#she said DEVASTATING AND PAINFUL oh wow

[pinkhysteria]

taylor regret fucking with that BUM so bad 😭

#she said DEVASTATING AND PAINFUL oh wow #bb24 #i hate him so bad because it shouldn't even have to be like that #those ppl made her feel like expendable shit and then she has him running around talking shit about her over goofy shit to top it off... ugh

[auras-moonstone]

say don’t go — ethan landry

word count: 3.2k

pairing: hockey player!ethan landry x fem!reader

based on: say don’t go by taylor swift

summary: ethan has to move to another state to play for his dream hockey team so he decides to break up with his girlfriend, leaving her heartbroken

warnings: angst. break-up. fluff.

author’s note: hiii! long fic bc of my absence:) LOVE writing about hockey player ethan 😫 by the way, i saw retribution the other day, i actually really liked it. it wasn’t as bad as people painted it.

Y/N AND ETHAN HAD BEEN DATING FOR ALMOST A YEAR, which meant that they knew each other like the back of their hands, hence why Y/N had the intuition that his boyfriend was planning on breaking up with her.

The distance started when Ethan was signed off to the Chicago Blackhawks. As soon as he finished college, he would move to Illinois and Y/N didn’t know where she would fit in his new life, if she would even fit. He hadn’t talked about it with her, he barely even mentioned hockey around her anymore. And she just knew—she would soon stop being part of his life and it was a matter of time until Ethan sat her down and tell her.

The waiting was sadness, and as the days flew by it was slowly driving her into madness. And then she finally got the text from him, asking her to go to his house. She drove there with a heavy heart, knowing it was going to be the last time she passed those streets.

Meanwhile, Ethan was pacing around his living room with a tight chest and tears threatening to leave his eyes. He did not want to do it, he had been pushing away the conversation because he wasn’t ready to let her go. He still wasn’t ready, but it was for the best.

When Y/N parked the car in his driveway and got out, she walked towards the entry with slow heavy steps. It was like standing in a tightrope—she held her breath so hard and felt like one wrong step might make her collapse to the ground. She didn’t want to reach the end of that metaphorical tightrope because nothing good was awaiting her on the other side. Yet, she had no choice, so with the knuckles of her shaky hands she knocked on the door.

Ethan stared at the door for a few seconds, and eventually ordered his body to open the door. He faced the most devastating sight—his girlfriend, standing there looking smaller than ever, with dark bags under her saddened eyes and wearing an expression of defeat. At first, he thought something had happened to her but the reluctance of meeting his eyes was enough to make him realize that she knew. She knew what was going on.

“Hi.” he said in a low pained voice. “Come in.”

She greeted him with just a nod and a pathetic attempt of a smile, aware that opening her mouth would just trigger the tears she was trying so hard to hold back. Y/N just wanted him to rip the bandaid off so she could walk back to her car and cry her heart out.

“Let’s sit on the couch.” he said, his heart breaking by her crest fallen state.

“Just say it, Ethan.” in her mind, the way the words left her mouth were harsh and sharp like a knife, but truth was, her voice reached the highest level of vulnerability. The pain in her voice was clear.

He swallowed down the knot in his throat. This was even more painful than he had imagined. “Y/N… I’m sorry.”

She hated herself for feeling the urge to wrap him in her arms and brush away his tears. He was the one tearing up the relationship, not the other way around.

“I don’t understand.” she frowned sadly, trying to make sense of the decision.

“I know you don’t… I just, I can’t do this anymore, Y/N/N. I’m going away, the first months are going to be rough. I need to show them they didn’t make a mistake when they chose me. I can’t afford any distractions” as soon as those last words left his mouth, he knew he fucked up.

Y/N flinched, and took a step back as if he had slapped her. “Oh, wow. That’s just the cherry on top, Ethan.”

“Shit, no. I didn’t mean it like that.”

“Maybe you didn’t mean to say it, but it’s what you think. That I’m a distraction. That’s why you’re breaking up with me.”

It wasn’t that. She would never be a distraction—not the bad kind, at least—, but he couldn’t tell her the real reason why he was breaking things off. She would try to fight it, and that’s not what he wanted.

“No.” he sighed. “I just need to focus on doing my best, and I won’t have time for a relationship. I can’t just keep dating you when I can’t give you what you deserve.” he took a step closer, and cupped her cheek. “I don’t want you to hate me. Please don’t hate me, I really think this is for the best.”

“I just… why didn’t you tell me this sooner? These past few weeks were hell, I was constantly scared of this moment to come. It was agonising.”

“I was so selfish, I know. But I couldn’t let go, I wanted to spend a few more days with you. I didn’t know I was already hurting you.”

“You always knew you were going professional.” she whispered. “Did you always know you would break up with me in the end?”

“I didn’t expect to like you so much.” he said truthfully. “You know I didn’t do relationships, so I thought the thing between us would end way before I had to leave.”

“And you couldn’t have told me our relationship had an expiration date? Why’d you have to lead me on?”

“I… I don’t know, Y/N. I thought it was obvious that we couldn’t do long distance.”

Y/N’s scoff resonated in the room. “No, Ethan. It wasn’t fucking obvious. I thought we would try…”

“For what? These things never work. And with my schedule, I don’t see how this could not end in disaster. Why would we risk it?”

Y/N didn’t even contemplate it, and blurted out the words she had been meaning to say for a while “Because I love you…”

Ethan’s mind went blank, and he stood there in front of her completely speechless and frozen. He didn’t even noticed the way Y/N’s eyes got glossy, the way her hands shook or the anxious glances she threw his way.

Finally, Ethan fell on his butt on his couch and buried his face in his hands. It was painful, the way he wanted to say it back and the strength it took to restrain that urge. Ethan loved Y/N, and he knew perfectly well that she would follow him anywhere head first, but he just couldn’t let her do that. Her whole life was in New York, no matter if she was willing to let go of that for him, that wasn’t what Ethan wanted for her life. What if she ended up resenting him for allowing that?

Y/N didn’t know how long she stood there, waiting for him to say something, anything at all, but he wouldn’t even look at her. It was like twisting the knife he had already pierced her with, and she needed to get out of there. The silence was so loud she wanted to scream.

“Guess you didn’t like me that much.” she laughed a humourless laugh. Guess she was his, but he wasn’t hers. It sucks that she had to found out that way. “Good luck, Ethan. That team is lucky to have you, and I’m sure the coach will think so too. You’re going to do so well.”

And then she walked away, and a small part of her was hopeful he would suddenly react and say ‘Don’t go’. But he didn’t, and she had to hold back the tears until she was in the safety of her car, where Ethan wouldn’t be able to hear how much he had hurt her.

MONTHS FLEW BY, and Ethan was still being haunted by those three words and the way things had ended with Y/N. He was living his dream—he was part of an incredibly team, his teammates had been super welcoming, as well as the fans, and he managed to bond tightly with some of them, they were winning matches and the coach was delighted with his talent. He should be the happiest man on earth, but something was missing and he knew exactly what, or who.

Some of his teammates preferred to enjoy the female and male attention that being famous brought to play the field, and others were fully committed to their partners. And then, there was Ethan, who didn’t want to play the field and he had let go of his partner and only person his heart had belonged to. Missing her was painful, especially knowing it was all on him.

Y/N watched every single game of Ethan’s, not matter how overwhelming it was. She loved seeing him achieving his goals and dreams and felt beaten every time the team lost and she had to witness Ethan’s crestfallen face. She still loved him very much, and missing him was the hardest thing in the world.

But the fact that she missed his face didn’t mean she was ready to see him again, which was why the news hit her like a truck.

“Are you okay? You look like you’re going to pass out.” her teacher asked worriedly.

Tara looked at her with pity, knowing exactly the reason behind her weird reaction to something that was supposed to be an incredible opportunity. “She’s just shocked.”

“Oh.” the teacher smiled. “I assume you’re a fan of the Chicago Blackhawks, then.”

“Something like that.” the girl managed to say.

Apparently, one of the professors had contacts in the team and they managed to convince the coach to let two of Blackmore’s top marketing students work on a special project that involved the team’s publicity. And Y/N had been selected, which meant that he would be seeing her ex-boyfriend for the first time in six months in less than twenty four hours.

THERE WAS A MIX OF NERVOUSNESS AND ANXIOUSNESS IN THE LOCKER ROOM. Knees bounced and no words were uttered because of the uncertainty of the situation.

“Morning.” the coach spoke, exiting his office to stand in front of the team. Rolling his eyes, he let out a laugh then he said, “Unclench your asses, boys, there’s nothing wrong.”

“Why’d you ask us to come minutes early, then?” the captain asked.

“I just wanted to tell you that the following practices and games are going to be a bit different.” the team exchanged confused glances. “We’re having two marketing students present. They’re going to work on the team’s image as their final project for college.”

“Oh, cool. What’s the college?” Chad, goalie and Ethan’s closest friend, questioned.

“Blackmore University. It’s in New York. I have a friend working there and he asked me if I would be up to working with the students.”

Ethan’s hockey stick fell from his sweaty hand, landing on the ground with a resonating thud. Every pair of eyes landed on him, but his shocked face was focused on the wall.

“You okay, bud?” Chad asked, shaking his shoulder.

“W-what?” he blinked a couple of times, then shook his head. “Yes, sorry. I’m just- nothing.”

“You know the school? You’re from New York, right?” the captain asked.

“Yeah… I actually go there. I’m finishing the year online.” he answered.

“Oh, shit.” Chad said, eyes widening as the realization kicked in. “She goes there, right? Tell me she’s not in marketing.” but Ethan’s anxious eyes answered for him. “Well, fuck.”

“What’s going on?” Wes, another teammate, asked.

“My ex… she’s a marketing student. We broke up the night before I moved here.” Ethan said running his fingers through his hair.

“Let me guess, it did not end well.” Danny grimaced.

“It wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t great either.” Ethan began to explain everything about that night.

“Why didn’t you say it back?!” the coach asked as if it had been the juiciest gossip he had heard in years. “You didn’t love her?”

“Of course I loved her. Fuck, I still do. So fucking much. And I miss her like crazy, I’m just not ready to see her yet. She probably hates me and I still think of her everyday.”

Everyone looked at him with soft eyes. Ethan was like a golden retriever, and everyone had a soft spot for him despite having meeting him a few short months ago.

“But no matter how badly I want her back, I can’t. She lives in New York, and I live here.” he sighed. “I’m probably overreacting, though, maybe she’s not one of those two students.”

“Well, you’re about to find out because they are already here.” coach said, looking at the text he had received. “Let’s go.”

It wasn’t hard for the team to realize that Ethan’s ex was there. The two teenagers couldn’t keep their eyes off each other, and the tension was obvious to everyone in that rink.

“So, what are we doing, bosses?” Chad asked Tara and Y/N once the introductions were made.

“Well, Y/N had this idea and I think is amazing.” Tara said, tilting her head at Y/N urging her to go on.

“You’re probably going to hate me.” Y/N started, which was followed by some Oh, god’s and groans. “So I thought we should focus on Tik Tok. Not only is the most popular app right now, but hockey players are super trending there.”

“Why?” the captain frowned in confusion.

Tara and her exchanged smirks. “Hockey rom-coms.” they said in unison.

“Of course.” the words left Ethan’s mouth unconsciously and followed by a deep laugh, remembering when he would catch Y/N giggling and swooning over fictional hockey players.

The beautiful sound went straight to Y/N’s chest. Even though part of her still resented the way he had left her, she couldn’t help but smile. At that moment, the feeling of having missed him was stronger than the hurt and sadness of their break-up.

Two minutes within his presence and she was already a mess. She didn’t know how she was going to survive getting used to being so close to him again, only to board a plan in a few days and go back to just daydream about him. She was already dreading to go back to New York, a place that didn’t feel like home anymore.

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS, Ethan lived his victory with pure ecstasy and happiness. Winning always felt good, but he never got to enjoy it fully because he had no family to celebrate it with. But now, even though it was not for him, Y/N was there in the stands. She was clapping and cheering with Tara, and when her eyes connected with his, he swore he was levitating.

“Hey…” Y/N said when he and Chad skated towards them. “Congratulations, guys. You were amazing as always.”

“Thanks, Y/N/N.” Chad smiled. “We needed that victory after the last match.”

“Don’t beat yourself up for that. That referee sucked. Honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if the team bribed him.” Y/N shrugged.

Ethan looked at her in surprise. “You watch our games?”

Y/N blushed and cursed herself internally. “Uh, yeah. Anyways,” she cleared her throat. “Are you going to celebrate?”

“We usually go to a bar after a victory. You’re very invited, of course. Drinks on us, you’ve been doing an amazing job in our social media.” Chad said.

“Told you. Miss Y/N is a marketing genius.” Tara pinched her cheek, making the girl squeal.

“She is.” Ethan said with a proud smile. And fuck if it didn’t make Y/N want to kiss him.

“We’ll drive you. You can go with me and Y/N can go with Eth.” Chad and Tara shared knowing glances.

“Perfect.” Ethan spoke up before Y/N could object. He gave her the keys to his car. “I’m going to take a quick shower, you can wait there.”

After a couple of minutes, Ethan climbed into the driver’s seat “Did you enjoy the game?”

“Yes. It was insane!” she said with an enthusiastic grin. “I’m really happy for you, Eth. You’re living your dream.”

Ethan forced a smile. “Yeah.”

Y/N frowned. “Well, don’t sound so thrilled. What’s wrong? You looked very happy out there.”

“I was. I mean, I am happy. For the first time since I played here, I can truthfully say I’m the happiest.”

“Why? You have won before.”

“Because it’s the first time I get to share my victory with someone I love.” he looked at her with bright eyes. “Every game, I would look at the crowd, hoping to see you there, cheering for me with my number on your back. But you never were, until today. And I have never felt so on top of the world.”

Y/N stared at him dumbfounded. “Eth… fuck. That’s… I- I watched every game. I’m so fucking proud of you. And I would’ve been here, you know that. But you left me.”

“I know.”

“I would’ve stayed forever if you’d said don’t go. I would’ve followed you everywhere. I told you I loved you, and you said nothing back.”

“I loved you, too. And if you hadn’t noticed yet, I still do. My dream had always been playing professional hockey, but ever since you walked into my life, you became part of that dream. I wouldn’t be happy without hockey, but being without you? It feels fucking void. And I’m sorry that I hurt you, I should’ve never let you go.”

“Why did you?”

“You have your family in New York, you have friends, you were about to finish the degree you’d worked so hard for… I couldn’t be selfish to ask you to come with me.”

“It would’ve been selfish to force me to come. But ask? That’s what you should���ve done. We could’ve talked about it. But you didn’t even fight for us, you made your choice and didn’t let me do the same.”

“I was scared you would’ve chosen to come with me, and then regret it and hate me for it.” he confessed, eyes glossing with tears.

“Babe, I could never hate you.” she said softly, brushing his dump hair away from his forehead. “You know what my decision would have been?” Ethan shook his head as he grabbed her hand. “I would’ve told you I could finish online. I would’ve told you that my family isn’t going anywhere, and that I could still visit them. I would’ve told you my friends and I would still be able to text everyday. And above all, that you’re the love of my life. That I want to be cheering for you on the stands with your number on my back. And then, depending on how the match goes, we’d go celebrate together or cuddle as I reassure you that everyone has bad games and you’re one of the best players I’ve ever seen.”

Ethan didn’t know it was possible to fall harder, but there he was. “Do you still want that?” he asked hopeful.

“More than anything in the world.” she pressed her forehead against his and they both smiled. “I missed you horribly. I don’t want to be apart from you ever again.”

“God, me neither. I’m keeping you forever.” he gave her a soft kiss. “You’re moving in with me.” another kiss. “I’m going to marry you.” another kiss. “We’re going to have kids.” another kiss. “And we’re going to grow old together.”

“I love you so much. That’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever heard and I can’t wait to live that life with you.”

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[quarantineddreamer]

✨ B's RebelCaptain Rec List ✨

Apologies in advance as I have NO DOUBT that I missed including some very talented individuals and their works in this list. (This is by no means comprehensive.)

I haven't been here all that long, but wow--since day one I've been blown away by the talent in this fandom and the dedication of all the creators.

So, thank you lovely souls for sharing your beautiful art (in all its many forms) for us to enjoy--and thank you RC community as a whole for being so lovely and welcoming this past year! I am truly grateful to be screaming/crying/rewriting canon with you 💖

Give Up the Ghost by @frostbitepandaaaaa

I mean...what can I say? I love all of Frost's writing, but this was the first work I ever read of hers and it is devastating and gorgeous and will make you lose your mind. I remember the first time I read it just...lingering on certain sentences because I was in awe of how beautiful they were. Just read it. Trust me. (And then check out her WIP 12 Days afterwards!)

threshold by @astromechs

Another writer whose works I love. (Okay, that's pretty much everyone on this list--the RC fandom is so frickin talented). But for me, this fic in particular stands out as one that gives incredible insight into Cassian's character--and an adorable story overall. Heartfelt and beautiful.

built on hope by @luciechat

I am particularly obsessed with chapter 3 of this collection of prompt-writes Getting Back Together (in the Cold). Lucie paints the picture so clearly and the tension throughout is delicious. Highly recommend reading this RC Hoth fic--and Lucie's other amazing works!

we were never going to make it by @fulcrumstardust

Okay off the bat: be mindful of the tags! This was a whumptober fic and it is BIG SAD. But it is also so, so beautiful. The emotion woven throughout cuts to the bone and as painful as it was, the premise of the story was very well executed. (And if you're looking for a lighter read--maybe a spicy one--Moria's one-shot SOLAR STORM has such an incredible setup. The sexual tension is so well done.)

The RebelCaptain Romance Collection by @agentjackdaniels

I couldn't choose just one from this collection! Luce writes the softest, sweetest, fluffiest stories for RC that you will ever read. (Which makes perfect sense if you're lucky enough to get to know her because Luce is such a genuine, sweet soul.) These fics are like a warm-hug for the soul--just what you need after watching Rouge One.

the things you said by @gaygingersnaps

Again: I am not usually one for Modern AUs but I think the RC fandom is changing me and the first I ever read was Eli's amazing fic. I am obsessed with how Eli writes Jyn's internal dialogue. It's so in character and sharp and will make you smile and shake your head and go "Oh, Jyn!" This collection of stories is idiots-in-love like nothing else and you will fall in love with the world Eli has so thoughtfully crafted for a modern-day RC.

objection, your honor by @andorerso

I'm not usually one for modern AUs, but this fic is just so much fun. The banter between Cass and Jyn is so in character and so sharp and witty and the whole time I was reading I had a grin on my face. (These two idiots.) I love all the little details Sissi considers in this AU (Chewie being the dog for example), but that's no surprise! She is the queen of AUs!

Tethered (to the Story We Must Tell) by @dilf-din

I just absolutely loved the setup for this fic. Jess manages to fit these characters into a magical world so seamlessly by embedding the most incredible details from the Star Wars universe. (I was obsessed with the "stormtroopers".) Jess's writing is so smooth and rich and will immediately grab your attention.

Coping Mechanisms by @mosylufanfic

I think this was the first fic I ever read of mosylu's! I love the way she writes Jyn--always perfectly in character, strong and sassy. But in this fic in particular, I love the softness she brings to Jyn in how she cares for Cassian. I found it to be a very beautiful, healing read. (But if you're looking for something a bit longer or more upbeat! I mean, take your pick. Mosylu is another author who is amazing at AUs and her works are always such fun reads.)

RC Proposal by @ninsletamain

I could have put any of nins' pieces down as a rec. (Like seriously go scroll her feed she's insanely talented and her work blows my mind everytime without fail). But I chose this one because it is just so rich and full of detail, I love the story it tells, and you cannot help but smile whenever you look at it.

Claw Machine by @winterdruid

Definitely an all-time favorite for me. I remember making a joke about claw-machine as a first date when I was doing a RO rewatch with some friends and then this masterpiece showed up on my feed and my jaw dropped?! It's so fun and cute and well-done and I reblog it every time I see it soooo.

Seashore (for RC Fluffbruary) by @adeptnenyim

I love the scenery, their poses, their expressions, the quote?! Ahhh all of it! Nen's art is so soft and special and gives me all the feels and this one is no exception.

BTS of RO Inspired by @art-question-mark

I have always loved the picture this piece is based off of. In my head, it is happy Jyn and Cass. In my head, it is canon. Natalie's style is so beautiful and I love some of the quotes Natalie pulls from the Rogue One novel to go with the art!

Pretty Cute by @muguathepapaya

This piece is super cute and exactly what they deserved. I'm obsessed. Gives me all the warm and fuzzies. Sunshine on a rainy day, so gorgeous.

Time to Wake Up by @eegnm

Okay are you noticing the theme yet? I love seeing these two happy, and this scene in particular is just so...warm. I love the cuddly vibes, their expressions, all of it. You can feel the love in it.

losers by @necr0mancers

I am obsessed with the look they are exchanging. Very conspiratorial and so true to them. I also just love the style of this artists' works and the sense of humor woven through many of their pieces.

Elevator Scene by @satmolly

Nope I actually do not have words for this one. I think it says enough. (This happened, and it happened just like this and it is so very beautiful).

Favorite Scene (beach) by @dramaticmusicplaying

Another one that leaves me speechless. (Okay, they ALL do I feel like I am not doing these artists justice I'M SORRY). I just think this piece captures the beach perfectly and I love the style and all the colors and I kinda need to cry after looking at it okay?!

Jyn/Cassian Smooch by @barrikae

I am totally obsessed with this artist's style and this image in particular is just: ahhhhh! You know? Like look at themmmmm. Thank you for this barrikae.

Space Travel by @freebooter4ever

Your honor, they are holding hands and they are so very sleepy and I am so very in love with this piece. I love the artist's style and again, amazing scene set. Lives rent free in my mind.

Tagging creators for this one vs specific sets (cause you CANNOT make me choose honestly) and linking this post I wrote awhile back about how incredible I think you all are! (As in: I specifically had RC creators in mind when I wrote that post.)

*This is the list I am most nervous about cause I am almost certain I am forgetting people so if you see this and you make gifs for RC please know I love you and your work <3

@bartowskis

@staticwaffles

@jyndor

@andorerso

@jemmasimmons

@sydneyadmu

@garethsedwards

@gizkalord

@kalikoris

@dailyrebelcaptain

@therebelcaptainnetwork

#dailyrebelcaptain #drcvalentinescelebration #rebelcaptain recs #and yup! im late with this 😅 it took me probably 6 hours to pull this together and i think i could have spent 6 hours more but #my wrist is starting to give me grief unfortunately #so here goes nothing #(i am super nervous to post this for some reason!) #3..2..1..go

[stars-n-spice]

THOUGHTS ON S3 EP 05:

as always, spoilers under the cut and my thoughts are in no way coherent or in the order of how things happen in the episode

it's just me going to be screaming about whatever comes to mind as i type this

holy shit y'all new comfort episode just dropped!

kid you not, after seeing the episode i deadass went, "Wow, I'm so glad that episode didn't absolutely devastate me!" while I was like,, sobbing

whole episode i was either crying, screaming, or punching a pillow

can't even cry anymore, don't got no tears left

ANYWAYS

I AM AN ABSOLUTE FUCKING CLOWN FOR THINKING WE WERE GOING TO GET A PROPER REACTION/CONTINUATION FROM THE LAST EPISODE

OF FUCKING COURSE THEY WERE GOING TO SKIP OVER IT AND JUST,, FUCKING DIVE RIGHT IN. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

what is it with this show and having what would be emotional reactions to heavy things off screen???

fanfic writers you know what to do

anyways,,

Omega being back with Lula :( and her new outfit is so cute I love it so much :((

THEM BEING BACK ON PABU!!!! <3333 and still sleeping in their ship lol

AZI!!!!! HE'S OKAY!!! HE'S ALIVE AND HE'S THERE AND I LOVE HIM AND I MISSED HIM :((

Crosshair practicing :( and his aim just,,, getting worse :(((

CROSSHAIR AND BATCHER ARE SUCH A DUO!! I FUCKING LOVED EVERY MOMENT WITH THE TWO OF THEM,, THE LITTLE PETS AND SMILES CROSS GAVE BATCH UGGHH

will never ever ever ever get over cross and omega's dynamic,, I love them so much and I'm so glad he's back

I don't know how many times i went, "They're all back together!!" in this episode only to remember Tech isn't there and then sob violently

BUT ECHO FINALLY RETURNS - i'm kinda bitter about how he reacted to seeing Omega again because it seemed like,, like he was completely unfazed by the fact she was captured and sent to a hidden facility conducting god know what experiments BUT at the same time,, I could see it being that Echo always knew she was more than capable of escaping on her own so he wasn't too worried but STILL

"What no hug for me?" <- AAGUUHH,, and then the little smirk Crosshair gave after Echo's response,, they have no bad blood, love that

when Crosshair started talking about the facility I fucking KNEW he was talking about Barton IV and i was in so much pain,, agony even

Was NOT expecting them to return but I'm so glad they did because it played such a vital role in Crosshair's growth and returning to it and growing even more,, just,, aguughhh

WHEN HE FOUND MAYDAY'S HELMET,, FUCK FUCK FUCK minutes before that scene i was like "i swear to god if he finds something from Mayday-"

MAYDAY COME BACK YOU DIDN'T DESERVE THAT,, YOU DID SO MUCH :((

Hunter and Cross' dynamic in this was so fun to watch but also had me gnawing on my hands

could NOT get over the fact that they brought the dog with them on the mission, idk why but that's fucking hilarious to me

OMEGA CALLING CROSSHAIR "LITTLE BROTHER" AND CROSS CHUCKLING AT IT SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!

WHEN WRECKER GAVE CROSSHAIR BACK HIS ARMOR I FUCKING KNEW HE WAS THE ONE WHO KEPT IT AGUUGHHH

god I love Wrecker so much

"Omega trusts him and that's enough for me" FUCK

he wasn't super prominent in this episode but everything he did made me love him more

WHEN HE WAS DIGGING IN THE SNOW?? fucking lost it

THE HUG AT THE END???? FUCKING FINALLY???? THE WAY HE IMMEDIATELY KNEW AND HE JUST,,, FUCK,, RAN UP TO THEM????

like you can tell the whole episode Wrecker was just waiting for the two of them to work things out

i missed all of them so much

it was so good to see them all work together

GOD FUCKING AUGUUHH

THE FIGHT CROSS AND HUNTER HAD??? CROSSHAIR READING HUNTER LIKE A FUCKING BOOK??

when he started to blame Hunter for his failures?? oh fuck as an oldest child that hurt SO much and I was so scared Crosshair was going to pull a "You're the reason why Tech is dead" card

But your honor they are brothers, I love them so much

"i said talk to him, not argue with him!" - "he started it" <- crosshair you cannot beat the youngest brother allegations

hey Crosshair probably didn't tell his brothers about his shaky hands,, ahahahahahaha,aha,,ahh,,,ha..

lmao love that being in a life or death situation and saving each other from it was what made Hunter and Cross start to trust each other

this episode was so great you don't understand

and i'm so happy nothing like,, terrible happened in it

yes I cried a fuckton throughout it but,, at least Omega is still with them and at least Echo is back (for now) and at least they're slowly starting to make up and be a team again

anyways,, nice episode,, can't wait for things to just get worse from here

#tbb #tbb s3 #tbb spoilers #tbb s3 spoilers #the bad batch #bad batch #tbb hunter #tbb crosshair #tbb echo #tbb wrecker #tbb omega

[punsmaster69]

14/NOV/20XX

paps is feeling much better, but it's probably for the best that he doesn't jump straight into his usual routine immediately.

undyne refuses to train with him until she's sure that he's completely healthy again.

he's pretty upset about that, but he's not letting the time go to waste.

paps and frisk are up there hanging out in his room.

they're doing a puzzle, i think.

said it would be,

"QUITE THE UNDERTAKING."

they've been planning this for a while, apparently.

——

those two've been up there a while.

haven't seen either of them in about three hours.

wasn't kidding about it being an undertaking.

...

maybe they're just really bad at that puzzle.

——

"knock, knock."

"...Why's he saying it out loud?"

"HE JUST DOES."

"IT'S SO THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE TO 𝘈𝘊𝘛𝘜𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠 KNOCK."

"...knock, knock."

"YOU CAN COME IN!"

sprawled out over the floor was probably a couple thousand puzzle pieces, a few piles of them, and about half of a picture.

"...wow."

"It's taking forever."

"YOU DON'T HAVE TO STAY IF IT'S BORING YOU, FRISK."

"Wouldn't still be here if I wasn't enjoying it. I'm in this for the long haul!"

"seems like a.. unique form of torture."

"SANS, WE USED TO DO THESE ALL THE TIME TOGETHER!"

"you did most of 'em."

"NOT TRUE! YOU HELPED."

"OH, WAIT! DID YOU COME IN HERE FOR SOMETHING?"

"just checkin' in. need anything?"

frisk looked between two identical pieces.

"A bigger brain..."

"WE'RE DOING ALRIGHT, I THINK."

"ok. good luck on your torture."

"IT'S NOT TORTURE!!"

——

"knock, knock."

"FRISK, CAN YOU PLEASE MOVE THAT PILE?"

"OKAY, YOU MAY ENTER NOW!"

"heya."

"brought some appy slices."

"APPLE SLICES ARE A SOPHISTICATED AND MATURE SNACK! DO NOT CALL THEM-"

"Thanks for the appy slices, Sans!"

"....THAT."

"seems like you got out-ruled. you gotta call 'em appy slices now."

"I WILL NOT."

"i take it you don't want any, then."

"WAIT! I DO!!"

"gotta use the right name."

he sighed.

"SANS, COULD I PLEASE JUST HAVE THE.."

"APPY"

"SLICES?"

"...THAT STUPID GRIN ON YOUR FACE IS EXACTLY WHY I DIDN'T WANT TO!!"

"it's just like when you were a babybones..."

"What? You took care of Papyrus as a baby? I knew you were older, but I figured it was by like, two years."

"nope. seven."

"Wait, that means..."

"...Papyus, you're-"

"DON'T SAY IT."

"he's old."

"AM NOT!"

"ancient. decrepit."

"NO!!"

"he's falling apart as we speak.."

"GET OUT!!!"

he took the plate of apple slices, pushed me to the door, and closed it behind me.

——

.....

they're still up there.

how they have the attention span to do that for so long is a mystery.

every time i bring water or snacks up, it's looked like they're getting closer and closer to being done, though.

——

the absolute pain radiating off of frisk and paps upon discovering there was one piece missing...

it was devastating.

......

turned out, the piece was just in the box.

anyway, the finished puzzle's neat.

it's a big townscape, with a bunch of tiny details and scenes and whatnot.

pretty cool.

pretty big, too. sorta taking up a lot of the floor.

but they don't wanna destroy it just yet, so they're just..

sitting around the finished product.

waiting for the sadness of packing it up to dissipate, i guess.

"you could just glue it together."

"THAT COMPLETELY RUINS THE POINT OF A PUZZLE!!"

"THE POINT IS THAT YOU HAVE TO PUT IT TOGETHER TO SEE THE IMAGE!"

"NOT JUST HAVE THE WHOLE THING."

"Sucks to get rid of it, though."

"....IT DOES.."

——

both sat and stared at it for a while.

frisk eventually made the first strike, tearing up a corner and shattering the pieces everywhere.

"Nothing lasts forever!! Puzzles be da-"

"Danged!!"

"..sure. whatever that means."

following suit, paps started ripping pieces off as well.

"NYEH!! THERE!"

"..Yeah, Nyeh!"

"NO, NO. PUT MORE FORCE BEHIND IT!"

"Nyeh!!"

"MORE!!"

"Nyeh!!!!"

"PUT YOUR ALL INTO IT!!!"

"NYEH!!!!!!!"

"PERFECT! YOU SOUNDED VERY COOL!!"

——

that puzzle apparently really tuckered paps out.

(although, maybe it's partly because he's just barely getting over his cold.)

didn't even have to read to him before he went right to sleep.

#undertale #journal #sans #papyrus #frisk #papyrus and frisk #sans and papyrus #skelebros #NYEH!!!!!!

[crimeronan]

had my original fiction opening critiqued at irl group tonight! under a cut because this is long and it'll be painfully boring for people who have not been following my Anxiety Saga (and who do not care about the OCs), but tl;dr: very positive :3 we went a half hour over our usual time just discussing the story.

the prose, imagery, and exposition were all highly praised, ppl said the style is easy to read & a few even said it scans as fully publishable right now

didn't have a chance to get into the whole magic-as-autoimmunity meta or a Million Other Things because this story is a BEHEMOTH. but if i write more then i can get into it at other sessions :3

UNANIMOUS praise for the depiction of magic as painful/costly, one guy says he usually hates fantasy magic bc the stakes feel too low. but these didn't

characters were much more polarizing. everyone had a slightly different interpretation of and different emotions about the various narrators

also nearly every time someone said "this character thing didn't work for me" or "i hated this character detail," someone else would pipe up like "actually that was great for me personally. you should keep it" which made me laugh. THRILLED to accomplish this

pretty strong majority opinion that sol is an insane sociopath, i got some 'i'd like to see more depth in her' feedback until one woman said "my problem with her is that she's supposed to be super powerful but then her narration is exactly as neurotic and hypervigilant as your reader proxy's" while i was Vibrating With Excitement like YOU HAVE IDENTIFIED THE THING I DID ON PURPOSE YOU DID IT YOU GOT THE UNRELIABLE NARRATION IM YELLINGGGG

pretty unanimous empathy with and concern for the reader proxy narrator who's in a Very Bad Situation. some devastation upon finding out i don't plan for her to narrate the entire novel. about half the group was like "but... but everyone else is. everyone else is an evil sociopath :( i like the girl :(" sorry guy.s. i promise i'll make you want to read about them before i rip ur girl away

i cut some explicit/graphic threats of sexual and physical violence because i thought they went too far, despite this being psychological horror. three ppl gave me the feedback "i need to see some kind of explicit threat to really know the stakes here" i'm never questioning my dark edgy shit again. every character is fucked forever. amen

ONE READER DID CLOCK DEVIN AS TRANS and it was the Same One who clocked sol perfectly. she was like the mention of scruff jarred me so much that i googled the dictionary definition of scruff. what's the deal there & i was like oh. transgenda. & she was like I THOUGHT IT WAS SOMETHING LIKE THAT

everyone else: wow i did not notice that at all. and/or i assumed the scruff was leaves or twigs not stubble

OH AND!! i got a note that my character dialogue is all extremely distinctive. which was Such A Relief because i Know my fanfic dialogue is distinctive but i wasn't sure if i was replicating that with the OCs. it's hard to figure out how people talk & make it different from how other people talk when you yourself are only one person with one speech pattern.

very good positive experience. the problem now is that if i want to talk about other aspects of the story like...... literally everything, literally everything about everything to do with the story..... i gotta. i gotta write it. oh god.

#original fiction #long post #havent reread or edited this its stream of consciousness. im sleepy

[franklespine]

Yo not that anyone cares but it is really late at night, my thoughts are in no way eloquent but jesus why was 15.09 kind of crazy. Oh yeah Sam the woman which you have just started opening your heart to again as your first romantic involvement in literally forever, learning trust and vulnerability again with someone, yeah turns out she was some drone sleeper agent sent by god. Yeah he actually wanted a romantic subplot so he nudged you in that direction.

Sam really is sort of like Prometheus, like chuck said, in the sense that from the pilot he has been tied to a rock to get his organs torn out of him and then just when they heal he gets them torn out all over again every single day - cause what the hell is this??!! Then if Eileen sleeper agent wasn't enough, now Chuck is making her stab Sam in his festering bullet wound??? The knife twisting too?? Being magiced into silence whilst Sam tried to pretend like he isnt in so much pain and comforting her saying he knows it isnt her doing it.... sedate me rn... say sike.... Then to have god look at Sam and wonder how he is still so defiant wow thats Sam for you haha suck it. But then him showing Sam the future without him there to moderate and trim the hedges... uh oh.. shit does not look good. And then

THE DEAN WHO RAISED ME - HED NEVER GIVE UP

Devastated.

The faith he has in Dean is unmatched, despite everything, I can't.

Then to see Sam so defeated at the end there - chuck watches as Cas desperately rolls him the thing, Dean yells at him to crush it, and Sam just cant do it. The future that he saw is just too overwhelming and probable and oh god.

#supernatural #spn #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #s15 #spn 15x09 #sam can never catch a break omg #like i just had to say something abt it rn cause just its insane #sue sam for falling in love i guess #cant have that #eileen saying she doesnt know whats real at the end????!!!! #eeuughhh chuck prepare yourself #i am coming #like conceptually this episode was great #idk how it did executing it lmao but whatever i have a flawless imagination so thats all i can ask for

[hyunjinspark]

I'm going to go out on a [maybe slightly unpopular?] limb here and say, i think Hyunjin hasn't been unjust in pushing yn away and I think yn has been a little too into self loathing to see it. She seems to have this very strong belief that Hyunjin doesn't want her. But she was the one that told Hyunjin that Felix confessed his love to her and then he figured out that they kissed. She wouldn't explain why that kiss happened nor explain that she's actually in love with Hyunjin and has been since long before she even knew who he was (and I STILL want to know if he remembers her from that first time at Aera's grand opening). So as best as he can tell, another guy that has known her her whole life loves her and they kissed. His immediate reaction to that was basically going silent, and then the gradual distancing leading to complete cutting off, which feels like a deeply hurt Hyunjin thing to do. Pair that with how Chan and Kairi's relationship fell out around the same time, a relationship he seems to really respect and perhaps wants to emulate, I think it makes total sense that he shut down and closed off. Yn also hasn't exactly been reconciliatory to him (which I also think she is 100% justified in feeling, btw) but honestly, I don't think she can expect him to know that she is both completely in love him and was completely devastated by him cutting off contact when she has expressed neither of these things in words aloud, other than a few passive aggressive statements and being mad and not wanting to be around or speak to him. AND NOW she has kissed yet another man in front of him that Hyunjin also saw her hugging, like- girl, use your words and reflect yourself in your actions! I love yn, truly. I just really want her to see how her words and actions affect Hyunjin in the same way she has allowed his words and actions to affect her. When the tags for ch 17 included Hyunjin being mean [with emphasis], I was really worried what would happen between them. But then I feel like what I really saw was a lot of pain and confusion and coping mechanisms coming from him, like getting frustrated. He has admitted being insanely attracted to yn, but I think he is also obviously completely in love with her too. A lot of his actions feel very typical of a man realizing that for the first time, and not knowing how to handle it, not knowing if he's ready for it, if he can make it work in his relatively complicated life. So he's protecting himself and doing what he thinks protects her too, even if it it hurts them both, because that makes sense in his own dumb-man-in-love logic. Anyway, sorry for my long, rambling mess and for maybe making a bunch of wrong conclusions from your intent. But thank you so much for writing this insanely engaging fic! Best of luck heading back to uni <3

oh wow i actually love this, and the time you took into writing it. i have to agree with the intent you pointed out of both hyun and yn. yn definitely hasn’t been clear about the extent of her feelings for him, and even if it does feel obvious through their conversations neither of them have ever explicitly said that. honestly idk what to say because you’ve summed their actions and emotions up really well. i love that you went in depth to it and analysed it so objectively.

thank you for reading and for making me so excited about sharing this lovestory with you all. :)

#star lost with you

[goddess-aelin]

This is going to be such a long post but I feel like I need to get my thoughts out after the angsty ending from A Light in the Flame.

Overall Thoughts:

Umm I thought it was amazing. I know a lot of people were saying it was repetitive and I definitely get that but at the same time, I would literally read 600 pages of Nyktos and Sera eating breakfast so.... Anyway though, I loved the character journeys. I think good characters are what makes a good book and even if the rest is confusing and angsty, it's those character-driven moments that redeem it.

I've said it once and I'll say it again. This prequel series is so much better than FBAA. Not hating on FBAA but I just feel like Nyktos/Sera is so much more well-developed than any relationship in the main series. I love every single side character (yes, even you, Rhain, when you're being rude).

I was hooked from the beginning. How can you not be when it starts with the whole prophecy thing and continues from there with almost constant action. The first half was definitely repetitive, I can totally see that. But I also think that repetitive-ness helped to get the point across that Nyktos cares about Sera. Not the embers, but Sera. Even before they had any convo about forgiving her, I think his actions were speaking louder than words. Though it was a constant battle of "Sera, no." *Sera does the thing.* "How dare you not value your life. *Fucks* Ya know, the usual. Lol. Some of my new fave sera/ash scenes came from this book.

- I adored when he set up a bath for her and everything- it was such a sweet gesture.

-When he took her to the pool and literally just played and had fun, especially because he knew she missed her lake.

- The "I want to be your consort, Nyktos." and Nektas just laughing and knowing.

-The way they both are always stunned by each other. Like they do such sweet things and they are always, ALWAYS, surprised.

-The entire scene of Rhain asking her if she was in love with him and her not being able to answer because she had no idea what it felt like either.

-Her whole breakdown in the carriage because "Oh my gods, I might be in love with him!" Loved every minute of it.

- And then of course, him trying to get her to breathe and calm down when she was about to freak out over this.

-THE FOREHEAD KISS AT THE CORONATION WHERE EVERYONE CAN SEE AND HE DID IT JUST BECAUSE HE COULD. I die

-The sweet but angsty talk about Veses that they needed to have tbh.

**Nyktos is literally the ultimate book BF, I said what I said. It's honestly refreshing to see this 200+ y/o male character that has like no sexual experience whatsoever yet it doesn't demean him or negate him as weak. Love that for him.

Non romantic scenes that melted/broke my heart:

-Sera holding Jadis when she fell asleep and Jadis feeling comfortable enough to switch into human form.

-Reaver then getting the blanket for Jadis and just being a weird little kid. I love it.

-Jadis giving a kiss on the forehead to Sera before going to Kolis. Sera's gonna be such a good mom even if one of her children is a giant piece of shit.

-Ector trying to calm Sera down in the carriage and just talking to her.

- The friendships with Aios and Bele and pretty much everyone just finally forgiving Sera.

-Ugh going back to see Ezra! I needed more sister love tho tbh. They didn't even hug!

Now for the painful parts:

-Aios dying. Like wow. This 100% is number one. I was devastated when Sera saw Ector's decapitated head. But then she saw Aios' red hair and I literally almost threw my damn book. I'm so happy she's ok in the end but RIP Ector.

-When Sera saw Nyktos with Veses. I know we got an explanation for it in the end but I was incredibly stressed and about to unstan Nyktos. I hate cheating (even if that's not what it was) as a trope and tbh I hate miscommunication as a trope. So this entire part of the book was just devastating to me.

-Sera's reaction to the above. She was in love with him already, she just didn't know it. I felt her reaction so viscerally, though. I suppose that's a testament to JLA's writing in this book.

-Sera constantly being told that she's going to die and there's nothing that can be done. Just when they think there might be another way, nope it's just death again. I love that Nyktos is fighting so hard for her and I have some theories that I'll make another post for, but I do find it very ironic. The entire situation was Sera was meant to make Nyktos fall in love and then kill him. Oops except he can't love. And now instead, she's the one who fell in love and now he has to kill her to literally save the world. What a 180. A fabulously done 180 but a shocking one, nonetheless.

Another post will be coming about theories!

#alitf #a light in the flame #alitfspoilers #alitf spoilers #fbaa spoilers

[bi-demon-ium]

an extremely stupid snippet i wrote and never posted just to offset that devastating angst slightly<3

featuring: nicholas being extremely high (for medical reasons) and also extremely enamored with milligan

(ao3.)

Nicholas was extremely out of it right now. Extremely, very out of it.

Namely, absolutely loopy.

He smiled, a little dizzily, up at Milligan.

“Wow,” he said, voice slower than usual, almost slurred. “You’re… mmm. Whoo’re you.”

“I am Milligan,” Milligan said, solemn as an oath.

“Mllgn.”

“…close enough.”

“He’s on the good shit, huh?” said Number Two.

“Yes,” said Milligan, and then, over-enunciating, “He is on the ‘good shit’. One tends to be after taking that many pain meds, admittedly for good medical reasons.”

“He’ll be fine,” said Rhonda reassuringly.

“Th’strs… are beautiful,” said Nicholas, staring up at the ceiling.

“The stars?” Number Two repeated, raising an eyebrow.

Nicholas looked over at them, unfocused. “Mm.” he said, and then he seemed to, as much as he could, focus on Milligan. “Ohhh,” he said. “Stars.”

Milligan’s face absolutely did not feel hot, and Number Two and Rhonda could Shut It.

He stepped closer to the bed—pointedly ignoring the looks Number Two and Rhonda exchanged, each full of amusement at his expense—and said, gently but firmly, “Mr. Benedict. Do you know where you are?”

Nicholas blinked at him, eyes slow and huge like a kitten’s.

“…Hospitl?” he said, surprisingly coherent.

Milligan winced. “Not exactly,” he said.

“Ah,” said Nicholas wisely. “Bad hpsltl. hoss—spit—all. Yes.”

Milligan sighed.

“Oh, oh, ohohoh,” Nicholas gasped. “Millgn. Cl’sr.”

“Closer?”

He nodded eagerly.

Milligan slowly, hesitantly, leaned forwards.

Clumsily, Nicholas reached forward, fingers trembling a little with the effort, and then—gently, and ever-so-carefully, brushed a long strand of hair behind Milligan’s ear.

Then he let his arm fall back and beamed. “Bttr!” he declared.

Milligan was not blushing, no matter how much Rhonda was snickering.

“Very pr’tty,” Nicholas said, very seriously. “Nice hair.”

“He is very lucky I don’t have a camera,” said Rhonda.

Milligan sighed. “…thank you, Nicholas,” he said.

Nicholas blinked up at him almost dolefully. “Oh,” he said. “Y’cll’d me… you said my name.”

Milligan closed his eyes for a moment, then opened them again. “Yes,” he said, feeling it was safest just to agree.

Nicholas beamed at him, incredibly bright and unrestrained. And then he fell asleep.

“We’re just gonna leave you two alone,” said Number Two, clearly about to laugh.

Milligan glared at them both as they left, although there was no real heat in it.

(When Nicholas woke, he called Milligan “handsome” three times, “beautiful” six, and just said “wow” upon seeing him twice. When a curl flopped in his face at one point and he just sort of stared at it cross-eyed, Milligan gave into temptation and gently brushed it aside, and Nicholas looked at him like he’d just hung the moon. Milligan, of course, definitely only stayed because someone needed to stay by his bedside, and the others had cruelly abandoned him to the task. Not because Nicholas kept looking at him as though he has the secrets to the universe written on his face.)

(Later, when the medication had worn off, Nicholas didn’t seem to remember anything. Until Rhonda had slyly asked if he thought Milligan was ‘as beautiful as the stars’ and he’d gone red and dropped what he was holding and then acted entirely too suspicious in his denial of whatever she was talking about.)

#nicholas/milligan #NO SP OILERS HERE #mysteriousfisherman #mbs disney #my writing #snippet

[therrerium-valkryonia]

Heroic Call

Lilith is a beautiful woman with the figure of an hourglass and the fit built body of mythological gods having the most beauty above others but as physically beautiful as she was her mentallity was dark and messy being a very tough mind and getting pregnant with no evidence of having sex or a father she was in a mental torture chamber of madness or pain but she still works as a vigilante with a suit that is similar to moonknight but has more terrifying differences like the spikes on the suit pointing upwards with a a big round chest and being tight..... very tight with the colors being more of dark blues and greys and having glowing blood red eyes and a having monstrous claws and an scaly armored look but she has the powers not the suit.

"Those who dare hurt the innocent shall face my nightly devastation of terror" As she speaks in a female version of Khonshu as her spiked hood flows with a blue fiery mist in the wind in the night as she jumps down and kills several gang members in a quick fashion by snapping a guys neck and blocking and uppercutting the other guy and dodges a guys knife and grabs his arm breaks it and proceeds to slam him through the car killing him, an out of breath Lilith speaks "Well that was quick and easy maybe a bit too much for me and my baby isn't that right sweetie oh goodness I really wanna meet you." When a powerful contraction dilates her pussy wide open making Lilith drop down a bit spreading her right leg outward dropping down the baby quite a bit and she grips onto her big oval belly quite tightly "OOOH, Wow you are really feisty aren't you?" As she whips her red hair around making the bright hotel light shine brightly in her emerald eyes blinding her for a moment and then she hears a scream "Somebody help me! Please! AAAAAHH" Lilith known as the Khonathulu Reaper rushes to the scene finding a woman with whip marks on her back and she pulls her behind her back and opens her hand and blasts a huge beam of blue energy saving the teenage girl and she says in tears "Thank you, I didn't know how to escape him he always chained me and raped me" Khonathulu Reaper hugs her and shadow dashes to a amazing place she knows as L.O.V.E a building made for those in need of help for whatever reason for free they are a donation based company and are very humble an so she drops her of there with assurance "You'll be okay here and have a great time I promise you, Okay" She said sweetly and hugs her and jumping off to a nearby report of a shooting in the area.

Full of Mercanaries and Assasins she was extremely careful being cautious and vigilant of her surrondings to be safe and finds them in a hidden room with a bunch of weapons and money as if someone paid them and still crawling in the vents quietly she finds the perfect ambush spot but takes no chances of danger and drops a flash grenade and blinds them with a bright light and she drops down on one of the guys ripping through his flesh and tearing him in two and ran towards the guy with sunglasses and blocks a right hook and dodges a left hook and trips him, proceeding to crush his head and next one she jumps up and flips backwards to land and slit open a guys abdomen with and hook kick and she dodges and blocks all bullets from a guy in a suit as she proceeds to dash at him and spin kick him with a right hook uppercut through his skull and there they go "Wow that was really easy and bloody but it will do, it will do" As another contraction hits her this time holding on to a shelf she slides her legs wide open forcing the baby to slide down further and her other hand holding hee belly "Shit!!, Ow ow that really hurts, jeez calm down for a little bit please baby, mama is trying to save people right now". As she walks back & forth and eventually climbs back into the vents and leaps out the building.

She immediately get grab by a policeman needing backup for his team as a group of 5 men started shooting the police cars as she sighs "Alright, Here we go c'mon cooperate with me now baby I really don't need to pop in a middle of a fight, okay. Good" As she rubs her belly in a soft massaging circular motion to calm her baby down and so holding her belly's side she shadow dashes through the vehicles of the shooting prisoners and she went full martial artist muay thai blocking all five men and knocking out two with a bicycle kick side block sweep the leg and then getting hit in the belly she moves back in pain hugging her belly as he broke her water and as her body pushes out the baby on it's own but she fights against it and dodges the guys attacks and gets her arms clashed with the others guys arms and kneeling on the ground as Khonathulu Reaper pushes down and pops out the head and neck making her labia form a teardrop shape and she gasps in pain and blasts a huge energy shockwave against the other man and knocks him out and just dodges the other mans kicks and fists and she hellfire triple kicks the man knocking him out and sliding the baby down further and she falls to her knees now alone as the policeman went to get backup and the Bisexual Lilith pushes to her full strength and falls against a car spreading her legs and tearing through her underwear and bodysuit a loud scream and tear can be heard but alone in the night a pushing down as hard as she could her vision blacking, hearing ringing and pain searing she felt the whole baby's body pop out and she pulls the baby to her chest as stops it's loud cry and she grinned with delight and laid there as she kisses the baby's head and she was known as the Heroic Woman Who Fought As She Gave Birth.

#ask box #birth denial #birth kink #painful birth #labor #labor kink #pregnancy #pregnant #pregnant kink #pregnancy kink #birth #giving birth #birth fic #birth fiction #birth story #bisexual #pop #public birth #labor and delivery #lgbtqiia+ #left alone

[carry-on-every-neverland-magic]

MY RAMBLING MESSY THESIS ABOUT THAT FUCKING AMAZING FINALE UNDER THE CUT IM A MESS THIS POST IS A MESS I AM EMOTIONAL AND SWEARY AND NOT AT ALL OKAY HERE WE GO

FUCK ME FUCK ME THAT WAS THE MOST MAGICAL BEAUTIFUL FUCKING DEVASTATING SATISFYING EMOTIONALLY ANNHIALTALING FINALE I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN AND I CRIED THE WHOLE TIME AND IT GAH I CANT EVEN EXPRESS *TRIES TO CALM DOWN FAILS* I will write something more coherent and make some things too but right now I am so fucking overwhelmed that was perfect. Leia and Obi wan asdfgdhjfklasdfas precious, adorable, the fact she is carrying Anakin’s light along with Luke (and the Hello there to Luke was perfect lol) Obi wan being a fucking badass jedi again moving all those rocks AND HOLY SHIT THE VADER OBI WAN FIGHT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND GUT WRENCHING I WILL SCREAM IN A SEC but gotta say I loved Reva redeeming herself and Haja and literally all the characters in this show have been incredible and I love them all but wow I feel like I have witnessed some piece of history with that battle IT WAS STUNNING AND I AM WRECKED I MEAN FUCK WHEN ANAKIN’S VOICE CAME THROUGH GODDDD AND OBI WAN GETTING TEARFUL AND THE FUCKING MASK BROKE AND I EVEN KNOING OF COURSE SO WANTED ANAKIN TO DEFEAT VADER THEN I AM FUCKING DISTRAUGHT MAN

what I LOVED is that Obi wan is left with peace now that Anakin has truly died and he can remember him for who he was like in that touching scene with Leia when he said about her parents qualities 

Obi wan saying goodbye Darth ANSOLUTELY ANNHIALTED ME AND ANAKIN/DARTH SCREAMING FOR HIM HHE HAS NOT FOUND PEACE AS OBIKIN SHIPPER PALPATINE STATED HIS FEELINGS FOR HIS FORMER MASTER I DIED AND YES PALPS IS STILL A FUCKING ASSHOLE BUT HE HAS GOOD TASTE SHIPPING THEM AND HOLY SHIT VADER IS NEVER GONNA BE ABLE TO LET GO AND HES SO FULL OF PAIN AND RAGE IT HURTS SO UCH HAHA

This is such a shit post Im sorry ertsdjfkasd but Im in my room at 2am IN TEARS and feeling devastated happy overhwhelmed satisfied every emotion ever. This show has been beautiful, and the most human star wars entry ever. I am FEASTING I am sending my love to the entire cast and hope I can tell them and particularly Ewan and Hayden just what it measn to have my fave characters back in this absolutely beautifully crafted in every respect show. OH GOD WHEN LEIA LEFT LOLA IN OBI WANS POCKET ASDFGHJKL AND THE FUCKING VADER OBI WAN BATTLE I CANNOT MY BRAIN LEGITIMATELY CANNOT PROCESS THIS HE LOVES ANAKIN SO MUCH HE LOVES HIM STILL EVEN THOUGH HE HAS RESIGNED TO HIM BEING DEAD THAT TETHERING REMAINS BUT HE HAS CUT TIES WITH THE MONSTER WHO CONSMED HIM AND THATS SO POWERFUL. I LITERALLY HAVE A MILLION THINGS I WANNA SCREAM CRY AND SAY BUT RIGHT NOW I AM STILL IN TEARS AND SO OVERWHELMED. FUCK  I LOVED THIS ENTIRE ADVENTURE AND I WANT MORE AND I HOPE EWAN AND HAYDEN GET THE PRAISE THEY DESERVE <3 AND EVERYONE INVOLVED IN THIS SHOW. May the force be with you and them and may this story continue whether its clone wars or the future I WANT I AM BEGGING FOR MORE. 

DEBORAH CHOW I GIVE YOU MY SOUL

#obi wan kenobi spoilers #obikin #hayden christensen #ewan mcgregor #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #THIS IS A MESS I AM SO UNWELL #I AM NOT FUCKING OKAY #THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL MAN #I CANNOT FUNCTION

[fanfic-collection]

Loki x Reader: The Manor - 12

I'm BACK AND READY TO WRAP THIS THING UP! Thanks so much for the patience and everyone who has encouraged me to write

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You walked from your house to the Odin Manor. For your part, the time traveled quickly.

A thundering sound of hooves approached in the distance and you scurried to the side of the road so the carriage or rider could pass.

To your surprise though, it was Loki riding with Odin and Thor. You quickly scrabbled further away and bowed low. The carriage skidded to a stop.

“Woah!” Loki called, calming the horses.

You straightened up and waved your wrapped arm.

Odin grunted as he glared down imperiously from within the cart. Thor beamed at you from his seat and Loki jumped down from the carriage.

“Hello, dear lady.” Thor called from above.

“Boy! Get this cart moving, we have business in town.” Odin snapped.

Loki glanced between Thor and Odin then back to you. “I’ll walk the maid back to the manor, father, if that’s alright with you?”

Odin rolled his eyes and shrugged.

Taking this as a sign of ascent, Loki asked, “Shall we?”

As soon as you and Loki were far enough from the carriage to not be hit, Thor snapped the reins. The horses trotted away, dragging the carriage and her dark owner with them.

Loki looked down at you then bent to pick up your bags. “How was your vacation?”

“I spoke to the ex-cabby driver.”

Loki faltered in his steps for a moment and then continued walking beside you. “You did?”

You nodded. “What really happened with Odin’s first wife?”

Loki looked away uneasily.

After a long pause, Loki said, “I wasn’t born yet.”

Still walking, you waited for him to elaborate.

Loki sighed and rolled his shoulders uncomfortably. “It’s just, no one really knows for sure, and you know how Father is.”

“Has a right temper?” You offered.

Loki shook his head bitterly. “You should’ve seen him when Thor suggested running off with some peasant lady a year back or so. Damn near banished him.”

Your eyes widened.

“And when I…” Loki rubbed absently at his wrist. “Well, when Thor threatened to leave, I didn’t see much of a way out with being around Odin and his animosity.” Loki’s sleeves were long, but when he saw you looking, he quickly pulled his hand away. “That doesn’t matter now, though. Thor is content here, and I… I’m alive I suppose.”

You frowned wanting to reach out and touch him in some way, to offer consolation or solidarity.

In the end, you did nothing, just walking in silence.

“But Odin’s first wife?” You finally broke the silence.

Loki nodded. “She had a daughter with him, Odin refuses to say what became of her. Mother, Mother is less forthcoming. She shakes her head and changes the subject immediately. She seems almost fearful of it, but refuses to elaborate. They say Odin’s daughter had a dog. It was a great hulking, black hound, fierce as the day is long. And hulking really didn’t describe it, this thing was massive.” Loki stretched his arms out to show just how big he intended it to be. “It adored the girl. Hated everyone else though,” Loki muttered.

“Odin figured that the woman saw the dog coming at her, and in a fright, she fell in the well. No one could prove anything different. The dog was sent away and,” Loki shrugged. “Who knows what became of the girl.”

“Just sent away?”

Loki shrugged again. “The story gets unclear around that time. It was a great deal of mourning and pain. Mother brought Odin out of a deep depression, they both said. Odin was devastated at the loss of his wife. And then he met Frigga, Mother.” A pause. “As they say, the rest is history.”

“How big was the dog?” You thought of your first day traveling to the Odin Manor.

“Massive. They said the girl could ride on it as a toddler.”

“Wow.”

You arrived at the manor and made your way inside.

“Mother!” Loki called. “Mother the maid is back.”

Frigga appeared around a corner and smiled, clearly pleased. “Oh wonderful. How was your vacation, your parents?”

“Excellent, my lady, thank you.” You bowed your head.

Loki shot a conspiratorial look at you then back at Frigga.

“What is it?” Frigga asked.

“How long will Odin-Father,” he corrected himself, “and Thor be gone?”

“I believe they’re going to be gone until tomorrow evening. Why? Were you supposed to be with them?”

“I think it was a hunting trip, I am pleased to have found a reason to stay behind.”

“Very well. I think I will retire early. Merida has some leftovers on the table for the maid, and you if you’re hungry, Loki.”

Loki smiled and waved at Frigga as she walked away.

You stood with your bags at your feet, watching the exchange uncertainly.

When Frigga had vanished upstairs, Loki grabbed your arm. “No one has brought the tray to the attic for the entire time you were gone.”

You raised your eyebrows.

“And we never mentioned the other door that you’re not allowed to enter. It’s the cellar in the back of the kitchen, there’s no way you could accidentally wander upon it. But luckily,” Loki reached beneath his shirt and pulled out a small silver key, “I have the key.” He grinned.

Your eyes widened and you raised your bandaged arm. “Is that a good idea? The thing was able to attack me even when I was gone.”

“Come then, we’ll investigate in the morning when it’s light and Mother has gone gardening.”

“It’s a deal.”

#Loki x reader #reader insert #ficbit #multi chapter #Loki fanfic #the manor

[the-art-in-arthesia-is-loud]

RG-verse Characters as Random Quotes or Whatever That I Put In My Gallery (Part 2)

Fuck There's More

also features characters i have never mention before. whoops

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Destonio: Oh, my dad apparently died after I killed myself that one time.

Fate: ...Your mom.

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Fate: Wow, you're pretty short!

Destonio: What the frick frack diddily dack patty wack snick snack crack pack slack mack quarterback crackerjack biofeedback backtrack thumbtack sidetrack tic tac do you think you're doing?!

—

Tempestissimo: I will kill you.

Arghena: Basic threat, overused, lacks serious weight.

Spinel: Pee your pants!

Arghena: Up-and-coming, respectable, unexpected.

Raven: I will pee your pants.

Arghena: Full of the promise of grief and terror, absolutely devastating.

Unknown Levels: Your pants can't wait for my pee.

Arghena: And here we have it, the most terrifying sentence in the universe!

Destonio and Retribution: ...

—

(It is now 3 AM.)

Pamolia: Pupa, wake up.

Pupa, annoyed and absolutely tired: What is it...?

Pamolia: When butterflies fall in love, do they feel humans in their stomach?

Pupa: Wh- wait...Pamolia, what the fuck?!

—

Eternity: Achoo!

Momento: Bless you!

Eternity: I'm already blessed everyday I spend with you.

Momento: Eternity...

Eternity: Momento...

Fate, annoyed out of her mind: Fate.

—

"I can't find a song to express how gay I'm feeling."

— Dawn, for some reason???

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"I don't care." Destonio said caringly, as he cares deeply.

—

Primeval: Good morning to those awake!

Technicolour: And good night to those asleep.

Abstruse: And goodbye to those who will die.

———

Miracle: Some freshmen attracted to fire.

Miracle: Wait.

Miracle: That did NOT sound right.

Pamolia: Yeah for sure it didn't.

Pamolia: Does she fuck the flames or something?

—

Arghena: Gay gay homosexual gay!

Arghena: I hate it here.

Abstruse: Happy happy great big.

Abstruse: I really hate it here.

—

Destonio: IN FRONT OF MY SALAD?!

Fate: SPECIFICALLY IN FRONT OF YOUR SALAD!

Fate: FUCK YOUR SALAD!

Destonio: MY SALAD........!!!!!!!!!

Fate: *Flips table (with Destonio's salad still on it)*

—

Kumo: *Was rambling about how much she hates her life* I've always thought of killing myself but at the same time I wanna die but at the same time I wanna die. But at least...

Inori: At least you are trying and are kind.

Kumo: Waow...thank you old man who has lived for centuries whom I haven't spoken to much!

Inori: ...

Inori: ...Granddaughter.

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Terabyte: In the wise words of someone somewhere: Fuuuuuuucccckkkkkkkk...........

—

"But at least we're not horses!"

— Arta, trying to comfort II after a breakdown.

—

Hikaru added context he thought people might want to know!

"...What the fuck." Oh. Well yes. That is what he added. Move on, now.

—

Momento, trying to comfort Eternity: Why you are upset? I am here...

—

Primeval, after Dawn claims that she can do something: *Mockingly* You? Yaa, you can do.

—

Risa: Hurrah! I am so excited.

Unknown Levels: You don't sound excited.

—

Pupa, talking to Aleph: I miss you, kind of.

Pupa, a day later: That was a moment of weakness. Fuck you.

—

"???.? Who cares?"

— Destonio, in any situation ever.

—

Arghena: I really like wearing sunglasses!

Arghena: Because as long as you wear them...

Arghena: No one will be able to tell what you're looking at~

(The scene cuts to Arghena with her sunglasses on, and she is...somewhat looking respectfully at Callima's chest. Somewhat respectfully.)

—

Arghena: Hi! Sorry if this is weird but I just wanted to know if you're one of the people who hate me.

Callima: Oh hi. Not weird at all!

Callima: ...Yes, I am!

—

"Hit it with a hammer!!!"

— Head Bonk Ache, on any occasion.

—

"I am going to kill you, hit you, or hurt you in some way."

— Kumo

—

Equilibrium: Why're you such a pain?! Just shut it! I don't want to see you again!

Stasis: Hey! That's my line!

Trojan, whispering to Technicolour: I told you. They really are alike.

—

"I'm going to pour boiling hot powerade into your eyes."

— An enraged Ringed Genesis, to a very unfazed Tempestissimo.

—

Abstruse: You know what really is the scariest nursery rhyme? The ABC song.

Dawn: Why?

Risa: Because A B C D E F G gummy bears are chasing me one is yellow one is blue one is peeing on my shoe now I am running for my life cause the red one has a knIFE!

Dawn: .

—

TeraVolt, handing a shovel to Abstruse: Here. Happy digging!

—

Arta: I'm eating my bed.

Hikaru: Wha-

—

"Be Ded

Go a little fart

Dig a little dee

Reach a little

Catch the cat

And pass it on"

— A random message Arta sent to both DRG and Lucas

—

Arghena: Your little joke was quite amusing, I must admit. Who knew a vile creature like you would be able to get a laugh out of me. Well done.

Destonio: Dude what???

Arghena: I'm tired of people making fun of me for commenting "LMAOO, BYE 😭, etc" like what am I supposed to fucking say, huh?

—

Technicolour, with full confidence: I CAN REALLY ONLY COUNT TO FOUR!

Unknown Levels: What the FUCK?

—

Pamolia: I had a dream where my school caught on fire and then exploded...

Pupa: Kachow~! ☆

—

"You say you love women? Then name every woman ever."

— Arghena

—

Clarith: Two days isn't too old...

Chase: Yeah.

Miracle: Tell that to my two day old grandpa.

—

Pupa: Is that a chicken??

Aleph: That's Joe Biden.

—

"Hello, something something something something-"

— Arta

—

"Don't make that face at me! Me no likey."

— Raven

—

"Your anger amuses me. Please don't ever find inner peace. Please."

— Retribution, to Destonio.

—

"He is fine." Arta blankly said. Hikaru then glanced to an unconscious Glaciaxion, laying on the sand near the sea at the beach.

—

"I'm psychologically well and don't need to hit anything."

— Destonio, trying convince himself that he is mentally sane while he is clearly raging and fuming.

—

Pupa: ...

Pamolia: ...Okay, thanks.

Aleph: Okay, thank you!

Mantis: I need you.

—

Fate: You're so gay haha little homo man.

Destonio: Loud incorrect buzzer.

Fate: Oh.

Fate: You're so bi haha little bisexual man!

Destonio: Loud correct buzzer.

—

"A whole orange will float on water. But a peeled orange will sink. Who gives a shit?"

— Hikaru, explaining something to Glaciaxion that HE KNOWS GLACIAXION WOULD ACTUALLY SORT OF GIVE A SHIT ABOUT. Anyways.

—

Logos: I'm so horse I could eat a hungry.

Primeval: How horse...?

—

"Don't bite my husband."

— Eternity, sadly referring to Momento

—

OKAY YK WHat FINE THATS ALL.

#arthesias ocs #rgverse: skits #NOT TAGGING EVERYONE AGAINNNN

[asherblueberry]

Little story I’m working on

Asher was walking with his niece and nephew(Amanda Alias and Sam Rozu) through the backyard forest. It was afternoon,5:00 to be exact, almost time for dinner. The air was slightly chilly and Asher can see the grey storm clouds rolling in, “Hey, Abba,'' Amanda said. “Yes, my dear” the dyed red haired uncle replied, “Where are we going? Aren't the flower beds over there near the green house?” Sam asked, “Yes, they are'' he paused “But, I wanted to show you two the flowers that I've been growing,” he then looked at the two niblings, “I think you might like them, they’re in your favorite colors!” After a few more minutes of walking they finally got to an area well lit by the moonlight. Asher walked over to a small patch of moonflowers, Datura, and Brugmansia. “Wow.” the young teens gasped, and took pictures without the flash for the flowers. “...Beautiful,” Sam whispered. “I know right, but be careful of the Datura and brugmansia they are members of nightshade family and are very poisonous.” Asher laughed as his nephew looked at him like an idiot, “really uncle? Why did you bring us near them?'' Sam said fearfully. “OH! Just like you Abba! Such a perfect match!” Amanda said dramatically,her words full of sappy love. The three of them stayed there until the moon was covered by the clouds, “we should probably leave,” asher said as he felt a rain droplet on his arm. As the trio left the garden no one but Sam noticed the murder of crows sitting in the bare trees.Then once it was dead silent, there was a snap of a twig, and he Whipped his head around only to see him,just standing there, a man in red he had no face except for one crooked smile, he pointed a long crooked finger straight at him. They pointed at Sam for a few seconds until he blinked and he was closer. His heart was racing, he felt like the world had stopped and it was him and the man all alone with nobody around. It was only for 10 seconds but for Sam it felt like years. And for the first time in months he was scared. As he stared at the red man, he blinked again and he was soon face to face.

Sam was able to see his face clearly and he found out that he was a rotting corpse, the rotting corpse of the kid his friends bullied, who was killed in one of the sick pranks his friends pulled on him, the corpse of Irving Barnes. Sam was devastated when he found out that Irving died in the accident, his friends on the other hand weren't and just buried the body in the woods. “I-Irving, i-is that you…no it can't be he’d dead” sam slowly fell to the floor as Irving stalked closer, he gurgled as if trying to speak "yOu KIlIeD Me, YoU aRe ReSpOnEsIBlE FoR eVErYThiNg," His voice got louder and more raspy as he grew larger and more terrifying YOU ARE A MURDERER YOU SHOULD'VE BEEN KILLED NOT ME! . Irving Lunged at Sam clawing at his face with long, dirty, and cracked nails, "ILL KILL YOU! ILL KILL YOU! MURDERER! MURDERER! ILL SHOW YOU THE PAIN YOUR FRIENDS GAVE ME, ILL GIVE YOU A TASTE OF YOUR OWN DAMN MEDICINE! ILL MAKE SURE YOU NEVER FORGET WHAT YOU DID!!! YOU. ARE . A. MONSTER" Irving screamed as he tried to choke Sam. “I HATE YOU SAMUEL GENNA ROZU!!! ILL KILL YO-” irving wasnt able to finish as he was hit with a sharp rock to the head, by Amanda, “L-LEave him alone!!” she screamed

I have this posted on my quotev

#gothic literature

[evilphrog]

Watching Wheel of Time without reading the books: Episode 5

Wow. Damn. That was a powerful episode. I needed some time to recover before I could write this up. This one hit home for several reasons. Advance warning, this is 4 entire pages long on my google doc, and much less funny than previous ones.

So we start off with the burial scene, which for some reason these people bury their dead about 2 inches below ground level? Why???? Is there an in-universe reason for leaving corpses completely accessible to the local wildlife? Is this some sort of eco-friendly thing? Is the ground too frozen to dig further, even with magic? Are they afraid of digging too deep and accidentally awakening the Dark One? Is that why the Dark One had followers in the mining town? Is his power stronger in places closer to the core of the planet? Did the set designer just think it would look cool on camera? This really broke my immersion, but then I was brought right back in when the guys actually had visibly longer hair after a month of travel. Yes, thank you! But also, this bit of world building confirms that Rand isn’t capable of growing facial hair. Don’t worry, Rand. You’ll get there in time.

The way they could introduce a character halfway through last episode and then dedicate the majority of this episode to his emotional battle, and have me actually care and then be devastated when he died? What fucking brilliant acting, brilliant scriptwriting, brilliant direction, just wow wow wow. Kudos to everyone involved, because I think this is a super rare thing for any TV show. You could see Stepin’s pain reflected in Lan and Moiraine, who we already cared about. But that wasn’t the only reason I cared. He gave such a realistic portrayal of grief in the early days. Just the absolute, shell-shocked numbness, the monotone recitations of his memories that conveyed so much emotion. The way all the other warders came together to support him because he was currently living their worst fear. He was so lost and scared and hopeless. And on the outside, his friends see him start to reach out for support, and think “Hey, he’s getting better.” But it’s just an illusion because the reason he feels better is that he has made his decision.

“Love is usually a bad idea. Still, we allow it to happen, or this life would be intolerable.” And then he kills himself. That isn’t someone who thinks he will never be happy again. That is someone who understands his capacity for healing and moving on, and makes a deliberate choice not to, because he never wants to feel further away from the person he loves. He isn’t scared of losing someone again. He is scared of finding peace and comfort, and that doing so would be a base betrayal. He is choosing not to let himself love again, knowing that it will mean his life is no longer worth living. Grief and loss are done so badly so often in media, but this show really gets what it means to everyone left behind.

Moiraine got a lot more depth in this one. I said to my husband “Oh wow, so Moiraine has a sense of humor. Is that new, or is it just because this is the first time I’ve seen her not actively dying?” He said that was actually the part of the show that had been bothering him most. He thought Moiraine was too serious, and is now relieved to see that was an intentional choice to drive home how badly hurt she was. As a nonreader, that didn’t really translate for me. I just thought she was a doom and gloom type person until now. It’s good to see her a bit more comfortable, even in a setting where she says she is least comfortable. I loved her interactions with Nynaeve juxtaposed with the other Aes Sedai. She may act like she doesn’t pick up on subtext or human emotions at all, but that’s not true. She is just way better at one-on-one interactions than in groups. No wonder she ran away. Her scenes with JK Rowling were so hilarious because JK is just trying her best to give backhanded compliments and keep everything as subtextual threats, and then Moiraine just drops a lead brick through the entire conversation like “You hate men, and my new bff thinks you’re a loser.”

She told the green Aes Sedai who I’m deciding to call Polly (genuinely, Moiraine is the only one I’ve met so far with a unique name. The rest of them were named by someone filling a bag with Scrabble tiles that only contain vowels and the letters N, L, D, and R, and then just drawing at random. I swear at least 4 of them are named Allana.) that she read about a way to break a bond between an Aes Sedai and her warder. That seems like foreshadowing. She and Lan really care about each other. I think that, as much as she wants to spare Lan the pain of potentially losing her, she also wants to spare herself the pain of losing him. Bad news for you though, Moiraine. Breaking your psychic bond won’t break your love for each other. You are going to be devastated either way. As a side note, everyone is saying it’s rare for an Aes Sedai to die before her warder. How long is their life expectancy? Because I have not seen a single woman over 50 here. Do they age more slowly? Are all these ladies actually like a hundred years old? Is this conversation hinting that Moiraine is actually dying? Or is it just that she’s the reckless one of the group, and therefore voted Most Likely to Die Violently in the Aes Sedai yearbook? She and Lan are in tears at the end, and I am wondering if they know something about each other’s fate/health status.

Seeing Lan express his emotions more openly was fantastic. I don’t just mean the screaming at the end. I am not sure whether that was part of the ritual or not, so I’m not counting it. I mean him talking about how he feels, hugging his friends, crying in front of others, etc. He isn’t Mr. Stoic all the time. He just focuses on the task at hand when there is one.

Perrin and Egwene’s arc:

Damn, lots going on there. When Aram led Egwene and Perrin off to run I was scratching my head at how they could possibly not be noticed running through such sparse woods dressed in bright rainbows. Then they were immediately intercepted and I was like "ah, yep. Not a plot hole after all."

Perrin is finally starting to share his thoughts, rather than just asking more questions to get more data/context. And all it took was literal torture. I knew it was coming, but Perrin begging to die because he thinks he deserves it was so sad and hard to watch. I adore Egwene’s ability to absorb all that information in .05 seconds before coming to the response of “No, it wasn’t your fault, and I’m going to make sure you live long enough to believe that.” And Perrin thought she meant she was going to sacrifice herself, but she had a Plan.

I can really see now why Nynaeve thought Egwene would make a good Wisdom. She too gets absolutely feral when she needs to, but has the self-control to turn it on and off as the situation demands. Props to her for learning the lesson of strategic non-truthing right out of the gate.

Egwene: Look at me trying my best to channel this tiny little fireball. I’m so helpless and pathetic. Oh, and I also freed my very pissed off best friend who could easily kill you. Oh, but I am also going to go ahead and be the one to kill you because I know his conscience couldn't handle having to make that decision. And now I have successfully taken care of the problem and am going to take this moment to fall back into panic mode.

And then the Wolf Friends came to the rescue, and I may have scared my husband a bit by gleefully laughing and cheering every time a Whitecloak got brutally torn to shreds. "Haha that's what you fucking get! Go wolf friends!" I typically cry when anyone dies, including villains, so that can tell you a bit about my opinion on the Whitecloaks.

Perrin has clearly been observing and thinking about this mysterious connection to his wolf friends for quite some time, without communicating it. He ran from the wolves with Egwene earlier, but only because she wanted to run. He was still processing and thinking about what it all meant. When he first had his hidden leg wound and the wolves were being so friendly to him, I was a bit worried he was slowly turning into a trolloc. They seem like they could be the type of species that propagates similar to zombies. Get bitten by a trolloc, the trolloc poison turns you slowly into one unless you get treated. But this appears to be a wrong conclusion. The cut was maybe a red herring, and Wolf Friends are just a coincidence? Is he like Aquaman but for wolves? His eyes glow gold when he’s in distress, but it doesn’t seem to unlock any superhuman strength. He’s strong, but just regular “My day job is blacksmith” strong. Is that how he channels the One Power? By psychically shouting for help from all nearby wolves? Does this work on other animals also? Are wolves the only ones we see because he has a special connection to them specifically, or are they just in a place where wolves are the most common species?

Mat and Rand: Dumb and Dumber but with more gay subtext.

Mat may say he has been stealing to try and get home to his family, but I’m now 90% sure he is actually just starting a Cursed Objects collection. Items in the collection so far: demon knife, magic crystal, dog figurine, doll that definitely isn’t possessed. Hard to say which one is affecting him the most right now, but my money is on the knife. He pushed the little kid, and my initial reaction was “Hey, no, Mat would NEVER” but then I realized he is terrified of himself because he thinks he will black out and commit murders. Rand is the only one allowed near him, and I do not think it’s because he trusts himself to not hurt Rand. It’s because he trusts Rand to beat the shit out of him if he tries. His broken little voice as he asks Rand to tell him he wasn’t the murderer, and Rand emphatically assuring him that he saw the Fade kill the family when he in fact did NOT see any such thing just drives home how strong Rand’s loyalty and faith in his friends goes. He knows full well it could have been Mat, but just like Egwene and Perrin, he knows the only possible way Mat would have done it would be if he wasn’t in control of his own body.

When Mat makes Rand promise to kill him if he goes mad, I get the feeling Rand did not realize what he was agreeing to. I think Rand interpreted it as “Keep me sane and protect me from being caught” instead of “Murder me so I don’t end up as a sad caricature of all my worst traits.”

Rand meeting the ogier person, fantastic bit of levity that was desperately needed. Loial reminds me of my grandparents explaining American culture to us. He’s very passionate and excited about learning a new culture, but he’s also a bit condescending, and that leads to gaps in knowledge that have hilarious results. “Oh, you are missing a girl from the Two Rivers? I saw this girl with a braid, she is obviously who you’re looking for!” This is now the second hint at Rand being an Aiel, so I’m wondering about some things. We don’t know too much about his parents at this point.

The reunion with Nynaeve and the boys was so beautiful. Rand is so overjoyed and relieved, and I think a large part of that is “Oh thank the Light, finally there’s an adultier adult. Nynaeve can handle this!” He is not someone who is used to keeping secrets, or being the responsible one in the friend group. Props to him for doing the best he could, and even more props to him for asking for help the second he found someone he could trust.

Watching Nynaeve interact with these kids she grew up with versus the Aes Sedai and the warders is really beautiful. She slips right into Mom Friend mode and provides comfort and support. I am wondering how old she was when Egwene was sick. She tells the story as though she was an adult at the time, but she was 15 tops, maybe younger if she or someone else was lying about her actual age like I suspect. Must have been horrifying for her to watch a close friend nearly die, and I wonder if she unconsciously used her healing super powers for the first time then. Or maybe even consciously. Maybe she knew all along she had that much capability, but either didn’t know how to access it, or was warned not to ever use it because of the risk of burning out or something. Rewatching the end of episode 4, her facial expressions look less like “Holy cow I can’t believe I did this” and more “Oh shit, now things are going to suck forever.”

I adore the way this show portrays healthy platonic relationships. This entire culture seems to be very tactile with displays of affection. Holding hands, hugging, etc. It’s all just the way people show they care. That makes a lot of sense for a world where bisexuality and polyamory are so common. There would be less rigid distinctions between types of affection. Lan and Moiraine aren’t necessarily oddballs for this. Nynaeve and Rand can hold hands. Egwene can hang off Perrin’s arm. Rand and Mat can snuggle at night. Sometimes these are romantic, sometimes they aren’t. It depends on the context. Everything is so structured around community bonds and mutual aid. Men express their feelings and nobody mocks them for it. People ask for help when they need it, and actually expect to receive it because they have consistently received help in the past. It’s basically a giant middle finger to self-sufficiency. I love to see it. I want to live in this world.

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