#things havent been very good

[queencryo]

why does it have to be so hard to hang onto our past

we strufgle so much with it

why does everything have to be broken or lost or destroyed no matter what we do

we cant remember anything and we cant have our reminders either. it feels like everything that came before keeps being destroyed. and every time i feel a part of us dying just a little more.

#im sorry for mental illnessposting lately #things havent been very good

[canonkiller]

do you consider your self made?

#my art #self portrait of sorts #been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things #for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer #(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good) #and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like #I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them #are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize #to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough. #things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either #im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now #just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later #anyways. love you #cw: #top nudity #artistic nudity #the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple #if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw #my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way #lindwormposting

[dndmilf2]

just a peek~

#me #the only good thing about losing all my posts is I get to reformat and put more stuff together that should always have been #anyway I'm so hot #and soft #and fuckable #anyway for those who havent seen these before they are very old my hair is no longer ginger rn

[crescentfool]

the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!

#lizzy speaks #persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #guys friendly reminder that this is what adulthood is about dont listen to anyone who calls you cringe #hence why im putting these in the main tags. i mean they're not incorrect for what the photos are about. lmao #anyway this was a very fun birthday!!! i feel very loved and supported by so many people and i got to do very fun things (like this)... #i think... birthday is like thanksgiving to me. in the gratitude respect. #a reminder of all the lovely people that i have gotten a chance to meet and how i've learned from them #it makes me very happy to have been born... i think every day is a great day to celebrate life's grandeur + brilliance + magnificence #it's just a very poignant and strong feeling that i have that i'm happy to have met so many wonderful people #and while there are some people i've only known for brief periods of time or people who i havent really been good at keeping in contact wit #i do cherish it! im so grateful. so happy that there are people who cheer my silly shenanigans on #while there are ways in which aging makes me go “oh hmm” i think overall i'm happy that i get to keep on living and learning #i have so much fondness for humanity and people... like even if i dont get to talk to ppl directly i just get very emotional yknow #like wow.. you exist.. thats so fucking awesome... i hope you have an awesome day... im glad our paths could cross #if you have read up to this point of my tags.. thank you for reading and being part of my life #i will keep on being the silliest guy ive ever known! cheers to more shenyanigans and self-discovery :3

[midnightclover]

Summon Night: Swordcraft Story (ATLUS, 2003)

#my actual posts lol #haha what if i made a daily diary post thing like nico #..i was just thinking #today was a good day #and i thought of this song #ive been playing summon night swordcraft story a lot as of late.. though none today actually #its still on my mind though #i considered using dweller empty path's song flying through a stary sky instead.. but this is what i thought of first #i think it fits best to use it #i actually had to jump through some hoops to upload music! #cus my tumblr app is kinda old.. i cant properly upload music. i could only put a link #which isnt exactly ideal #so i tried in my web browser.. but maybe its cus i havent updated it in a while or maybe just cus its tor.. it didnt work #so i downloaded firefox and did it on there lol #now im editing it in my drafts back on the app #dont ask why im not just doing it on my computer... shes having some technical difficulties. we're working on it #but not today #... #today was pretty eventful.. even if not very productive. but ive never been a very productive person #we went and saw some light festival thing! it was rly nice.. a little simple at times but it was fun #we went and got some yummy snacks earlier too! tho ive already eaten them all hehe #and i started up animal crossing new leaf. i hadnt played it in ages! its startling how much better it is than new horizions.. imo at least #only problem is i couldnt make it the same as my island.. and i didnt remember why i named my last town #we searched for a while for some reference or somfin to name it after.. but we ended up just going with ''faraway'' #cus i liked the idea of being asked where im going.. and just saying far far away #and as beth said it has a kinda fairytail vibe! #...only after i named it did i realize i accidentally named it after the town in omori. oops! #...im about to hit the tag limit. so whoevers still listening i just want u to know.. #i love you. ok? #goodnight

[kheprriverse]

Did I ever tell y’all Tekoha has kids? Idr tbh but I'm doing that now lol

They’re twins; Tefke and Safiya!

More info in the tags ↓

#Tekoha (Kheprriverse) #rambling mood today #i decided on a whim to work on Tefke’s ref last night as an indulgent thing since ive been working on comic pages all week #and i havent given him or safiya any attention sicne i first designed them #theyre twins but theres no ‘whos gonna take over the throne when the time comes’ #because twili just live an incredibly long time. so theyre both kinda doing their own thing #but the answer would be Safiya #Safiya is a researcher focusing on the relationship between tech and magic #Tefke went military mode and trains army recruits--much like his dad he doesnt have very good magic attunement and makes up for it in comba #tefke is also resident little guy #Tefke is gonna be the one with a little bit more spotlight tho coz of the current conflict but i promise Safiya will appear as well #i'll share their wips soon when theyre both done. but if yall wanna see Tefke early just lmk ig

[spookygibberish]

Mildly worried that some people will be Upsetti at the weird and gross shit in my weird vaguely bronze age "Pokémon-is-slavery" bodyhorror setting

#the response has been very good im just paranoid bc i am not interested in smoothing out or cleaning up this fictional preindustrial society #this is also not about my thoughts on the pokemon franchise which i love at least the pre-switch content of. mostly #i just love to overthink things and i like anthropology and i like humans even if human behavior is frequently grotesque #theres definitely a reason i havent posted much off of discord abt it but im glad people are interested and responsive so far #babbling

[randomminty]

Ive only got sv in the brain right now

#There honestly isnt a single character in sv i dont love to death oh my goooood theyre so good #Spoilers but the build up of each member of the e4 being revealed throughout the game and leaving one member as a complete mystery makes #The final reveal like 1000x funnier i lose my mind #art tag #pokemon #Iono and grusha never interact i think she would use him for clout #Theyre personalities are so different i would kill to see them interact tho #Geeta gives off such evil champion vibes sometimes she just says weird things. Im so glad she isnt actually hiding smth shes just like that #She said she wanted to visit my house. Dont do that maam #Gym leader iono #gym leader grusha #champion geeta #elite four rika #gym leader katy #nothing to say abt rika that hasnt been said. Hello #And katy???? Hi. So cute pretty. Her w a teddiursa is rly cute but her w an ursaring so so so cool #The rivals. Team star. The faculty. I want to talk abt every single character #Read over the tags grammar is very wonky today! Oops. Im not rewriting all of that tho #All these artworks couldve been independent posts but i drew them all in the same day so it feels right #I havent drawn for so long i just had like. A sudden boom and kept drawing #Ok thats all!!! Fav part of posting art is screaming in the tags #sv spoilers #chairwoman geeta #i forgot shes actually a chairwoman oops

[klonoadoortophantomile]

can you draw the newbie alliance (bfb)

#hope this is good =] drew this on firealpaca w my mouse cuz i havent been using it much #wish i could figure out some way to Not have to use my mouse on there i dont mind drawing with it but only on like. shitty programs #once you get to the point where the program has actual brush effects n layers it gets kinda frustrtinjg to use a mouse does that make sense #it doesnt i think its just a weird thing my brain does [i swear theres a name for that ?] #okay i need to stop rambling sorry uhh actual tags time #bfdi #bfb #bfdi lollipop #bfdi gelatin #bfdi teardrop #scribbles #ask #anon #tahts meant to be a ds btw idk if its very clear. theyre gaming...

[sneezemonster15]

So yeah, I recently adopted these two babies and I have been exhausted even though I have had full intention to write. 😅

Have been juggling work and motherhood (and I don't even say that ironically because they are just babies) but it will settle down soon.

Nonetheless it's been a good start to this year even though it's been crazy busy and I hope I will be able to get back to writing soon.

#i have been getting asks in my message box and i know i havent been very regular #but i think its a good thing to take a break from tumblr now and then so that one doesnt keep writing rhe same stuff ad nauseum #expect new content #kittens #cats

[callmehere-iwillappear]

yall i got my first ever 'update when' comment today whats up. am i part of the cool kids club now

#talk tag #they were a guest so idk if they follow me here but if so uhh. im sure the intent was good and im not like. mad at all #but as a general rule its considered kind of rude to say that kinda stuff? just. for future reference #again. not mad if anything its almost a badge of honor lajfkldjsklfjds but just to keep in mind in future comments to ppl in general #also for the record...... cmh is very much not abandoned i have just been really fucking stuck on the next chapter #im working on it ok. its getting there. we will get there when we get there hope this helps #(ideally soon but i dont. wanna make promises idk if i can keep alfjdlksjfkdls) #. u know i will also say. my opinion on comments like that is probably . kinda weird #because like i very much dont love the phrasing Duh Obviously #+ nobody is *entitled* to updates im literally doing this for fun #but it is still also nice to know ppl still look forward to updates #and havent like. forgotten abt a fic just bc its been a while since i updated it #even though i think that commenter was a new reader that binged the whole thing but still #like. phrasing could be better but the intent Does actually make me kinda happy

[m340700]

The Moon's Lament

#fnaf sb #moondrop #have you guys heard of Doomsday Diaries #bc its very good yes #Survivor's Guilt aka The Moon's Lament #has been on my mind for so long #every song on that album is great though #too bad i havent learned how to draw these kinds of things but....someday..... i will.... gr r r r r

[girl-bateman]

How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?

#i keep going back and forth on it #bc i used to identify with dean for the longest time bc i was so repressed and emotionally closed off (+older sister) #and at that point id spent my youth very purposefully protecting my younger sibling from our dad #and i guess in my brain i paralleled that with dean staying behind with john while sam took off for stanford #and dean protecting sam from knowing too much abt the supernatural #BUT having grown up ive now become the one resentful and angry at our father while my sister protects him #and our fights remind me a lot of scenes from the show where im obviously identifying a lot stronger with sam #plus the whole thing abt being the families designated academic or whatever #while also feeling cursed from the minute i was born and crushing at the guilt of everything wrong with me #and trying to be a good person and saving others to make for the fact that i feel an intrinsic evilness about myself #so like... yeah sam is very very relatable too in that sense #bc he also has that hope in him- the belief in god. in angels. in goodness. and i have that too ! #im just also a miserable cynic at the same time :) #so ???? #i havent been in the fandom for long enough to know the full requirements of being a sam or dean girl #(and by that i mean i havent been in the fandom for long AFTER i rejoined from my 10 year hiatus) #i literally would love to read someones page long explanation of what sam coded vs dean coded entails #someone with a spn hyperfixation or special interest needs to provide me with the goods fr 😭 #spn

[wuntrum]

current library haul. :3

#personal #normal guy getting normal books <3 #so so so excited to read crash #i havent been able to stop thinkin abt the movie. and ive heard good things abt the book #the middle ones a spooky graphic novel set in maine!! very fun #and the last ones nonfiction 😱 i gotta read more of it #idk if its going to be good . ive only read the intro. but i hope its interesting #lets see if i can actually read this books!! WOOO

[justghostthings]

I've been sorta seeing someone lately n I think I'm gonna officially ask them to be my partner soon

#aa!! weve been friends for a bit and i didnt start hanging out w them w romantic interest but #they make me so happy and i just genuinely love being around te #them #we havent talked about whats going on yet but i have no interest in pursuing 'other options' #im preemptively making them a hand stamped necklace w their nickname for me on it #for when i ask to be their partner #havent felt this good about someone in a while i have very high hopes #rambles #last time they came over we spent 13 hours together and ended the day cuddling in my bed #and they were like holding my face and doing the thumb rub thing #i didnt kiss them bc im worlds biggest weenie but #aaa!!! i just wanted to talk about them somewher #it feels so healing

[dennisboobs]

do you guys ever sit and remember that dennis takes a mental health day is an episode that exists

#ada speaks #i think i could probably recite the entire one sided phone conversation he has with daisy by heart and i havent seen the ep in months #i don't know how to explain it but #from what little ive read of ross' writing it feels like. when you click onto a fanfic and you feel immediate deep trust of the author #like it just clicks #the cookbook characterization specifically. is like. #i would put my life in your hands #and im sure we will get more eps by him and i really hope that continues because i think its been a very long time since the shows had #writers that i feel Get the characters in a way that feels effortless rather than. overcompensating. #like you can smell that writer's signature no matter how hard they try to cover it up with jokes and subversions #which isnt always a bad thing and im sure if we do get more maloney eps i'll pick up on his writers quirks too #but it doesn't feel like he's trying to copy anyone/pull from old eps it feels like he has a good grasp on things which makes it feel fresh #i find that long running shows hit a point where episodes start to feel less cohesive and more like. segmented short films #but if you have a really good group of writers and they find their groove its like. yeah. ok. #i think season 3 is a good study because marder and rosell's influence is all over the entire season #later seasons you can literally just. Feel which eps they worked on because its got a completely different vibe from the rest of the season #16 still suffers from that segmentation but #i think all the first time sunny writers (and nina's first solo ep) were all absolutely fuckin bangers and they've got a good team in there #anyway. characterization of dennis flipflops a lot. but the rest of the gang arguably gets it worse at times #i think megan's dee is the absolute worst aside from conor galvin's #and i understand wanting to write her as a girlfailure who is just. horrible. but. #ok. comparing self help book dee to ross' cookbook dee. i dont even have to say anything do i. #she's like. The Woman. in the self help book. and i fucking could not stand it. ross' dee is so perfect though #and his frank. MAN. #EVERYONE FUCKING RUINS FRANK. #i think marder and rosell's frank is a lot of fun because hes clearly based on marder's dad and acts believably #a lot of writers struggle to capture his. frank-ness. #he's sort of suffered from like. bland pervy senile old man writing for a long time #and ross brought back him actually being a competent businessman #IM OUT OF TAGS IM SHUTTING UP