#like im NEVER like ''this will go well''

[inkskinned]

i couldn't really do optimism, it felt stupid to me. i am hopeful by nature, but not optimistic. optimism feels like closing my eyes. it feels like doing subtraction and calling it multiplication. it feels like the type of romantic even poets can't be.

but how are you supposed to recover without optimism? without that sense - eventually, good things will happen for me. i couldn't even type that sentence without hissing through my teeth. it feels so - sorry, holden caulfield - fucking phony.

i like cautious optimism. i like testing the ice. i have this thing where i can't really picture a "best case" scenario without knowing i'm jinxing the outcome, so instead i think - what is something i would like to happen, and how would i get there?

that's the thing i feel control over - doing something to get there. it's easier to picture myself, deer-legged and balancing; rather than having fate scoop love and virtue onto a plate and feed it to me like grapes. it's easier to picture a world that's still-pretty-bleak, but one that i am trying to be good in. one where the actions are mine to complete.

i would say i'm realistic about the world. i almost never find myself saying this is going to be amazing. i am often instead planning for the worst situation, and saying; well, as long as we're all surviving. i don't push myself towards any specific goal or dream. i am swinging from branch to branch, quietly enjoying the trees. i have never pictured that there's an end to the jungle. mostly i'm just glad i spend less and less time picturing falling.

the thing about cautious optimism is that it's also more forgiving. i don't assume i'll always have the energy to brush my teeth. optimism is buying the planner and making new friends and signing up for a thousand activities and redecorating. optimism peters out after a week. instead, i give myself the credit for just-doing-the-little-things. despite having no time for failure, i spent wednesday on the ground, staring at nothing. but while i wasn't hungry, i did make sure to eat something.

how many times have i said "recovery isn't pretty". most of the time it does feel fucking ugly. but there's this little glitter about cautious optimism - she says well, but you did try. and maybe tomorrow we can do 1 more beautiful thing. she sees me sitting on the bare floor in dirty clothes and she says you're resting. she sees me eating 3 cookies for dinner and says aren't they tasty? she tells me to view the things in my life not half-full, not half-empty. instead, she says. the glass is neither empty nor full, but at least you're drinking :)

#wait i think i just argued myself into believing im an optimist #what is it called when ur a realist but like also have too much fucking hope #like im NEVER like ''this will go well'' #im like ''it MIGHT go well but it's likely to go WORSE so let's prepare'' #and all preparations count for Glitter Points

[catmask]

its true that romance amd friendship will not solve everything but. objectively speaking its very hard to get sad when you can say 'lets go get cake tomorrow okay' and someone will go get cake with you. like there is some good at least. you know

#i think this is why ive been so much more geniunely happy these last few years #like. i will never be going to bed alone. i will always have someone who wants me here #i will always have someone to say 'im sorry im not feeling very well now' and they will be concerned instead of being annoyed #at you as if those feelings are an inconvenience #scratchpost #txt

[puppyeared]

my attempt at making a fursona

#i never see any mole furries so i thought id try my hand at it ^_^ #i was hungry making this and was thinking of dirt cup pudding so its partly inspired by that and mario grass blocks #i dont draw furries very often so this was a fun learning experience lol. also!! star nose moles are kinda cute!!!! #when i was coming up with a name my mind kept going back to that tiktok of dogs and the tts voice saying stuff like i like mulch #mulch is my favorite food! yippee mulch!! so if youre wondering where i got the name theres the lore for it #i also wanna make a sea otter fursona.. and perhaps a snowshoe hare or other winter animal. oh or a barn owl!! #im trying to free my mind when it comes to making multiple sonas bc im still trying to wrap my head around it #ive always kinda seen myself as my persona but i want to try and be silly with it. actually while i was making this i was a little doubtful #to call it my fursona bc it doesnt look like me but a little voice inside my head was like well. youre not a 5 foot tall talking mole eithe #so you might as well. and i was thinking abt ppl with their dragon wolves with wings and i was like wow.. youre right... i can do what i #want forever. and brother that shit was enlightening it was like my third eye opened when i realized that #my art #myart #my oc #oc #fursona #mulch #furry art #sfw furry #character design #oc ref sheet #reference sheet

[barghest-land]

ata tu corazón, mi amor, y arrástralo por la tierra

#this art hurts so bad #in a way i'd never be able to explain #also it just upsets me a lot because i don't like how i did it:( #idk how to make it better so i'm just gonna leave it as it is #and go to sleep good night #it was supposed to be cool and simple just like that #but in my eyes it's just missing everything and i don't know how to fix it #genuinely thought it was gonna be a good art but here i am oh well. that happens i guess #im sorry javier :(( i'll make more good art i promise #barghestland #art #artists on tumblr #rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #javier escuella

[slavhew]

charmed, i'm sure

#homestuck #hom3stuck #jake english #dirk strider #dirkjake #jakedirk #admin draws #fanart #thats what you get for shrimping bro. i told you about the shrimping #to anyone whos been around for a while you can tell im quite obviously obsessed with that pose. that specific way of hugging urself #dirk was never escaping that #i need to draw some janeroxy too it bangs sm and i need to balance out this sausage party ive had going on in my head for the last xyz #how long has it been. how many weeks since ive seen natural light. #whatever. #id keep this to post in a batch with other drawings but it did well on its own on twt so i might as well post it here as is #feel like batchposting several basically finished drawings doesnt do me much good anyways. better serves smaller sketches on the same theme #ramble ramble

[cringengl]

Do you guys ever have fandoms-in-law??? Like I'm not a part of the fandom, I've never read it/watched it, but it's so closely associated with some of my fave fandoms that when it's trending it's all over my dash even though I don't even follow the tag???

#like this is me with good omens rn #i love ofmd and wwdits but i never got round to watching good omens and now its literally everywhere and i cannot escape #im pretty sure its infiltrated my tik tok as well #does this mean i should go watch good omens??? #good omens #what we do in the shadows #wwdits #our flag means death #ofmd #fandom #fandom culture #1k+ #cntp

[bottombaron]

just me thinking abt the insidiousness of the Familiar Clinic

a place where every familiar is recommended to be put down

not because of any injury or disease

but because their vampire cared about them enough to take them there in the first place

#what we do in the shadows #wwdits #wwdits spoilers #wwdits s5 #THINK ABOUT IT #ITS NOT ABT THE FAMILIAR #ITS ABT THE VAMPIRE #'oh your familiar has a cold and you went out of your way to bring them here and wait in a waiting room with crappy magazines and sadness?' #'yeah you care too much abt this one. you've grown too attached. you're invested in its well being at the expense of your own comfort' #'the best course of action is to put them down' #have you ever been to urgent care??? its the WORST #have you ever had to take someone there #its somehow wORsErEr #like the Familiar Lore in this ep was wild they really do think so low of familiars bjt also attachment to them is so dangerous?? #just...fucking wild man #im never going to get over this episode

[sonknuxadow]

#idk im just curious because i oftne see posts that are like ''this song/artist can NOT go on this characters playlist #they would never listen to that'' #and it confuses me a little because i thought character playlists were just songs that you like that you associate with the character #not necessarily stuff you think they would listen to. like with character playlists i just pick stuff with lyrics that describe them #regardless of whether they would actually like that song or not #when it comes to songs associated with ocs specifically though i tend to go for a mix of all 3 of these #but again. mostly vibes and story #Also what i mean by vibes is like maybe the style of music sounds like something that would be associated with them #but the lyrics dont really fit them all that much. does that make sense #i probably could have worded it better but oh well. cant edit polls

[kaogens]

have u guys seen that one movie…… i think it was called vash’s moving castle or something

bonus too bc i thought sophie would rock meryls outfit so well And i was right .

#trigun #trigun fanart #vash the stampede #meryl stryfe #vashmeryl #i saw a single clip of howl on twt yesterday next thing i knew these were on my screen #i never finished 2 drawings that fast in my life like #MY HAND HURTS #vash pendragon goes hard actually im gonna pretend thats his last name now #howl the stampede…… #like im going insane it works so well … THE BLONDE HAIR TO DARK HAIR GUYSSS!!!! THE WINGS!!!!!

[vanlegion]

#RVB #rvb #Red vs Blue #dexter grif #Epsilon church #a pinch of salt #But srsly just a joke meme #S19 looks like it's gonna be badass with all those sexy animations #but im still a tiny bit bitter we are gonna lose seasons15-17(18) #it just doesnt make sense to me #so many real moments #and not just with my two favs but with others as well #Red Team never gets nice things like Plot Advancement #i have an idea for an art piece and i need to get it out asap #my biggest hope is perhaps whatever happens doesn't happen right away. . . and after they win the fight they still party #like a calm before the shitstorm #they win #they party #then maybe everyone leave chorus? #THEN things go sideways? #Dunno... but we'll see soon enough #PS Yes I know Donut was also like the Duotagonist for 15-17 #which again #Red Team Problems ; u ;

[rexwrendraws]

the circus is coming to town, and what a selection of curiosities it has... 🎪

As soon as I saw the posters @amielot drew for the circus in their Horse Girl AU, I knew I had to try my hand at coloring them in! This AU has stolen my entire heart— if you haven't looked through the AU comics yet, DO THAT RIGHT NOW!! THEY'RE EXCELLENT!!

This poster is my colors on @amielot 's drawing, using @aquabluejay 's summoning circle asset in the background :) Insp under the cut—

Colors and textures were greatly inspired by painted circus/carnival posters, especially this one:

#the sandman #morpheus #dream of the endless #horse girl au #dc #okay im going to tag this as— #rex draws #— but i cannot emphasize enough: I ONLY DID THE COLORS!!!! #THE DRAWING & DESIGN IS ALL AMIELOT!! OFC OFC #i started this in like. sept 😭 got too busy and only just cleaned it up. also started on an absolutely tiny tiny canvas #so even though the dpi is like. 350 or smth.. its a bit fuzzy oops. but it adds to the vibe!! yeah. #ANYWAY THIS IS SO FUN CHECK OUT THIS AU AND THE COMICS AND ALL THE FUNN DRAWINGS #ITS SO COOL AND WELL COMPOSED #ABSOLUTELY ICONIC NEVER DONE BEFORE STUNNING #centaur dream AU

[wyrmswears]

i finished aai2 (one of these is not like the others)

#you can tell how inconsistent my style is just from this.. anyway ive been learning how to draw sebastian #sebastian debeste #athena cykes #ace attorney #aai2 #you see i just cant not draw athena.. #i think sebastians like my second favourite character now. the brainrots bad #never my number one though i am an athena stan through and through #speaking of: i sometime see athena characterisations that just make me sit and go wow u never played dual destinies did u. or maybe im autis #aai2 spoilers #uhm just for sebbys edgy ass sprite (its so funny sorry i know its meant to be serious but its such a funny sprite i love him) #his hair is really difficult to draw???? how do u guys do it #shoutout to my one follower with the sebastian pfp though i understand you so well now. we are cosmically linked (sebastian fans) #i did take my adhd meds today i promise #wyrm draws #ace attorney fanart #aa

[sinnabee]

INGREDIENTS:

2 cups evil boredom

3 teaspoons (heaping) blorbo poison (powder, not liquid)

1 daycare theme (10 hour loop)

1/3 cup brainrot

*1/2 cup distilled back pain

**(un)diagnosed mental illness

*(any kind of pain works, back pain is usually what i have on hand)

**(if you aren’t a fan of the flavor a diagnosis leaves, undiagnosed will work in a pinch! Personally, I like to add a bit of both.)

INSTRUCTIONS:

First, turn on the daycare theme (10 hour loop) and pre-heat the oven to 375 degrees.

Sift together your evil boredom and blorbo poison in a medium sized bowl.

Add in your pain of choice and mix well.

Once thoroughly mixed, it should be looking a little thicker. Some granules from the evil boredom and blorbo poison are fine. (You can always mix further, if you’re worried about it affecting the texture.)

Add your brainrot and beat with a whisk until it’s looking lighter, a little fluffy. (If you aren’t in the mood for fluff, a dash of angst or hurt/comfort can help tone it down. An AU if you really wanna spice it up.)

Realize this is turning out a lot better than you thought it would. Dang. Well, you’re certainly committed now.

Go ahead and get out a glass baking pan. Coat the bottom with non-stick spray. (I tend to favor Y/N brand Nonbinary Spray myself)

Using a baking spatula (one of the rubbery bendy ones), carefully move your mixture from the bowl to the pan. It’s alright if you get some on the sides, the heat should help it settle once it’s in the oven. To get out any air bubbles, tap the pan (carefully!) a few times on the counter.

Place the pan in the oven and set a timer for 15-25 minutes, or take a peek every now and then and see if it’s the right shade of cheerful.

Congratulations!!! You’ve successfully survived evil boredom, despite the hurdles you faced, and made something! (Pretty tasty too, if I might add.) You are still mentally ill, though. But - hey - now you have a little treat! And hopefully, your day’s just a little bit brighter! Enjoy!

#fnaf sb #fnaf sun #fnaf #fnaf dca #fnaf fanart #funky little jester boys #my art #i had WAY to much fun writing the recipe ahshsjskdk #im in a silly goofy mood (now that my evil boredom is a bit more under control) #anyway i hope y’all like him #he was made with love <3 #god. im never gonna draw him this well again am i #challenge for myself i guess!!! #sketchbook #i should draw in my sketchbook more often like dang #the loop is still going btw #it really does just. settle my brain #kinda fucked up tbh. idk how this isn’t annoying me yet but it’s just enough bg noise

[naturecalls111]

Me, consuming any other media ever: how can I make this about zosan

#nc111 talks #zosan #this is about me playing fe3h for the eighteen billionth time and finding little delusional concepts in sylvix that makes me go #'nod nod nod that's so zosan of them so true' #like objectively it really isn't zosan of them at all but sometimes I see it between the lines and I'm like oh zosan sunglasses emoji #if you dare me i can even find the lawlu in sylvix im so talented #I'm not even kidding if someone made a game out of turning things into zosan i would never lose #i had an ant infestation in my bathroom the other day and I made it about zosan #my brother was like WE HAVE BIGGER ISSUES THAN YOUR YAOI RIGHT NOW #like........ there is no bigger issue than my yaoi at any given moment.....ever.......... #whispers although I have to admit I enjoy the sylvix dynamic more than i do the zosa- *gets shot* #im so sorry there's just only so much bickering i can take before i'm like *smacks ship* I NEED YOU TO BE MORE BLATANTLY KIND TO EACH OTHER #In a way that doesn't feel so teeth-gritty or. well. OOC. LOL #Anyone who likes sylvix AND zosan will know what i mean I'm not going to explain it. iykyk #WAIT LMAO IM NOT DONE. EDIT: #when my first boyfriend broke up with me i was a melodramatic little shit about it #had a diary that i would like pour my heart into and the other day i came across it #and it's really telling that my first thought was “omg.... so zosan-” LIKE GIRL GET A GRIP YOU ARE DETACHING FROM REALITY #all for zosan CRIES ALL FOR ZOSAN...

[moonverc3x]

(gosh I hope that comic is at least readable- Ignore all the inconsistencies, I've never drawn and colored a comic before 😭) Anyways- meet the heroes of yore! sort of... you get to know what they look like at least!

Im finally getting around to publicly sharing some tidbits of lore with yall! Originally the "heroes of yore" spiel Galacta reads was going to be just text but I thought people would probably like it a little better if there was a comic to accompany it!

and im. not sure how to end this post?? I suppose I can say that Meta and Galacta Knight are open for asks!!! Im hoping I can keep the energy to keep this thing going, but only time will tell!

#Figuring out how to make pretty looking comics is going to be one hell of a learning curve for me!! #Im good at putting a character into an environment and rendering it well but when It comes to comics I have to tone down the rendering #otherwise I will spend fifteen zillion years on it and then never actually finish the comic itself #also if it wasnt already GLARINGLY obvious I. cant.. color backgrounds. like. at all #Meta Knight #Galacta Knight #JAU #JAU Meta Knight #JAU Galacta Knight #Kirby oc #Verc3x art #J #GSA J #Edith #Cassius #swallow tailed galacta knight #< I think thats the tag I should use?? #also I should PROBABLY clarify that by “Standard” Meta means the universal language #like. becuase different planets have different native languages Standard is the universal language that almost all folks learn as a #secondary language #my ocs

[koddlet]

taipril day 5!!! SURPRISE she's not just in the void... there's a floating table too. kofi request for @sapphicscience

#the mug is based on one i really liked when i was with a host family.... i miss it #this one was fun to draw actually Maybe i should start doing little environments... instead of THE VOID #well she is still in the void but like there's STUFF! never seen before on this blog!!! #taissa turner #yellowjackets #yellowjackets fanart #taipril #digital art #im going to be honest i forget if she Did go to howard in the end and didn't check. this will be embarrassing if not #but it thats the case through the power of imagination..