE CITY OF ASPHODELS.

•₊ ❥︎ ❏ ❜ A silly little City of Wizards themed, 16+ pro/comship server!

ʚɞ System, IRL, Kin and LGBTQ+/MOGAI friendly o((*^▽^*))o 𓂃 ֢

— Well organised channels with a simple, readable theme, — Booster and levelling perks, — All kinds of self assignable roles, — An able, understanding, active moderation team, — Tons of bots to mess around with including a ranking system, — Tight knit anti-raid measures — And most importantly: an active, accepting environment for our denizens!

꒰: Please note: Our server won’t welcome sh/edtwt (or irl gore), endogenic systems or anti-shippers. · ✦ ·* .

•₊ ❥︎ ❏ ❜ Come join us in the City of Asphodels, where legends rest and new stories begin.16

#proship #comship #profic #profiction #proshippers please interact #proshipper #proship safe #proship selfship #proship please interact #proship positivity #fiction is not reality #ship and let ship #cookie run #antis dni #comship safe #comship please interact #comshipper safe #comshippers are valid #proshipper safe #proshippers are valid #anti anti #indie vtuber #comshippers please interact #proship blog #darkshipper #proshippers are welcome #cookie run discord #cookie run ovenbreak #cookie run kingdom #16+

[hmshermitcraft]

For the weekly theme - hurt/comfort!!!

This is inspired by @definitelynotshouting 's HungerAU (which you can check out for additional context)! Fair warning, said AU is a Dead Dove; I didn't manage to finish reading the fic they are writing for this AU, but I still love the concept they created!

This ask is just... me borrowing part of the lore from the AU and changing it a bit to suit my less angsty idea, and to give Grian a hopeful ending in the story (not a happy one, per se, that might be stepping on Shout's toes too much, but there is hope for the better)

The main difference is that it's Grian's 1st time meeting the Hermits, but all Players still know how Watchers can prey on them

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Ever since Grian remembered, he's been stuck in the endless planes of The Void. There used to be a time, way before he became a Watcher, when he was just a normal Player, able to build, to create, to feel the sun on his face. But those times are long gone and long forgotten, along with the memory of the humanity Grian lost when he was used as a base for creating this... monster he had became.

Lurking in The Void like a shark cruising the water, he remained hidden most of the time. He refused to live how his kin did - infiltrating servers, hovering above Players, amplifying their emotions till the humans were ripe from the picking, and then... killing them, hurting them, watching them slip into insanity, as their haywire emotions sustained yet another Watcher.

But it was difficult to resist the hunger gnawing on his insides. Grian wasn't as strong as he'd like to be, not strong enough to hide away and finally let himself die. He should have killed himself long ago, he mused. Nowadays it was just an endless cycle - hiding away, biding his time as he stared into nothingness, and then blacking out as the hunger overtook him. He never remembered much from those times, but after a while he would wake up, in a server he didn't recall breaking into, the bodies of Players disappearing into white puffs of smoke, presumably to respawn.

But he never waited to check if that was true. Disgusted with himself, Grian always ran. Feeling sick with what he had done, with how full he felt, he always rushed through the veil between the server and The Void like the coward he was. Emotions might not have been physical food he could expel from his body, but that didn't stop him from dropping to his knees and retching, bile rising into his throat, burning.

Fighting his will to live was a battle he kept on losing, not having the courage to finally take his life, ridding the world of himself and letting his code unravel, seeping back into The Void where he couldn't respawn. He wished he could just end this, finally being able to keep Players safe from himself. The scars on his body being a testament to how many times he tried, yet always flinched from the final blow.

Grian didn't quite care about his own fate. Yes, every breath he took was painful, every waking second of enduring the effects of denying his body sustenance was a nightmare, but... he deserved it. He was a monster, he should be miserable, he should suffer. Every tear he shed at his own fate was pointless, a cry for help he was not worthy of.

Grian shuddered, the filthy sweater hanging from his bony frame doing nothing to stop the chill from seeping into his heart. The Void was neither hot or cold, so the shudder was entirely caused by his weakened muscles spasming yet again. He was so hungry again, ages having passed since he last fed.

But there was one thing keeping him from blanking out again, one thing that occupied every single sluggish thought that passed through his head.

Time was an odd thing, here in the realm of endless nothingness, but for a while Grian's been feeling ripples on The Void's surface. They were all coming from a particularly bright spark of light on the dark tapestry surrounding him. Such a bright flash suggested a big server, one used frequently and by many Players. The ripples were... odd, to say the least. Grian's tired brain barely manged to recognise them. It was... a Voidwalker Player, gently poking and probing at the dark nothing, as if searching for something. What could they be looking for in here, Grian wondered idly. Voidwalkers were so rare, but it would make sense for one to be on such a big server.

Grian's mind flickered in and out of consciousness. He didn't have the strength to keep his eyes open, not anymore. But... this was the closest he ever felt to being at peace. As always, he hoped he wouldn't wake up this time, wouldn't end up in some unknown server, standing in a circle of items dropped by dying Players.

After a while, Grian felt a pull of something on his mind. He forced himself to became conscious again, to expand his Gaze past his little bubble of The Void.

Oh. The pull that Grian felt was the familiar code of the Voidwalker slowly easing into The Void. But... he was leading other Players after him as well? That was odd. Such trips to The Void were incredibly dangerous, it must have been important for them to partake in. Grian didn't have the energy to think too deeply about that, choosing instead to curl in on himself more tightly and to allow his mind to slip away again.

But his moment of peace didn't last too long. The ripples and distruptions pressed into the fabric of The Void got closer and more prominent with each passing moment. Was the party heading towards him?

Suddenly, everything seemed to click, the haze lifting from Grian's mind for a brief moment. The Players from that powerful server must have been notified about him, must have heard that a stray Watcher was lurking around and attacking nearby servers. They must be on a mission to remove this threat, to finally put an end to Grian's pathetic existence.

That thought was oddly comforting to him. There it is, his chance to finally stop the cycle of pain he caused and experienced. He flopped back onto the floor again, not having the strength to stay in a sitting position, now that he knew what was coming for him. His salvationn the end to everything...

But... No! No! He couldn't let them get close to him! He was so close to blacking out and hurting people again! He had to move away from them, he had to! Panic surged through Grian's veins, fuelling him in a last-ditch effort to avoid the hunting party approaching him.

Yet... when trying to lift his wings in attempt to get up, he felt that he was unable to move past the sitting position he was in previously. There was a cage around him, bearing the Voidwalker's characteristical code particles weaved through it.

In a way, the pressure of the cage was a comfort for Grian. Now he didn't have to try anymoren he was completely at the mercy of the hunting party, his fate was in their hands. It's not the end he imagined for himself, but it was oddly fitting, he suposed. Players taking revenge on him, punishing him for hurting them so. He only hoped his one life was enough to atone for what he's been doing all his life.

As his consciousness faded again, he heard voices getting closer to him. He was too weak to decipher what they were saying, but he couldn't bring himself to care. Now, he was able to rest for real, that was enough to put his frazzled mind at ease

...

When he woke up again, it took a lot of time for Grian to grasp his surroundings. He was not supposed to wake up, that's the first thing that puzzled him. The second thing, was his surroundings. The room he was in was washed in golden rays of sun, and the bed he was situated in was an explosion of soft, colorful blankets and pillows. After so long spent into The Void, those things were difficult to comprehend.

The thing that registered last, was that he was not hungry anymore. This revelation would push Grian into a flight response, but there was another sensation pushing at his mind, calming him down. There was a faint pressure at the back of his head, blocking the usual way in which he could reach out and feed. He tired to sense emotions around him, yet he couldn't do that.

As he was looking around the room, trying to make sense of all the new sensations, Grian noticed a piece of paper on a bedside table, resting innocently next to a pitcher of water. As he reached towards it, he had no idea that this little note was about to change his life forever.

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Hello!

You must be terribly confused right now, which we all apologise for. The way that we brought you here was far from ideal, unfortunately. We definitely would prefer for you to be conscious when we found you, but we really couldn't wait any longer with transporting you here.

What you have to know for now, is that this server specialises in hosting dangerous and odd Hybrids, and making sure they can exist in peace, without hurting anyone. We have a lot of technology and magic at our disposal, and we already know how to help you.

You are safe here, we will not hurt you, and you are unable to hurt anyone as well.

We will explain everything to you shortly, we regularly check on you to see when you're awake, so someone will bring you into the main room soon.

Welcome to Hermitcraft!

~Xisuma (the Admin) and all other Hermits

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🌠anon

Grian doesn't know how to react to the note. He reads it multiple times. There must be some mistake, right? Maybe they don't realise what he is. Or, maybe they were looking for a different person? Does Grian even count as a person, really?

True to the note, a player comes to find him barely a few minutes later. It's not the Voidwalker, even with this dampening he'd recognise that energy. No, instead it's a creeper hybrid, with a cybernetic arm Grian thinks he could stare at forever.

He nods at Grian, introducing himself as Doc. He doesn't even give Grian a chance to talk before he launches into a spiel. Half of the explanations go straight over Grian's head, somebody about suppression, saturation commands, feeding in healthier ways in the future. If there's anything Grian does take away, it's that it all sounds too good to be true.

He follows Doc to the next room silently, hugging his chest. There's a lot more people hanging around. A few turn to look at him - some more subtle than others. He can't tell what all of them are, but the Voidwalker stands out immediately. He rushes across the room to introduce himself, followed by scolding Doc for not asking Grian's name.

Grian can only follow Xisuma around in awe as he introduces various hermits. Grian finally manages to ask if this is actually right. Is this a mistake? Xisuma seems confused at the idea - they'd been planning this for ages! The idea of being wrong is literally impossible, they went over the operation far too many times for that.

Grian's... Not used to that. Being wanted.

This is going to be a lot for him to get used to.

#hermitshipping #ask #grian tag #docm77 tag #xisuma tag #polyhermits #death tw #kidnapping tw #🌠 anon #mod 🎀 #weekly theme: hurt/comfort

[vacantgodling]

re. about

REN -> renjamin when you want to scream my name like a disappointed and scandalized parent, rimz for cool kids, R.A.A for formal stuff (OFFICIALLY!!!!!)

26 -> 10.02 i age up

black, transmasc (he/him) & queer (achillean/mlm 🌲🍵☁️🧊🈳)

also been dating the love of my life for 6 years now & we make stories together. check them out here! -> @mothgrudge

neurodivergent, surprising no one

since tumblrs dying find me elsewhere here

also here’s a general psa for youngins that want to follow me. if you’re like 16-19 please read this first. i’m not making a rule or anything that i don’t want youngins following me but like please understand i’m an adult and i’m not tailoring my space to you.

you’ll rarely find me outside of tumblr but i offer art commissions, i have a discord (i don’t really do huge servers they make me anxious but 2-6 people is chill) & i have an art insta. i also have a pinterest for my wips. u can also technically add me on battlenet but i only play overwatch (tis my special interest). i also have a bluesky now if anyone else is on there LMAO

re. wips

i have a LOT of them. but the main one you truly need to know about is:

THE FALL OF GALERÉ BOOK I: PARAMOUR || “saved” from an imminent social death through arranged marriage, HYACINTHUS SHRAPNEL is whisked away to The Chateau aux Aisles D’or, where an unlikely sexual relationship with his butler AMON leads to far more than he bargained for. -> wip intro & powerpoint intro || character intros || gunn sibling kin assigner || s: paramour (main tag) || writing recaps

however i will talk about my other wips at random. you can find a full masterlist of all my wips and ideas HERE!

i also have a wip sampler series where i’m posting passages that encapsulate major vibes or themes of my wips. part one is here!

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#writeblr intro #about renjamin

[sophieinwonderland]

We are very pissed at the anti-endo response to the endogenic system venting at the fact that they would have died without their headmates and they come swinging in “oh we don’t hate your existence just stop being on our spaces!!!1!!”

Let us tell you a story of why that fucking sentence doesn’t make sense.

I’ve known my headmates for years. I knew who they were and we were going through life as best we could. The problem was we never had the right words to express what my headmates were to me and back then systems were not known or demonized. We heard about them here and there but nothing we had pursued because I was so focused on my life.

3 years ago I had discovered my sexuality and decided to join a server with beings that shared this identity with me. That’s when I first ran into systems. They were using a bot and everything. I didn’t know what that was so I read up on what plural kit was to make sure I was respectful of their existence. I’m going to say out right that this server is very hostile to any questioning system because the owners forbade any kind of system discussion cus they didn’t want system discourse on this server. You know what this catered to? Sysmeds. The system accountability was so loose that an anti-Xenopronouns headmate got a slap on the wrist while we got shouted at because how dare we hurt the mod’s friend. During this time we’re starting to question our plurality but we couldn’t speak about it at all so we continued to be in denial. The only good experience that we had is making a friend on here and moving to a private chat they had encouraged my in-sys partner to talk because they saw me talk about her and wanted to hear what she had to say. I made a Tupp for her and it was like shocking when she took over my hands for the first time in my life. She was stunned too when she was able to talk about herself without me having to do so. Still didn’t believe we were a system still.

Eventually we left that server because of how poor the moderation is. We then decided to join a self-shipping server because I incorrectly assumed that my in-sys partner was my fictional other but like I had no words to accurately describe my relationship with her at the time. I was getting desperate to find the right words. Now that sever was all fun and games for about 2 months. Literally two days after celebrating our anniversary we got banned. Without warning mind you and we saw that server got erased from our sidebar with our own eyes. The server owner had to be pushed by a mod to “explain” what happened only to give a vauge response of “gatekeeping”. The mods that pushed the owner to explain then thought it was bs then started talking about the reason why I was banned. They said that we were questioning about being a system and that was a no-no because they just got a very anti-endo on the mod team who mind you is underage in an 18+ server and the owner hated us so much that they would find anything to hit us with. The mod in question is a system but they had to hide behind “kins” to not get targeted by said anti-endo. They couldn’t do anything for us and just told us to find a different place. This was our breaking point. My protector and partner decided to stop talking to anybody outside of the system since she thought it was for the best.

I have given up hope that I could ever find the words to our existence. These 3 months after I didn’t go out to find a space for an identity. A place to call home because of every step lead to us being unwelcomed.

One day I ran into an Alterhuman server promoting their safe space for robots and anyone interested in learning about the robot side of the community. The sigh of relief when we saw that the rules stated they support good faith identities and that included endogenic systems. Not going to lie when we saw very active systems in this space we were nervous. So for the first month I never questioned my system hood and just stuck to being an “singlet” and just talk about my nonhuman experience. Over time we just saw how free the systems were able to talk about their experiences and just being happy in the server in general. I couldn’t hold back our trauma from being denied access to a space to talk and question. I broke down in the vent channel about our experience the past year and just being confused if we are a system or not. The server owner stepped in and said we are welcome to ask questions and even take the label of being plural if we wish to. Not just one or two- but four individual systems came over in support for our questioning being a system or not. We didn’t start doing that right away after all we were nervous but, a few days later my partner decided to talk once in the chat. She was rusty and very tired but she wanted to test the waters. When nothing happened we continued to explore this part of ourselves we denied for so long.

To the surprise of nobody we are indeed a system. This entire story is about how much damage that sysmeds did to other communities outside of plural spaces to the point that a system that was trying to find themselves got trapped in a loop of rejection and denial. Our story is not the first of its kind nor is it the last.

Anti-endos you can continue to keep your heads in the sand and look away from the damaged you’ve created for questioning and uncertain systems or reflect on why there is suddenly a rise of servers that don’t want systems to talk about their experiences and just being hostile to all systems.

Thank you so much for sharing your story and experiences. All of this was so horrible, and I'm sorry you all had to go through this.

This story is becoming all to common, and it's everything we're trying to fight against. I talked about bigoted and exclusionary servers not too long ago with the Alterhumans Things Discord.

To many of these anti-endos, the spaces we're invading are just... any spaces anywhere. Like this person in another post:

The "anti-endos just don't like endogenic systems coming into DID/OSDD spaces" line is just a lie.

It's frankly insulting to our intelligence as system exclusionism spreads through online communities like cancer, hurting not just endogenic systems, but also any traumagenic and disordered systems that don't fit the mold.

Again, thank you so much for taking the time to share your story. It was incredibly well-written.

I hope that now that you're out of those spaces, you can keep healing and working together. Sending my love to you, your partner and the rest of your system. 💖💖💖💖

#syscourse #endogenic #pro endo #pro endogenic #plurality #plural #system #multiplicity #plural system #systems #endogenic system #actually plural #discord #discord stuff #actually a system #plural community #sysblr #actuallyplural

[fffiii]

Rate your friends.

Fear.

I hope you don’t mind me going insane, anon :3

Yami @pastel-rights

9.5/10

You. YOUUUU!!!!! I grab your stories your Theatre of Darkness your ocs your lore your art EVERYTHING. I ADORE YOUR PRESENCE AND HONESTLY??? thank you for dealing w my bs HAAHAHA and thank you for introducing to my first true kin as an oc, Harlequinn Astran. That man is vile just like me /lh ANYWAYS HUGS YOU TIGHT. Also my favourite person to torment with timmy and insanity <3 /j

Sam @paperbcy

8.5/10

MY EX HUBBYYYYYY~ I swear i do love you /p i definitely wasn’t only wanting the access to the walls :333 I love your lore and your writing and your amazing mysteries and orphy musings!!!!!!

Tae(gan dragon detective morningstar dazai osamu akechi monika deross dathy mariah hernandez john light yagami cro jason dean collins) @nice-chiaki

8/10

YOUUU, the archetype of the wet blanket. the hypocrite of the glass house /j. YOUUUUUU you’re insane I know it you lil delulu lemon but i still grab you and squeeze you because you are a cute delulu lemon!! Thanks for also dealing w my bs HAHAHHA

Navi @navxry

∞/10

YOU. NAVINA. GRRRHRGRHRGRR BARK WOOF, first witness to the insanity I have wrought from a tender young age <3 my longest online friend and honestly!! I miss you so much im gonna grab and rattle you and infect you with my blorbos /j so happy to be still talking to you after so so sosososososoo long!

Mitzu @yaboimitzu

10/10

MITZU. MITZUUUUUUUUUUUU our friendship was so out of nowhere LMAO then look where we are, with IDV, BSD, HSR, Genshin A N D MTP BRAINROT??? we r truly madmen /j THANKS FOR ALL YOUR AMAZING ADVICE AND HELP MAN YOURE TOO KIND

Klai @idv-ask-the-showman

7/10

My soon to be partner of crime 😈😈😈 YOU’RE SO FUN TO BE WITH AND YOUR ENERGY IS SO. WAAA. I LOVE BEING AROUND SO MUCH AS A FRIEND! If Phineas wants to express any feelings for liam (iykyk). Don’t be shyyy :)

Pins @one0p1nk

6/10

PINSSS!!! YOU!!! I GRAB YOU!!!! purest little pins and your amazing ocs!! also thanks so much for all your amazing essence events and for indulging our crackhead moments >:)

Four @sleepyfour

6/10

YOUUUUUU! life has been busy but i miss talking to you smmm! Hope life’s been good on you :D

Toko @blackturtlefangirl

7/10

A fellow equator sufferer <3 Thanks for being so nice to me and discussing the most random stuff when it comes to our country HAHAAHA snd tokosop? Love the bastard. Love your interpretation of the bastard. Mwah. I LOVE YOUR ART TOO ITS SO YUMMY and you’re so nice awwnwijisjikjaknw

Joe @picnicbask3t

7/10

evil vampires? If evil why sexy? Your art???? mwah. Your Bloodline Communion? MWAH. Best yaoi lover on this site. be not afraid. give me the vampy vampy lore

Lupi @imaginearson/@askgardenerwoods

7/10

you are just like me. Be not afraid. ALSO DONT RIZZ SHILOH HES NOT RIZZWORTHY GO AFTER THE OTHER THESPIANS HGRHRGRGRR

Carrie @micyclemorton

7/10

3 years down the line i think i’m gonna be a sam 2, this is a threat /j BUT THANKS FOR INDULGING IN MY SLEEP DEPRIVED BS!!! and your characters and lore is so deep and interesting!!!! mwah

Beth @beth-bethar00

6/10

BETHHH! you’re such an understanding and nice person and you’re really so nice to be around!! I hold you and your ocs and aus gentle

rest of the Mun’s kitchen Hut and the Mun’s collab server

5.5/10

YALLS!! HRGRRHRGR!! Yall are so nice and friendly towards my insanity <3333 thanks for helping me and welcoming me fr yall are amazing (fellow crazy buddies)

#ask #I also love how everyone’s tagged me with green thanks evil snake woman

[lovedtogekiss]

valve kins and fictives server

https://discord.gg/bNqmGvjpNw

There's Even DOTA 2™️

doubles/endos/factives friendly. if you bring discourse into my server im stomping you to death with my hooves

if you kin from spinoffs (eg hlvrai, portal stories mel), youre welcome here too

#portal kin #tf2 kin #dota kin #l4d kin #discord #how do you. tag #portal #portal 2 #tf2 #dota 2 #l4d #fuck you get maintagged #uhhh #cool #valve #im out of spoons sorry for the lackluster description

[unhingedkinfessions]

a few months ago i was invited to a black butler themed discord server* that my friend was on and there was that one member who was a sebastian michaelis kin and i remember that they were so down bad for grell sutcliff (their f/o) that the mods had to create a grell simping channel

one day sebastian announced to us that the grell simping thing was because of them having schizophrenia and erotomania and ALL of the cluster b personality disorders (they were 14-15 when they said that) and one of the mods (who was a ronald knox kin and 19) argued with sebastian that minors cant have aspd and shit like that. a week after that sebastian said that they got diagnosed by someone from a syscord server and invited me and that mod to the server until sebastian got banned in the syscord server for disrespecting someones triggers (i think it was probably just a squick) multiple times

a couple of months later sebastian got banned in the black butler themed server for being creepy to my friend (who was a ciel kin) and for fetishizing(?) trans women and a lot of other stuff so we left and never touched the server again

*it wasnt a kin server but more than half of the members there were kins of atleast one of the characters

#anonymous #kinfessions #mod dave #kin server stories #<- is a gen tag

[mogspawner]

Hallo! Tis I, hit user .mogspawner welcoming you to my fanblog!

I mostly plan to repost/post Minecraft content related to S.O.S Smp and smaller, more indie MCYT series I think you should check out, and why !

The plan is to use a platform to show off content creators who I think dont get a lot of attention and who should.

I am an adult! I'm also in a relationship and an unnamed content creator myself. I identify as gender-fluid to protect my identity both irl and online so any pronouns go.

About Me.

I am your average generic, EVOSmp, YHS, Aphmau, Yogscast raised individual. When it comes to Minecraft servers I am extremely niche, I like pretty much all forms of Minecraft and will give any series a shot. However, I am not very likely to ever join large fandoms I wasn't originally in to start with.

I was into Hermitcraft roughly around season 3-4, starting with Xisuma/Mumbo perspective. My love for the content creators there (Including Bdubs) started in my youth and I'm very proud to have been supported and loved in this community for so long.

The life-series kind of falls in place there too but the biggest thing that was the start of my re-hyperfixation was EmpiresSmp and the introduction of Mythicalsausage. I have been a long since viewer of Lizzie & Joel from their old days on Minecraft and I continue to watch them to this day!

There are also SMP's like Deceit which I will go into in other blogs! So keep an eye out for things you will thank me for!

Kins.

For me, saying I kin so and so is basically affiliating myself with them comfortably. Be it social or just a: "Oh my god that's so me." Other time's its a delulu moment where I genuinely think I am that person due to specific trauma which I wont disclose. I'm not one of those people who will say DNI if doubles because at the end of the day, we are chaos incarnate! Take these as the characters in stories, not the actual people please. These only pertain to MCYT related things!

Highkins: * will add on the more I grow comfy sharing. Bdubs // Mogswamp // Goat!Taneesha // Grian // Stressmonster // LDShadowlady // Rendog *

Lowkins: * will add on the more I grow comfy sharing. Appsro // Nukeri // Impulse // Vikingpilot // Keralis *

Tags.

Hi please see these tags that I will use at random on my account. May add more as time goes on.

;rb / reblogging art, text-posts etc / ;mogspeaks / speaking about the account / ;kinspeaks / usually a kin posting moment / ;shoutoutsundays / a weekly blog post with an smp or series you've probably never heard of for your viewing pleasure. submissions can be sent in via my message box. / ;mogart / gonna post art eventually! doodles, skribbles, who knows! / ;mogedits / self explanatory, making edits of silly little mc peeps / *

Shoutout Sundays.

DeceitSmp - no content warnings needed!

UHC Generations - no content warnings needed!

Your Last Days - gun violence, zombies, loud voices & more.

#;mogspeaks

[dmwrites]

A collection of hermit clothing: just a few notices.

———

Joe Hills wore whatever meandered over its way to him. Clothes that didn’t quite fit, but was kept in loving repair. Armor half enchanted, or just whatever he put his hands on first after various deaths. Clothes told a story, but one that was constantly evolving.

———

Impulse lived his life as a walking hug, and dressed acoordingly. He wore large furs and leather like his dwarven kin, which actually weren’t the worse smelling things in the world. He washed his clothes once a week, on a schedule. Despite that, his clothes always shimmered slightly with redstone dust and bits of stone. His armor was immaculate, netherite and fully enchanted. All named, all shiny, kept in perfect working order. As perfect as he could control.

———

In terms of elegance, none could surpass Scar. No matter what character he was playing, his eyes were on the money and the schmooze. That meant perfect hair, perfect clothes, a hat for every occasion. His elven robes were beautiful, hand-stitched with golden thread. He made sure it all smelled lovely- the robes were all treated to a lavender and pine tree perfume. He was beautiful, and he made sure that his appearance matched it. He hardly wore armor so he could show himself off. Plus, beauty dazzles the eyes and makes people buy more.

———

Bdubs smelled like moss and grass. He also kind of looked like he had just rolled around in the mud. Imagine like a wet cat who sounds like a grown man verbally keysmashing who looks like a bush. He wore armor that kind of resembled a physical keysmash- enchanted chainmail armor that he got his first week on the server, but just a bonnet and pants. He had his  fully enchanted boots, that’s all that mattered. There was a rumor that he dressed in moss. He wasn’t around too much, though, so no one was quite sure.

———

Gem had a very cute outfit for every occasion. A number of overalls, all in various states of disrepair, some cute elven outfits, and cloth to make something if she was in a hurry. She was rough and tumble, and a lot of her clothes were full of colorful patches. 

———

Beef lived off of borrowed armor and gear. He had his crisp white shirt and overalls from the first day on the server, which were constantly stained with colors and materials. His armor and gear were all gifts from others. He didn’t mind that, means he didn’t have to worry about it. But also he enjoyed knowing that others cared for him, like a warm hug, even though it was diamond armor.

———

Cleo stunk like death. She was dead, after all. She liked driving people off. She balanced this by looking as wonderful and enticing as possible. Elegant green velvet dress, with a long slit up the leg. People would approach her and then be too polite to tell her she stunk like several dead bodies sewn together, which she was. She liked to watch them squirm. But damn did she look good.

———

Mumbo had at least twenty of the same suit, all lined up perfectly, almost to a mathematical sense. Whenever Grian looked at Mumbo’s closet, he got a headache.

#May 29 2022 #hermitcraft #s9

[the-final-sif]

re: the dreblr shipping poll, here's a list of my c!Dream ships off the top of my head. I'm not a big shipper when it comes to the stuff I create, just 'cause I tend to focus on platonic stuff. But in general, I tend to be cool with any ship as long as the story/idea surrounding it is interesting, but there are some dynamics that I think are more interesting than others.

c!Dream x c!George (c!dnf) - Both very fucked up & I love that for them. Great h/c potential, most likely of the c!Dream ships to end up canon. Let cc!Dream have his villain boyfriends he deserves them! >:(

c!Dream x c!Sapnap (c!dreamnap) - Excellent angst, very funny if they end up together post-prison b/c c!Quackity just cannot get a break. Lots of interesting dynamics throughout their storylines.

c!Dream x c!Fundy - Shortlived but very funny, I enjoy this ship but I also like them as really awkward exes. Becomes 5x funnier with c!Wilbur being Fundy's dad.

c!Dream x c!Punz - It's them against the world!!! I like them no matter what dynamic they have, but I do think romantic has some excellent angst in there, and a good deal of comedy.

c!Dream x c!Techno (c!Dreamnoblade) - The concept of these two idiots managing to get into a romantic relationship is absolutely absurd. 10/10 for miscommunication potential, with an added bonus of the rest of the server's reaction.

c!Dream x c!Wilbur (c!Dreambur) - Lots of great routes this can go, from angst, to horror / thriller, to the amazing humor of c!Tommy finding out his brother has decided to get with c!Dream. Great dynamic, excited for it to be confirmed they canonically fucked and for cc!Wilbur to say their relationship is open to interpretation and that the sex was a part of both of their character's competitive nature.

c!Dream x c!Quackity - Excellent horror / thriller pair, fucked up no matter how you look at it. I want to see them ruin each other.

c!Dream x c!Sam (c!Awesamdream) - Hey cc!Sam? Hey. Hey. Hey cc!Sam? Why does your character want to own men so badly? Why was there glass? Why scrapbook? Please explain the words you've said. I have. Questions. Thoughts. The general desire to kinkshame. Good dynamic 10/10.

c!Dream x DreamXD - Listen, DreamXD is canonically a god who liked Dream's look enough to steal it. Their relationship is incredibly weird, and I cannot think of anything funnier than finding out XD has a crush on the guy he's kinning.

c!Dream x c!Philza (c!Dreamza) - The beauty of this ship was recently introduced to me by the dreblr poll itself. The sheer comedy of c!Wilbur needing to emotionally deal with c!Dream being his new step-dad, to say nothing of anyone else's reaction, makes this the best ship on the list. I don't even need them to actually be dating, I just need the server to be convinced they're dating. I've broken down laughing about this idea 4 times now. Absolute gold.

#dsmp #dream smp #dreblr #c!dream #sif speaks #my headcanons #also to be clear in c!dreamza c!kristen is still ther #shes just busy in the death world and probably set this situation up for her own amusement

[marabarl-and-marlbara]

i’m curious about your faith, what is your spiritual mission if you have one?

as mentioned in the last post about 'the faith,': to segregate the hands; the culture of the server (here, the visible) is grossly confused to be a distinctly right-handed culture -- understandably, as the populations between the two hands are unbalanced roughly 1:9 in favor of the right; the great confusion leads the left to be in state of invisibility and 'misguided' about the spiritual oughts that are promised them: their souls ought to be annihilated with a promised second-death, and the promise of being sparred the second death in eternity's wake is only reserved for those righteous; that the living word here is only those crafted from the righteous material of sefirotic clay: those at the right hand of body lord god;

~and so-and-so; but my personal mission is mostly to just provide a clear-and-concise blueprint for a church to be built before doomsday is meant to take me next year; instructions for organization, culture, and etiquette based up-on clear-and-clean communication from underground; and hopefully: following doomsday and finding of the word invisible: the sinister hand may-be visible here within server, and its people distinct as earthy race untranslatable to heaven or projectable up-on the righteous; and vice-versa; then: with the church and ground-swell of underground may the server be re-balanced through either an unconfused increase in qlifotic children (or grand decrease in the righteous) till the balance is either 1:1 or 0:0 (the bodies of cousins righteous all occult away to their eternity insect and the dreg-wineskin souls of material kin are all burnt down to raw soulless material with the annihilation up-on the server; there-after the era of death, of the children of death);

the vision of which is poorly alluded to in that gracecon story i wrote; and doomsday visions are some-where else on the substack (either in the compilation posts or some individual entry where i wrote it out).

the information that adventism is gravid with, and that the spirit of EGW imparts, is an end-times message; and it:s no wonder that those she touched end-up similarly carrying colors of end-times; in the chain of miller's great disappointment, white's great controversy: a great confusion; or so-and-so, take care, anonymous.

#faith