#let them be brothers in arms

[trashpandafluff]

It’s been getting cold so It’s time to draw some self-indulgent cozy art of the duo ever.

So underrated please join my obsession! I have a head cannon that the cold affects Sneeg more because he’s a bug and smol so Phil provides.

#origins smp #osmp sneegsnag #osmp philza #osmp fanart #philza #sneegsnag #my two beloveds #not a ship #let them be brothers in arms #so somft

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Playdate in peril, the homosexual thoughts be upon ye.

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#MDZS #poorly drawn mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #lan xichen #I subscribe more to the belief that LXC saw an opportunity for his brother to make a friend his age than him wanting to play matchmaker #in his perspective wwx is clearly going out of his way to *try* and interact with his little brother #and he reads the signs that lwj isn't objecting to it #sometimes you gotta facilitate a friendship between people by setting them up to hang out on a lake together! #how was he supposed to know the levels of tension between the two? #If it were not for the several feet of cursed water between them they would be fighting with fists not words #wwx has incepted a thought into lwj and its not going away! #dear god i hope the boy you like doesn't fall into the water and you have to pull his sopping wet body into your arms #It took every ounce of restraint in me to not pull a quote from the linked song #so now its just a bonus for people who like to click links #I have to continue the pre flashback joke somehow #lets make it soft canon in this comic that wwx has been humming and singing boat drinks the entire time they've been out on the water

[sad-leon]

this collab was very fun <3

#sad•leonart #2 arms left #a part of me almost re did it to add back rubby animation but i did not have the spoons for that asldkfhalsdkf #also headcanon the painted decals on sprouts arm begin to fade after so long but he wont let mikey repaint them #because they remind of his own brothers #of course i made my comfort panel angsty <3 #very proud of the metal effects

[worstloki]

people just ignore Thor was a feral child, huh? like his life goal was probably to demolish another race at age 12 and he was probably begging to go to war and attempted to murder their father for not letting him via telepathy that he didn't have.

#people are like ''loki stabbed thor at age 8'' like im sorry but thor is older and im pretty sure he would've given loki the knife #Frigga was probably like ohhh you can wage war when your brother is old enough to go with you. can't let you two go alone! #and Thor naturally was like ''ok. i will Arm the Child'' #like for SURE Thor was the kid eating dirt while Loki just sat next to him looking very confused about it #Thor: Father said we are Part of Asgard and need to Eat To Grow and then one day will be Big Enough to Fight ! #he tries to feed Loki the dirt so he'll grow up quicker too but Loki starts crying and now Thor's forgotten about it and trying to calm him #Thor like no no don't cry i'll find us something else to get big with :( #carries him away and gets dirt all over them both because his hands were still dirty #fast forward the bros are sitting on the ground under a table monching on lemon cakes (or whatever) absolutely COVERED in dirt #they have left a dirt trail behind them so their hiding spot won't be effective for long #and also Thor doesn't think voices should get across what is clearly a sturdy table cloth so he's not sure how they were 'discovered' #Frigga: you cannot get dirty and go in the kitchens #Thor: LOKI WAS SAD. AND WE NEED SUSTAINENCE TO GROW MOTHER. WE MUST FEED. #Frigga: -_-'' #(Loki is still munching on a lemon tart. the same one despite the room change because he's eating it slowly while Thor reasons with Frigga) #(half of the words anyone is saying go over his head but he is enjoying the expressions being made)

[daboyau]

I was watching lilo and stitch and that “you can never belong” scene came on and I got this idea in my head for that, but with ROTTMNT. So since I don’t do edits or draw, I wrote it out instead. Don’t think too hard about the logistics. :)

It is cold, when Leo slips out of the lair. He can feel Mikey’s gaze on him as he leaves, raising goosebumps over his flesh. He can’t bear to turn back, knowing that his resolve would crumble immediately if he did. His footsteps are too loud in the loneliness of the sewers. His heartbeat pounds in his head. He keeps expecting to hear a voice calling out for him, or the soft sound of footsteps following him. 

But of course it never comes. Mikey had been so hurt. So sad. Of course he wouldn’t follow him. 

When Leo finds a portal into the Hidden City, he doesn’t hesitate to throw himself through it despite the danger it puts him in to be there. The sounds and the sights are familiar to him, yet nowhere calls to him as loudly as the lair had. It’s only been two weeks since he was first brought into their home. They hadn’t even wanted him there, and yet the urge to go crawling back is so strong. He had messed everything up from the moment he’d manipulated his way into their lives. Of course they wouldn’t want him. 

(Why don’t they want him?)

Leo wanders the back alleys and the side streets, letting his feet guide him to nowhere in particular. The picture he had swiped on his way out of the lair is stored safely in the pouch tied around his waist, and between steps he’ll reach in to slide his fingertips over the stiff paper. Just to make sure it’s still there. It soothes him.

He doesn’t stop walking until he’s far outside the city, tucked away in the scraggly rock forests that surround the Hidden City. The aching in his chest has turned into more of a twisting knife, the small knot of sadness becoming more like a gaping chasm. An open wound. A bottomless pit of longing and loneliness that he had never felt before he forced his way into the lives of the Hamatos. 

He hadn’t had anything to lose, before. He hadn’t known the kind of pain that loving something would bring. He wishes he could go back to not knowing. He wishes he could return to a life of never having to make the choice to walk away, to spare them all the pain his existence brings them. 

Leo settles on the ground, curling into himself, shoulders trembling under the weight of everything. When he closes his eyes, the image of Mikey’s face as Leo made his choice haunts him. Donnie’s quiet voice rings in his ears in the silence of the forest, you ruined everything, again and again. Raph’s soft squeeze on his shoulder lingers like a phantom. Leo trembles, tucking his knees to his chest. Then, he pulls the photo out. 

Raph, Donnie, and Mikey grin up at him. It’s almost mocking, how happy they look here. A reminder that they are better without him around. He hadn’t seen them smile like that since the first five minutes they’d found him, back before they learned the truth of how much of their lives he can ruin. 

He runs a careful finger over those smiles, then he squeezes his eyes shut and holds the photo against his chest. His throat burns, and the ache in his chest feels like a black hole that will swallow his body whole. He does his best to breathe through the pain and when he opens his eyes again, the light speckled ceiling overhead is blurry and indistinct. It reminds him of the stars they had taken him to see, wind tickling his skin as they sat on the rooftop of the tallest building of their strange human city and stared upwards at something beautiful.

“Lost,” he whispers to the open air, and he can almost imagine that single word floating upwards, towards the city and the sewers. Finding its way into the only place he’s ever found that might have one day held happiness. But only for him. Not for them. There was only danger if he stayed.

“I’m lost,” he repeats, words like some trouble confession, and hot tears roll down his cheeks.

Some small, selfish part of him hopes they’ll hear. He wants them to come for him, and to bring him back home. It is a stupid, foolish wish. It’s better for everyone that he stays gone. He can’t hurt them this way. 

He falls asleep with tears drying on his cheeks, and body curled tight around the only evidence he holds of a dream he knows can never be. 

When he wakes hours later, it’s to the sound of heavy footsteps over gravel. He jolts upright, heart pounding, eyes wide, and for one foolish, terrible moment he really believes that his family has come for him. 

But no. Of course not. When Draxum emerges with a weapon pointed at his head, Leo can’t find it within himself to feel surprised. He stares back blankly, shifting slowly to stand, halfway wishing that Draxum would just take the shot and get it over with. He doesn’t think he has the energy to raise a hand to defend himself. 

The gravel has left his legs peppered with indents and marks from where they’d pressed into his flesh as he slept. They sound like something breaking as they shift and crunch beneath his feet. Draxum’s eyes dart between those markings and Leo’s tear streaked face, before his expression twists into something complicated. Almost pitying. 

“Don’t run,” he says, voice low. If Leo hadn’t heard what true kindness sounds like these last couple weeks, he would have said that’s what he hears in Draxum’s tone. “Don’t make me hurt you. You were difficult to make. No need to ruin a perfectly acceptable specimen.”

Leo shuffles, eyes darting between Draxum and the stacked stones surrounding them. He makes a sound low in his throat, hurt and uncertain, but he does not bolt. Draxum smiles, already assured of his victory, and steps closer. Leo watches with wide eyes. 

“Yes. Yes, that’s it,” Draxum murmurs, careful and soft, like he’s trying to soothe a scared animal. “Come quietly.”

“I…I’m waiting,” Leo admits, and he watches Draxum’s brow crease. His head tips, curious. He’s not used to this side of his creation — quiet, yet resisting his orders. Leo shuffles a half step back, heart pounding so hard in his chest that he feels a little dizzy. 

“For what?”

“For…for my family.”

“Aahhh. There is no use in doing so. You don’t have one. I made you.” 

Leo shakes his head, hands trembling, photo creased from how tightly he is clutching it in his fist. The thought of ruining the only evidence he has hurts, but the fear of Draxum getting his hands on it, of him finding out about the others, it terrifies him in a way he’s never felt before. He can’t let Draxum know about them. 

“Maybe…maybe I could—“

“I don’t know what yokai fool you found, or what nonsense they’ve been filling your mind with, but banish the thought of family from your mind.” His voice has lost that careful, gentle farce. It is harsh and cutting now. A familiar sound that Leo had hoped he’d left behind forever when he ran away. “You are built to destroy. You can never belong. Now, come quietly and we can begin your reeducation once—no! No no, don’t run, don’t—!”

His voice fades as Leo darts through the towering stones, vines curling at his heels and snapping at his shell as Draxum tries to recapture him. The picture flutters from his fingertips as he trips, lost amongst the shadows of the stone forest. Leo sobs, but he does not turn back for it. It is better if it is lost; at least then, he may be able to move on. 

#Rottmnt #my writing #sort of a separated au? #There’s no real bigger story here #But basically the thought as I was writing it was #Draxum has leo and believes the other 3 experiments died in the fire #After 14 years leo decides to run away #He’s destructive and aggressive and also desperately lonely #Stitch style #And when his brothers find their presumed dead sibling mikey welcomes him with open arms #Raph is hesitant but affectionate and open to bonding #Donnie wants nothing to do with him but might possibly warm up to him over time #Of course any bonding he might do with his brothers is all ruined bc leo keeps messing things up #Hurting people #Ruining belongings #Etc etc etc #but he is beginning to love his family so so much despite how he can’t stop himself from hurting them #And when he hears that draxum is looking for him he makes the decision to leave #Mikey lets him go thinking that leo is making the decision on his own #Not realizing he doesn’t want to go #Anyways yeah #this idea put me in a chokehold and i wrote it in like 30 minutes at 1am #So i’m not thinking too hard about the logistics #rise of tmnt #rottmnt leo

[angelsdean]

look at sam making his own choice to go. he could've very easily said, no way screw you, i don't wanna! (he's very stubborn like that)

#big weary sigh tho bc he's such a little brother #i bet. nay i Know there r some ppl out there who will argue dean was twisting his arm w/ 'i never bothered you never asked you for a thing' #ppl who would cry that he's ~emotionally manipulating~ and Guilt Tripping sam into going w/ him #AS IF sam stubborn taurus samuel henry winchester would let himself be guilt tripped into doing Anything he doesn't wanna do #like this guy is getting his way. he sets his terms. be back by monday. and dean honors them and delivers him back #vics spn rewatch

[bumblingbabooshka]

Processing some things

Also the fact that he's crouching with his hands on his knees is so cute to me for some reason?? He does this in another episode too - the one where Chakotay finds a symbol on an unknown planet...it's just so adorable to me. He could just lean down but no. Also of course his fingers are spread again - GOTTA utilize the whole hand whenever you do ANYTHING (if you're Tuvok)

#anyway. he's so pretty I'm gonna bite my arm off spongebob style. #Tuvok in the Maquis: I'm gonna spy on these criminals but also?? I'm gonna try out a new eyeshadow look. #Tuvok calling Neelix 'sir'....one and only time v_v treasure it Neelix #Do these replicators make clothing? (yes.) Will they make me a uniform like yours~?? (No. They most CERTAINLY will NOT. <3) #<- also Neelix is naked and Tuvok brought him a towel in a way that was very theatric but also very 'lets dry you off' #like...not just handing it to him #I love Neelix's scrappier early seasons vibe <3<3 #I also like whenever he was like 'GOD these Starfleet people are a bunch of BABIES...eat the damn leola root. It's good for you~!' #I FROGOT KES WAS HELD CAPTIVE BY THE KAZON???? KES ARE YOU OK??? #Kes: I'm told I'm too curious...it's my worst quality~ <- and then the writers never let her out of sickbay #In my ideal world Kes & Neelix are like brother and sister (harkens back to Neelix's lost family and gives a slightly more sympathetic #reason for his overprotectiveness which would now not be romantic jealousy but still something he had to let go of for them to truly be #friends) and also Kes tried every work station aboard Voyager...every episode she's somewhere new but her MAIN job is still in sickbay #Kes is in a pseudo cult and she said nu uh I believe in a different pseudo cult and I love that for her #Kes: I don't want to be dependent on the caretaker!! (reasonable) Our people have magical mind's abilities that allow us- (ok Kes) #just bc she was right doesn't mean it's not a WILD thing to think HEhehehe #SNRKEHEHEHE HARRY STOP TOM CAN'T TAKE THIS #Tom: How can I let down the only friend I've got~? / Harry: Friend? What makes you think I'm your friend~? / Tom: -sobbing into his pillow- #Neelix saying 'Well...the fool needs company!' ok <3 I'm twirling my hair a little....got a bit of rizz... #literally an hour ago he was willing to leave them all for dead and now look at him #OUG hTom Paris the racism....ough the racism...not even the fantasy alien kind.......oaaau ugh oh it hurts the real world racism..... #TOM NO STOP TALKING!!! TO M NO THE RACISM - TOM PARIS !! TOOOOM!!!!! <- walter white screaming meme #(remembers its Harry's FIRST mission) a different kind of pain.... #Janeway and Tuvok holding hands: We're so fucking doomed. This is a terrible position and we have to do what's morally right but #by doing this we're going to be trapped here - maybe for the rest of our lives and not just us but the entire crew. But we have to #do this horrible thing BECAUSE we're good people. #<- not enough attention is paid (including by me bc I forgor) to the fact that Tuvok was with Janeway when she made that decision #and backed her up...just a sad little moment to themselves #OOF Tom...three for three on the racism....TOM #Neelix's sales pitch...yeeAAAH~!!

[the-ragbros-are-okay]

i keep thinking about kaeya and albedo and jean all telling klee "after you have a fight with someone, you always finish the fight and apologize. then, you hug, because that shows that you still care about the other person, even if you're still upset. okay?"

so klee firmly believes that

anyway, kaeya and diluc are arguing somewhere in mondstadt, as they tend to do whenever they interact because they dont know how to handle their emotions with each other, and klee sees them

they stop arguing, because why bring a child into their drama? that isn't needed, nor is it wanted. but klee, being the kindhearted girl she is, asks why they were arguing.

"it was just a silly dispute," kaeya tells her, laughing it off. "it's over now."

klee shakes her head. "but you two haven't made up, so it isn't over."

kaeya's thinking "uh oh" because he's remembering how much she stands by the Hug It Out rule

klee stands her ground, and insistently tells them that they haven't made up if they haven't hugged, and no, Kaeya and Mr Weird Grown-up, it's not okay because you aren't doing what you've taught!!! practice what you preach :(

and yknow kaeya's been wanting nothing more than to be diluc's brother again because that was the only family he had left, so he turns to diluc and shrugs and gives him a look that says "she won't go away until we do it"

diluc visibly sighs and opens his arms, and whatever you say he does not enjoy it, he would never. after all, he's supposed to dislike kaeya. yeah, that's right.. he's supposed to hate the way they still fit into each others arms like when they were kids, arms squeezing tight around each other for what was way too fleeting of a moment. he isn't supposed to miss the warmth as kaeya pulls away, leaving an empty space in his heart that he'd been trying to patch up for oh so long.

no, he doesn't miss any of it. he doesn't. not at all...

klee leaves, satisfied, and kaeya quickly blinks back the burning in his eyes before turning back to diluc.

"well, master diluc, that was a quite abrupt end to our dispute. i wish we could continue, but i must be going now. paperwork and all~"

no, he doesn't have any paperwork. it's his day off. he knows that if he stays, that unbearable loneliness he feels whenever diluc is around will return

and they part ways, both longing for something they believe they can never have

#genshin impact kaeya #genshin kaeya #kaeya #kaeya alberich #kaeya angst #kaeya ragnvindr #diluc ragnvindr #diluc #diluc angst #diluc genshin impact #genshin diluc #genshin impact diluc #diluc and kaeya #genshin #klee #mihoyo ill literally sell my left arm for them to be brothers again please im begging you let them be happy :(

[spotaus]

Pt 22! (An actually sweet one!)

#utmv #oc #utmv sans #utmv oc #goldinsanity #from top to bottom: #N: WOA because she is my persona and that's one of my main Love Languages #Hap: Didn't get enough of that as a kid. really likes to assure people w/ this love language and also likes to recieve it ♡ #Mono: similarly? Recieved a lot of WOA from Cross so he reciprocates that to others in his life #Orchid: Hates to be nice/kind but loyalty is important to her (ex. helping Reset because she loves him a lot). actions louder than words etc #Shotput: Similar to Orchid. Dream is AOS so he always follows in those footsteps. His trust is hard-won but if he does things for someone #then he loves them! (it hurt when Reset stopped letting him do things for him and cut him out of the plan) #Reset: Objects hold memories and sentiment (he wears his Brother's cloak) so a gift is with him forever #Pretender: In an AU where food in scarce he gives up a lot fir the people he loves. paps in particular #Ichor: Immortal. his mortal lovers/friends never ascend so he respects their wishes and spends as much time with people as he can #Lost: After so many memories down the drain he desperately wants to spend time with others. (ex. Haphazard sticking w/ him) #Stereo: Physical Affection is a big thing for him. he doesn't have physical arms anymore so he likes to be close to people #ex. leaning on them or nudging them. if he leans on a person then they're friends

[dutybcrne]

Smth smth, Khaenriahns having similar thing to the Ackermans in AoT

#//The whole 'power that can be Awakened in times of duress' #//Exhibiting increased physical abilities; gaining the combined power of Khaenri'ahns before them via some connection to them #//I like it v much #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Also v much like the Ackerman Protectiveness™ being PART of it. It wasn't inherently in the og; I know; but IMAGINE #//In addition to getting that Awakened Power; it also lets Khaenri'ahns form a sorta Warrior's Bond w the one fighting w them in the moment #//So the trigger for it would not only be survival; but also a sense of Protectiveness over sb. Not necessarily romantic or anything #//Just a strong feeling of attachment & fealty to the one would TRUST with your very life; reflexively as breathing. Who'd do so in return #//Which would make me both laugh and cry if you consider Diluc & Kaeya #//Just #//Lil bby Kae activating the bloodline instinct during an outing gone South; & having a Crisis bc Luc's not Khaenri'ahn #//Does it even MEAN anything? Will HIS instincts go haywire bc Luc's not Khaenri'ahn? Are the gods gonna PUNISH him for it? #//For imprinting on a Teyvat-born; gods-blessed mortal? Or worse; in doing so; would Luc be damned in the process too? #//Meanwhile bby Luc the INSTANT of their oath to be sworn brothers was just. Already Like That. No Khaenri'ahn bloodline influence #//Heck; mans dramatic ass was prolly Ride or Die; from the START; then with that he had MORE incentive. The perfect fit to complement it #//Close to mutual enough until The Confrontation; then Kae's left reeling. There was nothing to sever on Luc's part; but it still Hurt Kae #//It's in his BLOOD to care abt & protect him. Prolly drive Kae mad when Luc went off to Snezhnaya & went through Hell; knowing he Caused i #//STILL resolved to help & support Luc; as per the inherent purpose of the bond; even if Luc won't want him to. What else can he do? #//The pain of Luc keeping him at arms length & aftermath of the betrayal is Nothing compared to what Kae'll feel if Luc dies; he figures #//And in Different Case; imagine Dain & Halfdan. A bond formed in the most Dire of times for Khaenri'ahns; them already having been close #//Maybe love already having budded b/w them. Only for an extreme life or death to spark it further; as their bond was Sealed #//Imagine if the mutual bond also let them sense each other's emotions; perhaps not ENTIRELY; but Just Enough to tell if they need help #//So if the other needs them; they can Tell right away. To be spurred to action and rush to their side in times of need #//With that; them Immediately sensing the difference as of That Day. The JOY in realizing the very mutual feelings they had in additon #//Feeling each other's love seeping through their bond; fond little bursts & flares felt whenever they think of each other; when they smile #//Warm feelings shared; even when they were apart. ESP then. Them hurrying to the other's side when they sense a dip or cold feeling #//Imagine how it would feel when Dan died; Dain's reeling from his own anguish & Dan's pain; Dan's grief in leaving him like this #//& the Emptiness Dain would feel; as bond b/w them would Shatter as Dan draws his final breath. A part of his heart & soul carved out #//Lmao; this all happened bc I was like 'Ey what if Khaenri'ahns were just Built Different' #//I do like this concept; gonna file it away for later

[cuteniaarts]

In another world, fate was just a little bit kinder

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #original characters #sotrl midori #sotrl haya #seeds of the red lotus #look I was feeling extremely emotional recently. and thought about how different life would be for my OCs if Haya was good #and I'm a sucker for AUs like that. it's spiritually healing. so of course I had to draw something for it #I originally wanted to draw a companion piece for suiren too but then thought it was just rehashing the idea #and I draw Suiren a lot already anyways so decided to just take the excuse to draw adorable little Midori and run with it #I have quite a few thoughts about an AU like this too. it starts out like sotrl does. haya gives them the cold shoulder and is kinda mean #but then the news of the rl's imprisonment reach gaoling. haya is shellshocked at first. distances herself and sends the girls to their room #pretends she can't hear the crying. but really she wants to cry too because as estranged as they are. ghazan is still her little brother #she indulges late that night after she think the girls are asleep. deep buried trauma from losing her parents resurfaces #but then she hears footsteps behind her. Midori is awake. haya wants to be angry at first but finds she has no energy to #they talk a little. the warm glow of candlelight catches midori's eyes and their grey shade turns gold. she looks so much like him #haya realises Midori is even younger than ghazan was when they lost their parents. suiren is half the age haya herself was #no one cared for her and ghazan back then. she won't let history repeat itself #so she reaches for midori. heart skipping a beat when she lights up slightly. and takes her into her arms #holds her close as midori hugs her back. if she closes her eyes it almost feels like she’s 14 again. holding her brother #she swears then that she’ll be as good of a guardian to these girls as she can so they don’t end up like their parents did. like haya did #it’s a long road to unlearn her bitterness but she tries her best. it’s easier with midori who soaks in affection like a sponge #Midori’s happiness is infectious. with suiren it’s much more difficult bc the prejudice Haya holds against the swamp are still there #as is the hatred for their mother. it isn’t until the townspeople start calling Suiren a swamp rat does haya snap #she no longer cares about getting alienated from the community that barely welcomed her anyway. she will defend her niece from them all #it’s the first time she calls suiren her niece. they talk too and Haya apologises for favouring Midori and starts working on fixing it #their life together isn’t perfect. the townspeople side eye them. they can’t afford bending teachers. Haya still has to bite her tongue #but it’s so much better than what could have been had Haya let her pain consume her and started to take it out on the girls. they’re happy #I have so much more to say and theorise about when it comes to this au but alas. tag limits are a thing. so I’m leaving this here

[angelsdean]

i think dean is someone who really panics when he the people he cares about aren’t in his line of sight / presence. like watching people leave (not even in the dramatic sense, like. just leaving the house / where he can see them) freaks him out. he’s gotten used to masking it really well at this point so like. no one knows but it manifests in little controlling actions and anger which obvs is annoying to other people like dean NEEDS to know where sam is going when, when he expects to be back, he NEEDS cas to check in when he’s gone for longer than a few hours and it’s yes, deeply rooted in his abandonment issues but also. extremely rooted in his fear as a child that whenever john walked out the door might be the last....like he literally was a little kid waiting anxiously and scared shitless for his dad to come back from hunts, knowing that it was very very possible he might never come back. like kid dean has bobby and pastor jim’s numbers memorized and knows that if john’s not back / doesn’t check in after three weeks (long, long after the grocery money has run out) he’s supposed to call them. anyways. yeah...so dean seeing someone walk out the door. instantly flooded with anxiety and freeze response 

#which is partly why. 'i didn't stop you i just let you go' bc like. he was frozen he was angry he was panicking !! #thinking like. oh god he's leaving oh god what if i never see him again he's leaving for good he's not gonna call he's not gonna check in !! #but yeah so like. in general tho he's really really a control freak abt knowing where ppl are #when people don't check in he gets. SO mad and most of them don't get it bc of course dean WILL NOT explain it #he doesn't even really fully understand it himself bc obvs he's never sat down and analyzed the inner workings of his mind lol #but yeah like sam especially gets so annoyed and thinks its like. a controlling older brother thing #cas doesn't get it for a long long time bc he doesn't think anyone would ever worry abt him :( #but once they get together he always always checks in! #the one time he forgets bc he got caught up chit chatting with one of the vendors at the farmers market....is catastrophic #like dean's worried out of his mind blowing up cas's phone (which died bc he was taking so many videos of jack at the petting zoo) #dean would've come to the market but he wanted to work on restoring the barn #anyways so like. yeah he's freaking out jumping to the worst case scenarios thinks something terrible's happened to cas and jack #when they finally walk thru the door at like 6pm dean starts sobbing and wraps his arms around his family like. why why didnt u call? #he's both sad relieved and a lil pissed like. obvs logically he understand once cas explains but he's still like. #channeling some of that fear into anger bc it's a hardwired habit he's still struggling to break #so there's a bit of grumping and cold shoulders while he's making dinner but then once they all sit down together he's like. i love you #got carried away w these tags whooops #dean studies #vic.txt

[miragemage]

i will know by friday if i will have a job at the YMCA. VERY excited.

#i'll be the teen center leader #at least that's what i applied for #but i'm much better at caring for small children #i've been caring for small children since i was a small child. #my mother worked for a foster care agency providing in home respite to foster parents of children with disabilities #and sometimes she would let me help her. bring the children home and show me how to care for them #helping a little one with a feeding tube. #or giving a bottle to a baby with a trache. #playing with little ones who had birth deformities and making sure they got the care they needed. #i could handle the teen center of course but i do love caring for little ones. as long as they aren't mine #when i was 17 my brother dropped his daughter in my arms and i took care of her for two years. #ANYWAY. WORKING WITH KIDS IS FUN!!!!!!!

[dejune]

donated a bunch of clothes (that are p much like new most of them were gifts from like my grandma that ive never worn but was too sentimental to get rid of but) and books i dont read anymore and somehow i still have zero closet space

#im trying to reorganize my room #but my brothers taking my old desk only the thing is #we cant fit his old desk thru his door???? like we got it in back when my half brother was here #so he and my dad were able to like... lift and tilt it to wedge it just barely thru #but me and my little brother have skinny little noodle arms so we cant do that #so im stuck w this old desk in here #and i cant build my new desk and shelf so i have all this #crap lying around taking up space on my floor bc i have no where to put it!!!! #its pissing me off #i might just move my old desk out into the front room and #let them deal w it lmao #sorry for ranting grrr im just frustrated i hate being the only woman in this house #god forbid the men do any housework that isnt. mowing the lawn like a MAN #nay nay i will simply work my twelve hour shifts to pay for my 22 yr old brother to play league all day. no ged no job NO HELP #unless i nag him fr a week straight #this post got away from me i wish i didnt live #in fl and i could afford to move out :( #🍑.txt