#spiral curls

[youkaiyume]

Hello, it's been a while since I did a rant. But WARNING for gross medical things:

SO it turns out my old nemesis the ovarian cysts have plagued me again. I found out about three weeks ago when a weird pain wouldn't leave my pelvis and went to urgent care and they suggested a CT scan. ONLY! for my insurance to deny me cuz they think I needed more probable cause for one so my doctor just recommended I go to the ER (which ironically is way more expensive for insurance to pay for than a simple CT scan but they did it to themselves lol).

Turns out I have cysts on BOTH of my ovaries FUN. But the left one is very concerningly big and probably needs to be removed but I can only do so by getting an approval of an OBGYN. So after finding one and waiting for my blood tests to come back so she can determine if she can surgically remove it--

YESTERDAY I had a SUDDEN AND SEVERE pain that hit me. I was at a solid 10 on that pain scale and vomiting and sweating so I drove myself to the ER again for the second time in two weeks. Frustratingly, the MALE doctor came back and was just like "well it looks like while we were doing your ultrasound you weren't consistently experiencing pain" which I was ready to bite his head off because let me tell you. While I was laying stretched out letting them do the ultrasound I was in the worst pain the ENTIRE time. And it was not a short ultrasound. It lasted over 20 mins and even after they asked me if I could survive sitting through the vaginal ultrasound after which would be another 25 mins. And those are painful just for the stick poking around in your yoohoo alone. I begged for pain relievers and when I described it they were like "oh that's labor level pains"

SO Mr. I don't have a Uterus doctor, DON'T TELL ME that your machine says I wasn't in pain. He even hit me with a "well I don't know what your pain tolerance is" as if to minimize or make me feel like I was overblowing what I was feeling. Like, fuck that guy. But because technically the imaging showed that the cysts haven't ruptured or caused my ovaries to twist it was considered "non emergent" and so the just gave me painkillers and then sent me home and reiterated that the only way I could get it removed at this point was to beg my OBGYN and convince her it was an emergency. In the meantime it was "oh you'll have to live with LABOR LIKE PAINS 24/7 until they let you have surgery." In the meantime they said I should only return to the ER after I've took all my pain meds and my pain doesn't improve OR if something worse happens. like a rupture.

WHICH btw are the exact same symptoms I have today so I was like how will I know cuz I can't imagine a worse pain than this one to which they were like "shrug"

I was in tears. Oh but it gets EVEN BETTER. Called my OBGYN this morning and she said my blood tests came back and that unfortunately they detected higher than usual levels of cancer markers in the cyst so that means she can't surgically remove them for me, she has to foist me to an Oncologist so THEY can remove it. She tries to say it doesn't necessarily MEAN cancer but hnnnnnggg that does not help with my anxiety at the moment.

Now calling the Oncologist to make an appointment today was a whole ordeal itself cuz their system kept going to voicemail so I had to call all the departments until they finally let me through but I had to run back to the hospital to try to get my Ultrasound discs for them. But even then they were like "your appointment isn't until next Wednesday" because THATS when the doctor meanders into work. So I'm like OH so like, in the meantime what if something happens??? And they're like well you gotta call back your OBGYN to see if you have other options. Which turns out she is also out. Until Tuesday. So I'm like. Guess I'll die then!

I don't even want kids!!! These ovaries have caused me nothing but trouble!!! Please rip them from my body!!

#And you know when you have nothing to do but curl up and google ovarian cancer #AND it tells you that the longest living patients on average live up to five years #it does make you spiral a bit #I feel like these entire two weeks the entire medical system won't believe me when I say it's an emergency #you sit here with this pain then #you do it #text post #rant #gross medical things

[clementinatehasperdido]

Internally spiraling.

#yo #me #tired #curls #girl #spiraling #day #i have the worst headache

[michaelsspiraltits]

mmmichael

#michael distortion #michael shelley #tma #the distortion #the spiral #i might finish this piece at some point but in case I forget and never return here have some michael #i love art nouveau and i think it fits very well with the distortion with those curls and swirls

[ohitslen]

Chapter three was, something

So here is my tribute for it because God it’s so good. Here’s the link for this chapter, if you haven’t read it yet please I beg you to do so💖 read @flowercitti works they’re awesome ✨

I’m not even sure if I did Vash right but fuck it we ball, truly sorry if it is inaccurate ㅠㅠ

#trigun fanfiction #trigun fanart #Trigun #vash the stampede #Vash #nicholas trigun #nicholas d wolfwood #nick wolfwood #trigun fic #i am abnormal about these two and will spiral into insanity gladly and for free #spreading the pretty WW agenda too bc he is and idc #he’s handsome too but he deserves to look all pretty as wel #never going to draw this man the same way twice probably #anytime I read about his curls framing his face or bouncing a lil I get a bit more crazy #and about Vash #well he is turbo depressed #wolfwood really saw this mentally ill man and didn’t hesitate to swipe smash #and Vash isn’t any better that’s the whole principle of it #isn’t that Vashwood in a nutshell anyways #I also got the wonderful experience of looking up references for Vash’s coat based on the manga #if you know how it is you know what I’m trying to say #lenssi draws #lenssi reads

[meirimerens]

stillwater's russian name being "whirlpool" another more reason i must depict farkhad with wavy hair that curls more when wet. the spiral... the spiral, the spiral, the spiral... 🐚🌀

#the spiral the spiral the spiral. #thorny bushes of curls. as always............ #neigh (blabbers) #farkhad lore #stillwater lore

[belleshaw]

#black and white #california botanic garden #nature #garden #cactus #strings #desert #plant #detail #curls #spiral #blades #flickr

[pidgefudge]

sorry if i failed social interaction with u today i am. scared

#if i hadnt been doing homework all afternoon i wouldve been curled up in the dark spiraling

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that? #because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought #i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy #its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere #bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like #normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes #possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my #reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it #i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything #in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place #i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass #i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired #god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or #read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill #so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating #its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage #bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪 #i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn #unrelated

[stevespookington]

eddie was in the sandbox when the chicken finds him. it coasted down from who knows where and landed next to him with a small cluck. he was oh so small, but the chicken wasnt much bigger, full grown but not full sized. being all of two or so he went "fluffy!" the chicken sniffed, if chickens could sniff, and stated that her name is primrose. shes a cautious thing, a voice of wisdom. one that eddie needs with his wild energy. but also very, as eddie said, fluffy. perfect for warm hugs and an afternoon nap. and oh how eddie needs that comfort far too soon. as far too soon his home is gone and hes moves to hawkins...

steve never had much comfort, his parents never were the... best. he never knew a day without smaug though, maybe that was a part of his parents distance? they saw steve as the perfect solution, a bandaid to their failing marriage. and well, people didnt see snake daemons as perfect. but it didnt matter to steve, he had a friend and a confidant. someone he could whisper secrets to. someone who would hold those secrets tight and guard them. and who also whispered back, stories and tales, a loyal friend in the night.

eddie felt small in hawkins. people laughed at primrose and they laughed at him too. she would curl up on his chest at night and cluck soothingly. he was smaller than everyone else and primrose told him that it was alright, everyone went at their own speed and chickens always protected their own. they would fight desperately, but it was always okay to run back to the safety of the coop. eddie felt loved when primrose preened his hair, felt that it was okay to be different.

steve always had a snake curled around his left wrist, smaug watched lazily as he took notes and curled up on the bench as he played basketball. his friends used to ask how he got stuck with a snake, why he let it cling to him. but he didn't cling, smaug anchored him. kept him afloat all those years. held him close and how steve needed to be held close. a constant presence, a little unusual and definitely not the norm. but he didnt care.

eddie got even more dumbass comments about having a chicken daemon in high school. eddie the coward, always running. eddie and his chicken, the perfect pair. regardless, eddie loved his chicken as it snuggled close and kept him warm. a constant reminder that he wasnt alone.

steve heard dustin go on and on about his fast talking dm and his dramatics and flair. how he would set something up and lure them in. and steve could tell that dustin loved this guy, another important figure in his life, and how that stung at first. but also... steve knew he wasnt at school anymore... and anyone looking out for his twerps was a good thing. even if it was eddie and his chicken.

eddie rolled his eyes as dustin kept talking about steve this and that. how he was picking him up after the session. how he helped study, even if it was just by providing a quiet space and support. how he helped lucas practice basketball before tryouts. ugh. but it wasnt until dustin rattled off another story about how steve could be such a mother hen that eddies annoyance turned to curiosity. he always had thought that steves snake had been kind of metal.

steve sees eddie in the boathouse, eating cereal and holding some out to his daemon. primrose nestled tight, almost as if she was weighing eddie down and keeping him anchored.

eddie watches steve drive, his snake curled tight around his wrist. a constant pressure, holding steve together even though eddie can see cracks.

they watch each other and see a reflection of themselves. 

their daemons look at each other and see home.

#stranger things #steddie #steddie drabble #steddie soulmate au #oops #this was just cause i wanted a snake curled around steves neck giving him a hug #and spiraled #is this ridiculous? yes. #did i want to have the chicken for the imagery and the loyalness and so eddie could get a hug? also yes. #ori drabbles #soulmate aus my beloved #did i write it so y'all gotta see it? also yes. #soulmate au where their daemons are switched

[mysoulspiralbound]

a collection of sad michael doodles! please click for full image, tumblr formatting my beloathed

#tma #tma spiral #tma michael #michael the distortion #the last one makes me the saddest #like laughing crying michael makes sense #but droopy michaels who's hair isn't even curling right? #get that boy some confused wandering souls to snack on please #he should not be that deflated #my art

[oscill4te]

my hair is slowly getting soo healthy

#still lookz like shit no matter what i do but. at least my curls are prominient and locking... its so fun feeling the curl-locks #they turn into dense spirals/cylinders and i love them

[voidvendetta]

“I’m a dog person.” Well CLEARLY you haven’t had a mental breakdown and scurried to your cat like Icarus towards the last hope of sun’s divinity sobbing pathetically and gave your cat a forehead kiss to finally feel the bliss that ceases the commotions of agony to a love that is familiar, familial beyond your understanding of humanity separated from Mother Nature and onto the connections and roots of sentience itself that she herself has made for this exact moment

#cat #cats #tumblr #cat memes #memes #textpost #text #voids voice #pets #i just really love my cat #like I’ll be spiraling #see my cat #give her a scratch scratch on the ear and curl up to her #give her a little kiss #and then I will feel more human than I ever have before #do you understand

[theserlingbucket]

Crittersona shenanigans (with friends)

#just know the curl spiral critter is always me #I like both the Alan esc design and the pim one #might just alternate both #crittersona #cups draws xemself #with friends! #art #smiling friends

[diarygirls]

examining how my life has gotten worse in the past six months by all metrics except that i wear my hair curly now. *faint cheer*

#hey. don’t cry. perfect spiral curls okay? #mina.txt

[yrbutchgf]

oh my god i think my hair has actually been like kinda curly or maybe wavy this whole time ive been describing it as straight but i think i might have been wrong

#i just let it air dry without combing it and it definitely has a mind of its own the way it's laying #not on the level of Curls as in like spirals obviously but like ... idk i think last time i had any length on my head i was blow dry styling #it for a quiff and it just trained my hair to move in a very specific way and now that my hair is just kinda doing whatever it's like... #idk it's got like personality 😭 does that make sense #if anyone has tips for making wavy hair pop/encouraging texture in slightly wavy hair lmk bc i think that might look sick #text

[tenth-sentence]

His voice made the ether ripple magically; the pattern of it could be seen all around them, curling in strange wave patterns into diminishing spirals and out to infinity.

"Incarnations of Immortality: And Eternity" - Piers Anthony

#book quote #incarnations of immortality #and eternity #piers anthony #void #purgatory #ether #rippling #swirling #patterns #curling #spirals #infinity #voice