#they’d be very concerned

[chrollohearttags]

I really need to start dressing up and taking pictures of myself again. Got 3000+ photos in my phone and all of them in the past seven months or so are fictional characters/face claims lmao.

#cherry chats 🍒 #if somebody was to go through my shit rn #they’d be very concerned #like is she okay #the answer is no ❤️ #but for other reasons #crazy bc when I cosplayed/content created #I felt confident enough to do it #now i wear makeup once every two wks on my off days #haven’t even felt the urge to look at myself in the mirror lately

[waywardstation]

WIP FRIDAY

I apologize for getting this out two days late, I’ve been busy with lots of packing and events! But I have a little reprieve, so I wanted to post another WIP; this one is from Heart Full, Bowl Empty.

BE AWARE THAT THIS SEGMENT INVOLVES A CONVERSATION REVOLVING AROUND UNWILLING BUT INTENTIONAL STARVATION. I know there are people who say they can’t read this fic because of themes like this, so be aware of this before reading this WIP!!

I included this snippet in today’s WIP because I have like three versions of the entire segment this snippet is from. I feel like it’s a really important segment with a really important conversation, and I’ve had a hard time balancing all the emotions the way I want to between Ingo and Akari, with frustration, sadness, anger, and empathy, to realistically get them to the resolution I want at the end of it.

The final version will probably only include a few parts from this particular segment.

Enjoy!!

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“I knew it! You’re doing it again!” Akari’s eyebrows scrunched, trying to understand through the frustration. “You said you wouldn’t!”

“Circumstances will improve soon.” Clearly done with the conversation, that was all Ingo said, but it was confession enough that he had fallen back on his word. Shame contaminated his voice, but if there was any regret, he hid it well.

“No, it won’t!” They were not even half-way through winter yet. “And you know it won’t!”

Ingo said nothing as the kits carefully moved around his slumped form, finding comfortable places to settle around him. She didn’t know if he intended to snuff the conversation out with angered silence, or if he was just too exhausted to care about arguing with her anymore. If it wasn’t for his small occasional signs of movement or acknowledgement, she’d think he was actually sleeping.

Akari carefully stepped into the nesting layers, moving to sit down next to Ingo. She settled with her back against the cavern wall, pulling her knees close as a few kits shuffled around to accommodate her. “You know I’m right.”

Huffing out an irritated sigh and nothing more, it didn’t seem like Ingo had any intentions to engage with her argument anymore.

“You couldn’t even pull yourself up over the ridge,” She prodded at him again, trying to motivate more conversation out of him. “I had to help you!”

“There are many, many factors that go into that.” A reluctant answer, perhaps a reflexive attempt to quell her worry; Ingo feebly rubbed his wrapped hand, almost as a display for his excuse.

“I’ve seen you do more when you’ve been hurt worse.” Akari retorted, a little softer now but still cold.

Ingo’s eyes remained closed, though his hardened expression implied that it came across as more accusatory than she’d intended. But perhaps it was precisely the time to be accusatory.

“Ingo, you’re so tired all the time now – you stopped coming to the training grounds because you just can’t make the trips all the time anymore! And you’re sleeping so much more than you used to, and it’s like you’re always hungry all the time, even though all I see you doing anymore is gathering food!” Akari’s voice grew more jagged as she continued to jab at him, entirely uninterrupted.

It was getting difficult. With Ingo’s tunic still sopping by the bucket, still somewhat red from the exhausted effort of washing out the blood, it could not hide the ribs that pressed out just a little bit more, or help fill out what the waistline had lost under the loosening belt. The abject dread of directly acknowledging that was too much.

“And- and look! You aren’t even willing to hold a conversation with me anymore, and I don’t know if it’s because you just won’t, or because you can’t!” The kits shifted uncomfortably as Akari retreated back into her own frustration instead. “People think you’re sick, Ingo! They’re asking me about you! What are you doing?”

The exhausted man remained where he laid in the nesting material, only moving his hands to rub at his face and sigh — a deep, forced sigh that swelled his side before releasing. Akari almost didn’t think he’d answer her, but with some effort, he propped himself up first onto his elbows, then slumped forward. The teen watched him run shaky fingers through his hair as he sat next to her.

“…I don’t know what I should do.” The guilt. The weary guilt cracked his voice and tore Akari’s anger down to heartache.

#ref for fic #BE AWARE THIS IS DISCUSSING INTENTIONAL BUT UNWILLING STARVATION #tw starvation #just in case #cause I know not everyone vibes with this story #and I’ll say it’s been weird myself returning to these segments I wrote months ago and re-reading them #AND TO BE MORE CAREFUL I talk about a personal situation sort of dealing with this below #a lot has happened in the timeframe of originally writing this and coming back to this #at the end of fall I got very very sick and it lasted well into February #I unwillingly shed thirty-five pounds because I could not eat #and I didn’t notice at all until I stopped and realized just how tight I had to make my work belt #even when family members pointed it out during the holidays when they’d hug me #it wasn’t until someone got very concerned and did something about it that I realized just how bad it was #I’m sure people remember when I mentioned I had gastritis #that’s what all this was I just never really went into detail about how bad it truely was here #so coming back and reading this segment specifically #having written it months before I went through any of this #felt really really weird and a little uncomfortable #I edited Akari’s accusations a little to fit my situation more about a month back #because I did not realize just how much more stuff like this would make you want to sleep #at least in my experience #but it’s been very very just #strange I guess coming back to this #it doesn’t make me want to not work on HFBE anymore it just feels very weird

[squuote]

maybe controversial but I don’t think the narrator could stand being in a room with another one of himself. I think they would get into an immortal stand off battle that goes on for centuries about who is better and who is the “real” narrator and then the parable explodes

#/SILLY #THIS IS A JOKE #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #the stanley parable #tspud #tsp #sorry I don’t want people to think I’m being mean or whatevs 😭 IM JUST BEING SILLY #I just. he seems that way. to me #either he’d like working with himself or they’d try to kill each other #but tbh I think he’d be more concerned about how another version of himself appeared in the parable #and would be freaked out by it unless he did it himself #cause like he does have a fear of the unknown that’s very blatant

[vampyrsm]

lol so this girl from my old uni class copied me by getting spiders (she was adamant on hating them) and her jumping spider is very unsociable which is concerning

considering they’re one of the most curious spiders out there. out of all 7 of my jumping spiders, all from different broods, none of them have been unsociable

#— alex rambles #anyway don’t get pets you don’t know how to care for #no spiders aren’t as socialable as dogs obviously #they’re spiders. #but jumping spiders are very curious creatures #my jumpers would always watch me. tilt their heads when i spoke #they’d watch tv. they’d look out the window #they have very good eye sight (they can see the moon!!!) #unsociable jumping spiders is concerning.

[leafsheep]

Med student Bruce is one of my favorite things to ever.

Specifically Med student Bruce and all the insane shit he saw but was too sleep deprived to realize were red flags.

Bruce absentmindedly nodding along to a Psych major Jonathan Crane as he explains the concept of weaponizing fear and how using fears to control others is completely possible. He thinks there’s been a movie about that, but he doesn’t want to spoil anyones fun.

Bruce tiredly taking a pamphlet from one Ms. Pamela Isley and skimming it, concluding it as an environmental awareness handout when in actuality it was incredibly extremist and he did not notice the scathing commentary on humans as a whole.

Bruce vaguely listening to the ramblings of a soon to be Dr. Quinzel about her new boyfriend who Bruce personally thinks is a little bit of a maniac but she seems to just like those types of people and he’s sure that won’t lead to anything in the future.

Some things are more obvious than others in retrospect but looking back how was he supposed to know that stuff would be relevant later in his life?

#batman #bruce wayne #jonathan crane #pamela isley #harley quinn #gotham #gotham rogues #Harvey listened to all of these stories routinely and was very concerned about the new generation of doctors #Bruce was sure they’d be fine #Bruce was wrong #years later Bruce angrily mutters about how he should’ve ruined Jonathan’s fun and a little Robin dick Grayson was very confused

[tacosaysroar]

We took the kids on a tour of the Hammond Candy factory, which was pretty much exactly as long as they could handle.

They held Adelaide’s hand down the hall, picked out a piece of candy (or two) each at the gift shop, and (*whisper voice*) accidentally smashed a unicorn mug.

#we were a little concerned they’d be bored #but I think the promise of candy at the end was enough to hold them #they were very cool about the mug #wouldn’t let my sister pay for it #must happen all the time with the parade of kids constantly running through there

[yourlocalgrass]

I got them both in the same pull I was ready to drown 70 devil vouchers but got them in about 20 words cannot express how I’m feeling currently…

*Incoherent squealing*

#If someone heard me I think they’d call on someone #the noises I’m making are probably very concerning but who cares I got simeon 🎉🤍 #obey me nightmare #obey me simeon #seems like it wasn’t a nightmare this time #get it… #no. I never said anything that was a bad one.

[fellhellion]

🚬….

#am going to exhibit mental illness in the tags as heads up shdhdjfjf also dw none of what I say is #abt or concerns folks here but #yeah. as a tldr very Gabrielcore of me haha but yeah #I wondered for a long time how I could go years without #when a crumb here awakens a voracious hunger in me for affection and approval #and there is simply an element of ego to it - to enjoying the idea that those I admire like what i say #but I think the larger part is simply that I’m myself here #in a way I’m not irl. I’m not…I can’t be vulnerable to people. I can’t let them see me. I don’t want to be rejected I think #but here I am simply. unaware to people who don’t click with me. no one interacts w me unless they’d like to #and there’s a certainty to that which just isn’t quite present irl #so I think the reason I get so easily attached IS because it’s me. because it’s my true self. and I don’t. I don’t know how to not want that #approval and affection beyond just letting the feeling fade with time. beyond removing myself from spaces where it occurs #because it’s not. it’s not fair to foist that onto people who didn’t enter that knowingly. I don’t #I don’t want to be too much. I always feel like I’m too much. too serious too intense feeling too deeply and on and on #I m want to be just enough. not too little or too much. #and yet that’s not healthy nor is honest to those you want to connect w #and people aren’t obligated to connect w you - it’s egotistical to simply think you can correct social step your way into someone’s regard! #but ah I don’t know. it’s been a night. I just wanted to say it plain and honest and finally get it out #but this isn’t like shdhdj asking for pity and such. I’ll be okay it’s all just part of it #vent.txt

[cruelcruelsummr]

dirk and jake are like a cartoon villain and hero but with completely swapped motivations

#like #sure dirk builds dangerous machines and talks high and mighty and has a generally cold disposition #but he’s also very caring and concerned about his own moral standing and is constantly convinced he’s not doing good enough #and jake has the fun quips and thirst for adventure and adorable himbo aura about him #but really he’s a lot more self centred and obvious to outside problems and doesn’t actually enjoy all of the fighting and adventures #like with their personalities they’d make a perfect villain hero duo but Jake is heralded as a great hero while dirk is demonised #lke cmon guys they’re complex characters #the whole character arcs of the alphas is accepting the people they are rather than the front they project #to varying degrees of course #alpha kids #jake english #dirk strider #homestuck

[oddly-casual]

I need Raph and Mona (specifically te Rise versions) to do romantic dances, no no listen, hear me out- I need them to dance and take up the whole room because they’re two big reptiles with larger than life personalities and laughs that fill up the room and make the whole place feel at home, I need them to dance together like they are the only two people that matter in the whole world, LISTEN JESSIE LISTEN-

I need them to swing together and they both take turns sweeping each other in their arms because they’re both just that strong and they like taking turns being carried (they’re entire lives they’ve always been the ones carrying others and they finally met somebody who can carry them)

Understand me please- I need these two big girls and big boys to let loose and just feel the physical connection between each other and the rhythm of the music, I need them to laugh together so much they get dizzy-LISTEN I need them to take a breather when the song ends and just nuzzle their snouts and slowly rock each other side to side while holding hands and maybe even their tails curl together

I NEED-

#PLS PLS PLS #rottmnt #raph x mona lisa #save rottmnt #rise mona lisa #rise raph #I just think I’d be very sweet that they’d do this for each other #because finally they found somebody of equal strength and integrity who can keep up with them #they found somebody like themselves who’s strong enough to hold each other and make them feel precisely small and powerful at the same time #THEY NEED TO DANCE I MEAN IT #don’t worry I don’t think either of them are straight in case you were concerned #I don’t have a single thing to draw on I would make it myself rn if I could #also I’m convinced it wouldn’t turn out well #BUT IM STILL A WRITER I CAN DO THIS #Rise Ramona despite not exsisting gives me so many feelings I wish I was kidding #these turtles got me in a chokehold

[tacit-semantics]

We do need more shadow and knuckles interactions though. it’s all about the mildly (exceptionally) awkward Intensity. The wholehearted dedication to people and things that they care about. The complete and utter lack of social graces.

#i can’t decide if they would actually get along though. i think they’d both sort of respect what the others got going on but also be like #damn can’t STAND that guy. competitive of course. i think knuckles would be more concerned with the ethics of things whereas shadow is very #ends justify the means. this is absolutely just spitballing though ESPECIALLY with how shadows characterization has been since uh. 2002. #knuckles #shadow #sth #tacit rambles: sonic

[vlindervin7]

muslims will act violently homophobic in a country that values gay rights and then act shocked when it reflects badly on their community

#non muslims pls don’t interract but i’m sooo mad i just need to rant #also prefacing this by saying obvs muslims are not to blame for racism and islamophobia in europe these things would still exist without #all the controversy but omggg #so this group of lgbt muslims planned an iftar for other queer muslims and they had to cancel it bc of the threats they received #and now ofc all the politicians are going on abt how they cannot accept intolerance and this behaviour is unacceptable in a society that #preaches equal rights for queer people #and like… was that not to be expected??? the very muslims who do shit like this will be the first to scream islamophobia but are you making #ANY effort #this meeting was not for you it does not affect you you don’t even have to think abt it but what makes you think sending threats of #physical violence during the holy month of RAMADAN is smth you should be doing #there is nothing surprising abt the far right (who don’t even support queer rights themselves) to jump on this opportunity to make sure #everyone knows that look!! those muslims refuse to adopt our good belgian values #and yk they’d find smth anyway but let’s avoid adding fuel to their fire by giving them real actual reasons to be concerned #and on the one hand it does feel like victim blaming bc marginalised groups shouldn’t be held responsible for the hatred targeted at them #and it’s not muslims’ fault but i’m just so tired like they really can’t help themselves #something so deeply wrong with muslims who make hating queer people their number one priority like… i don’t think you understand what your #beloved faith stands for #it’s just such a shame to have to start ramadan with this kind of discourse everywhere #exactly 0% of this is surprising i could’ve predicted this would happen exactly but it’s just so tiring on all accounts #you want to live your religion in piece without being targeted for it? what makes you think attacking other ppl wanting the very same thing #is a logical response? use your brain and spend some time doing dhikr instead of spreading hate on the internet what is wrong with you

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Something something about Buck unravelling caution tape at a scene which an married gay man and his father. Something about it being a warning that buck is unravelling and something something about that unravelling having something to do with a father figure and acceptance - or the worry about acceptance.

#idk #it feels like it could be about Bucks desire to focus on making progress in his career and getting Bobbys approval in that #but also connected to Bucks feeling for Eddie continuing to develop in parallel to that journey #with buck then worrying about starting something with Eddie because of concerns over the impact it might have on his career #concerns about their work dynamic being brought to an end because they might be separated #and buck has history with relationship stuff and the firehouse - steeling the ladder truck etc #and then there is the potential for the Ramon of it all - the seeking acceptance (for both Buck and Eddie) from the father #the comment about the father still playing golf with the sons ex - is screaming at me about some comment about Ana (or Shannon) being made #the idea of what a parent thinks is the perfect partner for their child and what their child thinks being two different things #maybe it will be both scenarios #I think they’d be really interesting to see play out #and would actually play very interestingly into a buck spiral - especially as Eddie seems to have got to this point where he is fully #accepting of himself and who he is - and in a place to deal with parental jibes #whereas Buck isn’t - on either front #I’m rambling on my own tags again!! #911 on fox #911 spoilers #911 fox #911onfox #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buck #eddie #buddie #911 speculation

[heavencasteel420]

I think Steve reformed mostly because Tommy asked him to pay for the cola and aspirin without even waiting first.

#more seriously I think it’s the 1-2-3 punch of #(1) Tommy asking for the money right away after displaying very minimal concern #(2) Carol and Tommy gleefully talking about Nancy and Jonathan screwing (clearly a sore spot) #and (3) Tommy saying the *one* thing about Jonathan that Steve thinks is going too far #if they’d been like 10% nicer I think Steve sticks with what’s familiar #and works up more hatred for both Nancy and Jonathan

[castielmacleod]

I was deeply sad when Rachel died because she was right about calling Winchesters out on their bullshit and the way they treat Castiel. Honestly it was so good of her, and she was right ofc and I just wish the narrative truly acknowledged that rather than portraying that the Winchesters were in the right. This protagonist centered morality/thinking and privilage treatment is just annoying as fuck. Castiel was right in that whole arc and Rachel made the best points about the Winchesters and I stand by that.

Oh absolutely, it’s like I say I’m Rachel-coded 😭😭

Of course the show presents her argument as out of line or whatever but she was literally right. It sucks that they killed her like immediately because I would have loved to see her just. Grab Cas by the shoulders and go LISTEN TO ME. THEY ARE NOT WORTH IT. If only to put that thought in Cas’ head if nothing else.

Anyway.. Winchester critical queen. Thank you for your service Mx Rachel.

#Ask #I do wish they’d designed her differently…. I think Rachel grabbed the vessel that she could and isn’t super concerned about it #But in my heart I think she should have looked Edgy. In a punk kind of way #She seems like a very passionate and forthright person and I feel a look somewhere closer to that would suit her better #Season 6 was right on the edge of the “all angels wear pantsuits” thing that took over so she could have JUST made it in #Anyway Rachel my beloved….. Deancritted too close to the sun 😔

[honoviadakai]

Badly summarizing Hazbin Hotel songs: season 1

Happy Day In Hell:

Local nepo baby is very optimistic for someone who was born and raised in hell but damn it if you don’t find it a little endearing.

Hell Is Forever:

Your gut feeling about the pastor’s son was correct and he is indeed an annoying prick who likes to act God’s always got his back.

Stayed Gone:

Demon Jeff Bezos finds out his Ex is in town, isn’t happy about it and tries to slander the man only for his ex to immediately clap back and serve everyone some piping hot tea.

It Starts With Sorry:

Some of ya’ll are way too forgiving and it really shows…you’re lucky you dorks are adorable.

Respectless:

A 4’11 Millennial bitch serves absolute ✨CUNT✨ at a meeting she didn’t want to attend, local MILF is not amused.

Whatever It Takes:

A MILF and a lesbian sing about how they’d willingly die for the ones they love. It’s sweet but deeply concerning.

Poison:

Local twink took “conceal, don’t feel” way too seriously and now you’ll never be ok again. Have fun in therapy.

Loser Baby:

A DILF and a twink sing about how they’re the biggest losers in hell and it’s the sweetest fucking thing you’ll ever see in your god damn life.

Hell’s Greatest Dad:

2 grown ass men fight for custody over a grown ass woman.

More Than Anything:

The literal king of hell loves his child more than your father will ever love you and you just gotta live with that.

Welcome To Heaven:

The polite Christians are trying to convert you, but they’re really good at show tunes so I ain’t even mad.

You Didn’t Know:

Vindication for everyone who’s the black sheep of their family and now have religious trauma.

Out For Love:

Local MILF hypes up her newly adopted lesbian daughter by telling her love is the ultimate murder weapon.

Ready For This:

Local nepo baby discovers that the fastest way to get cannibals to fight for you is through show tunes and the promise of flesh.

More Than Anything (Reprise):

No, the two leading females are not “just really close friends.” You were told well before this moment.

Finale:

While the main cast is having a Bob the builder moment, 3 local bastards are promising to fuck shit up next season and the person you least expected is having a mental breakdown in the break room.

#Hazbin Hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #hazbin hotel music #charlie morningstar #hazbin hotel charlie #Vaggie #hazbin hotel vaggie #Alastor #alastor the radio demon #hazbin hotel alastor #Angel Dust #hazbin hotel angel dust #Husk #Husker #hazbin hotel husk #Niffty #hazbin hotel niffty #sir pentious #hazbin hotel sir pentious #carmila carmine #zestial #the vees #Vox #hazbin hotel vox #Valentino #hazbin hotel valentino #velvets #hazbin hotel velvette #lucifer morningstar #hazbin hotel lucifer