#thank you for staying alive

[neviayue]

five minutes a day | By Nevi Ayu E.

Inspired by a dialogue in My Liberation Notes (2022) written by Park Haeyoung.

하루의 5분 5분만 숨통틔우도 살만 하잖아 편의점에 갔을 때, 내가 문을 열어주면 고맙습니다 하는 학생때문에 7초 설래고 아침에 눈 떴을 때 아 오늘 토요일이지 10초 설래고 그렇게 하루 5분만 채워요 그게 내가 죽지 않고 사는법

5 minutes per day

Isn’t ‘being able to breathe freely just for 5 minutes’ enough to make life worth living

Getting a ‘thank you’ for opening the door at the convenience store for a kid: I’m happy for 7 seconds

Remembering that today is Saturday when I open my eyes in the morning: I’m happy for 10 seconds

Just like that, I fill the day with 5 minutes

And that is how I stay alive

#Illustration #illustrations #animated doodle #doodle gif #happiness #self care #my liberation diary #my Liberation Notes #thank you for staying alive #have a happy day #translations are how i interpret and personally feel about the original words #and wow this was harder than usual #translators you rock!

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[shadow0-1]

"I can't die here."

Commission by @wombywoo

#call of duty #modern warfare #call of duty modern warfare #MWII #CoD MWII #Shadow Company #CoD OC #OC: Jax #Jackie Ramirez #ueuueheheh #comm/gift art #thank you so much againnnn #tfw you get royally fucked up but you're under strict orders from your bf to stay alive #I'm insane I need to print it out and eat it

[lousydrawingsforgoodpeople]

v. proud of us

#we survived #doodles #bad art #lousy drawings #doodle #positivity #self love #healing #recovery #new year #ilysm #you guys are the best #thank you for helping me to stay alive #for one more year

[stvnszlr]

oh !! so me when i fucking fall to my knees and start sobbing hysterically !!!

#oh i am ill #he’s barely changed on the outside 🥺 #steven adler thank you for staying alive #gnr #guns n roses #steven adler #poppy #steven gnr

[coconut530]

❤️🥀A Strange Story of Life, Death, and Love🌹🖤

alt version here

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #6 #y’all can thank Miranda Mundt for this #First drawing meme I actually spent time on #Although it is inherently a sketch that got SOOOOO out of hand #I was bored and like “just try and draw Lenore” and then she came out -so- beautifully I had to go through with it #And Anna’s side profile didn’t turn out too bad! It could obvi be better but it could also be sooooooo much worse so I’m not complaining #I may do the other meme Miranda did of the billboard with my OCs sooo if you want stay tuned for that #Lenore’s dress was cool but smudging it to look right was not cool #My first time drawing alive Lenore and she’s so cute and adorable 🥺🥺🥺 #Hope y’all like :)

[goldkirk]

it is SUCH a good day to no longer be in a cult 😭🌈✨💖

#GOD I LOVE FREEDOM #look at my clothes!!!! look at my cubbies with rainbow paint and dnd stuff and forbidden books in them! #I fucking love life!!!!!! #even though it’s hard! even though I’ve still got a lot of legal and financial problems! #I am so fucking grateful I’m alive and I stayed alive long enough for this! #I’ve got trauma and body issues and financial hell and a genetic disorder and family problems but MY LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER ALREADY #thank you to everyone who helped catch me when I had to jump #you’re all responsible for changing and saving my life #I love you and I hope I can pay it forward someday #personal #Katie has a face #also stream shiny happy people if you can #cult survivor #ex cult #ex homeschool #ex Catholic #cult escapee

[batwynn]

Here’s to another one 🐦‍⬛

#happy new year #2024 #here’s to another year I didn’t expect to see #yet here I am #still alive #my queer cockroach ass self #lol anyway 2023 sucked #maybe your 2024 be better #in small and large ways #thank you for sticking around with me through it all #cockroach to cockroach #be well #stay strong

[forcedhesitation]

Man.

there's just something about the love between a woman whose impending death is inevitable and a man who's an immortal undead...

#bg3 spoilers #thoughts about media #starlach is so beautiful but so fucking tragic #apparently you cannot save karlach as astarion unless you've ascended #you cannot join her in avernus as a spawn :( #bro and it kills me karlach has been unwillingly celibate for 10 years #but that doesn't matter. she loves astarion SO MUCH she just wants to be with him. however she can. #AND THE FUCKING KISSES????? dude she is SOOO gentle with him!!!!!!!! #makes me think of this one short french film. which is obv a bit different from karlach and astarion's romance. #but it's still about valuing the love you have while it's there. because it can be lost so so easily. #basically a husband is cheating on his wife but then his wife falls terminally ill. and so he takes care of her. #and while taking care of her he realises just how much he loves her. he stops seeing the other woman. and stays with his wife to the end. #just the devotion he shows her in her remaining time alive and then the final shot where he's alone and just. dumbstruck with grief.... #I saw this film years ago and it still sits with me. it was so beautiful and tragic. very french! lmao. #just makes me think of starlach in a way though. like the beauty of that limited time karlach and astarion would have together. #and the fucking tragedy that would be karlach dying and astarion...immortal astarion.... being alone again. #ugh MAAAN!!!! starlach and wyllstarion and wyllach are all SUCH good pairs #they offer a veritable buffet of the most wonderful. tender. and tragic romance tropes T____T #I have to give credit where credit is due. thank you larian for two VERY fucking good m/f pairings. #so easy for writers to come up with piss poor m/f romances that have no chemistry but karlach works SOO well with either astarion or wyll. #i wish the fandom wasn't. well as fandoms normally are. you know. 😒 #literally any of these three pairs SHOULD be the most popular imo. #if you disagree- that's your own opinion. I am not here to fight with people. #also one last thing? the youtube poster's icon fucking KILLED me. please look at it.

[sanjiswetcigarettes0]

I can’t get enough of this shi and it is crazy.

This mfng song literally screams that “zoro vs mihawk” wasn’t just about Zoro failing on defeating Mihawk and in return gaining a huge cut on his chest that he’ll carry his whole life and luffy going crazy internally and worrying sick about his man; this song screams and bleeds pride and given promises, a meaning and an ending / beginning of a life. This song is the moment zoro decided to trust himself wholly for %100 for the first time and stood in front of Mihawk even tho he knew he could die while bleeding all his blood out. This was the very moment zoro felt for the first time/ finally realised that he was a half and the rest of him was a big missing, that he wasn’t enough no matter how hard he tries and needed that seventeen years old mf kid who’s been following him around like a lost puppy as his captain & a leader to follow, because his instincts already were screaming about this at the very beginning of their first time together. Luffy was the most powerful man he’s ever seen, he learned that for the first time at that moment. And he was right. This song is the end and a beginning of a life.

Opla songs should be talked about more often because these damn songs literally feels like what happens in whole One Piece.

Please read the tags !🏷️

#thanks for staying and reading all my rambling #i love opla songs so much #it feels like they’re alive and are telling us stories about what happened and is happening #one piece live action is one of the best artworks i ever watched #i can’t even explain how i can feel all the melodies and the damn back instruments / they all have a feeling!! #i live with music and opla soundtrack is one of the best things i listened before #this song is specifically so tense that you can feel and understand / see the meaning behind the whole song and the story it holds #i love music #one piece #one piece life action #one piece netflix #zolu #roronoa zoro #monkey d. luffy #opla #monkey d luffy #luffy #zoro #op #luzo #zoro x luffy

[oneeyedmagi]

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hey guys, I just wanted to say to thank you for all the likes and reblogs and tags! This means a whole lot to me so thank you everyone, I appreciate it loads! 💖💖💖

I'm actually not new on tumblr, but I don't use it much so I still don't really understand how to interact with it. I get nice comments in the tags and I want to reply to them, but have no clue how to 😭 I read all the tags and I love them dearly!! Your feedback encourages me, thank youuu---

Also Bartimaeus fandom, I LOVE YOU ALL! Sending hugs 🫶🫶🫶

#THANK YOU SO MUCH #man i'm a bit lost on how to interact w ppl here #is there a tumblr etiquette or something #my apologies if this is kind of weird #thank you again for all the kind reblogs and tags #Bartimaeus fandom just needs to stay alive #LET'S GO STROUDVERSE

[taavisplushies]

hi!! :D

i made enough money to afford my medicine this month!!! thank you!!!!!

yippee!!!

#idk what to tag this #but thank you #one more month that i can stay alive!

[theinfinitedivides]

Vishal-Shekhar really saw Sher Khul Gaye and decided 'yeah ykw it's time to go back to 2010s Hrithik Bollywood/Bang Bang (2014) tracks' and they were so right for that

#film: fighter (2024) #fighter #fighter 2024 #hrithik roshan #deepika padukone #anil kapoor #bollywood #local gay watches Bollywood.txt #MV dropped a little under an hour ago. you have two of the best dancers in the industry and you are f*cking UTILIZING THEM. thank God #did i mention the eerily Staying Alive adjacent guitar in the back. it's not a direct copy but the influence is there #i'm actually scared tho like how tf is Hrithik still moving like that at his age. sir can you get your foot off of us pls we need to live #edit: Anil coming in with the whiskey standing on top of the table made me yell they're insane #friends no he does not actually dance. he does maybe three steps and leaves the leg shaking to the hottest people in the room #ty YouTube for giving me the notif for this before i gave in and ran off to Death's Game bc yk we were about to be in SIG lockdown

[nmoroder]

You know i used to have these surges of art coming through my hands at night. They're back, these surges. And i love Klogg can you tell

1st pic almost quotes Bible cuz you know, TenNapel himself said the Neverhood story is biblical in nature so yeah it comes naturally

2nd is Hoborg's humanized design through years (he hasn't really changed between '21 and today)

3d pic says "there are things i will never forgive myself for" and it echoes the headcanon that Hoborg had great guilt for what Klogg had become bcuz of the crown and was actually terrified of seeing and touching him

4th pic is abt this story i composed a couple of years ago, in short it's the segment where Klaymen and Klogg had to fight Some Guys and Klay obtained a blaster a while ago. yeah and Klogg had a blast using a spear which promptly broke after a dozen of hits

6th pic references the latest askblog post (and psst is the short summary of where they're gonna be heading next)

#neverhood #humanization #moroderdraws #klogg #hoborg #klaymen #one of the things im really happy about is kloggs human design. i mean #back in 2012 when i created it he was already perfect #i only had to change a couple of things to suit my current style and thats it #truly means something haha #im glad he stayed with me thru these years. neverhood truly is the source of my autism power #not srs im not diagnosed with autism. its just that undying thing inside your soul that keeps supporting you #and it often happens that thinking and making art abt neverhood brings me out of a hole i myself dug and fell into #like it did now. i was in a major crisis for the last 3 months or so #and im coming back to art. back to frequent drawing because god knows i needed it #i feel alive. thank you fandoms for being there. #aight sorry for a vent dump im just being emotional over things ive loved for over a decade haha #hope yall feeling good atm!

[tricksterlatte]

It always makes me sad whenever stories with hopeful messages or lighthearted moments are sometimes dismissed as unintelligent or weaker than tragedies. Isn't joy and hope what makes a dark journey worthwhile? Not every story needs an unhappy ending to serve as a lesson.

I will forever be a fan of stories that say hey, maybe the world is a rough place, and it will always be this way, but you can make a difference with the people who matter to you. Even if no one else will know, even if no one else will remember, the ones you loved, and who loved you in return, will remember. People who are holding onto you, even at the end of everything else. People who remind you that new beginnings are born from the ashes.

My favorite stories will always end with love, hope, and the sun rising on the horizon after hell and high waters. The world can be so cruel, but we can choose not to be as individuals. Joy is as human as anger and sorrow. Joy is what we reach for when we are at our lowest, whether we realize it or not. We want what was lost back. I love stories where the characters reach the light at the end of the tunnel, emerge on the other side, and are allowed to heal. Even if they’ve done bad things, even if they aren’t perfect, isn’t that true of all of us?

#Parker says things #writing stuff #I’ve been going through some big changes this year and honestly every year up til this point #I’m tired. but I’m healing. I like writing about similar #I’m damaged. I’m flawed. I’m a little broken. but I can still be good #I can still seek light after everything that’s happened #this time last year I was writing out of desperation. putting something out there in case I didn’t make it #but I made it. I’m still here. even if I flubbed along the way #i spent a lot of time hating the person I was this time last year? now I just want to hug him #he’s gonna be okay. kinda funny the stuff I wrote to stay alive led me to someone who changed my life for the better #and I changed for the better too? special thanks to my clown frogs and my Kanonno squad #I don’t talk about stuff and idk if you guys are seeing this but just know you mean a lot to me #it’s late and I’m rambling but reading and writing about light in the darkness led me to my own light #so I’m going to keep at it #thank you especially to Nyx. don’t know where I’d be without you but I love you so much #tricksterlatte writes #this is sentimental but I don’t care #expanded version of a post from bird app

[ollie-ollie-oxenfreee]

Daffodil for Shadowheart?

Daffodil - a wrong-doing forgiven (I listened to "Growing Sideways" by Noah Kahan while writing this and I highly recommend it!) The healer's art does not come easily to servants of Shar. Calling upon the Lady of Loss to staunch a bleed or mend a break was painful - a cold, crawling sense of wrongness, spiderwebbing through the nerves like splinters of frost.

Even now, awash in the light of Selûne, it is not easy. But Shadowheart tries.

In the wounds of the city's refugees, she sees echoes of her own long-forgotten handiwork - bloodshot stripes from too-tight restraints, thin-as-a-thread incision marks, bruise-dark spell scars blooming like flowers across the patchwork of damaged skin.

It is not easy. It never will be. But in the rhythm of the work, the ebb and flow of her silver magic, she finds something like peace.

#bg3 #my writing #thank you so much for the prompt! <3 #it's been a while since i've written for shadowheart but i always like delving into her past as an agent of shar #and having to reckon with having done some truly awful things #and finding - not quite forgiveness. but a means of working through and past it #'in the end i know there are worse ways to stay alive' #'if my engine works perfect on empty i guess i'll drive'