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9h4mn · 3 years

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you, who | sf9

➞ sf9 as the type of guys you had a crush on

➞ fluff, pinning, slight! angst, unrequited love

➞ in filipino, they call it kilig and its basically like that butterfly in your stomach exploded which leaves you a flustered mess. what are some of the nine different types of guys that causes you to feel that way?

warnings: insecurity, mentions of divorce, mentions of kidnap attempt, ghosting

inseong:

the senior type

this type of crush is older by a year or two and has this sort of vibe. in school, he has this dazzling smile, kind personality, and an easy to approach demeanor

also known as this genius gentleman

you can see that he isn't like your previous crushes who were rude to you

he drinks respect women juice on the daily

at one point, he will most likely be the one who helped you in a problem regarding school

again he is easy to approach and conversations can flow so easily between the two of you

on inseong's graduating year, you had gained enough courage to try and confess to him

the plan was simple: approach him when he's free, bring him somewhere private, then confess your feelings

its simple — you thought it was simple — but things aren't that easy

of course he would end up liking her, the perfect girl and your classmate

she was beautiful, smart, kind, and tall

you can't even hate her when you want to

but you hope, even just once, that someone out there would choose you over her — its unfortunate that this someone isn't inseong

youngbin:

the brother's best friend type

this type of crush is someone your family has known for some time. he has also most likely saw you in your awkward phrase

don't worry the both of you have seen each other's awkward phrases

your brother always has youngbin over and if not then its your brother who is at youngbin's

they were two peas in a pod never to be separated

however, if your brother teases you too much youngbin is there to the rescue

something about how your brother shouldn't stress our sister

thats right, he had already sisterzoned you but despite that you still like him

your friends helped you in getting over him and all he had to do was smile for that wall to crumble

you were hopelessly in love with a guy who will never see you as a woman

when a few years have passed and you're already living in your college's dorm, you had received an invitation

what was it you ask? youngbin's wedding invitation and you were invited

even until the very end, he had always seen you as his little sister

jaeyoon:

the boy next door type

this type of crush is your neighbor from a much better family. of course your family is nice but they were almost like the picture perfect family

you and jaeyoon happened to be of the same age so when your parents found out they urged you to befriend him

you were lucky that jaeyoon was as sweet as he appeared to be because if he was wicked in the inside you would't have able to survive

staying over at each other's house and watching movies became your thing until jaeyoon's perfect family cracked

his father got swamped in heavy workload and what did his mother do? she cheated on him and got pregnant

his parents' fights were really terrible while they were processing the divorce

at times he would even sleep over at your house with his sister following him

in his time of need, you never once abandoned him

it didn't came as much as a surprise when you and jaeyoon began to date

time may choose to be cruel but when you have each other, everything will be ok

dawon:

the class clown type

this type of crush brings life inside the classroom. everyone laughs at his jokes, even teachers, and he is safe from many things because they just like him like that

you are probably the class president and what does it mean when dawon is your classmate? headaches

seriously though you're the one who gets embarrassed for him

through the years you have been the class president, dawon was always your classmate

it was expected that you'd be annoyed of his antics with how long you've been dealing with him

your relationship changed when he crossed the line and made you cry

since that day you met a new side to the class clown, a boy with a broken past and high expectations — that was the true dawon

hurting you was never his intention. he had also thought that you found things annoying

as he spends more time with you, many classmates begin to notice how that strict and stern president softened

during school festival, you had held his hands and confessed, all while the fireworks began

who would have thought that the class president and class clown would be a good pair?

zuho:

the unattainable type

this type of crush is always taken by your sister or best friend. it doesn't matter which one of the two, he will always date someone close to your heart

you had met him as that person's crush and as a good friend/sister you tried to find out more about this guy

approaching him, sharing conversations, and finding out his interests were your priority

so when you fell for him and find yourself unable to sleep at night due to thinking of him? you knew you were doomed

everything began for her so why were your feelings acting up?

seeing the obvious sparks, you had continued with your original plans and even began to play the role of the matchmaker

you see both zuho's and your friend/sister's struggle with expressing their feelings for each other

they were shy and reluctant, without you it would have been hard for them to strike a conversation without getting flustered

eventually they began to date

and what does it leave you?

the one who gave up on love for the sake of her other loved ones

rowoon:

the popular type

this type of crush is always receiving confessions but for some reason is still single. he is the epitome of a perfect guy sculpted by the gods

there is a high chance that he even has a fanclub of some sort going on

rowoon is that popular

so you liked him because he is popular? no, there is more to rowoon then just that

he is caring, he likes to nag, sometimes he boasts himself too much for your liking, he is almost like a mother too

why do you know all that? you are rowoon's shield against his fangirls

and it all began simply because he noticed how indifferent you were to him

at one point he had even proposed a fake dating idea

seokwoo, you naive fool. thats how shojou love stories begin

of course you declined and he knew how to respect that

your relationship stayed that way until you began to get a fanclub yourself

rowoon only knew the extent of his feelings through jealousy

it had reached a point where he had accidentally blurted out his feelings

well remember that fake dating ploy? there was no need when both your hearts were already beating for each other

taeyang:

the closed off type

this type of crush is like a loner. he isn't necessarily avoiding people and he's more on the shy side. his height and gaze just makes him look intimidating

you sat behind him in class and though it seems stupid since he was tall and could cover your entire body — it was the exact reason you liked sitting behind him

you could draw during class and not get your sketchbook confiscated because of him

the day had come when you would absentmindedly draw taeyang

at first you could defend it as you appreciating pretty things but when you had stopped to draw in class just to stare at taeyang during class? uh-oh

it worsened when you saw taeyang dance for the first time

imagine his surprise when that smol girl who sits behind him began to talk to him nonstop and even does her best to include him

people had began to talk but you weren't the type to get bothered

instead it was taeyang who got worried and even told you to stop talking to him

what did you do? you straight out confessed to him

if he wasn't going to notice all the signs you've given then its time to just blurt it out

you succeeded in flustering him but not at making him believe in your words

maybe one of these days yoo taeyang will understand your feelings but for now you could just settle with this — the silent boy all flustered because of you

hwiyoung:

the "i always see him" type

this type of crush is someone who doesn't go in the same school as you but somehow the both of you always cross paths

and no neither hwiyoung or you are intentionally following each other

you first crossed paths with him at the playground and you two merely walked past each other

then many more circumstances began to present itself and now you and hwiyoung can't help but make faces at each other when you locked eyes

yes, while technically strangers you can act like that with him

the first moment the both of you truly talk to each other was when someone tried to kidnap you

you would have fought back but it was nearly impossible with how sudden you were grabbed

hwiyoung then arrived for your rescue. he simply kicked that kidnapper and you were free

that night while you two were waiting for the police, you shared jokes and laughter as if you both knew each other for a long time

there were more moments of you and hwiyoung but alas it was just memories of your youth

years and years have passed but you could never forget the boy who made your heart race back in high school

you don't know what happened to him

he just stopped appearing one day and since then you haven't saw him again

it was as if he never existed and he was just your dream

chani:

the childhood friend type

this type of crush is someone you had known since you were young and you even grew up alongside him

for sure both your families shipped you

yeah its kinda weird how adults are rooting for a relationship between their barely 5 years old children

both of you were like the butt of the cooties joke, i know immature children at it again

also can see you two having those cute matching clothes when you were much younger

now sometime before high school the both of you got in a huge argument and it ended in bad terms

people who knew you two were shocked on how you became enemies

heated glares and rude remarks were thrown to each other at every moment possible

you don't know how it got to this point. it was a stupid argument and the fact it was enough to end years of friendship? just how little does chani think of you?

but of course this anger slowly turns into pain

you just want your best friend back

and luckily for you, he thought the same

it was a slow process for the both of you to mend things to the way it was before

the argument, though stupid, really caused a heavy rift

when you and chani had gotten close again, it was the first time spring became clear to you

you like your best friend — that was even the reason you argued with him

however, despite being aware of your feelings, you never made a move

maybe if you were braver back then you could have known that he had also liked you

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adorpheus · 3 years

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on fujoshi and fetishization

Lately, more and more, both here on tumblr and on other sites, I keep seeing people spew unfiltered hatred at fujoshi - that is, women who like mlm content such as gay fanfic and fanart featuring men with other men. And I don’t mean like a specific type of fujoshi, like the ones who are genuinely being weird about it, but just like a general hatred for girls (but especially straight identifying girls) who express love for gay romance.

I hate to break this to you all, but women (including straight women!) actually are allowed to like mlm fanfiction and fanart, even enthusiastically so. A woman simply expressing her love of gay fanfic, even if it is in kind of a cringey way or a way that you personally don’t like, is NOT automatically fetishization.

I’ve been on the receiving end of fetishization for my entire life, from a very young age, as many black and brown folx have, so I consider myself pretty well acquainted with how it works. Fetishization isn’t just like, being really into drawings of boys kissing, or whatever the fuck y’all are trying to imply on this god forsaken site.

Fetishization is complicated imo, and can encompass a lot of things, such as (but not limited to):

1 - dehumanization, e.g. viewing a group of people as sexual objects who exist purely for entertainment purposes, rather than acknowledging them as actual people who deserve respect and rights

and

2 - projecting certain assumptions onto said people based on their race/sexuality/whatever is being fetishized. These assumptions are often, but not always, sexual in nature (like the idea that black people in general are more sexual than other races, etc etc etc).

I’m going to use myself as an example to illustrate my point. Please note this isn’t the best or most nuanced example, but it is the most simplistic. A white person finding me attractive and respectfully appreciating my black features as part of what makes me beautiful is not, on its own, fetishization. A white person finding me attractive solely or mostly because I’m a PoC is now in fetishization territory. Similarly, assuming I’m dominant because of my blackness (like saying “step on me mommy” and shit like that) is hella fetishistic.

That being said, theres definitely a difference between how fetishization works in real life with real people, and how it shows up in fandom.

Fetishization manifests in many different ways in fandom, but most commonly on the mlm side of things, I personally see it appear as conservative (or centrist) women who love the idea of two men together, but don’t actually like gay people, and don’t necessarily think LGBT+ people deserve rights (or “special treatment” as its sometimes dog whistled). These women view queer men as sexual objects for entertainment rather than an actual group of people who deserve to be protected from systemic oppression. I’ve noticed that they often don’t even think of the men they “ship” together as actually being gay, and may even express disgust at the idea of a character in an mlm ship being headcanon’d gay. In case its not obvious, this is pretty much exactly the same way a lot of cishet men fetishize lesbians (they see “lesbian” as a porn category, rather than like, what actual LGBT people think of when we read the word lesbian). There’s a pretty popular viral tweet thread going around where someone explains seeing this trend of conservative women who like mlm stuff, and I have also personally witnessed this phenomenon myself in more than one fandom.

The funny thing is, maybe its just me buuuut.... The place I see this particular kind of fetishization happen most is not in the anime/BL fandom, from which the term fujoshi originates - I actually see these type of women way way more in western fandom spaces like Supernatural, Harry Potter, and Hannibal. I can’t stress this enough, there’s a shocking amount of people who are like, straight up trump supporters in these fandoms. If you want to experience it, try joining a Hannigram or Destiel group on facebook and you will probably encounter one eventually especially if you happen to be living through a major historical event. Like these women probably wouldn’t even be considered “fujoshi”, because that term doesn’t really apply to them given they aren’t in the BL/anime fandom, yet they’re the ones I personally see actually doing the most harm.

Of course this isn’t the ONLY kind of fetishizing woman in the mlm/BL world, there are other ways fetishization shows up, but this is the most toxic kind that I see.

A girl just being really into BL or whatever may be “cringe” to you, or she may be expressing her love for BL in a “cringey” way, but a straight woman really enjoying BL is not, on its own, somehow inherently fetishization. Yes, sometimes teenage girls act kind of cringe about how much they like BL and that might be annoying to you, but its not necessarily ~problematic~.

That being said, IT NEEDS BE REMARKED that a lot of the “fujoshi” that you all hate so deeply, are actually closeted trans men or nonbinary people who haven’t yet come to terms with their gender identity, or are otherwise just NOT cishet. I know because I was one of these closeted people for years, and I honestly think tumblr and the cultural obsession around purity is one of the many reasons I was closeted so deeply for so long. STORYTIME LOL!!! In my early adolescence, I was a sort of proto “fujoshi”. I identified as a bi girl who was mostly attracted to men, or as most (biphobic) people called it, “practically straight”. I wrote and read “slash” fanfic and looked at as well as drew my own fanart. We didn’t use the term fujoshi back then, but that’s definitely how I could have been described. I was obsessed with yaoi, BL, whatever you want to call it, to a cringe-inducing degree. I really struggled to relate to most het romances, so when I first discovered yaoi fanfics (as we called them at the time), I fell in love and felt like I finally found the type of romance content that was made for me. I didn’t know exactly why, I just knew it hit different. LGBT+ fanart and fanfiction brought me an immense amount of joy, and I didn’t really think too hard about why.

At some point, in my early 20s, after reading lots of discourse™ here on tumblr and other places like twitter, I started to get the sinking feeling that my passion for gay fanfiction was ~problematic~. I had always felt a sense of guilt for being into mlm content, because literally anyone who found out I liked BL (especially the men I dated) shamed me for liking it all the fucking time (which btw is literally just homophobic, like can we talk about that?). In addition to THAT bullshit, now I’m seeing posts telling me that girls who like BL are cringey gross fetishists who inspire rage and should go die?

Let me tell you, I internalized the fuck out of messages like this. I desperately wanted to avoid being ~problematic~. At the time, I thought being problematic was like the worst thing you could be. I was terrified of being “cancelled”, before canceling was even really a thing. I thought to myself, “oh my god, I’m gross for liking this stuff? I should stop.” I beat myself up over this. I wanted so badly to be accepted, and to be deemed a Good Person by the internet and society at large.

I tried to shape up and become a good ally (lmfao). I stopped writing fanfic and deleted all the ones I was working on at the time. I made a concerted effort to assimilate into cishet culture, including trying to indulge myself more deeply in the few fandoms I could find that had het content I did enjoy (Buffy, True Blood, Pretty Little Liars, etc). I would occasionally look at BL/fanfic/etc in private, but then I would repress my interest in it and not look for a while. Instead I would look at women in straight relationships, and create extremely heterosexual Couple Goals pinterest boards, and try to figure out how I could become more like these women, so I, too, could be loved someday.

This cycle of repression lasted like eight years. Throughout it all, I was performing womanhood to the best of my ability and trying to become a woman that was worthy of being in a relationship. I went in and out of several “straight” relationships, wondering why they didn’t make me feel the way reading fanfic did. Most of all, I couldn’t figure out why straight intimacy didn’t work for me. I just didn’t enjoy it. I always preferred looking at or making gay fanfiction/fanart over actual intimacy with men in real life.

Eventually, I stumbled upon a trans coming out video that someone I was following posted online, my egg started to crack, and to make an extremely long story short, after like 3 years of introspection and many gender panic attacks that I still experience to this day, I realized that I’m uh... MAYBE... NOT CIS..!? :|

I truly believe if I had just been ALLOWED TO LIKE GAY STUFF WITHOUT BEING SHAMED FOR IT, I probably would have realized I was trans way way sooner. Because for me, indulging in my love of gay romance and writing gay fanfic wasn’t me being a weirdo fetishist, it was actually me exploring my own gender identity. It is what helped me come to terms with being a nonbinary trans boy.

Not everyone realizes they are trans at age 2 or whatever the fuck. Sometimes you have to go through a cringey fujoshi phase and multiple existential crises to realize how fucking gay you are AND THATS FINE.

And one more thing - can we just be real here?

A lot of anti-fujoshi sentiment is literally just misogyny. omg please realize this. Its “women aren’t allowed to enjoy things” but, like... with gay fanfics. Some of the anti-fujoshi posts I see come across my dash are clearly ppl projecting a caricature they invented in their head of a demonic fujoshi fetishist onto any woman who expresses what they consider to be a little too much enthusiasm for gay content and then using their perception of that individual as an excuse to justify their disdain for any women, especially straight women, ‘invading’ their ~oh so exclusive~ queer fandom spaces.

god get over yrselfs this is gatekeeping by another name

idk why i spent so long writing this no one is even going to read it, does anyone even still use this site

*EDIT: HOLY SHIT WHEN DOING RESEARCH FOR THIS POST I FOUND OUT THAT Y-GALLERY IS BACK OMG!!!

#rant #fujoshi #I SAID WHAT I SAID #personal #gender stuff

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selfshipeventhall · 4 years

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Selfship Con 2020: End!

Thank you all so, so much for making this thing come alive and thrive. It warmed my heart to see people come together and support one another. It reminded me of what I love so much about this community. Thank you.

I would personally like to thank @scroogesspouse @selfship-loving and @perseverancex-self-shipping for your help with this con. Without you it might not have worked out the way it did. I appreciate each and every single one of you for what you did.

And finally, lets close this year’s con with a Q&A from the wonderful @coulromantism or better known as Simon to many of you out there. Simon has been here since 2016 and that to me is really special. He’s seen this community grow and become what it is, so lets hear what he has to say as a longtime member!

Mod: So, how long have you seen selfshipping for?

Simon: well, i've been selfshipping for my whole life basically!! going as far back as i can remember, i've always had crushes on characters and imagined myself with them. i started selfshipping online when i was around 10, on deviantart, but i wasn't in the community until i found it on tumblr, in early 2017 :o)

Mod: THAT'S REALLY GREAT. I'm glad that you've felt comfortable with it and enjoy yourself.Who was your first F/O ?

Simon: tysm!! ^_^ tbh i can't really remember who my very first f/o was, since i began selfshipping so long ago.... one of the earliest that i can remember is ragetti, from pirates of the caribbean, when i was maybe 8 or so? my first public selfship (on deviantart!) was with slenderman, and then my first f/o when i joined the community on tumblr was freddy krueger!

Mod: Good choices over all!! So what was it like for you when you first started in the community? What made you wanna join and stay?

Simon: my first introduction to the community was a blog for general selfship positivity and community stuff called @selfshiplove if i remember correctly! i was so excited to find other people who selfshipped like me, and i'd send them tons of anon asks, until i eventually made my own blog and joined servers and stuff. i mean, prior to that, i was basically thinking about my f/os all the time, but i had no one to talk to about it. so of course when i found the community i had to join it haha. being able to finally share such a big part of yourself with other people, it's sort of a life-changing experience!! and i loved listening to other talk about their f/os and selfships, as well. i made friends, and of course that made me want to stay in the community even more ^^

Mod: Your experience sounds pretty positive!What do you suggest for people that are afraid to be open about self shipping or just about joining us in general??

Simon: i feel very happy and lucky to have found the community the way i did ^_^ i know thats a little cliché, but tbh, just try to enjoy yourself, and focus on nothing but that!! i see a lot of selfshippers (not just new selfshippers tbh!!) worry about so many things: that their content won't be good enough, that their f/os are weird, that their gush posts are unnecessary, that they'll be judged for their selfships or the way they selfship.... and those things hold them back. but know that none of them are worth worrying about!!! ik that ignoring such anxieties is easier said than done, but i reallly encourage you to actually put yourself out there; make those "unnecessary" gushing posts, talk about your unconventional f/os, post your content even if youre not 100% confident about it (ofc, you dont have to push urself too much!).... even if it's a slow process, little by little. you'll realise that judgement, disapproval for these things will never come to you. tldr, there are no rules to selfshipping, no "standards" you have to meet; you're always good enough, your content is always good enough; nothing about you, your faves, or your selfships is worth being ashamed about, ever. don't be scared to put urself out there: ik selfshipping is an incredibly personal experience, so you're likely to put up more barriers, bcus talking abt this stuff feeld vulnerable; but i promise that in this community, despite its faults, you will be met with overwhelming love and support. some less general advice for new selfshippers would be to find other selfshippers who have f/os from the same source as you, since it'll be easier for you to engage & interact w each other's content that way. you'll be able to find community within community, and hopefully that'll also help you feel better about selfshipping & becoming more open about it. i really hope that was helpful!!! :o)

Mod: I really like the way you put this. I think this is something a lot of people need to hear.In what ways has the community changed from back then?

Simon: well, i don't remember everything abt what the community used to be like, but i think it grew a LOT, in size, i mean. i feel like the selfship community on tumblr used to be pretty small, but now theres like, thousands of us!!! maybe thats anecdotal, but i feel like selfship content in general gets more attention/notes than it used to, and there are more "popular" blogs now. i also feel like theres more of a sense of community than there used to be; at least thats my impression. not that there wasnt one before!!! but now, we have so many more general blogs for prompts, quotes, promos, art.... we have events, takeovers (thx to people like u!!!).... we adress the issues within the community.... its really cool to see this community start thriving so much over the years!!! ^_^

Mod: How does selfshipping effect your life in general outside of Tumblr?

Simon: ofc np!!! ^_^ well, since selfshipping is smth that i think about a LOT, it has a big effect on my life, obvs!!! id say the biggest thing is trying to make my faves proud, impressed, that sort of stuff. i personally don't always have a lot of drive in life, if that makes sense? and its nice to have something that motivates me to work, improve myself, that sort of stuff, and it keeps me going during tough times as well. and in general it just makes me very happy n it completes me. so thats why selfshipping is very important to me :o)

Thank you so much to Simon for this interview about what he enjoys the most about the community and also to all of you for making it so great.

Stay tuned for the next event <3

#selfship con 2020 #this was so much fun #thank you all so much #q&a

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pinktatertots99 · 3 years

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🔥 Feelings on the canon ships of Homestuck?

Send Me a 🔥+ a Topic, and I’ll Tell You My Honest Opinion About It

god am i gonna need to go with the sequals too? just og or all ships that’re considered canon by the end? whatever i’ll just go in order in what might be the ‘canon’ ships from all three of these categories. this is gonna be fucking long so anything and everything is under the cut. also i’m SO not gonna add hiveswap that can be its own separate ask. so:

roxygen: it’s a cute ship...but the sequal vers is garbage considering how inconsiderate roxy is to john’s feelings and his house burning down like damn rox this is the guy who sat with ya as ya mourned doom rose’s death give the guy some fuckin time himself.

rosemary: also cute ship...sequal versions are fuckin godawful tho. their barely a thing in meat from wha i can gather and then there’s candy...oh CANDY kanaya deserves better fuck this sense of her sayin she’s over it idc if it was off screen, even then half the cast ate stupid pills during that time so WHY must i be surprised that this is wha happens?

dave/kat: i dun like it. in either universe. meat is just perfect gay bois who have occasional deep talks and literally do nothing else while candy they split up thanks to jade which, geez ya guys must’ve been shit to tell her to fuck off like come on. og hs wise i barely consider them canon if we only get pictures and them just being on equal footing on quadrant talk. not to mention dave implied to be crushing on jade and JOHN not karkat, idk where this couple even came from other then love triangle situation with terezi but like, that’s barely much of a reason to become canon. i’d go with em bein pale/moirails more.

jadedave: i’m guessing candy and meat i thought meat implied they were dating but may aswell. so....it sucks but thats because candy and meat suck, meat dave’s basically cheating on her i didnt hear any implication they broke up and she’s like...chill??? and then there’s candy where she literally forced him and kar to break up and dated after dirk apparently died, i do not like the implications of this whole thing. course candy dave is dead and a robot now so...anyways canon wise dave had a crush on her and if jade does like him i’d hope it’s not cause of davesprite cause despite both being dave’s they were different. it’s cute otherwise.

davepetajade: it’s...cute? i guess? idk i kinda found davepeta a bit...idk overwhelmingly overrated? like i know where their popularity came from but readin the series now after all that hype i dont really see it anyways tho it’s basically davespritejade with nepeta in the mix. and idk nothin implied much of nepeta liking jade, or talkin to her much. and davepetasprite is a mesh of both so idk. it’s a ship with cute fanon works of em hanging with outfits but that’s bout it.

janejake: i hate it. legit. this is disgusting and completely throws out jane’s character. like even in the fixed timeline the talk she had with dirk probably still happened on the god bed’s and how she acknowledged wha she thought was wrong on wantin jake’s kids and so on trickster still happened and how she also realized she might’ve overhyped jake. but lets throw it ALL out the window to force jake in an unhappy marriage in both universes and possibly force him to stay in candy due to having tavvy if i’m reading the implications right. even then jake isn’t good for jane either both got their own needs this ship would’ve been sunked in canon and WAS but the sequals are beyond it so maybe that explains it but it disgusts me.

roseterezi: guess in meat specifically. yeah i kinda dont...care for it, like i still cant tell if rose and kanaya broke up or if she just fucked off without breaking up either one is fucked up on kan’s behalf. even then i just dont care for their kismesis it got brought up once and that was it.

jaderose: candy wise i guess even tho it was a fling. it disgusts me still mostly because of kan’s behalf on bein fucked over and both goin through a ‘surrogation’ process without her notice. like fuck this shit the jaderose fans deserve better.

roxycallie: idk if this one’s canon but it’s heavily implied callie lives with roxy least in candy. it’s cute, cant deny it even in og it was pretty cute, dont really care for candy vers tho but then again maybe their not a couple in it idk what’s canon couples anymore.

johnterezi: literally fucked in meat universe and john has kismesis feelings for her in canon. it’s...interesting, idk tho i feel like it’s one sided on john’s side.

ms paint/spade slick: i cant deny it’s cute, he’d least know how to treat a lady but god i’d hope it wouldnt be his only defining trait with her. also want ms paint to call his bullshit out pls and thanks.

dirkjake: honestly i cant tell if their STILL canon in og or not god forbid the sequals. in general though...i dont. i honestly dont really like em together much. they seem like the type to least stay friends but idk bout another relationship would be a good idea for em. maybe later down the line but otherwise canon wise they need a break.

and now for the canon one timer ships this involves any ships implied, uncomfirmed, ex-relationships, crushes, etc:

arasol: it’s cute, best ship. their quadrant was never confirmed but regardless their cute. sol tho in the sequals deserved better then to get abandoned by aradia goddamn.

fefsol: also cute, i live for both of em bein ass’s together.

erisol: oh boi this one...this was...yeah i cant even deny they wouldnt be too healthy, i like lookin at fanon ways tho for em. canon wise tho yeaaaah no these guys definietly wouldnt work.

gamtav: it’s...cute but boi gamzee needs some help i think.

gamsol: -sollux did imply he either wanted a kismesis or matesprit with him in one of the flashes- again same as gamtav.

aradia/equius: BIG NOPE nope nope nope equi that’s weird wha ya did never do it again thank fuck aradia hasnt been around him since.

karterezi: their actually kinda cute, looking back on em they could’ve worked. stupid doomed timeline bullshit.

daverezi: also kinda cute, idk tho if i got flushed for em tho i get more pale vibes but it was semi-a thing.

kanvris: it’s baaaaad kanaya deserves much better and vriska never seemed much the type for cementing into a relationship.

vristav: even worse, like i’d like to thank fuck tav one up-ed her in the end cause fuck wha he had to go through.

karmeenah: it...could be cute? maybe? only iffy part is the ages, i thought the dancestors were like sixteen tho since the kids said they were teenagers even tho they were at the time about fourteen? idk tho if eighteen is considered an adult in alternia or not tho it’s kinda implied to be? anyways tho it’s just off puttin maybe a bit tho.

meenahvris: it’s kinda cute, it was atleast, idk lookin back it does feel more unhealthy.

rufidama: baaaaaad i love rufi but he’s got some bullshit he needs worked out and damara deserves someone better.

rufihorr: just as bad as above, both deserve someone better or atleast horrus does with some therapy on it rufioh i think should just chill on relationships but it’s so obvious their not meant to be.

mitula: it’s cuuuuuute i cant deny it, ...okay fanon vers is canon is barely anything and tula does give more pale implications for tuna but with how protective she was over damara near him it’s sweet, but god do i wish canon tuna gave more feelings for tula.

kantula: it’s...creepy. like it’s so obvious the vantas bois cant communicate well but kankri’s crush feels almost pressuring on tula when he kept goin about them and goin “oh but we’re totally friends and i’m celibate so it’s okay its whatevs” like kan go to a corner give tula some air to breath.

crotuna: BIG NOPE cronus needs to learn fuckin boundaries thirsty fish bastard.

should i even add cro//eri due to the fact he literally asked an eridan out? regardless gross, ew, no, i’ll take the fanon ampora brothers anyday canon i didnt fuckin need that thx.

porrnea: it was implied to be more of a fling. idk considerin aranea’s track record i cant really say i’d trust her in many flushed quads. and porrim seems the type to have hers open and not a closed off thing so idk they got different cases.

aranea/jake: i cant deny it’s fuckin cute, i’d would’ve loved if they tried to do somethin but aranea was definietly uhhh not a good choice for jake. least she backed off when he didnt wanna be kissed but man yeah, it was cute while it lasted.

kurmeu: i cant deny the idea kur forced himself quiet due to hurting meu hurts me in a sweet way but as of rn them bein ‘pale’ and him mind controllin her when we dunno if she’s alright with this or not is...disturbing.

vristerezi: i am HIGHLY doubtful this is canon considering everything but i guess i gotta cement this. i dont see em as canon in og or sequal wise since vris is still gone in both, even then i dont like, see it, i see it but idk man i like em more pale then pail.

erifef: honestly no. both are much too different for a relationship, kinda glad they uh...got cut short cause honestly even their moirailship wasnt healthy what’s to say a matespritship would? on BOTH sides mind you.

rosejohn: thank karkat’s shipping board. anyways, i think their cute cause fuck it rose is a bi-con to me, canon wise probably wouldnt work but i’ll take fanon.

vriseri: kinda glad they got cut short of their kismesis cause boi eridan deserves a better one with how shit vriska was in breaking up with him.

johnvris: it was cute, i cant deny i’m soft over how the two talked things about vriska’s life and john’s it’s just kinda cute. it’s obvious tho canon wise with wha john went through it wont work out. would’ve loved if they became moirails tho but o well canon is god i guess.

spadePM: i dont like much of their implications, would be an unhealthy relationship regardless considerin spade’s flushed and PM’s pitch, they deserve some therapy and other people.

dadbert/momlonde: their cute i like the implications of em, sad they died though, it was cute while it lasted.

meowrails: may aswell count moirails in this shipping mess. anyways their cute, they gimmie sibling vibes course equius early into it was so...not a good moirail.

kurtuna: i guess it might be cute moirails? idk tho with kurloz’s implications it concerns me.

gamkar: as moirails...karkat was fuckin shit at his job i cant sugarcoat it. i get where it’s from he’s not gam’s lusus and shouldn’t be forced to check on him during his time of gettin high and such, i get they were kids, but god gam kinda deserved a better moirail. and then later on in the series it gets more fucked up between kar gettin stabbed by him and both in a pretty unhealthy moirailationship to the fixed timeline where gamzee is just shut into a fridge and kar doesnt fuckin care, like dude, wow. gamzee was bad yeah but damn, harsh a tad.

terezigam: as a kismesis it’s almost disgustingly unhealthy to me and honestly terezi deserved better and gamzee maaaaybe shouldn’t get a kismesis, ever, unless he can sort his shit out -the sequals tho wont do that lol-

minorly gonna count johndave in this: idk if i can see john reciprocating for dave so dave’s crush on him almost kinda hurts, especially since fixed timeline dave’s john is well, dead and our john is probably still different from his john, has angst but man i kinda dont mind it as a one sides crush it’s nice confirmation of dave bein bi atleast.

nepetajasper/jasprose: i cant see it, it’s disturbing i guess. i like em more as friends but jasprose is probably more creepy bout it.

signless/diciple: i think considerin the implications they were fuckin adorable and deserved the best.

summoner/mindfang: it’s kinda sad considerin its implied mindfang’s love for him might’ve been one sided, they could’ve been cute tho.

orphanor/mindfang: probably sounded like the best kismesis’s until he murdered dolorosa.

dolorosa/mindfang: BIG NOPE i dun like the implications.

condence/orphaner: since it’s implied orphaner had a crush on her, gonna say tho big nope considerin condence is a bitch.

condence/lord english: its hard to decipher their relationship in canon, but to cover all my bases it’s big nope to me somethin bout it makes me uncomfy despite both bein bastards.

#home stuck #hs #the pink one speaks

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ziracona · 4 years

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re: the evan discussion and specifically how you mentioned how good and chill the fandom writes him; its so infuriating to watch people woobify the murderous capitalist and see the sympathetic (of course, as you said, POC and women) characters paid dust or straight up turned evil, and its so good to see someone finally speak on it. though, i do remember before the archives (like 2016-17 DBD), his backstory was retconned like 3 times. maybe thats the reason for the discrepancy in how hes seen?

Yeah, I really feel you anon. I’m glad you were able to find some commiseration with me. It’s like, I still would still hate it on principle, but it wouldn’t be so grating to me if just either like everyone got the same treatment, or it was less wide spread, but it is so tiring and not fun to see the rich white estate owner sadistic serial killer get woobified or a weird blanket pass very constantly while at the same time like, actually never did a thing wrong Lisa Sherwood is sitting covered in cobwebs in the corner full of pre-existing potential no one is making bank on.

According to a buddy of mine, it’s largely due to a fic that got popular that wrote him that way? But I know little of the old Trapper retcons so that could be a thing too. I’m like, a medium-old dbd fan, lol, I wasn’t here since the beginning, but I’ve been here a while now. Retcons and off the cuff comments made by disagreeing devs have def been behind wildly different takes before, although some heckn weird stuff like Entity Ace just seems to come out of the pitch black ether itself. (Also leave my boy Ace alone TuT he never did a thing wrong. Well. P much lol.) Sometimes huge things really can start with like, one joke a person tells, so who even knows with a lot of fan stuff.

There are a lot of things like this that do grate on me though. Like for real, I know I’ve said this before, but uh, not super chill that when the OG fandom decided to arbitrarily assign an OG killer to ship with an OG survivor, Claudette Morel got the deformed & feral one? (& Jake just got no one back then. Didn’t even get Sally, when she was added 4th. We can all do that character math ourselves pretty easy I think, and it’s. Yeah.) To this day, it’s still one of the biggest and only ships for her that get any attention, despite her being an OG and a wildly popular character. Nothing against Max, I like him and am very sympathetic to his backstory and actually would enjoy writing him more, but that’s still not super chill. (Also poor heckn Max. He gets so infantilized in portrayals often, as if his disabilities give him the mind of a child? which is still one of the biggest stereotypes for disabled people in media. : / ). And like, my good boy Joey has so much potential as a character, but appears in anything like maybe 1/20th as much as Frank (I like Frank, just where’s the justice in those #s?), and tho he’s chiller/nicer & like 2 or more years younger than Frank in canon, when he does get time, tends to get treated as more aggressive by far than his OG portrayal, while Frank often is jokey/light or woobified or twinkified. Joey also usually gets drawn super jacked and taller/bigger than his model, when he’s pretty close to the exact same size Frank is, and uh, neither of those trait interpretations alone but especially both together are not super chill.

Side note to end on bc this makes it sound like all I do is stare at the parts of this fandom that annoy me, I get fired up, but I wouldn’t be here if that was true. There’s so much amazing stuff here too. And like, man, I really love and appreciate it when I see artists and writers and fans portraying or even just having a great/passionate time talking about the characters, who aren’t like that. Which does happen. A lot. With maybe not as many people, but I’ve been lucky enough to find some super cool ones on here and in other places. It’s such a breath of fresh air and always makes me feel really good after. : ) (Also like shoutout to people who loved Julie pre-archives-spotlight? Bc she mostly was totally ignored, and I was always so happy when I saw somone who was like “This is not fair” and loved her so she wasn’t forgotten.) I’ve seen some really great work and follow some amazing dbd blogs I have and will keep on appreciating so much. If you’re reading this, whenever amount later doesn’t matter, and you make dbd stuff--not just like artistic content but including just gushy posts about characters you like and have fun going off about thoughts and feelings too--for one of the more forgotten female/disabled/poc list, I appreciate you. They deserve it. You’re doin’ the lord’s work. It’s a very happy thing to see. <3

#long post #ask #anonymous #also! this by no means means that every time I see someone who like--likes Evan as a chill dude do I go >:-[ 'YOU' or smth.#I am not a fan of seing shitty rich white serial killer boys getting loved and excused of all evil deeds but those not the same thing. & I'm #Not the HC police. It's just overwhelming bc it's unequal and so wide spread. but I got buddies I know like him and I know you are chill #people w fun opinons and aren't like--only liking the mean white capitalist killer man. it ain't like that. I know y'all cool. Just it's #that with /many/ ---very definitely not all! times I see this it goes hand in hand w the rest of it. but they aren't like. conjoined #correlation is not = causality and I am super aware. y'all I love.#is very infuriating that so many of the white serial killer men get woobified or hall passes for murder while the others gather dust or get #not chill interpretations. I am not delusional and blaming every person who likes one of the popular dudes for this tho #this is over explained now but I wanted to make sure I said it bc I get really fired up about stuff and don't want any of my friends or #something to think I like--think they suck for liking Mr. Macmillan. very much not the case #dead by daylight #a lot of people create their own version of a character for one reason or another that's p divorced from the OG concept too. which also #isn't the same as a blanket pass and such for a character (like a total au take and such vs apologisting)#all that said tho the nasty-ass rich white serial killer asshole apologisting & blatant racism I /do/ see makes me livid

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ive had my own idea for a sonic movie that would still be live action and a generic child-friendly action-comedy just like the “real” sonic movie is (presumably) gonna be

IN SHORT!

The main character that makes a duo with sonic for the majority of the movie is a young girl named June.

The overall plot is very similar to sonic x, but altered to fit the time span of the usual one and a half hours movie length in movies like that.

detailed description, explanation of the pictures and character info under the cut!

Through a mal-induced chaos control eggman and sonics friends get transported into the real world. this time space rift causes some really weird stuff to happen and June gets seperated from her dad, who was just on his way to bring her to school.

at first she thinks its cool to meet a talking blue hedgehog in a really pretty nature-y place and skip school to play with him, but soon they notice that they are not alone. Eggmans robots got transported to our world too! June gets captured because she is seen with sonic and therefore identified as a threat by eggmans robots! Sonic runs after her towards what seems to be eggmans base.

meanwhile the dad was transported to a really high place, whihc is bad cos he’s got fear of heights. Luckily tails and knuckles appear and offer to help him down

both teams start looking for eachother, but get interrupted by various obstacles. June and Sonic get hold off by eggmans schemes, while Dad and Sonics friends stumble upon amy, who just escaped a military research facility. she hoped that cream would be with the others, but it seemed that they had to go back and save her. the Dad used to be a hobby boxer, but since he’s a lawyer he doesn’t really do that much anymore. it surely helped him when taking out those government officials. its funny how a lawyer breaks the law, right? there’s many jokes on that and his character development goes from strict father figure that doesnt allow fun and insists on obeying the law to a wild and free man who does what’s right, even if he has to break rules. (also he screams “sorry” every time he KOs someone because hes that kinda guy)

June and sonic manage to infiltrate the egg carrier that was transported into our world and set it to crash and render all his stuff useless!

However, the ship is on course for the city which they didnt realize until it started losing height. eggman pretends that he can still stop this if the people are willing to make him their unquestionable ruler, but sonic and june are determined to stop the ship themselves. sonic keeps eggman busy while June is in the command center trying to find a way to make the ship change course and go crash in the ocean.

in the end everything is exploding and falling apart and eggman is fleeing, June managed to change the ships course and runs up to sonic telling him he needs to run, sonic says that she doesnt have to tell him twice and they go.

sonic gets blown to the side by an explosion and trips over debris, making his knee bleed a little (u cant see blood bc this is kid friendly hes just hurt like theres dirt or smth lol) and he tells june to run and not worry, but she comes back and lifts him on her back and is determined to run as fast as she can to get outside

when she reaches a door she screams because she’s scared. they are close to the ground, but not close enoguh to make it alive if she jumped... then sonic hugs her from behind and says “jump on my command” and shes like. no way. but he says “trust me we’re not gonna get hurt if we hit water” and shes like “but i cant swim that well” sonic chuckles “me neither” and then she gets the memo and is all determined and ready and they make it and its magical

they might also have a scene thats a nudge to 06 where sonic is very Positive and gives good life advice.

while everything seems like its perfect eggman is starting plan B of his conquer the others were all alarmed by the crashing egg carrier and therefore came speeding in the modified car tails rebuild for Dad (it can turn into a fucken plane. Dad and June are finally reunited and he thanks sonic for watching after her, and sonics like nah ur daughter totally watched after me shes a hero.

and then they work together to stop eggmans final boss robot and save the city.

at some point they all found chaos emeralds somewhere. and sonic can turn super to finish eggman off. yeah that sounds cool.

that also makes him and the others fade back into their own dimension, bc hes Got That Power

in the end its just him, June and Dad iin midst of a park in the city with debris and shit and June is like. sonic dont go we jsut became friends

and sonics like. treasure the memories you make and live life to the fullest bc u only got this one shot and u gotta make the best of it. n her dad is all agreeing and shakes his hand and is like. thanks sonic

and June hugs him and cries but smiles and sonic says nice smile bc im kinda getting emotional writing this all out and then he disappears in a flash of light and in that moment it cuts to the mom on the side of the park in her car with the window down going “what the-” and credits roll

thanks for reading

okay i know most of this was really silly and unfinished but granted i was making this all up as i went on and on about this and like. yea. i brainstormed this in like. 2 horus time completely from scratch, only using sonic X as basis for the plot and the humor of popular and successful action comedies as inspiration for the tone of the movie

as for the characters i just thoguht a carefree girl thats tired of being stuffed into a mold meeting sonic and learning that its okay to be herself and do what u think is right, learning that kindness really is the most powerful thing on earth and that friendships are precious??? hell fucking yeah!

also child character is more relateable than a fucking cop. kids will be able to relate to June, while adults (long time fans most of all) will be able to see their past self in her.

as for the dad, a lot of adults might see themselves in this dad role who just wants the best for his kid, while being stuck in a boring job that doesnt really fulfil them, but pays the bills and the lifestyle the family has.

I also really wanted characters that you have not seen before. Whenever i see a black dad he has a shaved head and thats kinda boring its just. basic. nothing agianst dads with shaved heads but why is Every Single(black) Dad Bald/Buzzcut? so i gave him dreads because why not? looks cool when he does action shit. whoosh whoosh

i knew i wanted a kid and i knew i wanted a girl. im really fond of puffy pigtails and i decided to go with a black girl just because! it was the very first thing that came to my mind when i was looking for an adventurous girl that wants to go on adventures with a blue talking hedgehog.

plus loving black dads that lov their girls rly rly need rep u_u

as for sonics design, i tried to compromise with the movie’s need for a more realistic sonic by making him overall fluffier to hint at texture, but keeping his core design and proportions.

the same goes for all the other characters.

I’m still very thinking emoji about eggman, I think it would be best to have him be either played by a fat person. Like Really Fat Person to resemble his original design (hes fat okay who cares abt slanky legs) or have him be CGI/partially CGI due to the fact that he’s from another dimension.

and uh. that’s all i have to say for now! it’s 1am and i should get to bed!

#sonic the hedgehog #sonic movie #my art #long post #shadows idea stash

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a list of my entirely way too niche headcanons ive actually implemented for everyones imagination:

name options ive used and refuse to retire: david elizabeth strider (sometimes i dont feel like being a douche to others and saying thats not his name), harley davidson strider, and david james strider for the sake of simplicity

im not gonna tell yall the like. oc exes ive given him bc thatll take eighteen years.

i dont rlly have an explanation on the ghost thing besides the fact he just can? ive occasionally pulled from family ghost stories and experiences bc i somehow got landed with family members who lived in a haunted house for a decade and enjoy scaring me with all the stories (including the time my cousin literally died on the kitchen floor from a bronchial spasm and one of the friends that was over asked my aunt later what was up with the old man she saw in the corner of the room that night - my cousin is fine btw shes just a huge bitch and a third grade teacher and i dont like her)

whether or not hes done drugs is based on absolutely nothing besides how im feeling in that moment. either hes the designated driver and sober friend forever or he got fired from his job after doing a line at work during graveyard with some random customers theres no inbetween (this absolutely happened @ waho. if dave works at waho hes a mess of a person and thats on the diner itself.)

ok look i hc dave w/schizophrenia besides when i was 14 i had a hyperfixation with learning about it and then at 16 was prescribed a medication and had side effects so wack my therapist genuinely thought 14 yr old me was onto something and its a weird way to cope with the idea that lady put in my head that i might “develop it in my twenties” which i turn 20 this year and i havent been able to stop obsessing and panicking over the prospect so PLEASE dont come in my inbox calling me ableist im not out here all harley quinn in suicide squad with the voices ok hes medicated, he goes to therapy, the hard fast delusion that lil cal was nearly sentient and informed bro of every single thing dave did no matter how asinine it was is no longer a debilitatingly affecting him ANYWAYS

i actually use the chicken/egg farming family pretty often just because its hilarious to me to give dave like. an actual mom and dad. hes literally an uncle to like three different kids he just never visits because they make fun of his skinny jeans and he hates one of his (incredibly bare-bones ocs all of them) brothers who threatened to bash his head in with a little league bat after dave broke his star wars lego set apart on accident (but not rlly) so their parents were like “why dont you stay with your brother in the big city for a lil while champ” and then they just never picked him back up? and thats on favoritism

the other one is that his name is actually david reed and hes the middle child of a family of three who literally live the standard golden retriever white middle class life only they went to disney land or something equally as dumb one year when dave was like 6 and he wandered off so bro literally just went “huh free game” because frankly he was an idiot who thought maybe i should take this kid home because its real dangerous in parking lots and then it was too late to NOT have it seem like a kidnapping and thats why daves never had a summer job, seen his birth certificate, or gone to school. but vaguely remembers what kindergarten was like and having a pet dog and calling someone mom as a kid.

im not making a bullet point about his sex life headcanons just use your imagination and acknowledge the fact bro essentially worked within the sex industry and i enjoy putting dave through trauma as a catharsis

i stopped doing this one usually but if he did go to school hes been in percussion since fifth grade and played the drums in his high schools jazz band as well as various edgy teenager garage bands he likes to pretend dont have a youtube presence and that hes absolutely never been shirtless in front of plenty of his classmates because he wore a hoodie to a show like an idiot. idk occasionally ill put him in an actual band he doesnt hate but keeps separate from his lil turntechGodhead internet persona (which i will ALSO touch upon in a sec) until they wind up getting looped into a tour with some bigger named band that has a show in *insert beta kid here*’s city and hes gotta come clean solely so he can visit his online friend. sorry derseasterous thats the one time weve ever run into each other and i made him have a crush on one of his bandmates i was in my anti-daverose phase where i made dave a hoe and also didnt want to admit i still loved the ship all these years later

i hate it so much but you know the whole vr loli trap voice shit that was popular a while ago? hes fucking baller at it for some reason. he did it as a joke while talking to bro and they both about shat their pants. if im feeling real ambitious, hes got a separate soundcloud solely dedicated to doing dumbass rap covers or making his own but in the voice under the pseudonym elizabeth “beth” davids that he will never admit is his. well, he will, but hes gonna be really fucking embarrassed about it. irony or not.

talking abt seperate soundclouds and stuff ive always had it where turntechGodhead was his like. essentially internet fucking persona facade shit he used because we all had that phase where we wanted memorable urls and stuff but also didnt want to totally ignore the nagging fear of people finding you in real life, until it turned into real life ppl finding you on the internet. so he also has basically an adjacent set of social media under the same name but its just a boring username i havent decided on so everyone he knows irl doesnt mix up with what hes made for himself as TG and the people he knows as TG dont know what highschool he goes to. (this occasionally comes with the territory of ppl on parp being pissed that daves “lying” or “hiding things” from his friends as if he was doing it out of spite instead of just keeping embarrassing tagged photos and videos from football games or when he ate shit at the skatepark from fucking with his “rap career”)

every once in a while i get on a kick where hes just german. like, i just replace houston texas with hamburg germany and have him apply to a university in whatever state is applicable for whoever im chatting with and it goes from there? sometimes he moved when he was little and went through the whole visa thing, sometimes he didnt go through the visa thing, sometimes hes a dual citizen because of family and shit, its all dependent on what suits the situation best.

one that ive been fucking with for a while but hardly break out (until recently with like 5 roses in the span of one day hell yeah) is that he has a neighbor at the end of the hall who is like a thousand year old witch lady that hes basically adopted as his mother figure in lieu of not having one and shes totally cool with it, especially bc when she kicks the bucket she fully plans on giving dave all her occult stuff so her figure-skating coach and realtor daughter doesnt sell it at a garage sale and lets it all go to waste. she also once brought rose up by name in a conversation without any prompting of her existence which dave didnt realize for days, and then one time cryptically stopped and stared at an empty space in the wall, went “she has potential, you know.” then looked at him sitting on her kitchen counter with a smile “lots of it” and hes thought about that weekly ever since. (it is important to note one of the occult items he leaves her is literally her own personal book of shadows shes been filling out for decades its like a 600 page leatherbound book dave has no idea what its used for but the sheer amount of homemade spells and etc in it is like. gonna murder rose the second this chick gets her hands on it i promise you.)

theres the standard strife shit? im not rlly gonna get into those theyre all basically cookie cutter bullshit. its just standard bro and dave abuse talk. i like to inclulde the whole 24hr live cam up in the apartment that definitely watches dave in every room besides his own and the bathroom, but that quickly delves into the prospect of middle-aged men stalking him online and basically sexually harassing him in his own god damn home by talking about how they can see him just trying to take his shoes off in the living room after getting home and frankly? its not one of my best takes! but once you throw it into the headcanon bin, its there forever.

he actually really does do something with his photography but not enough to warrant anything exciting, but he has his own branding for it and regularly takes pictures of his friends or anything else he thinks is moderately interesting enough to take pictures of, but those are just thrown into shoeboxes under his bed in favor of posting genuine shots because he wants to keep his image intact and blurry photos of jade smiling in the tree they climbed up together while bec paws at the base of it while whining isnt exactly something he wants the whole world to see.

i also pretty often but him into either paleontology OR i put him down as trying to become a mortician because he thinks handing roadkill once he graduated from museum giftshop specimens to doing his own taxidermy on the side has prepared him enough to perform an occasional autopsy and start embalming real human corpses. (sometimes i put my own desires in and make them his bc i have to project at some point and put him through the same EMT course i dropped out of bc it was one semester and he already has pretty decent first aid skills, but he definitely didnt expect it to be as fucking wild at times as it is, but whats he gonna do? get a job back at waffle house? the company hes working for just offered to pay like half his associates in paramedicine tuition and hes already got all his pre-recs done when he started for paleo. at least its a stable job and hes got the ability to be compassionate in the moment)

im running out of things that ive done to the poor kid. OH

hes not a virgin he had a girlfriend all four years of high school (shes also one of his optional and designated exes plz keep up) and their relationship ends in one of two ways: she dies in a car accident a week before their high school graduation, or she stops talking to him entirely a week after their high school graduation until a couple years later she gets into (guess what) a car accident with her current wife/girlfriend and dies which leaves behind their daughter. who just so happens to also be daves daughter. her name is hannah and i love her like my own but no one ever likes her and thats on the conditioning of dirk. does dave end up taking her in? yes. shes awesome and the first time he takes her to the park to like run off some fucking steam she disappears for two minutes and dave is moderately terrified until she comes back holding a dead baby squirrel and thats the moment he realizes huh maybe things really do be genetic.

ok at the bottom of the list im gonna add the couple of times hes been a camboy which usually coincides with the live apartment cam thing and the amount of people in his dms calling him hot or whatever, but typically its more of a started the day he turned 18 and basically dipped around 20 in favor of showing up randomly with no warning to complain about a video game dick in hand because it gives him an outlet that wont annoy his friends bc this is the fifteenth time hes had a lot to say this week about a certain boss battle and also the comments fuel his ego and daddy issues.

the last one wasnt the bottom but literally unless its explicitly proven otherwise every time anyone rps with me there is the underlying fact dave strider was a goalie on his high school lacrosse teams all four years and (shocker another one) definitely had the hots for one of his teammates like major hots like first gay experience hots. like it was painfully obvious that teammate also liked him back hots. like one night at a team sleepover one of the other guys was like can yall just makeout and get it over with were fucking tired and dave really had the balls to be offended and ask what the fuck they were talking about while literally sitting halfway in the mans lap bc for some reason they had to share the same chair.

he is also guilty until proven innocent of being the worlds biggest loner outside of that sports team and even though hes literally a jock he still opts to eat his lunch alone in the hallway or something like that and has a tendency to leave girls on read, but bc hes got an in with the rest of the jocks hes basically drug around to plenty of parties and since hes conventionally attractive enough and popular in the aloof way that he is, hes got plenty of tagged insta posts and twitter directs and snapchat streaks going.

THESE WERE ALL NO GAME AND DONT INVOLVE SHIPS BC I LIKE TO KEEP MY OPTIONS OPEN AND THEYRE LITERALLY ALL BASED OFF RPS IVE DONE I HOPE YALL JUDGE ME ACCORDINGLY

#theres probably so many more i mean #ive been on parp for at least 5-6 years now #ive been on cherubplay probably the same amount of time #and my memory is totally shot to fuck but these are just what i know ive done in the last YEAR #or thought were wild enough to remember #i put it under a read more bc frankly its really fucking long #and i dont want this to represent me entirely #these are also heavily situational based and not like. emotion or reaction based much?#some of them are #i guess i could rename this to like. things ive done on parp #but theyre technically still headcanons a lot of them can coincide with whatever #so theyre not very specific situations #anyways #this took me an hour

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gothvince · 5 years

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i wanted 2 redesign some of lydias classmates and i’m NOT tagging this bc they look awful and they’re super quick drawings but. just wanted to ramble abt my decisions for this and?? fuckin????? infodump baby thats what i do. i put the art under a cut bc 1. this post could get long and 2. ghhhh its bad

SO i’m british and my high school had pretty much the exact same uniform as the gals at miss shannons school. and like... i can VIVIDLY remember what people would consider cool back then. rolled up sleeves, jackets tied around your waist. top button always undone. for some reason we’d roll down our socks and that would be considered cool?? and also... really short and fat ties. so since claire is the popular mean girl trope, i wanted to make sure she wore her uniform in all the ways that seemed cool at that age. she’s also big on makeup and jewellery, both of which are banned, but Cool Kids Wore It Anyway.

i think i might change her earrings to be a lot smaller, but for the most part i really like her design!! her hair is similar enough to the old show that it’s recognisable but i wanted to change it up a little just to show that this is like, a reboot. claire in general is really... bossy and mean and confident in herself so she’s not exactly afraid of all these dress code violations. and her parents are probably rich doners to the school so she rarely gets in trouble for it.

also she’s... very insecure in herself! my hc for her is that her parents are really neglectful and not very present in her life - she has money and all her needs are provided for but there’s not that emotional attachment kids need from their parents. as a result she sort of latches onto things that other people consider cool so they’ll think she’s cool and admire here, yknow?? like a shallow substitute for the love she isn’t gettin from her parents. her family’s very... strict and hate anything they’d consider “other” so in an effort to live up to her parents expectations claire takes on the roll of bully 2 people considered “other” like lyds, bertha and prudence. also she’s gay and has a crush on lydia and picks on her a lot bc of that bc she doesn’t know how else 2 deal with her feelings.

i have a whole. goddamn redemption arc in my head for claire and i love her SO much. a lot of it involves learning from lydia and BJ that it’s okay to be weird and and it’s okay to be yourself and... she struggles with it but she does eventually learn how to be herself regardless of what her parents think. YES lyds/claire is endgame and YES i’m emotionally attached to that ship

also i have her listed as 17 here but i think im gonna lower it to 16 bc i want all the gals to be around the 15-16 age. it’s older than the 12-13 age range in the show but i feel like i can write better from tht age range cuz i BARELY remember what i was like at 12 but all that teenage angst stuff is fresh in my mind

MOVING ONTO BERTHA, she wants to be as popular as claire so she imitates a lot of stuff that kids consider “cool”. like. untucked shirt, small amounts of jewellery, make up. the difference between them is that bertha is more encouraged to be herself than to conform to any kind of... standard or whatever. so she’s a little weird and dorky, but in a super endearing way. her parents are from the relatively poorer part of town, her uniform is second-hand from her older sister, so it’s kind of loose and ill-fitting. all her make up is from the dollar store so it’s the really bad kind that exacerbates her acne and doesnt really cover it up.

bertha’s tall and skinny but in a more awkward way than anything, and she has braces and acne and she wouldn’t really be considered conventionally attractive in the way claire is, but she’s so unabashedly herself that her confidence shines through that and makes her generally super likeable. she’s on good terms with pretty much everyone outside of claire’s friend group! she’s been best friends with prudence since they were kids so the two are super close, and since prudence is a lot more reserved and shy, bertha’s taken it upon herself to stick up for her and make sure she’s okay.

and prudence!! i honestly didn’t change her design too much from the show but like... she’s tiny and VERY neat and tidy. not concerned with being cool or anything - she just likes to follow the dress code exactly. she’s quiet and shy and studious and spends a lot of her time w her nose in a book. her grades are amazing. she’s from a somewhat middle class family who want her to do well, her parents are a bit strict on homework and studying and that kind of thing which can sometimes get really stifling for her, but they mean well and only want her to succeed. she enjoys hanging around with bertha and lydia because it gives her the chance to let loose a little. being friends w/ the two of them has really helped her come out of her shell, and we see her become braver over the course of the series!!

bertha/prudence is CANON and i LOVE THEM and they’re so goddamn cute together. they go to every single school dance together and have study dates once a week where it’s just the 2 of them. bertha’s out to her parents and they’re very accepting so a lot of their study dates happen at bertha’s place. prudence isn’t out, but she’s not so far in the closet that she’ll pretend she’s straight. (her parents just think she and bertha are friends but when prom rolls around and they’ve coordinated their outfits and bertha comes to pick prudence up, it hits them that they’re dating and they’re supportive when they do find out)

GOD. CLAIRE AT PROM. she’s so goddamn gay she doesn’t end up getting a date to prom because she doesn’t like any of the guys in her town. lydia goes with betty as like, a friend thing, but there’s. a part of the night where claire is watching bertha and prudence dance and she looks to lydia and just... works up the courage 2 go and ask her to dance. and they DO and they share a really shy awkward kiss at the end of the dance. meanwhile betty is NOT happy about it

i have a full prom episode written in my head............. a full goddamn series in my head... i think a lot abt these characters all the time and i REALLY wanted to go more in depth with them! claire especially bc she’s SO one-dimensional in the show i just rlly wanna explore. her whole vibe. shes heavily inspired by pacifica frm gravity falls if u couldnt tell

#this is 11 paragraphs long #fake reboot tag

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verilyvoltron · 5 years

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So many fics are about Keith’s harem, but what about Lance’s harem?

I get it, everyone loves Keith. He’s the main character in a majority of the storylines. He’s broody, mysterious, pretty, etc. etc. But I wanna read about everyone falling in love with the heart of Voltron, Lance. People already ship him with everyone. I mean, he’s good looking, suave, personable, and 100% oblivious

Just imagine they’re back on earth and

He’s the only one Kinkade will really talk to. Of course they start off only talking about sniping and tech and stuff, but eventually they start getting closer and talking about their interests before the war.

Lance is now one of the few who are allowed to call Kinkade by his first name. He’ll actively look for and get right up next to Ryan at all times. One time they even got in trouble for laughing too much during a stealth mission.

Kinkade is 100% smitten

He thinks this boy is so smart and sweet and talented

It seems like lance is the only one who can get Ryan to let loose and open up.

Now I bet you that boy is smooth

He’s flirty

Knows the best place to get flowers in a post war wasteland

Of course lance is like “wow thanks for the friendship flowers! :)”

Of course this attracts the attention of one (1) James Griffin

Now, James knew Lance before the war. He’s the first to admit that while he never had a full fight with lance, he wasn’t exactly the nicest.

Wasn’t anything much but just sneers every time lance talked to him

In reality he was just trying the bully the gay feelings he had for post puberty peanut boy out

In other words, he was crushing hard on lance before the war and didn’t know how to get close to him

Now lance is back and looking even more like a Snack™

So he starts pulling all his moves now that he’s more Emotionally Mature

Starts inviting him to lunch all the time

Uses his sources to find out where lance hangs out so he can “coincidentally” bump into him

Invites him to the secret garrison parties

Let’s him tour the MFE planes etc etc.

Turns out Lance is even cuter in person and James is absolutely swooning

His roommate is tired of hearing about his crush

He tries to ask out Lance on a proper date one day and lance just Does Not get the message

And of course Keith happens to be nearby when he asks

Keith is a little,,, Emotionally Constipated™ when it comes to romantic feelings

His first love was a boy back at the garrison named Taylor but he never got the courage to talk to him

He wasn’t the best looking but he was cute and kind

When Shiro kept hearing about this “Taylor” kid he assumed that Keith had made a friend and suggested that Keith invites him over sometime

“I cant just do that Shiro!1!”

turns out they had only shared one class together and rarely spoke to each other

Once, Taylor complimented him and he was pretty sure that was when he peaked

But then Keith dropped out and assumed he would never see him again

Imagine his surprise when he realizes that the reason why he didn’t know Lance at first was because he thought Lance was named Taylor at the garrison (”They call me the Tailor because of how I thread the needle”)

Also because puberty hit “Taylor” like a truck and wow was he not expecting that

Slowly but surely over their adventure his massive crush is solidified

Now he didnt want to or even expect to fall in love with Lance again yet here they are

But when they get back to Earth he realizes that Lance is popular with some good looking guys, even one who decked him at some point

They seem to be hanging out a lot

Keith is immediately jealous and tries to keep his man, even if Lance isn’t quite his man

100% brings up their bonding moment all the time

Suddenly they’re all on their A game

Trying to one up each other

The McClain siblings have all chosen sides and try to help their selected fighter

They’re all jealous of each other even though sweet lance is just trying to make sure everyone is friends and good allies

But theyre trying to duke it out without lance noticing

Now I said Lance is oblivious but he aint dumb

He’s hella smart, specially with people. He just kinda assumes no one would like him in that way

But hes starting to notice something is fishy with everyone

“Why is Keith always glaring at James? I thought they were over that.”

“Huh Ryan has been more affectionate lately how sweet.”

“Every time I’m out with keith or ryan it seems like james just happens to be there... That’s weird, right?”

He sees the clues but not their value

Eventually they all just confess their love one after another and he gets it

But Lance has to choose. He may have 2 hands but that boy has one heart

(If you poly ship him thats cool too I just Live For Drama)

Now mama may have not raised a quitter but she did raise a fool

Specifically a fool who cannot make decisions

This boy is well and truly fucked.

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maternalcube · 5 years

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i did an art summary so now im doing a fic summary. i was tagged by @jamthedingus also!! ive never done one of these before!! lets go!!!

Rest (13106)

Keith & Lance's Island Adventure (20631)

Atlantis (10014 words)

The Way to a Man’s Heart (6858 words)

nobody's business (2096 words)

leave, and take (557 words)

dead girl walking (1661 words)

the course of fate (1039 words)

who ya gonna call (465 words)

come here often? (806 words)

til kingdom come (1950 words)

stars in the sky (pt 2) (5404 words)

a song of falling (630 words)

Eyes to the Sky (3683 words)

Feet on the Ground (4050 words)

Divergence (6669 words)

homecoming (1426 words)

Window of Opportunity (11144 words)

along that wilderness of glass (3801 words)

string theory (2327 words)

Katt Week (1062 words)

The Pining-Plant (3860 words)

at the end of many worlds (21684 words)

you're my home (19646 words)

Believe Me (3177 words)

Starchild (3568 words)

Summer Heat (2285 words)

third time's the charm (5349 words)

Blackbird (59546 words)

The Sixth Planet (9444 words)

all the infinite realities (1197 words)

Total Fics: 31! (plus one i posted anonymously lmao) Total Words: 229999! (except parts of string theory and the sixth planet were actually posted last year... but still, what a number)

more under the cut!

Ship/character breakdown: i didnt filter out my prompt collection or abandoned wips here so /shrug Ship breakdown:

klance - 6 sheith - 5 shance - 5 katt - 4 heith - 3 pallura - 2 and one each of plance, kallura, allurance, shatt, shkatt, kidge, kidgance, and shunk. and keiths parents lol. let it never be said i am not a multishipper.

and i know gen isnt a ship but it tied with klance at 6 (plus whatevers in the prompt collection) which was a surprise

Character breakdown: man if theres a way to get ao3 to show me ALL the stats, i dont know it. but.

keith - 25 (shocker) shiro - 23 lance - 21 pidge - 17 hunk - 16 allura - 12 matt - 12 and then coran and sam are at 4, and zarkon ats 3 and presumably many others are at 3 or less

Characters that had the main focus: well ~9 were from keiths pov, and ~5 each from shiro and lances povs. i think i also had ~5 from multiple points of view. its safe to say that keith has my heart tho lol

Specifics:

Best/worst title? Best title: i still like “at the end of many worlds.” i weirdly still like “Blackbird” too even if it has nothing to do with anything... Worst title: “Rest.” :/ also like all of the abandoned wips bc i didnt care. and “Keith & Lance's Island Adventure.″ some of my zine fic titles were also... bad. im bad at titles.

Best/worst first line?

Best: Keith & Lance's Island Adventure. ok the title is bad but this line? this really sets the tone for whole fic. you know what youre getting yourself into here.

When Pidge invited Keith to a fully-funded graduation party aboard the Holt family boat (“the smaller one, anyway,” she’d said), this is not exactly what he'd pictured: three of them standing on a wobbly dock, packed bags at their feet, sky cloudy and gray, while the Holt siblings stand on a little ledge off the back of the boat and deny entry.

Worst: ive got two for this lol

at the end of many worlds: even i have to read this a couple times to figure out what i was trying to say. at least you know youre in for pain...

Keith’s mother shows up to interrupt movie night often enough that, this time, Keith almost doesn’t realize anything’s wrong. Almost, because she’s silhouetted by the movie, but she’s clutching her arm and panting for breath, and in the thin edge of light around her he sees a wet and vibrant red.

Divergence: because all your friends being dead is EXACTLY like losing at dodgeball. yeah, theres a reason i abandoned this one.

Hunk always hated playing dodgeball. Not because he was bad at it--though he was--but because he always ended up the last one standing, and therefore the only target for the entire other team. It was due to a tendency to hang unnoticed in the back, he knew, but that didn't change the sickening, empty feeling of looking around and realizing there's no one left but him, and there's no way he can win. Only wait for the inevitable.

This, Hunk decides, is a lot like that, only, like, a billion times worse.

Best/worst last line?

Best: The Pining-Plant. there are a few others that were cute too but this one is also good out of context so

And then the pod swishes open and he's scrambling to catch Pidge as she stumbles out. She clings to his arms to steady herself and his heart swells.

"Falling for me again, huh?" he asks, and she groans loudly.

"Let me go, I'm getting back in the pod," she says, and he laughs. He doesn't let go, and neither does she.

Worst: if im bad at titles, im worse at endings. most are bad. i suspect the ending to “Rest” is terrible but i cant bring myself to even open that shit again so: Believe Me. if weather were a recurring theme in this fic, itd be fine, but as is its just... a weird note to end the fic on lmao

Hunk rocks back on his heels. "We aren't counting this as our official first date, right?"

"I dunno," Keith says, and now he smiles at the rain instead of frowning. It shows no sign of easing up, but whatever—they're soaked anyway. "This seems pretty good to me."

“...All right.” If nothing else, it’ll make a good story. And, Hunk had to admit—he’s pretty happy with how it’s turned out, rain and all.

But next time, he's double-checking the forecast, just in case.

General questions:

Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, less than you thought, or about what you predicted?

more than i expected! considering ive been in grad school all year!! i wrote about the same amount wordcount-wise in 2017 which i spent only half in school so. idk how i managed it.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted last year?

the anonymous fic was a surprise but im not gonna talk about that lol. otherwise... nah, its all been my usual stuff.

What’s your favorite story this year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you the happiest.

blackbird, probably. i like working on that one. summer heat was also fun, id sort of forgotten about it bc it was a zine fic but coming back to it, i really liked it. likewise with third time’s the charm. and i like t6p a lot even if i kinda hate drawing for it :’)

Okay, NOW your most popular story.

depends on your metric. window of opportunity has the most kudos, keith and lance’s island adventure has the most hits, and t6p has the most comments and subscriptions.

Story most underappreciated by the universe?

AT THE END OF MANY WORLDS. oh man i killed myself over that fic. it was important to me. but i think the mcd scared everyone off :’)

Story that could have been better?

i realize “all of them” is kind of a cop out answer but like

Sexiest story?

i have written nothing sexy, ever, in my whole life

Saddest story?

i mean, ateomw. considering all the death. blackbird def has its moments too.

Most fun?

i feel like i answered this in the favorite story q lmao. you’re my home also gets a shoutout, that thing was,, super self-indulgent lmao. and id be lying if i said i didnt have fun with parts of ateomw, even if its mostly sad.

Story with single sweetest moment?

man i write a lot of fluff but so much of you’re my home is just tooth-rotting. heres part of the proposal scene lmao

"Lance!" Keith yelps, barely rescuing the ring from falling into the sand with them. Lance pushes himself up on his arms, silhouetted by the sun and glowing with it.

"Really?" he asks breathlessly.

"Yeah," Keith says, and maybe he should've prepared something to say, that's a thing people do, right? Hell, he's winging it. "I know we can't stay here on Earth forever, 'cause we're paladins, and there's still stuff out there we gotta do. And I know you probably want to stay because this is your home—but you're my home, and if we gotta go, at least you'll have me, good or bad." He grins crookedly. "Or rocket science. Whatever happens, I'll be there."

Hardest story to write?

well t6p gets a shoutout, but its not the writing thats the hard part for that. uhhh ive struggled with parts of blackbird. i remember k&l’s island adventure giving me a LOT of trouble, i think i posted late lol

Easiest/most fun story to write?

anything short uhhh for all the infinite realities, i kind of just sat down the other day (actually i was in bed but) and was like “im gonna write this” and then in the morning i just sat down and wrote it in one go. i dunno if id call it fun, but it was easy. t6p is super fun to write but, as mentioned, drawing it sucks.

Did any stories shift your perceptions of the characters?

no... my perceptions probably have shifted but not due to anything i wrote in particular. i did talk myself into liking allurance with a prompt fill, though, but im not sure that was 2018...

Most overdue story?

all the infinite realities lmao. at the end of many worlds needed that happy ending. and another shoutout to t6p, because thats been going on over a year and im still nowhere.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

does posting my abandoned wips count? ive still got some of those hanging around... blackbird was a bit of a risk bc my last longfic was written while i was unemployed and out of school, so like i had the time for it, and now i kinda dont. still chugging tho. ateomw b/c of all the death but it turns out i really like writing whump woops. and writing any sort of kissing always feels like a risk bc i suck at it but im getting better lol... i hope...

What are your fic writing goals for next year?

write more! finish things! do more sheith! i really want to work on this sheith longfic i came up with the other day... but i want to get blackbird over with first.

Tagging: eh! do it if you want to!

#i need a fic tag #HOO BOY

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anti-mistajules · 5 years

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For the aromantic asks, would you pick which ones you want, or if you could do all of them? I’ve never heard about it before but I’m really curious and would like to know more from your point of view

Well bc you’ve never heard of it before here’s a little definition I got from here (if u wanna read more about it):

An aromantic is a person who experiences little or no romantic attraction to others. Where romantic people have an emotional need to be with another person in a romantic relationship, aromantics are often satisfied with friendships and other non-romantic relationships.

What arospec label(s) do you identify with?

I’m just plain ol Aromantic

Sexual orientation?

Bisexual

Are you romance-repulsed?

To a degree? I don’t usually mind seeing romance in media, I just get a little uncomfortable with seeing PDA and when people view me in a romantic way I feel like physically sick.

Do you relate to voidpunk?

Do I relate to what now?

What kinds of attraction (romantic, sexual, aesthetic, sensual, platonic, etc) do you experience?

Sexual, aesthetic, and platonic definitely! Im not too big on sensual attraction and I don’t feel romantic attraction at all.

How do you like to show people you (platonically) love them?

I’m a huge ‘acts of service’ and ‘gift’ person! I do whatever I can to make things easier for my friends and try to give them gifts they love and deserve! I also like to spend time with them when I can and talk about whatever! Basically if I can talk to you on the phone or in person past 12am, I love you friend!!

Do you want to remain single all your life or do you want to have some sort of life partner?

I wanna remain single, I really need my alone time I couldn’t imagine living with someone for an extended period of time.

If you want one, what is your dream partner?

no!

Which is your favorite of the 3 aromantic flags?

Uhhh fuck im not too flag savvy??? I like this one:

Your opinion on soulmates?

allonormative as fuck and perpetuates the idea that you need another person in your life to ‘complete’ you which is complete garbage!

Your opinion on shipping?

Shipping is fun but I don’t get too into it.

Do you ship characters in romantic/sexual relationships, or do you only ship characters in familial and platonic relationships?

Honestly all of the above but mostly platonic and sexual.

Are you out to anyone in real life?

My close friends and my immediate family. Or at least I tried to come out to them but they were just like “you won’t get married?? Ya right lol ur stupid” and I didn’t use the word ‘aromantic’ so I guess technically im not out to them?? Its not something I hide, but when explaining it to others I don’t use the word bc I don’t wanna explain or want people to think im one of those “tumblrinas’ who ‘make up orientations’ bc there’s a lot of negativity to unpack there so I just don’t bother

How did you come out?

Once I found out what aromanticism was I immediately related to it so I told my best friend first and we had a conversation about it and then Id just be like “hey I don’t get why people date people…I don’t wanna do that” to everyone else.

Do you know any aromantic people in real life?

Nope! I would love to meet some!!

How do you feel about your aromanticism?

Honestly its so freeing…I feel very validated knowing there’s a whole community of people who feel the same way I do about romance. Im pretty proud to be aro with my friends and online but irl to my family and acquaintances Im not as open with it.

What is the worst part of being aromantic?

The lack of representation and the constant erasure. I highkey hate being grouped with asexuals so much bc not every person who is aro is ace and vice versa! They’re separate orientations but they are NEVER treated like it and its so annoying. (THIS IS NOT ACE HATE!! I SUPPORT ACES WITH ALL MY ARO HEART!!! LOVE YALL!!)

Also the constant fear that you cant be friends with the opposite sex bc they’ll always want to be romantically involved and that your allo friends will leave you for their S/O lol

ALSO WHEN UR PHONE CHANGES AROMANTIC TO AROMATIC >:///

What is the best part of being aromantic?

Not being in a relationship lol people complain so much about their relationship troubles and im like ‘damn COULDN’T be me’

How did you find out about aromanticism?

I found out through either Tumblr or google I cant remember which??? Or maybe I saw it on Tumblr and googled it? Either way Tumblr was a factor

When did you know you were aromantic?

I tried dating my best friend and ended it in like 3 days bc I felt so fucking weird about the whole thing like very uncomfortable??? Like I felt like I couldn’t talk to him about certain stuff anymore and just being called someone’s “girlfriend” makes my skin crawl. I always had some weirdness around romance but I thought it was just bc I haven’t “found the right person yet” but if anyone was the “right person” it was my best friend and I couldn’t do it. So I did some research and found out about aromanticism, related so hard, and have been very happy with the label ever since.

Do you have any aromantic headcanons?

SONIC THE HEDGEHOG AND BRUCE BATMAN WAYNE ARE AROMANTIC AND YOU WILL PRY THOSE HEADCANONS OUT OF MY COLD, DEAD HANDS YOU COWARDS

What would be your dream representation of an aromantic/aro-spec character?

An aromantic character who is allosexual (preferably bi) who loves their friends and family and would do anything for them! Doesn’t go “EW!!! GROSS!!” At romance but is just like “nah ill pass, loving my friends is all I need!” and isn’t super oblivious to romantic gestures or infantilized/made into a joke for not being interested in romance. Also if they call out allonomativity that’d be tight

Who is your aromantic icon/idol?

NOBODY BC THERE ARE NO AROMANTICS IN MEDIA

What is your favorite song that relates to aromanticism, or is simply not about romantic love?

Analysis Paralysis by Awake at Last (At least I don’t get a romance vibe off of it??) and Sonic Youth by Crush 40 for all you Sonic fans out there. (And honestly most sonic songs are aromantic BANGERS)

What is your favorite movie that is not focused on romance?

BATMAN V SUPERMAN !!!

What is your favorite tv show that is not focused on romance?

POKEMON !! Im gonna be honest with y’all I think the reason Im aro is bc I watched nothing but Pokemon until I was like 10 (I didn’t stop I just also watched other things) and it is the least romance oriented show ever like….while y’all where out watching Disney princesses ‘fall in love’ or whatever I was crying over Pikachu’s Goodbye so don’t talk to me about heartbreak. Also Ash and Pikachu’s friendship (and of course his friendship with all his traveling partners) really fucking resonated with me and I think thats why I hold my friends above all else.

What popular romantic pairing do you see as only platonic?

SONAMY

Do you experience squishes?

I think I’ve had maybe one or two but they went away quick once I realized that I just like this person bc I think we’d be good friends and I get excited at the thought of making longterm friends.

Do you own any aromantic pride merch or outfits? What are they? If not, what would you like to own?

I do not but id love to own a flag or two

Do you have any advice for anyone who may be questioning if they are aromantic or on the aromantic spectrum?

Just own it. I’m actually actively trying to take my own advice bc like I said I don’t use the word irl but like,,,if you think you’re aro or somewhere on the spectrum, find a label that speaks to you and just own it. Being Aromantic isn’t cringey, its a valid orientation just like any other and I will fight anyone who says otherwise. Ive spent too much time pretending to be alloromantic just to fit in, I’ve embarrassed myself too many times by pretending to be allo, Ive gone too far into my life pretending to be something im not just because its easier for others to understand. Ive gone through too much to discover my orientation to have some fucking losers on the internet tell me that its ‘not a real orientation’. Im aromantic. I feel comfortable in that label and no one can take that away from me.

#ask anti #Anonymous

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cielospeaks · 2 years

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benizakura movie before i forget it!

(which like. forgetting it isnt gonna be a problem. but while its fresh in my mind ya feel)

-first of all the in general stuff! ive never seen the old “no more” trailer, it was surprising! im used to the one w the cola head and popcorn head people lol (my favorite is prolly the one from the live action movie where katsura does a cosplay of the “no more” camera guy)

-the intro was really funny! signature “that one picture of the outside of the house as they all say weird stuff” scene, and the payoff at the end was hilarious also! id seen part of the ending scene in eng before but it was funny to notice the differences/translation? (like sakamoto saying gintoki like kentucky in reference to in the jp version calling him kintoki, katsura saying prolly a copyrighted thing in the jp version and it being censored, but in the eng version he just swears). i like the part where everyone from kabukicho breaks down the door and starts fighting in the movie set also

-i think the scenes to add in the other popular characters were nice! and gave kinda like an insight of “hey btw what was that person doing during the storyline”. the main squad are all awesome, hilarious, and heartwarming, and tbh i teared up at part but ill get to that later.

-ok. but let me say from the start i am ve-ry lov nizou. this movie was fuckin ridiculous oh my gosh. like. after the funny yorozuya shenanigans it cuts to the first scene. that fucking smile. that big toothy smile. that voice. holy shit fuck oh my gosh. i realized that when i see nizou in the movie theater i kinda sorta forget to breathe lol.

top nizou moments

-that smile at the beginning

-every time his face changes w the animation. im like “is this the real life” and it is wonderful.

-like every scene? really

-just fuckin walking off losing an arm like “ey. rude.” hes literally the black knight from monty python theyre prolly penpals. also the scene where the patrol? whoever? is chasing him as he runs away. me: i am looking politely

-that pouting scene where he has the bandage. that room got a glow up! its like a regular room in the manga and anime but in the movie its got like pretty panels and everything! i also noticed that sensei and matako have socks in that scene but i didnt see if nizou does. does nizou is wear socks. or does he not wear them like jotaro hecking kujo. i need to know for my minute worldbuilding headcanon nonsense

-the way they show his eyes in this. like oh my gosh i could stare at those for hours. and how he only opens his eyes when hes really fuckin pissed.

-that famous shirtless scene. uh. the other one. where hes in like that dark room n in pain n stuff.

-not nizou but every time another character would be like “fuckin okada-san again that man has no chill” im like -smug cat face but with blush emoji-

-the “yeah bois” scene was good too (thats the eng dub tho) where he heckin meet the spy finishes the guys sentence as he kills him. dude.

-the parts where theyre explaining how benizakura works so they have it like in. grey with blue or pink lines? very nice.

-the part towards the end where katsura is like “his body is screaming in pain” and it does that grey color thing again. my heart ow

-the scene where he slices through a ship. holy fuckin shit. so intense. i like when he has that little weird horse motorcycle thing. blessed. but the part where he cant control it anymore oh my gosh

-the last part where hes like consumed with it? hes so fuckin big oh my gosh. and like. sharp teeth for days.

-that last scene. oh my gosh. it always fuckin destroys me. where the tentacles (mostly) evaporate from his body and he just collapses

-the flashback scene of course is wonderful

-and also let me mention the part at the beginning with the streetlight and the moths. im like “awyeah bois its nizou time!” but then he appears on screen and im like “i forgot to breathe”

anyway tldr im going to buy this movie if i find it on dvd anywhere and endlessly binge watch it bc i love it

#tv show rambles #fave blogging

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thesugarhole · 4 years

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Real Lloromannic Hours Venting (and Voting)

before i lose your attention i am humbly asking that, if you don’t have a particular favorite sanrio character, make one of your 3 daily votes ENTRY 38 LLOROMANNIC

every year for the past 4 or so i have semi-religiously voted for lloromannic on the sanrio ranking polls (sometimes sb69, sometimes kuromi). i think they still get a good number of votes yearly but not enough to really make a dent?

like i legit remember being a kid, my melody on tv, and complaining i saw no merch anywhere of kuromi bc no one liked the edgy ones (turns out i saw no merch because she was brand new fresh release; 2005 JHFGJD) same thing with lloromannic- 2007

the thing is... lloromannic had a very unfortunate debut, i believe. being released in 2007 and then immediately thrown into my melody kirara, objetively the worst (and last) season might have sealed the deal.

and its just kinda weird you know, because even if they were associated with my melody, they are even more heavily associated with cinnamoroll, dare i say one of the biggest Sanrio characters, their main ace in the sleeve (its in the damn name, lloromannic lmao) so it just feels... OFF that a lot of cinnamoroll fans, the very least, dont know who lloromannic is :(

back to my merch dillema, i have hope that theres still occasional lloromannic merch in japan the issue is... its virtually impossible for me to find anything lmao. be it physically here or in online stores. i remember, a friend even suggested me a couple of stores that might carry lloromannic things and i immediately got barred from just browsing because they dont ship to where i am U_U

so thats how it is. for me, i doubt it will change even if they get a spike in popularity in this years rankings.

with that said, well, i really just want more people to acknowledge them. sanrio has a shitton of characters they dont really do anything with but i think these two are super cute with potential to be just as much of a fan favorite as kuromi was. their character information has always been pretty basic- kirara and the cinnamoroll twitter lets you infer JUST A TEENY LITTLE BIT more info about them. for example: Berry being a usamimi kamen (kamen shows in general) fan, or Cherry being a phone addict much in the same way as Retoree... little things that make my heart go :D. BUT YOU KNOW!! I BELIEVE!!! AND I WANT YOU TO BELIEVE TOO!! so even if you vote for them once and then your favorite every day thereafter ill be happy!!!!!

ive been planning since february to do some sort of campaign where i would try my best to do a daily drawing alongside the voting link, but even since then vi-me grega to plan it; quarantine, working for and writing for dissertation, as well as an article have me in a severe stress position and although i feel im always saying this i legit dont feel like i have free time anymore.

I also thought that the polls opened in may, not in april so well that caught me a bit by surprise didnnit. fdvjhbdfhbsdhj

i will try my best, but if at times i see i have to focus more on work then ill try not to beat myself too hard (because popularity and voting aside, doing a little something for characters i genuinely love just sounds like fun. yknow?)

ironically enough, gushing about them to my friends these past months without really putting campaigning effort seems to have already gained me a couple solidarity votes lol

i dont think i have much else to say... my tagline is pretty much gonna be “dont forget to vote for your favorites, of course if you dont have one consider lloromannic” because even like this i feel bad trying to force peoples hands i dunno jhbfdhbsj

i mean, how can you say no to these widdle faces?

EDIT:

the first time voting you have to fill out a form; it wont ask again and you can vote for other characters.

first section is your age.

next, your gender: 男性(male) or 女性(female) ; if you’re nb or prefer to not say, the option is 不明・その他

finally, it asks where you live. I think all the options might be japan prefectures (im unsure if it includes countries outside of jp), so i’m going a limb here and say that if you’re in japan, you can read these and choose accordingly haha. if not, your option is once again: 不明・その他

note that your vote wont count until you have filled this out!! your vote will be accepted when the character image appears again along a bunch of confetti, like so

#text #lloromannic #when was the last time i wrote a post this big on tumbler.com #sanrio #sugar.txt

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sugasquish · 7 years

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Midnight Drives!

Word Count: 6.5k Genre: Angst, Smut, Dom! Pairing: jungkook x Reader

summary: pent up sexual frustration and alcohol never went well together, not until now anyway.

In all honesty, you had no idea why you were going to this party. You knew your friends were just going to get fucked up and leave you for some guy, not caring about you but expecting the world from you. Making sure the guys not a sleaze, looking after their shit, watching their drinks. Things you know damn well they wouldn't do for you, but you knew you would always give in, after all they were your friends and you didn't want anything happening to them, especially not when you could help it.

Sure you were quite popular but you never felt close to anyone, excluding Jungkook. You knew he was going to be at the party, you both wanted to go together but you knew all too well people would automatically assume you were a thing. Plus you couldn't take the onslaught of girls who would come after your ass just because they saw you two together.

Your head hadn’t been in the right state of mind. Why did you even come to this party? Your feelings had become all unpredictable, you assumed it was just your dry spell since you hadn't fucked in what seemed like forever, maybe you just needed to fuck someone to clear your head, or would it just make you attached? You hadn't had feelings for anyone in what had seemed like forever. Which was odd considering you were always an affectionate person who seemed to fall for the wrong people.

You decided to go on a hunt for Jungkook, at least he would keep you company since your friends were already starting to slur their words and they'd only been there for about 20 minutes. Just as you were about to go look for jungkook you were greeted by him, and a new, unknown Face.

“Hey y/n” he smiled at you so cutely, he wasn't drunk that’s for sure. He was the only one of his friends that had a car, he must’ve been the sober driver.

“Kook!” you basically squealed but you didn't care and you could notice the ever growing grin on his face, completely forgetting about the girl standing beside him, a bit too close for your liking.

You two made eye contact, she had pitch black hair, pale skin and a beautiful smile. Her hair was long and straight, graced with delicate features and soft pink lips, not to mention her radiant almond eyes. Her frame was small, she had a childlike cuteness. Your heart sunk. You glanced back up at Jungkook, only to see he was staring at you. Almost as if he wanted some sort of reaction out of you. What little game was he playing at? Was he trying to upset you? Confuse you? You extended your arm toward the girl, watching as Jungkook's’ eyes followed your hand to meet the girls.

“My names Y/N nice to meet you!” you smiled a bittersweet smile but tried to play it off as if the entire situation didn't hurt you.

“I've heard so much about you! My names Willow it’s so nice to finally meet you!” Of course, such a pretty girl would have such a pretty name. She had an intoxicating smile, your head started to spin, all that was running through your head was the thought that she could be Jungkook’s girlfriend.

You pondered at the thought of Jungkook talking about you, did he even really talk about you at all or was she just being nice? If he did talk about you what did he say? Why would he talk about you in the first place, sure you two were best friends and had known each other forever, but why would he talk about you to this girl?

Your eyes wandered back over to Jungkook's’, he was still staring at you, a little weirdly this time. His head was tilted to the side and you noticed him staring at your lips, after all you had been chewing at them nervously all night, they must've been swollen and red by now.

“Willows a good friend of mine, y/n. She's been helping me study for exams and she's been such a big help, she's a lifesaver.” He exclaimed, still, his eyes never leaving yours. The thought of those two together, studying alone made your stomach twist. What was happening to you, were you getting jealous? How come he didn't just come to you and ask for help, he knew all too well that you got good grades in school, yet he didn’t ask you for help?

You tilted your head to the side and glared at him, looking for clues. Your eyes locking with his for far too long, you could feel Willows glare burning away at you, but you didn’t care.

“Haha y/n good to see you here, I thought you’d never come to one of my parties.” Saved by the bell, it was Taehyung. You had become close friends with him since you and Jungkook hadn’t hung out in a while. He was always busy, what were you supposed to do? Wait for him. Instead you became close to Taehyung. He treated you exactly like how Jungkook did but it was different with him, he was a very open person when it came to sex, admitting that he wanted to fuck but would never go there, the reason why, he never told you.

He walked closer, visibly a little tipsy and draped his arm around your shoulder, not even bothering to acknowledge Jungkook or Willows presence. You saw Jungkook’s facial expression switch instantaneously, removing his eyes from yours only to stare at Tae’s, they were friends but Jungkook was pissed, and it didn’t look like he was trying to hide it.

You watched as Jungkook wrapped his arm around Willows waist, pulling her in closer like she was some sort of trophy, Both you and Willow obviously taken back by the sudden skin ship. You could only stare as you watched Willow snuggle into Jungkook like he was her pillow.

You turned your head to the right, so you could face Taehyung and escape the burning pit in your stomach from watching those two get so close. He was staring directly at you, his eyes misty, you breathed in, hoping to feel relieved when all you could smell was the mixture of alcohol and cologne lingering off Taehyung, his eyes never leaving yours. He smiled that intense Taehyung smile and spoke softly.

“Are you enjoying the party y/n?” he whispered in a deep sensual tone

His voice almost made you forget Jungkook and Willow were standing right in front of you two, staring.

“Yeah, could be better though.” you giggled and watched as Taehyung smirked back at you

“Could I make it better for you? Would you want me to do that y/n?” this time his voice was full with lust, you gawked as you watched him lick his lips, swiping his tongue from left to right then biting his bottom lip and releasing it slowly, His lips looked so soft and plump.

You were so tempted to just go upstairs and fuck him, maybe all those weird feelings would go away, maybe they wouldn’t. You were only interrupted when you turned your head to face Jungkook, his eyes were burning through you, his jaw clenching. He was visibly mad. What the fuck was his problem? he had Willow, you knew she'd fuck Jungkook in a heartbeat, maybe they already had? Your thoughts stopped as you saw Jungkook’s gaze fly over to Taehyung, who was still staring at you, eating up every inch of your body with his eyes.

You could only stare as Jungkook abandoned his gaze on you and bestowed his eyes upon Willow, who was already staring up at him, eyes glistening. He placed his right hand on her chin, his thumb brushing against her bottom lip, you could feel your eyes starting to tear up, completely forgetting about everyone in the room except for Jungkook and Willow.

A tear dropped down your cheek as you watched Jungkook placed a small gentle kiss on her lips, then proceeding to lead a wet trail down to her neck. You stopped looking only to face Taehyung, who was still obviously wanting a reply back from you.

“Sorry Tae not tonight, you know i’d love to but something popped up.” You managed to blurt out to Tae, fighting away the tears.

“Thats a shame baby, you look so good. I’m here if you ever need, you know. Relief. I could make you feel so good.” He smirked then placed a small kiss on your cheek, his touch felt good but you knew you couldn’t do it, not now while you were having all these feelings. You smiled at Tae and glanced over at Jungkook, who was still eating Willows face, too busy to notice you leave.

You walked over to where your friends were before. All of them drunk, most of them making out with some random guys. You picked up your bag and you could feel the rush of tears streaming down your face as you walked outside. You checked your phone.

11:37am

It was dark and chilly outside, but you felt relieved. You looked up at the sky, The stars were glowing bright and it was a full moon, you shivered as you caught draft of the cool night breeze, you felt refreshed. You decided to walk to a friends house, it was twenty minutes away and you knew she would be home studying, she lived quite a distance away but you knew sh’ed be fine with.

11:49am

4 missed calls: Jungkook

The bright light of your phone lit up the night making the darkness disappear, you were almost at your friend’s house but you decided to stop and look at your old house, it looked unrecognizable. Painted a fresh white, picket fencing, a mowed lawn, all the things your old house wasn’t.

Just across from your old house was a park, how could you have forgotten about it, that park was your entire childhood, you walked over and explored, it was just how you remember it to be.

New Text:

Jungkook: Where the fuck are you? I've been looking everywhere, fuck y/n

y/n: I went for a walk, I needed to cool off okay?

Jungkook: You can’t just leave like that I thought something happened to you y/n, you have to be more careful

y/n: I can take care of myself, I’m not a little girl

Jungkook: Where are you, ill come pick you up

y/n: I told you i’m fine, why don’t you go do what you really wanna do?

Jungkook: I’m not fucking around y/n where are you?

y/n: I can take care of myself for fucks sake kook

Jungkook: I told you y/n i’m not fucking around, where the fuck are you

y/n: im at the park we always used to go to

Jungkook: I’ll be there in 10

Read: 11:56am

Only Jungkook, after the stunt he pulled, you weren’t expecting him to care at all. You would’ve at least thought, more or less hoped your other friends would have somehow noticed you had disappeared, but you could always count on them to disappoint you. Jungkook on the other hand, you two had been best buddies ever since you could walk, since then it’s always been the same. Now you were both eighteen, things had changed. You didn’t hang out as often, and when you did, it would include other people.

The atmosphere around you two was eery, you didn’t know what had happened, but as you grew up, your feelings were bound to change for one another.

Whenever you two did hang out nowadays, it was like there was an elephant in the room. You two were so close but seemed so distant, in all honesty, you didn’t know what to call your relationship. Friends? Best Friends? A Couple? The thought of you and Jungkook together made your stomach twist, whenever you thought about him like that, it did something to you. You two never officially fucked, hell you hadn’t even kissed but the feeling of being around him made you feel so at ease, you didn’t know what this feeling was. Were you in love with him? A crush? Or did you simply just want to fuck him? Because all three of those possibilities would fuck up your entire friendship, or at least you assumed it would.

You were sitting on the swing rocking back and forth, lost in your thoughts, when you remembered how much fun you and Jungkook used to have here as kids. Every chance you two got, you would hang out together, telling each other secrets, playing, all that kid stuff. But you remembered you two weren’t kids anymore, you were teenagers. The thought of everything changing, everyone changing just made your lungs want to burst. You decided to climb up the highest ladder you could find. You just felt like screaming and cursing the world for having everything in life turn to shit, but you didn’t scream. You just stood there, feeling the midnight breeze, looking at the moon. You gazed down. And there it was, the old slide you and Jungkook used to go down together, you sitting on his lap squealing as he just laughed.

You squat down, it was still as cheap as you remember it to be, a crusty shade of green, graffiti all over it, just like you remembered.You sat down at the top of the slide, eyes still glued to the moon, and off you went. You’d forgotten how fun it was just to let loose and relax. The twists and turns of the slide, running your hands along the barrier, it felt all too familiar, all too enjoyable, but it didn’t last long.

You burst out with laughter as you reached the bottom of the slide, all your problems disappeared, you felt so normal, not the normal chirpy you like how you are around your friends, but the real you. Maybe this was all you needed to revamp your emotions, maybe you just needed to forget about your problems and focus on the good things, the things that matter the most. Like Jungkook.

Bright headlights beamed out from behind you,

12:02 am

You walked from the slide to the car park, hesitantly, but sure enough there he was.

Leaning against his car, texting furiously on his phone, not even noticing your presence until he finally sent the text. You heard a loud ding come from your pocket, It was from Jungkook.

Jungkook: Where the fuck are you y/n i’ve been worried sick, you can’t just leave parties like that, especially when basically every guy is on the prowl to fuck you! Did you even notice the way Taehyung was staring at you? I thought the worst had happened, and I can’t even see you at the park? Did you lie to me?

As you finished reading the text, you looked up, only to see Jungkook standing right in front of you, you didn’t even flinch. His hot breaths mixing with the cold midnight air, forming a warm mist. You took a deep breathe in, only to get a whiff of his cologne. You looked at his face and saw how the moonlight reflected in his deep brown eyes, he really was beautiful, how could you not of noticed this side of him before?

You swallowed deep before letting out a slight giggle, only to let your head fall onto his chest, like all the pent up anger had vanished into thin air. He chuckled in response.

“Hey y/n.” He said in a cool toned voice

“Yeah?” you replied, heart thumping, breathing heavy.

“Do you wanna go for a ride?” He swallowed hard and you could hear his heart pounding.

“I’d love that, Kook.” You looked up and gave him a warm smile, only to have him chuckle in response.

“Well what are we waiting for?”

You both giggled as he lead you to his car, walking to your side and opening the door for you, you looked at him and chuckled.

“What, I can’t be a gentleman?” he smirked, as you watched his eyes light up.

You looked up at him as you got into the car and winked at him, you saw his cheeks turn into a bright cherry red , he took a deep breath and exhaled once again, his hot breath mixing with the cold air, soothing you. He looked down at you as he closed the door, smiling at you. Differently to how he usually did. This time it was seductive, you saw him in a different light, he wasn't little jungkook anymore, he wasn’t a child. You should have realized that a long time ago.

You saw the driver’s door open, he slid in smoothly and slammed the door, which startled you a bit. He glanced at you and smirked, noticing how visibly flustered you were. Your cheeks were red and so were your lips, mostly because you had been crying and nervously chewing on your bottom lip the entire night, making it swell and look more plump than usual.

“Where do you wanna go?” He inquired as his eyes locked with yours, not leaving them for a second. He noticed you staring at his soft pink lips, all you could think of was Willow, how she had tasted him, how good he must have tasted. You couldn’t be jealous, especially when he wasn’t yours to be jealous of.

“Are you and Willow a thing?” You blurted it out, not even thinking of how he would react.

“Are you and Taehyung a thing?” He furrowed his brows and turned into a completely different person “Have you two fucked?” He was serious, he had never used this tone with you before. You shuddered at the sudden assertiveness in his voice.

“No, Have you and Willow?” You replied, your voice a little shaky. He sighed in deep relief and threw his head back, giving you a perfect view of his neck. You wanted to kiss it, suck on it. Find his sweet spots and pleasure him, you would obviously never tell him that, but he did something to you, something inexplicable.

“Of course not.” He stated.

“To be honest with you y/n I haven’t fucked anyone in a while, I don’t know why but..” His voice trailed off into the distance, you could tell he didn't want to say anymore so you didn’t prod at him, instead you two sat there in silence for a while, looking at the park that you both remembered so fondly, every so often you would shiver, trying not to let Jungkook notice.

You faced him, he was already looking at you, this time not at your face. He was staring at your neck, letting his eyes trail down you. You forgot that you were wearing a tight fitting black dress, a thigh high split creeping up your leg, since you had been sitting down, the split ended a little higher than usual, revealing the side of your lacy thong, also remembering that this dress really showed off your cleavage. After all you had noticed most of the guys at the party were staring at you.

You could hear Jungkook gulp loudly, breaking the silence. “I know where we can go.” He reverted back to the calm Jungkook you knew. He started the engine and those familiar headlights beamed once again.

He pulled out of the carpark and put the car into Drive, As he began to drive you noticed he only drove with his right arm., He slowly placed his left arm down on your thigh. You shuddered at the sudden contact of skin, His hand was warm, hot even. Your thighs were cold but soon heated up because of the contact. He noticed you shiver at his touch.

“Sorry y/n, if you do-” you stopped him mid sentence.

“No I like this.” You almost choked on your words since you felt so flustered because of his touch, almost surprised that you had the courage to say that. He smiled at you and continued driving.

12:15am

You couldn’t help but notice the veins protruding on his hands and arms, your finger trickled on top of the outlines of his hand that was on your thigh. His grip tightened on your thigh, there was a burning sensation between your legs now, your stomach was churning just because of one simple squeeze.

You unintentionally let out a small moan, coming in the form of Jungkook’s name.

“Sorry y/n, habit” He spoke softly, whilst looking into your eyes, looking for signs of lust. You smiled at him, signalling that it was fine, that you liked it. The car became silent once again, it felt tense, you could feel it now, it was full of sexual tension. The both of you trying to figure out if the attraction was mutual or not, you thought you had made it very apparent that it was.

To break the silence you plugged your phone into the aux,

“Is it okay if I-”

“I thought you’d never ask, go ahead.” he passed a glance your way and winked at you, making you blush a little.

You looked through your music, of course. All your songs were centered around sex. You two were Best friends, what would a sex song do? it wasn't like you hadn’t listened to music about sex before. You took a deep breath and hit shuffle.

6lack- prblms

You wound down the window and felt that same midnight breeze caressing your face, leaning your head against the door frame. The moon still as bright as ever. You inhaled deeply, wishing to take in each and every thing. The smell of the sickly sweet salty air invading your nose, you lowered your view. There it was, the ocean. Sweet and misty. Of course. He was taking you to the beach.

“And she said You a Goddamn lie I ain't mean to say that shit girl I was God damn high So we left the crib now we in the God damn ride She lookin' God damn fine I wanted a bitch who was down to Earth But she want the Goddamn skies”

12:22am

You took in every word of the lyrics, you listened in the distance as the waves crashed against the shore, rough and unforgiving. You decided to glance at Jungkook, noticing his hand was still placed on your thigh. His thumb swirling around in circles, squeezing then stopping, only to repeat the entire process. You looked up at his face with intent, he looked enticing, his eyes focused on the road. You started having impure thoughts about Jungkook. The way his eyes shone made your heart flutter. His lips looked so pink and soft, they looked so inviting and warm.

“When I ain't did shit, but be the real thing She don't want to real, that ain't never change I never been the one, to try to explain While you catch them feels imma sip on this drank It's easing my brain”

You were desperate to run your hands through his soft dark locks, tugging them, then crawling your fingers to the nape of his neck. You yearned to touch him, your body was longing for attention, craving pleasure. But you couldn't do it, you had no idea if he liked you or if he was just being plain old friendly Jungkook. Either way, you were extremely aroused.

“So I found me a new thing I'm not as lost as you think. Got plenty queens in my hometown all they need is drank and that dank.”

You could feel your thong sticking to you, you needed pleasure and you needed it now. You clenched your walls around nothing, hoping for relief but that didn't come. It only made your appetite for Jungkook grow.

“Now I'm like It's a Goddamn shame We done crashed we done burned But baby you the God damn blame See I wanted love but you wanted God damn fame Every God damn thing”

Jungkook glanced at you and smirked

“We’re here.” he announced, you didn't notice since you were too preoccupied with staring at him. You looked out the windshield, it was beautiful, the headlights of the car causing the waves to glisten. You turned to face jungkook. You were sad to see that his hand had left your thigh, you could still feel his touch, his warmth lingering on your skin, he really was ethereal. He turned the car off and sighed, closing his eyes and leaning his head back against the headrest. His breathing was heavy and uneven, you could tell something was going on, you knew him too well not to know when something was wrong.

Instead of confronting him about it, you hopped out of the car and sat down on the sand a couple of steps away from his car. You could still feel how warm it had previously been. You listened carefully as you heard the car door open, Jungkook get out and slamming the door shut once again. He came and plonked down on the sand right next to you. You shuddered at the sudden warmth that hit you once again, Jungkook must've noticed since you watched him take his jacket off, placing it on your shoulders then scooching closer so you could feel his heat pressed up against your body.

“Jungkook.” You whispered

“Yeah?” he replied, his voice a little shaky

“Is everything okay, you know, between us?” You found yourself asking

He let out a deep sigh, moving his gaze from the ocean to your eyes.

“I've been feeling weird lately.” he answered, you wanted to dig more and he didn't look uncomfortable, so you did.

“Why didn’t you ask me to help you with studying? I feel like we’ve been avoiding each other lately.” You stated, you tried to sound as serious as possible.

“It's strange y/n, I’ve watched you grow and up you've watched me grow up. I watched you change from a girl into a woman.” He said as his eyes lingered over your body. You tensed up, knowing all too well what he meant. It was true, you’d obviously changed, you filled out your clothes more, your style changed. Your body changed, and so did his. He was well built, tall, lean and muscular, with a delicate face with intense features, he was surreal.

“I couldn't study with you around, you're too distracting y/n .” he exclaimed

“What do you mean?” you inquired, obviously striking something within Jungkook, he returned his eyes back to yours, locking with them.

“I can't control myself around you anymore ” he stared right into your eyes looking for a sign, your eyes were full with lust, you were inclined to him.

“I feel like i'm going to lose it sometimes, y/n, sometimes I just feel like marking you, bending you over and fucking you on my desk, until you scream out my name, god you make me so hard.” He was serious. His eyes were still burning into yours, you couldn’t help but notice the large bulge growing in his jeans, knowing you were doing this to him, without even touching him, made it that much hotter.

“Good” you whispered, “because I feel the exact same way, god jungkook the things id let you do to me.” And with that you leaned into his face, pressing a small kiss onto his lips, god they were so soft. Everything you had imagined. You kissed him again, this time with more intensity. He placed his tongue at the entrance of your mouth, begging to be let in. You opened up and his tongue attacked yours, dancing in the heat of your mouths. His hand crept over your cheek, then to the nape of your neck, rubbing it as he continued consuming your mouth. His hands crept down to your waist, squeezing it as you moaned into each and every kiss. The fire between your legs aching, you were craving for him to be inside of you.

Jungkook pulled away from the kiss,

“God i’m gonna fuck you so good, you won’t be able to walk, I promise you”

He stood up and you could see the full outline of his dick, pressing hard against his jeans. He pulled you up and placed his face close to yours, his lips tickling your ear lobe.

“Tell me how much you want this y/n” he whispered into your ear, so erotic, you could feel yourself dripping by now.

“So fucking much Kook, your touch alone made me wet”

And with that he picked you up like nothing, you wrapped your legs around his torso instinctively, you could feel his length pressing into you through his jeans, he was big. The small amount of friction made you gasp, it felt so good, relieving some of the pent up heat between your legs.

He placed you down on the hood of his car, roughly. Then pushed you down onto the windshield and pinned both your arms up above your head as his hed trailed down your neck leaving wet marks and hickeys unclasping your bra from underneath your dress and sliding it down. His left hand cupping your breast, playing with your nipple as you let out small gasps and moans.

“Im so wet Jungkook” you moaned loudly, not caring if anyone could hear. He chuckled and continued teasing you. He pulled down the front of your dress revealing your breast, the cold air making your nipples even harder, adding even more pleasure to the entire experience.

He released both of your arms as he placed them on your hips. Lowering his head into your breast, his hot breath making contact with your nipple. He lowered his mouth and started swirling his hot tongue over you, flicking at your nipple every now and then, earning loud wails to escape from your mouth.

“Ah ah jungkook.” you cried out

“Calm down Jagi, we haven’t even started. Now be a good girl and stand up.” he commanded, you didn’t hesitate, not even for a second. You stood up but your legs were already weak causing you to almost fall.

He pulled the straps off your arms and watched as you stood there, top half completely bare for him. You let out a small whine as he pulled the dress down even more, exposing most of your stomach, the cold breeze blowing, giving you goosebumps and he placed a light kiss on your breast.

You let out a loud gasp as you watched jungkook tear your dress in half, leaving you there exposed as he let go of the dress, letting it blow away into the night. You gave him a lustful look as you saw him stare at your lower half. You were soaked through completely, but that wasn’t enough foreplay for him. He was just getting started.

“Get back on the hood. Now.” he commanded once again, and you did not hesitate.

The hood was cold now, causing a tingling sensation to spiral throughout your body. Only to be relieved when you felt the hot touch of jungkook's hands lingering over your waist. He pulled down your thong to reveal your dripping juices. You watched in awe as he licked his lips and went down on you. His tongue flicking your clit ravishly. He was sucking on your clit, swirling his tongue in all the right ways. You grasped his hair with both hand pulling him in closer, letting out cries and moaning his name.

“Fuck jungkook you're so go-” He was so good you weren't even able to finish your sentence.

He got back up and looked at you, you stared as you watched him lick two fingers and insert them inside of you with ease, curling them upwards in the right spot, finding your sweet spot instantly. He placed his tongue back onto you, moving simultaneously with his fingers. He moaned into you, sending vibrations pulsing towards all directions. You were so close so fast. He really was amazing at this.

“How are you so fucking tight around my fingers when you’re this wet, so tight and so pretty. Imagine how it’s gonna feel with my dick y/n.”

“Fuck Jungkook i'm gonna cum. ” you shouted in unsteady breaths, surprised you even managed to get it out.

“Come for me jagi, I wanna see how beautiful you look when you come for me.” he sped up the pace of his fingers and started swirling his tongue more violently, next thing you were screaming his name, coming for what seemed like hours, having him there, riding you off on your high as you pulled endlessly on his dark locks. He pulled his fingers out of you and looked back into your eyes, licking the juices off.

“Fuck you taste so much better than I imagined jagi, so sweet and pretty, look at you, so easy to please.”

You moaned in response still breathless from coming already.

“Stand up Jagi. now.” You didn’t need to be told twice. You tried to stand up but your legs were to wobbly, he completely destroyed you with his fingers, oh how good would his dick feel.

You managed to stand up, it took all you had but you did. You watched as he stood directly in front of you and caressed your face. He stepped back for a second as you watched him peel off his shirt, revealing his toned chest and abs, he smirked as he noticed you face, blushing. Even though he was going down on you not so long ago.

“Unbuckle me.” he commanded and you did what he said.

He pulled your hand and directed you to the back of his car, he opened the back door and got in first then pulled you inside. Connecting your lips with his once more, softer this time, realising how sensitive you were right now. You felt his hot hands lead to down to your breast, squeezing then releasing them only stopping to move his hand down to your ass. He spanked you hard, which earned him a loud cry of his name, his hands rubbed your cheeks tenderly relieving some of the pain.

You watched as he pulled his jeans and briefs down, letting his erection spring free, his tip swollen already. His dick springing up against his stomach, it was huge. You would never of imagined Jungkook would be so big. You were proven wrong, once again.

“Ride me jagi, I want to feel you around me.” he said in a cooler toned voice, sounding more sexy and erotic.

You sat above him, preparing for his length, you slid down with ease but he was so thick. You could tell he was resisting the urge to flip you over and fuck you like he wanted to, but he knew you had to adjust to his size. And the stretch felt so good, you had to admit. You were about halfway down his length as you slid back up earning breathy moans from Jungkook.

This time you slid down, taking in all of his length, Jungkook's hand connected with your ass, a loud slapping sound echoing. It jerked you forward a bit but it just made his dick that much more intense, he rubbed the spot he slapped you in and moved his hands to your breast. Rubbing them and sucking on your nipples, paying equal attention to the both of them this time.

You were both moaning by now, not even trying to hide how good it felt. He felt so big and warm inside of you. You sped up whilst riding him, you sensed you were close and cried out his name once again.

“Ah jungkook i'm gonna come again, fuck Jungkook you're so big and it feels so good.” you wailed out.

“Jagi you’re so fucking sexy you know that, you looks so beautiful when you come.”

You hummed in response.

He flipped you over, your back laying on the cold leather of the seat as he hovered above you. You watched as he placed his thumb above your clit and started swirling as he pumped in and out of you, your juices clearly coating his dick.

“Fuck y/n” you earned a loud deep moan from Jungkook

You arched your back as your hand roamed up towards his chest, running along the outlines of each and every nook and cranny, your touch was obviously affecting him as you saw his muscles contracting.

The familiar feeling was building back up between your thighs again, you were close so much closer. You heard his moans getting louder.

“Ah fuck Jungkook i’m gonna come, harder baby harder.” you yelled as you watched the beads of sweat form on his forehead but he sped up just for you, going in deeper and harder, his thumb swirling around your clit while his mouth swirling over your nipple.

“Fuck Jagi, so fucking tight.” he moaned out and with that, you came a second time, crying out with moans of pleasure, it felt so much more intense this time, your entire body aching, dripping with sweat, he rode you throughout your high again this time. Jungkook still hadn't come so you propped him back up, sitting on top of him, riding him again. You placed your mouth on his neck, earning a sweet cry of pleasure from Jungkook, you sucked there until you're heard his breathing get heavy. You reached back and started swirling his balls in the palm of your hand, speeding up the pace of you riding him as he started thrusting into you from underneath, the loud sound of skin connecting echoed throughout the car. You noticed his thrusts getting sloppier so you rode him even faster, crying out his name.

“Ah Jungkook i wanna see you cum, do it for me baby.” you cried out, you felt a hot splash of liquid burst inside of you. You continued to play with his balls and ride every last drop out of him. He was crying out your name and bit down on your shoulder, his moans sending vibrations to every inch of your body. His face was bright pink and his hair stuck to his face. He looked so pretty, so vulnerable.

You used this opportunity to place a small kiss on his lips, much gentler than before but somehow it felt more intimate than before.

You stayed there for a while, your head resting on his shoulder as you were both exhausted.

“You were so good jagi, I swear no one fucks like you.”

You smiled back, unable to contain the happiness that you felt when he said that.

“How about we go back to mine and you can have a shower and sleep with me?”

He asked, eyes wide and hopeful.

“”Id love to.” you exclaimed, obviously excited.

“But you owe me a new dress.” you said, an attempt to sound serious.

“Trust me Jagi, you’ll get something, just not a dress.”

EXTRA: thank you for reading!, just saying I might not be very active considering I have exams coming up, please feel free to leave requests ect. in my ask box tytyty

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