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goldenchunkycat · 1 year

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First time with aged-up!Lo'ak

[I know some people don't feel comfortable reading smut about aged-up!Lo'ak so please don't read it, there's no need to comment :)

I thought about that all night long and decided that I would just give it a try, I'm probably not going to write others smut for Lo'ak, but I really wanted to write at least one because like I said before I think that it would be a nice experience, seeing that Lo'ak is really different from his brother.

Well... Enjoy I guess ?]

So it happens years after atwow events. The Sully family is still living with the Metkayinas. I think that with Lo'ak it would definitely be a 'best-friend to lovers' kind of situation. No matter if you are a human or an Omatikaya, you guys are best friend since childhood - if you're human you're probably the one who taught him the 'middle finger'. You, him, Kiri and Spider were menaces when you were younger. People often came to Jake to complain about your antics, you really had a great childhood.

Your dynamic what funny to others and they often asked themselves how you, who were shyyyyy, could be hanging out with someone like Lo'ak, let alone be his best-friend. They eventually get used to it.

Be friend with Lo'ak would be: tiring, exciting, sometimes annoying, but overall it would be a great experience to learn about yourself. He would always encourage you to do things that you don't usually do. The Iknimaya for example... But this is a story for another day.

When the sky people came back, you and Lo'ak were thirteen years old. Leaving your home, the forest, was devastating, but thanks to the other it was bearable. You were there for him when Lo'ak was being reprimanded by his father, he was there for you when he found you crying over the fact that people told you: 'No, you can't bring the Pa'li up here.' You guys could have pretended to be twins, people would have believed you.

Anyway ! When the Sully family said that they were leaving you made a hunger strike in order to go with them. You could not leave your best-friend like this, who was going to comfort him when he's mad. Eventually, they agreed. It was hard fitting in and learn the Metkayina's ways, but you still got the hang of it, faster than Lo'ak - he was mad when you teased him about it so you had to gave him 'private lessons' -he said, where this mf would just try to drown you. Well, fourteen yo Lo'ak wasn't the kindest. But he was still the nicest best friend ever. He often got into arguments with the Metkayinas teenagers because they picked on you. Then you two would make fun of them in the Marui.

"Fucking moron, telling you that you're ugly when his lips are nowhere to be seen."

"I swear that if they ever make fun of you again im gone beat them up. Again."

"No but have you seen his face you slapped him with your tail ?" "..." "An accident ? A good one, his face was fucking hilarious."

Those were the good times. Then the sky people came and destroyed everything. Luckily you guys were able to stay safe. But when Lo'ak almost lost his brother (Neteyam lives here, like come on...), he changed. Well, he tried, hard. Took him two years actually. It's Lo'ak, it was hard for him to associate a 'No' with 'I can't do that'. He was stubborn. Neytiri once told you that he was just like his father before. It was hard to believe, Jake was so... strict ? You ended up spending your adolescence living with the Metkayinas.

When you were eighteen, Lo'ak eventually asked you to be his girlfriend and, obviously, you said yes. Nothing changed between you two; he was still the funny and annoying friend you grew up with. You two were more comfortable with skinship and Lo'ak would always rub his relationship to his brother's face. But no one was surprised when you told them that you were going out, it was predictable, they were happy for you and his parents asked you to keep him safe. But who were you to prevent him from doing what he wanted. I don't know why but I imagine Lo'ak as a very romantic lover. Like, walking with his arm around you shoulder, resting his hand on your thigh whenever you two are sat next to each other.

"Do you- Maybe- Hanging out ? Going out...with me ?"

"I'm definitely going to tell Payakan that you are now my girlfriend. He's the one who encouraged me to ask you out." "..." "How ? Don't ask questions I can't answer."

Now the juicy part. Despite being together for one year you two actually did it when you were both nineteen years old. Your first time was...awkward. Cute but awkward. Like I said before he would want that to be something unforgettable so he would probably bring you to his favorite hidden area of a beach were everything glow during the eclipse. Once you're comfortable on that cover he brought, I think that Lo'ak wouldn't know what to do. Whee should he touch you first ? Is is alright if he lays his hand on your hips ? He would be so attentive to your needs. But you two would be two shy beans. It would give sub x sub vibes.

Now let's be REALISTIC, the prep would be rushed. Like, the boy really wants you to feel nice but you really don't know anything about the other's body. He would prep you and you would try to touch him. The boy would would come from feeling your mouth around his dick, you can't change my mind. Lot of apologizes later, he would make you cum with his fingers. Lot of praises and kisses from both of you. You two would be inexperienced so expect messy kisses with saliva and mistakes - like when he pulled your hair to hard of when you accidentally scratched his forearm while he was trying to finger you. Once he would be in your private part he would come IMMEDIATELY - don't worry about protection there's some Tsahik magic awaiting for you at the Tsahik's Marui. He would be mortified. But don't worry, one look at your pretty face, at your glowing freckles, at your glistening lips and at your twinkling eyes, full of love for him, would make him hard again. He would make you cum at the third attempt, pretty good nah ?

"I'm sorry, I came. Again. I'll do better."

"I can't help myself you're just so pretty..."

"I wouldn't have believed myself if I told the young me that we would b" together, I'm so lucky to have you in my life."

"Yeah ? I'm doing good ? You too baby."

You would spend the rest of the night looking at the glowing fish and the beautiful biodiversity while talking like to best friends and lover. But don't worry, you two are young adults, you will often disappear in order to sort out Lo'ak' little problem ♡ . Hormones.

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m00nt4r0t · 1 year

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✮ what are people saying about you? ✮

pile one, two, or three?

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀ pile one

when people talk about you, they mention how caring and emotionally mature you are. people say that you’re wiser than most people your age, or just most people in general. you may be very good at staying calm in worrisome situations, which people really admire about you. you seem to have a lot of knowledge tucked in your arm. you could be good with words or just a literate person, as in you know how to spell a lot of words that most people don’t and you’re very familiar with using correct grammar and whatnot. people also say that you’re very inspirational, and that you take inspired action rather than mindless action. people say that you’re very fast-moving, and that you’re a quick learner. you’re progress faster than most might. some may even say that you make impulsive decisions, in which you could, but i also think these people just take more time to make decisions than you do, that’s why they see your quick actions as impulsive. some also talk about how you’re adventurous, or that you may seek out more experiences. you want to learn new things, meet new people, visit more places, etc. you may even experiment with your appearance a lot by changing your hair or style. they say that you look, talk and/or act a lot different than you used to. when people from your past see you, they talk about how you’ve changed a lot, or that you seem to always change. people also mention how you’re so confident in yourself or what you’re doing. in their eyes, you hold yourself to a high standard, and you may hold the people in your life to a high standard as well. they say that you’re hard to “achieve” and that you move on quickly. if someone doesn’t match your standard, you don’t take long to remove yourself from the connection, and you don’t tend to look back either. if you give emotional advice, you may often advise others to move on from situations, even if that’s not what they want to hear.

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀ pile two

i feel like people are talking about your celebration(s) and/or your accomplishments. if you just threw a party, people are talking about how fun it was and how much they enjoyed your energy. people could also be saying how they missed your presence and are happy that you’ve returned to something/somewhere. this could be in terms of getting back to work, coming back home or returning to a hobby of yours. people also talk about how creative you are, and how relaxing your energy is to them. you could be very good at giving advice, or just making people feel safe. they’re also saying that they see success in your near future, especially if you’re working on a creative project. even if this isn’t a creative project, this could still apply to getting a promotion at work or simply making progress in some aspect of your life (im getting that this has something to do with fitness for some of you.) they say that you’re destined to be a leader, and that you will no longer have to reach others through your creative endeavors (that may be for only a few of you.) regardless, people do see you as some sort of boss; people talk about how you take action towards your goals. you create and them implement whatever it is you created. some may say that you’re missing the opportunity or ignoring the call, but that’s just because they don’t know what’s going on behind the scenes. they could believe that you’re moving too slow, but the divine designed your timeline this way and you’re right on time. some may also say that you critique yourself too harshly and that you should be more gentle to yourself. overall, people talk about how much potential you have and how they’d like to see you do more to reach it. some may even want to learn from you or just watch you in the process of creating. do what you need/want to do on your own time!!

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀ pile three

people are talking about something new that you’ve started for yourself, pile three. this could be a new job, a new haircut, new style of clothing, new account, new relationship/friendship/enemy, new pet, new school, you get it. im seeing this is something you were very happy about and possibly even celebrated with friends and family. people are talking about this celebration, and how they’re happy for you! they could also be speaking about the child-like wonder you possess, and your naivety/lack of knowledge when it comes to something? i don’t think this is supposed to be said in a negative way, but more-so a “worried for you” kind of way. for example, a teenager starts driving by themselves, their parent may worry for them at least a little bit. people may also talk about how you’ve mastered your emotions and you control your emotions more than your emotions control you. they say you learned this through difficult times, but i get the feeling they’re not actually sure how you did this. there may be some speculation around your inner world, and how you got the way you are. you come off a bit of a mystery to people, you may not say too much about yourself to certain people and it causes them to talk/wonder about you even more. they also say that you’re in-tune with nature and you hold a spot in your heart for natures creatures (wild animals, insects, sea animals, etc.) others think you keep a diary and you write in it instead of talking about your feelings with others. they also talk about how you get your resources from the earth. if you need water, you go to the river and get it (metaphorically, but could be literal for some.) people talk about your hopes, beliefs and dreams. maybe even your morals and the way you view the world. they see you as someone who is very wise, maybe because of pain you could’ve gone through. people talk about how you prefer to be alone, but attention is still on you somehow. your energy draws a lot of attention to you, even when you try to keep attention off of you. people are energetically attracted to you for many different reasons.

thank you for reading and interacting! <3

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lettersfromverabookreview · 3 months

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The Percy Jackson Saga

What a saga! I´ve still yet to finish it (while writing this, but i´ll post it when I finish it), but it´s SO fun, such a light read.

My history with Percy Jackson series has MANY comes and goes and it intercepts with many characters of my life that definitely not align with the Percy Jackson books at ALL. Seriously, If by any chance you´re a pre-teen reading this and you seem to be a bully who reads percy jackson, why do you think percy has SUCH a bad time in the school?? Anyway, getting over the personal comment….

I was mainly attracted to it because the series has come out (watch it !! its definitely interesting) but the nostalgia has come back with a kick and I definitely relate to little Percy, Annabeth and Grover (none of them would love me calling them little, but they are kids!!! Give them a SECOND of peace please), a little misunderstood, a little lost, not only when I was a teenager, but now on my 20s I can def relate (in a sense) to this lost feeling.

I doubt it ever goes away, Hell (or Hades?), Its difficult even to the gods what is happening in the books!! Everyone has to make tough decisions every once in a while, sometimes is whether to have the literal sky to help the goddess Artemis to fight Atlas, sometimes is leaving a job!

And I definitely relate to the strand of white hair after going trough the stress. And yes, everyone has a difficult choice and sometimes some are tougher than others, (like cmon… my job change example its what Ive been going through but Im guessing that maybe having the sky on your back may be a lil more difficult) but difficult choices are difficult choices, and these books have helped me, at least, to get anxious over whether Percy was going to be able to save his mom, instead of me getting anxious of my life choices.

I´m sure that anybody reading this may be going through a tough time (I mean, not to wish that upon you, and if you say “nah thanks i´m good, having the best time of my life” great for you!!) and i definitely believe that these books may seem focused for children, and yes, the repetition of what happened the last books that appears in every book after the first one, it sure is annoying, but overall its a huge break for the brain! Its a nice reading, a nostalgic one, and a hug to the heart.

A good reminder that good friends are worth lifting the sky and more, that families may not be what we always expect, that blue food is DOPE, that what we see may not always be what it truly is, that friends are not always what they seem to be, and that enemies (or people who we are taught are “enemies”) may not always be enemies.

[Finally, as a last comment since I´ve finished reading now] Sometimes it is not only good but necessary to go back to your child-self. To embrace new experiences with the forgiveness of a mother, the strength of an adult, but also for the inner ability of a kid that's learning how to walk, to stand immediately back up and continue trying. Embrace your strength but also your weaknesses, continue always learning, get around people you would sacrifice yourself for. Remember that its good and also essential to rest (sometimes on a lost island surrounded by the daughter of Kronos that's actually good and leaves you with a bunch of questions), and never forget to get back home (or at give out a sign when you're well so that everyone around you knows that you´re fine, turning the light blue of the Empire State can be an example).

If you´re going through high school, read this.

If you´re a lil lost, read this.

If you´re pretty sure you may be a lost child to a Greek god, yeah sure, but also read this.

If you wanna learn more about greek myths! I mean they are not super explained sometimes, but they sure deserve a good google search afterwards, which is good brain food!

If you really like sloooooow burn romances, yeah maybe you may like this (super far from the actual trama of the story but its so TRUE how long Percy takes to realize y´know…the thing)

If you like cute Cyclops, who are NOT murder machines, read this!!

And you must definitely read this if you like the water!! -Vera

#percy jackson #pjo series #pjo fandom #pjo #annabeth chase #percy jackson spoilers #percy jackon and the olympians #grover underwood #pjo spoilers #pjo tv show #book review #booklr #booklover #book life #booklaunch

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wonjns · 6 months

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helloo idk if you are the type of writer to do this but seeing how youve been posting ffs' since a while back now this makes me want to ask you hehe (cause of experience?)

so uh how do you plan out stories? like as a person myself ive never really find male reader stories that is in my style so i decided to make stories myself TT

i specifically want stories that are heavy in angst (thats why i said in the beginning if you are the correct writer for this). how are you able to plan out angsty stories? how long do you plan to write the introduction and when is a good time for the introduction to shift to the other parts? and when is the perfect time for the climax of the story?

you don't have to answer fully detailed if you don't really get what I mean TT but if you are able to include some few general tips then I'd appreciate that <3

and also sorry if this is kinda weird and time-consuming to ask 🥹🤞🏻

awhh hey there!! i feel so honored that you felt i was worthy to ask this LOL. im so happy to hear we’ll have another writing joining the ranks <3

im so sorry if i disappoint, but i rarely plan things out,, which is actually rlly bad if you plan on taking writing a little more seriously 😭

i’m not the best with the angst at all, i think i’ve only written it like once/twice and it was kinda bad each time — but i would say in terms of planning it out you would want to begin with identifying an inciting incident!! aka, figure out what you’d want your pain “problem/conflict” of the fic to be, and then decide how you want to introduce that problem, if that makes sense.

if we’re talking about timing, i would say my average fic follows a movie’s structure. i believe stories overall are received best when you use what i guess i call the “sandwich method” LMAO,, which is:

fluff > introduction of conflict > actual conflict > resolution > fluff

basically meaning i usually start my stories (the few that have plot 😭) off with good vibes, and then descend into the root of the issue, and then once your reader/character resolves the issue, it obviously ends in a happy ending lol.

however, every writer is different and every story is different which is what makes it so much fun!! considering you really like angst, you could start your story MID-conflict to be honest, which actually grabs the average reader’s attention much more often. whereas the climax of the story usually takes place near the ending. you could also explore sad endings!!

im not the most qualified to give this advice but i figured i’d just share my thought process a little bit!! i’ll have been writing for a year come the end of this month so i’m still pretty new & have lots to learn!!!

if anyone has any beneficial advice for our friend pls drop some comments :)) i wish you the best of luck writing and hope you fall in love with it <33

#💭flwr;asks #kpop x male reader #kpop fanfic #fanfiction #kpop x reader #kpop imagines

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intoloopin · 6 months

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MAKE BELIEVE IT'S HYPER REAL.

starring: Lee Hanjae, Im Yoora; featuring: mentions of Fukunaga Haruki, Jeon Heejin, fellow LOOPiN and Hashtag members; set in: Mid September, 2022. word account: 5,401 words. tws: none that came to our notice!

author's notes: 1. Yoora belongs to the amazing, talented, brilliant Amber, and can be find at @hshtag alongside all of her show stopping bandmates! This piece was originally a thread we did together over Discord, which was a first (successful attempt of making that format work, lkkdj) for me. I’d like to use this space again to thank her for making this experience fun, and for being so patience with me as always! Other then that, the uhze: 2. English is not my first language, and it might show to a native speaker or someone who’s more fluent then I am. I tried my best to iron this piece out, but if any grammatical errors flew over my head, I hope they don’t ruin the overall experience. With that out of the way, have a good read!

Hanjae sets the phone tripod at the center of the room more or less at the height of his chest – which totally isn’t housing a heart beating like a drum –, and tries his best to not let it slip through his fingers – that very much aren’t shaking like a leaf – when he takes his cell phone out of his back pocket and opens the front camera. He raises his head – which, for the record, absolutely doesn’t feel like it’s going to explode with a migraine at any minute – just to find his undeniable meek reflection all over the mirrored walls of the Melody Media practice room already looking at him, his two restless eyes just right there, obvious for Yoora to see, and point at, and comment on.

Drying his palms on his jeans, Hanjae mutes the thought and turns around at her. He says, with a tiny smile that feels terribly wobbly on his face, “All done. We can, you know, do the thing. And by the thing, I mean– the dance thing, that we planned, which is why I’m here. Ha. All done for that.”

He coughs, just to make up an excuse to shut up. For very little, he doesn’t give in to the urge to bang his head against the wall. Fuck. Fuck. He really gotta learn how to be subtle someday.

Hanjae knows he has no real reason to be anxious; it’s Yoora, whom he trusted with his most chaotic truths, whom in the years they’ve been friends, saw all of his oddest habits and transparent flaws and still allowed him to stick around. Maybe the only person in the world who’ll understand why he wants to do what he wants to do, why this is the only plan that makes sense, and still, he starts quivering every time she does as little as look at his direction.

He clears his dry throat, gethers all the little courage he still has in him, stored for the stages and the fans, and decides to try again: “Uh, actually, Yoora, before we do anything, can we– Do you feel like sitting down? I really, really feel like sitting down.”

And Hanjae sits down, crossing his legs on the cold floor and letting his hands go to cover his face, no longer trying to not look like the poster child for a meltdown.

Yoora was exceptionally tired today. She was normally worn out on most days, but it was different somehow. She wasn’t really sure why she agreed to film a whole dance routine with Hanjae, but maybe it was because he sounded a little desperate, like he really needed her there, so she complied and tried to fight off the sudden waves of exhaustion she felt whilst they practiced the choreo before they had even decided to start filming it.

It was clear that Hanjae seemed a little off recently and Yoora had noticed this. At the beginning, it could’ve been the occasional bad start to his day to explain why he had been acting like this but he began to seem more and more distracted and tense as the days moved by. Yoora wanted to ask Hanjae what was going on, but she didn’t want to force him into telling her all his thoughts just because she wouldn’t stop bothering him about it.

Even during their meeting, he seemed extremely awkward, if not nervous. That’s what confused Yoora, what was there to be nervous about? Sure she got nervous around Hanjae sometimes, but that’s because Yoora was just always nervous around people in general, it would take a long time before she began to get comfortable with them, and before that, would come a whole string of awkward situations or conversations due to Yoora’s lack of communication.

She heard Hanjae clear his throat uncomfortably causing her to break herself out of her thoughts that were endless. Yoora watched as he restlessly looked around the room for something to focus his attention on when he suggested that the pair should sit down instead of filming the video, just when they had perfected everything and finally managed to stay in sync with each other without someone making the wrong move or turning the wrong way.

Hanjae sits down and Yoora sits next to him, smiling. “Sure, we can sit down for a bit. I’m actually getting kind of bored of repeating the same moves over and over again, I need a break.” She breathes out, pressing her hand against her chest to steady her breathing. “You look like you have something to say, you keep wanting to speak then pausing. Is that why you brought me here?” Yoora asks, rapidly, not bothering to give him time to answer the questions and firing them at him instead.

She nudges his shoulder, leaning against him. “Whatever it is, you can tell me, it’s a judge free zone when I’m here.” Yoora states, fidgeting with the bracelets that adorned her wrist. “Whatever it is, It’s serious right? You’ve been acting weird all week because of it. So, what’s going on?”

Yoora is gentle with the nudge, still, Hanjae’s body sways to the side at the impact. What’s not going on, he thinks, but doesn’t say.

What he does says it’s something that he hasn’t got the chance to speak out loud yet. It's been tormenting him like he’s holding onto it for years, not less than a month. A piece of truth so secret it comes out of his mouth in a rush, like pure word vomit: “The thing is Haruki and I, we– well. We’re not– having fun anymore. Permanently. That’s– I wanted to tell you that.”

It’s been well over three weeks since they both had sat down inside that rented car in nowhere South Korea, no plans to where to go, no fixed destination, and what should have been another weird date had turned into a disaster when all of Hanjae’s suppressed emotions exploded on his face. He’s never been a spontaneous person, but he thought he could pretend to be anything as long as he had been doing it for the sake of finding love at the end of the road. He can’t believe that for a bit, he really thought there would be love at the end of that road.

Hanjae recognizes now that he doesn’t have a clear idea what love even means.

How can he start to explain these feelings? Yoora knows the nature of their whole situation, spared the occasional nauseating detail – the side of the story that is not in his business to tell, because it’s Haruki’s and Haruki’s only. Hanjae couldn’t bring himself to stay quiet in front of what was arguably one of the closest friends he ever had about what had been, at some point, something important.

They weren’t ever dating, but he and Haruki weren’t not not dating either. They had been stuck in this weird Can We, Can’t We game for four endless months, and Hanjae never did get around to learning all the rules before he had enough and found himself wanting out.

He takes a pensive pause, collecting all of his thoughts, searching for the right words. He fidgets with one of Yoora’s shoelaces until it unties, a timid attempt to amuse her through his silence – he really likes the sound of her laugh. Hanjae’s not particularly funny, but he wishes he had some comedic talent just to be the cause of it more.

She’s the right one for this, the loud thought that popped into his head days ago returns, louder; Yoora can make it all work.

“I ended it, you know, and I tried to do it gently, but I don’t think it worked in the end,” he clarifies with a helpless shrug of his shoulders. “He’s been weird, ever since. Distant, but not just with me, and– I know I messed up, and I misunderstood things, I then made them worse, but I keep having this one thought– Like I know what could help, really help him and me, I guess, but it’s not something I can do alone, or ask just anyone’s help, so… Enters you, maybe, but just if you want, okay? No pressure. None at all.”

Hanjae dares to reach for her hand and when he gets a hold of it, squeezes gently. He wants to look her in the eye as he says it all, from now on, so he does. “But what I want to ask you first, Yoora, is if you trust me enough to do something a bit crazy with me.”

She snorts quietly, attempting to hold back her laughter. She notices how long it takes for Hanjae to answer and just looks at him. It’s quite funny that she can almost see the cogs in his brain turning as a crease between his eyebrows appears, signaling that he’s still lost in thought. When he finally does answer, Yoora is a little shocked. “So, what you’re saying is, you two aren’t together anymore? Like, seriously?” He nods in reply and her eyes begin to water a little. It wasn’t because she was upset, definitely not, she had no right to act that way, it was due to the fact that she felt bad for Hanjae.

His whole life story could make Yoora cry. She had always felt some sort of lingering remorse for him, especially when they first met. He seemed like a quiet person, the odd one out of a bunch of evens but it suited him. Even if he was the odd one out, it always made him seem different and different was always good for Yoora. She hates silence, she absolutely hates having to sit quietly for too long, or avoid the awkwardness that comes with it but when it comes to Hanjae and Yoora, silence is always comforting for her. Maybe it was just Hanjae’s presence, but she could sit and do nothing with him forever and not once say that she was bored.

Maybe it meant that they were soulmates or something. Yoora didn’t really get that stuff very much, it all confused her, how could you possibly be soulmates with someone you haven't met yet? Her view changed a little once she began to get closer to Hanjae, she was certain that now, soulmates definitely meant something to her. They also had so much in common that it was easy for them to become friends. Yoora had friends, but none of them were like Hanjae. Hanjae understood every single choice or action Yoora would do, because he would’ve done it too. It was as if they just clicked together, like a puzzle piece, and couldn’t function properly without the other.

As Yoora lays her head on Hanjae’s shoulder, she can feel him begin to untie her shoelaces, which makes her smile a little. She finds it funny, she finds everything Hanjae does funny. He may not think it, but Yoora thinks Hanjae’s the only person she knows that’s naturally funny without trying too hard. She would laugh if she could, but she doesn’t have enough energy for that, so instead she lifts her head up and turns her body to look at him. “I laughed internally, now can you please re-tie them?” Yoora asks, using her head to point down at the shoelaces draped across the shiny floor.

He listens and finishes tying Yoora’s shoelaces when he begins another sentence. “Sometimes ending things gently isn't the best thing for both parties. ‘Cause then it just makes everything seem like it was perfect, when it wasn’t.” She replies with a small, tight smile on her face. “Of course he’s gonna be distant Jae, Haruki’s probably got a lot going on and ending whatever you two had, was just something else he could add on to his king list, you know? Don’t stress too much about it, one day he’ll be back to normal and you guys can rebuild your friendship, somehow.” Yoora chooses her words carefully, not wanting to say something she shouldn’t by accident since she knows she’s getting a little more nervous as time passes by.

Hanjae’s hands feel softer and warmer than usual, or Yoora’s paying too much attention to them. He squeezes her hands, and it puts her at ease. The nerves die down once they make eye contact with each other. Yoora has never been good at holding eye contact, but at this specific moment, it didn’t seem like a challenge, just a normal reflex. She’s always noticed how detailed Hanjae’s eyes were and how depending on the light, they would get lighter or darker. They were pretty, much like him. “You know that I trust you, and I’d help you with almost anything,” She pauses. “As long as I’m not like murdering someone, I’m in.” She gently removes one of her hands from his hold and slaps him on the arm. “Hurry up and tell me! I’ve been waiting for too long.”

“It’s not murder,” Hanjae says, lips curling up despite everything. He can feel a small wave of relief starting to wash over him, as Yoora’s encouraging energy takes over all around the room, gently untying the knot on his chest. “The idea I had was more… simple.”

“I figured that the quickest way to make it all normal again, might be just to show him that I moved on, because I really did move on. I’m doing fine with all the feelings– there’s not even that many to consider. Things were never all that nice between us, but nothing about it came close to crushing me. I don’t feel like running off to a mountain and becoming chaste for the rest of my life. I’m not gonna just give up all relationships, that’s not the right thing to do, but I feel that’s he’s assuming I’ll do, for some reason I don’t get. I think it would be good to make him think I’m seeing someone else soon– someone that he knows I like and that likes me, in a way, like you, because you’ve been my friend for a while and… You see what I’m hinting at? Maybe?”

The thing is: Hanjae doesn’t want to rub it all over Haruki’s face and parade Yoora around in a fake relationship as a big ‘got ya’ moment, that’s far from being a part of his plan, but he does want him to see that progress is a real option. Hell, if he weren’t such an introvert and Dispatch was never a thing, he really would be trying to get himself out there instead of running to Yoora with a grand scheme.

What’s really breaking his heart here is that no matter what he’s tried to say these last few days, no matter what he’s tried to do, Haruki just can’t recognize they both had been at fault; he keeps acting like a criminal waiting to be convicted, which is far away from the truth. For all the times Haruki had been evasive, and mean, and acted inconsiderate of his very obvious feelings, Hanjae had been terribly selfish to match, demanting time he knew his bandmate could not give him, ignoring the few real terms and conditions he got for the sake of signs he made up out of thin air.

But just because they couldn’t get the steps right between them, it doesn’t mean they can’t do this dance with other people.

There’s a joke here somewhere, about being about to make this one ask in this setting, with the one person Hanjae feels like he could dance with without his feet failing him. He has the feeling that he can’t deal with the punchline just yet.

“So, with all that in mind,” Hanjae prompts, letting his free hand hover over Yoora’s wrist and picking over the jewelry around it, just as she did shortly ago. He’s looking up at the ceiling as he finally asks, "Would you fake date me, Yoora?”

It’s a bit ridiculous, but he feels himself blushing, out of all things. Hanjae has only had relationships that started off on the wrong foot so far; the only girlfriend he did have was still the partner of a friend when they first kissed, which definitely isn’t a feat to be added to the highlights of his teenage life. He doesn’t think he’s ever been in a situation where he even got to ask this one question to anyone seriously, which is a realization that makes him feel a bit sad.

He tries to not let his face fall again as he amends, quickly and firmly because Hanjae knows it’s important to get this one thing out of the way: “I’m not trying to do with him what Heejin did to you, Yoonnie, I promise. It wouldn’t be real, and it wouldn’t be long.”

“I didn’t think you were capable of killing anybody anyways, don’t worry.” Yoora giggles, letting out the laughter she’d been holding back for a while. She wanted to keep the mood light since Hanjae seemed uncomfortable with whatever idea he wanted to propose to her. “No, I totally get it. You want to prove to him that you’re capable of seeing other people and that he hasn’t, like, completely ruined your dating life forever.” Yoora hums, nodding at his words to indicate her understanding. When she says she gets it, she really does get it. She felt the same exact way when she had just broken up with Heejin, she had moved on so quickly that Yoora didn’t even get a chance to be upset or anything, she had to move on quickly as well.

That’s what she hated about Heejin, how unfair she was, she was always making things difficult for Yoora during their relationship but it made her feel better knowing that Hanjae understood where they were both coming from. Their situations may not have been similar, but they had the same exact feeling when it was over. “I would love to say that I know where you're heading with this explanation, but I’m getting a bit lost over here..” Yoora trails off, not knowing what else to say to continue the conversation. She had a lot of questions to ask, but she wanted Hanjae to finish speaking before she got too confused and fired all her confusement at him.

Yoora averts her attention back towards Hanjae’s face, studying his anxious expression as his eyes flick upwards. “Sure, I'll be your fake girlfriend, what’s the worst that could happen?” She replies, uncrossing her legs and stretching them back out. Realistically, no-one should agree to something like this so quickly but Yoora was Yoora, meaning that she would do just about anything as long as it didn’t lead to her death.

She had sort of gotten the hints earlier, but didn’t want to jump to any conclusions. Hanjae finally blurting out what was plaguing his mind confirmed her initial thoughts and Yoora was quite proud of how fast it took her to get the gist of what he was trying to say.

The only thing she was worried about was how she was going to convince everyone else that it was real. Obviously her group members would notice that something was off with her, but she didn’t want to tell them anything without Hanjae’s permission, in case it ruined whatever he had planned. Yoora wasn’t very good at keeping secrets from people closest to her, she was a good secret keeper in general, but this one was a little too big to hide. She feels the beads around her wrist tighten and loosen as they’re picked and Yoora somehow finds it quite calming, she’s not afraid or anything, just a little jittery after thinking about too many things at once. Bringing her legs closer to her chest, she notices the faint blush painted over Hanjae’s face. She wants to smile at how easy it is for the boy to be flustered over simple things, but decides to keep it hidden so that she doesn’t ruin the serious atmosphere.

“Oh don’t worry, I know you’re nothing like Heejin. You’d be a better fake boyfriend than she was a real girlfriend, anyways.” Heejin had many flaws, so there was no reason for Hanjae to reassure Yoora. The only thing they had in common was the first letter of their names and Hanjae had always been a good friend to Yoora, helping him out with this one small thing was the least that she could do for him. “It could be as long or as short as you wanted it to be and I would still help you, I’m in.” Her shoulder collided with Hanjae’s as she leant back a little to stretch out her sore limbs. “We have to be careful about it though. We should make a list!” She suggests excitedly, clasping her hands together as things come together in her head.

Hanjae lets out his first real laugh of the day – or maybe the week, he isn’t quite sure how long it’s been – as Yoora reassures him Heejin isn’t a concern, as well outrights gets on board with an enthusiasm that, somehow, has cemented in him. He doesn’t like to think of himself as someone who seeks much validation, but it would be a lie to say her approval doesn’t make him feel confident. There’s nothing to disapprove of, anyway: it’s a good, harmless plan.

Hanjae mimics her stretching, raising his long arms up and spinning his head to relax his neck, then gets up to go fetch his abandoned phone to put his Notes app to use. She’s right, after all. They’re remarkably bad liars, and will need to construct this out if they want to be convincing.

“I did want to treat you to something to eat, after everything had been discussed, so that could be our first ‘date’? It's been a while, right, since we got to go out?” He pauses. “Our PR manager has been insisting I go out more with ‘friends that remind me to take photos’. I need material to add to my Fab and Instagram feed.”

Hanjae lets himself chat away as his cloudy mind dissipates, leaving him with only two troughs to fixate over.

The first is a surprising realization: Hanjae is pretty sure that this might be the easiest bit he’s ever attempted to keep up. Haruki will only need as much as hear him saying ‘I’m seeing Yoora’ once to get it, and none of his other members have ever cared enough for what he does to ask too deep into it or even register any plot holes if he gives them a story, except for maybe Seungsoo and Jiahang, but that's just because they both need gossip to live more than food and water.

There’s a very small chance Dylan will want more than the odd detail into his dating life from now on, since he's seemed to have picked up something of what went on, which Hanjae always knew had been a bit inevitable given his current position as Haruki’s roommate and latest emotional hostage. In a way, Chihoon might have been the one who planted this fake dating idea into his head with all the romcoms he made them sit through ‘for no reason at all, dude’, so it’s only fair.

The second thought, louder and more exciting, is simple: Hanjae is just optimistic that by doing this, they can just go all in on the light and fun and make this ‘relationship’ exactly how they want it. Hanjae’s a bit of a romantic, he admits, and the limitations that come with being an Idol haven’t stopped him from wanting to do silly couple routines like matching outfits or even outright sharing things.

He gives Yoora a discreet up and down, and finds himself suppressing a smile. Hanjae knows from experience that all of his jackets look big enough on her to cover her hands, when she wears them – it would be very, very nice if she did wear them more.

He taps into his phone ‘topic of conversation: couple look’, and tries not to look too pleased.

Yoora thinks Hanjae’s laugh suits him, and it doesn’t seem forced like the hundreds of other ones she’s encountered, it sounds exactly like him.

“I’m being serious! I hate not having everything planned out in front of me, we can just use that notes app, right?” She asks as she watches him open his phone and scroll to the said app. She had always been someone who needed everything to be planned out, otherwise she was sure she wouldn’t be able to keep things going. Or maybe that was because Yoora wasn’t an organized person and wanted at least one thing to go perfectly planned in her life.

“Yeah, It has been a while since we hung out properly, without any hidden meanings or something and it is true, you definitely need to take more photos. Your fans are probably questioning what you’re doing right now.” Yoora smiles and gently hits him on the shoulder as she remembers how empty Hanjae’s instagram looks compared to her constant posting schedule. If she didn’t keep to the schedule, she’d probably be yelled at a few times, but it was easy for her to stick to it since she loved taking photos and social media in general. She also loved to be anywhere but the company building or the group’s dorm; it always felt too cramped there despite the fact that there were only five other people that took up the rest of the space Yoora wasn’t using.

As Hanjae goes silent, she realizes that she has no idea how she was going to attempt to hide this from the rest of her members. They simply wouldn’t understand if Yoora just sprung it upon them and told them that she now had a boyfriend, it would be too weird or oddly timed. But then, she didn’t really want to tell them everything about the situation at hand, it wasn’t really her place to share anything that Hanjae had chosen to share with her out of trust for the girl.

Yoora didn’t feel any sort of resentment towards Haruki, but his name being brought up always made her feel bad for him, and Hanjae. Whatever they had trapped themselves into was a tough journey, especially with what they both had going on, it seemed like neither was truly happy.

This led Yoora to her current thought, how was she meant to act? Obviously, she knew how to be a girlfriend, but she didn’t know how to be a fake girlfriend. She wasn’t sure if it required different needs to what regular relationships needed and Yoora wasn’t sure that she was a good actress. She already knew Hanjae could act, and it was clearly a gift of his, but she was a little short on that end. Maybe she could practice, or maybe she was thinking too much and getting too into the whole fake relationship mentality, but that’s just how her brain always worked. It was always coming up with stupid ideas, so she wasn’t surprised that she agreed so quickly, she had nothing better to do.

It wasn’t as if she saw Hanjae’s proposal as a simple task or a good way to cure her boredom, but Yoora had absolutely no reason for her to object because it didn’t really affect her negatively or positively and Hanjae was as close to being her best friend as anyone could get to, she was simply helping him out. She was scared to get too deep into her thoughts and decided to shrug it off, coming to the conclusion that she would just have to figure everything out a little later.

“Okay…what other rules are we meant to have? Oh! We have to be really careful to not get caught, everyone needs to believe that it’s real, I know it’s obvious but it’ll ruin everything if we do.” The way Yoora was pushing her words together so they came out too quickly showed how interested she was getting, and when she was interested in something, she was never going to let it go. Yoora placed her hand on her chest, groaning quietly. “Actually, I’m exhausted, anything else I need to know?”

Hanjae will not lie: there are a billion steps they might need to take to orchestrate this pretend boyfriend and girlfriend scheme – improvising is really not his forte, and he personally could overthink this for hours on end, but–

Yoora brings her hand in front of her face to hide a yawn, and suddenly Hanjae’s hit with the delayed realization that they’ve been doing choreography for hours with little to no filmed content to show for it, since he looked like he was at his wits end during most of it. A part of him feels drained, too, physically but especially emotionally, maybe even for way longer than he allowed himself to stop to think of.

He might need a very intense drum session to work all the lingering tension off this weekend, or even an improvised retreat into Taesong’s yoga corner of the living room. He hasn’t had enough time to sit with just himself, lately.

This operation should start soon, yes, but not exactly right now. No good plan is made in one single sitting, and Hanjae can barely think of dos and don’ts now, when his knee muscles are threatening to start killing him in minutes.

“No,” Hanjae says to her, softly. “Just that– Thank you again for saying yes, Yoonie. I’ll try my best, with you. Even if it’s pretend, I’m not gonna mess it up. I promise.”

To himself, he goes deeper into the vow, and swears that he’ll not make a mess while trying to fix another. Hanjae will easily let Yoora go, when the time’s right, and he’ll be grateful for her time and for her help, and it’ll be all. He’s not going to suffocate her with a million ideas of what the two of them should look like, to pass as a couple in his eyes. He’ll not get too used to it to forget why they’re doing it in the first place. He’ll not want something he can’t have despite his selfish and grabby nature.

It’ll be a good and fun exercise, and– a flash of when they first met comes to his mind, of how captivated he was by Yoora and her everything – it could be a challenge, which he’s okay with. Maybe there is some sort of tiny part of Hanjae that needs something to put his strength to the test, a monitored try-out before he’s dunk into the big dating pool, some evaluation he can pass and deem himself… adjusted.

(He feels his jaw tense up immediately. He might have gotten Haruki’s initial deal with him better just now. Yikes. Big, big yikes.)

In front of him, Hanjae sees Yoora enthusiastically nod, hair swinging side to side, cracking a smile that communicates relief and amusement. He’s struck by the sudden urge to buy her heart shaped chocolate as a joke, probably. He starts mentally tracing roots to all the confectionery places nearby, but stops himself before his hand itches for his phone.

Hanjae walks side by side with her to leave the room, stops by the door to crack it open, and just as Yoora is about to pass him by, he makes a less dubious humorous decision: Hanjae signals for her to stop, takes off his nylon jacket and places it over her shoulders, almost like it’s a cape. It’s a bit awkward and clumsily done, but that’s part of his goal. Their shared laugh is light, and it radiates fun.

More than anything, he wants to show Yoora that he’s serious, but just the type of committed serious one can be while playing pretend. Nothing is going to change, when it’s just the two of them. They’ll keep on being friends, which is what they’ll always like each other for.

Maybe that’s the complicity you should feel, he thinks just then, quicker as the practice room lights being turned off after he presses the switch; when you have a partner.

Sometimes, it’s really hard for Hanjae to believe that he’ll ever get to know.

#&& ⠀ [ . . . ] hound on a hunt ⠀⸻ writing .#&& ⠀ [ . . . ] hound on a hunt ⠀⸻ hanjae .#&& ⠀ [ . . . ] hound on a hunt ⠀⸻ development .#fake kpop group #fictional idol community #kpop au #kpop fanfic #kpop oc #yoojae baby!!!!!! as strong as always

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thealmightyemprex · 11 months

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Fairy Tale June : Lets Pretend The Youth Who Learned To Shiver and Shake

Dont worry still doing these,just took a break not to get burnt out.Todays we will look at a radio adaptation of the "The Story of the Youth Who Went Forth to Learn What Fear Was

Ummm I usually like to have a visual representing the thing Im rviewing but this is radio so umm...Enjoy this picture of this episodes star Arthur Anderson

In this 1947 radio episode Bud (Arthur Anderson) has never known fear and thus is going to a haunted castle not only to pass a test but really to learn what fear is

So my experience with old time radio is limited: My grandad used to have a few Shadow episodes on cassett butI was so young I didnt comprehend them,and I have listened partially to the Clan of the Firey Cross arc of Adventures of Superman .My biggest exposure to Golden Age radio is I am a fan of the Lux Radio Theater ,which adapted popular films into radio drama often with big stars .SO I have never heard of Lets Pretend,a show that adapted classic fairy tales for kids , till @princesssarisa started discussing episodes and actuallly is partially reponsible for this review by reccomending episodes for me to check out ,thanks @princesssarisa !

Now why didI pick this one ?Partially because its based on a lesser known fairy tale that I only know due to being adapted on both Shelley Duvalls Faeirie Tale Theater and Jim Hensons The Story Teller ,but mostly due to it starring radio veteren Arthur Anderson,who woulld later voice Lucky the Leprechaun for Lucky Charms and replace Lionel Wilson as the voice of Eustace Bagge in childhood favorite Courage The Cowardly Dog .Anderson was a regular in Lets Pretend ,but this was his only lead role in an episode

Now sadly I dont have much to say other then...I thought this was cute .It is very similar to Shelley Duvalls adaptation,and being a comical tale it was fun .I think Anderson did a good job ,though I was less then impressed by the spooky castle scene though this is the first version I have encountered that I am aware keeps the original ending .I definately wanna check out more

Overall had a good time

@ariel-seagull-wings @filmcityworld1 @the-blue-fairie @autistic-prince-cinderella @princesssarisa @themousefromfantasyland@amalthea9 @scarletblumburtonofeastlondon @theancientvaleofsoulmaking @angelixgutz

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fruit-kick · 8 months

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Camp Camp LGBTQ+ Headcanons but I have favorites and leave most characters out

Max (he/him, transmasc aro)

he thinks romance is an inherently hilarious concept and he's going through his "ew pink and girly things, im above it all" transmasculine overcompensation phase. it's also his hoodie. when he gets older he gets more comfortable in his own skin and likes to paint his nails (not just black but other fun colors too) and experiment with fashion

Nikki (she/her, cis lesbian on the arospec)

its her crush on Ered and the general confusion around the perceived importance of romance. thinks it can be cute and fun but overall doesn't care too much about it (her and max are arospec besties)

Neil (he/him, cis gnc pan)

a fucking menace to gender norms and aggressive about it. i think hes pan and doesn't care about gender as long as he can vibe with them and they're interested in science (or just listen to him go on and on really.)

Nerris (she/they/elf, non binary demi)

i am a firm believer in Nerris using neopronouns, especially elf related ones ones. i think she's demi and it takes a long time with quality bonding for them to feel romantic attraction and it is devastating when elf does

Preston (any pronouns, cis gnc mlm)

i don't know how to put it cohesively but i think preston is just so open and no fucks given about his gender presentation. i think she's the type to flaunt just how pretty and handsome they look like he has peacock energy imo. also "any pronouns" includes neopronouns and nerris 100% assigns her neopronouns (what are they? idk its up to god)

Harrison (he/it, void, bisexual)

OMG i am such a believer in voidpunk harrison like i loveee characters who feel non-human and i just think it fits him so well. it reclaims essentially being rejected from humanity and normalcy because of his magic and embraces it. i also think its bisexual with a lean towards men

Gwen (she/her, cis, aroallo)

i don't have much to say about her and david except that they're alloace + aroallo solidarity. i think it makes sense for Gwen as she doesn't seem interested in other people romantically and just prefers to write erotic fanfiction or go on dates with seamonsters

David (he/she, non-binary, alloace)

i also think it makes sense for David to be alloace because of Bonquisha telling him he's not exactly good in bed. she feels strongly about romance but is extremely awkward in sexual situations (him coming back from muffin tops with campbell looking so exhausted- i mean campbell is exhausting to be around but david looked so done LMFAOO) also the whole girlboss hat thing

Daniel (he/she, bigender, unlabelled)

i have no idea why. i do not have an explanation for bigender daniel i just think its real and canon. it was bestowed upon me by god themselves. as for unlabelled i just think she would kill you first

Jen (she/her, transfem, sapphic)

shes a t4t murder blood violence sapphic. not much to say here

EXTRAS:

i'm about to explain some lore that only exists inside me and a select few people's brains but. max being close with harrison who's dating neil and preston (who're also friends with nerris!) helped him gain more confidence in his gender expression because of how little they care about anything making sense, like, at all. i absolutely think that max learned how to paint his nails and put on a good outfit from Neil and Preston. he used to think that Harrison and Nerris were weird for being xenogendered and using neopronouns but now he'll pummel anyone who makes fun of them

Daniel and David share the same pronouns and are that spiderman pointing at spiderman meme

Gwenvid sounds impossible by this point but they still work. somehow. through otherworldly and queerplatonic means

#🍊fruit.posts🏀#camp camp #im not tagging every character

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nitroish · 1 year

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I myself dont have much time to talk but. What are some silly headcanons you have for your favoritest blorbos? Do they have a favorite food? What are your hcs for their sexualities? Do they stim, and if so, how?

This could be zelda related or not whichever you prefer, im giving you a reason to ramble about whichever characters you like most :)

oh hell yeah lets go

im going to answer these with my legend in mind , so keep That in mind ! thank u thank u

under the cut . o7

legends favourite food is eggs on rice. a simple, easy to make meal! he only eats it A Singular Way as well oops - the way He cooks it. wild learns how to make it legends way [ its not all that hard of a feat to accomplish ] . he tries to change it up sometimes but legend absolutely notices every single time and refuses to eat it.

legend can cook but its mostly easy-to-make + overall cheap options that he can make in bulk / eat off of for awhile . goulash and curries. soups, breads, etc.

hes rly good w apples too tho, outside of those kinds of meals . his favourites are honeycrisp, and hes made or helped make wine , pies , jam , etc with the fruit in general :)

he has a damn sweet tooth and its impulsively indulged every time he passes a pastry shop or some shit. if there is an apple or cinnamon flavoured Anything he is going to try it [ not cinnamon roll, though ]

he is gay as shit !!! homosexual + somewhere under the ace spec but only thinks himself Loosely tied to the term [ he does not bother to find exactly where and i dont have much care to do that much searching either. ]

stims consist of many different things so here are some different kinds

hat fiddling, fiddling with things in general [ rings, hair, tunic, bag, blahblah ], waving weight from one foot to the other, tracing designs on things [ arm bracers, armour, swords, saddles, yadayada ], large exaggerated arm/hand movements, cracking bones [ <- stress stim ]

shine !! he will watch his rings or weapons shine in the sun, will move hands back and forth to watch the gleam of light move over the designs. he likes watching clouds move. he'll stare at the campfire for hours cos he likes to watch how the colours move.

humming, whistling [ usually random tunes he picked up from the others or towns ], clicking his tongue, mimicking accents [ NOT mocking . theres a difference . unless its twilight , then he mocks because its silly /lh ]. he likes to repeat words he hears tht r fun . yippee . . . conkcrete . . .

idk random things

warriors and legend are in a qpr [ duh ]

legend draws. wars writes.

system four my beloved

times good w magic spells. hes a quick learn, tho he doesnt rly use em

legend is more magic-able thn he lets on , understands spells and what they do / what words do that , but doesnt know how to use spells without conduits that Move the magic for him

they all know sign or are learning sign . legend doesnt like to teach, but he DOES stick around to help translate if need be

legend knows so many languages but this is common knowledge

legend has two dark world forms [ wolfos and rabbit ] <- the wolfos coloration is like a maned wolf

hyrule isnt very fond of bein in the fairy transformation , very overwhelming experience rly , but he Does enjoy the ability to sit on shoulders when he winds up in it

hyrule n legend make deez nuts jokes n warriors falls for them every time . warriors learns how to weaponize words to make his own jokes of the same caliber

twilight likes to collect bugs for agitha still . other eras have silly bugs and someone asks why hes hoarding all the damn glass bottles and when he carefully gets tghem out they each have a singular fucking bug in them

#hc tag #ask #anonymous

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eccentrickleptomaniac · 8 months

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Could you give a head cannon for Chechnya, Dagestan, Circassia, and other Russian republics

?!?:@#?:@?!:@?:#?@:! COCONUT?????? GHI I THOUGHT YOU DIED

anyways ya they'll each be a paragraph long (under the cut cuz itll probs be long)

chechnya (the russian republic) is actually the child of the chechen republic of ichkeria. ichkeria died after the second chechen war was over. chechnya on her own is a very excitable person. she is very intrigued by kosovo and finds herself often around them primarily out of curiosity. she tells kosovo about her mother a lot and how lovely she was to her. she doesn't live with russia and instead has the status of "annexed country", meaning she's stuck in the real world, making communication pretty difficult. she manages though! still tries her best despite it all. actually pretty smart as well, good at weaving her way out of situations.

circassa, ooohg. she's mysterious to say da least.. she was a sister of the russian empire and ussr, very much ignored by the other two. she never talked much, preferring glances well enough to shut up a curious bystander in one look. she was very self-centered and always believed what she did was right, but you wouldnt know that due to her mysteriousness. she didn't have many friends nor allies and it led to her demise sometime in the late 1800s against the russian empire. in death she's still very mysterious but it appears more timid now. if she sees someone she'll probably just disintegrate and teleport away. her daughter (adygea) lives on, hardened by the experience but not deterred in the slightest.

karelia is.. odd? she does not act russian in the slightest. what that constitutes is different for everyone but pretty much everyone agrees that.. yeah that girl does not act like she'd belong under russian rule. she's staunchly happy and slightly passive aggressive but overall fine to be around. she talks to the finnish karelias a lot. they're her besties thru and fucking THROUUUUGH. outside of that she doesnt have many friends though ):

dagestan is curious at heart. if he's not out and about writing notes there is no doubt he's pressing a former soviet republic for info about their past. and i mean, they usually give it to him, he spends a lot of time doing this and learning about the others. he has a fuck ton of blackmail against them its actually kinda funny. he also loves to learn new languages! occasionally in his spare time he translates things into different languages. avid nonenglish wikipedia editor.

komi is like... silly.., every definition of the word she is silly. she loves tree climbing and food. perhaps she's one of the countries with the random cat gene? im not super sure though. it'd be fun though! she likes to glomp people and also body slam them. she's ironically pretty harmless but at first you wouldn't be the first to assume that she would kill you without hesitation.. she COULD but she probably wouldn't because she's nice and rarely loses her temper.

do we count crimea? i'll talk about her i suppose 😭 she's a sailor at heart. knows many curse words in many different languages and nothing else. she hasn't been seen much since her annexation by russia but from what people remember she was a very hearty person, loved a good joke and was rather strong on her own accord. she spoke very few languages aside from the one everyone knows, russian and ukrainian were her only strong suits. she was impulsive, fun, and generally well liked.

mari el is plain. she's known for not much honestly. she's not boring or anything, but nothing out of the ordinary either. she's very go-with-the-flow-y and prefers to stay in the background. she has no strong opinions on anything but her clothes are pretty and her smile is heavenly. she's known among the other russians for being kind and willing to take in anyone if they're hurt, even if someone like her "father" (not really) might consider them an enemy.

bashkortostan has the most power out of the republics due to being the most populous. everyone kind of treats him like a big brother, even if he's not older than the others, it's assumed dhe's more well liked than the others by russia. and so, if they need something or have a complaint, they go to him! he listens intently and overall? good sibling. people like him and he likes people.

altai is very good at surprising people with her capabilities. while nothing special, she does love a good adventure. she's pretty much always out and about and her and dagestan often go on hikes together and note different plant and animal species together in the many notebooks they have. you cannot handle the uber instincts of their uber autism. (ahem slash joke)

ill do the rest later theres a lot of them 😭 also these might not be super accurate like? history wise? yada yada i hope ya still enjoy

#essen talks #ch hcs

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youareunbearable · 2 years

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im taking an Anishinaabemowin course over the summer and I've always viewed the Avari in the Silm as Indigenous so now im gonna try and rename the Silm characters in Anishinaabemowin for fun/ how the Avari would have called them.

A disclamer, Anishinaabemowin is a verb based language, so our names for things are based off of actions or descriptions of what they do/their job so names can be a little long. It is also gender neutral and sentence order doesn't super matter as long as it's understandable, I'm also learning so if there are mistakes lmao my bad

Its gonna be under a readmore cause rambling

So to start off, my sweetest poor little meow meow Maedhros.

With Mae, I really wanted to keep the "Red Dawn" motif, or go with the Russo nickname thing he clearly prefers since he kept that part of his name when he changed it to sindarin. The "red" part of the names is "Misko-" which goes at the begining of the word. So for him I have three choices:

Miskondibe, which means "S/He is red-headed" which I think would be a good alt name for Russandol

Miikawaadizi, which means "s/he is handsome, is beautiful; s/he is smart, clever, knows what s/he is doing" which is a good alt for Maitimo. For us, beautiful is less "oh they have pretty features" and more "oh they live a good way of life/they know what theyre doing" which I think translates well with the double meaning of his name, "shapely/handy"

Miskwaaseyaaban, which roughy means "it is the red light of dawn" which is my FAV allegory for mae lmaoo him as a red dawn is just *chef's kiss* and alt name for this concept is Miskwakwad which just means "it is a red sky" so like basically the same as the dawn meaning but without the "sun is rising" bit.

Also a fun point with this concept is that Fingon's call of "a new dawn" thing would translate to Biidaaban, which means "Dawn comes"

Angwaakizo is my last name for Mae, which I don't think he would call himself but how the Avari would speak of him after the First Age. It's a name that means "S/he dissapears/burns/consumed by fire" with the emphasis on "so there is nothing left" which I think would be a way to remember the horrifying way he went out. I also think this would be a name used to talk about Feanor, since that's also how he died. Overall, I think since the Avari were so far removed from the Noldor and had less first hand experience with them, that their stories of what happened during the First Age would be a little mixed up and in their legends Feanor and Maedhros get shuffled around a lot like how Tolkien shuffled Maglor and Maedhros a lot in his drafts

For Caranthir I think his would be more straight forward. I just translated his "ruddy cheeks" or "red faced" whatever name, so it'll be something like Miskwanowe

For Maglor, I like how his names kinda relate to his voice. "Strong voiced" "commanding" or "Gold Cleaver" (which im gonna be honest im still lost on how exactly it related to his voice but the wiki and ppl ive seen talk about it seem to link it to the clarity of his voice??) which I'm just gonna RUN with lmao. So the particle im gonna be focusing around is "-owe" which means "s/he uses their voice" OR nagamo which mean "s/he sings." So options:

Apiitowe, which means "s/he has a voice of a certain intensity, has so loud a voice" which is like "This is a voice to listen too" which I think fits with the "commanding/strong voiced Finwe" name. Out of all the name choices, I think this is the only one that he would pick himself

Bwaanzhii-nagamo, which means "s/he sings war songs" which in my mind goes hand in hand with the fanon that Maglor is really good at being like a battle bard, where he uses his voice to fight. I can see the Avari naming him that, but I can't see that being a name that Maglor picks himself

Anzhike'amaazo, which means "s/he sings alone" or Maanowe to mean "s/he has a horse voice" which is what I think the Avari call him after the first age.

For Curufin, I'm blanking on what he would want to be called, mainly cause I haven't figured out Feanor yet and he would want a similar name, but I think the Avari would call him Mamaazhi'iwe after hearing about what happened with Finrod and Beren and Luthien. It means "S/he overpowers, prevails over, conquers people" which I think is a good way to remember his coup, one of the things hes remembered for mostly besides being a smith

Similarily, I think Celegorm would be called Nooji'iwe, which means "s/he seeks, goes after, hunts" but the focus of the word is "to pursue" and for me, Celegorm is very driven and hasty-- with anger, with actions, with violence, etc. Which makes it a good name for a hunter, also a way to inturpret this word too is that one does all these actions towards people, which again, fits the narritive if the Avari are hearing about what Celegorm did to Luthien and Doriath.

I'm also lost on what to call the Ambarussa. We don't really have a word for "fate" as thats not a concept we have culturally so "the fated one" cant translate, and I don't really wanna go with another red headed name. So at most maybe Zoongide'e for Amrod which means "s/he has a strong heart/ is brave" and Ishkwejiiyaagan for Amras which means "last born child" but tbh i thought their names were weak in canon anyways but whatever

I haven't thought about anyone else (classic Feanorian brain rot) but maybe for Fingon I like the Valour title he carries so for him I think he would pick:

Minwaadizi, which means "s/he is a good person/ leads a good life, has a good character, is honest" which just screams Finno to me.

Zhawenjige, which means "s/he is merciful, is kind-hearted, has pity" which to me goes along well with a lot of his actions in the tales he's in. Not to mention there is that post floating around with the passage where he dies and it said he holds no hatred in his heart for any besides Melkor which is just *heart eyes* by sweet little man, my baby little boy

I may add onto this later or not I dont know lol

#amber rambles #silmarillion #maedhros #maglor #caranthir #fingon #character analysis #meta #sons of feanor #lotr #curufin #celegorm #yeah this is all im gonna tag it as lmao

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leon accidentally set off a remote bomb too soon and got sent to super hell 😔 HAHHAAKHFKDG

i also like making them suffer for story and development purposes but my FAVORITE part is absolutely slapping colorful bandaids ontop of it after. give me that comfort with my hurt, the HEALING. its just so good to me, both just in general and story wise. something something healing, strength, life goes on. :3

also im completely agree, jill would not trust him even the tiniest bit. i love how complex her relationship is with everyone like its just so interesting to think of. like how relaxed di leon and jills acquaintanceship is, while on the other hand she has negative trust in re6 leon. good. :3 and god i just love claire period. i wish leon and claire friendship was more popular bc honestly i love it. (i havent seen ID yet but my point still stands, their friendship dynamic just has so much potential)

also YES i love talking about trust and deceit bc its all so like complicated and is a major gray area. YES, they would be fucking _angry_ and hurt and obviously feel so fucking betrayed. but after the shock and anger wears off. like. i can see them trying to understand it. like. yanno?? bro i cannot brain lmao. like yeah he kept it secret and that's pretty bad for multiple reasons for them, but considering what they've dealt with and seen with BOWs--and obviously the government learning about this, god forbid they get any ideas or put him through even more hell--it's understanding for him to be terrified to even mention it. and like, i can genuinely see di leon try to defuse it and be understanding, especially with his experience with buddy in damnation albeit not entirely the same. (chris too, if in this au he's gone through the piers situation. :( ) and depending on how LONG it is until its revealed, its fucking hard fully breaking bonds and trust that have developed over time. like they WANT to believe in him and that he honestly doesnt want to do or have any malicious intentions, not to mention for DI leon its literally. himself. and he knows himself, and that man has such a bleeding heart, that he knows how he is with internalizing things, and running away, and just dealing with trauma in awful ways. some awful shit just managed to happen to this version of himself :( and its just such a damn slippery situation. they gotta make sure that resi6 leon is like, safe both to others and himself, and have to work out just. all the fucked up shit that went on. i am full on the team of working shit out :3 itll take a fucking while to reestablish trust and better communication (re6 leon is absolutely god awful at both working through and communicating his issues but time and effort is good and i love that shit!!) but i like to think it all works out in the end. stuff thats worth it takes time and effort and all that fun shit. :3

(ive completely lost myself in the text wall i hope this makes sense)

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Ah! It makes sense to me. At least I think it does.

It would be a huge mixed bag of emotions and just overall issues between everyone. Nothing's going to be dandy in the beginning. RE6 gets fucking interrogated and slightly beat up (because him and DI do fight at the start and RE6 is HURT already from being practically exploded. Also he gets smooshed by DI, who probably weighs alot more than he does in terms of muscle.)

The type of BOW that RE6 Leon is not meant to be crazy powerful. Thanks to C-virus development and infusion, the Plagas the DSO designed are meant to be wholly symbiotic and free from restrictions their Spanish counterparts had. Basically Verdugo 2.0, but appearing entirely normal until the changes are required and able to return to form as needed which includes the tail being able to simply fall off and a short chrysalis state to undo anything else. It's still horribly painful. That'll be horrific if it gets out cause its literally a fast-lane to super soldier creation lol.

RE6 Leon is just a big cat. Thats it.

When it comes to the BOW shit getting out to the DI gang, RE6 harbors not an ill will bone in his body. What happened to him is not his fault. How he deals with it is because of what he's been conditioned for. He is what Leon would've turned out to have been if the DSO were more-- hands on with wanting to improve their assets. Human rights be damned. Leon isn't a human being to the government. Just some tool to be tossed around willy nilly at whatever they want and played with as some doll. DI knows this because he experiences this to a degree, though not being a labrat lol. The others don't know about how he's treated.

DI Leon having to look inward at himself in order to try and bridge gaps despite his differences (mostly in temperament/attitude) compared to RE6. Their experiences veer drastically enough. Chris as well as Claire needing to change approaches.

Jill and Claire are besties + Rebecca too!

I LOVE VERDUGOS!!!!!

I'm mad eepy so sorry for the short answer, but i hear you!!!!

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☀️ its fascinating that you say P3 has shaped your worldview because... Well not to trauma dump here but back then when I discovered the game (it was back then when p4 was already out) i was... In a REALLY bad place and wondering about unaliving myself. I wont go into much detail but kids are trash man and teens are even worse. and then this game came around. With an aesthetic I really liked. i am not a native english speaker so it was hard for me at first but somehow this game just... /spoke to me/. A game about life and death and what it means to be alive and what it means to have a REASON to live, somehow... Convinced me to go a bit longer. I mean it when I say this: Persona 3 saved my life. And no other game can ever come close to such an experience. (Even tho from a quality standpoint P5 certainly is up there)

oh dude that is so valid thank you for sharing this. seriously though, im happy that youre here! and im sure many others are too! the ☀️ brightening lives and all that :]

yea i can see why p3 just clicked with so many people since it first came out. i was always curious on why it's so beloved by fans, when p5 and even p4 are literally right there with their overall better gameplay experiences. p5 literally got the franchise mainstream to insane heights lol. im... so glad i got into persona the way i did. of course, everyone's experiences w these games are different and special to them in their own way.

i got into persona 3 as an adult and as a result the lens in which i viewed the story's themes were heightened, in a way. as a teen i just know i would have reacted more volatilely i struggle to think about it LOL but both experiences would still be pretty intense. it's just that, as an adult there's more room to digest it when im not troubled by algebra hw. i was just more equipped for it (also i played omori two summers ago LMAOO). ofc i only turned 20 a few weeks ago LOL but i get why p3 means so much to people.

because it's like... 2000s nostalgia coupled with a game that figuratively holds your hand through the uncertainty of death yknow? p3 is a friend, basically. its entire thesis is based upon companionship (exactly what i highlight in an analysis i have drafted somewhere but HHH i dont want this to get too long lmao)

in the shaping my worldviews thing... its really more like it cemented my 'philosophies' :] like i said, equipped with the stuff i learned before, p3 having the message that it did just... hit super close to home! like yeah! that's what i've been saying dude!! kindness really is enough!!

"You don't have to save the world to find meaning in life... Sometimes all you need is something simple, like someone to take care of."

LIKE YEA GIRL THATS EXACTLY IT!! its so cool! i actually admire people who grew up with p3 because man if i heard this line ages ago... well, again, idk if i would be able to grasp it fully at the time... but still! this is so good, poetry in motion. and like u said its aesthetics are gorgeous and aim to capture the essence of its themes - and it did.

im a p5 baby like bro i love p5. soft spot for it. thats the closest persona game i "grew up" with and it came at such an opportune time for me, being a teen stuck between a rock and a hard place. typical. and p5 validated my teenage angst bs so much. its so refreshing to see a game's theme being rebellion. that was me i thought. those characters are going through something that similarly happened to me. teenage rebellion is such a fun thing to explore!

so p5 validated my struggles while p3 did something deeper than that, somehow. i think it just made me .. stronger? like it made me move on from struggles. "by remembering death you learn how to live" so... i guess p3 taught me how to live as crazy as that sounds. but you get me

persona 5 overall is great -- everyone agrees, like its objectively just a better game. but persona 3 ends up more beloved because of its subjective value as a piece of art. there's a lot of heart and soul to put into it.

it's more simple when compared to p5 at first glance, but simple doesn't mean less. which is why more people experiencing it will be nice to see

#p5 is me going: im going to live and that is a threat #while p3 is: im going to live because that is what i want #persona 5 #persona 3 #persona 3 reload #aishi.txt #☀️ anon #ans #that being said p5 makes me glad to be alive too. it makes me more expressive? its a game all about not caring what other ppl think #and doing your own thing #and p5 really helped me in that LOL i do be dressing more boldly ever since p5 ngl #idk which game's more influential to me honestly like they did so much #to me as a person #normally thats embarrassing to admit but idc man these games have something in them #its the character-driven stories and them being written realistically thing i think #ALTHOUGH. i must stress that p5 characters have too many contradictions #wrote this instead of going to sleep like a normal person because uhm. ily

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whats the difference between bdsm and abuse to you? is the consent the difference cause Im confused about consenting to being harmed and how easily ive seen scenes go wrong (which leads to sexual assault) and the harm such violent sex can do when easily accessed as it is. Im just spiraling down a "why the fuck am i agreeing with radfems views on kink and bdsm in relation to women and trauma" Im into a lot of kink but a lot of it is also inherently creepy and makes a fetish out of trauma n race

Abuse occurs when BDSM is no longer in a fashion of sound and positive mind. For example I got into some really hard kinks lately. Kipnapping, knifeplay, bloodplay, drugging, restraints, general pain, sadism, you get the idea.

Overall in my experience it was largely healing, my intrusive thoughts have dwindled by a very noticeable amount. I have more confidence in myself and dont feel fragile or weak. I feel more proud to be who i am after having a knife drawn on me. So…why? Why didn’t all this shit turn abusive?

It comes down to why your doing it, can you trust your partner and yourself and is it loving/ positive. I have been in bad BDSM situations simple kinks like restraints have given me trauma before because my partner wasnt doing kink the same reason i was doing kink.

Both partners need to be playing in a positive space both looking out for each other. You should be able to 100% trust they will not have a change of heart during a scene and skip your boundaries, start legitimately hurting you, start neglecting you, or simply forget your needs. Those all lead to an abusive experience that still largely mimics BDSM to the inexperienced eye.

When a scene goes so right people wonder if it’s consensual that isn’t actual nonconsent. Thats really good acting and a strong relationship. There is always a safeword and non verbals to stop a scene. If its being done in a dungeon for example you may not know how many iterations and attempts it took for the scene goers to get things that perfect. (Hint probably years of alone practice and trust)

If a partner says a safeword and its ignored, if a partner can’t communicate and seems to be struggling, they look like they are no longer aware of anything really and cant make any choices. Its time to stop. Thats where things go from fun to abusive. If you can’t take anything away from your BDSM experience its best to not do those things.

You learn a lot about yourself when someones cutting you open. Not that I mind of course it was very fun. The entire time I gave enthusiastic consent. My dom is very good and i am very sensitive so he’d often stop to make sure I’m still good. He’d only continue when i gave that enthusiastic consent. The “yes lets keep going” not just a jumble of words like “sure i guess i dont know” if i gave something like the latter thatd be the end of the scene.

Cause scenes like that are an intense adrenaline high. If you cant think that clearly probably peaking anyways. Might as well call it and start aftercare to be safe. Doms after a point have to make choices for subs as well cause in very intense scenes you will loose your typical perception of whats ok due to adrenaline. So they have to look out for you.

Ok so subs get the euphoric learning experience got it and doms get to hurt people??? No. I have typically learned the most being the dom. I like my boyfriend it’s why were dating thats why if I am the one to be cutting into him my mind is split into two focuses. One mechanical, how am I holding the knife, how is my angle, pressure, where is it going and what vitals am i over? Do i need to adjust my pressure?

And two in equal parts, what does he like, when I do x how does he like it? Watching his reaction the entire time. To know when hes enjoying it, when its pushing him, when its to far. Ironically for me i have to look for a lack of response cause his nerves might as well be from a tank i think i could hit him with a bat hed be like “did you pat me on the back?” (Im exaggerating)

Anyways i know if he goes from fidgeting to absolutely nothing suddenly. Thats his brain switching from fun! To I am preparing to grin and bare it. So that’s when things stop cause it’s not constructive past that point. What happens if it does though?

For example when we did our first go around I bit him. Really really hard. He flipped from fun to grin and bare it. I had no idea. So i let go much later without realizing that wasn’t a super fun experience. After that scene he explained that response to me. I was able to point out when it happened and know when things go to far. To my knowledge it hasn’t happened again and I intend to keep it that way. It wasn’t traumatic, we talked about it we identified the problem and moved on. With lots of aftercare of course.

I have noticed in most of my life I always have had intrusive thoughts of stabbing, cutting, beating, just generally attacking people. When your cutting someone open in BDSM there is no room in my mind for those thoughts to run and I noticed these experiences overwrite them. Did you know? It’s actually very difficult to cut someone? Infact its extremely mundane and awkward. That killed most of my intrusive thoughts then and there. These actions do not inherently equate to power or blood lust, they are just actions. There is no magical high or redemption ark or some shit.

It is literally just standing holding a sharp object and making funny shapes. So. A lot of my power fantasies disappted pretty quickly. Cause its so mundane. It helps a lot in BDSM your doing these things out of love or trust for the other person. As a sub i learned im not fragile. My pain tolerance is (lol) but i am not. I was always afraid anything could break me and snap my back into stockholm syndrome or my abused mindset.

It isn’t true. It takes a lot to get there and roleplay definitely isnt gonna do it. Even actual abuse like being assaulted during hook ups (i got em dont worry, story for another day) still won’t make me snap back. It’s very empowering. When kink goes right it really goes right. I was suggested by my therapist to more or less slowly transition out of hard kink once I felt healed. I think thats a good idea. Cause you can’t dwell there forever.

For now though. It’s been a lovely experience.

#afterdark #erokin

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