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l0viez · 1 year

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₊˚ʚ ᗢ₊˚✧ ﾟ. Genshin Impact Characters as Younger Sibilings!

Ft ; Klee, Diona, Sayu, Chongyun, Thoma, Dori ! ♡

* Im sorry in advance for making this long:')!

💥Klee ! ;

Being klee's older sibling,,, Is quite a adventure!

Whenever Albedo or Alice or maybe both leave you to babysit klee

You would have a "who wants to be a billioner" mindset

"(N/N)! Let's go fish blasting there's plently of fishes out right now!!"

Bascally inside your mind :

A.) Go and agree with Klee

B.) Say No and tell her to do it another time

C.) Play dead

D.) Tell her to play something else that doesn't include any.. bombs!

It depends on your mood tho tbh

like if your mad or upset at something you would accept klee's fish blasting idea no hestation

then jean founds out and you both gets in the confinement room

Whenever klee finds you crying or upset about something she would offer dodoco to you !

you can have dodoco until you feel better , her words not mine

sometimes whenever you both go on a adventure and she gets too tired

you would piggyback carry her back to your house<3!

Tbh you and klee's sibiling relationship is mostly a partner in crime

Whenever klee bombs something you would take the blame for it so she wont get in trouble

and if you "accidently" did something bad for example uhm slap someone (LMAO)

Klee would take the blame for it instead

Jean would be so tired bc of you both /jk

Imagine this ; You protected klee because of a suprise attack from a abyss mage and klee panicked and threw one of her bombs and it hitted you

which leads you both to this situation ;

Barbara giggling because of your antics while patching you up and Jean scholding you both, Klee explaining her best what happened with crocodile tears while hugging you from the side and you just sitting there sweatdropping also trying to explain what happened

" (Y/N) is the very very very very very very very best bro/sissy klee could ever ask for !! they would always always try to keep klee out of trouble and would even talk their way to let us go fish blasting !! Who wouldn't have a sibiling like her!! they would even give me homemade cookies whenever klee behaved well!! Don't worry traveller once we meet again klee will make sure to ask (Y/n) to give me extra cookies for you to try!:DD"

🍧Diona ! ;

Your either diona's favorite person or diona's least favorite person/hj

theres no in between

(She also gives me overprotected little sister vibes but she pretends shes not overprotected and worried about you 24/7)

If you spend more time with her than your drunked "father" (draff) then your her favorite

but if you spend more time with your "father" (draff) trying to help him as much as possible then your... still her favorite but like she would have mixed feelings

because like what if you also become a addict to alcohols?? What if you turn out like draff?? What if you give her some poor excuses as well like draff on why your away?? (thats only if you spend more time with draff)

You and diona favorite thing to do together is collect ingredients and to mess around with them ! (and possibly make the most deadliest drink , but yk it would fail because of diona's special talent )

Diona would most likey to rant or vent out some stuff to you than you do

When you visit the Cat Tail Tavern you get a special discount

the "sibling discount"

I feel like some drunk people would ask diona to help them date you

and diona would look at them like she wants to choke them out

You WOULD and WILL spoil with planotic love and affection because draff failed to do so

You would hug her randomly and she would act like she dont want it

but she secretly likes it bc she never got 100% planotic love from her father so you giving her what she needed the most is very relaxing to know she still have you even if draff is absent most of the time<3

Shes very lucky to have you

but she'd rather have a handshake with diluc than even tell you that

[ a more funny idea too if you and diluc are secretly dating and she found out like she would glare at diluc for even trying to steal you away from her >:((( ]

" Huh whats that? Your asking me about my sibling? What are you trying to collect information me to date them as well!?Tsk.. I'll have you know im not afraid to scratch you! You may be the traveller who so happens to save our nation but I'll be damned if you even try to flirt with her! H-huh? Me ? Overprotecting ?! Ah. Ha! Don't even try to fill your mind with nonsense that is clearly not true!.."

🍃Sayu! ;

Now being sayu's older sibling get ready to sleep 24/7

because whenever you two go out and she falls asleep YOU yes YOU will BECOME her personal pillow and theres no way out

Even if your not like her , not quick to sleep or like her , quick to sleep.

Your still going to be forced to sleep or get tired whenever shes around lmao

You would be at work and before you know it

Yae would be asking for your presence at the shrine

At first that you got called you were worried for sayu because like??? Who wouldnt

then once you got there...

Yae gave you a "important task"

To get your sister while she is SLEEPING

you had the most dumbfounded face cause like ?? why me ??

either way you still went out to find your sister !

When you found her either at the Chinju Forest or somewhere in ritou or Inazuma City hiding from someone or just sleeping

Once you found her you already found her asleep

Well,, that was easy

now you had to decided whether to turn her in to yae or any shrine maiden or carry her to your house so she can peacefully sleep without a problem and just tell the shrine maidens & Yae that you couldnt find her

but the problem is you know how intimidating yae could be if she knows you just kept sayu at your house just for her to sleep

she would probably electrocute you in a bad way☠️..

Now mostly since sayu is asleep you would carry her from left to right just so she can peacefully sleep

for her birthday you always buy her the most SOFTEST, FLUFFIEST, SILKYIEST , COMFYIEST pillow ever

Unlike diona's one with the giving affection and etc, you give sayu items she might need and wants instead‼️ but ofc you still give u siblingly affections from time to time!

you and diona mostly see eachother because you had to do your work to provide money for both of you and to give her gifts

and since because sayu is mostly busy at the shrine as well😭...

But if you have any free time or its your day off at your work and so is sayu

sayu would make to sure to get enough sleep and to stay up so you guys can hangout more without her sleeping again

but ofc that doesnt work well, abit of walks there and abit of goofing around she would start to feel sleepy again

once she tells you that shes feeling tired you will immediately go to the place to view the prettiest sunsets while she lays on your lap!<3

"hmm, I thought you told me you won't fall asleep this time ?"

"*yawns* look you wouldn't get it (n/n)... Im a growing girl after all and.. i still have to grow tall,, taller than yo-zzz"

like whenever you jokingly ask her on why shes always sleepy she would always replies to you that shes a growing girl and still has to grow tall and even fall asleep mid sentence 😭

"They always teases me about my height when their height isn't even that high! (n/n) always gives me the most comfortable pillows... i might as well have the full inazuma collection pillow because of her *yawn* speaking of pillows.. I feel abit sleepy .. If (y/n) ever asks where I am can you tell her I'll be at ritou? but of course don't tell the shrine maidens.."

❄️Chongyun! ;

Are you really siblings with Chongyun

or are you Xingqiu's sibling instead??☠️/hj

You and Xingqiu would always prank chongyun when you both get the chance or when you three are together

As much as you love love your sibling, you also love to annoy him as much as possible or prank him

But ofc you also know your limits whenever to stop or not!

You and hu tao would be secretly best friends

Whenever you and chongyun go home

he would rant out about hu tao's doings whenever he gets too annoyed at her and you would just silently listen

there was that one time where you and xingqiu's harmless prank turned into a non so harmless

You wanted to prank chongyun by putting a candy that looks like pepper

You were going to be in charge of making the soup and xingqiu is incharge with the fake pepper

Xingqiu putted the fake pepper near the counter so he would know where it was easily

and xiangling who happens to just come back after a little ingredients shopping accidently putted the REAL peppers near it

and when xingqiu went to grab the "fake pepper" he grabed the real one and putted it to the soup you were about to serve chongyun

and well,,, lets just say it didn't end well.. like at all☠️

Chongyun has higher trust issues with you both ever since that day..

You are like chongyun's extra ice pops storage holder LMAO like if chongyun runs out of ice pops you would always have extra

You, Shenhe, & Chongyun would train abit every weekends

Sometimes you would just be the one serving the foods for both of them once theyre done just to avoid training😭LMAO

Chongyun loves you dearly but like.. Calm down with the pranks

He has mixed feelings about you bc of it

If he gets prank by you two , before going to sleep he would be looking up at the ceiling all tucked in and be wondering

whos the bad influencer between you both??

but jokes aside chongyun would drop any jobs or works he has if you ever call him even if its not urgent he would be there:) ( and so would you )

He will also be there for you if you ever have any stressful day like he will ask you if you want to go around liyue to take your mind off things!

Even though sometimes your pranks sets his mind filled with bombs that are about to explode because of it

He will always accept you as the older sibling<3

"(Y/n) is my older sibling , even though she's quite the opposite of me.. her determination and bravery are more skilled and polished than mine. She's one of my top 5 idols to be when I grow up. But then (Y/n)'s like .. the other twin of Xingqiu at this point.. Don't get me wrong It's not that Im saying I dont want them as my sibling! Its just that whenever those two are around eachother there's always a prank that will be set, even if it's not me getting pranked someone else will be. They might as well rename the "Victims of Xingqiu" to "Victims of Xingqiu and (Y/n)" at this point..

🧹Thoma! ;

Okay this one is abit of a strech

While his at Inazuma

your at Mondstadt

We all know the story of why he's at inazuma

and if you dont here ; (googled;))

"He originally went to Inazuma to bring his father Dandelion Wine, but after falling overboard, he ended up in Inazuma with no connections and Mora. Despite the dangers he faced at the time, Thoma was able to make the most of his situation and eventually obtained the Kamisato Clan's trust."

During that time where he told you that he will be the wine to your guys father and that he will contact you once he gets there

you insisted that you will do it instead because your the older sibling

but then you both had a small fight on why and whos going😭

He won.. suprisingly because you have a job at the wine industry and because you had more responsibilities at Mondstadt

leaving you with no choice but to agree

you did pack him some food and some spare mora you had on you if he wanted to buy something incase

After like a few day you were getting worried over your little bro

some days you would feel so guilty on letting him go alone and not coming with him

the more days he couldnt contact you the more anxious you got that it even messed up your work a couple of times

"Y/n. you're adding the wrong ingredients.."

"Huh? Oh sorry diluc.. My bad I'll do better next time Im really sorry"

like you almost crash into a wall.. wait no remove the almost YOU DID.

You Crashed into a wall because of WORRY for thoma.☠️

more days and more days past you had enough and even plan to go to inazuma yourself

but then you found out that inazuma is a closed nation and litterally even if you begged the people with cruises or ships to get you there they would refuse

abit more days of waiting and you finally manage to get a letter from thoma! You were so relieved and happy like you cried tears of joy knowing his still alright!

You immediately wrote him a letter back and asking him how he was and how he was doing and more questions

Sometimes he would even send you some inazuma items and you would send him some Mondstadt items! Whether it be clothes, figurines, foods, ingredients you can only find at Mondstadt or Inazuma<3

You both would send letter everyday and some would get delayed due to works or the delievery man/hj

once the inazuma problems got solved you quickly went to inazuma to visit you lil bro isnt that sweet

once you got there, the first thing you did was ask people if they ever know anyone named "thoma" and ofc someone lead you to thoma

Once you saw thoma with 2 other light blue haired people

you didnt even think you quickly went out and hug him

Thoma was like so shock with that suprise pikachu face when he saw you he was wondering who you were then he realized that it was you! His older sibling

hes the type of man who would probalby sob of happiness silently bc of a very long reunion

the blue haired people was wondering who you were and thoma introduced you who you were to them and etc!

Ayato even gave thoma a 1 week vacation so you two would hangout because he would also feel how both siblings who clearly misses eachother for like forever would feel

You and thoma would goof around while he tours you around inazuma

you meet plently of his friends and his pet friends as well!<3

thoma treated you to eat some meal with him in a fancy ass resuturant

when someone tried flirting with you, thoma was already there behind you glaring abit and ready to make that person back away from you

thoma just wants to make your stay at inazuma the most comfortable as it can!

😭Imagine seeing itto though while you both were examing the onikabuto or like thoma is explaining its kind to you and you both just see a big ass hand grab it

"Yo!! Thoma bro!! I see you have someone new with you! Whos that huh?? Your new friend?! Oh oh your sibling perhaps?? Oh wait! Is this a kidnapper?! Thoma bro just tell me if theyre keeping you hostage the one and only numero itto will help you my dude!"

you and thoma would just nervously try to leave the area...

but thoma being a gentlemen he is still answered ittos "questions"

Itto calls you (y/n) homie now. theres option you can say "no please" to this man.

Thoma just had that "i'm sorry." face and pitying you while itto introduce his legendary self to you and even offered for you to join his squad😭

Once you had to return to Mondstadt you gave thoma a special gift so he would remeber of you and you both had your last hug before you depart

the kamisato siblings also came along to say their goodbyes and his other friends and.. as well as the itto gang😭

You both promised to keep sending letters to eachother though so its ight:)!

Once you got to mondstadt you already gotten a letter from thoma if you gotten home safetly

Its really nice to have someone worrying about you huh<3.

"Oh! wait sorry sorry , i didnt mean it as a offensive way I just got suprised that you know (y/n) *chuckles*, why you may ask? well theyre always at work or at their home writing me letters sometimes when i forget to send back the mails would be bombarded with their letters for me haha.. I didn't think you would be friends with them,! don't take it the wrong way it's nice that my sibling is finally opening up because before they would always tell me that "our survival is more better than having friends". — Hey, Traveller can you me a favour? If you ever go back to Mondstadt again can you tell her to not over work their self and to watch over them , because apprently the letters i wrote them don't seem to work.. *sigh*"

He's just worried about you too much as you are worried about him!<3.

💷Dori! ;

You two are knowned as the mora hoggers/jk

you both like to scam people,, but ofc your more experienced

it runs in the family afterall💵💵💵💵💸💸

while dori sells the like rare items and like expensive ones

you sell the mysterious and shady ones

whenever you both get like a "vacation" or a break from all that scamming people

selling items i mean***

your favourite activity with dori is scamming people/jk

(also it be cute if like her glasses came from you<3 like you used to wore it when you were young but then you gave it to her because it dont fit you anymore)

dori would act so independent but be dependent whenever shes with you🙏😭

dori is the type of sibling who would say i love you too sis/bro or i miss you without hestitation like she will be confident on saying it<3!

you both have rare matching accessories:)

dori's favorite activity or hangout activity with you is finding artifacts out in the wild and make a competition out of it

You both would have a secret hideout and count your moras you gotten and whoever has the largest sum of mora wins!

and whoever loses has to pay 1M mora to the winner,,😭

dori has that very layback younger sister vibes , yeah shes abit mischievous at most times but she only learned it from you🙄

Dori would sometimes steal some shady items from you for her to sell whenever your not watching

and your stealing hers too😀"eye for a eye"

your sibling relationship with her is just honestly,, calming to say the least like not much problems and etc

but if any buyers get aggresive and tries to argue or attack dori you would quickly make a fake act and scream

after all violence is not the answer

and yeah that buyer had to go to jail for a few days and have to pay you both 900k mora inorder to shorten their stay at prison😄!!

I feel like you both have a secret mansion that only you two would enter, ONLY YOU TWO.

Dori likes to hold your hand whenever shes feeling unsure of her actions or if shes in deep thought

whenever noone is really buying any of ur guys items you both would play like board games that is supposed to be your items to sell

like imagine this ;

Mostly everyone is going back to their houses because the sun is going down and you and dori are waiting for a Vip customer to arrive

and you both got bored and decided to play around with the vip customer requested item

and the vip customer just sees you both like playing catch with their requested item while his holding his mora LMAO

that vip customer has higher trust issues now thank you both of you

"They really really like getting some of my items and would put it at their side and say it's their item Im suppose to sell to annoy me off whenever there's no customers around *sighs* ! but sometimes though they would give me unique artifacts as a "sorry" when i get too upset at it,, but hey atleast im getting artifacts to sell! (n/n) is that type of sibling who would try and test your patience for their entertainment! And tha— huh??? I act like them sometimes??? Well duh we're siblings of course! heh I wouldn't learn how to sca- I mean sell stuff ! Do I dislike them? Oh archons never! Hey I may look like I dont have the type to love my siblings 100% but I can say "I love you" and "I missed you" no problem to them! How did they teached me how to sell artifacts and how to gain customers? well.. that's a secret now! Your asking too much questions If you want to know more you should pay me about.. 200k mora! heh."

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vivaladicamillo · 1 year

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I 10000% need some fluff and smut for Ryan Dunn!!!

RYAN DUNN X GN!READER HCS

okok more ryan dunn content bc lord im so whipped for him its not funny anymore, i also think there NEEDS more content of him on here i’ve scrolled to the bottom of the ryan dunn tags and im in need of content tbh, so might as well make my own for other ryan lover like me out there !

WARNINGS: nsfw elements towards the end

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SFW:

oh this man is crazy for u

we’ve seen and heard of stories of ryans past relationships

we all know he would literally bend over backwards for u

i feel like hes not to big on romantic things though

like fancy flashy type romantic stuff

date wise he would probably take u either somewhere public like the movies or an icecream shop or like somewhere u genuinely really wanna go

in public though he always had one arm wrapped around u

either around ur waist or ur shoulder or even just holding ur hand

he wants everyone in that mf to know ur his

LOVES TO SHOW U OFF

keep a little photo of u in his wallet

“yah my girlfriend is super hot.”

the guys totally dog on him for it though

everyones just praying ur not like his past relationships

he just has a habit of letting people step over him bc he care abt them too much

but ur not like le that, ur different (hopefully LMAO)

when he started growing his hair out he definitely let u brush it and style it when u could

that man barely knows how to shower on a regular basis hes definitely not brushing his own hair regularly

SPEAKING OF SHOWERS

oh lord jesus christ ur gonna have to make him shower

hes gonna be smelling like a whole can of bounce that ass sometimes

u will probably have to make a deal with him to shower

or just lock his ass up in there and tell him hes not coming out untill he does shower

but honestly if u just ask him politely and nicely he will start trying to smell better and shower more often

anything for u

he loves to kiss u

like all the time, no matter where

in public, in front of the guys, in front of a old persons home, u name it and he’s probably gonna kiss u there

also he loves kissing ur nose, forehead, cheek and ofc ur lips

he also doesnt mind kisses back (lord please kiss his nose he secretly loves it when u do that)

any joke u make will make him do his little goofy laugh

oh and he will do anything to see u laugh or smile

he adore ur smile

he could just admire it for hours on end

i feel like his mom would love u too

ur just his perfect match !

NSFW:

hmm where should i start

i feel like hes a switch but hes more on the dom side

but not like rough and mean

he’s definitely a soft dom

he loves to take it slow, gentle and calm

he wants to enjoy every minute you guys spend together

slow pace but just right yk?

but he also loves it when ur dominant

seeing u above him and seeing u have all the power when it comes to the bedroom just does something for him

he don’t discriminate

LOVESSS when u give him hickeys

he will also give them to you yes ofc but only if hes feeling a bit jealous

he does not like sharing his sex life with anyone

maybe bam but thats a bog MAYBE

ik hes stated before he likes to keep things private

so no risky public sex or threesomes

maybeathreesomewithbambutthatsnot100%

oh he loves to give u head

and hes damn well good at it

he wont stop till u at least have came twice

SPEAKING OF CUM (hehe cum)

his favorite place for him to cum is either on ur thighs or in ur mouth

SHOWER SEX!

probably one of the only ways u can get him to shower

he likes using handcuffs on u though

thats on super rare occurrences

kink wise i think hes not into a lot

maybe hair pulling, spanking but not much else

hes always down to try some stuff though if u really wanted too

just nothing that involves him hurting u or u hurting him

i also feel like hes not one to joke during the deed

unless u both are in a silly mood then maybe theres some giggling and jokes

but otherwise he wants it to be more intimate and loving

PRAISE PRAISE PRAISE ALL DAY

“ah yes ur doing so good for me baby.” “u look so good with my cock inside u darling”

i feel like hes into being called a title

like sir or master (maybe)

i feel like he would be icked out by daddy though

his after care is amazing though

you want him to run u a bath? get u food, drinks? a magically gay unicorn? hes getting it for u no matter how tired he is

LOVES TO CUDDLE AFTERWARDS

he thinks its so cute when u fall asleep in his arms first

he just loves u so much and wants to see u happy

if ur happy and satisfied hes happy and satisfied

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hope u enjoyed!! i kinda just did a bunch of cute and spicy headcanons for this bc i just wrote another ryan fic abt a similar topic sooooo yea!

#HEHHEHE I LOVE HIMMM #RYAN BABYYYY #SCREAMING #jackass #cky crew #cky x reader #cky4 #cky2k #cky clip #cky3 #ryan dunn x reader #ryan dunn x reader smut #ryan dunn #ryan is so cutie

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razzberrimango · 10 months

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WHOA INTRO POST!?!?

ive had this account forever but im going to make a intro post becauzeeeeee i want to

HIII my name is razz!!! (not real obviously but yk

im a cisgender bi girl, this is my omo account!! 💛

um im pretty active on here like i check it once a day atleasttt. im 100% more likely to respond to asks then messages by the way, but if you do message me i probably will reply eventually, i have adhd sooo i get distracted like every 5 minutes💀

my time zone is eastern! but i fr sleep frim 10am-5pm so be free to message me whenever😭

in terms of omo theres a lot of different things im into, i do prefer sfw omo over nsfw omo. i definetly like nsfw omo i just have to be in the mood!! i am a switch but way more heavy dom/power bottom btw if anyones wondering :)

i really love hurt/comfort omo, and i do prefer male omo over fem omo!! also recently became obsessed w bedwetting omo like omgmgmg! ! ! ! !

im always craving omo content so SEND ME UR FICS and TELL ME ABOUT YOUR OMO OC'S/HEADCANONS!! pls info dump i love listening to people info dump

uhhherrm some fandoms im in ig

omori, danganronpa, ddlc, bobs burgers, steven universe, total drama, murder house

yea ig thats it!!!! plsss spam my inbox im begging

#omorashi #piss kink #pee kink #omo

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ash14a · 10 months

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G H O S T

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nsfw drabble. this take is from my perspective of ghost and trying to really incorporate that personality of his in game.

look, i love the nsfw imagines lots of writers have for ghost since it fulfills the imagination people have, but at times i do wonder how he would 'truly' act.

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NSFW

right off the bat definitely a blowjob kinda guy, lets start there.

he's more on doing it solo but wouldn't turn down a bj if he trusts you.

the only reason he actually masturbates or would even allow a bj is cause of stress and other pent up feelings

lets start with how he likes it, it actually depends on his mood and given time.

he would actually just say how long he wants it to be, like take your time or i aint got all day.

if theres time he appreciates a lap dance before going down to business (plz not in military gear that's just haunting) he's middle aged, he would prefer a calm, seductive, and alluring way of performing, intense eye contact and little smirk here and there. it doesn't necessarily get him hard just entertained.

if there's time he would def appreciate a slow and long blowjob. take your time stroking, get him standing, his hand in your hair, eye contact is a must it creates tension, especially if you can hold eye contact with him for a long time, smirking, and doing that looking up look with lazy eyes (yk what i mean !) get it a little sloppy. moans here and there appreciated but he would def just grunt/sigh if he has to react. would like you to make sounds, likes to see you enjoying yourself (i stand by him not liking too much moaning or whining). if he's a bit playful he might talk with you about something else than the bj. if you're pushing buttons on the wrong day he'll end it without finishing.

you gotta do gods work to make him finish cause this man won't come undone with just glock glock 3000. not saying slurp him like a noodle (that might do the opposite effect) get him horny !!!

when he's done he'll clean up first and fast so he can help you out there, might tell you some dad jokes if you got along well during bj.

and on days when he's in a bad mood he will turn you down, if you try and force him you wont get a next time.

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okay that's my take on ghost, if i get more cozy I'll be def pouring out mad stuff. I want you to know i absolutely love getting hurt so thats why i love making ghost serious and no strings attached shit, all just for pleasure. I'm excited for graves that slut has next level potential.

first time uploading lmk what you think !

#simon riley #cod ghost #cod mw2 #call of duty #cod graves #simon ghost riley #me blabbing #cod x reader #cod mw fanfiction #ghost mw2

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chronic-gastro-illness-culture · 3 months

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I feel really alone and embarrassed dealing with chronic constipation (and diarrhoea from laxatives that I need to take). I also have a chronic fissure and hemmeroids. It is so painful and I don't know what to do.

that is a rlly difficult thing to live w

i dont wanna sound like im punching down or anything bc its not like any disability or chronic illness is any kind of “well off” in society but there definitely is an added stigma of having a digestive disorder

within reason bc anyone who has a chronic illness/es has ppl in there life who dont understand the ‘chronic’ in chronic illness ppl w chronic migraines or ear aches or pain or fatigue can talk abt what they r going thru even if ppl dont always understand but beyond saying “tummy hurtyy :(“ or saying ur n* or feel s* to ur stomach or vaguely indicating u r experiencing vague intestinal discomfort ppl w chronic digestive disorders rlly cant be fully open abt all the pain n suffering n even the celebrations like being constipated n finally being able to take a shit bc there is so much stigma n taboo abt “bathroom stuff”

like constipation for example is more then just cant shit it causes a whole list of physical symptoms from bloating cramps n* thats persistent n its just a miserable time n all that lain effects ur mood n mental health too

n when ppl who have other chronic disorders say things like my migraine is gone or my ear ache is gone or my flare up is over or today is a low fatigue/pain day then ppl celebrate w them yk they share in that victory but if u go around as a person who deals w constipation n say hey i finally got to poop :D ppl r like ew thats tmi i dont wanna know what u did in the bathroom

n that shame is compounded for people w chronic gastro disorders bc not only r u dealing w the inherent shame n ableism of having a chronic illness n ppl getting frustrated w u bc ur sick all the time again bc they dont understand the ‘chronic’ in chronic illness or think ur faking or exaggerating etc but then theres the extra layer of shame of having a digestive disorder n the very nature of ur chronic illness being viewed as inherently disgusting n taboo n unsanitary

n i made this blog bc sometimes u rlly do gotta be the change u wanna see in the world hahaha

anyways i cant do much for ur physical pain but ive added “#constipation” as a tag n queued up some specific constipation related posts so u can see others deal w it too n ur not alone

#anonymous #constipation #digestive disorders #chronic illness #stomach problems #hemmeroids #laxatives

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girlwithfish · 5 months

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Body image appearance discussion. tw for eds and dysmorphia and shit. and self harm and also sex tmi shit. idek. im contemplative bear w me

like basically i never was pretty as a kid or growing up. like idk i guess conventionally attractive people or if ur just "objectively" pretty ppl comment on that a lot if ur a girl like family members but i never really was complimented like that. if anything ppl just tore my appearance down in my family unintentionally or intentionally and i was bullied for my features as a kid and ppl commented on my nose a lot soooooooooo. i feel my really low self esteem just falls back into the whole like trauma of feeling like i shouldnt even exist bc of how i was raised and guilt instilled in u and all of the feelings of alienation socially and bc of my appearance and ethnicity and just who i was. i wasnt really pretty as a teenager either and when i was 18 and started actually exploring sexuality more idk i still felt like im not really pretty and its why i like never believe anyone who compliments me and i dont really get complimented on appearance much anyway so. and also the disordered eating borderline anorexia phase i had when i was 12-14 where i would like take ice baths and restrict and write my goal weight it was kind of fucked up ngl like i didnt rly damage myself physically like i didnt lose much weight but ik the mindset was very damaging and i just like did not feel good bc i had no energy bc i was starving myself LMAOOO anyway that definitely still carries w me even now even tho im better w it but still very much struggle w eating but thats more a depression dysfunctional thing i guess. and when i started getting more sexual i guess like i equate sex and love a lot sometimes i even feel like i cant be pretty but at least im somewaht attractive body wise and im good at fucking like is that crazy idk like sexual validation makes me feel loved and i dont feel like i am actually pretty or pleasant looking or nice looking so the most i can have is like my body is ok . and when i was a kid i used to want to cut my vagina lips off lmaoo cuz i iddnt know what outies were lmfao and shit and ive been having intrusive thoughts like that lately just bc im like really depressed and not having any sex and my relationship is not intimate anymore and i havent even masturbated bc ive been too depresse and i also think masturbating as a girl is kinda annoying like i wanna be in BED not like do it in the bathroom bc i have a big ass rabbit vibe that looks like an alien gun. like if u have a dick u can just jack off in the bathroom or something and its quiet yk???? but like w a vibe its ANNOYING. like i need to be completely alone and i live w someone so like thatsh ard. if i had a dick i would jack one off in the bathroom LMAO. im sexually frustrated and shit and feel like if im not sexual at all im just like ugly and something idk. But also not evne in the mood for sex bc im soooooo depressed. and also im very physical in romantic relationships but not w anyone else idk what thats all about. My mentality has always been if theyre being physically affectionate w me theres no way or little chance they can be mad at me. also i really hate porn and od not like watching it i havent really in yrs cuz i just didnt care for it after i started having long term partner sex cuz im crazy like that like i dont evendesire looking at other ppl when im in a relationship. yk. and i kinda disagree w porn just cuz ive seen waht it does to straight men and u hear so many stories. and it makes me uncomfortable to see ppl have sex i realized. i only like seeing myself have sex LMAOO. im like sexual but in a private way. and i have a weird relationship to sex and my body and shit. idek. its cuz im like ed core also not white also unconventional looking and idk was a late blooemr sexually a little so. IDEK. but yeah im trying to have a healtheir relationship to how i view myself but its fucking hard

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narwhalandchill · 7 months

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FINALLY FINISHED 4.1 AQ!!!!! (General thoughts also Lot of childe thoughts + 4.1 spoilers obvi and 4.2 leaks warning, LONG)

ok OK OK that was actually insane holy fuck. i was mad initially when childe lacking voicelines in 4.1 leaked but like bro was Still a central character im cool! im cool! keep it up in 4.2!!!!

FIRSTLY. i was fucking right i KNEW the oratrice was ALWAYS onto childe being connected to the primordial sea through 'it' GOD the sheer fucking amount of "theories" i saw that were like oh its all just arlecchinos machinations nothing abyssal whale is an easter egg (?) childes poor mood is bc hes drugged with sinthe by arle (??????) etc etc etc. eat my fucking ass. i saw this shit coming YEARS ago i knew i fucking knew.

honestly its just like my dearest ajax to minmax his K/D ratio to the point that he becomes the murder weapon to a case that started when he was like 5 like what a legend. he is so talented. 🥰🥰🥰🥰

im still highkey on the copium camp that the leaked humanoid phase of the ptahur fight wouldnt literally be childe tho. unironically mostly bc i think its simply a crime against him to let foul legacys visual design AND ptahurs whale design serve cunt that hard only to do the ugliest most generic possible rectangle shaped dark armor guy for A Boss Fight. Like cmon. the purple cyclops look with the flowing galaxy cape and fluffy collar was The Shit. give us extra galaxy effect pastel purple water-y polar star motif-y foul legacy design for childes magical girl powerup not That. tho if childes only gonna look ugly before he asserts his claim over the whales power and then gets a cunty powerup then all is forgiven 🥰

AND WE SAW THE WHALE I WAS LITERALLY GIDDY WATCHING THE CUTSCENE. knew it was coming bc i spoiled myself on purpose by watching it on yt i Had to see it but. ITS SO GOOD. God. and then 4.2 we will fight them both??? & the boss title is "devourer of the stars"???? like its so fucking abysspilled and real i feel like a starving middle ages peasant being fed from the royal banquet table ive waited SO LONG. foul legacy is called devouring deep and 'it' is Litetally titled devourer. this isnt a fucking coincidenceee im in love . WILF i said what i said

anyway i do agree that in terms of lore implications i dont think its unrealistic at all for it and its will to overwhelm ajax temporarily like that thing is the devourer of stars which. Might i remind people literally means devouring fate in the world of genshin and constellations. a world ending entity. but also at the same time this might be me being insane and abysspilled (always looking for a reason for apologism yk) but like. theres no direct confirmation either way whether ptahurs intentions with childe are really malicious at all. he awakened it, theyre linked and its calling for him and sure thats bad for fontainians' projected life expectancy but we cant assume much else. i mean childe was in the deep sea he might be snezhnayan so immune to anti french bathwater but bro couldve been drowning maybe the whale helped out a pal. and the music in the cutscene was more wonder than terror too? fanon guys are just coping bc they dont want childe to get worse when thats just much sexier Trust (she says, overtaken by constant paranoia that somehow theyll pull a 180 and damsel-ify him with no actual narrative weight or satisfaction for his arc ahahaha)

(but like me when i havent read tusk of monoceros caeli item desc and understood that the all-devouring desire to crush everything in his path like the solipsism represented by the image of a whale cruising through the celestial heights is very explicitly stated to be a part of himself childe chooses to gleefully embrace do not fucking try me you illiterates. sorry i got emotional for a sec back to 4.1)

AND LIKE NO I DID NOT MISS THAT NEUVILLETTE DID NEVER IN FACT CLAIM PTAHURS SENTENCE UPON FONTAINE WAS UNJUSTIFIED. JUST THAT IT WAS TOO HARSH. so like listen listen listen. (pulls up my abyss is justified the gods are false the sky is fake so bringing ruin upon the world in the greatest sin against an artificial system is actually making the sinner the one delivering heavenly justice---- conspiracy whiteboard) ANYWAY point is childe tartaglia ajax should get to torch celestia and im going to kiss him on the mouth when he does. No one @ me. but actually neuvillette genuinely APOLOGIZED for overturning ptahurs authority to deliver its sentence. im gonna read into this so hard it might be reaching but who am i if not behaving down bad horrendously about the abyss and the prospect of a cosmic eldritch entity shattering celestias world order into pieces,?? this is my Brand

act III has so much hate but i thought it was fine SJSJSKSJFKFIDKFK it did what it set out to do and it certainly isnt as interesting as act IV but it did So much of the foundational work for the next act and managed to work well enough. it got a bit repetitive so like no it wasnt perfect at all but idk when u go in with the right mindset its perfectly competent. but i can see it feel horrible when u Really just wanna get to the action parts so like its fine if ppl dislike it jsjajsk not too pressed either way

anyway i find it so cute how many people are reacting to travelers dreams of childes pov as this like omg theyre in sync and not like. An explicit confirmation that visions are mass surveillance tools p much 💀💀💀💀 like its not even ON HIM and he can still be tracked how is this endearing im so lost JSFFJSJSJ

honestly beyond the obvious childe brainrot its hard to even go off about just any specific character bc EVERYONE got it so good. chlorinde dodged the sara allegations im SO fucking happy for her!!! even if it wasnt that much its already far off from that travesty!!! her and wrios dynamic is so fucking funny i adore them and wasnt expecting it at all.

wrio is fucking GREAT! i absolutely lived for every single line of dialogue he had like mans literally the funniest person in fontaine. silver powercreep. but not just that bc hes actually so fucking good and interesting and intriguing and i loved the overall role he played. the whole power play he did w lyney and that entire confrontation played so well with both his and lyneys character im just. this was a certified banger. the house of hearth sibs were all great and lyneys characterization had So much depth and nuance i really liked the way he wasnt dropping his and lynettes backstory in 4.0 just to trauma dump but that it was all actual setup for his minor/major breakdown during act IV and that payoff was so worth it!!! arle chiding him for his pride too. listen to your dad lyney.

speaking of Whom.

oh my god oh my god arle arle arle. this woman had me actually fucking blushing like. Her ENERGY. The Poise. the Threat. the Pressure. the veneer of perfectly conducted civil friendliness that feels more threatening than if she just put a knife to my neck (which. she could. id thank her)??? how shes genuinely LIVID at furina and about the prophecy and just kept pressing at her?????? no woman in this goddamn game has had an effect like this on me i feel so weak im such a fucking dyke oh my god. HER VOICE. HER FUCKING VOICE. EVERY SENTENCE OUT OF HER MOUTH I WAS EATING IT UP. that like. idk how to even call it that like dry breathy quality to her voice is just?????? i was transfixed i was obsessed i was hypnotized.

and ofc she didnt really gaf about childe much SJAJSKSJFKSKSKDKD but like unironically funniest fucking mental image from this AQ was the concept of if arlecchino ever somehow got arrested in another nation CHILDE would be her attorney like. 😭😭😭😭😭😭 HELP (logically ik he would do fine lmao hes smart and literally feeds his ego by being good at his job you guys are just so fucking rude comparing him to 6d chess zhongli in liyue AQ. thats zhongli being too galaxy brain not anyone else being dumb)

honestly i love love love this fucked up strict but seemingly truly genuine in her own fucked up way parental figure that she appears to be?? like this isnt redeeming her this is making her interesting as fuck and i do love that. the fact that shes generally very reasonable and collected but that you can just Feel the danger lurking underneath is literally So attractive i might keel over.

and like FINALLY a nation where its not all the fatuis fault!!! well it is all childes fault (so proud of him. thats my man!!) but you get what i mean GSJSKDK. arlecchino actually offering up her cooperation at the end just feels so refreshing and nice like ahhh. feels good feels organic.

so. neuvillette is the reincarnated hydro sovereign. whos surprised. (silence) yeah fucking thought so. honestly neuvi was both incredibly interesting and good but also his clueless moments of not picking up on jokes and banter are So autistic like if i hadnt already pulled him by the point i started doing act IV i wouldve the second he started sharing his autism diagnosis with us. so like im ecstatic to have him both on my main and NA alt actually.

ALSO. Confirmed that gnoses are based on stolen authority from the sovereigns. as a scalie enthusiast i Always had a hunch sth like this was up but having it confirmed is fucking excellent. and like it feels very much like furina/focalors (r they separate ppl or not? Huh?? is the gnosis in the oratrice?) r gonna allow neuvillette to tackle the bathwater problem by surrendering the authority over hydro back to its rightful heir n thats prolly gonna be a part of how fontaine dodges the prophecy. but its still very hmmmmmm

sigewinnes traitor moment actually caught me off guard it was SO funny. like she was actually fooling us i loved that. sure she always had good intentions and everything but still iconic. in general just how wrio and gang outplayed us in the fortress of merupide was great like it just really emphasizes how bro Runs the place for real for real and it was excellent. the massive ship was kind of out of left field tho. inb4 ptahur just crushes that thing anyway lmaooooo

theres probably more still but uh this is already too long JSJSKSKDK anyway yes i did enjoy acts III and IV very much how did you notice. sorry for the length of this crazed frenzy but not sorry actually. it feels so nice to get fed finally. im so hype for 4.2.

edit: wait i forgor furina. honestly im not gonna lie i was too mesmerized by arlecchino to pay that much attention to her so sorry about that but like GAJSKDJDKDK she was great too!!!

#rambles #genshin

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empty-system-culture-is · 8 months

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Hi. It's the mentioned before anon. Sorry if I made you feel more tired or worried. It wasn't my intention. It's completely fine to post these asks but only if You want to. I'm okay right now.there is more active dudes here but I just wanted to tell You about this one because they collected Soo much things nearly hoarded and I want to have use of all of this I own but from various reasons I can't do it now. I hope it will change in future (there is technically nothing that could stop me from doing this : only opinions of other people or my anxiety - so I hope this will be back one day - but I just wanted to talk about this feeling of lacking the sense of having all of this I've spend so much time of my life to gather in my room to cheer someone up and now it's meaningless because they are absent and they freaked out - if they exist) I'm new to terms but I'm 90% sure I'm not 1 single person. I wish you good day/night if it's possible. Sorry for inconvenience. Also I'm not native speaker

hey dw abt it /gen its good to know you're feeling alright (+ theres some active guys as well)

if you want my idea for a term or anything, you could be some kind of median system? with the "one day being certain of plurality, next day not really feeling much like it at all" (unless im reading that wrong, which is entirely likely).

hope you have a nice day/night as well (sorry if i havent been particularly helpful or anything) ((also dw abt it! sorry if i misinterpreted anything /gen))

i think ill post your other asks later on (seeing as, for me, its 9 pm and im not really in the mood to format things, yk? unless i forget though, which could very well happen ((in which case, if you WANT to, you can remind me /nf ofc)) )

#mod eli #not empty system culture #asks

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wigglepiggle · 2 years

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if you see honeycomb answer the same infodump its cuz I want more ppl to know of this bitch (also I forgot to hand honeycomb the image of Charlie-)

SO, to start things off Charlie is a fandom oc for the fnaf fangame Dayshift at Freddy's (specifically a dsaf 3 oc for au reasons) but theres a lot more to him then that- right now Imma b honest his backstory is the more fleshed out thing then his current story cuz despite my dsaf hyperfixation (which is sorta kinda dying out) I was never rlly able to get thru watching a dsaf 3 playthrough so lemmie just graaaaaab the backstory and slap it here (no I'm not I'm tying it out cuz I only gave a tiny bit of it to Lem-)

so Charlie was born & raised in a small town in Colorado with a childhood that wasnt too odd but wasnt great either, he was bullied a lot for being feminine and his parents tried to steer him towards more stereotypically masculine activities & interests but it took several years before it ever really affected him, another issue was Charlie had undiagnosed ADHD & pretty bad mood swings which affected him quite alot and led to his parents usually being angry at him for things he didnt understand he was doing but he was usually resiliant even if he was secretly close to breaking down he just tried to ignore it & move on.

Later on in his life he became super into old-school radio and tv show hosts who had that whole vibe yk? I dunno how to word it so Imma assume you know- but anyways he got super into the persona those radio and show hosts had and started to imitate them almost down to a T and was almost perfectly able to mimic the typical voice they had in his late teens which he used to help further him in his plan to become a host for a simple entertainment show and yknow what? He did manage to get a spot hosting a show on a very local tv channel for about a year but sadly his twist on the classic tv host personality made people not want to watch his show because he acted "too feminine" and slowly ratings dropped until they had to cancel the show and his dreams were essentially ruined because he's quite stubborn and therefore wont (and probably cant) change his personality much just to be more 'palatable' to people since it'll make him seem fake anyways

[ spoilered bit contains death mention ] after that he spent around 3 years hopping from basic job to basic job usually getting fired for some dumb reason or another (cuz his personality was very 'weird' to those around him also this was like the late 70s early 80s they knew he was gay & they wanted him out) but then he found a job at the local resturant ||and yada yada died ngl his story when it starts to properly connect with the dsaf series starts to bore me out but also kind of didnt die at the same time? He ended up in an undead state and since he was still alive|| he was bound to the company forever so he basically got moved around from location to location until the resturant chain crumbled to the ground

then Jack rebooted the resturant chain by opening a new resturant & Charlie got hired as an employee because what else could he really do in his life? Not much- but anyways now he's currently working there and uh lemmie just graaaaaaaaaaaaaaaab some bullshit again & explain his relationship with his friend/crush or bf (depends on the au) Rowan

Rowan was already working at the place before Charlie got hired since Rowan was the 2nd one hired just after the phone guy and one day Charlie tried to strike up some conversation while they were on break which didnt go to well because Charlie's a bit bad at socializing but Rowan saw the effort and later on tried to chat with Charlie which did end up going well and gradually they started to sometimes have conversations while doing misc work stuff & soon they became friends

Charlie was slightly clingy but thankfully respected Rowan's boundries because Charlie had been desperate for an actual friend for years and didnt wanna fuck this chance up so gradually they grew closer and [boom time to au split motherfuckers]

Rack/Rowan x Jack au: Rowan knew Charlie was one of those "single but in a way where he has good relationship advice cuz of that" people & tried to bring up the fact he was catching feelings for someone, Charlie was slightly saddened because he developed a crush on Rowan but he was willing to give advice even if it was slightly obvious this hurt him and Rowan admitted he had a crush on Jack (I am too tired to explain Jack if ykyk if you dont then insert roblox oof sound here) and Charlie gave as much advice as he could because he could handle the fact Rowan didnt like him well enough where it didnt crush him and when Rowan & Jack started dating Charlie was supportive & the crush died down enough where Charlie didnt really care

CottonCandy/Rowan x Charlie au: Charlie slowly developed a crush on Rowan during their friendship and tried to keep it secret & push the thought down until it got too bad & Charlie had to confess sometime soon, that sometime came on a random night when Charlie was being a simping insomniac & had a really big urge to text (oh yeah surprise we're in 2023 timeline wise now) Rowan confessing that he loved them, thankfully Charlie's common sense dulled that down to pulling a "I think I like someone, have any advice?" text then hinting it's Rowan from there which he then proceeded to do, ngl the text was probably basic asf & Rowan sort of got the hint but he denied it at the same time until a week later after their day at work Charlie & Rowan decided to hang out at a local park & Charlie decided to confess to Rowan, Rowan was slightly surprised but also was thinking about the hints from earlier that week and even smaller hints from the past month or so and said he had to take a while to think about it, Charlie tried to remain calm and accepted the fact as best as he could because he thought he was being rejected but a couple days later Rowan texted Charlie saying to come to his place after work & after a few hours of hanging out Rowan said he liked Charlie back too

extra dumb tidbits:

gay gay homosexual gay (& probably graysexual)

keeps that piece of metal in his eye cuz it hurt too much to remove & it looks cool

intentionally has a feminine vibe to him cuz he embraces it nowadays

usually pretends to be a girl in public because his face looks naturally feminine & he doesnt feel like being harassed by assholes

usually kicks his legs out without paying attention..sadly he's kind of good at kicking & has accidentally hurt ppl doing this before Image:

I have not seen anything related to dsaf in awhile but I love him!!!! Thank you for sharing him with me!!!!

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helloiamhumanperson · 3 years

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TW: Sensitive topics

Damn....you ever idolize someone then they do messed up bullshit? Like end up a ped0 or r@pe some crap....then you go back to something you like still but its from then and you don’t look at the same...but you still love it but resent it....yea

#jk rowling #grlwood #me irl #i loved harry potter as a kid I still do but I can't look at it the same #I can't believe they did that to Karen I hope they are ok #theres more people but yk...not in the mood #going to try seperating the art from the artist #think back to the good ol' days #but I can't look at it that way anymore

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sunaluvs · 2 years

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waiting at a red light and looking at all the people in the cars and realizing just how vast our world is

#idk its like #all these people have their own lives and own things to do and places to be. they have stories to tell and life lessons to teach and #mistakes to avoid and experiences to live with and yk theres already so much of that in a single person #in me and my friends and my family #theres just so much in us to recount and speak of that a decade could pass n me n my little family of five still wouldn't be done detailing #all of it. and right here and now theres like 50 people passing by me in their cars who also have that and its. i dunno. its crazy to me #not crazy but like. sobering? no that makes it sound sort of negative #its like a realization i guess i dunno how to word it but yeah #and it makes me think cause we have 8 billion people in our world. 8 BILLION human beings like that #how many stories are in there. i think the world could end and we'd only be through maybe a couple thousand #UGH ID ONT KNOW #im in a mood #good one. or like neutral but not bad lol im just thinking thoughts idk i dont make sense #i was people watching on my walk as i usually do and its never really hit me before until i was a red light and all these cars were waiting #and passing by me and i was just like. huh. these are people. real human beings. theyre not just part of the backdrop in this view #they have lives like me and have probably lived longer and through more #i dontknow #i sound stupid LMAO SJNSNAHDNDBD #delete later

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nyxire · 2 years

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list of things to do to make me instantly dislike you:

1. tell me what to do with my hair in regards to cutting it

#and sorry let me rephrase that. but anyone who does it in just a not friendly and/or inquiring way #like if you're giving your personal opinion on why you would never have it at my lenght. obviously that doesn't bother me. but if it's like #'you should cut it' 'you could just trim it' and like okay you say it once. i'll shrug it off but if you keep going at it. im. yeah.#Theres probably more but this is like at the top of the list #if it's just curious inquiring it's fine. like say 'it doesn't bother you?'#but like if you tell me i should cut it you are instantly on my 'we're probably going to have problems' list #To be completely honest. even if you said that i don't think i'd instantly dislike you #i might ignore it. depends on my mood #i try no to let first impressions be everything yk #but. my extended family tend to tell me stuff like 'you don't want to cut it?' 'isn't it too long?' 'not even a trim?'#and shit like that. and it gets very annoying after a while bc? it's my hair??? like no. i haven't wanted any for at LEAST 5yrs.#you keep asking but the answers not gonna change #anyways when i was younger my dad gave me permission to kick any family members in the shins who might've tried to bully me into cutting it #i didn't and haven't. but the fact that i could probably still do it today and my dad would prob cheer me on is a nice thought #I probably sound like a prick rn. sdjfkl sorry i can't find a way to properly explain it #i've just gotten a lot of annoying comments (most from earlier mentioned extended family) about how i should cut it #and some people just. uGh.#my hair! not yours!#sorry again #nyx talks #rant

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sailorhyunjinz · 2 years

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What do you mean you're not telling is more?? You can't say that and then not tell us more 😭 what does that mean? What signatures did you analyse and how the hell does one analyse signatures? Anyway, good for ji, he should be confident because he's perfect

- horny! jisung is valid

im a nerd when it comes to like stuff that can analyze a person or a situation i.e tarot cards, astrology, numerology AND MY FAVORITE; graphology.

IM NOT GONNA LIKE point too much stuff out cause its probably gonna annoy the shit out of some and i dont wan by inbox exploding with angry people soooo,,, BUT the ones that kinda,,, raise concerns with me is chans, seungmins and hyunjins. AND JEONGINS IS V V FASCINATING IM TRYING TO PUZZLE TOGETHER WHAT IT CAN MEAN but lemme show you

this is chans signature and also i wanna talk about the text written at the bottom on the second picture SINCE ITS SO FASCINATING AAAA I LOVE STUFF LIKE THIS YALL ok the signature in itself in these two examples are written straight which is great, in some ive seen inclining and reclining slants which shows that he changes mood in a healthy manner. the two first letters are big which speaks for him wanting to show a very strong side and confident side when met with new people or just media in general, he wants people to see him as confident and he wants to be respected but you see how the text suddenly gets illegible after the two first letters and they shrink in size? its a facade. deep down he's insecure, he carries them deep down and he hides them very well also HUUUGE insecurity loop in the letter "h". the line is what concerns me the most, the line that goes over his signature. you see how its going forward and then backwards and then forwards again? he's stuck in the past. he often thinks back on his childhood or previous experiences, overthinking them and he just finds comfort being in the past. OH AND the text at the bottom says "i'll eat well, very delicious" and you see how theres space between the words and its a normal distance, maybe leaning towards a bigger one but still considered "normal" which means that he has a healthy distance to people WHICH GREAT but when he writes "stray kids" theres no space. he cares so much about the rest of the group and he wants to keep them close, this small detail shows how much he cares AND I JUST FOUND IT VERY COOL OK MOVING ON

this is hyunjins signature! its illegible pretty much or maybe i cant read like i see an "h" but yeah his signature is big which indicates that he's not afraid to take place in whatever setting it might be but the illegible signature or legit any siganture that you cant see WHATEVER THE FUCK ITS SUPPOSE TO SAY shows that he's secretive and likes the game of having people guessing about who he is and what he's gonna do next. like looking at his siganture i just see a huge "h" which also shows me that he's scared to show his full potential. if you have a signature that only states your first name can mean that maybe you arent so close to your family but in this case he just diminishes himself to one single letter which is once again an insecurity trait and i would more say that this is like an insecurity to show potential yk? he's comfortable with who he is rn and such but maybe a bit hesitant to try something new in fear of criticism. he's a very friendly person tho v v friendly but maybe a bit secretive~ once again the line is very concerning since this one, in comparison to chans is going downwards signaling pessimism that can maybe keep him back sometimes but AH PROTECC HIM <33

this is seungmins signature and OH ALSO disclaimer here!! im sure that this isnt their like "official" signatures, this their autographs aka when they live up to their career and maybe not their signature when it comes to official documents yk since we tend to change them depending on the situation but yeah- this one is legible to some degree,,, the very high i-dot is ahshash mf has confidence. like ive said earlier the line over the signature throws me off but from what i have seen sometimes the line goes above his signature which is like a V V HIGH CONFIDENCE like almost a bit too much so im not as concerned for seungmin as i am for chan and hyunjin since their lines always happen and its always over the entire signature yk?

THIS SIGNATURE IS SO INTERESTING TO ME since i havent seen anyone that has this type of signature. he always draws the fox which signals playfulness but the rest is just a line which,,, like its not even "J" or anything, it looks like a flipped "s" which is a huge sign that he craves anonymity? sure he is an idol and its a job that doesnt allow that ALMOST LIKE DAMN but if we were to remove the fox and just look at the line we wouldnt know that it was written by jeongin? which like hyunjin, v secretive almost wants to be unknown? he doesnt want his idol life to mix with this personal life at all cause i doubt that this is his "official" signature. very straightforward, "im here cause im here bitches" type of attitude judging by the size and the lack of tilt

ok i said i wasnt gonna give out too much and i did but SHUUUUSH DONT-

and i dont wan people attacking me rn like if yall dont believe in graphology thats fine, move right along but i like it and WELL IF YOU DONT THEN DONT AIGHT OK <333

#horny!jisung is valid anon #Cherrymail🍒

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Maybe these are not boring: Happily, Just Can’t Let Her Go and Where Do Broken Hearts Go?

Happily: Name three things that make you happy.

1. My cat being in this mood most of the time:

2. Louis

3. Harry

(omg she said Louis first omg just say you hate harry askldjal)

Just Can’t Let Her Go: Name five turn ons.

waists bro

big ass kind blue eyes

stop describing louis challenge

broad shoulders where like if the person wears an oversized shirt it just kinda just ghosts WooOOoOooOooo around the torso bc it's just hanging on the shoulders not finding the rest of the body like weewoo curtain im fine

stop describing harry challenge..... bro I swear I've always been lke this it's not them ok its not

b u t t help these are all just physical attributes am superficial af

this is a mess god ehm just? confidence? Not like a lot? just a lil? A humble lil confidencey. there.

beanies and oversized sweaters and just cuddly comf lookin comfs still just describing otp I can't help it ok their range is too big whatever you gonna go for will describe them ok they're everything

Where Do Broken Hearts Go?: Talk about the best concert you ever attended.

Tbh.. concerts are sooooo dependent on your position in the crowd. Like barricade is just stand and stare and really take that shit in and amazing, and for that I'll probably go with RHCP. And then there's the front but past the first few rows is also the shit but a different kinda shit it's more like yeah you can take in the experience properly but you also have that crowd vibe and you just create a whole space there, for metal and just heavy shit it's... the pit, yk where a moshpit happens, and you see with Harry's concert there's congalines and dances are happening (and fights but lkasdajsk)... So for that one I'd probably say Slipknot as that's some craaaaazy energy and craaaazy moshpit. Like I just wanna see the biggest pit possible man that's the SHHIIEETT and that haaappeeenned that thing was massive and i was riiiiiight there and my friends were riiiight there and we got spread out across that field of a pit and just raaaan and people and shoes were flying and we screamed just if you trip if you fall if you hurt eachother theres just 10 people lifting you up to safety, if someone or something if a phone/wallet falls everyone just stops and creates a human barrier safe zone and all the flashlights go on and we find that shit THATS THE SHIIEETTT metal concerts are THE best and it's like you're flying and it's just so nice adsdfasdasdsa. Also like being on your way to find that sweet spot in the crowd before a show man with your friends that just feels like fking peaky blinders slomo walking scenes yk feels good man asdsdf.

That reminds me I got a larry/ie anger playlist that just peaks with just a wholeass slipknot spree after Kiwi in the middle there hmmhmm.

The RAMBLES.

(Asks but it's 1D)

#if you're someone that blogs about one direction and would use 1D asks to advocate heavy metal concerts please see me in my inbox #niches bro we love to see em

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ahhhh ty ty ty <3

ok, so I think that what makes Dream act this way (iykyk) is how dreamwastaken became so big so quickly. and by quick I mean fucking lightning speed.

he didn't have enough time to learn enough about cc etiquette, especially in these three aspects: influence, boundaries and fanbase/stans/whatever you call it. I'll try to explain it:

• Influence: Does he know the influence he has? Like, when he hears that he is the myct with the largest fanbase, does he really process that? I remember he talked about not being able to control all of his fanbase and there's bad apples everywhere -- which is true, and that only like 1% of his fanbase breaks his boundaries (that include sending hate for him, harassing, doxing, etc. yk, basic twitter culture lol) but, honey, with your big ass fanbase, 1% is still a lot of people. As a content creator you *have* to be aware of that.

let's take the hbomb situation. First off, as a streamer, it's you that set the mood of the stream. Even if he was only messing around with his pals, even if they did say to do not send hate to hbomb, dt dunking on him created a toxic environment, which caused his fans being toxic towards hbomb and you know what happens next. Hell, when this happened, I was watching Tapl and he was watching them and he was crying laughing over them screaming bc they were just. so loud and so aggressive that it was kinda ??? Sirs, this is literally a Minecraft Stream lmaooo

my point is, that was not the road that dreamwastaken, 21M fans, should've taken. he don't condone his fans actions but he knows his fans are diehard and will always be on his side, he should be more careful before stating negative opinions, especially if its towards another person.

• Boundaries and Fanbase: He posted a list of his boundaries a while ago, idk if you know or seen it (btw please george copy your bestie for the love of god <3) but I'm not talking about those boundaries, I'm talking about the basic boundaries between cc and viewer. boundaries that, in my opinion, should exist between cc and viewer. I get that Dream is an open person, an oversharing type of open person if I may add, but I think he should take a step back regardless. When I heard that he was taking a time from twitter, I genuinely got so glad, not because he couldn't start any drama then, but because it would do so so good for his mental health. I'm not even that fond of him, it's just that for me, any cc taking a break or outright leaving twitter is a win for me. I know how RSD is hard to deal and honestly letting shit out it's better but dream you have dt you have bbh so please don't make things worse online 😭 I know how good can be to feel validation from millions of people but. it's not a good idea, especially in the state that his fanbase is on rn (this topic is kinda sensitive to talk abt for me bc people be outright ableist and hide it as criticism like. say that shit's not helping his reputation and whatever without acting like he's fucking. manipulating his fanbase for being affected by his rsd💀 or, on the other hand, don't say that hes just being adhd🤪 when he's just being an asshole like damn that's a Him thing bro lol)

(omg it's so big I'm so sorry and theres a part two I'm so sorry tumblr user messed-up-gal ToT) - morango 1/2

pt. 2:

Dream is the proof that the people who loves you can be your downfall. istg. Have you noticed that every drama that Dream enters, people usually get more mad abt how his fanbase reacts (85% they'll react in a bad way) than Dream himself? it's not always, but its definitely more likely. I'm not saying Dream is saint, he Is petty and his ego does him dirty and made him choke multiple times before,, But! i dont think hes a bad guy. he's literally just a dude. ok, he's a 21yr old white gamer man that has a trumpie past (maybe?? idk. I think hes cured now ig lol) so he's bound to do some shitty things but he still tries to get better and hopefully he'll mature. 21 is old enough but it's still so young, yk? I kind of lost my mind during the end and my eyes are literally begging to be closed so tl;dr: Its gonna be hard for him to become a better cc bc his fans don't let him be criticized (by infantilizing his adhd symptoms or the mob mentality as soon as someone says anything abt him), the honest criticism get lost between lies from antis that don't know shit, he still has a lot of growing up to do and overall he became famous too fast and he needs to learn things even faster bc as soon as there's not a single one dream hater on sight they'll turn their back and attack him instead lmao I hate twitter i definitely have more to say but I'm tired and my memory is shit. just-- hate dream if you want, love dream if you want, nobody is obligated to have an opinion but I wanted to express mine. have a lovely day! -morango 2/2

Aight, there's a lot to unpack here, so Imma try to only go into the points I have something to add to (here's what I talk about in each paragraph, if you want to jump to a specific point):

Speed of Dream's rise to fame

The "bad apples" in the Dream fanbase

Post-MCC HBomb stream

Not condoning versus actually condemning his fans

Manipulation & RSD

Criticism of Dream, his fanbase, and his brand

The “just a dude” argument, flipped

First, I agree that one of the many factors that has resulted in the current image Dream has set up for himself, the way his fanbase functions, the ways people hate on him, and the way the Dream brand functions, is the speed of his rise to fame. It's unique, and there are probably a hundred social/psychological angles that could be used to examine the exact effects of that speed upon all of these facets of the Dream Name; did rapid fame beget the rapid rise of unrighteous hatred, did those waves of hatred then instigate the rise of a surprisingly overdefensive fanbase, did that rapid fame get to his head and/or result in an inability to appropriately handle all the after-effects of rapid fame, etc.? That point you bring up, about how the speed of his rise to fame requires him to learn even more quickly, is so interesting to me. I think that maybe Dream expected to get pretty famous pretty quickly, hence the preparedness in regards to some mechanics of influencer fame- merchandise, business-building, networking, knowing how to manage his fanbase to best benefit him. But I don't think he expected to get this famous this quickly. This is all speculation of course, as are this entire post and your ask, but I think that he just couldn't anticipate having to learn how to handle enmasse controversy, waves of antis, or every Youtuber speculating/knowing about him; and yeah, that results in him having to learn all of these things very quickly, lest he allow his whole brand and fandom to fall apart.

Second, I disagree with the frequent argument that Dream's fanbase is only marginally toxic. Personally, I think that the circumstances of Dream's fame, his personality and management of his fanbase, and his brand of content have resulted in the very specific kind of stan that Dream stans are. I don't think this is simply a case of "all fandoms have a small percentage of assholes who take it too far;" rather, the nature of the community itself breeds the kind of mentality of "an asshole who takes it too far." I only even know this because I was a Dream fan (kinda a stan, I'm ngl). At one time, I watched every single Dreamwastaken & Dream Team video multiple times; I listened to the Manhunts on repeat, as though they were podcasts; I followed mostly smiletwt and dttwt accounts on mcyttwt; I had upwards of 10 tabs for AO3 DNF fics open on my phone at a time; I watched DNF and Dream Team Being A Family-esque compilations on repeat; I watched every George and Sapnap alt stream I possibly could; I went out of my way to defend Dream against Redditors and Twitter antis regarding the cheating scandal. For the latter half of 2020, and a couple months of 2021, I lived and breathed this part of the fandom; so when I say that Dream stans are a whole other breed than any other kind of mcyttwt stan, I say that because I used to be like that, too. I usually use parasocial very loosely or ironically, but Dream stans are genuinely one of the most parasocial fanbases I have ever seen or been a part of. The level of investment Dream stans have in this man's life, the lengths they will go to to defend him, the amount of psychonalysis and digging they do on his life and character, the amount of emotion he can evoke in them- it's taken to another level, man. This isn't just characteristic of a fraction of his fanbase; this is what the fanbase is like as a whole.

Third, I partially disagree with your take on the HBomb thing, but not in the way one might think? I actually empathize with the way they reacted much more than I thought I would, simply because I suspect I have RSD (also suspect I have ADHD, have for several months now) and I can see myself getting insanely frustrated because of something like that. Like yeah, it was "just a MC stream" or "just an MC game," but that's kinda disregarding the fact that something that might seem like "just a [insert inconsequential thing]" to a rational mind might have a major emotional consequence/take a major emotional toll on someone with RSD, or really anyone who gets easily impatient/angry about video games (Sapnap reminds me of many of my friends, in that way). The issues I, personally, had with the way they handled the HBomb situation is that these are simply explanations and reasons for my empathy; they are not excuses. I have no excuse when I get irrationally angry about something inconsequential in my own life, for a couple of reasons. One, because I am an adult and I need to learn how to handle my reactions and manage my own anger. Two, because as someone with many mental problems, it is my responsibility to learn coping mechanisms to ensure my own emotional stability and livelihood; this includes learning whatever I need to handle RSD- whether that be isolating myself from others when I know I will become violently/passionately angry about something, creating and sustaining a support system that can get me through bouts of extreme emotion, finding healthy emotional outlets for my negative emotions that won't harm myself or others, or a combination thereof. I don't think what they said about HBomb post-MCC was an irreversibly horrible thing, or anything. I think there were errors committed by two men who should be fully capable of foreseeing and preventing those errors, but I don't unconditionally hate Dream or Sapnap for the post-MCC stream or comments. I just wish they had made amends quickly, publicly, and sufficiently, because the greatest consequences from the whole thing weren't even from those two criticizing HBomb themselves; they were from the waves of backlash because of their immense influence on the MCYT fandom, which could've been prevented, if they had acted maturedly and responsibly after the stream.

Fourth, you��re right, that he doesn’t seem to condone his fans’ behavior. I detest the frequent anti argument that one of the reasons Dream should be criticized is because he explicitly uses his fanbase to attack others, or something of the sort. Personally, I think he created his fanbase in a very specific way and interacts with them in such a way so as to benefit him as much as possible, yes, but he never actually tells his fanbase to go and yell at or harrass anyone. Still, there is a significant difference between not condoning something and condemning something. It might seem unfair, and it might be annoying of me to say this, but I truly think that someone with this large a fanbase, especially one as overzealous as Dream’s, needs to be condemned every single time it goes on some kind of rampage/harrassment campaign. Either that, or Dream needs to make a definitive, permanent statement against any kind of harrassment of others on his behalf. I know he’ll occassionally make the odd tweet or serious stream addressing something his fanbase did, but one of the many reasons his fanbase keeps doing the same damn thing is because he’s so lukewarm and spotty about this condemnation. A fanbase like his needs to be given explicit guidance and boundaries for the numerous things they do in his defense- harrassing/doxing antis, harrassing people who criticize him who aren’t antis (respectful criticism, other CCs, other MCYT stans, etc.), harrassing the people he critcizes (i.e., HBomb), speculating about his personal life (his relationship with his gf, his mental health/ADHD, his romantic life, his childhood, etc.), and speculating about his relationships with his friends and colleagues. My personal ideology is that, if you have significant influence over someone or a group of people, you are at least somewhat responsible for the things those people do or don’t do, if it at all relates back to you. I’m so fucking tired of the argument that CCs aren’t responsible for what their fans do. Obviously they aren’t responsible for every single one of their fans, and obviously they can’t fully control their fans at the end of the day. But I think there are certain things that reach such a level of extremity that does make those CCs responsible. This can be measured by either scale or intensity; that is to say, if a CC’s fanbase does things on an extremely large scale, or one person from/a fraction of the fanbase does something really extreme, then the CC is made all the more responsible. Another CC I’ve always had trouble discussing with other people on this subject is Pewdiepie, in particular, about the extremists in his fanbase. Because the things a small handful of his fans have done in reference to him and/or in his name were so fucking extreme, I thought Pewdiepie had to take at least some responsibilty. Along a similar vein, because the things Dream’s general fanbase does are so widespread and on such a massive scale, Dream has to take at least some responsibility.

Fifth, okay. Hmmm. I want to tackle this point you made about the ableism he faces in some criticism of him carefully and with empathy, but not coddling. One, I do think a lot of the criticism he receives for the ways he handles criticism (post-cheating Tweets, reactions to John Swan, post-MCC HBomb stream, etc.), disregard his RSD and can be oftentimes ableist. I’ve actually encountered people irl who criticize this aspect of Dream’s character, and have had to explain to them their disregard for how ADHD/RSD affect neurodivergent people’s reactions to criticism. But - and this is a big, and very controversial but - I think mentally ill/disordered people can 100% leverage their mental illness/disorders for the sake of manipulation. This is actually something I’ve learned from a psychiatrist, regarding the ways people I know and I handle our anxiety and depression. This manipulation can be unwitting or intentional, but it is entirely possible, and the possibility shouldn’t be entirely dismissed as ableist. Living with a mental illness or disorder that others know about/that you are very public about puts you in an interesting position to receive frequent sympathy, empathy, and/or pity. I’m not saying that empathy for Dream having ADHD/RSD is entirely unjustified; on the contrary, I have frequently expressed how I can relate to his ADHD symptoms and have defended him for expressing those symptoms, both on mcytblr and in real life. I am saying that Dream fans tend to use his ADHD as a kind of shield for a lot of criticism levied against him, including the supposition that he could be manipulating his fanbase to defend him because of his public expressions of RSD. So yes, my theory is that Dream knows how to levy every aspect of his life for his personal gain and for the growth of his brand, and that includes his ADHD. I think he has courage for his openess about his ADHD, I think his openness has contributed to the rise in awareness of mental health and empathy for neurodivergent people within Gen Z, and I think at least some of his expressions of RSD publicly/online weren’t intentionally made public. All that being said, I also think he has to know just how much his fanbase cares about defending him for his ADHD, and I think he has to know that some of the things he does related to his neurodivergence endear him to his audience, in a coddling, baby-ing, mildly ableist sorta way. Maybe this is all incredibly presumptuous of me. Of course, I can never know the real intentions behind any Dream video, Tweet, or stream. Maybe I’m just projecting, because I can see myself doing just this, if I had the maturity I had circa 2018-2019. Idfk know, man.

Sixth, I actually agree with you here, people probably do get more mad at his fanbase than him. Dream puts out content pretty seldomly, considering the frequency of content output for other Youtubers/streamers in his field/at his brand size. And yet, he has received masses of criticism. Considering that the things Dream himself does/says do not entirely correlate with the amount of criticism he receives, I think it’s a logical assumption that a lot of that criticism actually goes back to the size of his presence online, rather than the man himself. That is to say, because of the massive community he’s amassed, the exponential growth of his fanbase, their presence on every single social media site and in virtually every single Internet space/fandom, and the size of his metaphysical presence in his fields, Dream is much bigger than the man himself, so the criticism he receives will, at least in part, be a direct or indirect result of all these other aspects of the Dream brand. Something I don’t think many Dream fans/stans, or even most MCYT fans in general, understand, is that Dream isn’t just “one guy” in the eyes of the Internet- at least, not anymore. He hasn’t been for nearly a year. Like Pewdiepie, Mr. Beast, and other CCs who have amassed similar levels of fame and wealth via Internet content creation, Dream is a brand now, and most people will treat him as such. He isn’t just some uwu soft boy playing Minecraft anymore. He is on a whole other level from any other MCYT in his friend circle or colleague interaction bubble. His words will never again live in a vaccum or private bubble, his friend circle will never again be under anything less than intense scrutiny, his past actions will never again be simple mistakes or silly errors, his words will never again be casual tweets or streams for laughs among a couple thousand followers. Dream’s name represents something much bigger than just the one man. As such, all aspects of his brand, including his fanbase, will tie back to him and, ultimately, to any general criticism of him.

I’m not saying I like any of this, and I actually think the evolution of influencers from people to a marketable brand with similar mechanisms, responsibilities, and liabilities as a corporation is some kind of late capitalism nightmare fuel; I’m just stating my own observations and theories as to why so much anti-Dream criticism seems to be directed at his fanbase, rather than him.

Seventh, he’s just a guy, you’re right, but I think a lot of the antis on Tumblr understand this more than you know. As I’ve seen it, the sentiment among much of the “DSMP stans DNI” crowd seems to be that of “Dream/other MCYTs are such ‘bad’ people, so why do their fans stick to these mediocre, racist men, when there are so many better people to watch/better content to consume?” We know this argument is flawed for many of the obvious reasons - the conflation of all MCYTs’ actions regardless of individual identity, the equating of a CC’s fanbase’s morality to that of the CC they enjoy watching, the exxageration of any error MCYT CCs have committed as bigotry/racism, the fundamental misunderstanding and misinformation that led antis to believe this exxageration of the facts, etc. But I want to focus on the general, underlying sentiment of, “why not watch someone better, when your creator is problematic?” Sometimes, I ask this of Dream stans. Yes, being mildly ignorant, getting involved in the scandals Dream has, and being a right-leaning/libertarian centrist in the recent past all seem like harmless things, all things considered. One could say Dream isn’t nearly as bad as many antis who are misinformed seem to believe, and that there are much worse CCs Dream stans could be watching and creating fan content for. But I think what Tumblr antis wonder is, aren’t there also much better MCYTs/CCs people could be watching and stanning? Because he’s just some guy, right? Is his content truly so exceptional or is he really so exceptional a person, that people have to stick by him, despite the things that spike up regarding his current or past actions? I think that’s what made me finally decide to stop watching Dream. I realized he was just Some Guy. The Dream Team was a comforting dynamic to indulge in, DNF was a cute ship to read and speculate about, and Manhunts were fun videos to watch; however, once the Reddit posts came out and I read them in-depth, the cost-benefit analysis tipped over to the “not worth it” side for me. I realized Dream’s content, while fun and comforting, was not entirely unique, and wasn’t worth sticking around for, given what I then knew about his past political leanings. If he is just Some Guy, then there are a hundred more like him out there. There a hundred more ships, a hundred more found family dynamics, a hundred more entertaining and skilled Minecraft players. So while I agree with you on the point of people being allowed to love him regardless because he is just a guy, at the end of the day, I think that, if we are to believe that sentiment or use that argument in such a manner, we should also understand the flip side- that, if he is just some guy, why is it worth sticking around? To that I say, maybe because people just enjoy the simple things they enjoy.

Anyways, I wholly agree with your tl;dr. Thanks for that insanely long ask, this was a fun thing to keep me occupied while I’ve been at work, facilitating Zoom sessions this whole morning.

#ive been writing this on and off since 830 am est SHEESH #dreamwastaken #dream critical #eh i think im relatively lenient of him here given my past posts ab him #but still just in case the blacklist tags for yalls convenience:#discourse #/neg #asks #long post #long posts #this a LONG one bois #morango

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