#mental health symptoms for sure.

[gaysadshit]

Sometimes I can’t tell if I’m really fucked up or extremely normal and overreacting

#like maybe I don’t have chronic pain and actually I’m fine. #ignore that I spent part of my childhood bed bound from pain #and my migraines and memory issues and nausea and- well they’re probably not related to head trauma #and my childhood ‘anger issues’ and sensitivity and need for headphones and my special thought processing methods aren’t #mental health symptoms for sure.

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[adhd-culture--is]

ADHD culture is “THATS A SYMPTOM???”

<3

#it’s a very unique period in your mental health journey where Everything Is A Symptom to be sure #neurodivergent #nd #neurodiverse #neurodivergence #mod durdle #adhd culture is

[coldercreation]

PSA: 

If you have related to how I have described Nathan’s struggles with his mental health and some experiences with life; emotional, physical and social etc (ignore the story/his fam background for this; I mean if you have been able to relate to his feelings/anxiety/negative physical sensations etc.)

Might be worth it to get your blood checked. 

Especially B12, Vitamin D, Iron levels and Ferritin (ferritin should be 100+).

Building on top of the character, character background, and my research into trauma / mental health etc, I have always used a lot of my personal experience when describing emotions, feelings, and how mental health issues can feel like or present. It’s my attempt to make the writing feel realistic, had I experienced the things in the story or not. Aka even if the story was high fantasy and thus not realistic, I’d source my own feelings to make it ‘real’.

So. Regardless of what's causing it in the story: If you have ever related to how Nathan FEELS or describes his experience with the world and his brain… (Anxiety, depression, chronic fatigue, feeling like an outsider/in a fishbowl, easily overwhelmed or over tired; social withdrawal, social anxiety, heart palpitations, chest pains, breathlessness, dissociation, irritability, issues with cognitive function; memory, overthinking, insomnia, brain fog, panic attacks, slow recovery from physical activity, etc etc et fucking c) 

Turns out bish has been chronically deficient of many things for a very long time due to stomach issues that stopped nutrients from absorbing. Antidepressants have never successfully worked for me, and it’s now looking like that’s because my mental health stuff could've largely been a physical symptom, instead of just purely mental health?? 

I have been on a pile of supplements for a bit now and uhh… It’s like night and day? Even with the other health stuff I've been getting treated for, it's been... So much better?? Like. Life changing amount of difference?? And I’m only just starting out fixing these deficiencies, which could take a long time. But...

Holy shit, “Better” might actually be a real thing after all?? There was a reason I've been so "stuck"???

Kind of mad… And sad. Because if this is true and I keep feeling like I have been recently, it means I’ve lost a lot of time to this. I try to focus on how good I’ve been feeling though, and stay curious for this journey of what literally feels like a second chance at life.

Just… Wanted to post this in case it could help someone else. This is a highly personal experience, mental health issues absolutely exist on their own too and there's possibly often overlap as well. But stuff like this can make existing mental health conditions worse too, so either way it’s worth checking. 

Yeah. So.

Happy new year?

From someone who might be pulling a whole Phoenix moment???? xx

#Apologies for the silence here #Been going through a lot if you can imagine lol #I have a bunch of asks and messages to catch up to #I'm so sorry for taking forever #It might take me a bit longer still but I promise I'll get back on here at some point hopefully soon #Your messages mean so much to me<3 #Take care everyone <3 #Also #the description of Nathan's experience could and would still be rather accurate #even if you don't have these physical health issues!! #Depression and anxiety etc from a deficiency is still depression and anxiety #+ when I write Nathan I have a set of mental health “maps” or “guides” for his character (like C-PTSD and CEN and OCD) #Yes I use my own feelings and experiences to describe his anxiety etc #But his character is built around specific mental health markers / trauma research / symptoms etc (like C-PTSD and CEN and OCD) #So I'm pretty sure Nathan's POV would still look very similar based on just that research and ignoring the stuff in this post #Hope this all makes sense :'o

[sebcosmothetransguy]

(tw)

🎵🎶what do we do when we have depressive thoughts?🎶🎵

👏make art👏

🎵🎶what do we do when we have sh urges?🎶🎵

👏make art👏

🎵🎶what do we do when we wanna die?🎶🎵

👏make art👏

🎵🎶what do we do when we wanna self-sabotage?🎶🎵

👏make art👏

🎵🎶and what do we do when we are remembering our trauma?🎶🎵

👏make art👏

#tw: mention of sh #vent #tw vent #silly depressed posting #all the misunderstandings with that one post i made has been getting to me #i don’t know why it’s getting to me so much #but yeah #depressed posting #anxiety posting #mental health #mentally ill #anxious #depressed #anxiety #depression #sh urges #si urges #coping mechanism #making art helps sometimes #i’ll make that art for my short story now maybe #or maybe i’ll game a bit #i’m not too sure yet #i’ll be safe though #self sabotage #wanna not be good though #wanna self isolate though #and in the span of a few minutes my tumblr feed has turned into posts about bpd #i find it scary how when i was in a toxic relationship i had so many symptoms of bpd #like that was just trauma #and it’s sad and terrifying that someone can feel that way every single day

[mylittleredgirl]

fascinated by the correlation between telling a mental health professional that my mental health is stable and good and waking up the next morning feeling like i am about to walk off a cliff into the mystery-mood-state ocean below. worth further study i think.

#pretty sure i’m good? just like. intriguing. hmm. #this seems to be a thing that happens #the symptoms #my exciting mental health

[vulcan-moon]

Yknow, its completely up to you if you want to answer this or not. But.

I always believed people with similar troubles understand each other to an extend others cant do. Your art, the way you draw, I don't know, it tells a story that is too familiar to me, too close to home. Not that it got any better for me, Im trying to clean up still an addict some might say. But thank you. I also really hope you're okay. 🫶

i think there is a kind of solidarity in being able to recognise in other ppls art similar experiences. i hope it does get better for you - even if you look at yourself now and compare it to where you were last year, any improvement is improvement. i am reluctantly accepting myself that healing takes a long, long time. i'm as okay as i can be right now, i'm learning to use healthy coping mechanisms like art and writing as an outlet, but it's always going to be a journey and i'm always going to have bad days. i'm learning too that there's no one right way that recovery looks like.

#asks #been sitting on this one a while bc i wasnt sure how to answer it idk #i still struggle with depression and sh and ive kind of accepted that it will always be something i struggle with #which has made relapses seem less like earth shattering failures that i set up for myself #and more like opportunities for harm reduction and stuff iunno #mental health is hard and expecting myself to be Normal has only ever put extra pressure on me that made me worse #accepting that im kind of always going to be like this but i can manage symptoms has been a hard pill to swallow but it's made like #an idea of recovery seem more attainable and realistic rather than something ill never have

[thanatoseyes]

Lmao I just remembered that I was so far gone out of my mind in the hospital mental patient ward area that I thought I had slippers but they were no where in sight and I figured they just got misplaced in the other reality that I was a part of like some cosmic fucking wizard plane shifting and then my mom was visiting and said the slippers she got me looked suspiciously like the ones this old woman was wearing and honestly half the time I wasn't sure this woman was real so that was validating and I just kinda shrugged it off but it made sense because in my shattered mind I did remember that I saw her wandering through other people's rooms.

#the staff kinda treated her like a princes but she gave me the creeps #idk if it was me or it was her but i stayed far away #idk half the time i was pretty sure everyone there was pure evil #but that was also playing into my part of the delusions #i thought the guards on staff were under anubis domain #and this was before i even got into witchcraft paganism and hellenism so idk do with that what you will #bipolar disorder #mental health issues #psychotic symptoms #psychosis

[popissue]

ppl will be like oh im so crazy im so feral im just a fucked up little creature that craves violence but could all of these same folks listen to an ocd individuals worst intrusive thoughts without recoiling and accusing them of being a terrible person ... idk pookie !

#as someone who has stumbled across many fucking people that felt like they needed to idk #exaggerate their own experiences w mental illness to make me feel... less alone? or really make themselves feel less alone #not sure which #but its this weird type of cherry picking like which mental health issues ppl are actually okay with accepting in another person #idk man i just think ppl dont realize how far behind we really still are lol #for the most part i just dont pay mind to a lot of it but sometimes the memes have me sitting here like :)))) bc damn #ill never know what its like to not be in a constant state of managing my symptoms & in a lot of situations ill just never win #bc some ppl will misunderstand and misrepresent me no matter what i do or how i present myself #and you'd think there would be more understanding sometimes atp #idk random venty bc my anxiety and intrusive thoughts have gotten so bad recently #void

[lunaiz4-misc]

I was having a Very Bad Time, and then my partner cleaned the apartment and it got all better.

Why are his solutions always so simple. Why does that work. Is it... has it been this simple the whole time?

MY LIFE IS A LIE. Do I even have depression and anxiety, or do I just have chronic Forgets Basic Needs Disorder?

#mental health #life hacks #self care #pretty sure 'forgets basic needs disorder' is actually just #ADHD #But I don't have the classic hyperactivity symptoms #and also I'm a GIRL

[lighthouseas]

i need to start getting off tumblr more and going outside (not right now though it's raining) this shit is starting to flare up my anxiety

#um. tw for discussing my undiagnosed mental health issues in the tags ? #but anyway it is to the point where i am sent into spirals over every little thing #and i think every thought i have is evidence of me being a horrible person and so then all of my thoughts start contradicting each other ? #it's really weird. #and then i panic and think i'm going to end up hurting someone by accident. or someone will see my thoughts and call me out #and yes i am aware these are all symptoms of ocd and that i need a therapist we just can't find one atm 👍 #but. anyway. i really kind of need a break from here because it's really warping my perception of reality #even blocking people who trigger these thoughts hasn't helped because then i feel guilty and scroll through their blogs again so i can #make sure i'm being morally sound. or. something i don't know but it sends me into spirals even MORE and i can't stop #anyway. idk if i will actually leave ? but just a general psa ig. #bee.txt

[born-to-lose]

According to 6 different serious health/psychology pages I have BPD, do you think that means I should see a therapist?

#i've been thinking about the possibility for a while but never looked up symptoms because i was scared #and now it's starting to get out of hand so i finally did even though i originally didn't want to be officially diagnosed #for various reasons like the stigma in society and my health insurance knowing so all my future doctors will go back to their #'it's only psychological stop being so dramatic you're not actually sick' shit and invalidating me and my health problems in the past #some of them straight up refused to write a sick note for school when i actually had the flu back in 8th grade #so that's one reason why i don't want any mental illnesses to appear in my medical record #plus the cost factor because i'm not sure if the insurance would even cover everything but i might end up paying for it myself #if it means the health insurance won't be informed even if it's probably a lot of money #but in order to get therapy i need to get diagnosed by a professional so once i read into it a bit more i'll figure out how to tell my mom #and see if i'll call this one therapist in my town who apparently treats psychosomatic disorders #i'm sincerely sorry to everybody i've talked to recently (aside from casual fandom chatting) who may have noticed me behaving kinda shitty #advice is greatly appreciated because this hit me like a train and i don't fucking want this. like at all #i thought my switching between depressed and anxious and angry and empty and hyper was just. idk something else but not That #mel talks

[nexus-nebulae]

why do my doctors keep putting me on multiple-times-a-day meds schedules i tell them over and over i can't remember that often but they keep doing it

#best i can do is ONCE a day and that's if i have a physical irl reminder that can't just be snoozed #I've been dealing with an ear infection for a few weeks now #and i know for a fact they have once-a-day eardrops for this because I've used them before #but my doctor keeps giving me THREE times a day eardrops and i keep fucking up the schedule so the infection comes back #and I've told her over and over i can't remember that often #i have too much other stuff going on to be ABLE to remember that shit #and she will. not. listen. #i get the feeling I'm being labeled as a noncompliant patient when my doctors literally just refuse to listen to my needs and disabilities #doctor moment #meds talk #ohhhhhh i just looked up something that made me Mad #so noncompliant is when a patient INTENTIONALLY refuses treatment #but non-ADHERENT is when its UNINTENTIONAL #but APPARENTLY 'mental illness' is one of the 'reasons' for noncompliant behaviour #SURE. ILLNESSES AND SYMPTOMS THAT ARE KNOWN TO BE COMPLETELY INVOLUNTARY. LIKE PARANOIA OR DEPRESSION. #THAT'S NON-COMPLIANT BEING CONFUSED OR FORGETFUL OR AFRAID #i hate mental health 'professionals'

[dragongeek1]

well friends I have officially joined the Chronic Pain Club, it’s not great to be here, there’s a chance it’s only temporary but my gut says ‘hmm many doubts’ and I won’t really know for a couple of weeks anyway until my doctors appointment. So. Been navigating that for four days and well we’re navigating at least

#there’s some sort of apollo prophecy dodgeball meme joke here #re me being close to many people w/ chronic pain/illness and being a strong empath #and already using spoon theory periodically for the mental health shite #‘ha ha wow this is so useful I’m glad spoonies consider mental health strugglers part of this too!’ and then I need you to imagine #that very specific TUNK sound a dodgeball makes #those thoughts have been living in my brain this weekend. anyway #mark and di if you happen to see this. TUNK (the dodgeball sound) #maybe it’s more irony than prophecy but as I said the thoughts have been there #I went to urgent care then the er thurs night because I spent an entire workday and over 8 hrs in severe abd pain #and it started on the lower right side so of course worried about appendix/gallbladder/etc #urgent care said yeah go to the er cause no matter what you need diagnostic imaging #and they asked have you ever had ovarian cysts I said no but my mom has (there’s thoughts it can be genetic) #do an ultrasound and sure enough I’ve got em! #and doing some reading up after the fact ‘most are asymptomatic and go away on their own!’ I was like well fuck #I mean that’s great but I’ve already failed the requirements I had STRONG symptoms #ibuprofen didn’t do a thing for the pain. until yesterday the hydrocodone they prescribed was all that would #yesterday experimented with three ibuprofen and that does help thankfully #so yeah needless to say I’m not very optimistic this is a ‘goes away on it’s own’ kinda cyst #but my obgyn is really booked and even squeezing me in/getting me in sooner is two weeks away #which is okay I get it healthcare is a mess #but yeah that means chronic pain for the foreseeable future #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it is what it is #we’re navigating at least that’s all I can ask for #very glad I have today off because it was a very eventful weekend and I need an additional rest day lmao #but started off with low spoons because didn’t sleep well + pain so we’ll see how today goes #Cassie rambles #chronic pain shite #I have the mental health shite tag. might as well start that one lmao /cries

[did-you-fall-for-a-shooting-star]

Not more people telling me that my autoimmune disorder is a physical disability because they have an autoimmune disorder that is considered a physical disability so mine must be too 🤦🤦🤦

As if there arent more than 80 different autoimmune diseases… that are all different… and do not cause the same problems. Like buddy I promise you, I’d know if my condition were considered a physical disability at this point considering I’ve been dealing with it for 23 years

#screaming.to.the.gods #like honestly I’d relate it more to a mental health problem than a physical disability #sure its a part of my body not functioning correctly #but I have NO physical symptoms or issues that affect monility or my ability to function #I have some non physical symptoms that affect my ability to function - but those are NOT the same

[angstmonsterwrites]

Some common features of good therapy for abuse/trauma survivors include uplifting confidence, teaching and practicing healthy boundary setting, and boosting self trust. Such survivors are typically people who've had the idea they can't be trusted to properly perceive reality around them or so much as truly know themselves hammered into their heads six ways from Sunday.

So, when I see 'advice' out there that makes a point of telling folks struggling with trauma the things they believe are positive about themselves--high capacity for empathy, compassion, etc.--are actually little more than misunderstood manifestations of symptoms such as hypervigilance or people pleasing behaviors, I get the urge to commit violence.

What exactly is the goal of that kind of messaging? What is the purpose of suggesting that someone with hypervigilance can't also be empathetic? It accomplishes nothing but to tear down the precious little confidence and self worth survivors must often work with. It's outright corrosive and the exact opposite of real therapy aims.

#If someone has trouble with people pleasing or hypervigilance you encourage better boundary setting. #Sure--those symptoms can sometimes join hands with compassion and empathy and it gets messy. #But telling someone any positive emotions actions or intent they have toward others is 100% trauma and therefore invalid? #That's fucking gross. #mental health things #musings #pissing and moaning