#tell me im fuckin wrong

[kissesformilo]

i just know that milo & davids facial hair has hella blonde spots.

aaron too

*nsfw

#iykyk #tell me im fuckin wrong #ik bc im NOT #SO CANON IM TELLING U #redacted asmr #redactedverse #redacted headcanons #redacted audio #redacted david #redacted milo #redacted aaron #redacted sweetheart #redacted angel #redacted smartass #soupsjournal

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[tradingjack]

cringefail late valentine's day posting some rushed kiss studies bc I worked like 36 of the past 72 hours yippee

and I STILL can't draw kissimg this shit haaard how yall do it 😭😭

#and let me tell ya!! kids will not!! stop!! fuckin!! bein!! sick as FUUUCK!!!!! #like just BE HEALTHY for a LITTLE BIT you little shits (affectionate but exhausted) #posted this earlier after trying to type out tags for like 4 hours to get it out on time and. #it didnt matter i posted to the Wrong Fucking Blog anyway #ik it's practice. almost put a period after 'and i STILL cant draw' lmao but. that's not nice #tag time bc fuck it. if im gon post this shit #trigun #trimax flavored but who cares #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #vash x wolfwood #vashwood #drawing #artists on tumblr #my art #fanart #ooooh using my skills for crimge bc it makes me happy ooooooh #yes i was too lazy to shade the arm. i'll do it later im fuckin tired #wip #i'll also say hey it's already leagues better than the last time i tried lol. prolly cause i used a ref #kudos to you if you recognize which reference pics i used. eat a chocolate for me if you do lol

[thepunkmuppet]

RRRRAAAAAAHGHHHGHHHH GRIFTER’S BONE MENTIONED 🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️🗣️‼️🔥🔥🗣️🗣️‼️

#tmagp spoilers #tmagp vague #the magnus protocol spoilers #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tma #the magnus archives #grifter’s bone #TELL me that violin isn’t the alternate universe origins of grifters bone. TELL me that guy’s grandson isn’t gonna end up alfred grifter. #DO IT TELL ME IM FUCKIN WRONG

[kissmefriendly]

Listening to The Amelia Project in 2017: Oh haha what a fun take on an office comedy! A death faking business, this is hilarious!

Listening to the Amelia Project in 2023: Death is inescapable, we will always leave behind those we love and be left behind, we do the best with the time we have and it is never enough, our stories will always outlive us so long as there is someone to tell them after we cannot

#I’m fuckin #I just #and it was a GRADUAL transition! #it wasn’t a fun sitcom with a hard transition into heartbreaking drama it naturally evolved! #don’t get me wrong it’s still very funny!! #but in a very bittersweet way #I’ve been describing season 5 as the hospice season #I feel like a CNA at a hospice home care listening to one of my patients tell me all their stories #and it’s great because have you ever really sat down with someone who KNOWS they’re dying and they tell you their whole life? #from the most traumatic experiences imaginable to the happiest days of their lives?? #what the FUCK Amelia Project how did you get that so right?? #how did you capture that unique feeling that privileged moment of listening to someone’s story while they’re on their death bed? #IN ONE SHOW??? #im gonna cry #the amelia project

[jrueships]

ill be having such a good time then Boom, someone says something

#i love to drive... when i know where im going #im a great driver #but my navigation skills are so shit. theyre so shit #yall i cannot. for the life of me. read fuckin google maps well while driving #i cant judge the distance of a turn.. i think a right turn is a left bcs the screen didnt rotate yet and it's #and i cant remember road names bcs im a landmark man #it's so embarrassing. and all my good driving turns to shy shit bcs it's like. idk. i hate being weird. i hate feeling stupid #i hate being stupid #i hate being told im not stupid until i do smthing stupid again and they get annoyed and u can tell they took it back #bcs everyones right. everyones so right so im not mad at them. im not #im just mad at myself. like it's so fucked. i hate being fucked (literally) (asexual) #i hate getting marked for being wrong in math bcs i saw the + as a ÷ and i did the division right but no one cares abt that bcs it's weird #it's fucked it's so fucked im so fucked #it's so embarrassing. i hate being embarrassing #it's not quirky or cute or anything. setting the wrong alarm bcs i saw the 8 as a 6 is not funny. it's not when u keep doing it #and u keep doublechecking urself and get it wrong anyways #i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid #u think i dont want to just be normal and fun and carefree with things people find easy? you think i dont want an easy life? #u think i like making people's lives hard? you think i Like being a burden??? #i dont wanna be here .

[solarpunkani]

hot solarpunk take ive been thinking about off and on all day

i don't like joey santore/the crime pays botany doesn't guy.

i don't hate him. i just absolutely cannot sit through more than 5 minutes of his videos without getting fuckin dizzy.

also i know he's not the head of the 'if you don't know the latin names of everything in your garden if not your neighborhood if not your state then you're a hashtag fake native plant enthusiast' train but he's like lowkey the face of it for me so i get frustrated just hearing about the guy

#ani rambles #might delete later #like okay maybe mister santore is catching some fuckin strays out here but like #not all of us have the time or energy or fuckin brain capacity to memorize and perfectly ID every plant around us ever #and i frequently see posts that like lowkey shame people for not knowing latin names for things and like #its HARD. they have common names for a REASON #plant ID is HARD. not everyone has ultra megatron 5000 level pattern recognition like damn #i LOVE milkweed but if you held up a dogbane and a milkweed and told me to tell you which was which ill almost def get it wrong #if you hold up two MILKWEEDS and tell me to tell you which was which there's a 50 50 shot im gonna be wrong #like yeah sure encourage people to learn plant ID and latin names if they wanna but don't shame people like damn

[grvyrd-drms]

toby rogers............

#do not tell me im wrong #cause im not #creepypasta #toby rogers #ticci toby #:3 #the front bottoms #tfb #midwest emo #fuckin loser #Spotify

[nnugatoryextravagance]

attenjtion freaks

its me

#sludgetalkz #yeah its me sludge im back hey whats up #im still. not feeling great im gonna be honest with you #but my short time away gave me enough time to fuckin. re evaluate some personal shit so thats something i guess #sure i still have a ways to go and sure i was gone only like 3 days but i feel like i am regardless not the same man i was prior #all ill say is theres a lot of things wrong with me that i might never be able to share #but what matters is i finally got enough of a wake up call to actually start to work on it instead of letting it eat me up inside forever #i hope those little freaks who took over in my stead for a bit didnt bother anybody too badly #i dunno what else to say here so i guess just. take care of yourselves. tell some people that you love them. eat your favorite food #go outside for a bit and just take in the sights of life or something #just for the love of god dont be like me

[cantdanceflynn]

IK I HAVENT DRAWN IN FOREVER BTW IM WORKING ON CATCHING UP

#ITS JUST. BEEN SHIT TO GET MOTIVATED LATELY #ESPECIALLY WHEN IK NONE OF U CARE #LIKE WHY AM I BOTHERING POSTING THIS??? NO ONE GIVES A SHIT??? NO ONE LOOKS AT MY ART FOR MORE THAN A SECOND NO ONE CARES #WHEN THEY DO CARE ITS ONLY BC ITS A GIFT FOR THEM OR I SENT IT TO EM N THEY DONT WANNA BE RUDE #LIKE WHY FUCKIN BOTHER LATELY YA KNOW. LIFE IS JUST GETTING WORSE AND ANYTHING I COULD DO WITH THESE SKILLS I LOVE SO MUCH IS GOING #WELL UP IN FLAMES IF YOU DONT MIND THE WORDPLAY #N IK IT EATS YOU ALIVE TO CARE ABOUT WHO SEES YOUR WORK. IK ITS BAD N I SHOULDN'T DO IT. #BUT IF NOT EVEN ANY IF MY FRIENDS(BARRING MY BF XOXO LOVE U PYXE BUT LIKE I DO SEND U EVERYTHING STILL LOL) CAN EVEN BOTHER #JJST. EVEN LOOKING AT MY STUFF #WHATS THE POINT?? #THE ONLY ART OF MINE THATS GOTTEN THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF ATTENTION LATELY HAS BEEN THE ISAT AU N THATS BC THATS A COMMUNITY STARVING FOR STUF #LIKE HOW MANY NOTES MY WANDERSONG STUFF GOT DESPITE BEING SO BAD #BUT IVE IMPROVED SO MUCH AND POURED SM INTO A COMMUNITY THAT DOESNT FUCKING GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME????? #WHAT AM I DOING WRONG??!?!!?! SOMEONE TELL ME ID DO ANYTHING JUST TO KNOW WHY I CANT GET ANYONE EVEN THE PERSON WHO LOVES ME THE MOST #TO GIVE A SHIT JSUT ONCE #ill prolly delete this later. Im sry.

[inkskinned]

oh you know it's all latestage capitalism but the thing is. how are you supposed to be a person inside of this. a person trying to be a better version of yourself.

oh, you started working young, which was kind of hard, but it's just the way stuff works sometimes. and it was 2008 and your family couldn't afford heat. but it's fine, you grow a spine and get used to the professional world and besides it was the suburbs we're talking about here, like, your life could have been actually hard, so what if your father lost his job and you can't afford to move or turn the lights back on. and once you start making money, it's good. you keep doing that. because now they're relying on you. so you have to do that.

oh you were in thousands of dollars of debt at 17 years old so that you could go to school, because you have to go to school if you want to get a "real" job. you even did it "right", you worked parttime and attended community college before you transferred to a public school. you were under so many merit scholarships.

which is fine. you pick yourself up and you say like, okay. i graduated college. i'm holding down a job. i'm doing the Adult Thing, which looks and acts like this, according to all the books i've read. you start with the shitty job and then you climb that corporate ladder.

but the shitty job doesn't cover rent and you stretch yourself too-thin so you get sick. good luck with that. the shitty job no longer pays for your meals. everyone asks why you don't just move, but there's nowhere to move to. and with what money are you going to be moving? and then the loans come back, because they were never going to forgive them, because you were 17 and trying to do the right thing, which was stupid. people are now saying you shouldn't have even gone to school.

which is fine. but because you have no other option, so you do the shitty job, and you apply every day for like 5 new ones, and despite the fact everyone says "there's no one who wants to work!" it's actually just that nobody is fucking hiring so you can either work for 13 dollars an hour in the shitty place you know (where at least you have a passingly friendly relationship with the manager) or you can start from scratch again with a different 13 dollars an hour without knowing how much abuse from the new job you'll be taking.

and if you quit you lose your insurance. if you quit you lose your housing. if you quit, you'll be another burnout kid. the lazy ones. these assholes, look at them!

and you come home to a family dinner and you hear from your father the same old thing. how he worked hard at his job and yes it sucked for a while but he was able to provide for the family and then the house and the dog and the rest of barbie's dream vacation. how the insurance did cover some of it. how you just really need to start speaking up more in manager conversations so they know you're a go-getter. you want to tell him - did you know we're actually doing more now hourly than any previous generation? - but you can't remember where you heard that statistic, and you're far too tired for the fucking argument. and then he starts in on his usual bit. where's the house? where's your kids? where's your ambition.

the same job the same money the same hours doesn't do it anymore. the same nose-to-the-grindstone now just shreds your face off. there's no such thing as upwards mobility, not really. and as far as you're aware, the money certainly is not trickling. you do the soulless stupid shit you signed up for because you fucking have to or else you literally risk your life (food, the apartment, the insurance), but it's not getting you anything. you download the stupid "save more" app and you budget and you do every right thing and then the price of eggs is 7 dollars and you say - oh great! another thing i have to fucking worry about now!

and you go to your stupid job and everyone in your father's generation just tells you to be better about being an adult. they have their homes and their savings account and their bailout and they say. well have you tried not drinking starbucks. well your generation just spends too much on clothing. well you might just be too addicted to travelling. and you - because you need the job - you bite your tongue and don't say i am being held prisoner and you're suggesting i stop pacing my cell if i don't like the scenery and you don't say what the fuck do you think i've been doing with my money and you don't say i haven't spent a cent on something nice in literally forever much less coffee you arrogant asshole. you open and close your bank app and check your loans and check your credit score and check fucking zillow and ziprecruiter and apartments.com just one time more. and still they give you that demeaning little grin and say - see, what you need is -

what you need is for your meds to stop being so fucking expensive. what you need is for the housing bubble to explode into dust. what you need is for billionaires to choke on their wealth. what you need is actual help. what you will get is more economic advice from people who are older-and-wiser.

and above you, almost in a glimmer, you can see the wedged smile of your debt getting toothier, wider.

#i hate when people try to tell me i didn't do it right #what should i have done better #i did it ALL the right way #(not that there is a right way) #it's just that others feel comfortable believing that THEY did it the right way and that's how they made money #whereas i must have just committed a sin somewhere in there! i MUST be doing it wrong!!! #and i'm not a victim!!! im simply experiencing consequences! #and im like. where . where. wherewherewherewhere #i graduated top of my class. i was almost the student speaker. #i have always excelled at work and i work hard #i have been working since i was 13 #WHERE !!!!! IS MY FUCKING !!!! MONEY!!!!!! #ps please do not make the assumption i am ablebodied or neurotypical. #i am neither of these things. #it DOES get worse if u are either of those things. so fuckin much #but @ the one anon who was like ''u could be X that would be worse u don't know how lucky u are'' #.... don't i? #do i need to be luckier than someone else #or is it possible we are BOTH victims? #and that we need to work TOGETHER to resolve it #not just wave it off since it COULD be harder for someone else... it can be true we BOTH deserve better

[yaboisnelf]

sometimes some guy has to turn off his hearing aid and sit in an alley for a bit yk

monthly post <3

#ok. before i start tagging. i need u to know i hate jason todd w a passion #why. you might ask. why did you draw him and also why do you hate him? #first off. i put this off for a month and second my hatred was lulled because i sketched a very beautiful man and had to show it off #i know its not great but still. im telling a story. #i hate jason todd for a lot of reasons but the two big ones are his existence pre new 52 post res and being on my timeline 24/7 #i want him to go away. I WANT DICK GRAYSON AND CASS CAIN NOT JASON I DONT CARE ABOUT HIM DHCKDKRJFJD #anyways. that was my rant. i go more in-depth on my insta stories and i dont wanna repeat that in tags #jason todd #dc fanart #dc #digital art #red hood #im literally and actually his biggest hater. except for the fact that hes killed a nazi. thats fuckin sick as hell #love me a man who kills horrible people fr 💕💕 #ALSO. I KNOW HIS LIPS ARE WRONG. MY COLORS ARENT WORKING ON PROCREATE ANYMORE SO I CANT FUCKING FIX IT. IM SO UPSET. #jason todd fanart #procreate #im done now

[soldier-poet-king]

Why is the dentist SO EXPENSIVE and also NOT INCLUDED IN OHIP

#me @ the govt. give me fuckin dental care dammit #spent 150 for them to tell me theres nothing wrong come back in 3 weeks if it persists #to then be referred to a ROOT CANAL GUY #hello???? #HELLO???? #my teeth are sensitive but its a dull constant pain not THAT #I HAVE PERFECT TEETH #but its just. OUCH #i s2g if this is bc i ran out of old lady sensitive teeth toothpaste and used crest instead for a bit #AND ITS JUST MY OLD LADY ROOTS #i SWEAR IM GONNA FUCKIN SCREAM #franposting

[gibbearish]

i can't take any discourse post seriously if it says "x side is refusing to listen to survivors" because if you can't accept that survivors are not a monolith and may disagree with you in regards to your shared type of trauma then it really begs the question, are YOU actually listening to survivors? or are you only listening to the ones who say what you already thought and disregarding the rest as a) people who are incapable of understanding their own trauma and therefore can't be trusted to make decisions about it for themselves or b) outright fakers?

#i also go out of way to try and take all discourse posts with a heaping helping of salt but these ones specifically im like #conflicting access needs dude what hurts you might help another person so you need to step back and ask yourself if what they're doing #is overall harmful or just harmful to you specifically and act accordingly #theres nothing wrong with you being the problem here‚ its ok to be like 'i cant be around this' and dip #ik the word problem has negative connotation but idk ive always felt like my brain worked a little differently than other ppls w that #problem doesnt mean anything morally bad it just means somethings not working as intended and so #you need to problem solve to fix it #you have a problem that is you can't be around xyz thing while others can #and in your own spaces youre allowed to solve that problem by requesting others not bring it in with them if doable or to work together #to minimize its impact on you if you have to be around it #but in spaces where that thing is accepted and enjoyed and you are the outlier‚ theres nothinf shameful abt the solution to that problem #being removing yourself from that space #you were the problem‚ so you solved the problem. it doesnt have to be a bad thing yknow? #same with 'broken' ive had multiple people to me explain why i shouldnt use that word about myself but im like #no i understand abt forming neural pathways with negative words but its not negative to me genuinely !!! its just a descriptor!!!! #like. a part of my body is supposed to work/exist in a specific way‚ but it didnt. it was broken‚ it couldnt perform its intended function #it was broken‚ and we fixed it #you wouldnt tell me to call a broken bone a fuckin. 'area for improvement bone' it got broke! it dont work anymore!! #my brain doesnt produce the chemicals its supposed to‚ its BROKEN and im taking medicine to fix it #i think veronica got it but i only got to see her for a few months #anyways. that was kind of offtopic but i think still follows the central theme of just. understanding that sometimes people's brains #work different from yours and they process the world differently than you #i dont call other people broken because i know that would be mean given how their brains interpret the word but i do feel comfortable #using my own version of language to describe myself #autism dialect KENFKSBFKSBFMDB

[jrueships]

if gup gets shopped out im gonna be so pissed yall

#some internet ppl telling me abt this like naw. im not happy im fuckin mad #and as moots said the way it's getting talked abt is uncomfy #literally like just say u don't respect 1. homosexuality as a sexuality and 2. Boundaries and #3. Being on camera does not equal being entertainment. They didn't film that shit themselves #they were just being stupid kids n now #the whole world's treating them like the adults they are now. That's not fair fr #maybe im just protective but like #thats a whole ass friendship thats not gonna get all fucked up cus of some stupid camera during a stupid moment #and stupid viewers now watching and capable of being stupid #UGH #IT'S JUST SO STUPID #derealisming reality is a PLAGUE rn #it's just UGHHH #i dont wanna say more bcs i feel like id get called soft or whatever #it's just so dumb #im not 'happy' abt it bro and i shouldnt be wtf is wrong with u #be aware of other shit outside ur own lil fantasies or opinions ugh #i rlly rlly hope gup n green are ok rn #and now all the people that make fun of green for his nails feel like they have some fuckin highground IM SO SICK OF THIS SHIT MAN #ugh

[vamp-puppy]

#tell me im wrong and that this isnt fuckin heart wrenching #bellaxalice tho cos im gay #like id love for a sexy vampire who tells the future to dress me and buy me accessories damn