#on self-destructive devotion

[petrichor-moss-and-lightning]

on reckless, self-destructive devotion and the sharp edges of longing that look almost like teeth

Phoebe Bridgers, “Moon Song” // unknown // Margaret Atwood, “Speeches for Dr. Frankenstein” // quadruple dog art by @mxmorggo on Instagram // Hozier, “Take Me to Church” // STELLAR, “Reflections” // AJJ, “I Wanna Be Your Dog 2” // Mitski, “I’m Your Man” // William Shakespeare, Midsummer’s Night Dream // Tumblr user @ojibwa // Trista Mateer, from “How I Asked You to Stay,” Honeybee.

#web weaving #poetry webbing #this is not to romanticize or endorse self-destructive devotion #I’ve just been in this kind of dynamic before and these quotes hit home for me #words words words #words n quotes #word webbing #quotes #trista mateer #Phoebe Bridgers #shakespeare #Shakespeare quotes #midsummer’s night dream #Margaret Atwood #on devotion #on self-destructive devotion #poetry #words and stuff #quotes and words #quotes and poetry #webbing #word weaving #word webs #the land is inhospitable and so are we #mitski #mitski lyrics #dog motif

[starheirxero]

Multiverse's most mentally stable Sun

He's fine 😁 (lie)

#xero creations #LISTEN. listen. #i know that the canon lord Eclipse dimension had sun be wildly fearful of eclipse #BUT IDK. smth about sunvant being so devoted that he gets intense and self destructive about it is important 2 me HAJSBAJS #like. no he isn't being monitored. no he isn't being directly influenced. #he is just soooo lost in the sauce 😭 #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #lord eclipse au #servant sun #sams moon #sunvant

[judas-redeemed]

love at the cost of yourself

horoscope for the heartbroken by schuyler peck // i don't smoke by mitski // pinterest, uncredited // wearing flames to the grocery store by jasmine ledesma // pinterest, uncredited // a hunger like no other by sk osborn

#web weaving #web weave #parallels #mine #writing #sk osborn #mitski #i don't smoke by mitski #on self-destruction #devotion as violence #judas talks

[rometabss]

amigo the devil, "hell and you" / aaron o'hanlon / terese marie mailhot / soap&skin, "me and the devil" / leonard cohen, "you want it darker" / franz kafka, "letters to milena" / tathève simonyan, "august" / richard siken, "the torn-up road"

#actually crazy what i can do w 3 eps of interactions #romencken homoerotic religious imagery my beloved #in another life they could have the most self destructive undying devoted romance #roman roy #jeryd mencken #roman x mencken #romencken #succession #web weaving

[zer0point5ive]

adam who knows the door is wide open, knows he could leave at any point, knows that lawrence wouldn’t stop him, couldn’t stop him and yet. and yet .. adam who looks at the fresh crimson stain on lawrence’s shirt collar, the red beneath his nails he hasn’t quite managed to scrub away yet and wonders if there’s any universe in which he’d run to the cops, to anyone. adam who knows there isn’t. lawrence wouldn’t stop him but adam wouldn’t run. adam who despises everything jigsaw stands for, tells lawrence as much, tells lawrence that he’s gonna be the first to dance on that bastards grave when he finally kicks it but who still stays with lawrence. despite it all. because he’s lawrence, because he’s adam’s. because they’re so inextricably intertwined that not having lawrence around now would kill him as surely as reaching inside and pulling out his own beating heart. he’s everywhere and he’s everything, living in the spaces between adam’s ribs and wrapped around his brain like a live wire. running would be suicide and besides, adam’s not gonna let him go, can’t. not now. adam who would absolve lawrence of just about anything as long as he’s by his side, as long as he keeps coming back, as long as he switches the light on when he gets home and cups adam’s face oh so gently in bloodstained hands

#lawrence who wishes he would. just a little #lawrence who looks at the smear of blood he leaves on adams cheekbone and asks why #adam who just shrugs and says ‘because’ which is simultaneously not enough & too much #youll never recover from that kind of devotion or whatever man who even cares. sound of me crying #thinking about codependent chainshipping in a way that feels like digging my own grave #i need to walk around for awhile #sorry adam being given a flashing neon sign that says exit here nd choosing to ignore it because lawrence isnt on the other side oh i am #Soo normal #its about being selfish in the most self destructive way possible #how can i make this about dog adam devoted to the point of no return #nevermind i already did apparently #chainshipping #adam faulkner stanheight #lawrence gordon #📹

[jonsrightrib]

Riz is going to explode this season

#imagine devoting your whole life to everbody else to the point of self destruction #poor guy #dimension 20 #fantasy high #riz gukgak #d20

[yearningaces]

💳💥💳💥💳💥💳💥

GIVE ME THE MAN FISH

TAKE SOME EXTRA FISH MAN BECAUSE I AM IN A MOOD FOR SELF DESTRUCTIVE DEVOTION

Hallow was a creature of desolation. A giant predator who was meant to dwell at the bottom of the ocean floors who was forcefully drudged up from his home in the depths to serve as a play thing for the elder council of much smaller mers, who somehow contained him.

He would have happily torn everything to pieces and would have enjoyed feasting on each of the elders from the tail up as they screamed and begged for it to end be it by death or mercy.

But then after his first fight, you came along.

Sweet light bringer, like the sun through the shallow waters, you warmed him in a way he'd never felt before. The waters of the trenches are cold, but your warmth was the remedy.

And so Hallow would lay in his cold and dark cell, like a dog awaiting the return of a master at the front door. Waiting for you to open the door, and let him back inside the house of the warmth you bring with you.

How his fangs ached with the desire to bite into his own flesh, his claws tingled to dig into the soft sinewy viscera of his chest so he could tear, blubber then flesh then muscle and bone before hollowing out a section of his heart, all for you.

He'd wonder if you'd form a comfortable little nest in his heart, allowing him to carry the warmth you always bring with him wherever he goes.

Pleading and yearning and remaining depraved for something softer. Craving with such a visceral longing that his teeth ache to sink into something yet he remains the equivalent of a rabid beast collared to a leash he's offered to the only one he truly adores.

Hallow was effectively collared and reverently clicked his collar into place at your mere appearance in his life. He'd grant you his leash, even a rabid dog wouldn't bite the hand feeding him so gently and caringly.

Hallow was a desolate creature. And would continue to be. Burning and starved for a taste of your warmth, your care. The greatest reward he could attain for surviving another day, for tearing another fool into a visceral mess of leftover flesh. And he'd do so happily, sometimes allowing himself to be bitten into and torn down to his bones because you might stay longer while patching his wounds and soothing his broken whimpers of pain. Anything for another moment, is what his pious heart demands, and like a carnivorous pup he follows his heart with a fanged grin, ready to sink his fangs in again.

#letters of yearning #x reader #monster boyfriend #gender neutral reader #monster x reader #hallow #tw self mutilation #listen i know i said soft but i hit the stride of destructive devotion cause good soup

[redhotarsenic]

Exchange (Bindings)

#I finished trimax this morning and legato is so important to me #i decided to draw this version of him cuz I didn’t want to draw his Big Shoulders #knives was supposed to be here gripping his face really hard and drawing blood #but I couldn’t get it to work out unfortunately #cuz that’s who he’s meant to be staring at right now #the bindings are red for a reason #something something blind devotion to the point of self destruction #exchanging one set of shackles for another one but voluntarily this time #I couldn’t think of a background either lmaoooo sorry #trigun #trigun stampede #legato bluesummers #trigun fanart

[mea-trinitas-profana]

posting this here but not tagging it with anything because i dont want the wrong audience

#my stuff #I'm a villain....... Not a monster #romantic cannibalism devotion through obsession servitude to the point of self-destruction hand in unloveable hand double suicide etc #my beloveds

[whumpacabra]

Yes yes we all know about about codependent whumpees and caretakers, but what about codependent whumpees and whumpers?

I hate you, I fear you, but you’re the only one I trust to hurt me without killing me. I hate you, I hurt you, but you’re the only one I trust to tell my secrets. The devil I know is better than the devil I don’t, so I’ll stay with the familiar instead of risking worse. I can’t cope without you here to prove I have control over something in my life.

It scares me how much I don’t want you to die (how much I don’t want you to leave me alone).

#whump #whump tropes #codependency #power dynamics #toxic relationship #it’s not yandere that has a certain flavor of one sided obsession. these two are both well aware #of how fucked it is that they both prefer their current arrangement to any other alternative #it’s about the mutual fear of abandonment and isolation with one person using their power over the other to both self soothe by exerting #control while the other is uncomfortably content to recognize that they prefer not having to worry about the fact that they have no control #it’s about messiness and blurred lines and devotion to the point of self destruction #*slaps bear and cortazar* these fuckers are so fucked up that separating them would actually be worse for them and for us

[transkenobis]

it’s john 20:13 sunday everybody give it up for john 20:13 sunday

#the way cam & palamedes's friendship is portrayed w literally religious levels of self-destructive devotion....... explodes #matt speaks #tlt #the locked tomb

[skidspace]

Idk how to explain it but the entire discography of Sleep Token is very Grantaire coded

#sleep token #grantaire #les mis #les mierables #les miz #just like the unhealthy devotion and obsession #also the self destructive tendencies #I love Grantaire so much y’all

[easy-revenge]

okay mail jeevas

#i dont know if its just my brain but like #i always fixate on characters that are overly devoted and have self-destructive coping mechanisms and this was very targeted #death note matt #death note #mellodramattic #matt x mello #mail jeevas

[bat-anon]

I can’t remember if I’ve ever mentioned this before, but something I’ve been thinking about for a while is how Cass and Hector actually... mirror each other a lot?? Like- Cass has all of this devotion to Rapunzel that’s emotionally complicated due to it being a mix of her status as Rapunzel’s servant and her genuine love for Rapunzel, which becomes strained because no matter how hard she tries she can’t escape how the power divide effects the nature of their relationship. Their friendship ends up falling apart with Cassandra’s hand being mutilated in the Great Tree and Rapunzel (because she has none of the interpersonal skills necessary to cope with any of this) pushes all of it onto Cass and ignores how she’s hurt her, leaving Cass emotionally isolated. 

And then you have Hector, whose devotion to Edmund drives him to push all of the people who care about him away and live in isolation to uphold Edmund’s wish. Hector is shown to put his loyalty before everything else even as it hurts him (”I’m sorry it came to this, sister.”). Hector pulls the spear out of the Great Tree’s heart, ready to sacrifice himself for his cause, only to be possessed instead. We see Hector be stripped of his free will due to his loyalty again with the Mindtrap... and no reaction from Edmund. 

Both Cassandra and Hector have made great sacrifices in their loyalty only to get burned for it time and time again. This parallel probably wasn’t intentional, but it fascinates me and it’d be cool to see some of it in analysis/fanworks. 

#It's about the painful onesided devotion it's about looking into a mirror when you face an enemy it's about breaking free #Cass-Gothel & Hector-Scar parallels are OUT Cass-Hector parallels are IN #I think it would be cool for there to maybe be a fic where Cass sees Hector's self destructive loyalty-- #-- and realizes she also has those tendencies and goes Shit how do I NOT end up like that #Or even the reverse where Hector sees Cassandra leaving Corona to find herself and realizes that he can still heal and break free #Cassandra #Hector #TTS #RTA #Analysis #Sorry the similarities between these two make me go bonkers

[aidenwaites]

The Dream is that one day Jack Rabbit will get made and ill get to do a Q&A where I get to gush about how much of a selfish dick Alex is <3

#its important!!! #alex can be very devoted and compassionate and destructively loyal but it plays into all his bad traits too #he's selfish! he's hotheaded and blunt and can even be kind of arrogant #at a certain point he's self-aware of the fact that everything he does once he's made his choice concerning Jack #is objectively the Wrong Thing and he does not care- if he feels guilt he actively tries to make excuses to himself and forget it #in that one verse alex wont even directly apologize to andy for telling him he wanted him dead

[thestudiousalien]

just binge watched both seasons of the bear,,,the amount of mental illness being exhibited

#i love carmy really but dude has anger issues #understandably #i havent watched tv in so long i felt so addicted ajnfhjda #it was sooo stressful and hard to watch but hard to look away i love how much space the dialogue takes up on the show its so intriguing to #i be scared for the state of their friendship and relationships with each other after these workdays lasnhfjsan #i also do love sydney i love all the original cast #tbh i see the vision of the carm and syd thing but i imagine their relationship is just really complex they both have that intense #devotional thing going on where boundaries can be easily crossed lolll #but carmy is too self destructive i like seeing them say such passionate things to each other tho jabfdsff #carmy is so unwell tho lmaoooo #i love the whole found family thing they really got me there i love the closeups how the camera follows them how much spae the characters #are given in scenes