#sometimes i just forget one okay

[nympippi]

Bruce Yamada post revival!

Here’s the sweet and lovable baseball player!!! He enjoys baseball, and soft jazz!

I tried to make it seem like he’s thinking of spaced out because like canon Bruce has the most memory issues post revival, he has trouble remembering numbers, dates, faces, and sometimes names. It frustrates him, so to keep his mind busy he pops rubber bands on his wrist, and he writes in a memory book!

He’s still very sweet but I think dying put a damper on his personality, he’s spacey, aloof, and calm on most days and sometimes he’s cold, bitter, and mean on worse ones. Those are the days where he can barely remember he’s alive.

I tried to keep it similar to canon with him having his memory and own sense of self being altered because like all the others I think dying left a serious impact on his mental health and psyche.

One thing didn’t change though!! He’s a major nerd for baseball and is an absolute natural at it!

#pippi art #the black phone fandom #the black phone #the black phone fanart #necromancer finney au #bruce yamada #tbp brance #bruce yamada fanart #y’all I never said I’d give them happiness in this au #the only ones even remotely getting happyiness is Griffin and Robin. everyone else gets ANGST!!! #but back to the Bruce forgets he’s alive sometimes. he’d have one of those episodes and see Finn and thought that the Grabber killed him #and just breaks down crying. #I promsies. he gets better with time #his memory is still shit though. like he’s not very good at remembering numbers AT ALL. like it’s one of. the things he’s worse at #but yeah I love sweet Bruce but I also see this post-dying Bruce to be someone who’s more aloof and spacey with how he goes about his day #only really focusing on one thing at a time #griffin reads with him though. and Vance shares his music even though Billy and Bruce have more aligned music tastes #the other boys try to remind him he’s still here and that he’s okay. Gwen would probably make him a homemade fidget necklace too

[aheathen-conceivably]

Is this an Antoine aging gracefully post or a sim style evolution appreciation moment? Both? Both is good 😌

#Antoine is the first one of this gen’s main characters to age up into an adult #which I have FEELINGS about omg #I feel like they’re all entering new phases of their lives/we’re well and truly on this train to the next gen #and I am not okay about it 😭 #also a moment for Zelda’s ~evolution~ between these two posts is all imma say thank you very much #let us not forget the shy 20 year old waiting for that man to make his first move #like her character arc is in some way’s just as quiet as she can be #but also like I see it sometimes and just wanna cry for her and buy her a drink #that’s enough ranting in the tags for me thank you good day #sims 4 historical #ts4 decades challenge #ts4 historical #sims 4 decades challenge #sims 4 legacy #ts4 legacy

[itspileofgoodthings]

my life is a very slow process of everyone around me telling me not to be anxious and me fighting them all tooth and nail while inching towards more stable mental health.

#I know it’s not true but sometimes I feel like if I didn’t have anxiety I would not suffer at all #which. again. is false #but there’s a lot of things I don’t want in this life and a lot of things I am not scared of and a lot of things I just accept #and like. It’s FINE #but all my suffering from anxiety stays in one fixed flame of sheer agony #and it’s hard because I don’t shake like a chihuahua in the corner of my bedroom #unable to move or function #I’m always doing things and functioning and joking at parties and (generally) saying the right thing #but it’s all located in one corner in the middle of my mind attacking my ability to make judgments and live with my decisions peacefully #like an unseen wound #and the distance i feel it puts between me and other people #is one of the most painful things #just several sheets of frosted glass between me and them #and sometimes the worst it gets is when I can bear it without breaking down and so I just do and I just keep functioning #and the cold just creeps in and everything goes kind of numb! #tbh now that I think about it this might be why I often think of myself as a person with no desires or ambitions or dreams #or impetus or forward motion or anything #because I DO want things and have opinions and the exist in flashes. But also they’re buried deep under several layers of protective apathy #so they’re not stable. I drop them many times. forget them ignore them imagine that they aren’t there. I’m sorry I’m rambling I’m FINE #actually when I talk about it that’s how you know I’m doing okay with it #when I can’t talk about it and am half-heartedly going through the motions #that’s the problem #anyway whew. thanks for listening sorry for all the self-reflection etc. etc. etc.

[moe-broey]

Love Loses 😔💔 (aka second-worst festival you could possibly drag Moe into)

+ some rough sketches of the outfit!!!

I'm not too committed to fleshing it out, but I imagine it would most likely have a green color scheme, forget-me-nots and possibly pansies incorporated into its design (would probably have to figure out how all that would work together LMFAO but again. Not super committed to the thought!)

#fire emblem #feh #the pansies are a cool idea actually beyond the queer connection i have this bigass flower meaning book #and there's potential there! #i was just doodling though. plus i have other dod wips i consider to be more 'canon' in my heart #IT'S JUST. IT'S JUST. THE GOOFIEST THING EVER SOMETIMES. #like yeah i made this guy specifically to hang out w my blorbos. yeah it's going to fuck off completely now. #it's already fucking gone. good fucking luck finding it again. #moe is just. you're better off without me. the idea of leaving sharena behind fucks me up so bad i'm gonna throw up. #this doesn't say anything about me at all. i'm easily replaceable. and i'm okay with that. #yes i'm wearing the forget-me-nots. no that doesn't mean anything. and neither do the pansies. #don't worry about it 😊👍 #also i think the dysphoria acting up is actually less about the outfit (esp since alfonse is wearing something similar) #and more about the social 'role' it feels its being forced into. even if its the only one feeling this way #dysphoria will do crazy shit to you and fucl your entire life LMFAOO #i do think its suffering w those thighs out though. poor thang 😔 #fe alfonse #moe tag #summoner oc #my art

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

You knew my mother was here | Moth Work

Lonan has stopped paddling. The canoe sits in the middle of the lake, lifeless like a bone in the water. He’s turned so Harrison sees him in profile and can’t tell if it’s relieving or worrying to see his face. Lonan’s jaw is taut, like there are words he wants to say but can’t. Filling up the hollow bone. He blinks slowly, like he’s trying to re-centre himself, his chest quivering with breaths meant to steady him. The water laps at the base of the canoe, whirling like his head. Dark hair tangles down his cheeks like the fingers of a poltergeist.

“You knew my mother was here,” Lonan says.

“Yes.”

“How?”

“Research.”

LONAN PORTRAIT TO GRACE (HAUNT?) YOUR DASH!! <3

Excerpt circa 2019.

#this was sooo fun hehee #I meant to draw HB Lonan but it looked more like MW Lonan which is dumb because they are literally the Same Guy only a month apart but #BUT I HAD MY LOGICCCC #anyway <3 #he’s wearing Harrison’s jacket <333 like he does for most of the book lol #lonan ‘I’m not gay’ clark #there are probably things abt this I’ll change but I didn’t want to spend too long making it perfect !!! #but I mean he’s pretty perfect in himself hehe <3 #THIS scene is why moth work was called boys on a boat for a long time #THE OGs KNOW LOL #personally if I saw this man the only words coming out of my mouth would be okay babygirl but maybe that’s just me looool #like sometimes I’m like harrison WHY this man WHY #and then I draw him and I’m like yeah yeah okay #the sketch at one point looked so much like REEVE!!!! so I’m gonna draw over it and make it her lol #anyway did you know that the whole reason moth work even happens is because #Harrison’s worried about Lonan’s add*ction & as a last resort is like #okkkk I can’t help you but maybe your bio mom can???? and Izzy is at the cabin lol #sometimes I forget that was the reason!!!! #anyway kissing him on the cheek #I hope he finds happiness and love!!!!! #art

[legolambi]

hehe thanks @thenameisgreed for tagging me! love a good picrew 💖

@superangsty @mephal @blitzy-wing @banalhorrors @yourdeadprince make yourselves if you want!!

link to the thingie https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1944831

#doing this before I forget as usual lol #i do sometimes remember all the tag games people tag me in maybe I should just do all of them at once haha #usually ill look at them #think of my answers and of course instantly forget #sammy if you’re reading this i remember the Pinterest one I thought the pictures i found were so funny I shared them with all my friends #and of course forgot to actually post it here 🤡 #also im always embarrassed tagging my mutuals I know I don’t talk to anyone but you’re my brothers okay

[icewindandboringhorror]

A dramatic lighting sunlight window boye

#cats #He begs and begs to get in the window and then when he does hea relaizies it's too hot and only stays #there for like 2 minutes before getting down lol #He's seemed mostly okay so far since his brother died. Like he's still eating and drinking #and playing and dosen't seem to be lethargic or grieving like apparently some cats are when they lose the other cat they live with #but I'm still keeping an eye on him. #I have been feeding him a little late sometimes because I 'm still so used to george begging for food constantly screaming and waking #everyone up howling and making sure NOBODY could EVER forget to put out kibbles because he is SO SO hungwy at ALL times #whereas noodle is very quiet and hardly ever meows or tries to get attention from anyone in general #so I'll wake up and then it's like 9:30 am and I realize I haven't been Prompted By Screaming to put out food yet #because noodle just literally doesn't care and is just chilling lol #When i do go to feed him he leaps up like 'oh cool food!!!' and is obviously interested in eating but for some #reason just doesn't really ask to be fed or follow you around yelling constantly. Maybe he also got used to george always being the one to #ask for food so h's never had to meow before lol

[surreal-duck]

hi!! i just wanted to say that ive liked midoyuzu since i was like 14 and its been a few years since then (obviously) but seeing your midoyuzu art now is so!!! its so fulfilling to my past self who had like NO art to go off of, i guess? anyway! your art is super good and i love it so much <3

im glad omg? extremely late to the party but by god i am bringing snacks in here or die trying o7 was pretty baffled the first time finding out more abt their dynamic and looking them up on here to find maybe like two more recent posts and the rest from no sooner than 2017 or so askjdghsjkgdhjks but really THANK YOU!!!!!!!! happy to be of service to your inner 14yo somewhat ;v;

yknow what though the really funny thing is that i wasnt even that into them initially. just remembered that cute interaction at the end of xmas live and thought "huh these two r kinda sweet actually" and that curiosity is always a slippery slope into genuine investment and by god is tripping into it a favorite pastime of mine

#if i had to say tho honestly these two were both the last ones of their units i managed to get attached to properly #yuzuru has definitely become my fav of fine though but my actual rst fav is kanata LOL #also finding out yuzuru likes to draw in general is everything to me you go you funky master artist #cute critter line took me out back w a metal chair why r they so. auhhg #actually my good friend who got me in here Knows i was actually on track to becoming an ibyz liker but then. anvil fell comically on my hea #before i knew it theyve taken over almost every corner of my brain get them out!!!!! get them out!!!!!!!! #and i was already a ryuseitai fan and enjoyed fine casually but oh. oh god im a yuzurup too now arent i goddammit #SORRY THIS BECAME A RAMBLE UM. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! #asks #anonymous #sometimes i forget that their actual interactions probably amount to no more than 6 or 7 times in canon and the rest is just in my head #that and i just think its rather nice for both of their characters to get along!! romantic or platonic #really sweet to see midori so pumped up and passionate about the things he loves and yuzuru getting thrown off his rhythm of the always #perfect butler who resigns himself into the background most of the time. theyre just having fun!!! silly guys #and yuzuru rly does enjoy art and nonsensical doodles even if people generally find it horrifying midori loves them wholeheartedly its. yea #okay im still rambling. ill shut up now i havent slept properly in a bed in nearly 48 hours i should go do that

[lizablackthorn]

i made this with the explanation of @c2stan so thank you for once again<3

and this is what it’s okay. End of discussion for me. I hate them. i don’t like them. They make me sick to my stomach and i just wanna see them doing bad. I’m a hater and seeing them at their worst gives me joy

#praying for a rbr engine failure for this weekend✌🏻😚 #if m*x has 82290 haters i’m one if them #if he has 73 haters i’m one of them #if he has 10 haters i’m still one of them #and if he has a 1 hater i’m that person #also carlos please pack your things and leave ferrari i don’t wanna see sight if you anymore #alonso is just alonso #sometimes you feel like you can maybe not hate him but he does a thing and boom you hate him more #and never forget if there’s one more thing checo perez hates more than women rights that’s charles leclerc #okay thank you bye #i hope they suck at baku #and i get a cute amazing chewis podium #f1 #f1blr #f1edit #charles leclerc #f1 fandom #f1 ferrari #ferrari #lewis hamilton #lando norris #f1 drivers #f1 2023 season #alex albon #pierre gasly #george russell

[popcornsalty]

Okay important and genuine message from me. I'm not much or often a poster on timblr but if I can give a sincere message. It's to have varied interests. Be into multiple things at once. It doesn't have to be the same intensity for all of them or level of interest or whatever. Hell not all of it has to be good. Just have multiple things to look forward to and care about

#poke post #was watching a long ass video essay recently #n it finally mqde smth click for me coz like #one of the most miserable times in my life was when i was in the ds/mp era #because it and associated content creators were all i was into! so when shit was hitting the fan a long long time before i left #i was left in just the worst relationship to what was to be a comfort #and now fast forward a few years and. its like. im reading books. im going outside. im playing games. im drawing things. i curate my time #online very scrupulous because if i dont its easy to end up sad #which for me was starting to happen w/ q/s/mp #and so i was able to leave #because i have friends and shit outside of it and things i can talk about other then it #and its so freeing #which is to say. just. try to carve out time for more then one interest or thing at a time if you can #there are things you can do!! look up top 10 books in a genre!! order them off a library!! log off your socmeds for a while!! fuck!! #its not easy but its so worth it i promise it is. #+ also moreover please always remember my friends you are never obligated to engage in things if they make you unhappy. its always okay #to check and see if something brings you more joy then discomfort #take care everyone take care of yourselves #no one else can do it for you #anyway i will now go back to. my book :3 ive been reading the g/olden compass. havent finished yet so no spoilers #feel free to ask me about it ill probably get to it tmrw #also some things im looking forward to: #more on/e piece more wi/tch hat a/tieler ram the next stream of this small streamer ive been into #the next novel by this mid author i liked as a kid- #the next ep of du/nmeshi anime #and more and more #and sometimes i forget to have a thing to look forward to #and must find something new again again #its worth it #also yea no this is incoherent hope someone gets smth out of it tho

[mortellanarts]

🎶Now Playing: 7. Tinderbox

tinder (n.) :

Dry, flammable material, such as wood or paper; used for lighting a fire

box (n.) :

A predicament or trap

@999week

#yeah I looked up the definition of the word box to see if it was anything what of it #999 week #seven 999 #zero escape #999 spoilers #9 hours 9 persons 9 doors #my art #Tinderbox was one I felt personally victimized by when I learned what it meant! #I'm not a native english speaker so I didn't realize it had to do with fire for the longest time q-q #but yeah! This song plays when there's a rise in tension or when characters are literally trapped in a way #the first instance of it playing is when the freezer door gets stuck #then it also plays on the scenes with the gun #most relevantly it plays as seven finds the kids stuck in the incinerator. literally what the title alludes to #all the running motifs and thematic tidbits of this game make me insane I'll never be over it #okay wait I lied the actual first instance is when the ninth man holds Clover hostage I just forget that happens sometimes

[crazyw3irdo]

Have you ever wanted to draw something but you fought due to your skill level at the time you decide not to do it

oh definitely. the hardest part of art is starting- and being comfortable making something that’s not perfect. i find drawing something *intentionally* bad to start or like, with stick figures and very basic shapes, is a good way to get over that first hurdle. and there’s also tutorials online for pretty much anything if you don’t even know where to begin!

you never know what you can do if you never try though, and you also can’t improve if you never do- i avoided backgrounds for years & i’ve been slowly getting myself used to them and have been really liking what i’ve done! (not showing the piece i have in mind yet cause it’s for a zine that’s not come out yet hehe)

#that mental hurdle is the hardest one #+ as a person with ADHD i’ve often had an idea i really wanted to do then put it off for this reason and just. kept forgetting to do it. #without having a deadline or anything my brain is just like ‘oh so this gets done never 👍 got it’ #highly recommend just going ‘okay. i will do One Single Thing.’ #like okay. well i don’t want to draw this yet; but i can make a new file and name it #cause that often leads to my brain going ‘well that was so easy i guess i could do another thing’ #then ‘well i won’t draw the full thing but here’s like. a single circle where i want something to be’ #then maybe i’ll go ‘well i can add a few more guidelines just so i remember what i’m envisioning’ #and then eventually i’ve gotten so far that i just. ended up doing it. or making a lot of progress #not always! sometimes it really is just the first few things! but it makes it easier the next time i make myself do ‘just one thing’ #breaking tasks down like that always makes it much less daunting #crazwaz posted #audience participation

[gideonisms]

it's really irritating and difficult to live my life sometimes and for what? not striving to accomplish any huge goals here but the tiny ones, are also excruciating,

#why couldn't i have been born with a fixation that makes me incredible at math or computer science #then i could at least keep the money rolling in #who cares if you eat dinner at 1 am or struggle through basic decisions and interactions if you've got that cash money. #then you're just eccentric #there's like whole social & economic theories devoted to this i'm aware #but sometimes it's like. okay i understand that socially we have decided to do things earlier in the day not my fault for hating that #but i also would like to see the sun. i would like to visit coffee shops and take pleasant strolls and have friends in my area #and do little tasks and contribute in some way to my society #and i would like to do all of this without playing 5d chess to work around the whole way that i am #i have projects of my own you know! and then i'll do one social thing and just be like a zombie the rest of the day #i forgot to get a working microwave today. how do you forget to solve the same problem you've been having for a week and a half again #what? it's just empty space in there #sometimes it strikes you eating dinner at 1 am that maybe you are the messy bitch #self love through the other or something

[izzy-b-hands]

I really wish blocking someone meant their stuff wouldn’t wind up on your dash at all. Like I understand why it doesn’t, but. still.

Actually, I just need to get better abt checking source urls before I reblog. I try to be mindful, but now and again I Forget and have only myself to blame lmao

#text post #I would love to reblog their art and be supportive in that way at least but tbh #every time I accidentally reblog it I remember checking out their blog and seeing how they talked abt fans that like Izzy and the izcourse #and it's like oh no that's right you hate ppl like me and ur art might be gorg but maybe we just shouldn't interact #they do their thing and I'll be over here doing mine #what really needs to happen is I need to remember to check urls on fandom art to make sure it isn't any of the folks I had to block lmao #but sometimes I get excited bc the art is genuinely lovely and i do like it and think the person is v talented! #and then i forget to check and it's only after scrolling my dash that i see my reblog and the url and go 'oh. fuck. that's right. damnit.' #it's a weird feeling to be like yes I want this person to have fun and make gorgeous art but also it seems #they've made it p clear how they feel abt folks like me and so maybe they would prefer i just fuck off #which i tried to do by blocking!! and yet. here we are #i delete the reblogs whenever this happens so they don't have me in their notes but #i do hope they know their art is lovely and I appreciate their hard work even if we wouldn't otherwise get along with each other #idek why I'm blogging abt this I guess bc I feel like usually it's either or online? like u either hate each other or u don't #but I don't hate the folks who sent shit to me or the folks who condoned it i just wish i had found a way to get along with them instead #as useless a wish as that probably is #and i don't talk abt it a lot but it really bugs the fuck outta me sometimes that we can't just start over and try to interact generally #no messages no trying to be friends just reblog from them if u like and otherwise ignore each other #which has been a thing that's worked fairly okay in other fandoms tho things have happened in others to change how workable it was #but for some reason in this one i feel like im just always walking on eggshells to interact w/anyone bc it feels like everyone is waiting #for someone else to say something they vaguely disagree with and instead of just like. blocking and moving on w/the fandom experience #it turns into a massive mess that even if ur on the fringes of it all you still get pulled into or sent shit and just. #idk it doesn't matter bc ultimately none of this does but dang it the show has been special to me and hits all my special interests #and it's hard to let go and accept that there's no changing how things went and how they are and how this fandom experience for me is often #very fucking lonely even when i'm bursting at the seams to share and to hear from others what they think abt anything and everything w/it #no one is gonna read this tag essay lmao pls scroll on

[primus-why]

Sad Old MegOp

Downer feels ahoy! (I'm sorry 🥺 but this just came to mind all of a sudden...)

Basically... what if after an extremely long war, and even longer peacetime between factions, after bringing everyone back home and rebuilding and thriving...

... one of our beloved OTP (or possibly, even sadder, both of them??) is starting to get processor glitches similar to alzheimers in humans. There are gaps in memories that get harder and harder to jog each day, and some days they wake up disoriented, thinking they're somewhere they're not.

On the worst days, they think they're still fighting the other.

#i can see Optimus being immune due to the Matrix... but also could see the Matrix scrambling his mind a but as he gets older #like one minute he's regular ol Optimus... the next he's convinced he's solus prime because he's reliving memories that aren't his own. #megs can just get old and worn... maybe some crucial maintenance for processors wasn't implemented soon enough #because it wasn't deemed necessary for a miner or gladiator #(i mean... how many get to grow old in those professions anyway??) #anywho i just want megs flipping out one day when he wakes up next to Optimus prime-- his sworn enemy #he grapples with him. tries to summon his weapons but finds that he can't....... then he realizes his frame is drastically different. #but.... that makes no sense? how could this be? could the Autobots have done such a risky procedure as a full frame overhaul? #but then why do all of his parts look so worn and not new? #optimus is practically crying-- which is definitely not something he'd normally do in front of him... #okay then imagine the flip side. Optimus' processor is scrambled and Megatron is losing him piece by piece to that bauble in his chest. #he'll recall a memory one day then forget it the next. first aid suggests that his processor is being combed through #for wisdom to dump into the matrix. #megatron doesn't care. #he doesn't care about ancient wisdom he cares about the memories THEY have made in the now #in their lifetimes. #some days Optimus seems to be reliving his days in the war and there's nothing Megatron can do to alleviate that pain #and the worst of all-- someone entirely new who oversees the care of these two recounts day to day stories of their care. #some days one is more lucid than the other... some days neither are all there. #sometimes a young miner is enamored to meet an ancient prime. #some days the facilities have to be put into lockdown because these two still incredibly powerful mechs suddenly recalled the war. #those are the worst days... seeing their infamous love-conquers-all story crumble into dust as they square off with intent to kill. #megop #fuzz writes

[truckstoptigers]

i remember i'd hear about how my state is one of the most dangerous places in terms of sex trafficking and i would think, what an awful thing. how terrible is it that my state has such an issue with trafficking that it's enough for it to be a well-known, well-documented serious danger/risk area.

and i still didn't think it would ever happen to me.

#familial trafficking is a very real thing and i am not okay :) #i still have a hard time coming to terms w it. i mean. thats what happened. i was trafficked. but it wasnt a stranger. #it was my fucking dad!! what the fuck!!!!! #he wouldnt stick around whenever hed bring me somewhere so it could happen. he literally left me w men he didnt even really know. #i remember one of them asked me once 'think your dad would let me keep you?' and all i could do was cry because well. #what exactly was stopping him from taking me? it sure as hell wasnt the law because me being seven fucking years old didnt matter. #im sure some of them thought about it. i just got lucky. i only got to go back home because of dumb luck. not everyone gets that chance. #sometimes i still feel like shit for using the word 'trafficking' to describe what happened to me because i know thats what it was #but it still doesnt feel like its *my* word to use. like im blowing it all out of proportion even though thats. literally what it was. #i dont know how to talk to anyone about it. just typing this made me have to put my phone down for a minute so i could try to calm down. #and then i also had to set it down for like an hour for the same reason. i just. im gonna go play minecraft for a few hours. #csa vent #trauma vent #actuallyabused #actuallytraumatized #tw trafficking #forgetting about this shit for years and having the memories come flooding back all of a sudden has been. SO difficult. #im so tired of thinking about it but i cant stop.