#they'll always be my source of happiness no matter what :(

[queerlixist]

ive been so stressed over uni lately i could barely watch any skz content but the moment i do it makes me feel so happy istg

#they'll always be my source of happiness no matter what :( #they make me forget for a moment of everything #def recommend watching old vlogs as well #for some reason i always go back to the same 3 vlogs from 2020/2021 #theres a feeling of nostalgia that makes me feel a lil bit better tbh #does it show im a cancer sun yet? LMAOOOOOOOO #skz

[nocturnesmoon]

Writing this while laying in bed and trying to combat my period pains. The painkillers are in fact not working, so maybe fantasizing about these two will instead-

Simon "Ghost" Riley x John "Soap" Mactavish x Transmasc!Reader

I just feel like Simon and Johnny would be amazing at caring for you, doing your period. Maybe they wouldn't be the most knowledgeable at first, but they are quick intuitive learners, and seeing their darling in pain isn't something they can stand for.

If they happen to be home during your period, expect the utmost and best care of your life. Don't feel like eating anything? Don't worry, they've made something just in case you get hungry. Need to take a shower but don't got the energy, don't worry, I'm sure both of them would be happy to help you out.

There is not a single craving they will not help satiate. Chocolate? Johnny's got something to spare, chips? Already in the cabinet, gummies? One of them is going to the shop while the other one cuddles you. That one very hype specific food craving that's really an absolutely ridiculous request? What do you mean ridiculous love, they've got it right here.

I normally get really bad cramps, and the only type of painkiller I'm allowed to take, doesn't help whatsoever. And if that was the case, I just have to believe that, the boys would then do everything else in their power to make you comfortable. They've got the heating pad ready in the charger, a hot beverage on the bedside table. If the heating pad isn't enough, they'll help with pressure instead, by either laying on top of you or having you on top of them and pressing their rough hands on the spots where it hurts.

You're not left alone for a second, unless you specifically request the alone time. If one has to go somewhere, the other will stay with you until they get back. He would put on your favourite movie, while you lay in his arms and snack on whatever it was you're craving. Don't feel like watching something? That's okay, you could read a book together, play a game, or even just lay and talk.

If there are chores to be done, they'll get it done for you, unless you insist that you can manage. Even then, once they see you huff and puff in pain, they'll practically order you away from the task, taking over for you and finishing up.

They know you're perfectly capable of doing it yourself, even in pain, but they'd rather have you resting on the couch, as comfortable as you can get, while they take care of it for you. You already do so much for them when they're home from deployment, doing everything you can to make sure they're resting, and spending quality time with you. Let them return the favour once in a while, making sure you're well cared for.

They know that your period can be a source of dysphoria, when it turns extra bad. They won't stand for your own self-deprecating thoughts. They'll reassure you at all the right times, as if they can read your mind. Reminding you that, you are their beautiful boy, the only man they could've ever wished for, that no matter what your silly head makes you think, they've always seen you as exactly who you are. It doesn't matter what you think your physical appearance might say, to them, you'll always be their man.

Maybe I'm just delusional, but I just feel like they'd be amazing for you. No matter what you might need from them, they'll do their best to provide. They love you so dearly, if there is any slight thing they can do to alleviate your distress, it's already been done before you can even ask.

I think the fact that I'm laying here alone, and I don't have a Simon or Johnny to take care of me should be a crime.

Anyways that's all Moon out-

#noctmoon fics #simon ghost riley x reader #john soap mctavish x reader #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #ghoap #ghoap x reader #ghost x soap x reader #ghost x reader x soap #soap x ghost x reader #soap x reader x ghost #transmasc reader #period comfort #period cramps #trying not to die over here- #I need them viscerally

[heartfullofleeches]

I feel like Dea is one of the best cuddlers out there

Soft/cuddling/comforting headcannons w/ Dea please🥺?

*Or i will take away ten (10) of your leeches right from your heart*

(You leave my leeches alone or I swear to Dea I will come after you-)

Dea - [Yan Deity] Cuddle Hcs

"Ah - you'd like to cuddle with me, my grace? I am unsure if I'd be the best partner, but I would be a fool to refuse your touch."

• This is the farthest from the truth as Dea is the best cuddler of them all. Their robes are softer than air and their skin as silky as the morning sun. Your comfort has been, and always will be their top priority. Dea will raise or lower their body heat to best fit your liking. They will carry you around until you fall asleep, or smother you in bed until all your needs are met.

• Prefers being big spoon as it's easier to care for you - burns up because they're so flustered if the roles are switched. Dea does not need sleep, but they'll find themselves drifting away if you play with their hair or singing to them as no matter what your voice to you - it's the finest gift your creator had ever bestowed upon one of its creations.

• Always runs a wellness check before you get too comfortable. "Have you eaten today, my grace? It's okay if you don't want anything heavy, but maybe a little snack - for me?" "Would you like a bath? I found a scent I think you might like and washing your hair calms me." They're usually with you at all times, but it never hurts to ask once or twice as your strength is theirs.

• Gently eggs you into talking about things you enjoy. "I believe that one music group you like has released a new album, my grace. Ah - but I can't seem to remember their name. Could you please remind me?" They likely already know as much as if not more as you considering they invest themselves into every part of you - but it fills them with so much joy to hear you ramble on about the little things in life that make you happy. They only pray they can be another source of happiness for you for as long as you're willing to grace them with your light.

• One of their favorite things to point out the difference between you.

"Your hands are so much smaller/bigger than mine. I love it."

"Gods rarely have markings, but sometimes if we're reborn from another we carry their scars. I'm certain whatever divinity you stem from was as brilliant as you."

Their body mirrors the form, but it can never perfect the true beauty the individuality of humans has. Adores what seem like imperfections to you as one would the strokes of paint on a canvas. There will never be another like you and that's one of the many things that makes you divine in their eyes.

#yandere #yandere imagines #yandere headcanons #yandere x you #yandere blurb #yandere insert #yandere x reader #yandere scenarios #yandere oc #yandere god #soft yandere #yandere fluff #Dea my oc

[naffeclipse]

Heya Naff, slightly late but Happy New Year!! 🎆 Hope you’re doing well and I wish you much inspiration and many good things this coming year! <33

I had a little query pop to mind recently if that's okay:  what if reader in the Deep Dreams universe had megalophobia and/or perhaps even thalassophobia? 

I know this might make less sense for fisher Y/N as we know them, so it could hypothetically be some other person, a friend or a future Y/N who makes friends with juvenile Sun and Moon and then only later discovers they've grown to be big sea beasties - maybe seeing them in their dreams is fine but for real it's a different matter, at least until they get used to them :)

How might the boys react?

Having a slight bit of megalophobia myself, the best way I can describe my experience is a gentle anxiety with the need to seek shelter and cower there, but people's experiences can vary (and possibly change depending on the conditions). Also that kinda makes it 10x funnier that I have an affinity for giant creatures xD

Hi, Piixel! Happy New Year to you, too, babe! ♥ Thank you so much, ahhh, you're much too kind! :D I hope you have a beautiful year and an abundance of lovely things happen to you!

Oh ho! Fear of big things and of large bodies of water? I'm sure that totally wouldn't be a source of great fear and conflict with a poor little reader soulbond to a couple of mers hehe (The Sea Beast is an excellent movie btw!! ♥)

Y/N with megalophobia and thalassophobia wouldn't be caught dead on the ocean. You have dreams about two massive mers, and those creatures are always sweet and gentle and attentive, but you're still convinced it's some weird nightmare (even though no real spooky events unfold in said dreams). The mers coax and plead with you to go out to sea so you can all meet, but that's a solid no from you.

Then through a very terrible chance of fate, you're on a boat for whatever reason but very much against your desires, before you get swept away by a rouge wave and left behind. You're alone, struggling to swim in a massive ocean when—oh goodie, that looks like a giant mer floating right below you. What else could go wrong today?

Needless to say, after seeing Moon, then Sun, and realizing that these massive mers you've had dreams about are here in the flesh, you pass out from sheer fright. It's a lot for you to wrap your brain around, but when you come to, you're on Sun's back as he floats gently along the surface, keeping you dry as you begin losing your mind out of the horror of it all while Moon watches you from close by. You can't jump into the great wide ocean to escape the mer carrying you but you can't stay on the thing's scaly back either, so you may have a panic attack. Sun stops and turns his head back to give you his full attention while Moon tries to take you in his hands but that does not help your situation. They can feel your panic and horror, but you can feel confusion and distress at not being able to help, and in fact, them being the cause of your fear.

Their attempts to calm you down are met with resistance as you want to be anywhere but here in the ocean with two giant mers.

Sun and Moon are bewildered and upset, to say the least. You did often seem nervous in your little dream rendezvous but they thought they did a lovely job of reassuring you it was alright and that they would never hurt you and there's nothing to be scared of. Turns out, not quite. So, they take you safely back to the island shore where you more or less escape from the massive monsters and flee inland. But, there's not a whole lot of places to go on the little island and you've got to sleep eventually, so Sun and Moon decide to spend more personal time with you and show you that really, they're the two baby mers you happened to scoop up one summer day when you were just a tot and didn't realize how scary some things could be.

They'll be patient. You'll see that there is no place safer than with them in the water. They'll help you face your fears and then reunite with you.

If you ever leave your house again, that is.

#piixel i love these questions ahh! #that's rather ironic you enjoy big beasties but to be fair i am also terrified of large bodies of water #i've never strayed too far from shore to say the least lol #yet a lot of my writing is set in the middle of the ocean #anyways here's a fun little drabble! #in deep dreams between the waves #because it's that universe #megalophobia/thalassophobia y/n #mermaid!sun #mermaid!moon #piixelpaint #for y/n in their fear it's a lot more intense just out of control so it's something the boys can help them work through

[qqueenofhades]

Spooky prompts 14 and/or 22 for Dreamling, please

The first day of autumn term, to put it mildly, is always something of an adventure. The Powers That Be have scheduled "Introduction to the Medieval World, 500-1500" at nine o'clock AM sharp, which is always a great way to get students to turn up on the first day (or indeed, at all) and when Hob reaches the classroom at quarter till nine, it turns out that this happy event has failed to be passed along to Facilities, as it is locked and dark. He then has to ring them up, wait for them to send someone along to unlock it, and when he gets inside, discovers that the A/V emphatically refuses to communicate with the projector. Hob sighs deeply, logs in with his faculty ID, fiddles with the input source, and finally gets the GOLDSMITHS UNIVERSITY OF LONDON logo to appear on the screen. By this time, students are starting to trickle in, yawning and clutching large cups from Costa Coffee and Caffe Nero. Hob has advised them all to print out the module handbook from Blackboard beforehand, but as sustained exposure to undergraduates has dented his confidence in their ability to follow simple instructions, he has brought plenty of extra copies. He hands them around, along with the attendance sheet. Only three names missing. For an early class on Day 1, that's not bad.

Hob introduces himself, explains what they'll be covering in the course (pretty much what it says on the tin), and offers them a few helpful tips to not actually have to purchase anything from the bookstore. Teaching the medieval survey is always an exercise in seeing just how high his blood pressure can go and/or how many Game of Thrones-related inanities he will have to firmly dispel, but he does enjoy it. (A few semesters ago, a student wrote in their evaluation that "Dr. Gadling teaches history like he was really there," a comment which gratified Hob immensely.) The fifty minutes of the introductory lecture fly by, which is mostly just names, dates, terms, and PowerPoints, and everyone dutifully starts packing up to go. Hob has a few hours until he has to teach Empire and the Atlantic World this afternoon, and he absently stuffs his things back into his bag. His phone buzzes, which is undoubtedly one of the three missing students emailing to apologize for their absence and asking a question that is answered on page 3 of the handbook. (That or they accidentally gave themselves food poisoning -- truly, who let these infants live alone?) Hob resolves to check it later, steps out into the hallway, and --

"Good morning, Hob."

Hob skids to a halt, extremely startled, before he spots the tall dark figure standing in the middle of the busy corridor like an extremely emo, extremely goth roadblock. The students veer around him, not without a few who's-that-guy sidelong looks, and Hob desperately tries to make sure that his own are not among them before he moves closer. "Good morning... Morpheus." The name still tastes odd on his tongue, pleasant but unusual, needing a bit of comfortable wear to feel just right. "And can I ask, what are you doing here?"

The Lord of Dreams shrugs. "Isn't it the first day of school?"

"As if that matters to you." Hob raises an eyebrow. "Well, as it so happens, I do have a few free hours until my next class. You know. If you possibly felt the need to grab a coffee."

It's unclear whether Dream has ever just grabbed a coffee in his entire eternal life, but he considers that studiously, then nods once, shoving his hands into the pockets of his long black coat and falling into step next to Hob. They emerge from the history building and into the soggy, mild London morning, a fine drizzle still sifting down from the low grey clouds. They head to the campus cafe, as Hob glances shiftily around again to make sure nobody spots Dr. Gadling in company of this... person. (Not that he's ashamed of Dream, not at all, but students do gossip like fiends, and this is all so new. He has to be extremely careful not to accidentally spook the bastard and send him running away for another hundred and thirty-three years.)

"Small latte, please," Hob says to the barista. "Blueberry muffin. Oh, and whatever he wants."

Dream looks startled. He stares at the menu as if he has never contemplated an overpriced espresso beverage in his life (almost five quid for Hob's latte alone, they are having a laugh -- why is London not a real city where real people can still afford to live?) Then he says uncertainly, "Coffee, I suppose."

The barista looks expectant.

"Uh." Hob clears his throat. "What sort of coffee, love?"

Dream looks deeply startled, and Hob is briefly afraid that he is in fact about to throw up his hands and rush out of this establishment in a fit of pique. He didn't mean to say it, it just slipped out, and well, they are seeing a lot more of each other these days (in, ah, all sorts of ways). Dream thinks about it a moment more, as there is an audible sound of impatient throat-clearing and shuffling from the queue behind them. Hob says hastily, "Just a small brew of the day, please. No cream, no sugar. Black. Like his soul."

The barista stifles a snort. Dream looks at Hob accusingly. Hob shrugs -- a bite me sort of shrug that makes Dream likewise muffle a smile -- and opens his wallet. It is, of course, far more than two small drinks and a pastry product should cost in any reasonable epoch of the world, but damn if he isn't so happy to pay it, to be here with his no-longer-stranger, to sip their drinks as Hob laments the dismal standard of essays to which he will undoubtedly be subjected and Dream listens with quiet, patient adoration, that he can hardly stand it.

#anonymous #ask #dreamling #dreamling ff #me: well here is the spooky prompt list but idk if i myself am technically doing them #y'all: *send me more prompts anyway* #me: well. hmm. possibly just one more. like a potato chip. #(i do want to work on aitww but i may answer more of these ahem)

[iloveyou-writers]

One last thing before I go for now

Because the thought won't leave me the hell alone til I get it down.

You ready for this one?

I'm not sure you are, but let's do this.

--

The hard truth of the matter is positivity blogs, this one included, put too much emphasis on not giving up. Don't give up on your writing, don't give up on your characters. They need you to exist.

Yes, that is true.

But you also need you to exist.

Here's who the "don't give up" posts are for:

-People that want to continue but keep being bombared with negativity that makes them doubt themselves -People that love the act of writing but feel self-conscious about the quality of their works -People that want to give up because they feel like they'll never be at the level they want to be at, so it'd just be easier and better for everyone if they quit -People that get anonymous hate because they write fanfiction

This is who the "don't give up" posts AREN'T for:

-People that genuinely want to give up because they just aren't getting anything out of writing anymore.

There is a distinct difference between "outside sources are making me feel not good enough," "my mental illness is preventing me from seeing the good in my writing" and "I just don't get anything out of writing anymore."

It's perfectly okay to give up writing because you just don't find it enjoyable anymore. Some might argue "that's just depression." And while yes, sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't too. There are mentally healthy people that still experience shifts in interests. It's part of growing up, part of growing and getting older. It's perfectly okay if you grew out of your interest in writing. You're not OBLIGATED to write forever because you decided you were interested in it one day.

If you're just wanting to give up because you're not feeling good enough, maybe take a break, take a few months off and let your brain rest, like I'm always talking about.

But if you just find writing tedious and no longer enjoyable, maybe it's time to try a new hobby.

You can walk away and everything will be okay. I promise you, you're not going to be hated. Your readers may be disappointed, yes, but what matters in the end is your mental health and you being okay. If walking away is what you need to be mentally healthier, that's your prerogative.

Please don't keep writing because you were told to. Keep writing because you love your stories or characters, because you love writing. You're not obligated to your readers.

Do what will make you happy. The readers can find another writer's writing to read.

I hope I worded this in a way that'll benefit everyone, not in a way that'll make someone that loves writing quit, because that's not what I'm trying to say at all <3

And if you do quit, don't delete your writing! Even if you think this is going to be a forever choice and there's 0% chance you'll return to it... it happens sometimes where you return. I've done the same thing with tumblr countless times. Just make sure you have a copy somewhere, even if it's on a flash drive buried in your desk somewhere.

Thanks for reading and have yourself a lovely day!

#positivity #there's nothing wrong with quitting #if that's truly what you want then quit #it's okay #your readers will get over it #and in the end its your happiness that matters #writers of tumblr #encouragement

[cieraspendulum]

Hi you may oppose me on my observation, that maybe right now R is avoiding or staying away from S, but I think the pregnancy issue will not die down if he does not outright deny it. In the future, it is still impossible to rule out that R is still connected to S pregnancy issue if it's true because of the previous Go Gala and pap walks and that will continue even if it is said that they will not be seen together again after her implied pregnancy announcement.

If R & K still have contractual obligations given their status in Hollywood, shouldn't they have control, directions and manipulation on how their fake romance narrative is running? Or should they admit it that they have a lack of foresight and due diligence on their part (R&K) and team handlers that they did not see this S move? and for me it can't be said that D won't do such a stunt like that maybe later she will reveal that she and K are married. I think R & K put too much trust on their handlers and I fear that we may never see them happy together admitting they are real couple again. We will only be contend on like bits and pieces what being shared by other people like (C. Hardwick)

Hello! Ciera here. Some of the things you've said, I already thought of. However, knowing how Rob likes to dodge and avoid things he'd rather not answer outright, I feel this will be one of them. He'll never confirm or deny it, or he would've done it already, IMO. That's not who he is. He doesn't sell his private life, and neither does Kristen. That's why they started all of this in the first place.

As far as them having "control" of the narratives, sure they have control, but not FULL control. That's why public relations teams exist. I don't think anyone saw this coming, really, and that it's why Rob seems so pissed off every time we see him publicly now. I don't think he expected the heat he's getting. And the "damage control" was not only the timing (meaning the 15th anniversary of Twilight right around the corner to overshadow all the implied baby talk), but also Catherine discussing she and Kristen "crashing" Rob's birthday party, which the fauxmance lied about attending/hosting. She wasn't even on the same continent at the time! 🤦‍♀️

Right now, or anytime soon, for that matter, I can't see either of them agreeing to go public with their legit status...especially not with the way the vultures and sheep feed off of this kind of BS that's just spewed out there with no legitimate proof. No confirmation. Just implications. And [the vultures aka tabs] are okay with that? They're okay with printing things that may or may not be factual and not vet their sources or anything? Yes. Why? Because they don't give a shit about facts. They care about MONEY. And bullshit drama sells, whether it's factual or not.

IMO...THAT is why Rob and Kristen will ALWAYS stick to their word, and stay quiet with their privacy. THAT is why they'll continue to feed the vultures and sheep with bullshit that isn't real, because it keeps them away from their reality. And as long as the vultures and sheep exist, especially the way they have been for years, it will always be this way.

Something has to change. And it's not Rob and Kristen. They just want privacy, and will do whatever they have to do to get it and keep it.

[hydriotaphia]

Hello!

After reading the bit about the Antwina-issance in the recent 2023 fic year in review post, I went to have a nosy at your previous asks (sorry if I spammed your notifications lol).

I came across this one from a while ago, and enjoyed your Kate insight! Wondering about the headcanon PS section at the end. If you remember what it was at that time (or even if it's changed); would you share some more of that headcanon?

Hellooo and please don't apologise. I re-read that part about the Antwina asks and it was slightly more melodramatic than I was intending - perils of a midnight post! I loved getting the asks though was a little bemused it was for a side-pairing I occasionally write😆 This ask was equally lovely to see - thank you! I enjoy sharing headcanons and characterisation.

My headcanon at the time was that Kate would struggle with the shifting identities of trying to hold on to who she is, navigating the new vulnerability and demands (and happiness) of her marriage, while also navigating the Ton as one of them and as a the head of a highly individual family.

It sounds less obvious now because the s3 synopsis seems to be going somewhat in this direction but most early fic and even current fic have Kate excelling in her new role, whereas I think rewriting one's entire world view and planned future, no matter how much in love one is, is difficult and a source of dissonance until you finally feel settled.

Additionally, Kate wasn't emotionally prepped for this at all. I wrote a scene in Beloved (IDK if you've read it) where Kate and Anthony fight about her penchant for riding unaccompanied as a way to navigate what it means to go from being an independent woman whose attitude to any constraints is 'fuck this, fuck you and fuck off' to having to actually represent the Bridgertons in the Ton (and while Violet is still around as a very well-regarded comparison).

The other downside of having the kind of love that poets sing of is that you may find yourself more wrapped up in your spouse than in your family, and there's a chance they'll overcompensate in that direction. They're also very demanding and critical people - pushing themselves and their siblings hard to achieve their measure of success, but I do note that most of s2 is about how Anthony realises he can't keep stomping around making his siblings afraid of/avoid him and Kate realises she does not always know best and barely knows herself.

[God, I love s2 for giving us such relatable protagonists while showing them with all their flaws!]

#asks #bridgerton season 2 #kate sharma #headcanons

[leo-interactive-fiction]

Hey!! Just wanted to say that i really liked TA and the characters are really fun!! Also, what would the ROs be like if their backgrounds were swapped? Like E with V's backstory or Ra with F's backstory? Have a good day/night!

Thank you for enjoying my work! I'm happy to know the story and especially the characters are enjoyable for you haha

As far as if they had their backgrounds swapped, hmm, that's a bit of a tough one haha. For many characters a lot of their main personality and quirks are derived from their background. I suppose it would be easier to say what traits are a result of their background, and which are simply inherent to them, and you can piece together the rest haha

E's good stamina and general cheerful nature is primarily a result of their mom, who was a very well-regarded, if not particularly infamous, swordswoman of the Triainian military. She also comes off a bit flippant and teasing at times but has a good heart overall. E has an inherently high metabolic rate from birth due to how the dark matter in their body affects them and some have understandably mistake E's stomach for a black hole at time. It is a primary reason why E learned how to cook.

R's personality is primarily a result of their background due to how they've carefully constructed it for dealing with their aristocratic family. They're inherently more of a careful and calculated person in general. They also tend to either have extremely good luck or extremely bad luck in certain situations more than others due to how the dark matter in their body affects the area around them.

L has less social ability than many of the other ROs due to being sheltered for a large portion of their life, and having their only source of outside interaction coming from attending small award ceremonies, their estate staff, and books. L's intelligence could've been a genetic result, but I think it'd be available to them no matter the background due to their dark matter.

V was originally a similar personality to E, if not a little more quiet and reserved. The raid on their village and subsequent indoctrination into the Vestian military was enough of a shock to mute many of their emotions. V's power is unique in that it probably would change depending on the background. They can manifest firearms due to their aptitude and familiarity with them, but their power of creation is effectively only limited by their creativity. It's unfortunate that V has very little in the way of imagination these days, otherwise they'd be able to make practically anything.

P will always be temperamental. That's somewhat of a given haha. Their power is mostly just a reflection of that. If their father wasn't in the picture, they probably wouldn't be so driven to push themselves to get better, but they'd still compete with practically anyone else in sight.

Like P, M's power is mostly a reflection of their inherent personality. Their drowsiness and masochistic traits would still be present. Without their father though, it's likely they wouldn't have discovered their talent in combat, meaning they'd basically have no specialized skills. They don't really have any goals or desire to improve themselves, so nothing would happen if they had no one to pressure them.

Ra was considered to be born inherently evil by their parents and consequently orphaned. Their mental instability and obsessive nature would persist no matter what background they had, though it may have served them better in certain other backgrounds, like V's. Though I don't know if anyone would want a Raven who was also firearms certified haha.

S lived a lawless life in Orden, and much of their social dissonance in Triaina comes from the cultural clash between the two. Their power also comes from their familiarity with the desert they lived in all their life. Unfortunately, they'll always be dumb. Not even a background studying their entire life like L's will help that.

Much of F's personality and demeanor is cultivated from their expectations as a royal heir. Without the background, F would probably return to their more childhood demeanor, which was more happy-go-lucky/frivolous and naturally curious about the world. I think no matter the background they'll always be more sensible to the social environment and trends, as well as intelligent in their own right.

#triaina academy #romance options #backgrounds #lore

[wastemanjohn]

🙊 fandom culture in general (this is akin to hitting the hornet nest with a bat)

oh bloody hell rae 😅 alright here we go

i have two opinions. the first is that fandom culture is... actually some utopian shit sometimes. the thing i love the most about it is being able to connect with people all over the world, whose paths i never otherwise would have crossed, just because we like the same thing intensely. i love the sense of community when it's functioning. that people can make stuff based on the thing they love and they'll be met with support and keyboard mashing about it from other people who also love the source material. i love the passion of it. i love how people will properly deconstruct and deep dive into things and come up with the kind of big brained shit that floors you. and fuckkk i love how many amazing friends i've made because of fandom. even if i'll probably never meet most of them IRL it doesn't matter. i think that's what it's all about.

my other opinion... is that i wish it was always like that. i wish we didn't have people getting sent death threats and CP because they like a ship that someone has deemed problematic. i wish certain people could recognise that everyone is entitled to their own opinions, and being hostile about it on the internet is just disturbing to everyone's peace. i wish that hard fucking drama didn't happen over literal fiction. i wish we could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and we'd all eat it...

but people fight about shit. its what people do. i think unfortunately it's part of the territory although it never used to be this... nuts.

but i have a block button and i'm not afraid to use it. i just focus on the side that makes me happy.

#asks #ask game

[rappaccini]

I think that ship is really ruining things for both characters and rotting the brains, because I keep seeing people invent a 42 varint of gwen solely for the purpose of shipping her with the other Miles...like that literally all she seems good for to them huh...to be shipped with him. A character being reduced to a love interest for a man. Literally the issue people had with her character in the first place. Not to mention, 42 variant Miles entire story and background, which I feel will tie strongly into his culture/community which will be highly afro centric...is being ignored and made all about a white girl. Do they not see the issues and weird implications?

Given I honestly don't think that's the way they'll handle his story...it's still annoying to see people push for it because like...is that all you got from the story? Are y'all even paying attention to what the movies are doing and trying to tell you? (Given there's still issues there, but the overall theme/message is clear)

agreed. i'm staying the hell out of main spiderverse fandom discussion bc there are too many terminally online kids using purity politics as an excuse to control fanspaces, but the way the fandom treats gwen these days makes my blood boil. she's either hated for having flaws and trying to be her own person, or put on a pedestal as the Perfect Girlfriend Whose Entire Existence Revolves Around Miles.

even in older spider-gwen fandom spaces, now you can't have a single conversation about her without a flood of new people bursting in and insisting that we make it All About Gwiles. like... i hate gatekeeping! i'm happy more people care about gwen now! but ffs do you care about gwen, or do you care about gwiles?

(it's the latter. they care about gwiles. they don't see gwen as a person, they see her as a person's girlfriend with no purpose when her boyfriend isn't in her presence or on her mind. and/or as a vessel to project themselves into a relationship with miles.)

as for why... most of the people in this fandom haven't read the comics at all or the most they've seen is three pages from sitting in a tree out of context, or they've read the inaccurate fan-operated wikis. all they're going off of is the movies, where gwen being The Girlfriend is framed as a positive, subversive thing. so to them, gwen getting to have powers, date spider-man and live feels progressive in comparison to tasm gwen, because they have no clue what her narrative actually is. and as far as they know, gwen and miles are a perfect couple who have no better romantic interests.

(again i don't like gatekeeping! if you move into a new neighborhood, you shouldn't have to make your house look like your neighbors', but if none of them have a basement, you should probably talk to them to figure out if digging one's gonna make your damn house collapse i before you start ripping up the foundation.)

i also blame fandom being fandom. no matter how subversive the source material they are fans of, even if the fandom's not dominated by white guys, fandom will always reflect the same bullshit from greater society. same racism, same sexism, same homophobia, just often under a layer of progressive paint. same disregard of female characters unless they support a more popular male character. same surface-level championing of diversity and inclusion... while characters of color are both ignored / stereotyped / tokenized and fetishized / sanded down to be more palatable to a presumably-white audience (the same applies for queer characters). like, the same shit's happening in the spiderverse fandom.

as for gwen 42... yeah i'm not loving how the fandom took the possibility of her existing and immediately made her into a darker edgier girlfriend for miles. really? that's the most you can imagine?

(... esp considering if earth-42 is similar to earth-1610 in that there was a peter parker spider-man before miles, odds are gwen-42 is 30something and long dead. and even if she isn't, why does she have to be attached to miles in any way?)

#asks #spiderverse salt #i guess the 'tiana toomes exists in 42 and has a batcat vibe with miles g' headcanon is too galaxybrain for most people. #i have spicier more specific hot takes on the fandom but no way in hell am i sharing those in public

[somegirlontheinternet135]

*Sigh*

. . . I'd never thought I'd do this. . .

A few months ago, I said that I could never pull off proper fanfic because my fear of it not getting attention. But here I am, with several WIPs, taking a break from playing video games to create content along with other things, so it made all the weirder when I decided on what I wanted to do. . .

Folks, after a bit, I decided to make write my first ever, proper fanfiction. I'm not talking about just visual storytelling like my other AUs, I'm talking about actually ao3 level fanfic, except on tumblr. Unfortunately, I can't force on this entirely, due to having such a cramp schedule and my other WIPs

Till I finish those, I hoping I can begin work on the prologue before anything big happens. What exactly is this chunk of fiction about? Well don't ask. . .

Might you be interested in. . .

⏰Anything And Everything, All Of The Time⏰

~A Cookie Run Kingdom AU, Created By Mei_TheBear~

For those who don't know about my recent ramble, the plot of this AU is such; The Five Ancient Heroes accidentally summon our favorite sci-fi eldridge being and cyprid, Timekeeper, and have to be their main sources of entertainment. Originally, I made this AU to comeback the lack of content we've been getting with these six, and it ended becoming way bigger. I had so many other ideas for this AU, one of making TK Pure Vanilla Cookie's long-lost siblings. But after a few tweets, I ended up with something I'm generally happy with

But that, however, is now why I made this. I made this post to explain major factors in the story (roles, etc.) That without, may confuse first-time readers. So, if you're reading this now, you're in luck. Let's get into it!

Millennia Tree and the other legendaries probably plays the biggest role in the main plot. MT was also the closest with Timekeeper before the "incident." Key word here is "was," in my AU, they have an ex-boyfriend/crazy ex-girlfriend relationship.TK is obsessed in MT, in more ways than one, wanting to do more than put his head on a spike

Twizzly Gummy plays a major role in the story, starting the domino-effect that led to the Timekeeper being freed. Other than that, Twizzly is going to be the "Sammy Lawrence" of the story, influenced by TK and treating them like a god. Clotted Cream Cookie will also play a big part in this. Playing as our antagonist, he became fixated on the Timekeeper and wanting to know to anything and everything about them, nearly being driven to break of insanity trying to find a possible weakness. Characters like Gingerbrave won't be as important, but will serve as support for Clotted Cream and will make appearances

Anyone that exposed themselves all types of different media be prepared, there's going to be a lot of references to different songs, movies, musicals, tv shows, even other video games, all of which well be tied into the story. Speaking songs, I have tons of songs planned for this AU, we are talking about the Timekeeper; hard to say they wouldn't be a fan of musical theater

Another thing is slight similarities between the backstories of Timekeeper and Dark Enchantress, I'm saying "slight" because I've recently done a bit tweaking to TK orginal story. Timekeeper, becoming the way they are through boredom, whilst White Lily Cookie turning into DE was an act of curiosity

Speaking of curiosity, the first half of the story I view as a cautionary tale in two ways:

1. The dangers of curiosity

How we as a society try to find logic in what is unknown. We a need to question every little detail to have a better understanding of it. And how some are better unsolved. . .

2. Don't be cocky

Doesn't matter who you are, your status, how many weapons you have or how much a$$ you kick on a daily; they'll always someone bigger and stronger, ready to take you down. Whether that be from jesus christ or time itself, they'll always someone after you

Tldr: 'Anything and Everything, All of The Time' will officially become a fanfic on tumblr, not ao3 though- I made this post to prepare you for the possible sh*t storm you'll read. I do plan on making and posting a prologue the next month given the chance, so that's something to be on the lookout for

And as always, stay tuned^^

#cookie run #cookie run kingdom #timekeeper cookie #millennia tree cookie #cookie run kingdom au #anything and everything all of the time

[toogayforthistoday]

Hey I hope you don’t mind me asking, but what’s the familial dynamic like between your self insert and Frank? And How does Frank get along with your other marvel f/os?

Because from at least my perspective, putting Wanda, loki and Frank in the same room… probably won’t end well. but they also have the common detail of they lost people they care about and are in the grieving process (although the handling of said grief varies).

Do you think they would bond over that shared loss or is it a ‘they are at each other’s throats regardless of the situation’ type of thing? /genuine, lighthearted

Anyways, SORRY ABOUT THIS WEIRD ASK, I’m just curious to see your thoughts / hear about your interpretation/your version of canon source material /genuine

Hey Ridley, I don't mind the question at all!

Source material-wise, I lean more on The Punisher (2004) than Netflix's Punisher, as I haven't seen it yet. And as for my other Marvel f/o's its sort of a mix of everything? Comics, MCU, Fox's X-Men (The animated series specifically for Remy)

Me and Frank met each other during a joint training exercise where he unofficially adopted me as his little Canadian brother, cause I'm a cheeky little shit and he thought it was amusing. This was before Frank was deployed to Afghanistan. And before Loki... Fell.

After I'd heard about what happened to his family, I left the school and went up-state to help, or at the very least keep him in one piece. He never wanted me to get involved, but I was his best man, and I adored Maria, like hell I'd let him deal with it alone. Doesn't matter if I've got my dad's mutation, now, and will live through anything these guys will try and throw at us... Punisher or not, he's still got a big heart.

Frank is like my father, Logan, and has always questioned my choice in Loki, but he made me happy, so they just did their best to intimidate a God.

As you can imagine, it never really deterred Loki in the slightest.

But Frank won't make a move against Loki (unless Loki starts it). And so far Loki's listened to me about not provoking him. Doesn't stop either of them from glaring at the other.

Frank and my dad get along in that weird guy way where they'll sit in silence with each other, and then afterwards they'll both tell you they had a great chat.

(Remy is an alternate timeline f/o from Loki, but Frank isn't a fan. It's not that he doesn't like him, he just wishes Remy would shut up sometimes. Remy's a very talkative man, and talks to fill the silence. Frank knows what Remy does for a living.)

Wanda... (Pre Wanda-Vision, haven't seen it yet) Luckily for me they haven't been in the same room yet, but I agree with you, I don't think it'd be quiet for too long. But I think they'd probably be willing to grieve together over their losses.

But no, thank you so much for asking! I really don't mind answering any questions about my f/o's, and how they interact with each other~

~Gabe

#🐍💚 #OTP: Green is our Colour #🎴💜 #SupBub #CastleGuard #Familiar's Witch #Gabriel 'Wolf' Howlett

[the-storyteller-and-her-soldiers]

Personal Pride Stuff!

Since it's pride month I'd figure I'd share some headcanons and scenarios regarding my ships!

All my s/is are bi/panromantic and asexual since that is what I am in real life!

I can see all my f/os as AT LEAST bi since they don't get definitive canon sexualities

No matter what the AU or verse, my s/i is lucky enough to meet the equivalent of my IRL girlfriend some point. (This is cause my girlfriend is always sweet enough to let me talk her ear off about my f/os sources and stuff and if you chat with me for a bit I always bring up my girlfriend in someway 'cause she's awesome sooo of course the two would overlap in other verses)

With that said, there's always an instance of "This is my wife Rebecca, and she also has a girlfriend!" No matter the verse

My s/is were more nervous about coming out as ace to her f/os than she was saying she's bi/pan. But, of course, all parties are cool and accepting of this.

With that being said, the f/o who learned the most of my s/i coming out was Kaito. He wasn't ignorant, but he was older, and in Japan, such things weren't really discussed in adulthood.

The conversation they shared was rather sweet 'cause Kaito heard me venting to my friend after getting unsolicited pics... So he wanted a better understanding. (Also he was pissed that some loser was harassing his girl so when he then learned that doing so was crossing my boundaries more......... he was PISSED to say the least)

My s/i explained the general term of asexuality and then explained that in her case, she has experienced feelings of attraction like that but due to her past experiences and her conditions even the thought of doing something with someone she loves, trusts, and knows would never hurt her gives her too much fear and anxiety to ever really want to. So since she doesn't desire anything sexual that's why she identifies as ace.

All my f/os completely accepted and supported this decision since they love me and my well-being is what matters!

Cue a line of questioning like: "Really, no 'just try it with me?' 'I'm different 'I'll wait till you're ready??" When my f/os just shook their head, affirming it was my choice and they respect that, wide-eyed relief and a dramatic sigh of happiness escapes the lips of my s/is

My s/is will still openly discuss 'saucy topics' as if it's nothing and totally make the occasional 'out-of-the-closet' joke when the time and mood is right.

Not to mention they'll dress in a way that's considered 'sexy' because they want to, and even pull out 'alluring' aspects of her personality should the moment need it but it's all nothing but an act to her and she likes to perform!

When I came out as ace to Gladio, 2 things happened: I told him I could appreciate the aesthetics of his ass instead of thirsting over it, this earned her a bewildered look before she heard a hearty laugh. The second part of the convo was Gladio feeling an unknown sense of relief since he's had a lot of women just want him sexually and while he may have liked hook-ups in the past, he's happy that the woman he loves, loves him for more than just that.

ALL MY F/OS AND MY S/IS RESPECT TRANS RIGHTS, ARO/ACE RIGHTS, NONBINARY RIGHTS, AND WOULD DO EVERYTHING THEY COULD TO UPHOLD THOSE VALUES!

That's all I have on my brain right now but I'm sure there's more! I'mma tag some people 'cause I wanna interact more but I'm always tired and let you know it's okay to reblog if you want! If you wanna be removed just let me know!

@lonelyselfship @vogueships @singingdeepinme @jellyfish-ships@ignited-lovers @goldenworldsabound @call--me--home @disneymarina

#self insert #selfshipdom #selfship community #self shipping #self insert community #ship: the storyteller and her shield #self indulgent stuff #selfship #fo community

[nathank77]

4/17/24

7:59 p.m

I never filed an application for disability which is a good thing I have had symptoms of ocd since I was like 15 tbh. I'm worried bc I said 22 on my last phone call, they'll shoe me out but technically an application was never filed and I can tell them that my symptoms started prior to my 20s..

Unfortunately I'll have to get up early another day but the backpay will be worth it. I'm going to call tomorrow and set one up for ASAP.

I'm glad my thyroid levels are normal on all accounts I'll prob be on this dose for a while but idk. I won't see my endo until September I think but I have monthly standing blood work. So we will see if he calls. Technically the bloodwork looks good on all accounts.

I have to call Quest about the hsv2 test cause the results should be in. At this point I almost don't care anymore.

I'm just happy I've gotten a decent amount of stuff done and I found one frame I can wear completely comfortably.

Once I get glasses out of the way which may take some time, it's really just Disability lol and then I can finally rest a little.

Glasses should never be a source of stress like this again with fit at least. Some 142 hinge to hinge will be tighter but it won't be this fucking game of returning/reordering in such high numbers anymore. It'll just be a cost thing but maybe if i get backpay this won't be an issue like it is now.

Although I have to do the control arms on my car and the sealant on my teeth. My teeth have brownish/yellowish stains where the fucking grooves are. Doesn't matter how frequently I brush or what I use on them. It's non-negotiable.

Also before I go to lens crafters on Saturday I got to pick up my xanax and hit the gas station. I could run a little late. The Xanax is non-negotiable. I got to get it that day.... I could maybe hit the gas station Thursday or Friday but it depends on how I feel I need some downtime and I feel like after I woke up and took benadryl at like 1:05 I didn't really sleep much between then and 4:15 p.m.

I know I slept a little, but idk. This is the issue with microsleep. You never really know. Unless hours pass and it feels like your eyes were closed for 5 minutes, especially if you wake up frequently. The voice is always repetitive and it makes you feel like you've been listening to it for hours.

Sometimes my only real give away is my sleep timer on my TV. It turned off at some point between 3:30 and 4 and I didn't hear it turn off so I must have eventually slept.

[yuna-writes]

Finding the "fun" in life

April fools day didn't feel like April fools because everyday feels like I was fooled haha. Not going to lie but it's hard to find some laughter at times. I'm okay though but I'm experiencing my day-to-day in a sense of confusion too. It's like the feeling of what should I be looking forward to?

I think these tech mass layoffs taught me some valuable lessons where I'm just a nobody in the grand scheme of things. Just one day, an employer can decide to discard their employees whenever they feel like it. Which does contradict the notion that if you work very hard, you get rewarded at work. Which is not always true. You can work very hard, but it might not matter much in the end. You can still be thrown out like trash. Without healthcare, income and a career. And you have no idea what to do next. Yeah, I already knew that was a realm of possibility. Now that's the biggest April fools I've received so far. But I don't want to be fooled again if you know what I mean.

Usually, I'm pretty emotionless toward work. I never saw my co-workers or boss as friends. So I didn't really identify with my job, but it's really hard to not get invested into work since you did spend time at your job. Nowadays, I don't even know what to look forward to. You do spend a large portion of your time at work, and if you get too attached with your job, you might get hurt in the end. It feels like some one sided relationship. The absurdity is you do spend majority of your life working toward in obtaining a job.

It's hard these days to find the fun in life honestly. Life gets pretty gruesome with all these adult responsibilities and it does suck the joy when you see your job as a source for these necessities. I want to have fun, but not have an employer in the picture. But not sure how that lifestyle would look like. And maybe that's ok if I don't have the answers now. It's going to take time for me to figure out what works for me and gives me more satisfaction. But yeah, you do feel sort of shocked that your career, which is a biggest source of your livelihood, can just end within a day because some corporation decided to put profits over people. Makes me never want to return to corporate America, because it feels really unstable and risky. This might sound strange for other people, but that's how I genuinely feel these days.

I'm still hopeful though, and I try not to take life too seriously, but when you do go through the system and you find yourself no longer part of it. You do feel a slight sense of confusion on what you should be doing or what kind of lifestyle you should lead. These days, I'm trying to find the fun in my business, but it still hasn't really taken off yet. I still ask myself everyday if I really want to just be self-employed, and never ever be part of working for other people. It's a really hard decision too, because now I won't have the stable paycheck coming in. But if working for other people don't give me joy and purpose, then eventually I wouldn't really come out happy as an employee. It's hard to say, and I wish it didn't come to this too. But I feel like companies in the US really don't care about people. Once they decide they don't need you, they'll get rid of you, and take your entire livelihood with it.

#notes