vivien 13 and 21, vizeath 7 and 22!
HI FOX! you asked about the perfect duo of Fucked Up Little Guys <3
(send me asks and make my OCs suffer)
What's their relationship to their body? Self esteem? Self image?
Vivien is Not Doing Great with that and you know it :p
His self image is very fucked up, because a) dysphoria and b) the more physical changes HRT gives him, the more he thinks he looks like his brother, and that does appalling things to his sense of identity. I don’t think he really has a self image that’s him—except of course when he’s with Rainier, when he actually feels like a person outside of all of his issues.
Self esteem-wise, he might be confident (stupid) enough to stalk a guy online and break into his office, but in the real world? He can’t fucking talk to people. He doesn’t understand how, and so he just sees himself as completely inept. He doesn’t think he’s worth anything. Which is part of why it’s so easy for Rainier to get him to do whatever he wants. (don’t outsource your self worth to a self-absorbed egotist, kids)
What's their relationship to sex? Modesty?
Complicated. I’m still debating whether he’s had much sexual experience between [redacted] and getting with Rainier, but honestly I’m leaning towards ‘not much’ because he just has. So many issues with his body that it makes being sexual hard. This is compounded by the fact that he is relentlessly horny. Boy wants to fuck, unfortunately for boy, he can’t stand to look at himself naked let alone let other people see and touch him that way.
His modesty is entirely tied up in ‘i don’t want to remember i even have a body’. He doesn’t dare to expose himself because of how other people will see him.
What's their pain tolerance?
Vizaeth can take a frankly unnerving amount of pain. You can make him scream but he’s the type to grab your wrist and shove the knife deeper. Hurt makes him feel real and alive. Especially if it’s Pharaun dishing it out.
He’ll power through pain if he’s angry as well. He’s done it in a few fics (when Viconia broke his nose, and when people were clawing at him when he was trying to stop Merdax harassing Veryan, for two)—he knows and understands pain intimately.
Do they enjoy the taste of blood?
Entirely too much.
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john jackson miller how dare you disparage my boy.
two three whole mentions of sifo in this book! but the second one makes me want to lie down.
FIRST OF ALL:
why you talking like he's dead, mace. this is 33bby. he should still be alive. do you know how much this messes up the timeline? (specifically, my timeline, where valorum is just 'aw, fuck.' and calls in every favour he has with the jedi high council to get them to do things during the last week of his chancellorship, resulting in qui-gon & obi-wan to naboo without the senate knowing and sifo himself off to the pykes w/silman before the council calls him back. i'm going to have to do some major fanfic surgery here)
leland chee get back here i need to ask you pertinent questions and you deleted your twitter. don't make me muscle my way into your instagram dms (i won't because there are probably at least 3 people from wookieepedia on this).
anyway, the second part!
'he was exceptionally focused on the future of the order'
'he was always in a big damn hurry. like the republic would end if he didn't swell the ranks.'
... guess what.
'sometimes those he brought us were not even viable candidates.'
... sifo what did you see happening to those children. did you see sidious project harvester-ing them?
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julie about daniel: "my heart is racing, the world nearly stops, i lose control when i'm around you" "could there be a future for something between the two of us?" "our chemistry is explosive" "my body's going crazy, i don't know what's wrong with me" "i don't care about logic, i want the magic of love"
daniel about julie: "how it hurts to know that the end came so suddenly and i didn't have time to prove to you that i could be your greatest secret" "could it be that if i close my eyes, you will appear here?" "the closer i get, the less i can bear the fact that i can't touch you" "i want to see your smile and remember you here. you are the sun to me"
daniel and julie when félix and martim confront them about these lyrics: honestly, i don't remember; i was probably fucked up. yeah, i was crazy back then, uheaughhsh---
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*pulls out a crumpled up piece of paper*
My transfemme Fire Emblem Headcanons. Include:
> Rosado, transfemme non-binary, most likely to use neopronouns or multiple sets of pronouns (fae/faer, she/he, never let 'em know your next move)
> Forrest, has been on estrogen for years but still says "I'm a prince" if asked and insists on using he/him pronouns (may be closeted, may be in denial, may do so out of a sense of obligation, may be a case of pronouns being "indicative of but not exclusive to gender identity", may also just have an exceedingly complicated relationship with the gender)
> Loki, a shapeshifter, chooses to look Like That (and she's so based for it)
> Gullveig. Just. Everything Seidr/Heidr/Kvasir and Gullveig have going on. Is so transgender. To me
And on vibes alone
> Triandra
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