#ok to rb but why would you

[an-inspired-eternity]

i hope people realize the reason i don’t post a lot of original content anymore as far as talking abt my aus (outside of fic updates or ask games that allow for me to do so) and me not really posting art nowadays is because it doesn’t get interaction or do well. like maybe if people wanted to see the stuff i make they’d act like it

#shitpost agenda #shut up richie #ok to rb but why would you #i'm Mad #not a fun day for the richie community #just love sharing stuff with people and getting radio silence #or god forbid getting talked over #like idc what tf your original intent was the signal that's gonna send to me is you don't care about the stuff i make #and if you're gonna be like that i'm not sharing things anymore. its that simple

[twice-as-many-stars]

If it wasn't clear, I'm dropping the attempt to make this an all-accessible blog. I'm terribly sorry, but I simply do not have the energy to describe all the stuff I wanna put on here and I've started to find it very limiting. Thank yall for understanding.

#me #personal #ok to rb but why would you #accessibility #disability #its fucked that my own disability stops me from making stuff accessible for ppl with other disabilities #im sorry

[dyketubbo]

ill be seeing someone make suicide jokes constantly and then see that theyre severely mentally ill and constantly go right to the worst trains of thought possible over things and just think to myself hm. i wonder if they know an easy way to alleviate some of that for themselves

#obviously not making suicide jokes isnt the end all be all but like. it helps. it really does help to not say youll kill yourself even- #-as a joke #same vein with self deprecation. its awkward and not really that funny #mask mews #suicide tw #personal #ok to rb but why would you

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[skymantle]

glados saying "once testing starts, im required by protocol to keep interaction with you to a minimum. this will be our only chance to talk." during the beginning of portal 2 only to immediately talk to chell during every single test is funny on its own but that along with the cut scene where she stops the elevator between tests to ask if there's "anything you'd like to say to me? anything at all?"...she's so lonely and desperate </3

#another line i wish wasn't cut was ''you really are doing great... chell <3'' like she sounds SO HAPPY. ...🥺🥺 #i also REALLY enjoy: #''did you ever stop to think that eventually there's a point where your name gets mentioned for the very last time? well here it is. #im going to kill you.. chell :-)'' #i get why it was cut but. something about it. #logs #chelldos #portal #ok to rb!!!! #it would be so fun if i had two popular chelldos textposts

[miss-floral-thief]

Lmao Shane

#sdv #ok to rb #I like Shane never married him tho #(if ur spouse doesn’t let you lay in bed just bc why bother getting married /shot) #(but yega realistically I don’t expect most of the marriage candidates to get up as early a: the farmer) #(​esp Sam; seb would just be awake and then go to bed at 7)

[eskildit]

sometimes i think about what if we see silas in alecto the ninth but he's actually continued to age during the time we haven't seen him and I would think to myself. tamsyn I know exactly what you're doing rn.

#look tamsyn muir is one of us #and we all know the reason why silas isn't a commonly shipped character is because of his age (reasonably so) #but if he comes back in the 17/18 range. you just know the dynamic would be different..... #eskildit posts tlt #the locked tomb #ok to rb

[xumoonhao]

pixel pride flags 💖💖💖 / ver 2

#here they are!!! i hope they look alright...i really dont know what tumblr is gonna do w/all 17 of them 😭 #but there they are . god my eyes are so strained rn. the grey & white checker of the transparent background was out to get me #oh and im still not over my annoyance of the progress flag looks btw. i just could NOT get the triangle to work w/the wavy border T~T #i do plan to try to make it work but it seems impossible. why is it so HARD #also!!! these are free to use if you would like to 💖💖💖 #hehe i think thats all ^-^ #pixel art #my art #pride flags #ok to rb 💖💖💖 #i shant tag every flag in this post...that would be too many things

[incinerated]

PROMISE // WRITTEN BY THE GASH.

THE TRUTH FOUND IN LOVING WHILE MONSTROUS, THE SUBLIME TRUTH. THE TRUTH OF TERROR USED TO PROTECT WHAT YOU LOVE. WHO YOU LOVE.

PLAINTEXT UNDER THE CUT.

I AM A PROMISE OF PAIN OF TERROR I AM A PROMISE OF DEVOTION OF DEVOTION I OFFER THIS TRUTH, I, DELIVERER OF TERROR AS PAHADRON BREATHES SO TO DO I BREATHE I AM A PROMISE OF CARE OF TENDERNESS INVOKE MY NAME LIKE A SHADOW I'LL COME LIKE A SHADOW I'LL STAY, RIGHT BY YOUR HEELS I AM A PROMISE OF TERROR OF PAIN UNTO THOSE WHO HAVE HURT YOU UNTO THOSE WHOM YOU ASK OF ME TO INFLICT SUCH CONDITIONS I AM A MESSAGE OF LOVE OF PROTECTION I AM A MESSAGE OF CARE AND TENDERNESS I AM A MESSAGE OF PAIN OF TERROR THIS MY BODY WHISPERS WITH ITS EVERY MOTION THIS MY HEART IT WHISPERS WITH ITS WAR-DRUM POUNDING. THIS MY SELVES THEY WHISPER FOR IT IS THE TRUTH.

#GUNKJUNK #POETRY #OK TO RB. I GUESS #THE OK TO RB IS NOT SARCASTIC I AM JUST UNSURE WHY YOU WOULD #IF IT RESONATES WITH YOU I ENCOURAGE YOU DO TO SO #I LOVE YOU DIESEL

[hellishfig]

my 23rd birthday was a couple days ago

and i have had so many conversations with friends and i've read so much about how getting older is not only okay, it's good

but a couple of friends came over very late the night before my birthday so they could be there at midnight and sing happy birthday to me (because they're the best and i love them)

and they did the "are you ONE, are you TWO, are you THREE" thing

all the way to 23

and they did it soooooooo slowly

and that kind of gave me an existential crisis? hearing the years get counted away? it took probably 30 seconds to a minute but it felt like forever, and all i could feel was the time passing

i keep thinking about being a kid and the joy and excitement that each birthday brings, how getting older is something to celebrate

i feel like 23 is the age (for me at least) where the joy of getting older begins to fade. i'm an adult now. i have worries and concerns about getting a job and what i want to do with my life, and it feels a lot more immediate

however, i still dressed up as a princess and had my friends come over and make powerpoints about things they're interested in so they could infodump to me

getting older doesn't mean giving up the things that make you happy

so here's a picture of me at 23 (face hidden for privacy) dressed as a princess to remind everyone (including me) that dress up doesn't have an age limit and neither does fun

happy birthday to me!

#i felt so good in that outfit #TWENTY THREE IS THE BEGINNING #I AM NOT DONE YET BITCHES #when i was in high school i thought i would be dead by 21 #so this birthday felt very important #it wasn't all fun #after everyone except one person left i cried in front of them #also after having a rough conversation with my mom #who was super drunk #i had not cried about my real life in YEARS #it hurt but it was cathartic #i have a future that i am excited to move towards #and that's good. i'm glad i'm still here #ok to like #ok to rb #i guess #don't know why peeps would want to #but you can if you want #personal #pointless posting #birthday post

[babygirlbdubs]

i hate!!! labels!!!!! i hate society's need to put every bit of the human experience into arbitrary, meaningless little boxes!!! i hate taking beautifully unique experiences and shoving them into categories that will never truly fit them!!! i hate taking people's identities and comforts and using them to invalidate their personhood and experiences!!! every single human being is impossibly unique and there will never be a single other person exactly like them and that's beautiful!!! why!!! do we have to break everything down and put it into boxes that are never perfectly the right shape!!!! we are all unique and that makes us all the same!!! let people express their personhood and define their experiences in ways that are unique to them!!!

#spooky.thoughts #i'm sORRY I GOT HEATED AND JUST. AUGH. #this is NOT about individuals finding comfort in labels and shared experiences #this is about society's reliance on labels to define every single fucking thing about people's lives!!! #why do i owe it to anyone else to fit into a label??? #why do i owe it to anyone else to give them a label to try and define me with??? #and stop!!!! using labels!!! as a way to tell people they don't fit in to that label!!!!! #it makes me so!!!! hhhhrrghghghgh #okay. okay. okay. i'm fine. #i don't understand why we as humans have to try and categorize absolutely every little thing that shapes us as individuals #stop it. we're individuals for a reason. #and if we could just accept that every human experience is unique then i think we would all accept each other a lot easier!!!! #there is no us vs them if we are all just!!!! the same in our individuality!!!! #THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE IS VAST AND INCOMPREHENSIBLE AND YOU CANNOT DEFINE IT IN FORCED BOXES AND LABELS AND UNIVERSAL CONSTANTS #part of this is because i had to read about formalism in art history and it made me angry #part of it is bc i saw the post like. 2 rbs ago. one or 2. the one about friendships/qprs #i just can't tAKE IT ANYMORE #ok. rant over this time. #this time for sure.

[raedas]

hey i was just wondering how you figured out you were aro?? no pressure if you’re uncomfortable sharing of course ! but i’m kind of questioning and i thought maybe hearing other people’s experiences might help. and also i was in a relationship for almost a year so that’s probably somewhat significant and additionally complicating ahaha <333

hey anon!! first and foremost good luck with figuring everything out <33 i know at least for me, questioning can be a long and hard and typically ongoing process, but we'll make it through :] i'm gonna stick the rest of my answer beneath the read more bc im getting the sense im gonna go on for a bit FGDHLKSFAJ

one of the biggest things for me that i think is necessary to preface everything is that i've never really had an "oh" moment like some people talk about. there's never been a moment where i saw a label or a flag and was 100% sure i fit into that box, its more like... years worth of questioning and then the internal meter in my head slowly ticking over. like, when i was figuring out i was queer, i maybe started questioning in like... fifth grade you could say? but it started as more of a "oh im definitely not but like What if" and then gradually began to tick more and more towards "oh i think i might not be cishet" to eventually when i hit the... idk, 80% or 90% certainty mark it was more of a "fuck it, im queer" feeling. there's always going to be that bit of doubt for me, i think, and coming to terms with being aro was very similar for me in that regards

another thing is i was ALSO in a relationship for almost a year, and that's during the time when i was coming to terms with being aro/arospec, which im sure you can imagine was an Experience. i do think being in a relationship was the best thing for me trying to figure out i was aro though, bc i definitely got that sense of Wrongness of trying to think of myself as existing in a romantic relationship. like, when i thought of myself as having a romantic partner, it always felt a bit like i was playing at a part and acting like i had romantic feelings more than i actually did. of course that came with.. a lot of me trying to ignore my own feelings and feeling guilty about it up until i broke up with my now ex (this is like the funniest inside joke ever to us now dw) so that's where i was coming from w/ my experiences

i also began to realize that like, whenever i try to imagine myself in a romantic relationship, its always in some ambiguous future like 10 or so years down the line, which completely distances myself from the idea. i have no idea what a romantic relationship with someone would look like for me, it was just this idea of "yeah, someday in an ambiguous future ill have a romantic relationship with someone and we'll cook together and hug each other and have fun" until i realized that i don't actually want a romantic relationship, and also that... none of those things that i actually envisioned are exclusive to a romantic relationship. in my life ive had a grand total of 2 crushes, both of which were/are queerplatonic but also like... if i imagine having an Actual relationship its just stressful to me and not even really appealing, despite the fact that i have a crush on them.

one of the most important things im coming to terms is that its okay if im wrong, its okay if however many years down the line i find out that im actually entirely allo and fall in love with someone. like i said i dont know if ill ever be 100% confident in my own labels especially with the whole issue of "how do you prove a negative". for now, though, calling myself aro is something that makes me happy and feels, most of the time, accurate. another really important thing i think is that aromanticism is entirely a spectrum. you could be aromantic or arospec in a billion different ways*, or you could be none of them, and thats okay too <333 good luck with everything anon i hope hearing about my experiences helped a bit :]

#*honestly none of the arospec labels are Personally helpful to me because again. ive never really had that Oh moment where everything clicke #and i think thats what microlabels are kind of for #essentially if i wanted to identify as any of them it would take hours of examination and proving and disproving etc etc. its easier for me #personally just to call myself aro as a catchall. does that mean im fully aro? does that mean im just arospec in some vague way? im not #entirely sure yet myself. and thats okay too <33 #wishing you the best once again anon feel free to update me or send me an ask whenever!!!! #asks #anon #aromantic #<- why not. for pride month #ok to rb

[trifoliate-undergrowth]

Blew my nose in the checkout line and the two people ahead of me spun around to look. Bestie it wasn't even that loud. Do your noses never clog why is this shocking

#related: coworker who said she blew her nose in the breakroom #and apparently someone went EW WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT IN HERE #and she was so offended and confused she just left the room #personal (ok to rb) #like it's not something you can control? would you rather see my gross runny nose??

[chaosandthe-deadblog]

11pm.

my dad plays guitar in the living room. theres no natural light. i havent taken my meds or brushed my teeth. i feel growing discomfort in my whole body. ive been crying, seemingly for no reason. the day was long and difficult. i feel alone. i feel scared. i feel like nothings changed and everything is different. things are weird. im thinking i should start journaling again. how long has it been? have i forgotten how? what would i even say? i dont have the energy to catch up my journal on everything. im so tired. its a saturday. im always tired. it will be sunday soon. i have a long day tomorrow. im tired. i dont want to get up in the morning. im tired. i wish things were different. im tired. i wish things stayed the same. im tired. im tired. im tired

... i'm exhausted

#sol.txt #vent #writing #this is ok to rb i guess but i dont see why you would do that #half vent half creative writing #idk man

[hibernationsuit]

this is my fav part of the whole sketch dump btw. extra tired sad guy. get him away from the horrors

#'why is the bottom line empty red' ah yes well. you see. i don't have a last name for him yet #oc: tobias #anyway do you think they made a better version later to make him look stronger and scarier. i think an average byzantine would look at this #and say something halcyon equivalent to 'poor little meow meow' #ok to rb i guess

[viksalos]

ok actually. if you could shoot any album into space for the aliens to hear which would it be

#ok to rb #once again thinking about the voyager spacecraft golden record #they recorded a number of natural sounds and of course a selection of music #for whosoever should find the spacecraft in interstellar space #but i think picking a single album is an interesting constraint #bc i don't think i would send most of my favorite albums into space as a representative of humanity #like. would you send what you consider to be a pinnacle of artistic achievement? #or would you send an album that conveys what it means to be human; whatever that means to you? #what culture or time period would you pick from? why? #also i just think it would be fun to sift thru the tumblr hivemind's selection of albums for this question lol #text