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personinthepalace · 5 months

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Secret Police Song - Spy x Family Musical

this song shouldn't be as catchy as it is 😆

#yuri briar #tsubasa takizawa #spy x family #spy x family musical #sxf musical #sxf #sss song #secret police song #sxf musical video #sxf musical song #spy x family musical video #this song is one of my favorites from the musical haha #literally been listening to it on loop #the dance moves!!#also the actor playing yuri is SO good!!!

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doctorsiren · 10 months

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“Was that all there was to this? What’s for the best?”

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adhdtsukasa · 29 days

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i can't believe they made an unit out of the yuri jesus, yaoi jesus, aroace jesus and THE hatsune miku herself... literally peak

#aroace jesus is tsukasa btw.#yes i will push my aroace tsukasa agenda everywhere. you WILL listen #no but literally colopale was so smart for this #i've been looping their booo cover for hours now it's my fav thing ever #ri says things the tag #project sekai #pjsk #prsk #tsukasa tenma #minori hanasato #toya aoyagi #why am i even tagging this this is not even an important post #for you i mean. because this is everything for me #i need to spread the agenda probably

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synthshenanigans · 4 months

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Finally has been a full year since I started listening

Fuckin hate that guy eugh

#/j #but anyway I've finally been jashing for a year #i wasn't fully kidnapped into it yet but by like dec 20th-23rd i had his VoaC cover on loop #which was annoying to do cos there was no spotify & the youtube app wouldn't let me loop videos #so everytime i finished the song i had to reset the vid myself #my sanity was truly saved by these songs being on Spotify #same goes for his moss cover too #bro of i had last.fm then i would have SO much more counts for those two songs #the bidding too #oh fun fact. i made a very rough sketch of an OC of mine using his TME video & HMS ideas in general #but i was stupid apparently an swapped heart & souls colors which looks cursed now to me #also whats funny is that ibis paint says i started the art on Mar 1st. Which is literally the day before TfaR & TMR an the rest came out #good timing me lol #i need to stop ranting sm in these tags i swear #chonny jash #moss post #hey jash what if you like. post the next power hour today. gift for listening for like 82000 minutes or whatever my Spotify wrapped was /j #don't actually i wanna sleep #speaking of. I should go do that. its like 3am rn

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mattodore · 8 months

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Did Matthias do anything illegal in his life? What I mean is morally unacceptable behavior that hurts people. If so, why did he do that?

I mean, has he killed someone? Has he beat someone up? How many times has he done it or has it only been occasionally? Do people find him rude? Should people be afraid of him?

I’ve said this about Matthias before, but he’s someone who’s had violent thoughts and urges ever since he was a child. I do think there’s a possible genetic factor at play there, but I also believe that the way he grew up left something chasmic in its wake, this gouge in his chest that he’s been clawing at ever since. Matthias was severely neglected as a child and his development was… slanted, for lack of a better word. There’s something warped in his head, you know? He’s a product of his upbringing.

To give you a picture of Matthias’s childhood, I want to make it clear that he never had any toys. His nursery was nothing more than a crib in a room. No bright colored walls, no alphabet blocks, no pop-up books. He didn’t play, or… not like most children, at least—not how you’d normally picture a child playing. His childhood was spent alone despite the sheer number of staff on the grounds of the estate. If Matthias reached for a hand or wanted comfort from a nanny or another member of the staff, he’d be pushed away. There was no emotional or physical warmth in the Evanoff household and a harsh line had been drawn between Matthias and everyone around him, including his parents, who he saw no more than a handful of times when he was young. What little socialization Matthias had was… well, it was nothing more than giving orders to attendants or having discussions with his tutors about the subjects he was studying. The staff were forbidden from interacting with Matthias more than was strictly necessary and the effect that had on him can’t be understated.

You can see, then, these early building blocks for cruelty being laid out. As a precocious child whose only real social connection with others was formed through analysis and study, it only made sense that Matthias found himself reaching for the books in his father’s library whenever he could, and through that those very same blocks began to stack. Play for Matthias was deconstructing humanity through history, through fiction, parsing through dense text in the ever-present child’s curiosity: but why? And Matthias’s father was an excessively cruel and frighteningly violent man, so his taste in literature certainly reflected that. This is also what I mean when I say there’s a genetic factor at play with some of Matthias’s impulses. Some of it’s inherited. In a way, he gets this from his mother’s side, too, although she’s a different kind of violent… a hands-off kind. I mean, that violence is how Matthias wound up being tortured for three years while trapped in a “therapeutic” reform school. It’s just as cruel, but it pretends to be righteous. So there’s this snapping violence and this opportunistic kind.

I’m saying all of this because I think it gives context to how much control Matthias exhibits over himself and his violent urges now as an adult. Sure, when he was younger he would react, he’d deride and break and hurt, but he doesn’t do that anymore. It’s not that he feels guilt over the impulses he has—there’s no shame there at all, really. To him, it’s just in his nature to get these flashes, these sudden images of brutality. They’ve been there all his life, you know? It’s normal to him. The only reason he doesn’t act on them is because he had impulse control beaten into him at the reform school and because he’s learned that the social contract is something that he can use to his advantage to get whatever it is he wants. He charms and obfuscates now. In that same vein, it’s not often that people find him to be rude, because he keeps his disdainful and unsavory thoughts to himself. You’d have to be someone who’s incredibly perceptive in order to see through Matthias… which just so happens to be Theo to a T.

So what I mean by this is that now when Matthias does actually act on these thoughts, these urges that dig at his brain, there’s normally a catalyst to them—this trigger that sends fire all through the synapses in his body. Matthias is incredibly loyal to Imani and Theo and he’s someone who’s very protective of them. Throughout his early teen years, back when he and Imani went to the same boarding school, he was constantly shielding Imani from the brunt of the corporal punishment that came with the turf. At that age he was volatile and would even hit back at times, but he knew that would land him in solitude and separated from Imani for days on end, which he just couldn’t have—not if he wanted to make sure nobody hurt her. He learned restraint for Imani’s sake then, but it wasn’t until he was trapped in the reform school that that restraint was fully drilled into him as a result of psychological torture and abuse.

He’s quick to offer a slicing comment, to give a chilling smile, to go eerily still and intimidate with his stare alone, but now as an adult he doesn’t often get physical unless provoked. He keeps it in and he holds himself back, this taut tension in his jaw only there for a moment before the mask submerges him again and holds his head under water. It’s really only when Theo’s involved that Matthias just… God, he really just can’t help himself. The cracks widen and he gets physical. It’s vicious. He has all this strength now, this imagination that only ever comes alive when he’s thinking of this, and he’s had years of experience in actual brawls that were just horrible—he’s been ganged up on, hit with metal chairs, humiliated and jeered at while bleeding everywhere, ripped out of bed and kicked until his ribs broke… It's safe to say that he takes pain like it means nothing to him now. So he swallows the blood he tastes when a hit lands and just plows through like it’s the only thing he knows how to do, like it’s programmed in him. It’s animalistic. It’s vengeful. It’s rapturous.

Like I said, seeing harm come to the only people Matthias loves has a disastrous effect on his self-control. Imani’s in a better place now that she’s an adult, but Theo… well, Theo’s been hurt by a lot of people—his parents, faces at clubs, ghosts from his past… too many instances to even begin getting into each of them. And Matthias has to unravel red yarn before a board and string together all of these physical reactions Theo has around some people, has to tilt his head as he replays the tapes and rewinds through remarks Theo’s made that felt off even before Matthias knew there was something going on there. Theo doesn’t talk about his hurt, doesn’t talk about anything that could make him weak, that exposes the nasty underbelly of his private life, so it’s up to Matthias to pick up on what’s been left unspoken. The specifics may not be there, but it’s enough to see Theo flinch at the sound of his own name being called, to watch him freeze up when a hand raises too fast, to track Theo as he checks the locks once, twice, three times in a row before he moves away. Matthias notices it all and he’s an eye for an eye kind of man. He can’t even help himself there, has no restraint when it comes to Theo, so… he handles it.

The furthest Matthias has ever gone, the worst he’s ever injured somebody, was when he nearly killed someone from Theo’s old summer boarding school. Theo managed to stop him, but only by a hair’s breadth. Matthias could have gone to prison for that one, he easily could’ve, but… there were circumstances and, when it comes down to it, Matthias is obscenely wealthy. In the end, he got off scot-free from attempted murder while the other party was hospitalized. He handled the rest without physical violence, though he certainly wanted to finish what he started. But, at the end of the day, Theo comes first, always.

He’s certainly engaged in far more illegal and immoral activities (his little blackmail moment was a personal favorite of mine), but physically he’s never gone so far as murder (though he’s not opposed…) and while he’s definitely lost control and grievously injured some people, I’d say he’s only ever hospitalized a handful. He keeps himself in check… most of the time, at least. He honestly doesn’t fly off the handle for no reason. If you keep your hands to yourself and watch your mouth then you don’t have to be afraid of him in that way. Still, it’s better to just keep your distance. He has too much fun pulling strings.

#IT WAS THE WAY THE IMAGE WAS CROPPED THAT WAS MAKING IT NOT SHOW UP... LITERALLY WHATTTT? WHATEVER IT'S BEEN CROPPED NOW SO. POST. PLEASE.#river dipping #asks #anonymous #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #echthroi #oc extras #ts4 #cw child abuse mention #cw blood #spent a bit editing this screenshot look at the blood i'm kicking my feet and twirling my hair <3 #while editing this i listened to animal impulses by iamx on a loop it's one of matthias's latest additions to his playlist and woof #''no civilizing hides our animal impulses'' fits him so well. this and bring me back a dog... iamx understands matthias more than anyone #but okay. laying down on the floor forever after finally finishing writing all of this...#i kept deleting everything i would write and starting over like i was going through it with this one #i ended up deciding not to really get into it with the specifics irt the theo stuff #idk i'm conflicted abt it i don't really wanna say anything for sure until i finally make the decision and feel like i can talk abt it #with like... a full grasp of it all? but to that anon from a few months back who asked abt theo's pinterest board: that's who.#................................anyway hello <3 #i was gone for over a week and you may be thinking wow river you must be really far in that game you've been playing about gates #or maybe you thought i've been spending all my time trying to write this reply but ach nae.........................#i've just been reading obsessively like literally reading 24/7 doing almost nothing else #[ayo edebiri voice] i have No. Hobbies. Other Than This.#also my activity feed has been staring at me and i've been staring right back at it since i logged in to post this kjnkgjnh #i need to catch up on some things too i rlly do but you see the draw of reading another epub............ she's a strong temptress #hope you've all been well <3 my avpd is still fighting me but whatever i'm used to it kjngfkjnfh

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frick-yes-dragons · 6 months

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CAN'T BELIEVE GABRIEL SAID HE SERVES THE COCK IN THE INTRO WTFFFF

#HOW DID THEY GET AWAY WITH THAT AND ALSO WHY #miraculous ladybug #mlb #miraculous world #miraculous paris special #gabriel agreste #they could have said ANYTHING else #it doesn't even rhyme nothing in his intro rhymes it's a terrible intro #and it's probably just translated a bit too literally from the french but HOW #miraculous #if anyone heard him say something else let me know but I've been listening to it on loop for like an hour and can't find another explanatio

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goldenhypen · 27 days

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i tried. i rlly rlly tried to hold it back but,,,, GUYS IM IN LOVE WITH BEOMGYU 😭😭😭😭😭😭😫😫😭🥹🥹😭🥲🥲😆🫠🫠🤭😭🙄😭😭😭

#SHOW THIS TO JAKE IDC ANYMORE I CANT TAKR OT #IVE BEEN HOLDING IT IN FOR TOO LONG #I CANT TWKE IT ANYMORE #IM GOING FERAL #i never stopped loving him 🥺#beomgyu is like the ex you never moved on from while jake is the current guy you’re with and it’s so ZkdskndJJjdjs #dk if you can tell but i have a rlly hard time moving on 🫠🫠#stream deja vu guys #cuz i’ll be busy streaming quarter life 🥲🥲🥹😭😭😭🥹😭🥲🥲#also this video is for me to play on loop cuz this is literally beomgyu’s best line in all of existence #BIGHIT NEEDS TO GIVE HIM MORE LINES SO MORE PPL CAN LISTEN AND APPRECIATE HIS BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS JAW DROPPING HEAVENLY VOICE #also yes ik hyuka is in the rest of the audio too ok i just couldn’t cut it off there 😭#this song is too good T-T #choi beomgyu is too good T-T #em speaks #not enhypen

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sea-jello · 9 months

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me im girls

#HIS VOICE IS SO NICE I LITERALLY CANT GET OVER IT #ESPECIALLY IN THAT LINE COME OOON #honestly gtikbi is in my top couple bmc songs its so fun #not usually one for romance but its just such a good song #every time i watch gtikbi animatics i sit there smiling like a fucking idiot #mr joe iconis says will connollys voice kills him on the album i say YES IT DOES ❗❗❗☝☝☝#this is now a will connolly fan account idc #ive been looping cecily smith lately and the og cecily smith is so fun its bouncy and celebratory its so awesome #you guys should listen to the original cecily smith #i want to learn cecily smith so bad my friend has a ukulele i can do it #i have zero uke experience but i will do my best #bmc #be more chill #bmc musical #be more chill musical #jeremy heere #bmc jeremy #jeremy bmc #will connolly

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halfbit · 9 months

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god fixating on a song when you can't actually apply it to your wips is a special kind of hell

#im just looping it with an animation playing in my head but the lyrics are too specific and targetted about irl politics and events for me #to translate it to my ocs #but MAN its ROTATING #its been the only song ive been listening to at work all day #chamillionaire - the evening news btw #the animation im seeing is so good even though theyre literally just. anime stylized u.s. presidents and #chamillionaire presenting all this shit as a news anchor #its so vivid im having a great time but i wish i could be rotating my ocs instead of irl politics help

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sunjoys · 3 months

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the acoustic version of l'assassymphonie goes so hard im going nuts

#mozart l'opera rock #to be.txt #i ripped the cds onto my laptop and havent looked back since like the cd versions have been on loop #my receiptify looks so crazy (inaccurate) bc ive literally just been listening to “local files”

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dani-the-goblin · 4 months

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#i already posted this in my personal group chat but the only person who's responded so far is my sibling #and I'd really like to hear from someone outside of “people who benefit from telling me nice things”#because yeah its probably still true but my brain won't listen #anyway #I'm probably (definitely) spending too much time on the Internet and suffering from some crazy depression #but regardless #I'm feeling like shit about my writing and it's created a negative motivation loop #I keep seeing people churn out work that's 5 to 10x longer than what I post #Some people I'm seeing do that daily #and I can barely post one or two things a month.#It's been making me feel like shit that I just can't seem to do that.#I know part of it just isn't my style #and I usually love that my work is easier to read #but i thought that would get me more engagement and i guess I was wrong #plus when all you see is negative feedback on *literally that style* and getting no positive feedback at all #it's a real fucking killer.

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senholiday · 6 months

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keeping a running tally of all the ofmd parallels from the first season because it has a vice grip on my brain but i have neither the time nor the know-how to make gifs of them all: stede almost losing his nose to jackie versus ricky actually losing his nose to jackie "did you mean to do that?" stabbing versus headbutt "close the door" olu and jim in bed to lucius versus olu and jim and archie in bed to stede "i was, i was" mary to stede on killing versus ed to everyone on destroying the ship/them all in the storm "you wear fine things well" under the moonlight, 2x, in reverse "never left ;)" versus "i'll never leave you" ed at stede's bedside after he almost died, stede at ed's bed?side after he almost died "do you ever feel like you're just treading water, waiting to drown?" versus ed and stede treading water together ed diving into the water towards stede from the dinghy versus stede jumping from zheng's ship towards ed on the revenge sandwich for the trip, roach to izzy versus ed "fuck off, nature" ed's violence towards plants rears its head again lucius getting thrown off the ship by ed and vice versa people whittling things for lucius

#if you have more that i'm missing please add on #i haven't watched the more recent two episodes yet so i will hopefully find more there too #listen i'm working on a THIRD flash sheet for this fucking show my brain is laser focused #and i love a parallel #ofmd #text #ofmd spoilers #oh there's also izzy touching ed's face and ed slapping it away #and izzy taking the cigarette and then giving it back to lucius and lucius slapping his hand away #oh also frenchie saying “bottle it up” as the thing to do in the first season #versus frenchie literally explaining his method of bottling it up #i dunno if either of those are quite parallels so i didn't include them #also this isn't a parallel #but roach's “stupid name for a person” has been looping in my head since i saw it the first time....i love him so much

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alfalfaguy · 7 months

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