i think a lot about the phrasing of this monologue. melanie could have said "it stayed because i let it" or "because i needed it" and absolved herself of some of the responsibility for her actions by framing herself as a passive participant, detached herself from her actions and emotions and agency during her time as an avatar of the slaughter, but she doesn't. she admits that it felt good to hurt people. that she enjoyed it. that she chose to let her anger out and use it to do harm when given the opportunity, that she actively made the decision to embrace it rather than resist it. that despite knowing how bad it was, a part of her still misses it, even now. misses the power it gave her over others. misses the feeling of being in control. in a story where personal agency and the lack thereof is as central as it is in the magnus archives, it's simultaneously sympathetic and sickening to hear someone candidly admit that that felt too good to want to stop, no matter the cost. it stayed because i wanted it.
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so oblonger's post about the idea of everyone forgetting who hero was at all really touched one of my heart strings; so i decided to twist the idea a bit.
what if everyone remembered the adventures the two went through, but it was the partner who forgot everything?
the moment they approach the guild after what happened on temporal tower, they are immediately surrounded by their guildmates who were so worried and asked them if they are alright; but partner doesn't know 'what' had happened for such a reaction to occur. everyone speaks of this 'hero', yet they don't even remember going to this guild with one who goes by that name. in fact, this is their first time here.
at first, everyone assumed that it was denial talking. to have your best friend disappear in front of your very eyes is a fate that shouldn't be wished upon everyone. but what is the point of confronting that scenario if said best friend never existed?
the partner continues their guild training, happy and unaware but blissful as everyone is concerned for the way they are dealing with the matter at hand. but oh, they aren't stupid. far from it. hero, in partner's eyes, is nothing but a passing name. it comes and it goes, as they say. they definitely sound like a pleasant person to work with, but partner knows nobody by that name!
Gossip travels around Treasure Town, and folks all around get more concerned and sad for partner as they themselves don't know what for. duskull reminds them that he has *two* names in his bank; partner and hero. and the partner just tells him that it must've been an accident, because he knows nobody by that name! silly duskull, who is this 'hero' you speak of?
Kangaskhan patiently and kindly reminds partner of the amount of items they and hero stored here, and partner only gives her a confused look as they simply tell her that there must've been a storage mishap. Whoever this 'hero' was, they sure did store a lot more than partner could ever carry!
The Kecleon Brothers remind partner of how they and hero caught drowzee, how they and hero saved azurill! But those names ring zero bells. If anything, partner just goes 'wow, it sure is good someone came to save little azurill!', almost as if they don't even remember what kickstarted their exploration career and with what pokemon they did it alongside with. whoever this 'hero' is, they sure do sound like a pleasant person! who knows, maybe they'll ask them to join their team one day!
And it all only reaches rock bottom if the future trio were to visit partner and ask them how they are feeling, and only feel the tension rising as partner has absolutely no idea who they are. paralyzed future? betrayal? time gears? that sure sounds nice, but this is the first time they heard of all this!
Grovyle and Celebi can feel their hearts ache as they couldn't even fathom the idea of hero's whole existence and the events that they and partner got through vanishing from partner's mind, and Dusknoir only feels the guilt rising as he sees it all unfold. Scars on such a tiny body, memories and pains of what had to be done, all gone in an instant. What good is trying to reconcile when the person you've hurt the most has no idea who you are? to partner, those scars were always there. They couldn't fathom the possibility of someone like Dusknoir or Grovyle hurting them!
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Let's be honest, and I say this with full offense, Lucerys Velaryon is the Archduke Franz Ferdinand of the Dance of the Dragons. He is meant to be a sacrificial lamb to kick off the entire war proper. If we had gotten a full season of development with him like we did with the younger cast in Game of Thrones, I guarantee more people would've felt something. The only reason I personally feel bad is from a baseline level of empathy, because he was a child who was placed in an unwinnable situation due to his mom being completely irresponsible with him and his brothers.
However…
The comparison between Lucerys and Aemond is no contest. Love him or hate him, Aemond has an actual personality and goals when we first meet him. There's enough dimension in Aemond as a child to showcase the potential for sympathy between him and Jace at the funeral, a scene they didn't need to put in, but they did, which emphasizes his own innocence. Even before he breaks bad fully in S1E10, he's still far more compelling to watch due to the number of scenes allocated to him and his dynamic with other people.
This is where you and I are going to disagree just a bit, because Lucerys does do something in S1E07 and S1E08. He gouges out the eye of a family member and petulantly whines that he “didn’t do anything!” when confronted with the possibility of getting in trouble for it, then years later has the nerve and complete lack of sense to giggle at the person he permanently maimed only hours after his legitimacy was publicly called into question (again) and resulted in a murder. The narrative (perhaps unintentionally) glosses over these moments in favor of portraying him as good, whereas if you read between the lines, you can see that as being an oversimplification. The problem is that because S1 was truncated, secondary characters like Lucerys don’t receive screentime dedicated to portraying anything other than a single personality trait. Unfortunately, because of his role in the text and the way it was adapted for television, there was never a chance that Lucerys would be interesting.
I don't even have anything to add, this is just objectively correct.
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when I was doing those chainsaw man drawings last night I became hyperaware of how I will just devastate a woman's cup size in my art without a single thought like fuck @ me if you want your big boob girl characters to be drawn as 2x4s I guess
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