#starting to actually acknowledge his ownership of the things he makes

[miraculouslbcnreactions]

I hope I'm not being rude, this ask also isn't intended as a call out for anyone. As much as I'll be happy if you'd willing to answer, if my ask somehow make you uncomfortable, please feel free to ignore it.

Here's my question :

I've been seeing many post saying that Adrien end up being Marinette' trophy boyfriend instead of proper boyfriend and at the end of the final, Marinette's fight against Gabriel isn't just simply good vs evil rather it's a fight of Adrien's "ownership" so to speak.

I want to ask your opinion about it, especially about the former. I'm personally conflicted about the trophy boyfriend thing because the urban dictionary define it as "A boyfriend that a girl is proud of being with." Which more like what Chloe did at s1, but at the same time it does feel fitting in a way since Marinette do get Adrrien as a trophy for "winning" against Gabriel. Either way it just feels like an objectification and it doesn't seems like something good to show in a show with kids as the target audience, yet I do feels like Marinette's love for Adrien is so shallow that her objectified him like that just make senses for her character.

So, what do you think?

You're not being rude at all! As long as an ask doesn't use names or otherwise make it easy to find the source of the question, I'm cool with it. I don't even mind if it's something uncomfortable, though I will do my best to state my expertise (or lack there of) on those. I think it's really important to be willing to acknowledge your ignorance. No one can know or even be informed on everything.

On to the question.

To start, let's actually define "trophy boyfriend" because the definition you gave - a boyfriend that a girl is proud of being with - is not the one that I would use. It's way too kind!

"Trophy boyfriend" is just a male variant of the term "trophy wife" or "trophy girlfriend." I'm gonna be a little lazy here and just have wikipedia define that one for me as their definition accurately reflects the way this terms is generally used:

A trophy wife is a wife who is regarded as a status symbol for the husband. The term is often used in a derogatory or disparaging way, implying that the wife in question has little personal merit besides her physical attractiveness, requires substantial expense for maintaining her appearance, is often unintelligent or unsophisticated, does very little of substance beyond remaining attractive, and is in some ways synonymous with the term gold digger.

When someone calls Adrien a "trophy boyfriend," they're saying that he's just there to be Marinette's pretty arm candy who supports her unconditionally while requiring nothing from her. A fully one way relationship that's all take and no give.

Unfortunately, canon does seem to be going this way.

Season five was the season which saw Gabriel's slow, agonizing death and final... defeat is too strong a word, so let's just go with reveal. It also saw the end of any hope for Emilie to be revived, assuming that wasn't her at the end, which does seem to be the case. We also saw Nathalie slowly wasting away, triggering all of Adrien's trauma from losing his mother. In other words, this season was all about Adrien losing or fearing the loss of every adult that he has ever loved, none of whom he even got to say "goodbye" to even though they all knew that they were dying.

So it makes perfect sense that Adrienette's big couple conflict was Marinette getting over her trauma and being able to tell Adrien that she loved him! She was absolutely the one who needed unconditional love and support this season and it was so nice to see Adrien giving that to her by laying his own needs to the side since he knew that she needed more support right now.

To be clear, that was sarcasm.

Marinette was an awful, selfish girlfriend this season. Yes, she doesn't know the full extent of what's going on until we get to the final, but in Passion (S5E6) we get this:

Adrien: Marinette? Marinette: Adri-mine! I mean, Adri-fine! No! I mean, you're not mine and you're not fine, I mean, you are fine. (gasps) Adrien, is something wrong? Adrien: No, no, everything's fine... no, everything's not fine. Not fine at all. Somebody I care about is sick and... there's nothing I can do. I feel completely hopeless.

Gabriel then akumatizes Nathalie, leading to a fight that ends with Marinette seeing just how sick Nathalie is. All this means that, by the end of Passion, Marinette is fully aware that Adrien is really struggling with Nathalie's condition and just how bad Nathalie's condition, so it makes perfect sense that the episode ends with Marinette and Alya talking about... how thirsty Marinette is for Chat Noir.

Marinette: You should've seen him! He was so... (growls like a cat) in his cute red suit with black spots. Can you believe it? I asked him out to the movies and I didn't even stammer! True, the timing was bad, but still, everything is so easy with Cat Noir, I can tell him everything I never had the courage to tell Adrien.

Marinette, sweetie, I know that you're going through some stuff, but you're better than this! You've always been shown to care about others! I just don't believe that you wouldn't at least comment on how sick Nathalie is, which really is all that this scene needs because I don't expect Marinette to have no wants or needs outside of supporting Adrien anymore than I expect the opposite.

Marinette can thirst all she wants, especially since she's not dating Adrien yet. Just let her acknowledge that this is who Adrien must have been talking about earlier! Instead, she says nothing, forgetting about Adrien's struggles and not informing his other friends of what's going on, leaving Adrien to basically suffer alone as the Nathalie issue will continue to come up on his end, but he never again reaches out for support from others.

Remember how the NYC special saw Marinette and co protesting Adrien not being allowed to go on a school field trip? And how The Bubbler saw Nino trying to organize a birthday party for his best bro? And how Reverser saw Marinette pairing up Marc and Nathaniel into the dream comic book team? You ever look back on all that and wonder what happened to these characters wanting to love and support each other, even if their attempts where sometimes a little misguided?

Ever since the start of season four, loving and supporting each other has gone out the window. If it's not about shipping Adrienette, then no one cares even though Adrienette was totally one sided for most of the show. First it was only on Marinette, then it was only on Adrien, and it only became mutual in the episode where they... got together? Kind of? Seriously, when did they actually start dating? The second half of Kwami's choice sees Marinette say this:

Alya: Then, how did we go from “I’m pathetic and I’ll never love again” to “Yay! I’m going out with Adrien”? Marinette: I’m not going out with Adrien…

But then the very next episode starts with Chat Noir talking about his girlfriend! When did that transition occur? For a season that's all about Adrienette getting together, it's kinda funny that we never technically see them get together. It's also kinda sad that them getting together was the result of Adrien once again not taking Marinette's "no" at face value... I know it's a romcom trope, but writers, please, can we not use it in stuff aimed at little kids? Plus haven't we mostly agreed that it's a bad, lazy, overused trope? Does anyone actually like it?

This is getting long, so I'll just give some final thoughts and call it a day.

A relationship starting off of shallow feelings is totally fine and normal. Outside of your family, that's how most relationships start. You meet someone with similar interest or whose vibes you like or who is taking the same class as you. You start talking and get to know each other, which can lead to a deeper relationship in the form of a friendship or a romance, which is basically a friendship with bonus features.

The issue with the love square is that the writers are absolutely botching the "deepening relationship" part of the equation. They're not letting Marinette support Adrien or learn about his struggles or even acknowledge the struggles that she does know about, which makes her come across as ridiculously selfish, a terrible lead in to a final where she now has knowledge that could destroy him. Most of the audience doesn't trust her to tell him about this knowledge because of course they don't!

As always, I lay the blame for this at the feet of the writers because so much of Marinette's bad behavior and issues make no sense when we look at her previous writing. She's never been the best at emotional intelligence, but she has always tried to help others, a thing that the show somehow acknowledges during her fight with Gabriel, leading to his win, but doesn't in acknowledge in Marinette's own romantic relationship. Of course, that would require the writers to see Marinette's season five behavior as a flaw and I don't think that they do, which is why I blame them and not her. I have no issue writing her - or reading things that write her - as better than this.

#ml writing salt #ml writing critical #ml season 5 salt #adrien deserves better #marinette deserves better

[mimymomo]

It’s truly astounding how the people belittling Fearne’s feelings and growth the most are Fearne fans themselves.

Fearne/Ashley made it explicitly clear that she didn’t want the shard. She stated that it multiple times and went even further to explain that it scared her and TOLD ASHTON that she believed they should take it. They willingly went along with Ashton’s plan because she believed it was the right thing to do but as time went on, she grew more and more concerned but still believed in Ashton who kept telling her it it would be okay, downplayed the consequences (saying his death would be a funny story to tell and that’s all as if them dying wouldn’t be horrible and affect Fearne/the others because they genuinely can’t believe that his life is worth that pain) and said that she promised him.

Fearne said multiple times that Ashton didn’t manipulate her. Ashton wasn’t hiding their intentions from her — he told her the plan, they knew (some of) the risks and Fearne said she went aligns to hit because she thought it was the right move. You’d think Ashton had a gun to her head by the way the fandom is talking about the whole thing!

Yes Ashton was pushing and they never should have kept Fearne from telling the group the truth but she made her choice and it was a bad one out of love and care (and no Ashton did not manipulate her feelings/attraction to them to convince her: Ashton did not and still does not know the full extent of what Fearne felt towards them and when he kissed her, she had already agreed to the ritual and the kiss only made her really second guess).

Now am I saying that she’s equally culpable as Ashton? NO!

Am I saying she owes Ashton an apology? GOD NO! And thank god Ashton told her she didn’t owe them anything, he put her in such a bad situation and that was 95% on them. THEY FUCKED UP BAD AND DESERVED ALL THE TONGUE LASHINGS THEY GOT!

But the way the fandom presents the issue is as if Ashton was this maniacal, evil manipulator who preyed on Fearne solely because she was too good to say no instead of viewing the whole situation as it really is: a man who is fucked up asking someone they trust to join in on their stupidity without fully realizing how much danger, trauma and suffering he is going to put her through.

We can acknowledge that Fearne made a mistake by being complicit and used Ashton plans with the shard to justify (run from) her not having to take it due to her own personal beliefs and fears and use that acknowledgment to further show her growth as a person who will never let herself get thrusted back into that position again. That she can’t blindly trust and follow someone’s self destructive path if it’s gonna lead to her being hurt. This is a good thing! Let Fearne learn and grow from this! That’s what the whole Chetney discussion is about: no one’s blaming her, Ashley’s not dodging anything or protecting Taliesin/Ashton — this is Fearne being honest, taking agency, calling out her actions and growing.

Fearne messed up and was complicit in going along with the plan AND she has every right to be upset with Ashton for what they did and she deserved her apology are two statements that can (and should) coexist!

I’m so tired of people vilifying Ashton and making him come off as this terrible and evil individual when that’s not what this was. They aren’t. And then saying that he was throwing a pity party when in reality they’re coming to the realization that his behavior is his own fault and they can’t keep running and blaming others for the actions he takes and then apologizing and taking responsibility and ownership for what happened and saying they want to be better in the future.

The same fandom that worships the ground Percy steps on despite all the bs he put VM through, actually tried to argue that Essek — a character who due to his own hubris stole a priceless and ancient artifact that was essential to his country’s religious identity and nearly started a whole ass war — wasn’t a war criminal because the Geneva Conventions didn’t exist in Exandria (yes this actually happened to me at one point), seems to be unable to handle Ashton without any sort of empathy or understanding. A character who has been mentioned to be broken (physically mentally and emotionally) with crippling self worth issues who needs to be better in not only how they show they care, but in loving and caring for himself.

These past 2 episodes were so good but gosh some of the reactions have been aggravating

(Maybe I would accept people saying Ashton was manipulative more if they weren’t demonizing him in the same breath and acting as if they’re only only questionable bad egg in Bells Hells…)

#critical role #critical role spoilers #critical role campaign 3 #critical role c3 #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #I’ve been holding back this rant all night and being on twitter was only making it worse #I love Fearne! pls don’t think I don’t #but the way ppl are talking about Ashton and saying that they manipulated her is grinding my gears #this fandom can not handle characters that are the slightest shade darker of the lightest morally grey

[canonizzyhours]

The worst thing about all of this is that canon izzy is actually such a great character and antagonist. He was weird, toxic, stuck in his own world, vile to Ed and the crew. he got the full brunt of his actions in season two, and I always applaud when a show is bold enough to follow through on real consequences in a narrative.

He was offered kindness from the crew when he didn’t deserve it. He absolutely didn’t! He was the source of their misery in the first place, lest we forget the ‘namby pamby pining for his boyfriend’

And then what did he do? he took this illogical kindness and tried to change. He attempted a thank you to stede. Helped lucius move on. Showed visible support to Ed and Stede’s relationship. Are these things enough? The whole season you’re not sure, but you wonder. And then at the ending, he owns it. He finally completely owns it, how terrible he was, and let’s Ed leave Blackbeard behind and find peace. He brings his own story full circle.

It’s SUCH an interesting arc and storyline.

When the izzy fanatics go on about him, they flatten his story, they make him a less interesting character, they take all the positive change away from him because they can’t fully acknowledge where he started. They don’t realize the fact that the crew offering him kindness at all was its own little miracle. They take AWAY the agency and ownership that the show wrote into him. They are strangling the show and the character, contorting it all into a boring, watered down piece of media. That’s what gets me the most of all.

#117.

#ofmd #izzy hands #fandom critical #canonizzyhours

[notsosilentsister]

Thoughts on the ending of Succession

I think Shiv's choice is fairly rational actually. It saves Roman, and if Kendall doesn’t kill himself, it might save Kendall too. But that was probably not on the top of her mind; I think she did it for naked self-interest.  At the start of the episode she might still think she could work with the boys, but over the course of the episode she finally acknowledges that's just not going to happen. Kendall will never accept her as boss or co-boss. Because sexism. Because he's Kendall. He won't share the power. He's staked his whole life on the crown going to the eldest boy, and there's only one crown for only one head. Kendall would never crown her, and it turns out, neither would anyone else. No one believes in her like that. Because sexism. And also because she's Shiv. I think Shiv finally realizes that she can't be on the throne, no matter what. And if being the power behind the throne is the best she can do, there's an argument to be made for picking Tom's throne instead of Kendall's. It's worse for her pride, it makes her look weaker, and it might even be a sentimental miscalculation that the baby could give her more leverage than a continued stake in the ownership. But from a purely financial perspective, thinking about it in terms of future discounted cash-flows, it's definitely what I would do.

So the baby might not give her all that much leverage, fine. But let's face it, neither did her stake in the ownership. It gives her a vote, it might even give her title as COO or even Co-CEO, but it won't automatically make Kendall listen to her. She doesn't trust him to make good choices, to not go off the rails, and when he does, she'll have to plot again to depose him, or the value of her share goes down the drain. It would be a constant struggle. She's just done with that. Investment comes with risks, and she won't take a risk on Kendall. So she takes the pay-out. Makes perfect sense. Giving it to Tom, eh, it's of course a humiliation. But he'll earn more than he could ever spend as CEO (even if he might not stay in that position for long, all those potential scandals just waiting to be exposed) and a lot of that will be eventually left to Shiv’s baby. She'll still be the richer one in the marriage though, because of the pay out, and he’s still just Matsson’s puppet, a position she disqualified herself for by showing too much pride - so while he can probably make her eat a certain amount of crow now, there's very much a limit to the amount of crow he can make her eat. He might have the upper-hand temporarily, but that might just mean they’re more evenly matched taking the long view. And now that they’ve killed all sentiment between them, their business alliance might well be the most robust thing Shiv ever built.  Shiv realizes that she can't have respect, so she chooses the money. Of course these people are all so fantastically rich that we can't imagine money still being a concern for them, but money is power just as much as a crown, and often the more useful part of it. Shiv choosing money over pride is the most rational thing anyone has ever done in this story. 

But emotionally, it’s still devastating.     Of course her final vote is not a power move, but a sign of giving up. Just like Roman, she has finally accepted her limitations. Unlike Roman, she’s does not feel liberated by that acceptance. Her limitations are not just limitations of personal ability, but also limitations forced upon her due to her gender. Clearly Shiv has always known that sexism is still a thing, but she thought she was an exception; she's never shown much solidarity with other women, she clearly didn't really think she would share their fate. And that recent ordeal with Matsson has robbed her of those illusions. There's a phrase from a restoration comedy I had to read for college, that will always stick with me, a scene in the third act: The couple is already negotiating the terms and condition of their impending marriage, the woman keenly aware that this is the last time she's got any leverage, hellbent on getting as many concessions as possible before she's ready "to dwindle into a wife". That's what's happening to Shiv - she's dwindling into a wife. She's realizing she's in the same position as the lady in the restoration comedy. This is the last time she's got any leverage. These guys need a yes from her now, and they will promise her all sorts of stuff to get it, and these promises will be worthless, because once they get that yes, she won't have anything to hold them to it. So Shiv trades her yes to Matsson not for a promise, but for a pay-out, and for shot at dwindling into Tom's wife. Since she gave up the hope of anyone casting her in another role, she takes the one that's left.

#succession #shiv roy #tom wambsgans #tv show #journal #personal

[treesofgreen]

I've a theory that a not inconsequential part of Izzy's whole thing - the uncontrollable anger, his anxieties and blind spots, the broken, twisted mess that is his relationship with Edward, the pathological rejection of softness, the way he's wound so tight he's going to collapse like a dying star and take everyone in his radius with him - is a result of ongoing sexual abuse/rape he experienced in his youth, homophobia directed towards him, an inability to process the trauma, and his terrible coping mechanisms and piss poor attempts to self-medicate.

I've seen this angle dotting the fanfic landscape (more and more, which as a survivor of sexual violence I find...comforting? in an odd way) but I haven't seen it discussed here, outside of this insightful post by @mirkwoodest There are a good number of fans who believe Izzy wasn't always Like This and used to be softer and more open, but again, I haven't really seen a discussion of the why (if I missed your meta, please @ me).

There's something else in Izzy's anger at Lucius, something that doesn't speak to "gay and homophobic" so much as it does a "cycle of abuse". To Izzy wanting to hurt Lucius in a way he was hurt (which is also self-harm, so a win-win for Izzy) but he's not very good at it and it comes out all awkward and cringe and nonsensical because he is actually gay and he knows it and he isn't ashamed of it so much as it's no one's fucking business; and he's not homophobic in the sense we mean it when making our "all problems would be solved if Izzy got dicked down and realized he likes it" jokes. He knows he likes it. That isn't the problem. It's a lot deeper and a lot messier than that.

Izzy is afraid, on a level he probably never, ever consciously thinks about, of what being viewed as a "proper little seductress" can lead to for the "seductress". In a warped way he's looking out for Lucius, tearing him down before someone else does a more thorough job of it - which is horrible and unacceptable! To be clear! It's bullying and victim blaming and isn't going to help anything at all except there's a wounded part of Izzy's brain that feels compelled to start wounding someone else. Izzy's harm to others is never justified.

Izzy is already completely out of his element on the Revenge, he hates this fucker Bonnet, Edward fucked off to a fancy party with Bonnet, he's faced with this, he can't even bully this mouthy bitch properly because he's tripping over his own trauma and he can't stop the words coming out of his mouth, and then Lucius lays the "we don't own each other" line on him and it takes him out not because Edward owns him or Izzy thinks he owns Edward (he does think so, in a way, but again, it's messier) but Edward's ownership is the thing that makes having been owned by someone else, someone horrible, something he can live with. His loyalty to Edward, Edward's loyalty to him - it's what makes him able to repress enough of his past and enough of his pain to function.

As someone who did everything she was supposed to while silently suffocating, not knowing who I was other than 'wrong' until long after most people have figured it out, Stede speaks to me. I see myself in his low self-worth and his awkwardness and need to please and his guilt and the feeling of having ruined everyone you touch and always feeling like you made the wrong decision.

I see myself in Ed with the trauma of his childhood - the poverty, the alcoholism, the violence and the mother who tells you we're here to suffer and means it as a comfort. The need to run away, to want, to be someone else other than the dark thing you know you are deep inside (and it is you no matter how much you wish it weren't, it's the thing your father gave you and it's yours now and you can't let it go, not in a real, lasting sense, until you acknowledge it as yours. Only then can you let it go, which is something your father was never able to do).

I see myself in Ed's dramatic mood swings and his temper and delight and need to be liked, in his chameleon-like nature and adhd and depression, in his fear of rejection and of being "too sensitive". In the way we feel like we're healing again and again only for others to tear through us so effortlessly, almost unthinkingly, certainly they weren't expecting us to fall apart like that, can't you ever be normal and you really thought you had it this time, you really thought you were stronger but you're not. Not in any real, lasting sense.

When look at Izzy I think of Hurricane by Mary Oliver. You know:

It didn't behave

like anything you had

ever imagined. The wind

tore at the trees, the rain

fell for days slant and hard.

The back of the hand

to everything. I watched

the trees bow and their leaves fall

and crawl back into the earth.

As though, that was that.

This was one hurricane

I lived through, the other one

was of a different sort, and

lasted longer. Then

I felt my own leaves giving up and

falling. The back of the hand to everything.

I'm in a good place now, as good a place as I've ever been, but in thinking about young Izzy I see my younger self and my responses to sexual trauma, and in looking at Izzy now I see what I would now be if I hadn't gotten the help I did. Closed off and anxious and awkward and unbearably angry. Unsettled and binding myself tighter and tighter to calm that yet unable to stop lashing out. Clingy to the point of separation anxiety with the very few people I did trust. Almost always unable to acknowledge what actually happened because these things happen, it was no big deal, it was nothing actually, it was probably my fault anyway, it was rape but I deserved it but I'm going to murder anyone that says I did.

I'm probably going to make a separate post about specific headcanons, both for Izzy and Izzy & Edward and how they've been both the best and the worst thing for each other through the years, because this is getting too long and rambling. But I think that young Izzy had softness, once, love, even, and was punished severely/hate crimed for it (my best guess is in the navy, which led to him leaving). I think after he turned to piracy he was the "favorite" of someone with more authority and it was abuse and he knew it but couldn't fight it or acknowledge it, and so he just kind of went with it, closing off more and more of himself. (Please note that I'm not saying anything about his masochism here).

And then there was Edward - who was his friend, who was brilliant and brave and strong in ways Izzy wasn't, who saw something brilliant and brave and strong in Izzy and held onto him and Izzy has been holding on to Edward ever since and he can't let go, even when Edward has let go, even if it's going to drown them both. He doesn't know how. He doesn't know, at this point, that it's even an option, he's so deep in the dark water, in the rot. But I have hope he can be shown, because this is the way Hurricane ends:

But listen now to what happened

to the actual trees;

toward the end of that summer they

pushed new leaves from their stubbed limbs.

It was the wrong season, yes,

but they couldn't stop. They

looked like telephone poles and didn't

care. And after the leaves came

blossoms. For some things

there are no wrong seasons.

Which is what I dream of for me.

#izzy hands #our flag means death #ofmd #trauma #lucius spriggs #edward teach #i hope this is coherent my brain is not

[cainyofkhares]

welcome!what are your ocs like?

I'm glad you asked! I have a whole bunch so I'll pick out my favourites and give you a quick introduction to them! If there is anyone that you'd like more information about, let me know, because I would gladly tell you more about all of them!! -----

Content: Non human whumpee, Servant whumpee, Pet whumpee, lab whump, centaur whumpee, painful transformation, dehumanization, conditioning, muzzled, caged, carewhumper

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Whumpees:

Folas Maeda:

Folas started out as a character from a Danganronpa roleplay, but later involved into my favorite Whumpee. He was greatly unhappy with himself due to his past, feeling like he was too weak and unable to help other people. He felt more connected to his D&D character, so much so that he eventually started to believe that is who he was supposed to be. He started to alter his appearance to match that of his D&D character. After years of being unhappy, he got the opportunity to become an Elf, as he wanted. Ever since this transformation, the government and other supernatural beings have been after him and his boyfriend. The government wants to do experiments on him and other supernatural beings, such as Vampires and Shadows are a main part of his home town, and target him and his boyfriend for unknown reasons. Me and my friend have the worst arc yet planned out for him, and I will gladly tell you more if you'd like! Here are some pictures of him from before everything and after the arc we planned.

[Redacted]:

[Redacted] is Folas' older brother. They're from a rich family who owned servants. When [Redacted] and Folas were younger ([Redacted] was 16 and Folas was 8), [Redacted] fell in love with their family's servant, which is strictly against the rules. The servant was executed and [Redacted] was forced into becoming their family's next servant until eventually being sold away to another Master. He is a good, obedient Servant. ...unless you talk to him when his Master isn't there. Then he is a sassy guy who causes chaos in his Master's family.

Susanoo/Cody:

Susanoo is a dog hybrid who was captured by a lonely man named Masaki, who just wanted a pet. Susanoo was forced to act like a dog, as Masaki would not acknowledge his existence otherwise. Whenever Susanoo talked, Masaki would act like he didn't hear anything, or like he only heard barks and whines. While he was captured, his leg got broken. His owner got his cast placed wrong, making him unable to walk. He would be muzzled or caged if he misbehaved, but was never hurt in any way, as Masaki belives that pets should be treated well. Susanoo, now Cody, realised how lonely Masaki was, and thus decided to give in and become the pet he wanted. He started obediently performing the commands Masaki was trying to teach him and started to actually make dog noises, rather than trying to make Masaki hear him talk. This was immediately praised with a lot of treats and pets, to Cody's delight.

Junpei:

Last but not least, someone from the Lab Whump story I am working on. Junpei is a guy in his early 30s, working a job in journalism. He applied to a special program he found on the internet, said to be able to fulfil any and all requests someone had. Junpei requested that this program would get rid of the immense pain in his knees, not knowing this program had a catch...

The goal of this program was to test out special substances that could physically turn people into other creatures. Whether it be dogs, cats, wolves, even dragons, orcs and phoenixes! Junpei was lucky to get a new pair of legs, but... He had become a centaur. Something he was not able to adjust to. The transformation was horrible. The most painful thing he had ever experienced. And besides that, he had no idea how to properly control his new body. Slowly, he started gaining more deer-like instincts as well.

Whumpers:

Masaki:

Masaki is Cody's owner. A lonely man who is fairly new to the whole pet ownership thing. He doesn't hurt Cody, per se. He punishes him in ways a real dog would also be punished. Muzzling him, putting him in his crate when he misbehaves, etc.

He loves taking Cody for walks, showing off his adorable dog to the rest of the city.

Tsukasa:

A young scientist who is the mastermind behind the experiments that turn people into different creatures. He created the substances that would allow the transformations to happen, documenting everything. He keeps remaking it until he is fully pleased with the results, which doesn't happen often. He worked on 236 experiments so far and has mastered turning people into "normal" animals. That got too boring for him, so he started working on supernatural creatures, such as centaurs, dragons and phoenixes.

#whump stuff #whump writing #whumpblr #whump tropes #whump scenario #pet whump #pet whumpee #lab whump #centaur whumpee #hybrid whumpee #dog whumpee #servant whumpee #elf whumpee #fantasy whump #oc stuff #my ocs #introducing my ocs #muzzled #caged #nonhuman whumpee #carewhumper #painful transformation #whumpee #whumper #conditioned whumpee #dehumanization #whump things

[bl-inded]

Okayy, time to finally talk about it. Kawi is an interesting character to watch. I kinda hate him, (he's getting out of that zone slowly. tis still true) but he's interesting. In the start of the show he has something of a 'Cinderella complex' minus the naive optimism. He thinks he's the victim of every situation and he did nothing to deserve it. He also weirdly feels entitled to good things as a result of it failing to realise his own hand in said situation.

Many other people have done a wayyy better job of explaining his selfishness and double standards. So, I won't go too deep into that. Now with the show in its last stretch though, there's been a surprising change. He's still selfish. Not as much as before but he's still the center of his own universe. And, the sole ownership of these time-travelling powers have given Kawi this twisted sense of solipsism (the belief that you're the only real person in the world, but in this context what I mean is he thinks he's the only person with agency in this world).

Obviously, he doesn't actually believe that others don't have a mind or choice in this world, but whenever he's in the 'past' he very clearly cares little about what happened in the previous versions of the past. He is in it with the sole intention of "fixing the future" so to speak. So the characters, their feelings, their opinions- don't matter to Kawi till he goes to the future and sees how it morphed long-term.

We've seen this in the show over and over. Even when he tells Pisaeng about the time travelling, he says "I'll fix things," by dating him. Like Pisaeng doesn't have a say in the matter? The lack of self awareness is even more astonishing because he didn't learn through his relationship with Pear in the future, that his relationship with Pisaeng might just end the same way. Like, buddy. Come on...

I doubt the show will end with Pisaeng and Kawi not being together, but I would maybe like a reboot where he realises he needs to stop being so self-centred. I already think it's unfair that Kawi gets so many chances after stringing Pisaeng along for god knows how many years. Even if forgotten, both he and the audience deserve an apology from Kawi for that.

I have a whole tangent about time-travel stories without rules and the brain glitch it causes my brain to try to figure out the continuity, but putting my logical disbelief aside, a time-travel story serves a certain purpose for character arcs. So, i wholeheartedly believe we needed to hate Kawi at the start for the story to make sense.

But right now, he still has too much power. He's starting to realise he can't change everything, no matter how hard he tries, but he's still attributing that to the universe. He's not giving enough weight to the people around him.

He's also impatient, immediately wanting to know if he "fixed the future" after one decision change, when in reality this future 10 years in the making needs to be lived in for him to realise why it turned out a certain way.

He still doesn't seem to understand why Pisaeng left after the beach that day (not really anyway) or why he's so desperate to keep him. Not to mention he doesn't acknowledge the emotional rollercoaster that he's been putting everyone around him through. (Max needs a pay raise with the amount of therapy he's been giving everyone 😞).

I'm curious to see how the show handles it (if it does so at all). But in conclusion, I will not fully be team Kawi till he stops thinking he's the only person in the world.

#wow that was long #the thing is #i love pisaeng too much to let him end up with someone who'll hurt him #boy deserves so much better #so kawi needs to step up #and alsooo of they do my girl Pear dirty at the end of the show #you will regret the person i become #okay thats all #thai bl #gmmtv #be my favorite #bmf meta #kawi x pisaeng #bmf kawi #pisaengkawi #pisaeng #bl rants #bl series

[cebwrites]

[check tags!]

Just thinking about the chokehold Doflamingo probably had on Crocodile in the thick of their relationship, when they actually were 'in love' Like the longer he stays with him the more Crocodile notices just how fucking incompatible they are Doffy's never had to want for anything after Trebol took him in, he just takes whatever he wants when he wants to, so Crocodile wouldn't be able to shower him in gifts as a substitute for actual affection, worse still is Doffy's reactions to his attempts at that He'd acknowledge Croc's gifts and think they're nice but only in a patronizing "oh, that's cute that you think I'd need this" way and toss them on the mountains of other material things he has in his castle and think nothing else of it without addressing Crocodile's underlying emotions that he struggles to express because Doffy just doesn't care to

There's a lot of emotional undermining going on and if Crocodile ever seems upset about anything Doffy thinks just the 'luxury' of being in his presence and a hollow apology should be enough All he wants is to for Crocodile to shut up and play his part as his partner without any fuss and any time Crocodile desperately tries to stand his ground with clear boundaries Doffy's strings just tighten around him with further manipulation Doesn't take long until Crocodile takes off the rose tinted glasses and fleeting whirlwind affections that got them married under a month quickly turns to resentment as he painstakingly has to navigate his way out of the maze he's found himself in after starting the strikingly slow process of removing Doflamingo from his life And not in the 'oh but I still love him, he could change' way, Crocodile is fully aware and full of hatred the entire way through but Doffy just refuses to let him go because he sees Croc as one of 'his', someone that belongs to him, and therefore something he's entitled to

That absolutely bleeds into his work and the way he carries himself long after throwing Doffy's wedding ring into his face Crocodile's always kept to himself but being around Doffy in such close proximity even for a short while made him a smidge paranoid, and it's not like Doflamingo hasn't been hellbent on exerting his influence further on him either When he starts fooling around with Baroque agents because he's an allosexual man with needs to and they're the people that get the closest thing Crocodile can manage to trust, he's cagey around them too and keeps everyone at arm's length Plus, sleeping with someone just to axe them after is tactless even for him Crocodile does a lot to show off his power and what could happen if they so much as think of betrayal though, still, but to the ones that gain his favor, they're rewarded handsomely All the treasures and gold that Kirin had to leave behind when he fled Baroque because it'd weigh him down more than help, and presumedly Robin did too

He's deliberately emotionally unavailable and whatever harm comes to his partners he expects them to be strong enough to handle it on their own as Baroque Works agents, he doesn't derive pleasure from their pain though, and he's had more than enough experience to know when to stop Crocodile isn't good with any of that mushy shit but he makes sure they're compensated Years later Crocodile's still pulling cobwebs off himself from being under Doffy's thumb, there's reminders of him everywhere, Doffy hasn't given up the prospect of ownership either, shown by him asking Croc to join him after his 'little stint' in Arabasta, basically Crocodile's life's work, "didn't work out", more undermining his accomplishments

I'm not sure if they ever clashed in cannon but in Kirin's verse Doflamingo goes directly for Daz after taking Kirin's leg off and leaving him there to writhe, only a little disappointed when Kirin didn't give him the wail he wanted because it'd draw attention to him He's got Daz by the throat with severe organ damage from his fruit, monologuing about how pathetic Croc's 'number 1' really is if this is all the fight he can put up, before Crocodile flies at him in a barely concealed rage Kirin manages to roll over and ask if Daz check still breathing before making the call to Law on Sabaody that he needs a ride out of there He doesn't have the full picture because Kirin only started working for him five years ago but through context clues and piecing things together over the years the picture he's painted of the exes is a pretty grim one No matter how hard he tries to get away Doffy's just always one step behind him Watching Crocodile fight Doflamingo madder than he's ever seen him is definitely something for Kirin, it's of course no excuse to how he treated them all in Baroque but at that point he just feels sorry for him, Daz says something along the lines of worry for his 'boss' and Kirin's feelings are solidified

#cebrambles #one piece #we are a croc loving and doffy slandering house #dofladile #no this is not shippy #sir crocodile #donquixote doflamingo #op doflamingo #op crocodile #op oc #op kirin #i hate doflamingo with every ounce of my being but i think it's an interesting retrospective #about how that man ruins everything he touches #even supposedly 'hardened' people like crocodile #whoever interacts with doffy in any capacity just comes out worse by the end of it #god knows how this impacts law when he finds out about the leg thing #i do #it's not w e l l

[emmafallsinlove]

I keep thinking about how, especially compared to Logan, Jess almost never plays the "poor me" card. He never tries to excuse his bad behavior by blaming his bad circumstances, and the thing that really gets me is that he COULD HAVE! Like he had a horrible, unstable childhood in the slums and was rejected by both of his parents, didn't have anyone to teach him how healthy relationships work, etc. etc... And his FANS (and occasionally Rory in S2) make defenses on his behalf because of those things, but Jess himself never does. And, I mean, to be honest it might have actually been HELPFUL sometimes if he'd been more open to explaining things! But I do appreciate the way he takes ownership of his mistakes (which then translates into how he tries to fix them). And this sheds even more light on Rory and Logan's fight in "Balalaikas" because... Rory KNOWS how hard Jess's life has been (and I think she suspects that the full truth is even worse than what he's told her). And then here's Logan, her extremely wealthy boyfriend, going on about he should get to do whatever he wants because he's unhappy. "Oh yes, your horrible life! Let's hear about it!" and Logan's response is, "Got a week?" 😐

i agree with all of it but also, i have been thinking about it because i don’t think jess thinks he deserve to play the “poor me” card. i don’t think he wants people to feel sorry for him; this is life. this is all he knows. so i don’t think he even understands how fucked up everything that he’s been trough is.

i think their struggles are different. just because jess had a troubled life and suffers from long years of abusive parenthood doesn’t mean logan suffering & feelings isn’t valid because their struggles are different and we need to acknowledge it.

to me, logan suffering is overlooked because of how wealthy he is, but comparing between the two of them just seems unfair to me.

jess struggling with relationships and learns from his mistakes and want to be better, while logan feels like he is being pushed to unwanted future he cannot escape from.

did logan played the poor me card in that scene? definitely. does it makes me angry in a way that he think he can do it while we comparing jess suffering to his? also yes, but they are different people from different backgrounds and different life openings. and while jess achieved everything on his own, and this is very impressive and he should get the credit he deserves while not being looked out on by guy like logan - i’m being bothered that people compare them to each other.

same with “who’s the better boyfriend” and “jess was a shitty boyfriend to rory” but see, their dynamics are different. jess is a 17 years old abused kid who’s learning to navigate trough his first ever relationship that lasted 6 months.

logan, on the other hand, is a 23 years old boy that everyone wants to be with. he is rich, and by the time he meets rory, he is a full grown up adult, and while he acts like a child at times and being irresponsible (going and losing thousands of dollars in vegas, going to that life and death brigade thing that almost got him killed) both of them change and learn from their mistakes, the only difference in my eyes is that logan changes for rory, but jess changed for himself.

jess better himself for himself, not for luke or for rory, because he wanted to be better, and so eventually at s6 he became the man rory’s deserved.

when logan start to take responsibility in s7 it is important but does he ever change for himself or for her? and the answer is for her.

so it’s a long answer and i think i have lost my point in the middle of it but please let’s stop comparing a 23 years old man who’s having a few relationship in the past and had a 3 years of relationship with his girlfriend to a 17 years old kid who learns how to handle healthy relationships and to open up for the first time, tries to be better for himself and becomes a bookprint and realize that their struggles are different and just because someone had it “less harder” than you in regards to bad things happing to you doesn’t make that person suffering less valid.

#can we please stop comparing between a 23 years old man and a 17 years old kid? #im talking about discourse in the gg fandom in general nothing against you stella <3 #ask*

[pinkandpurple360]

Golden Chain Stolitzs anon here ❤️(and also the one making parallels between that fucked up "couple" and Angel's situation with Val -I refuse to refer to them as a relationship- I was just so....stuck by that scene of graphic domestic abuse -the contract one, I thought it was good drama surrounded by....all that- and so disgusted by the mere thought that we will get TWO MORE EPISODES WITH THE FUCKING SAD OWL DRAMA (at least) that I just.....snapped)

Anyways back to the point well everything I can think about that hallucination was that this is the closest thing we will ever get to actual acknowledgment of the huge power imbalance in this....I don't want to call it a relationship either- situation. Blitz literally has to look up at this huge set of white stairs, contrasting with his dirty appearance and surroundings- they are literally worlds apart- and so when he starts to clang not only is he CHAINED- but the goo that was meant to be his past, messed up relationships disappears- I just know that this will somehow be used later on (if its ever acknowledgment at all) it will be woobified and twisted to be all "oh Stolas is his new chance in love! that way all his past heartbreak can be fixed uwuwu" and I see it as someone just...giving up a part of himself to fit with this twisted version of- I can't even call it love, not even companionship- but ownership. Like everything, even Moxxie who at this point he had yet to be driven away from him just....disappears when he is in Stolas's clutch. And what he fucking says in that scene... "Are you afraid to fall in love, Blitzy?" Straight out of a horror movie line.

Sad but true, it’s probably the only time the real dynamic will ever be acknowledged. Before Stella the mean wife who wants alimony in the divorce, is put up as the big bad instead. I’m sure after she’s dead uh…found family shenanigans , blitz and three people who are openly hostile towards him and make him sad.

Yep two more episodes of stolas crying and tons of horrible things happening.

And the fact it was brought out by “truth” serum means this is like, the reality. It’s no misconception. He was bought by stolas’ family and never stopped being their property. Once the truth serum fades he goes back to arguing against stolas, then him asking for a reward right after said abuse, and blitz asking him what he wants, because he’ll provide it. I think that exchange is their only moment of mutual lust and it’s just..gross after all that. It makes you doubt everything awful that you just saw and insists they’re actually a couple you’re just remembering the past ten minutes all wrong…or something. To this day I can’t get through the full episode cause when the lights turn red it’s too hard to watch.

Blitz crawls up these stairs like an animal, clearly running away from his problems and towards stolas. And yeah, everyone around him disappears including him. Then he gazes up longingly at fizz’s voice. But fizz is practically married so why does it even matter? Those chains aren’t getting broken anytime soon, the next episode is probably Blitzø begging to keep being stolas’ toy while he abandons him. I genuinely have no clue what’s coming. It’s gonna hurt though. Although if the stolitzers are gonna apparently be sad then I guess? It might be ok? There seems to be this intent on making the relationship as toxic and gross as possible then suddenly switching to some unwarranted I love yous. Like catradora and to a lesser extent starco.

“Are you afraid to love people?” Why would he be afraid to love stolas I’ll give people three guesses. And is it really love or is it oxytocin from all of the sex? Not to mention people compiling the parallels to fizz’s story with Blitzø….idk where this is going but it’s going to be really really sad.

#stolitz critical

[noa-ciharu]

more subaru and bondage headcanons please 🙏

Hohoho, those live rent free in my head. I'm never short on sin ideas and headcanons

First thing first, bondage is about exchange of trust and psychological play beside obvious physical one. Sub is giving up control and trusting the dom to take care of them while testing boundaries but never pushing them past sub's consent. Now, does Subaru trust Seishirou? Ofc no, and precisely that powerlessness and spark of danger is why he'd be into it - it makes him feel alive. During past decade he's be chained by feeling of powerlessness (for various reasons); so he might find literal act of submitting cathartic, even if that someone can and will hurt him given the opportunity.

Similarly - seeking pain might make him feel alive, especially if depression numbed him too much (same logic could be attributed to his attraction to one who caused him so much pain). And it's not necessarily physical pain per se Subaru craves. Psychological masochism at play, along with self destructive behavior and craving for humiliation.

Subaru won't be the one to bring bondage up, Seishirou would catch him by surprise during sex one time (tie up his hands or blindfold him). Subaru would feel alarmed the first time but he'd feel like he had no choice (bc he'd know saying no would either cause no effect of have Seishirou halt all activities and they won't meet for weeks because psychological power play); however precisely that powerlessness along with want to please would make him realize he's actually into it. Not a healthy start ofc, but when was something healthy between those two?

There probs won't be type of bondage Subaru would be specifically against (although I guess intense ones like gaging + blindfolding + full body restraining gear + tied up to the bed might be tad bit too much? maybe after years of practice), but hand restrains would be his favorite. Especially getting his hands tied up at front by something that belong to Seishirou, like his belt or tie. Feels more intimate + power play + that's where ownership marks are. Buy one kink and get 2 more free

Since Subaru has every repressed kink from BDSM-5 possible, no way he won't be into collaring. Ofc he'd be averse to idea at first, but after opening up he'd realize just what combo of power play + pet play + degradation/praise kink + possession kink + desire to please that is. Also masochism if little bit of choking is added to the mix.

Which brings me to next point - power dynamics between him and Seishirou and Subaru's deeply embedded desire to be acknowledged by him. Fucked up yes, but as long as Seishirou is paying attention to him and praising him, Subaru would give in to anything in the bedroom (not outside it tho). Especially if he realizes Seishirou is specifically into something and no way that man won't be into having Subaru submissive and tied up. He'd relishes in that. Especially if hands are involved. Possessive to the core.

So imagine this: after weeks of dysfunctional enemies with benefits relationship, Subaru waltzes up to Seishirou one evening, cuddles next to him on couch and toys with his tie. Then gradually takes it off, holds it in front of Seishirou and asks to be tied up. Seishirou would go feral for real

#but he'd try to play it cool ofc #thanks for ask #back with my sins #seisub

[n0brainjustvibes]

vibes is Nilbogposting

So, you know the album The Great Tale of How I Ruined It All, right? If you don't, check it out, it's neat. Storytelling album about a Pianist rebelling against the cult that took over his city.

Several songs on it are such Nilbog songs. Primarily, These 4 Walls:

I’ve found my home Inside these walls, the world is my own I write the rules alone in here I sit atop a throne

Both the Pianist and Nilbog consider exile better than the alternative, and “start(s) to believe (they've) always belonged there, that (they've) found (their) real home.” (Genius Lyrics). Nilbog places great importance on being the “king” of Ellisburg, on stewardship, ownership and control - an emphasis captured by these opening lines.

I’m safe and sound Despite the battlefield that surrounds

I could be misremembering, but I’m pretty sure Nilbog views the outside world as a war that he doesn’t want Ellisburg pulled into. He definitely becomes agoraphobic, viewing both Ellisburg and his body’s underground prison as sanctuaries.

Hiding beneath the ground

He, ah, does that.

All my thoughts inhabit these floors (...) They howl and roar

In the original context, this anthropomorphised the Pianist’s freedom of thought - in my interpretation, “my thoughts” is Nilbog referring to his creatures, and the anthropomorphic description is literal.

The possessive language (of the Pianist's freedom of thought; or, of Nilbog's power and creations) throughout the song makes me Sad thinking about how much these meant to them, and how they were eventually lost.

I can’t give up what my mind creates I won’t be captive, won’t be dead I’ll trap myself instead

Nilbog refuses to restrain or part with his power, leaving him three options: Birdcage, death, or quarantine. I think the wording “I can’t give up [my creatures/my power]” particularly slaps - see prior "how much this means to him". I mean... dude's creations are his Only source of social interaction for Ten Years, messed up as that interaction is. Plus, Shard-based protectiveness. And then he has to leave them.

Ouch.

“I’ll trap myself” also has interesting implications. Fits the impression I got, that the only reason Nilbog is successfully quarantined is because he’s chill with it.

It houses a single sorry soul (...) Water-damaged off-white ceilings Crumbling crown molding Faded paint and threadbare linens and There's no place I'd rather sleep

His situation is fundamentally one of degradation - of his mind, body, creatures, and city - which he refuses to acknowledge.

SCREAMING. It fits so literally!! I feel a bit bad for the Pianist for foisting a Nilbog interpretation onto his narration, but hey, it works too well to ignore.

Secondly, The Marching Dolls gives the same “creepy city” energy I got from reading Taylor’s perspective on Ellisburg. Notably, the perversion of biology:

The trees don’t grow they kill instead

Weird trees are actually one of the first things Taylor notes about Ellisburg (26.04).

Plus, although Nilbog’s minions are sentient and he loves them (much too literally, at times), this is fundamentally a town populated by minions. Extensions of the will of one man, who rules as their absolute god-king. Yikes. The chilling uniformity of the Marching Dolls, while not entirely analogous, captures this image of a city bent to a single will. 

Oh, and, notably - Ellisburg is a disaster zone. It was a regular town until it got Nilbog’d. People lived there, and people died. The ravaging of a much-loved city is the core theme of The Marching Dolls:

(Stand in the ashes of your city that burned to the ground).

There is, however, a more far-fetched Nilbog Interpretation of The Marching Dolls: Nilbog's, or Rinke's, impression of society pre-trigger. As Taylor says (26.4):

“The man had been a loner before, a loser. He’d rejected the trappings of society long before he’d become this monster.” 

(Brutal. She really assigned him Freak on sight.)

Begs the question, what specifically did he reject, and why? Well, Ellisburg is colourful, chaotic, and unpredictable - a rejection of the conformity expected (particularly of men) in adult, professional society.

Taylor describes Nilbog's fairytale fixation as "rooted in some primal part of his childhood that had been taken from him" (26.04). I think this is the freedom of expression (and subsequent ease of connection) he had in childhood, and he blames adult social norms for removing/corrupting it, without even realising:

The marchers walk the streets in reverse with their heads down Blind to the color they’ve painted this town

Rinke had no connections outside a professional environment, so he likely generalised those expectations to society at large, assuming everyone will mindlessly and mercilessly enforce them:

Happily police the streets With vacant eyes and plastic smile

They'll soon do to you what they've done to me

Furthermore, his lack of connection means he doesn't see others as any more than their surface-level masks:

They stare in mirrors wearing masks And prudently perform their tasks

Hence viewing people as mindless automatons - The Marching Dolls.

Interestingly, TMD would suggest he pities them, as (fellow) victims of societal pressures. Unlike the Pianist, though, he doesn't see them as capable of saving - or worth saving - and instead destroys them, to create Ellisburg from their biomass.

There is so much thematic overlap between The Great Tale and Nilbog's story. Destruction and rebuilding of a society; isolation; control, power, and responsibility... You can link pretty much every song to Nilbog, usually from his own perspective. City of Ashes? Ellisburg takeover. Goodbye? Leaving Ellisburg, leaving his “children”, to join the Wardens. The tone also matches his mental state (unhinged).

Tl;dr: this album is good enough to make me emotional about goblin guy, of all people. 10/10 recommend.

#worm web serial #wormblr #worm spoilers #parahumans #nilbog #nilblogging #voted world's least likely skrunkly #the great tale of how i ruined it all #jhariah #i'm sorry for how i butchered your music #it's great #banger tunes analysis

[wyvern-of-the-evening]

“I want to be able to marry, have kids, and be a stay at home mom. This choice was not influenced by the patriarchy…”

Yes it is. Choice feminism isn’t feminism. You calling yourself a feminist and choosing something doesn’t make it a feminist action. On top of that, everything we do is influenced by the patriarchy. It’s seeped into everything. Even feminism is influenced by patriarchy, in the sense that we (women) are trying to liberate ourselves from it. Because that’s what feminism is, liberation for women. No one is trying to stop you from doing these things. However it’s not a feminist lifestyle. It’s demanded of women and expected of us to do these things.

Marriage is inherently patriarchal and to men is viewed as the woman’s “owner” essentially handing “ownership” over to another. Marriage (primarily heterosexual marriage) treats women as property, which is inherently anti-feminist. Women are viewed as both birthing machines and home appliances, so being a stay at home mother only further accentuates this idea. You’re staying there to birth, and clean, and cook. You might say you’ll demand he pick up as well, help with chores. Realistically he won’t. He’ll tell you flat out that he won’t with some sort of excuse (either that it’s your duty as his wife/SAHM, or he’ll be “too tired” from work as if you haven’t been chasing children around all day, doing chores and grocery shopping, meal prep, etc) or he’ll do a few and over time do less and less till it’s you picking up where he left off.

This type of relationship style opens you up to financial abuse. And trust that even if he’s “one of the good ones, he will at some point use his money as leverage. It’s a power imbalance and every man who has a SAHW knows it is. So if the lack of house help or constant financial threats wear you our to the point of divorce, good luck getting anything. Good luck getting custody. Because HE can afford to get good lawyers, and you can get stuck paying him even more with child support. You base all this on your childhood being enjoyable, and while I don’t doubt it was for you, don’t you think your mother may have wanted more from life? I’m not sure how old you are but was it not expected of women to be stay at home wives in her time?

Women weren’t able to open their own bank accounts until the 60s, and it wasn’t until the 1974 that a law was passed prohibiting credit discrimination based on sex. A lot of women were already in the position of stay at home mother, I doubt it was a free choice made by your mother. Again, that’s what the patriarchy expects of us. As stated before the patriarchy influences everything we do, but for the sake of argument let’s pretend your choice specifically is not. You would still be doing something expected of a woman in a patriarchal society. No one is actually keeping you from doing these things. No one is telling you that you can’t, or advocating for you to be prevented from it. The “you’re just putting yourself in a different cage” doesn’t really work when one cage is being viewed as a subhuman object, and the other “cage” is thinking about what would benefit women as a class, and have is freed from patriarchy.

You start off your comments suggesting that feminism should be about choice (whether you meant it or not, the implication is that any choice a self proclaimed feminist makes, is a feminist choice) and then acknowledge that these aren’t feminist choices. If feminism is about liberation (which it is, as you also acknowledge), you’re actively choosing something that doesn’t liberate you. No one expects you to be 100% perfect, but calling yourself a feminist and putting your physical, mental/emotional, and financial well being in the hands of your oppressor is not feminist, even if you chose it.

[skelebonecentral]

18+ request (Fair warning this one's gonna be a BIT long):

Killcode Moon with these kinks (you can do each separately if you want):

Is a Pillow Princess Overstimulation Breeding Kink Ownership Doesn't really have any boundaries as long as his partner treats him well and gives him plenty of aftercare and attention

and here we go (heh, got to admit, i don't really know that much about what aftercare means since...well, ace)

words under cut

Kill Code was incredibly flattered as his new partner straddled him, forcing his long body to lay back in the bed. They’d discussed intimacy before, but this was their first time trying it out.

“I’m small but mighty,” they grin, and he laughs, blushing with his long claws covering his face.

“my dear, be careful,” he warns, but is purring as they begin to gingerly explore his body with their hands, “Once we begin, I’m not sure if all my instincts can be contained.”

“Your instincts?” they tilt their head, then give a little laugh, “Kacey, my dude, I am all for it. Go feral on me, I signed up for it when I swiped right.”

He loved them using his kinder name, making his long tendril twitch and curl against their back, black tinged ooze painting an abstract pattern already. He hissed and twitched when they’d find a tender place along the seams of his body, especially once they scooted back and played with his sensitive seams around his legs as well as his tendril and the soft spot underneath.

“You going to let me ride you, Kacey?” they cooed and he nodded, back already trying to arch but they were sitting on his legs. “let me milk you dry?”

“Y-yes, please…l-let me breed you, darling, I beg of you.” He felt so embarrassed to be saying it out loud, but the way their eyes glittered and a happy expression of surprise lit the rest of their face, he knew he’d done a good thing.

“oh, big boy, you want to be a daddy again?” the words were soft and tender, their hands ceasing their teasing and instead gently rubbing up and down over his stomach as they lined themselves up to him, “That’s so sweet. Of course you can,” they purred as they slowly sat on his length, shuddering in delight as the small tip slowly grew out to the base, tightly curled in the relatively smaller tunnel of their body, “I’d love to give you so much, my sweetest little nightmare.”

“please,” tears started to gather in his eyes, lying back, hips canted up to get more sensation as his partner started to bounce themselves, “i-I want…mngh, I want it…”

“You’ll have it, sugar scream, you will,” he liked that they acknowledge he was scary to look at but tempered that with how adorable they found his personality. It let him still feel powerful even if he was a new man from his origins. “I’ll let you fill me up over and over till you’re happy, cause you’re mine, and I want you happy. I take very good care of my partners…” they giggled, “Because they’re mine, they deserve the best. So you do now, too.”

“M-mine?” he ventured and they nodded, making him groan as the coil in his gut tightened, “My babies, my partner, oh stars…” his claws were gripping into the bed, tearing little lines in the sheets. A low growl grew in his chest, making him buck more as his mind hazed over and the more instinctual side of him came forward.

“My good boy Kacey,” his partner moaned softly, “t-taking me so good, making me feel soooo good. Y-yeah, keep bouncing me.”

“Mine,” he whined, one hand over his face as the other had a deathgrip on the now ruined sheets, “take it, please, all of it, keep it till you’re pregnant…”

“I will, sugar, I will,” they whimpered and gasped, “I-I’m gonna, mmn. It’s coming…”

“Mine mine mine,” he growled and the hand on his face flashed to hold around their waist and held them there, thrusting wildly. They clamped around his member with a yelp, and he kept going because there was no stopping at this point. He snarled and his sharp teeth actually bit his own lip, making it bleed, but there was nothing in his mind other than the need to breed.

“T-too ma-ah! Much!” his partner mumbled out, shuddering as he continued to slam into their overworked parts, but the blissed out look and happy squeals made it clear they were liking it.

It took a few more moments, but Kill Code gave a near roar as he held them tight to his hips, unleashing a torrent of seed deep inside them. A few seconds of heavy breathing, and his thinking capabilities came back, hands unclenching from them and stammering, “o-oh dear…I seem to have gone overboard a bit. Are you quite alright, dear?”

“That was…amazing,” his much smaller partner flopped forward, nuzzling into him with a satisfied sigh, “I’m going to love being yours, Kacey, dang.”

He smiled a bit sheepishly, stroking their back with his claws, “If you say so, love. I would not want to overwhelm you, though.”

“Nonsense. I like it when you overwhelm me. I thought you’d just lay there and take it the whole time but you GOT it once those instincts you were so worried about kicked in.” They laughed weakly and he felt a bit less shy now. To be honest, he was too afraid to damage them when his full mind was active, so he’d probably not be able to repeat this performance until he was deep in again, but at least his partner approved of the dramatic switch in behaviors.

But…he notices bruises and small cuts on their legs where he held them and whines, disturbed, “I’ve hurt you, dear…”

“Wha?” they look at their legs and giggle, “These little things? Oh, hon, that’s nothing to me.”

“it’s a lot to me and I don’t like it,” he began to shiver, worried as the scent of blood hit his sensors. No no no, he wasn’t going to be that person again.

“hey, hey,” They took his face and made him focus there instead, “I’m going to clean us up and that will not be a problem. Then we’re getting fresh sheets and I’ll be holding you all night after I get us some snacks and water, okay?”

He nods, too flooded with shame to speak.

“I’ll take good care of you, Kacey, and I swear you take the best care of me. Do not feel bad about yourself.” They got up and grabbed some wet wipes from the bathroom, getting themselves clean before crawling up to him and cooing softly as they wiped his thighs and the tip of his tendril, “My sweet specter, don’t ever feel bad about loving me with your everything. Look at you, so big and you treated me so well. I’m so proud of you.”

He soaked in the praise as it soothed his anxieties, sitting up to take the water bottle and package of dried fruit they handed him as they crawled back onto the bed, slotting themselves against his side. “We’ll get the new blankets after you’ve rested, hon. You did a good job and I want you to know I appreciate you letting me be with you like this.”

He hummed, much happier as they cuddled into him and sipped on their own water. He didn’t much care what they had asked of him in the bedroom, but the fact they were so attentive afterward just made everything all the sweeter.

#enswif

[alyosiuscreightonward]

I’m absolutely flummoxed. I’ve had a thing for Tauren men, however the empath streak in me sees beyond the obvious.

Anyway, I’ve a Foster son who hates me and wants me dead and he truly wishes that I was never in his life.

The sidewalk talks. Rumor? Innuendo? Falsehoods? Urban legends? Conspiracy theories? From what I’ve heard, someone is saying shit.

ALLEGEDLY and I mean ALLEGEDLY ever since he moved out West, he’s been an absolute mess. Exxon Valdez, Event Horizon, Ukraine and The Gaza Strip are just tragic comic events that Mitzi Shore may have produced at the legendary Comedy Store.

I am of the belief that it started to go down the shitter was when I had abandoned him in 1994 when I thought I had someone who would love me forever and put me on a pedestal. Child please. I was delusional. I was thinking that I was going to be able to live like the pages of a Barbara Cartland or Rosemary Rogers novel. You feel the Harlequin Romance novels? I was delusional.

I’m going to leave out some things and bring you up to date with the things that MAY have happened to him and ALLEGEDLY have been perpetrated against him. Since he was just a Victim of Circumstance. Like this story: Standing there in the rain in the middle of the night waiting for the last bus to arrive and take him across town as he was in a tee shirt and underwear. The next thing he knew 5-0 was putting him in the back of The Waddy Pagon. I mean he was just trying to get across town and shit went down. Hashtag Facts.

One story I had heard was that he was going to be evicted from his apartment and the storage unit he had was going to be auctioned off ALLEGEDLY due to either Late Payments or Non-Payment. Anyway, the shit hit the fan. Inside the Storage Unit was his mother’s ashes and now they’re gone ALLEGEDLY. These are just things that were told to me and I’ve got to take them with a grain of salt. Now as of recent, he ALLEGEDLY called a mutual and ALLEGEDLY said that he was in a bad situation. The mutual went to say that he was crying and he had a snub nosed .38 up against his head and he truly hated his life. When the mutual reached out to me and told me this story (not even Stephen King could have written this) and how he felt some kind of way about his life but being short of the ready, he couldn’t help him because that’s what he wanted.

After hearing this, I had to process this information and go through my mental Rolodex and see if I could find a card that was going to provide me with the right words. It took me about four days to find the right words. I wrote and the rewrote and edited my soliloquy. I then tossed it aside and then I wrote the following:

~>>>Yo. (Insert name here). Brother Dave reached out to me. We both wish we could help you out however we can't. We are not able to help you because you don't want to help yourself.

We took your advice and we are working on ourselves with meds and therapy.

Any 12 Step Program says: accept, acknowledge, affirm your actions and take ownership and responsibility and then make amends to those who you told to fuck off, eat shit and die.

Sadly I had a birthday yesterday and at 63 years old, I realized that both Brother Dave and myself had done nothing for you ever.

Scream, yell and have a temper tantrum.

Neither one of us can help you out here because you know two senior citizens who are losers.

We do actually care about you but we don't care about you because we are working on ourselves to be better people and you will not.

Sorry budd.

As always, your worst enemy,

(Insert name here)

I then waited for a few days before he clapped back with this and this where I was sitting in my car and laughing and crying at the same time. The absurdity of it all. I’ve read that text multiple times and still I truly believe that I’m in a coma. I’m completely brain dead. Now look here, I’ll safely admit that I’ve been in therapy since I was eight years old and at 63 years old, I’ve had brain surgery and I must admit that I’m the most ignorant person in the entire universe.

Here’s his response:

~>>>Idk why tf you text me. I don't need your help I'm an adult and good. Once again go fuck yourself. Your. Piece of shit, don't ever hit me up I'm blocking your ass. You need fucking help frfr

Excuse me ☝️ I thought I had heard that he has several outstanding warrants in the area he currently resides in and he also has some here on the East Coast ALLEGEDLY. From the very start, from in utero until now at his age of 37, he has been so fucking angry at me for abandoning him yet I did spend thousands of dollars on him in an attempt to make his life easier. As an example, he was playing football and I went without in order for him to have the necessary tools to play football yet he washed out and I apparently talked to his coach about how he should not have him playing football. Again, Excuse me ☝️!!

I know I have made the most obvious mistake by saying that he was my Foster Son. I know I’m a douche bag. I think back to when I last saw him in person. He was in jail and there was several inches of glass between us. I was on the phone with him and I told him how his Aunt and Mother had destroyed me. They concocted their own story about me and as I was doing the ugly cry, I could see him clearly clench his jaw and through his teeth he commanded me to stop crying and to stop talking to him about what happened. I know I had made another huge mistake and told him that I loved him as my son and he just cannot stand it anymore. I’ve always wanted to be a good parent and not just a friend on the periphery. Because I’ve been told by several people that I did the best I could and yet failed miserably and I live with the guilt.

#dear diary #no your not the only one #i wrote this for me #inside my mind #my words #ramblings #my writing #pity party #bipolar depression #lgbtq #tauren #zodiac #zodic signs #shut the fuck up #you don't know jack #stupid people #wtaf #wtf #I’m comatose #just stop #eat shit and die #piece of shit #I’m the asshole #caring is scaring

[handcalfieetherington]

well this was bound to be brought up at some point.

Team fortress 2 released in 2007 by Valve was a trailblazer of the multi class shooter and possibly remains one of the longest lasting online games to ever exist with the game having an active community 16 years on from it’s initial launch in the orange box.

the story of the game is a surprisingly in depth one despite the games reputation of being the “ha ha funny” FPS with all of it’s over the top characters and quirky weapon concepts.

A rich Englishman known as Zephaniah Mann was convinced by his two Idiot sons Blutarch and Redmond to buy a large sum of land over in new medico, not only was the land comedically useless but the trip over somehow managed to get him every disease known to man-kind, on the will and testiment he had made using his own skin (yes I’m not joking there) he left his company Mann Co to his aide and ancestor to a character who will be very important later on Barnibus Hale, to his two sons still bitter as hell that there stupidity resulted in him buying a useless wasteland and knowing how much the two brothers hated each other left shared ownership of the wasteland they had convinced him to buy fully knowing they’d fight over it until the day they died, he was completely right.

As the years went one of the brothers hired mercenaries to take the land from the other only to later realise the other had done the exact same thing starting up the start of what would become known as “The gravel wars”

Zephaniah’s theory that his sons would fight over the worthless dustbowl till the day of there deaths was about to proven correct as the two were at this point very close to death, that was until the intervention of Radigan Conagher who was hired to make a machine to extend the lifespan of Blutarch to ensure he’d outlive his brother and fully inherit the land upon his brothers death, only problem was that Bradigan had been bribed to make a life extender for Redmond as well, through bribery of a character known as Elizabeth in trade for 100 pounds of a substance known as Australium, seemingly able to grant those who have extended exposure to it heightened intellect or even the ability to extend there lives, after all was said and done Blutarchs plan to outlive his brother had been foiled and resulted in yet another stalemate over once again, the useless pile of dirt they were fighting over.

the war of there’s ended up lasting so long that another group of mercernaries were brought in to continue fighting over the land, the group here are actually the characters from the first team fortress or Team fortress classic, a nice piece of history to acknowledge 

and at last cut to the current events of gravel wars in which the group of 9 mercenaries we know and love from the game get hired to continue the fight over this completely useless wasteland, with weapons being sent in and provided by Barnibus’s grandson Saxton Hale with the war being coordinated by The administrator as well as here Assistant Mrs Pauling who work for both sides but keep this a secret from both the red and blu brothers as well as the mercs themselves, likely to prolong out the fight.

and that, was the basic summary of in universe pre game history and lore of team fortress 2 you’d think that’d be all to the story but nope there’s still a lot I missed out for the sake of this blog not turning into an autobiography, as well as that were breaking this up into multiple parts, with this going over basic history and other upcoming posts going over the designs of the Mercenaries and other characters as well as the idea of classes and characters with different roles on a team, and finally an extra part of the story that I left out for another time, this posts creation took scouring wiki pages and several comics so those will all be linked down here with how helpful they were to summarise this pre game history. 

https://www.teamfortress.com/catchup/#f=17

https://www.teamfortress.com/loosecanon/

https://wiki.teamfortress.com/wiki/Non-player_characters#Zepheniah_Mann

(no date) Team Fortress - catch-up comic. Available at: https://www.teamfortress.com/catchup/#f=17 (Accessed: March 5, 2023).

(no date) Team Fortress 2 - Loose canon. Available at: https://www.teamfortress.com/loosecanon/ (Accessed: March 5, 2023).

Non-player characters (no date) Non-player characters - Official TF2 Wiki | Official Team Fortress Wiki. Available at: https://wiki.teamfortress.com/wiki/Non-player_characters#Zepheniah_Mann (Accessed: March 5, 2023).