#also the self destructive tendencies

[skidspace]

Idk how to explain it but the entire discography of Sleep Token is very Grantaire coded

#sleep token #grantaire #les mis #les mierables #les miz #just like the unhealthy devotion and obsession #also the self destructive tendencies #I love Grantaire so much y’all

[slouph]

#qijiu #shen jiu #yue qingyuan #svsss #angst #oh god the angst #the eternal tragedy of two people who love each other so much but are both so broken they couldn’t reconcile their misunderstandings #I believe SJ heard Qi-ge’s words and it gave him peace #he’s the type of character to persevere out of spite #he also has self-destructive tendencies #compared to his original ending this one is much more peaceful #he passed in his home with qi-ge by his bedside and he hardly felt a thing #stay tuned for a part 2 from SJ’s POV

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

klaus hargreeves hearing three (3) symptoms of a disorder from a child that he just met and coming to the conclusion that he definitely has it is a mentally ill mood

#klaus does not have odd #me and my psych degree and crisis counselor certification were sitting there like #hmmmmm #also not me listing credentials as if anyone cares #i can dream <3 #don’t get me wrong he has a shit ton of other stuff #he just really doesn’t fit the criterion for odd #like dsm 5 & textbook criterion #not him #adhd ptsd depression all that shit #substance abuse disorders obviously #addictive personality s*icidal ideation risky behaviour lack of impulse control self destructive tendencies opposition behaviour you name i #t #am a little scared of misinformation being spread about odd tbh #klaus hargreeves #it is a mood to just vaguely hear symptoms of something and be like “yes that is me #barnum effect babey #yeet my deet #tua s3 spoilers #the umbrella academy

[slavhew]

Hello!

If you're not too busy, would you mind listing some of the things you think count as death flags for Mr. Spender?

There's the obvious fact that he's the "old" mentor to group of young protagonists, but what else do you think would count?

OHH BOY ok so I'd think I'm a crackpot for this but since we're talking about Zack "Foreshadowing" Morrison. I have some thoughts

No harm in leading with the (chronologically) first thing that jumped out at me:

This one IMMEDIATELY made me antsy whenever I came back to it after my initial read, and considering Zack has referred to it on twitter in the past as one of their favorite jokes it's definitely not been forgotten about.

Second, the sheer amounts of near-misses, jokey or not, of Spender narrowly avoiding specifically lightning

Again, not much, but it's weird that it happened thrice, latter two of which had real gravitas rather than an one-off joke.

And third, Spender himself. He's repeatedly shown himself to be kind of a self sacrificing idiot, as well as prideful to a fault. Granted, it's both him and Mina trying to take on all the responsibility of saving Mayview and its inhabitants from their fate.. But Spender is exactly that right measure of doesn't-value-himself-enough (chest footprint aftercare or lack thereof), having an obscene amount of power (enables his loner act + pride) and poor judgement that has the capacity to put him at great risk. And it has!

Spender has not only shown low enough self-esteem to view himself as the de-facto scapegoat for the safety of the town, but also prideful enough to make very bad calls that end up in people, often himself, hurt (COUGH FORGE INCIDENT COUGH)

This is all conjecture, but it's definitely enough to make me worried about him :') Even if all this doesn't mean he'll necessarily die he's definitely getting (even more) seriously injured at some point. I love the guy but he's so far doing a horrible job of convincing me he wants to live bad enough to circumvent at least that

#not art #admin answers #paranatural #pnat #richard spender #pts-fic-notes-and-blog #before i continue on with tag ramble i just want to say tysm for leaving an ask! #none of my friends read this so ive been stewing on these thoughts for some months and i loved finally sharing them #this isn't exactly proof but the hijack possession seemingly being the final nail in the coffin for his and isabel's relationship. #idk it feels significant to me. thats one more tether to support kinda gone. someone who knows him well enough to know he's unwell #he seems not exactly content but fr incapable of not burning bridges as he is now. and considering how rashly he acts he REALLY needs those #to not do stupid shit all the god damn time with no buffer other than Lucifer. who for his measured approach to rick's hotheadedness #has honestly shown himself to be pretty lenient and kinda bad at controlling spender's more (self) destructive tendencies? so he dont count #to be clear i love spender to bits but he is dumb as rocks and has all the self preservation of a fruit fly. it needs to be said #also the lightning man... idk its WEIRD like especially on the reread its the thing that most consistently threatens him! it repeats #sure he gets chewed by a bat and banged up by forge but?? he somehow always comes back to lightning. catnine has it out for him #its something i didnt even really put together until i continued reading the flashback chapter AFTER getting this ask and went OHHHGNHF #which the only reason lightning is such a non issue is lucifer's powers. which belong to his sunglasses and not to the spirit in him #so its not like they can't be taken away he's just got a really good excuse for having those on all the time #TAGS GETTING SO LONG. ANYWAYS. i hope this is comprehensible lol

[birdricks]

been thinking about this dialogue again.

#rick and morty #ooooooohhhhh. two sides of the same coin. #this ep is super fucking good btw in terms of beth characterisation #i was talking abt it w my sister last night #likeeee up until this ep the beths have been mostly competing. whos more real. whos more cool. #the two conflicting aspects of beth that led to her being cloned in the first place fighting #but they eventually come to not only tolerate each other but love and appreciate the ways theyre the same and the ways theyre different #ik its like the joke of 'haha self love to the extreme' but it rlly is just a big metaphor for self love #also to bring this back to jerry. lol #interesting that space beth claims to dislike jerry but beth points out the hypocrisy in that those exact traits #are things space beth loves about her #much like how beth herself likely has disdain for jerry becasue she recognises parts of herself in him #alsooo beth calling herself out in her destructive tendencies #gawdddd this ep is so good #i rlly wish we cld get more beth centric eps bc shes super interesting #ALSOOO this is the ep we get the insight of young jerry thinking it an honour to be torn apart by beth. ouch

[stolligaseptember]

kanan and cal deserve to be best friends actually.

#i'm having SO MANY THOUGHTS about their shared trauma and how they chose to cope differently with it #but also about how they're both so so so inherently good but both struggle with self destructive tendencies #and how differently they approach the idea of continuing the jedi legacy #but most of all i'm just thinking about how they deserve to just hang out and be buddies #kanan jarrus #cal kestis #caleb dume #star wars

[wormonastringtime]

reminder.

#hi i couldnt think of an awesome caption for all of this so um ill talk in the tags about my thought process #silhouette is forgetting herself. and she knows this. they reflect on this often. this time literally in a mirror. and their face... #its blurry. its obscured. they can see their own tired expression... but can they really see their face? #and the flames. once again burning away at their memories. sil can watch herself forget in real time if she wanted. she's so tired. #she could burn away everything if she wanted. they could keep burning until there's nothing left at all. and that self destructive tendency #is tempting. god it is so tempting to say fuck it and give up. but no they cant. they have a job to do. they usually remind themself to kee #going in the mirror. even when the reflection doesnt always look familiar. but now theres also something else. a new glimmer of hope in #silhouette's otherwise bleak life. a girl. she doesnt know if they can have that happy ending. but she will do anything to keep her safe. #and for now that is enough. sil doesnt know if she will remember her own face or her own name but my fucking god she will not forget lucy's #anyway hi im normal about my ocs 😁 teehee #my art #doodle #digital art #colored sketch #oc tag #silhouette #lucille

[xiaoming56]

[Vice]

Hehe im a sucker for dramatic lighting

ALSO DONT SMOKE, KIDS!!

#also the animation looked better in my head qwq #anyways i love the irony of the voice hero having smoking as a coping mechanism #like yass kween collect those passively self destructive tendencies like pokemon cards #i may have drank too many sweet drinks oops #present mic #yamada hizashi #hizashi yamada #bnha #mha #bnha fanart #mha fanart #tw smoking #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #art #artists on tumblr

[sepulchritude]

Underrated dndads s2 fact is that Lark smokes herbal cigarettes

#of course he would #the oak family traditions got him one way or another #i did a google about herbal cigarettes bc of this and did y’all know that they cause a lot of the same health problems as normal cigarettes? #like they are objectively not much better for your health #they just don’t have the addictive component #did y’all also know that part of the reason why smoking is bad for you is that #when you inhale combusted materials you’re also inhaling carbon monoxide? #anyway isn’t it fun that a throwaway gag that lark smokes fake cigs #accidentally reveals a lot about his self destructive tendencies and his unwilling attachment to his family schtick #and maybe like. idk something something you have a duty to make up for what you’ve done so you can’t just self destruct #bc that would be too easy for what you think you deserve #so you smoke the ‘less dangerous’ version of cigarettes except they’re not actually all that better but the truth is you don’t actually care #like a halfassed attempt at sort of taking care of himself. which is so in line with everything about him #idk what they put in that family but them oak boys sure do got that oak family sadness #dndads #sepulchritudinous

[lnkedmyheart]

The fact that people insist that Oda had the best understanding of Dazai just because Dazai said he knew him best makes me understand just why the fandom has such a bad read on him.

The reason Dazai agreed with Oda's perception of him was because Oda didnt care that Dazai did the right or wrong thing, he was never gunning for the "you are better than this" or "stop trying to kill yourself" kind of concern. He was just letting Dazai be whatever without even an ounce of judgement and ultimately only reflecting Dazai's own self perception. But he was also looking at Dazai from the same perspective he used to look at himself. Seriously, I have seen people talk about how Oda understood Dazai better than anyone because he lived through similar events and had no light in his eyes or was a child assassin etc but that doesnt mean his perception of Dazai was good at all. He projected his own perceptions onto Dazai and like who even came to the fuckass conclusion that Oda had a healthy perception of himself???

#also we need to stop romanticizing accepting people with all their self destructive and toxic tendencies #thats not romantic and its not a good thing #itw god awful for Dazai's mental health and idk why this whole shit even became popular #cause now people actually insist that oh Dazai may have just been a child but he was a psycho who didnt give a shit about anyone #when it is repeatedly made clear that he had a tendency to infact care way too much and latch on to the first person who interested him #he cared about Chuuya's perception if him during dhc #he cared about Oda's perception of him during dark era #and he has cared about the ADA and Sigma's perception of him hence the aggressive and horrid masking #and he is hilariously bad at masking cause everyone is unsettled by his fake clownery #and despite how bad he is at it people still think he is actually apathetic and evil???

[sskk-manifesto]

MITCHELL AKUTAGAWA EPISODE!!!!!!!!!!

#MITCHELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #///AND/// AKUTAGAWA EPISODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Yosano and Kenji spotlight too. Episode written precisely for my personal liking #Too bad no Atsushi then it would have been perfect (╥﹏╥) At least we got his voice in the episdoe preview #Alright I **LOVE** Mitchell. This is not the space to talk about it properly but I just really like how flawed she is‚ #but also in a way that results funny and endearing. And I love love love how much she cares about her family and is loyal to it!!! #It makes her so noble and virtuous. I know she has so little screentime but really the way she's so harsh and in apparence self-absorbed– #But in reality so kind and altruistic... The way her hearsh ways are implied to be only a consequence of a life of struggles and her will– #to save her family's name through a noble behavior and appearance too... It makes her so complex and multilayered imo #AND just how her innate tendency to defend people spans out of her family too!!!! #In my interpretation she did NOT care for Hawthorne or like him. But she still gave her life for him because she just instinctively– #protects the people around her. I don't have any strong feelings for haw/mitch but like how to blame Hawthorne I would have– #fallen for her right that istant too. #Now to Akutagawa. I'm really endeared by this episode because I'm pretty sure that's when I started sympathizing with / liking him :') #Like that's the moment when the things Dark Era showed us and the canon Akutagawa behavior click together and the watcher goes “Oh. OH.” #At least I'm pretty sure it was for me. It's bittersweet but especially sweet. #One more thing is... Wow bsd really has been like *that* since the beginning hasn't it. It's kinda silly to think back to all the criticism #the latest arc got now. #The criticism regarding how the ridiculously high stakes have been solved seemingly effortlessly in a way that resulted very anticlimatic?? #That's ALWAYS been there. “Oh no the ada is done for if they found out our base!!” *holds literally ZERO consequences* #“Oh no the Guild is done for if they destruct Zelda!!” *holds literally ZERO consequences* #“Oh no the Guild knows were our clerk is!!” *holds near to ZERO consequences* #And #“Oh no Akutagawa died!” “Oh no half world population was tuned in vampires!” “Oh no Fukuchi obtained One Order!” #“Oh no Chuuya is a vampire siding against Dazai!” #It's really the same‚ isn't it? #But like‚ we're still glad all of it happened right? Because it makes the experience enjoyable lol. #It's really about enjoying the ride I suppose. #I have more to ramble about but I've ran out of tags so I'll be doing it on my main blog reblog later #random rambles

[tomsgreg]

I’ve said this before, but the boyfriendism Craig and Sean would have exuded if they were allowed to stay friends would’ve been so powerful the writers had to nerf them in s3.

#they also wouldn’t enable their s3 behaviors 😭 #but fr like Craig’s self destructive tendencies realizing he liked Sean and pushing him away. Sean’s acting out makes more sense when his #best friend seemingly abandons him and it’s not just emma (who’s dad was literally dying at the time like girl what was that) #its giving that scene in zoolander where they’re like ‘why you acting so messed up towards me’ but more aggressive and they kiss in the end #craig manning #sean cameron #degrassi the next generation #degrassi tng #degrassi

[nikkashidashipper]

typing "90s/00s teenage dirtbag playlist" into the youtube and the spotify search bar with no shame at this point and blasting that shit cause i may be cringe and delusional but also plagued by a wasted youth so this is really not going to help anything is it

#yearning for a life that simply couldnt have been but the idea of which feels so familiar and somewhat comfortingat the same time #saw scream 1996 for the first time and then two more times in under 24 hours and it altered my brain chemistry i fear #setting the vibes *just right* for doing my tshot #lmao #resisting the urge to watch trainspotting and fight club also because boy oh boy it would not help my current state #or breaking bad yknow #ive had a fever on and off for the past three-four days. i am not above blaming whatever this is on this fact #t4lx.txt #scream 1996 take one baybey #im choosing to ignore the fact that this is a harbinger of an increasing subconscious urge to spiral back into self destructive tendencies #none of those words are in the bible

[ovrarches]

Angelica hates her life and lives for the little things. Angelica is pretty and knows it. Angelica owns a Pilates reformer and actually uses it every day. Angelica is always right. Angelica makes poor decisions she tells everyone not to do but it’s fine because she’s “built different”. Angelica keeps secretly replacing Eliza’s goldfish with a new one when it dies. Angelica is like the only person in the world who actually keeps secrets. Angelica gets kicked out of the movies for talking. Angelica had an identity crisis when she realizes her sisters have grown up and don’t rely on her anymore

#Angelica is the exception to her own advice because someone needs to lose but also she can’t make peace with that decision #there’s this thomgelica (unhealthy) fic that perfectly describes Angelica’s self destructive tendencies but I’m to lazy to find it #hamilton

[benbraeden]

not to sound like a broken record, but a parent figure telling ben that they are proud of him would send him into a spiral. he subconsciously and desperately craves to hear an older figure say it to him, but when they do, he is plagued with a wave of guilt and imposter syndrome. he waits until he is alone, either back at his hotel or in his room in the bunker, and crumble beneath the weight of what is said to him and cry about the inner turmoil that plagues within as he feels that he does not deserve it, but it still heals some broken chip inside of him that he did not realize is broken.

#headcanon. #i really said angst today huh??????????????? #also with the way that ben has his own self destructive tendencies; he would likely leave that night and blame it on the fact that he found #a new hunt to go after and he would get back in touch soon. #just so that he doesn't have to face the aftermath of someone saying that to him or figuring out that he doesn't have that confidence.

[doodleodds]

BAM here’s some old train!palace stuff! It’s just thumbnails for a comic i never got around to finalizing,, but yeah i guess its bonus content now lol. now you can see how most of my nonsense starts xD

#i love taking lines from cannon and twisting them to fit my own purposes :) #i also love goro unapologetically getting to say that no! he WONT settle for just changing shido's heart! he still wants to kill this mf!!! #ooOooOOoh but the moral high ground- FUCK THE MORAL HIGH GROUND LET GORO KEEP HIS MURDEROUS TENDENCIES #goro hasn't and won't ever share the pt's morals and he's made it this far. like hell is he gonna squander his kill shot if he gets one #.....anyway i was originally going to end this with a 'just let me do this for you!!' line from goro to akira #like. it went from solely vengance for goro's mother in his head to vengeance for the lives shido made him take (& akira's) as well #so now destroying shido and destroying himself is like pennance almost. which i know isn't a new concept in goro redemption arcs #but like. selfish self destruction just gets me so good sometimes ok???? #anyway yeah uh enough rambling lol. is half of that even connected to this comic? not really but i was thinking about it so there it is lmao #cowardlybean this is mainly for you since you like the au so much ^^;;;; hope it lives up to the rest of it lol #maybe delete later? we'll see