#sickandtiredofyourshit

[coureirsix]

I’m on a long car ride rn and all I can think of is the first time Jack and/or Claire calls Bobby abuelito and Bobby is just full on

SCREAM

OH MY GOOOOOODDDDDDDDD

if we are baby jack truthing like. just like. jack knows a handful of words and their names!! he can say “dean” he can say “sam” (though it sounds more like “Samma.” sam thinks it’s endearing because it sounds like Mama and he’s ok with that :-) ) and he can say “cas” and “cassiel” because he has trouble with his t’s!

they drop him off at bobby’s for a bit while they go on a particularly long hunt and bobby’s great with jack, jack loves him. and jack raises his little arms up at him and goes “wuelito! cage!” he has trouble with his r’s too!

and bobby is like what in the god damn. but he gets the message from the arms and carries jack around.

the winchesters and cas come back and dean, holding jack, is like, “despidete de tu abuelito.”

and bobby is like. HUH. HIS WHAT. 

and jack, very enthusiastically is like, “bye, wuelito!”

and the boys all head out. and bobby is left in his house like

#this is VERY late im sorry i had an eventful night skjhdfs #sickandtiredofyourshit #these are not the asks you are looking for

[tiktaalic]

I think one of the more insane things implied by that episode was that John straight up told Sam that Dean was “lost on a hunt” like dude made Sam, who was 12, think that his brother (and essentially his second parent) was dead. And then dropped him off at Bobby’s for 2 months because his babysitter was now rotting in jail as far he knew. So Sam, 12 years old, loses his brother and then is essentially left by his father all at once for 2 whole months.

Like Sam had no clue about this and that’s one of the biggest indicators that John knew that he was in the wrong. If he though we was right he would have told Sam that Dean fucked up and went to jail. He had no problems talking shit about Dean to Sam. But he knew that Dean was probably trying to get money because he didn’t leave enough or was gone for too long, so he told Sam that he was lost on a hunt. It also implies that John was always going to come back after he felt the “punishment fit the crime” and pay Dean’s bail and then just leave with him (which would have resulted in Dean being a run away at 16, love that stellar parenting John <3) but let Dean think that he was never going to see either of them again as another form of punishment.

oh yeah that’s a verrrrry interesting point re: how john probably always knew he was going to pick up dean at some point but TOLD dean they were never going to see each other again. “the story became the story” is so.... and iirc there are a couple of moments in the ep where sam is like dean? i think this might have been fucked? and dean is gruffly like it was fine. dad was doing what he thought was best. like every part of it is sooooo. #1 worst dad award.

-leaving dean n sam alone for weeks with limited amount of cash (15.16 is gr8 for this because teendean says to sam when i was your age i was babysitting you! and nebulously younger sam says. pretty sure that’s illegal.)

-HIS OLD MAN CALLED (didnt even show up). SAID TO LET HIM ROT IN JAIL. ARRRGHGKGGG JOHN WINCHESTER WHEN I FUCKING GET YOU

-the implication that sam asked where dean was and john easily slipped into the lie and leveled a glance at dean and dean nodded and shrugged and smiled. arrrrrgh

-and then. the fact that. john didnt even question that dean would drop everything to come with him when he finally showed back up unannounced

also thinking of the sam end where dean slips out one night and sam assumes it’s just dean being dean but then he’s not back the next morning or the morning after and he KNOWS his family goes after bumps in the night and he calls his dad after being completely alone and ten/twelve saying. dean hasn’t been home in a few days “you disappeared. dad came back. he shipped me off to bobby’s and he went and found you. you were lost on a hunt.” like. john’s telling dean that dean’s never ever going to see his family again and john’s telling sam that john’s the knight and protector who brings back disappeared brotherdadmoms from the ether so THAT’S why you have to go get babysat and i won’t be rearing you at all.  arrrrrrrgh

#ask #sickandtiredofyourshit #spnwatch #abuse cw #probably applies ithink

[piraytoro]

Wait a Tanya au, Elle, you and Jess can’t just drop that and not talk about it. Super secret Cas runs away with Tanya au that lives only in my head does exist and my two beloved mutuals and me apparently share a hive mind

Hiiii Sarah!!! Hey @lobotomycastiel we have a co-conspirator! A lot of the following text comes directly or is paraphrased from a conversation in our discord, and @deanwithsmudgedlipstick actually came up with some of this too. Okay so in this au Nora has a tragic accident and Cas takes the baby so she doesn’t go into the system. It’s technically kidnapping but the foster system in the US is shit and she has no other living relatives, so it’s justified. Dean at first is like “wtf is that a baby” but he is VERY quickly swayed by way of: he watches Cas interact with Tanya for more than five seconds and folds like a house of cards.

Cut to three years later when baby Jack comes into the picture. (Of course this is a baby Jack au, it’s me and Jess.) Cas dies like in canon (aka temporarily) and Dean is left alone with not one but TWO children under the age of five, one of which the angels are trying to kidnap (unlike his and Cas’ own kidnapping, this one is NOT in the best interests of the child). They want him just like Hell wanted Sam all those years ago, to use him. The angels try to burn down the bunker so they can steal Jack. Dean has been having nightmares about Cas burning on the ceiling the way his mom did, and he wakes up from his dream where Cas is burning on the ceiling to find the bunker ACTUALLY on fire. At first he thinks he’s still dreaming, and then he considers that maybe he should just let this happen (he wants to be with Cas and doesn’t know about the empty yet), but then Sam is there dragging him out just like Dean dragged Sam out when it was Jess. He shakes Sam off and runs to the bassinet, shoved Jack into Tanya’s little arms and tells her to run as fast as she can. Meanwhile he runs to Cas’ room and scrambles to find the mixtape and the trench coat, the only things he has to remember him by.

Sam scoops up Tanya, who’s holding Jack, to shelter them from the smoke and the heat and Dean’s breakdown, the way no one was there to shelter him and Dean. This gives Dean a chance to grieve and a moment to just break down. Afterward, Dean realizes he forgot something. He sifts through the burned down house trying to find Cas’ ashes. He clutches the cracked, scorched urn, making sure the ashes are still safe inside, and from Sam’s arms Tanya watches Dean on his hands and knees, weeping for all that he’s lost. Two minutes later, Dean gets up and turns to them with an easy smile on his face and says it’s time to get going, and he hopes they like clown motels. All his Cas Emotions have been shoved into a box and shut away tight. Sam asks why they can’t go to a *nice* hotel, and Dean makes fun of him for being afraid of clowns. But Sam has to drive the Impala because Dean’s hands are still shaking, and the only way to still them is to hold onto both the kids as he cradles them close in the backseat.

At the funeral, Dean passes Jack to Tanya when he goes to light the pyre. When he steps away, he takes Jack back and holds Tanya’s hand so they won’t feel alone. Later, Tanya tries to heat up a bottle for Jack but he takes over and tells her “go watch tv kiddo, I got this.” The next night he gets up to quiet a fussy Jack and finds Tanya already there, singing to him. He scoops her up and sings to both of them. After that he sits her down and explains that it’s not her job to take care of Jack, it’s his job to take care of them both. He plays them the mixtape and tells them he made of for their dad. He also lets them pick the music in the car. He watches Tanya singing along in the rear view mirror, the windows down, doing that thing kids do where she tries to catch the wind in her tiny hand while Jack laughs in his car seat. She’s a kid and doesn’t know about driver pick the music yet, so he lets Tonya listen to every Hannah Montana album and five hundred consecutive plays of Baby Shark because they’re her favorites. When Sam complains about how he can’t play his indie music, Dean pulls the classic, “how old are you?” “I’m 35, what does that have to do—“ “and how old is Tanya,” Dean interrupts. “Like, four?” Tanya interrupts, offended, to say “I’m four and a HALF.” Dean gives Sam a *you see?* look and says “so who’s gotta be the mature one here?” He’s the older sibling now, and Jack and Tanya are babies who deserve to listen to shitty kids’ music because Dean loves them and they’re his kids. Claire rolls her eyes from the backseat, squished between two carseats, but she doesn’t argue with the choice of music. Baby Shark makes her want to gouge her eyes out, but she secretly kind of likes Hannah Montana.

Dean takes them to the meadow to help scatter Cas’ ashes. Claire supervises while Tanya and Jack play in the brook, and over by the windmill Dean opens the urn. He makes sure the ashes cover as much ground as possible, wanting to feel Cas everywhere in that field. He takes the kids there often, and he knows it’s silly, but he thinks Cas would appreciate watching his kids grow up. Claire comes sometimes, but she’s not there this time. Dean puts Tanya on his shoulders, with Jack in a wrap in his chest, and Tanya reaches down to pat Jack on the head when he starts to get fussy. Tanya tries to reach up high enough to tough the windmill, and Dean fixes Jack’s hat to protect him from the sun, and Dean looks up at the sky and prays that Cas can see them somehow.

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[mishastoesies]

Oh baby Jack widower arc,,, my beloved. There’s just something about Dean having to face his fears, not only about having to raise a kid and feeling like he’s going to fuck it up (the very touch of you corrupts) but also clinging to Jack as the last part of Cas and being super...Possesive, I guess is the right word, over him. He doesn’t let Sam take him, he doesn’t let Jody or Donna help, but he’s slowly breaking apart at the seams because Cas is gone and he doesn’t want to do it alone but he doesn’t want to do it with anybody else either. And he knows he’s becoming his dad, giving into his grief and if anything that hurts him even more. Sam is slowly becoming more bitter towards him because he understands that Dean is grieving but he also won’t let anybody help and Sam doesn’t know how to fix it. And he’s being overcome with memories of having to care for Sam as a baby and how shitty that was and he’s scared to drink, scared to sleep, scared to leave, scared to do anything but sit there and look at Jack and all the ways he looks like Cas and just,,,, baby Jack widower arc,,,, my beloved

YOU!!! YOU GET ME!!! it’s about the all-paralyzing FEAR and the having to get up and be a person anyways!!! it’s about seeing the face of your dead lover in your child and wishing everything was different!!!

#asks #GOD we are so smart. we are so so smart #sickandtiredofyourshit

[lordgolden]

Okay okay okay but tiny little three year old Jack running up to Cas and Deans halfway through their first dance because he’s one of those jealous kids and Sam, who has been running around all day keeping everyone in line, is panicking but Dean just scoops Jack up and continues the dance. When the song ends Cas pulls in Claire and they have their father daughter dance as Dean continues to dance with Jack. Then Sam and Mary and Jody and Ellen and Bobby all join in too because they’ve never been a picture perfect nuclear family but it’s okay cause it’s perfect anyway

i love this 🥺

#ask #baby jack truthing #sickandtiredofyourshit

[onlyonekenobi]

Baby Jack is literally like he can’t talk yet but the world is already after him. He’s done absolutely nothing, is completely innocent, but people want him dead anyway or want what his power can get them, with complete disregard to the little baby connected to it. It’s Sam looking at the baby and finding love for himself and his powers through him because if Jack has those powers and is still innocent and good maybe he can be good too. It’s Dean being unable to be mad at anybody but himself for Cas’s death because Lucifer is gone and Jack is a baby, he can’t be at fault for anything. It’s Cas being able to raise his son and let him be a child instead of forcing himself to grow up too fast. I just really love baby jack sm(though I genuinely wouldn’t be able to chose between adult Jack and baby Jack😭)

MHMM and imagine like. widower arc dean. if jack is literally just a little tiny baby. and sure dean is still mad and having all these feelings he doesn't know what to do with, but! the first thing he learned in the world was how to love a baby in the face of a terrible loss! he would resent baby jack for like. an hour, tops, and then jack would cry. and sam would try to help but sam's never taken care of a baby in his life and dean would storm over in a huff and be like "give me that" and rock jack to sleep and then put him down and storm away. but then within like 48 he absolutely adores jack and is in like full rosalie twilight "he's never been set down in his life" mode and sam like walks in on him bottle feeding jack and singing to him and playing like gootchie goo with jack's nose and sam does his classic Sam Face and dean is like ">:| WHAT." and of course sam is still there and helps and loves jack so much but dean internally is like "cas is gone but this is cas's baby and i am going to love him and take care of him and we will love and miss cas together"

#screaming. and crying. #toddler jack #asks #sickandtiredofyourshit

[yogababe]

What are your thoughts on Ruby, especially since you’re a firm sastiel shipper? She’s such a big part of the series 4 arc and for a while Sam really trusted her maybe even more so than Cas

My feelings on Ruby are that she was right, she was the best of those sons of bitches! She’s evil and manipulative and enabled Sam’s worst tendencies by giving him the approval and affection he desperately craved. She’s an amazing character! One of the only times Carver has ever managed to write a woman even slightly well. I find SamRuby’s dynamic very compelling for these reasons, but I don’t think they should be endgame; I want everyone to get a happy ending, and for me, that looks like Sastiel and Dean/Gabriel. 

#asks #sickandtiredofyourshit

[stars-and-scripts]

Your azris fics are amazing u made me fall in love with this ship

Can u write a fic where Eris killed Beron and his coronation got over he and az are still meeting in his secret treehouse .Az goes to him injured after a fight or something flufffffffffffff pleassee

i arise from the dead

with??? an azriel pov????

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[4x01]

@sickandtiredofyourshit YES THANK YOU SO MUCH SMOOOOOOOOCH

[honospalosa]

ugggghhhh

things and stuff. today was going really well too. I felt super confident and not body-conscious. I bought a fantastic shirt I deemed nice enough for Thanksgiving, bought some nice socks (always my fave!) and had a lovely time picking out some sweets from a little bakery/coffee/tea place with my mother. Even though it was a few hours before my step-father came home, he doesn't have to say a goddamn word to me to make me feel absolutely awful and worthless of his time or just regular-type useless....

gettin' real tired of hearing my name on the other side of the walls and then arguing commencing. I'm just sitting here not bothering anyone...what the hell haven't I done now.... 

Not to mention, hey sorry sometimes my computer or my game is super loud and I don't realize that it is bothering anyone. A nice, hey steph can you turn that down?" is a bit moer civilised than you storming up to my door and slamming it shut. well, that didn't solve anything today since it was closed but not latched, my tv is still loud and I hope you felt like an asshole. Asshole. 

My only satisfaction is that I still turned it down, without you asking. I'm not the asshole you think I am. That's what pisses me off the most is that even though I am still courteous enough to be pleasant but you won't give me the same...

#personalprobs lame #sickandtiredofyourshit

[coureirsix]

So many mutuals from SoCal,,,,, were camping in the Mojave rn and the entire drive I was thinking about the boys stopping at the giant colorful rocks on the way to Vegas or the giant stop in Barstow. So many empty roads and ghost towns out here I would have loved to see them do an episode about the Mojave or even Los Padres national park I’d love to see how the Impala would do up the grapevine LMAO

im actually losing my mind at the thought of the impala parked by the seven magic mountains. like. you have no idea how funny that is to me.

“it’s art, dean.”

“ART? sammy, the mona lisa is ART. these are rocks some jackass painted neon colours and threw together in the middle of the desert. HOW is that art? MY CAR parked here is more ART than those damn rocks.”

jack wants to ride the roller coaster at buffalo bills but sam and dean have memories of being very young and john letting them ride it where they both came out with intense whiplash.

but also like. absolutely same... the impala in the mojave ... my beloved ........ 

#also have fun on ur trip.... #im b flowers kin so i love the mojave desert more than i love myself but desert camping.... cannot do #sickandtiredofyourshit #these are not the asks you are looking for

[mishastoesies]

Idk if were done widower arc posting but a thought just occurred to me. Claire has some of Cas’s grace in her still (I know the show was too much of a coward to do anything about it but let me live) what if little itty bitty newborn Jack could sense it in her so he doesn’t want her to be far but he also can’t have Dean be far (handprint also contains Cas’s grace) so it’s Dean having to deal with his own grief but also try to help Claire with losing her dad again and the Claire being the big sister and Dean being so scared that once again he’s going to be like John and Claire is going to be Dean and he doesn’t want that for her. So he’s trying to balance pushing her away but also comforting her but also keeping Jack happy and healthy but also not letting Claire help for too long without being consumed by guilt. And he’s running himself into the ground and Claire is getting more and more upset... I’m gonna end up writing this aren’t I 😔

OHHH MY GOD THIS IS SO!!! PERFECT!!! i’m gonna CRY... i can’t add anything coherent to this atm but i love it so much 

#asks #if you do write this PLEASE send it to me #sickandtiredofyourshit

[mishastoesies]

God I’m sorry I keep coming back to your ask box but your brain is massive,,,, Dean has the imprint of wings burned onto his skin and blistering hands from picking up jack for the first time(dude burned a hole in wood with his feet in canon) and ash on his hands from sitting next to the pyre and the traces of a handprint that’s not there anymore but he can still feel it in his bones. And all these traces of Cas but Cas is still gone and nothing will make it better. So he cradles Jack to his chest and sings his top 13 zepp traxx along to the mixtape that he found tucked away safe at the lake house and breaks apart.

hmmmmm chomping and biting!!!! i’m stuck on the FIRE symbolism of it all!!! something about how fire is both a purifying and destructive force!!! something about every horrible, life-altering moment in dean’s life starting with a fire!!! something about fires destroying not only lives but memories and moments - burned pictures, burned martial beds, burned yellow curtains (ask me about the yellow curtains i could talk FOREVER about the yellow curtains)... but also something about how fire also keeps nature in check, it’s how grasslands maintain themselves, how ashes ready the soil and seed for new growth... 

#asks #sickandtiredofyourshit

[mishastoesies]

Wait I know you said the baby jack handprint half as a joke but can’t you image Dean standing there at the pyre, Jack resting against his shoulder crying his little eyes out and when Jack palm lands on Dean chest it does make a tiny little handprint. It’s a mirror to Jack and Cas. Dean had Cas and he had his handprint. Now Deans doesn’t have Cas or the handprint but he does have a piece of Cas in Jack and a handprint that isn’t the right size but it’s something. Neither is quite what he wants or needs but he wouldn’t give them up anyway regardless because they’re both reminders of Cas.

GIRL (GN) HELP... he looks at jack and all he sees is a tiny not-quite-cas and he doesn’t know if he should be disgusted by him, resentful that cas left him with a kid, terrified about what fatherhood will look and feel like, or grateful that he’s at least got a chance to do right by one angel nephil child

#asks #sickandtiredofyourshit

[mishastoesies]

This means Cas was married three (3) whole times also I do think it would be funny if after the fall the husband tries to find Cas and Cas is just like ????? Who are you again?????and Dean is just in the background going wtfwtfwtf

see i think it’d be funnier if cas was like “???? what are you doing on earth??? who’s watching the kids???” and angel husband was like “i got a sitter because i’m a responsible parent, unlike you, you bastard, what are you doing running around with this floozy?? what does he have that i don’t??” and it devolves from there until cas goes “you know what? if you’re gonna act like this, i want a divorce” and angel husband goes “fine! i’m basically a single parent anyways!” and cas turns to sam and dean, who have been quietly freaking out this whole time like “ugh i am SO sorry you had to witness that”

#asks #sickandtiredofyourshit #angel husband au

[mishastoesies]

Oh man your widower arc,,,, I can’t wait to read it the angst of them both knowing that they’re in love with each other but Cas is like “He can never actually love me he’s just stressed”/“he can only love me under very specific circumstances and when those circumstances are over I’m gonna get hurt” and keeping himself guarded A+++

it’s SO GOOD when it’s painful!!! cas thinks dean is only latching onto him because he needs someone else to care for jack, and he’s happy to do that, but he can’t commit to any “relationship” that dean says he wants because he thinks that once dean feels better, he’ll break it off and cas will be left with a broken heart because his own feelings are painfully real!!!

#also thank you for sending an ask that wasn't about indian sweets discourse #baby jack truthing #sickandtiredofyourshit #asks