#simply what I needed today

[todayisafridaynight]

journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit

#snap chats #im lying i physically could not marathon this i got school LMAO BUT IMAGINE #my god speaking of school i signed up for a japanese history class. because of course i did #i also needed an extra class and i didnt know what else to put LMAO but i might swap it or somn #thinkin i should get back into theater..... i got like two months to decide anyway #i was thinking about how im gonna play IW during streams... if the lord will let me i might stream for 2~3 hours or so #im putting such a small time limit due to Aforementioned School but also idk if my computer can record any longer than that #when i tried saving the video to my flashdrive it only lasted about two some hours right ? maybe 3 if i remember right #i decided to record to my computer's hard drive instead of the usb since it has more space so maybe i can record longer #ill prob do a test run later today and record a nonsense video. i WILL delete it i just wanna see what the limit is #cause my plan is to just Record One -> Upload It -> Delete OG yk. Lazy Susan type of plan #didnt mean to type out my whole gameplan in the tags LOL BUT HEY I WANTED TO TALK BOUT IT AT SOME POINT #my final message is that ive Hopefully preordered the ichi statue. i say Hopefully cause i am once again doing it through jp rabbit #and i didnt get the confirmation it was successful yet so I Will Simply Wait. #point is it was a lot cheapter than i thought it was going to be <3 yay <3 #ok im running out of tags tl;dr im gonna marathon IW until my eyes bleed BYYYE

[moeblob]

What Deacon thinks: what did that mean? did he want me to wear a collar too? why else would he mention my neck? i mean, if he /asked/ me i would wear one but he didn't so would wearing one be weird?

What Ymber meant: It's nice to be near someone who isn't tethered to this world to serve it with a physical reminder for all to see.

#my characters #this just in ! thats why all the deities in the plot have collars and a chain ! #its because THATS THEIR DESIGNATED I AM HERE TO HELP THIS WORLD SYMBOL #they cant remove their collars and thats fine by them - its a constant reminder that they exist to serve #deacon really shouldnt get as much crap as he gets in canon for being weird cause the deities are just a different brand of weird #like its not deacons fault that apparently you can say nice neck with no underlying desire #but he cant say hi would you please possess me i want to know what its like to have someone else in my body #like thats really not something you should pin on deacon YET EVERY deity is like wow what a lil weirdo #he also just really wants to please ymber so if ymber asked he would definitely do whatever #on the flip side i need to point out that deacon very specifically doesnt ask ymber for things nor does he pray for things #and it drives ymber up a wall because this is his favorite human who wont ask for anything and he isnt a psychic #he doesnt know what deacon wants or needs and its infuriating cause he exists to serve humanity #and yet this ONE GUY wont let him do things for him #this is very important and i cant believe i mentioned it like a month ago to someone and today #i received gift art of these two and i may never recover #its so perfect and its ymber just looming over deacon telling him that he can pray about anything to him #its also worth pointing out that when i was telling the person about the whole ymber begging for a prayer #its because he realizes that after all this time hes never had a single prayer from deacon - not before nor after the hire #so hes like oh well thats odd hmm #and then begins to talk to deacon like you know people pray to me for lots of things #and deacon looks at him unsure of what this is leading to - did someone offer a weird prayer? ask a weird thing? whatst? #and no - its just ymber saying that people will pray for wealth or an item #or they will express frustration if something is lost or broken despite it not being ymbers fault so deacon just stares #he has no idea what this is going to end on really so he points out 'well you do like to think you break people' #and ymber just ASDFASDFSADF STOP OK NEXT POINT people pray to me to bless relationships with happiness #and thats fascinating so deacon is like wow can you actually do that? #and ymber is so stressed as hes like i mean kinda i can simply amplify the positive emotions in gestures #like if someone gives an item out of love then its blessed #he also admits that he cant mask insincerity or malice so those feelings are not hidden nor amplified #and deacon just is impressed bc that is actually VERY cool

[owlinks]

skyjacks really got me looking up "how to animate" during exam season

#fellas were really going through it today #i have 3 very specific scenes in my head that i need to manifest right now #1) a transition between young wide eyed jonnit and older grizzled captain kessler #2) uriel and the morning star nerfing god #though my last drawing p much captured what i have in mind #but still #3) cu and gable fight for SURE. emily and abby already heard this. but i wanna animate gable doing some bruce lee bouncing footwork so bad #i wish i could simply project my ideas on a wall via my eyeballs #skyjacks #gable skyjacks #jonnit kessler

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

Wearing noise cancelling headphones isn't enough. I need the whole world to stop and be completely quiet

#having one of those days where noises are very loud and overwhelming #and the noise cancelling headphones feel uncomfortable to have on #like most of the time they feel fine but today specifically the feeling of them on is awful bc i can feel them #so no matter what; it's gonna be uncomfortable #need the world to simply stop making any sound whatsoever for at least a few hours #maybe even a few days

[dizzybizz]

>:DDDDD THANKS FOR JOINING @polyphonial, @scrolpencer, @davactivated and @thekittyfox2999 !!!!! <333333

also these ^^^ are being hung up on the fridge i totally have in my mind.

#I HAD SO MUCH FUN >:3333c #yall were out for blood tho.. drawing fanart of guy. my heart 😭💖💖💕💞 #also i wasnt planning on drawing him at all today but i simply had to. you forced my hand. 🥰 #YIPPEEEE NOW I HAVE MORE MAGMA PAGES TO GRIN AT LIKE AN IDIOT YAYA YYAY ╰(*°▽°*)╯╰(*°▽°*)╯╰(*°▽°*)╯╰(*°▽°*)╯ #im not done for today i think but i wanted to post these :3333333333333 #i should tag my magma posts with magma... #magma #need to go find the others too oughh... #my art #what if i tag the.. fandoms at least.. #stardew valley #guyssailawayfarm #hatsune miku #project voltage #witch hat atelier #heaven official's blessing #moomin #yu yu hakusho #drawfee #drawtectives #sherlock #why did i do that tho

[gailynovelry]

The great thing about being in charge of our own book design stuff is that we can, in fact, decide to go through a ridiculous amount of effort to create custom headers for every chapter.

We've gotten about two thirds of the way through Shadow Herald's headers right now. Downside; every time a chapter takes place in a new location, we have to draw that location. Upside; every time we draw a location, we can reuse it later. My gods do the shop interiors take forever.

#book design #writeblr #writing community #booklr #indie books #look we finished Charlan's shop today and it is very charming but it took us two days to do #only locations left in this book are the World's Wound and the interior of Silamir's temple #i think we're gonna . . . cheat a little for camp Veldin and either just reuse the (six different seasonal) forest BGs for full mileage #maybe add an overlay layer with a couple tents to make it Specifically Camp Veldin as opposed to just any ol' part of the woods #we will have to. draw the inside. of the Matrius' palace. and also the royal registry. #but i think the registry will not be too bad probably? #the question is simply where is it fine to cop out a little and where do we decide to doodle every object in a story despite knowing that #we will need to slap an unfocus blur + dents filter on anyway #it's necessary #because that is what ensures that the bgs are JUST bg and not making it hard to make out the PoV characters #o shit and we have to get Crislie a “:(” expression #Navaeli has a “:)” and a “:(” expression #Mep only has “>:(” because he is Mep and that is usually how he looks but i think he will get a “:(” too

[seance]

Make up something to believe in your heart of hearts So you have something to wear on your sleeve of sleeves So you swear you just saw a feathery woman Carry a blindfolded man through the trees

#tua spoilers #tuaedit #uaedit #the umbrella academy #tua #allison hargreeves #edits #userraven #tusermyra #userbecca #number5theboy #i swear i'm done for today! #and her incredibly painful journey this season #emmy was simply perfect #and watching allison's rage explode was kinda therapeutic up to a point #maybe they should all just get ANGRY more #this is not me justifying any of her actions since it apparently needs to be said #this is me thinking about grief in general and feeling the link between that and anger as relatable #nothing will ever excuse what she did to luther. nothing #we're not girlbossing our way into such heavy topics #and i'll end it here

[stealingyourbones]

Ya girl is goin through a not so good time rn mayest I please have photos of y’all’s pets as a means to get that good good happy chemical

#bones speaks #today is not v good rn 🙃 #I simply need shit to distract myself but no matter what I haven’t been able to fully block of the nervousness and it’s been 45 minutes #anxiety attacks fucking suck :( #bones vents

[dimdiamond]

Haddotin paperman au? 📃✈️

Dear nonnie, you asked for paperman au and I didn't make the whole movie but close enough. Enjoy!

Also the date because I couldn't resist!

#THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS!!! #i hope you like it nonnie! #instead of lipstick the way tintin recognizes the paper is because he saw the company's name earlier and it's a sign for meeting him again #btw i made this into a soulmate kinda au where you get colour in a grey world when you meet your soulmate simply because i want to #to be honest the moment i read paperman au I was like WHAT IS IT AND I NEED TO KNOW NOW #but then they reminded me it was this movie and it has been years since I watched it so I didn't even remember there were paper planes lol #as you can see i was so excited to do it and had lots of fun #i couldn't decide who would take which role but the second I saw the brooding guy I recognized haddock in him #haddock is a tired office worker with sakharine as boss and allan definitely his coworker just didn't draw him #i guess tintin is just tintin who has to give his article to his fussy editor #milou is with thompsons for today i suppose #tintin #captain haddock #archibald haddock #the adventures of tintin #haddotin #tintin x haddock #paperman au #my art

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you

#the worst is when it promises you'll feel better and then you simply. do not. you feel worse and then you want to harm again bc surely that #will make you feel better right? THAT WOULD BE A NO. IT DOES NOT. #anyway today i went to spotlight cause i was sad cause i got the result for my 35% assignment i really struggled with. 32.5%. failure. #and at spotlight i made the foolish error of buying without knowing price. but like who makes a book a normal softcover crochet pattern boo #$55?! anyway it's a lovely book and am excited to try a few of teh patterns but the guilt is eating me alive #and also im super stressed about the assignment i have to turn in on thursday and haven't started #anyway i was literally four and a half hours away from being seven days clean #and i am just so sad right now #and i reopened one of the scars on my wrist too while on shift this morning so that's fun #not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course #i was feeling incredibly awful for some reason i can't even remember and i kinda clawed up my arms. and no i don't count that as #breaking my streak bc it didn't cause much damage #i just. placement is so wonderful but life is so so hard #i don't know i want a hug and the assignment done and everything bad unmade #and the scars i have to look at every day on placement gone. #i want to talk to s but i haven't responded to her last message and i don't know how to respond but i need to respond to that #:(( #honestly actually i think i want to talk to aunty. friend's mum. in person. and get a hug. i want a hug. #im just. So Sad. and i want my brother and Ransom and this is not helpinga nd i don't know what would if anything

[natsmagi]

FOR REAL I GET SO MAD WHEN I SEE POSTS LIKE "eww why are ntsmg fans such weirdos!! They dont deserve to have natsume/tsumugi as their favs!!" Like first of all we're not hurting anybody pls let us LIVE, second of all Have You Seen the Characters in Question. Like if we're freaks then what does that make THEM!??!? If they were real theyd be the freaks ur complaining abt!!! TL;DR natsumugi loser weirdo freaks canon and im here for it. Also that alice natsume is so CUUUUTE

ITS KIND OF ODD TBH ?? like obviously i get that not everyones going to like the same stuff but like. if you dont like characters being weird, why do You then also like ntmg.......? if its someone who doesnt ship them thats complaining then fine whatever but its so weird to me when people who claim to ship them make these complaints bc its like?? then why do you ship them???? do you Only like the bits where the two of them are being sweet to each other? do you only like their angsty backstory? do you only like the comedic relief? i have a hard time grasping the idea of dedicating yourself to a pair or character without loving (or at the very least tolerating) every aspect of them........ have these people read the stories? or are they being deliberately oblivious? i have no idea

it makes me really sad how people are so afraid of being seen as "weird" though. too often that word comes with negative connotations when that doesnt need to be the case at all, and i wish these people would stop living in fear and surrounding themselves with those who judge people based off how Socially Normal (according to a christian society) they are

also i just get annoyed seeing ntmg get watered down to some idealized couple completely stripped from their complexities to better fit what we're taught is Morally Correct (according to puritanical beliefs) or reduced to a comedic duo SHDKJFHD

#some of you people really need to learn to live a little #because not allowing yourself to indulge in what you enjoy or just getting mad at OTHERS for indulging in harmless behaviour #is going to make you miserable #and i really fucking wish this shit wasnt so ingrained in todays people #because such a judgemental and reactionary attitude genuinely is harmful especially towards queer people #but thats a whole other discussion for another day #and as i always say its OKAY to be uncomfortable with things #there are MANYYYYYY ntmg artists who make things that makes me very uncomfortable so i SIMPLY DO NOT ENGAGE! #but to act like ntmg Themselves arent weird ??? #and like you cant possibly understand why the fans might indulge in some weird stuff too ?? #thats gotta just be projecting on your end atp #ask #btw this is about harmless self-expression and exploration via fiction and not LITERAL CRIMES #just so you fuckers dont go assuming shit because Jesus Christ the second you start being open about accepting weirdness and being weird #people automatically assume the worst shit imaginable which is so fucking insulting to literally every single human being on the planet #this post is about fictional characters being weird and us being allowed to indulge in it #do Not twist my words into Anything else. #EDIT OMG I GOT SO CAUGHT UP IN BEING ANGRY AT STRANGERS ONLINE I FORGOT U COMPLIMENTED ME #THANK U VERY MUCH!!!!! ASJHFKAJSHDG

[mars-ipan]

GODDD.

#marzivents #to preface. i am SLIGHTLY buzzed. as in i have had a single mimosa almost an hour ago #today there has been a… weird??? energy with the family?? #my mom and dad are on two different frequencies today but like they’re managing so whatever #my brother and i have been normal i suppose #but we’ve been all together for a little bit to celebrate the new uear and such #clock hits 12. we celebrate. everybody has One mimosa. not a lot at all #that buzz hits me and i’m hanging out. i’m feeling good! #my brother says something or other and we start the motions of one of our go-to sibling disagreements you know the type #and my mother cuts me off says like ‘let’s all relax’ or whatever. i didn’t feel that angry but like?? sure? fine whatever #we stop and i move on. once again not a huge deal to me #then my dad does smth or other. my mom’s been razzing him all day so i decide alright i will also razz him. a little lighthearted teasing #it is NOTHING different from what i normally do. just slightly more frequent #and my dad goes ‘i can’t have an opinion on anything huh?’ and i- committed to the bit- go ‘no <3’ with a smile on my face #like i am simply wanting to fuck around!! the way you do with friends! that is all i am doing! #i get in some other thing with my brother for like .2 seconds before my mom tells us to ‘stop fighting’ again. alright cool #this sort of thing continues. and the air in the room becomes super tense for some goddamn reason??? #eventually my dad heads to the garage and my brother follows. while they’re gone my mom tells me i need to cool it and i’m being aggressive #i???? huh???? what??? #i was gonna turn to HER and crack a joke like ‘how do you get them to understand that loud doesn’t mean angry?’ #because that’s an issue SHE has all the damn time! i was gonna turn to her and bond! but she says that before i can even start to #so my attempt to ease the remaining tension in the room is dead on arrival. in fact the room is even TENSER #maybe it was the champagne or smth but it just fucking got to me. i shut up and turn away and start trying to collect myself #i’m realizing two things. 1- my emotions are less in my control right now and i cannot collect myself here. 2- I Need To Fucking Scream #so i silently pack up and head to my room. my mom knows better and asks no questions #as i was typing this post my brother walks in. i shoo him out without words but he tries to ask questions so i just repeat until he gets it #i feel fucking insane. what the fuck did i DO???? i literally was just fucking razzing. i do that all the time #and sure. i was louder. and yeah it was probably slightly more razzing than i normally would. but i DO NOT FUCKING GET how those two things #would cause as MUCH of a reaction as they did!!! like. i . hello??? #the rest is in the replies bc i am out of tags but i am not out of feelings

[potential-fate]

why would I want to focus on work when I can instead look through my old pleasantview story and see what I can turn into short fanfic oneshots on AO3?

#my posts #I wish I was kidding but I simply cannot focus today. >_> #the oneshot thing is just something I recently thought to do because I'm honestly never going to do anything else with it at this point #like for fucks sake it's been... what 4 years? since I touched it? at least???? #I have like #all these random scenes that no one has even seen based on it #or based on headcanons and shit #and a few older scenes reworked anyways. #so my brain said “well you could polish them up and post them somewhere they don't need to be in order?” #and here we are #potentially pleasantview

[smalltimidbean]

oh to have a fiend plush… i mean i can technically get one made by budsies (a plush making company) but you’re probably not comfortable with that. which is perfectly valid

i must confess i never thought i would admire them so much as i do lol (even if they slightly scare me /lh)

ah well i’ll continue to admire them from afar

Yeah, not only would I be very uncomfortable with that, it'd be incredibly disrespectful (and just plain weird) to take my personal character (or anyone's, really) and make a plush of them to keep for yourself - so, please do not do that

If I did theoretically have a project featuring Bean and Fiend, and it was popular enough for merch, Fiend plush would definitely be one of the first things to make, much to their chagrin hehe

Again, unlikely to happen, but thanks for liking Fiend so much!

(Also tangent, but if I had a nickel for every time someone really liked a more antagonistic spin-off of Bean, I would have at least two nickels, which is not a lot, but it is weird that it has happened at least twice… (reference))

#bean talks too much #sometimes I do think it would be cool to have a project with that kinda popularity but then I think about for like two more seconds kjdgfkj #for one I tend to work on things super hard for a while and then burn out completely and then never get back to that level of work #two I can barely handle the 'popularity' I have right now which isn't even that much #I already get super overwhelmed with checking tumblr in the morning and seeing like 50 notes and maybe one ask #imagine that times like ten and I explode into green slime #and I am bad at talking to people so I end up ghosting everyone by accident and I probably come across stand-offish and unapproachable #and I don't reach out to anyone bc it's fucking terrifying so most days I simply do not talk #three I am super particular/protective about things so if people took my characters and made AUs about them I'd probably freak the fuck out #which I know is INCREDIBLY HYPOCRITICAL of me to say bc I do exactly that so I would probably have to just deal with it #these are all things I personally need to work on but still scary to think about #what was this ask about I spiralled a bit #uhhhhhhh thanks for liking Fiend #okay time to draw what I was supposed today

[seapasture]

I keep staying up too late because it feels like the only time of day I can breathe for myself and avoid interruption but there's also a mysterious cutoff point which varies each night when I am pounced upon by my own shadow and I suddenly feel very depressed

#and i had a terrible dream last night too. i simply can't win at all #i normally wake up and feel 'better' but it's really persisting today - i feel very low really #i don't really know what to do - i hate sleeping in late because it makes me sad and brings me shame #but i desperately need the quietness of nighttime #i just feel so sad haha i'm sure i'll feel fine in a bit but i don't know #sea rambles

[soldier-poet-king]

My boss stop talking about losing weight for her son's wedding challenge

#body image cw #MAAM. MAAM. U NEED TO STOP #at least once a week. and its giving me fitting rooms level agonies #she looks fine! bit shes like. well. its a straight sheath dress #MAYBE GET A DIFFERENT STYLE THEN???? and stop talking to ME abt it #I AM LITERALLY SO AVERAGE SIZED #but am convinced because i have A Stomach. yknow. where i store my organs and food #that means im awful because i get rolls when i sit #LIKE EVERY OTHER PERSON ON GODS GREEN EARTH #anyway. i dressed real cute today and i look gr8 #even tho i am inexplicably bloated. i didnt eat anything weird #but it is possible that allergy meds on an empty stomach was a mistake #anyway. itll be fine. im just ANNOYED #and im not actively trying to give myself an ED and yet MY BOSS PERSISTS #i simply. do not wear insta fashions made for impossibly thin bodies. and dress what fits MY mii shaped ass #also my fucked up pelvis alignment has given me lumbar lordosis and that certainly isnt helping