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ticklish-n-stuff · 2 years

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(*･ω･)ﾉ hello! I was wondering if I could request lee Leo Need Kaito and ler Leo Need Len? I don’t have anything specific in mind but maybe teasing

Tickletober day 21: Teasing

Short comic by @anonyamogus (LOOK AT IT!!!)

OMG YES! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY MY WHOLE LIFE!

Lol but fr I've been wanting to write for L/N Kaito for a while so this is perfect~!

Anyone who requests Kaito is automatically my friend, now you're stuck with me forever/j :3

Btw, idk what L/N Len's personality is like so sorry if this isn't accurate. But I hope you enjoy it nonetheless! :D

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Kaito x Len L/N sekai (platonic)

Lee: Kaito

Ler: Len

Warning: Tickles!

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Len was skipping through the hallways of the school sekai when he suddenly stopped in front of one of the classrooms. The rhythmic tune of a guitar echoed from the inside, he peaked his head in only to find Kaito practicing all by his lonesome. He went inside to get a closer look, maybe they could practice together. Although Kaito seemed to be sucked in his own little world as he didn't even acknowledge Len's presence.

"Hey, Kaito!" Len tried calling out to him but the blue haired vocaloid was too focused on his music to notice. "Oi, Kaito!!" the blonde gripped his hands onto Kaito's sides as he lightly shook him to get his attention, what he wasn't expecting was the ear-shattering shriek that came out of him.

"EEK!!" Kaito almost dropped his guitar as his cheeks quickly turned cherry red. He whipped his head over at Len, both silently starring at each other for a moment before Len spoke up again.

"What was that??" the smaller of the two asked in pure confusion.

"I-It was nothing..." Kaito tried adverting his gaze, his blush only growing stronger, but of course Len wasn't convinced.

"So you're telling me that this..." he gave Kaito's sides another squeeze, earning another shriek "is nothing??". Kaito only looked at him in fear as a teasy grin made it's way onto Len's lips...

How did Kaito get into this situation? One moment he was practicing his guitar calmly and now he was on the ground with a teasy Len on top of him tickling him to pieces.

"Why didn't you tell me that you're ticklish?! It's so cute~!" said the blonde as he scribbled all over the blue vocaloid's stomach.

"N-noho it's naHAHAT!!" poor Kaito would squeal and thrash around at each ticklish touch, and the teasing just made it ten times worse for him.

"But just look at that smile! You should really smile more, it suits you~" Len walked his fingers up Kaito's sides, enjoying the softer snickers that came out of the latter.

"Pfft! Ehehehehe!" Kaito instantly went to cover his flushed face behind his hands at the comment.

"Eyy, don't hide from mehe!" Len giggled along as he tried to pry Kaito's hands away from his face, but he was just oh so stubborn. The blonde then got the grand idea of tickling under his arms and as he expected it did the trick.

"GYAH! WAHAHAIT! NAHAHAT THEHEHERE!" Kaito squealed in laughter as his arms came crashing down. His fully red face and teary eyes in full display. And who could forget that smile that was more blinding than any star.

Len smiled in victory as he kept tormenting the overly ticklish spot "Wow, look at how ticklish you are here! You might be more ticklish than Rin~".

"ST-STAHAHAP SAHAHAYING THAHAT!!".

"Saying what? Ticklish~?" Len chuckled when a flustered squeal came out of Kaito. Who knew it would be so much fun to tease the poor blue vocaloid.

Kaito though that he was a goner, but his saving grace soon walked through the door.

"Is Kaito-san here-" it was none other than Ichika, who stopped dead in her tracks at the scene in front of her. The three of them just starred at each other for a while in silence until Ichika cleared her throat. "I didn't know Kaito-san could sound so loud" she said with a smile of her own before walking away, leaving the boys alone once more.

"That was embarrassing..." Kaito whined out as he once again covered his red face.

"Awe don't be like that" Len gave him a final poke to his tummy before getting off of him, earning a cute squeak "I think your laugh is pretty adorable~" the blonde smiled down at him before walking away, leaving a panting, flustered Kaito dead on the floor.

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I feel like this fic is all over the place, but I hope you still like it :3

Lee Kaito supremacy!!!

#project sekai #colorful stage #tickle fic #project sekai tickle #project sekai tickle fic #colorful stage tickle #colorful stage tickle fic #kaito vocaloid #len kagamine #lee!kaito #ler!len #tickletober 2022

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sukirichi · 3 years

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sukirichi’s 2.4k milestone event

weee another milestone and nooo i couldn’t wait for 2.5k because i’m so excited and happy, thank you so much! ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ including HAIKYUU this time around yeeeee! also i don’t have a restaurant aesthetic anymore, just kind of goofing around now! REQUESTS ARE OPEN.

before you request...

please read about my writings first! it will include the stuff i write and don’t write about. i’m more flexible in nsfw works, so if you really want to try for a kink, just send me in and if the idea is up to my liking, we’ll see how it goes!

please be patient and nice! if i don’t like the tone of your request or if you’re ‘demanding’ me, aka, “hey, write this for me, this concept...” your ask will immediately be deleted!

no requesting of the same idea to other writers please!

please keep in mind i don’t do too much canon-heavy plots, aka really specific canon events and how they lead up to one another. i don’t read the manga for both jjk and haikyuu ʕっ• ᴥ • ʔっ

I do not do headcanons anymore. I’m not good at them LMAO.

i feel a lot more laid back in my writings now, so i’ll only be taking requests that i want to write for! the accepted requests will be listed down below as i organize them

you may refer to my first milestone event if you want more ideas for AU requests! you no longer need to include the numbers/spices/ingredients format used in that. just send whatever idea you want ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ

I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL YOU. whichever idea i love the MOST will be turned into a series just because I want to try new things hehe!

— characters i can write anything for (nsfw & sfw)

: gojo satoru, fushiguro megumi, fushiguro toji, choso, ryoumen sukuna, nanami kento

: suna rintarou, kageyama tobio, tsukishima kei, miya twins, kita shinsuke, oikawa tooru, ushijima wakatoshi, bokuto koutarou, akaashi keiji, tetsuro kuroo

— characters i can only write sfw for

: itadori yuuji, inumaki toge, okkotsu yuuta

: kenma kozume

— characters i’m MOST eager to write simp for

: fushiguro megumi, choso, naoya zenin, ryoumen sukuna, gojo satoru

: suna rintarou, kageyama tobio, kita shinsuke, oikawa tooru, akaashi keiji

accepted requests: (only accepting the ones that interest me for now!)

favorites marked as ⭐

RYOUMEN SUKUNA: hello love!! i know it LITERALLY just came out but would you consider a pt 2 or a drabble for sweet lies? where megumi either catches her and sukuna or she genuinely starts moving on uasdfghj i'm convinced that megumi heard her fucking sukuna in the bathroom <3 anyways pls feel free to ignore me too

RYOUMEN SUKUNA: Ma’am , i beg of u ,,, spare husband! sukuna x wife! reader drabble. I just read your arranged marriage AU and lordddd i’m obsessed. How long did it take for him to take her virginity 😳? i’m so curious as to how that went down read here: black magic [02]

⭐⭐ RYOUMEN SUKUNA: Yooooo how about Rockstar Sukuna seducing his manager ehehehehe~

⭐ RYOUMEN SUKUNA: Ok but... pirate captain Sukuna 👀👀👀 I’m havin some Thots ngl 🥵🤤 I can’t decide whether reader should be the first mate and they’re a kickass Power Couple 💪😎or if she should be a stowaway who gets found out and has to pay for her passage with her body 😩😉

OKKOTSU YUTA: We both be weak for yuuta and toge😩 congrats 2.4k btw. so i'll request that for the event! poly!yuuta and toge. i see that you only write sfw for them so fluff. u can think of anything you want for it..and yes we simp for both of them i love them sm🤧

⭐ OKKOTSU YUTA: Hi saw that your request are open and congrats for the 2.4k !! 🎊 if possible can i please request yuuta having a girlfriend that's his childhood friend? (So like instead of rika it's y/n and she doesn't die) that loves to dote on him cause that boy needs some love. Thank you!! <3 | kiss me more

⭐ OKKOTSU YUTA: Hi can i request a scenario in which inumaki and okkotsu gets hit with a curse(?) That makes them a clone but the clone is a kid and seeing their gf taking care of the baby please thank youuu

INUMAKI TOGE: Toge's S/O being so sad that even when he says "smile" it doesn't work( also saw that in TikTok)

⭐ INUMAKI TOGE: Hi can i request a scenario in which inumaki and okkotsu gets hit with a curse(?) That makes them a clone but the clone is a kid and seeing their gf taking care of the baby please thank youuu

INUMAKI TOGE: We both be weak for yuuta and toge😩 congrats 2.4k btw. so i'll request that for the event! poly!yuuta and toge. i see that you only write sfw for them so fluff. u can think of anything you want for it..and yes we simp for both of them i love them sm🤧

⭐ INUMAKI TOGE: Hi! Congrats on 2.4k!!🤩 For the event, may I request an au where reader is Yuuta's sister? Can be gn/fem reader anything is fine. And they fall in love with Toge? Fluff fluff fluff please🥺Maybe they meet one day when she went to visit the school? Or she's a new sorcerer. Aahhhh I can't think of anything so I'll leave it up to your wonderful mind😌 Thank you! And again congrats! | crush

INUMAKI TOGE: SUKI OMG SIREN AU WITH TOGE AND DEAF READERHis voice hypnotizes all who hear it but she’s unaffected and he’s shook lmao 😂 She teaches him human sign language so they can communicate 🥺 maybe when he realizes he likes her he brings her seashells and other shiny things from the sea floor and it’s so cute 🥰 just 🥺🥺 siren Toge 🥺🥺🥺 (DEBATING)

GOJO SATORU: Hello dear Suki! 🤗 congrats on your more than deserved milestone 👏🏼🥳 I know it’s not the restaurant aesthetic anymore but still, thank you for being a Michelin-star chef spoiling the fandom with your food 🤤👀 I’d love to request the following: ingredient 66 with sugar 8 & 9 and Gojou as cherry on top 🥰 some heavy angst with a happy / smutty ending. additional 🍪 for inspiration - „Best friends don’t look at each other the way you look at her. You never know what will happen, tomorrow might be too late“. Have a lovely day dear 💕

GOJO SATORU: Congrats on 2.4K!!!! May I please request a fic where the reader has like. Zero reaction to Gojo? And he’s kinda shook bc people either adore him or hate him, but here’s reader acting like he’s just a normal dude. And he starts falling for her bc he’s never experienced that before

⭐ GOJO SATORU: a reader that likes Gojo but immediately says N O P E bc they clock that he’s at risk of breaking their heart so they just try to avoid getting close to him despite being a teacher stuck with him a lot of the time. And Gojo is just like ??? But I like you??? Why are you always avoiding me? “I’m tired of you acting like I can’t commit to something. Committing to you is easy.”

⭐ GOJO SATORU: ♡Soft nsfw scenario with s/o and gojo while outside is snowing read here: cold

⭐ GOJO SATORU: Ohoho~ another milestone! Congrats~Can I get Vampire!Satoru x Monster Hunter!Reader where he “proves” to her that all of his victims came willingly(I think from the AU choice you’ll know exactly who I am lol 😉)

⭐ GOJO SATORU: hello! first and foremost, congratulations on reaching 2.4k! i love your writing and its just oh my goodness <3 your stories made my heart squeezed! second of all, i'd like to propose a request for a story. fluff/angst (up to you! your way of writing is just superb) mixed with nsfw gojo satoru. a modern business tycoon au where he just lost his wife and is overprotective of his 1 year old toddler. you're his new staff in the office and is treated badly bcs you know, new staff. one day, you stumbled upon your boss and his baby in a shop, who wont stop crying and he took an interest in you when you managed to calm his kid down. he hired you as his babysitter + made you move into his estate. from there, your life changed! also, thank you for accompanying my days with your stories, it's marvelous! 💕

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ NAOYA ZENIN MY BAE: okay i thought you might like this idea for the event (or maybe not lol) - naoya coming home to his beloved little housewife and feels like giving her a treat for being such a good girl.,,.,, read: man's gonna re-arrange your guts and have some soft moments with you after (not that he would ever admit that shsghshsj) ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ | good girl

NAOYA ZENIN MY BAE: Stage magician Naoya and his cute little assistant, where every other trick works to undress or strategically rip her outfit so he can show off his little bunny to the crowd before fucking her brainless backstage

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ NAOYA ZENIN MY BAE: listen ,,,,, ur naoya hate fic goes crazy stupid may i add something. naoya being overprotective like reader is so pretty and many of the clan men look at them a lottttt and naoya out of nowhere will kiss you in front of them or will grab them in front the maids and workers. then reader becomes mad and they get into an argument and then hate fuck :D lmaoo (THIS REQUEST PLEASEEEE SEND ME TO HEAVEN) ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ NAOYA ZENIN MY BAE: Omg Suki! Congrats on the 2.4k! So uhmm I decided to take a break from the Kita/Naoya twin au angst 👉👈 idk if you are still accepting requests but HAS ANYONE EVER MENTIONED OR HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDERED SUGAR DADDY NAOYA????? 🥺 -🌸

FUSHIGURO MEGUMI: Megumi being insecure about his eyes because they are a very light green colour( like in manga) so he wears blue contacts( I saw that on TikTok and... big brain energy)

⭐ FUSHIGURO MEGUMI: SUKI, HI! First of all, congrats on 2.4K you absolutely deserve every single milestone coming your way 💞💞If it’s not too much to ask may I request a one-shot with megumi where he’s jealous that his fem!crush is spending more time with Itadori and sees how she enjoys his company a lot but it’s purely platonic? Reader likes megumi too and they both need that push in the right direction?Thanks so much if you decide to write this 🥺💖 I seriously love your writing and your big brain sm

CHOSO: Could you write something with Choso and the reader that has a toxic mother (if that actually exists. She controls everything the reader does, and plays with her mind/ feelings making her feel like she's the bad one)?But after a fight with the mom, the reader has enough and just leaves deciding they will finally do what they want, ending up at a tattoo shop, where Choso is the tattoo artist.Ngl, i'd like this to be nsfw because i am thirsting for this man ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)Don't really have kink preferences but if you could include size and breeding kink then i'd be hella thankful ☺

GETOU SUGURU: Yo how about a Victorian AU with Gentleman Thief!Getou and Debutante!Reader nsfw 👀👀 maybe she hears something in the dark and goes to investigate and gets pressed to the wall with a knife at her throat 👀🥵

FUSHIGURO TOJI: can we get a part two of the "lessons learned" toji fic 👉🏽👈🏽 maybe him fucking and overstimulating her so hard she cries and begs for mercy but no mercy will be given. maybe he uses the same handcuffs she used for him on her 🥰 maybe some manhandling cause im a hoe for letting a man throw me around

⭐ KAGEYAMA TOBIO (fckin finally): kageyama tobio x reader fic for mutual virginity loss? maybe they just haven’t had time with him being a fancy schmancy volleyball player, maybe there’s just nerves, i don’t know! i’ll leave it up to u babe <3

⭐ SUNA RINTARO: hi!! congrats on the 2.4k HEHE just wanted to request a suna and tattoo/flower shop au? idk just the thought of tattooed suna is like. mm yes

⭐ SUNA RINTARO/AKAASHI KEIJI: hi suki!! i’m so excited for your event! so i rarely ever see someone else who loves both akaashi and suna so i was wondering if you could write something for them! maybe apocalypse au?? or roommate au?? i was thinking y/n could have a relationship/be fuck buddies with one of them and some smutty exhibitionism happens with the other watching, and then some pining that ends in a threesome if you write those! if not, then just a smutty n filthy little love triangle that you can choose an ending for lol (a happy one would be nice bc my heart can only handle so much angst, but really it’s up to you and what inspires you!!) tysm for doing this event and always working so hard <3

⭐ OIKAWA TOORU: hi i love your writing!! can i please request work au (boss oikawa x secretary fem reader?) with degradation and him fucking your in the window 😭💗💗

#jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen x reader #haikyuu!!#haikyuu!! x reader #haikyuu #gojo satoru #fushiguro megumi #ryoumen sukuna #uhh im lazy #to tag #THANK YOU FOR THE MILESTONE <3 #sukirichi #suki: 2.4k milestone event

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tealenko · 3 years

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OC introduction: Sofía Ryder

Thanks to @noveriia for the tag!! 🥰🥰🥰

Tagging: @acciokaidanalenko @halesshepardn7 @fshenkoescape @ficbrish @witch-ofthe-wilds and whoever whats to share info about their OCs!!

Here we go (btw I did my Ryder because I talked a lot about ME/DAI lately... MEA deserves more love!!)

(This are old pictures btw... she had some updates)

Fandom: Mass Effect Andromeda Role: Angaran Resistance member

Basics

Full Name: Sofía Ryder

Nickname/s: Saf (Only Reyes call her that), Cat/Cata (From her time on the Alliance)

Pronouns: She/her

Sexuality: Bisexual

Occupation (and Titles): (Ex) Human Pathfinder / Angaran Resistance member / _______ Pathfinder (maybe one day I'll write about this one)

Birthday: idk

Age: 628 y/o at the start of MEA (ehehehe see what I did there btw she's older than in the canon ups)

Physical description

164 cm

Curvy

Fit

Ultra fair skin

Lots of freckles

Blue (almost white) eyes

Long ultra black somewhat wavy (just a little) hair

Full lips

Dark red scar/burn on her cheek

2 full sleeves of tattoos + chest + lower back

Makeup: Bluish/gray eyeshadow, cat eyeliner and dark red lipstick

Overall -> drop-dead gorgeous

Clothing Style: Doesn't give a f~ck!

Background

Play the game ehehehehe

The only I can add to it is her relationship with my Shep (still not ready to do that though) you should just know that: 1. She trained her and 2. She's devastated when my Shep dies.

Combat & Skills

Combat style: Infiltrator

Favorite weapon: Sniper (I'm gonnaaaa love you... like a BLACK WIDOW babyyyyy... tutututututututututut~ ehehehe)

Relationships

Family: Loves his brother and mother. With the father is a hate/love/hate/love/hate... relationship.

Love interest: Before MEA she was, like, super in love with my Shep (uff poor thing)... one of the main reasons she leaves. In MEA -> Reyes Vidal (Ohhhh.... my.... They're made for each other).

Best friends: SAM and Jaal.

Personality

Positive traits: Loyal, funny, determined, resilient, fearless.

Negative traits: Unable to speak about her emotions, too sarcastic, hot-headed, impatient... Kinda crazy overall (but paragon crazy)

Likes: Dancing and singing, partying, whiskey (alcohol in general), training and exercise... and sex.

Dislikes: Politicians, the Kett and the Roekaar (in that order)

Fears: Commitment + Opening up to others + Death of her loved ones (the poor thing has been through a lot)

Guilty Pleasure: Chewing gum.

Hobbies: Dancing until she can't feel her feet.

Favourite fanfic -> Do your Worst

Favourite fanart

#mass effect andromeda #ryder x reyes #pathfinder ryder

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140503at-dawn · 6 years

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Fic Rec #5

uGH! Hey guys ^^ This week is being such a pain in the ass for me :)) But I hope you’re fine! Here we go with our 5th fic rec post yaaaay! Btw I really want to have some friends (i mostly rant about doctor who or beyonce other than bts ldnflkdd) but I am awkward and can’t say ‘hello’ to people very easily lol but you can send me some of your shit anytime *awkward smile* Okay. Let’s get to the real deal now sdlkdmfl

genres by symbols

ϟ Angst / ♛ Smut / ☁ Fluff

Bonnie & Clyde (ϟ ♛)

Author: ibangtanthings

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader

Chapters: 18

‘‘You’re the daughter of a notorious mobster, and Yoongi is the bodyguard that he hired against your wishes.’’

My Thoughts: Okay so I actually read this a whileeeee ago lol. But it worth the rec u kno msayin? I love all that on the run shit. At some parts, I was gasping dramatically, at some parts I was punching walls... It has a kyute/bittersweet ending doe ^^

John Doe and Jane Doe; How We Met (☁)

Author: dtownsuga

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader (there is also a namjoon x reader one I believe)

Chapters: Drabble (?)

‘‘We are all named John Doe or Jane Doe before we found our soulmates. You will have your name mailed to you by someone, right after you meet your partner. And the name stays between you two. You got yours, from meeting someone. He got his, from meeting someone. And both of you fall in love with that someone, believing that everything shall be okay now. But what if, that someone was indeed your other half, but that other half just does not seem to click?’’

My Thoughts: OMGGGG! This one is sooooo cutee ^^ I personally think it was also one of the best soulmate-ship mark thingy (?) I’ve ever read. It’s short yeah, but read this and you’ll be smiling ^^

Heartbeat (ϟ♛)

Author: joonbird

Pairings: Hoseok x Reader

Chapters: 7 (ongoing)

‘‘You’ve always stayed far away from the Kingsnakes, the coldblooded gang that rules the dark heart of your city. That is until your life collides with the intriguing and dangerous Jung Hoseok.’’

My Thoughts: I forgot about this fic until she updated tbh imsorry. But now remembering it after reading it again, I really enjoy reading this. Idk why but I have a soft spot for these kinda fics. I love how we can see the ‘strong/dark/dangerous’ characters deep down. Also, it is some good smut ehehehehe ;)

Heat Wave (♛)

Author: inkjam-moon

Pairings: Jimin x Reader

Chapters: Oneshot

‘‘When the air conditioning goes out in the dead of summer, the boys exhibit some bizarre behavior, and you walk in on something you know you aren’t supposed to see.’’

My Thoughts: Ooooouuuuu. This good stuff y’all. I really liked this. It kinda has an everyone x reader element in it. But the real deal is done by jiminnie cricket lol. I loved the playfulness, also the heat hahahahjsa. Go read it guysss!

So It Goes (♛ ☁)

Author: dovechim

Pairing: Ailen!Jimin x Reader

Chapters: 3

‘‘Park Jimin knows a lot about humans. of course he does, he studies them for a living. he knows they say hello by holding hands, and when they say goodbye, they put their arms around each other. but this particular human, he notes, is unlike the res- stuck in a slump, going about your day praying for the Universe to stage an intervention in the form of an alien abduction. when he decides to finally fulfill your wishes, he finds that you have a little something to teach him about what it means to live life on Earth the way you do; ugly crying, underwear and all. in return, he shows you the possibilities that abound if you simply adopted their mantra: everything is beautiful, and nothing hurts.’’

My Thoughts: The storytelling in this was really good. l always enjoy ‘stranger species learning new things’ stuff lol. It was fun and also well thought. The ending though..... Read it and see what happens ::)

guys I swear at this point I was having a brain freeze BC ALL I SEE ON MY LIKES ARE YOONGI OR JK FICS UGH so I’m gonna end this fic rec here maybe I’ll post one more in this week... again, sorry guys...

#bts ficrecs #bts fics #bts reactions #bts scenarios #bts texts #suga angst #suga ficrecs #suga fluff #suga smut #weeklyrecommendations #jungkook fluff #jungkook smut #taehyung fluff #taehyung smut #ficrecs #kpop fics #yoongi ficrecs

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howtotrainyournana · 7 years

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A bit of a life update under the cut ^-^

Okay, so as any of you who read my personal posts for the last few days probably gathered, I was NOT excited to be leaving home and going back to school (which is like . . . a few thousand miles away from home. Eurk.). I was also super anxious because I had (have) a bunch of stuff to figure out with regards to college and this semester and next semester.

But!!!!

This is a positive post. Also a long one.

I still don’t like being here and being so far away from my family, and I’m still a little burned-out of school and just want to be done, but!!!! I met with my advisor today as well as the registrar (and actually got registered for classes ha ha ha HA *sweats* don’t be like me children don’t run from your problems CONFRONT THEM WITH AN AXE) and Things Are Better than I thought they were.

I had a bit of a breakdown on the way to the airport in front of my mom and we talked a lot and kinda decided I should probably just transfer to somewhere close to home and finish that way. But. BUT. (wow. that’s a big but eheheheh) I’m literally only 12.5 new credits and a few re-takes of classes away from graduation, I found out from my meetings today.

Two of the classes I have to re-take are fall-only courses, so I would have to come back next fall as well (which I had already planned on having to do, but wasn’t happy about and kinda stressed and pissed at myself for but I feel better about now). And I still had to figure out which classes to take THIS semester (two classes I need to get better grades in are spring-only) and so, with the help of the registrar and my advisor, both of whom are far kinder to me than I deserve, we figured out a very-doable courseload that does several, very necessary things.

1. Fulfills all of my general credit, upper division credit, and upper division chemistry elective credit requirements (My biology minor is already done with THANK GOD), 2. Gives me a courseload that I can actually handle without looking at it and having a panic attack or anxiety attack, 3. Gives me a better mental state to be in, with room to do things like actually have time to do club activities without panic and stress, as well as do tutoring maybe once a week for the younger chem students (which I really like to do and would give me a like, REQUIRED or at least . . . imperative??? commitment, at least in my brain? other than classes to show up for. IDK if that makes any sense) and also will give me time to maybe even like??? Go places on the weekend??? Or hang out with friends??? LIKE STUFF I NEED TO DO TO STAY SANE???

The other thing that was really good about talking to my advisor is that we talked about things to do to deal with anxiety and fear and stuff - which is where the tutoring thing came up in the conversation, as well as talking about getting together a study group for one or two of my classes (I’m only taking four classes this semester - Calculus-based Physics II, Organometallics, Biochemistry, and Interpersonal Communication) in order to stay focused, get homework and studying done, AND get socializing in (more like just . . . people-time. Not necessarily goofing off? Just spending time with other people and not being by myself, which is usually when Depression and Anxiety like to rear their ugly heads ha ha ha). He gave me the contact stuff for one of the counselors on campus (she’s really good and is more the occupational--dealing-with-everyday-life-and-how-to-manage-everyday-tasks-while-dealing-with-STUFF-therapy) whom I’ll talk to about figuring out better coping mechanisms and how to work through some of my stuff and whatever else we need to talk about and figure out. Because OBVIOUSLY the things I’ve been doing haven’t been cutting it, if last semester is any indicator ha ha ha.

BUT!!!! THINKING POSITIVE!!!!!

That’s my focus for this new year. I’M GOING TO BE HAPPY, DAMN IT!!! XD

And that means admitting that I’m not okay, and that I can’t totally fix myself by myself, and that I need help fixing myself, and that’s okay and is totally doable and that I’m NOT broken beyond repair, just need some work done.

Some other things we talked about were mostly me making sure I’m doing things that keep me happy and able to deal with things, like club events and other things that I’m around people and like . . . accomplishing things? Like mission work or charity stuff or even exercise. I’m the president of the missions club on campus as well as the new nerd club, so I need to actually y’know. . . DO THINGS and make things fun and stuff, not just stress about everything and not have time to actually do things myself??? And make my officers more burdened when they’re also students and dealing with stuff??? I will be better, for myself and for you guys (Cross is my VP for nerd club, if any of you guys are interested XD)

I decided NOT to do track, for a variety of reasons (soccer was at least half of the reason last semester was a train wreck, ngl) (like having more time to do things with people, not being gone every saturday, being able to go home for Spring Break and Easter break, not being in near-constant bodily pain because I am and Old Broken Human Being) but I still like being active - but I like things like walking, or biking, or especially SWIMMING. I’m looking into (and will probably get) a membership for the YMCA in town, so that I can go swimming like once or twice a week.

Half of my problem being out here at school is that I’m not in or at least on the water. At home, I can walk by the saltwater or by the lake pretty much whenever I want, I go fishing and clam-digging or even just on the ferry or a boat, and the college near my house has public swim times that are super cheap and convenient - not to mention that I did swim team for a few years and I STILL MISS IT and feel most comfortable when I’m in the water (okay I’ll stop rambling now). Anyway, long story short, I’m going to figure out different ways to stay active that make me NOT want to die when I’m doing them ha ha ha (but I mean that in all seriousness. I love track, and soccer. Just . . . not while I’m in school anymore. Please.) Plus I need to stay active and stay well.

Which is my OTHER goal for this semester - make sure to eat and drink water on a regular basis, as well as keep a SOMEWHAT regular sleep schedule for sanity, and NOT GET SICK AS OFTEN. I am very susceptible to illness, so it’s always a challenge to stay well, but I am going to DO IT this year!!!! And when I DO get sick (inevitably - I’m still sick right now from last semester ha ha ha) I’m going to do my darndest to get better and NOT let myself just stay ill for months. So take THAT germs *raises fists and chugs vitamins*

The other thing that I need to get better about is managing my time on here. I have a tendency to get caught in the endless void of scrolling through the dash, but I need to get a hold of myself and make sure I don’t let Tumblr take up my life. I need to LIVE, in more than just my blog.

And in another note, those Christmas fics and fanart pieces ARE in the works, I just . . . fell into a bit of a spiral over break and didn’t really have the motivation or time?? to get them done. But they WILL get done, I promise. I have the list written up and posted on sticky notes to remind myself. (My desk and room is pretty much full of sticky notes because if I don’t write down literally everything i need to do or remember i forget it. Sometimes even WITH it written down I forget it eurgh -.-).

Anyway, I think this is now the longest personal post I’ve ever made on this site and it’s getting pretty late for me. Good night, my lovelies, and maybe like this if you read it? If you please <3 Stay lovely!

-Nana Graye

#saltwater nana

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