#this community has legit changed my life for the better

[jaybirdhitman]

A Nova from The Ghost in the Machine by @venomous-qwille . You guys are seeing a lot of gitm and it will continue to happen, the rot is real. Seriously though go read the story, it's incredible. I was at a point in my art that I didn't like how I drew and wasn't motivated to push myself, but since finding this mini fandom around an incredible work, I've hyper focused in it and been so inspired to create for it. I'm tagging Qwille again but I'm like, embarrassed at this point. But thank you for making something so inspiring, I've learned so much just from the others in the community and on the server.

Flat Nova under the cut to see him without all the affects.

#my art #fnaf #fnaf sun #fnaf au #gitm au #gitm nova #I love these guys so much #this community has legit changed my life for the better

[bullet-prooflove]

Valentine's Day Bingo: Kicking - Bishop Losa x Reader

Tagging: @fanfic-n-tabulous @anime-weeb-4-life @keyweegirlie @danzer8705 @im-just-a-mississippi-girl @alwaysachorusgirl @beardedbarba @est1887 @oklahomapeach @mortal--soul @buddinglinguist @adaydreamaway08 @spookyboogyuniverse @librarian1002 @thanossexual @kishie8 @fleureeee @saltyunicorn079 @thebaileybugle @spaghettificationandpretzels @nu1freakshow @doggirlforever @justreblogginfics @skyesthebomb @beccabarba @legally-a-bastard @trublu2u @@lora21 @kmc1989 @jp1019 @fanfic-n-tabulous @just-a-throw-away @kabloswrld

Can be read as stand alone or a companion piece to:

Black Satin (NSFW) - Bishop discovers a surprise Christmas gift.

Gingerbread - Bishop comes home to a problem.

Snow - Bishop talks to you about something that's been on his mind.

Miracle - You and Bishop get an extra Christmas gift this year.

Hitting the Slow Dance Bingo Square

The first time Bishop feels his baby kick is during Coco and Stitche’s wedding reception. The two of you are swaying together on the dance floor, his grizzled cheek pressed against yours, eyes closed as the music serenades you. There’s no better feeling in the world than this, having you pressed up against him, the baby residing in the space between you.

You’re five months pregnant at this point, just starting to show. He spends his evenings singing lullabies to his daughter in Spanish, his lips ghosting over your skin before he gets distracted by other things.

It’s when the song changes that the baby starts to react. The band switches to something with a faster pace and he feels a tiny dig against his navel.

“Oh.” You say as you tilt your head to look up at him. “I think she’s kicking.”

You take his hand in yours, pressing his palm flat against the baby bump and he laughs when he feels the small nudge. He spends the next few minutes following his daughter’s movements before the song changes and the baby goes quiet.

“She’s strong.” He says fondly as he draws you into his arms once more. “She’s going to be exactly like you.”

“She could end up a hellion like you.” You counter and Bishop grumbles.

“I hope not.”

The last thing he wants for his daughter is for her to adopt his personality traits, he was wild as a teenager and his biggest fear is that his daughter will follow in his footsteps.

“You turned out alright in the end.” You remind him, your fingertips trailing over that sensitive little spot at the nape of his neck, the one that releases all his tension.

“With a little help.” He smiles, his forehead coming to rest upon yours.

Bishop has always been convinced that you saved him. He was a functioning alcoholic when he met you, smoking forty a day and running drugs and guns up and down the country. He’d expected to be dead before sixty, through a bullet or bike accident. He was careless with his own life, there hadn’t been much to live for after Aiden had died. He’d been in a state of depression for over eight years before he started to see the sun again.

Now he’s on the board of the community centre, he has a home, a partner, a baby on the way. He doesn’t drink anymore, he’s cut his smoking right down, he’s trying to quit before Luna arrives. The job is less risky because the club has gone legit. He’s happier than he’s ever been and he has you to thank for that.

“You saved my life.” He tells you as he cradles you close. “You saved my god damned life.”

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[aloyxtilda]

I need to say something. The saltiness I have seen against Seyka. The negativity to Aloy and Seyka's relationship even. It's hurtful and sad. I am so sad to see this from such an amazing community that I love very much. A lot of us LOVE Seyka. Attacking her character, claiming she is written badly etc. Please stop. All that is a salty opinion that some people may agree with but doesn't mean it's true for the rest of us. And it's hurtful to see everyone attacking each other over it. You are allowed to be critical of the story. But attacking each other, lashing out, being mean is wrong. I love all the characters in Horizon. All of them! And it's fine if you don't. But be polite and respectful.

Aloy is confirmed bi/lesbian. Can't we all be happy for her at least? Your fantasy still continues on with whomever character you ship her with. It doesn't need to be canon. That's not what this story is about. It's not about your fantasy. It's about Aloy's growth and her learning about love. It was beautifully and respectfully told too. So relatable as a lesbian for me. Everything. And in my opinion, It wasn't rushed at all. It felt natural. Realistic. 🌹💞

Then you got the saltiest ones saying. "But Aloy has built up all these other characters who mean something to her and putting Seyka with her as her lover is like tossing the rest of the characters under the bus." 😒 Really? So That's like me saying. I got all these people who are into me sexually and friends in my life who I made deep connections with. That means I should and must date them?? 😬 Red flag alert! No!

Sorry kids but that's not how it works. Seyka just happens to be what Aloy wants and opens her heart at the right time. It's realistic, natural and her own decision. I feel like Tilda and Lis' tragic love story helped to make Aloy realize something deeper in herself. It's Guerrilla's story and they are telling it beautifully. Not some cheap dating sim. Look, I ship Tilda with Aloy. I get it. But I am not upset that Aloy never got with her. Specially since it was canon that Tilda was totally obsessively in love with Aloy and Lis. Then she went and died. (Left up to speculation of course. 😌) Spite whoever Aloy is with romantically, I just want Tilda to be in the 3rd game.

It's fiction and supposed to be fun. But people are legit shitting on Seyka and each other! I find Seyka is an amazingly well written character. People are more upset that Aloy didn't get forced into being with their favorite character. I understand we love our favorite characters but the negativity saltiness around it is toxic. Aloy can be with whoever she wants and Seyka is her girl she chose. Seyka also represents girls out there who look like her for once. Another plus. And if you chose for her not to be with Seyka...it doesn't change her sexuality or who Aloy is and what she likes. Sorry if that upsets you but not sorry. She's B/L and we should really be happy about this. Sometimes it's our own community that can stop more industries from making games for us. Since it's always easier to go the straight route. Then it's typical and the drama stays out of it. Is that what you want?

I am so happy for Aloy and her story. I am proud of Guerrilla for telling the story they want. (Spite all the backlash now from all sides.) And not listening to any particular group who think they deserve the favoritism. Instead they gave us something new and fresh. A new character who vibes with Aloy and gives her confidence who she feels equal to but also only knows her as the girl who fell to earth. Not the savior. Not the outcast and I prefer that. I just see it as the more the merrier. Seyka is just another beautiful character we can ship Aloy with in fanart/fics. But some people rather be angry about it all and cause drama, even use it to hate on other shippers. Like fine, do that if it makes you feel better. But it looks salty and really raised a red flag for me.

Also as a middle aged elder gay who works in the gaming industry and sees so much bigotry, this behavior doesn't help and looks bad on the lgbtq+. I've seen some amazing devs already be talked badly about because of their decision. We really need to be more supportive of each other and characters that represent us and companies who risk a lot to tell stories made for smaller minority groups. The game industry is still far from being a healthy environment for women, PoC and LGBTQ+. Let's not make it worse. ❤👏 Thank you.

#aloy x seyka #seyka #hfw aloy #horizon forbidden west #horizon forbidden west spoilers #burning shores #tilda #horizon burning shores #tilda van der meer #horizon burning shores spoilers

[kitcatttt]

Serious post.

Hi guys. I know you guys are probably surprised to hear from me considering my last post, and no, I’m not back permanently, but there is something I feel I need to make a post about.

Disclaimer: Do not harass the user mentioned in this post, I do not wish any harm onto them.

If you have been in the TPC community since January of this year, you know about the drama involving the user Cintagonisupset. If you’ve been keeping up with his blog (only reason I have is because I do 100% expect him to make another post about me and/or my friends) you would have seen one, or both of these posts.

Now, you might be wondering, why am I bringing these up? Both of these situations are extremely unfortunate, and they would be, if he wasn’t lying.

I know that it’s a bold claim to make, but it isn’t inaccurate. I may not have concrete confirmation of him lying, but I have more than enough evidence.

For the first image, he legit just- didn’t leave tumblr. He just pinned that post and kept on tumblr like normal. For the ENTIRE time he was supposedly gone, he was still reblogging posts, just putting in tags that he was “still gone”. After about,, maybe a week or so his pinned post was back to the usual one and he was posting like normal. Not to mention, a little ways through that whole leaving tumblr bs he had changed the pinned post to this. “I hope y’all bitches burn in hell” (actual picture to be added once I fucking find it AUGH)

(UPDATE I GOT IT) And the second image? He claimed. To have to be sent to a mental hospital because of a mental breakdown. That is EXTREMELY serious. Do you know how in need of help you need to be to be admitted to a mental hospital? Do you know how horrid that would be to fake? Now, I haven’t been to a mental hospital myself, but I have several friends who have. Hell, I even have a IRL friend who has been to one AND has written a 10 page research paper on them. They have all stated to me that they wouldn’t let a patient keep their phone, and my IRL has stated that the wait times there would most likely keep them in the hospital for longer than they supposedly were in there.

All of this alone isn’t enough for me to claim that he faked it, seeing as he is in Canada and I’m in the US, and they most likely operate different than here. But you know what is? The fact that he has deleted EVERY SINGLE POST HE HAS MADE ABOUT HIM BEING IN THE HOSPITAL. Sure, he could’ve gotten out early, but why delete all of the posts about it, and not at the very least make an update post on his condition? I know for a fact that there are still people that care about him, and not making a post about his condition when he CLEARLY has the ability to be on tumblr seeing as he deleted all his posts mentioning the hospital is extremely suspicious, and basically proves that he has ulterior motives for making these posts.

What do I think these motives are? Well, I believe that he is trying to make anyone who checks his blog that was involved in the drama against him think that he’s gone, so that they stop checking his blog for good. Then he gets rid of or hides/buries the posts and goes on with life like nothing happened. I honestly don’t blame him for trying this, as trying to get out of drama with desperate tactics isn’t that surprising and is not that odd of a response. BUT LYING ABOUT GETTING SENT TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL??? YOU REALLY COULDN’T THINK OF ANYTHING BETTER??? Honestly, it makes me sick. Seeing someone fake something as SERIOUS as that. Makes me sick.

I do not wish harm on him. I wish for him to heal. I wish for him to get the help that he needs. From his repeated behavior, there appears to be something wrong with him mentally. While I do not enjoy claiming this, it’s the most logical explanation seeing as he’s been doing shit like this FOR OVER 4 YEARS. He genuinely needs professional help, and I pray that he gets it. But for now, all we can do is defend ourselves if he decides he wants to attack us yet again.

And a personal message to Cintagonisupset, if he just so happens to be reading this. Your actions severely upset me. This post has not been made to wish ill will onto you, but to bring to light something that you have done wrong, that is genuinely disgusting in my opinion. You have made callout posts for way less. Again, I do not wish any harm onto you, so do not wish any harm onto me. Or do. It’s just more evidence against you.

If anyone has read this far, thank you. Once again, do not harass Cintagonisupset, that is not the purpose of this post. Thank you, and have a wonderful rest of your day.

#cintagonisupset #drama

[the-belle-siblings]

(Ooc) btw S. V. Left a long message for Terra.

Ooc because this is actually serious stuff to talk about:

Pride wasn't the only thing involved in those situations. It was the will of the individual to act. It cannot all be attributed to something as simple as pride. I didn't even take the comment of being called gay as an insult I was simply explaining that it isn't quite a compliment either. Especially how it's typically used in a derogatory way most times. (It obviously wasn't in your situation but the ask I was given sorta made it out that I had taken it as insult. I did not, Terra was upset that she was told her plans all fail not that she was called gay. I thought it was a point that should be mentioned anyways.)

Being queer is tough, it's full of challenges. It's the power of the individual to realize "Hey, I am actually your equal and your not gonna treat me like crap." That's what gets things done, it's more spite and will then actual pride. That's my point.

Being queer is being beaten down and holding onto the most simple things because we are powerful and spiteful and alive, not prideful. We group around each other, spit on our wounds and stand up even though we're outnumbered, because we know that we don't deserve to be treated as lesser. Pride suggests that we deserve to be put onto a pedestal which isn't at all the case.

Everything we've accomplished is queer spite, queer sweat, queer tears, queer blood, queer love, queer community. We aren't prideful gods above all creation we are simple human beings raising banners with our blood for the sake of life. We are survivors of our every day existence. It is a constant battle and yet recently we have been deceived by our foes and told that the war is over.

It is not over. It has simply just begun.

We still continue to lose our rights because they aren't protected by our government. And we don't fight back! Why? Because "you already have pride month" or "it was worse back in my day." We are actively being gaslit! We hardly have any control over our lives and we're being told "grow up you liberal snowflake."

You can be proud of who you are and not change a damn thing about the world around you. However if you love who you and your community are, you will likely feel spiteful towards those who threaten you. Love is more powerful than pride.

If you love your people you're going to help them. That's where everything comes from. It comes from love and spite. "I hate that you hurt the thing I love so I'll take care of it and show it off!" That's us. It's all about the kindness in our hearts and the motivation for change. Love and Spite. In other words, passion.

Queer Passion > Gay Pride

Pride can only get you so far but with passion, you move forwards no matter what. Because you want that change. You need that change. This whole damn world needs to change.

Oppression is prideful. They view themselves as above others for the reasons they find in a delusional man's novel. They view themselves as above others as a desperate cling to power. They are prideful, selfish, idiotic, and greedy.

That's why I believe in passion over pride.

Though Pride month does sound a bit better than Passion month I must admit.

I'm saying this as queer person who struggles with their gender identity and sexuality. I've been called slurs and misgendered and deadnamed. When it comes to myself I get the adrenaline rush and I drop it. However if I hear it about my brother or one of my friends I'm legit ready to lay someone out.

I have legitimately almost fought someone for calling my brother a slur. That isn't pride! That's love for my family and friends and my community! That's spite and rage towards my oppressors! Me shouting as I'm shaking in anger and fear isn't my pride, it is my individual passion to help those I care about!

We are brave passionate individuals and we need to step up and do something about the way our world is. Boycott products run by homophobic people, spread awareness posts, start protests in the streets, give speeches, run for office, ANYTHING OTHER THAN SITTING AROUND DOING NOTHING!!!

Sorry for the very long rant though I'm just very passionate about this kind of topic.

#ooc #asks #queer rights #queer passion #gay pride #rant #our world is crap we gotta do smth

[goldenstarprincesses]

Henlo! You rebloged my post about France in fanfiction and I wanted to reply to it because I found what you said interesting, but because you used just tags would be goofy to reblog it again so I am sending an ask!

I agree about the cannon not helping, the thing is France got better in the cannon, he is more interesting now. I am not very into Prussia so I don't remember if he got better in later parts. But this thing about him being the worst in PruCan fanfic isn't something I noticed in Brazilian Fanfics or maybe I just don't remember lol

I wrote my post at 1 AM and now I stopped to think about what annoys me about how simple and awful Francis' characterization is and I noticed that it simply doesn't have a reason. When I was writing my fic, I wanted to make him bad in a European kind of way, he is France, France really did a lot of shit, he is kind of goofy and useless now? Yes, but that wasn't the case in the Early Modern era.

I also never saw no one exploring his sexuality. Why is Francis overly sexual? Why is he so dramatic? Why is he always trying to get in someone's pants? Real people have reasons to act overly sexual, they aren't just born this way, but WHY I NEVER SEE NO ONE ASKING THOSE QUESTIONS??

Thank you for rebloguing my post and confirming I wasn't just seeing things lol

Hiii! First, I adore your blog. Thank you for introducing me to the world of TurkFra. My eyes have been opened and my mind widened.

I almost think the fandom needed to go through the "dark times" or "dark age" of character interpretation to get where we are now. I know there was for sure a shift happing when I dipped out of the fandom in 2016ish. And when I started occasionally reading fanfics again during lockdown I was blown away with the shifts regarding the characterization of nearly all the characters.

Totally agree with you 100% about interpreting a character like France in a way where he is bad shit person, because of the actual actions of France. Imo its really important to include things like that into every nations characterizing when engaging in more "real life inspired" characterization. Almost have to wonder if the rise in popularity of historical hetalia has had anything to do with this change. While it was sorta a thing in the early years of the fandom, it didn't really seem to have much of a collective following and community. And now it seems that characters of empires/colonists like France/England/America/Russia etc. have shifted away from being written to have very goofy and comically negative traits more in-line with the 2008-2012ish canon to having their negative traits rooted more in the real-life negative habits or traits of the real world nations. I'd also wonder if the average age in the fandom has gone up which has helped characters simply be better developed.

The "bad touch trio" was super common back in the day. It was France/Prussia/Spain. Pretty much the entire characterization for them all ended up being sex addicts who went around well, SA or SH other nations. That mixed with the very silly "everything is based on basic national stereotypes" vibe of early canon I think just made i so a character like France ("nation of love"/the idea that the French are much more sexually liberated then the English or Americans) was very one-sided even when other charters were getting a little bit better of treatment. I also always felt like France was never as popular in the American/English fandom as American and England. So he (and often Canada) would sorta just thrown into things without much development character-wise.

You bring up so many good points!!! legit I have always thought about things like this.

#I had this all written up and my internet went out for the rest of the night 😭 lost all of it #hws france #hws america #hws england #historical hetalia #hetalia discussions #hws russia #tw sa mention #tw SH mention

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

Hey. I would like to say Thank You! You have brought me closer to God recently. In return, I would like to give you the gift of being... lovingly cruel to you? Um so. Based on what you post and reblog, I will cautiously assume a few things about you and work from that. Please bear with me, but feel free to stop me and object anytime. First, based on a reblog you made I assume that you do believe that autism is a disability to an extent. Second, since you keep crying out to God I think you believe that Jesus has healing power and can heal anything. Third, you feel absolutely miserable. Fourth, you said that you don't want to change anything about yourself.

Bear with me. Um. I came across various testimonies on the net who apparently experienced healings of autism. People would pray "for brains to rewire" themselves. Parents would see gradual differences, with their child sleeping better, starting to speak, being less angry, becoming able to communicate in school and improve their cognitive skills. It was a process for them, but obviously by God's intervention.

Now, um... here's the thing. I am currently on my own healing journey and while this sounds incredibly insulting at first, it is my growing conviction that healing is fairly easy and that the only thing stopping us from getting miraculously healed by God's love is .... our own will.

We all say that of course we want to be healed. WHO WOULDN'T??? But.... do we? I mean, really? DO we?

I think the stumbling stone for us is actually the change that comes with healing. We, um... we want healing, but somehow, we don't want to change. We are terrified of change. Anything is possible with God, but we don't want "anything". Because we love ourselves and we may have lived with a disability for all our lives. It makes us who we are.

And if we got healed, that would change.

Imagine a limb growing out. A lame person walking. They wouldn't know what to do. They would feel alien in their own body, who they have known forever. Their whole lifestyle would change. They would have to get a job. They would have to live without aid, alone, a functioning human being all of a sudden.

It's TERRIFYING.

We want the healing, but we don't want to experience the radical and equally traumatising change that comes with it. It's understandable. Any disability grows on us, grows with us. Especially when our entire life centers around that disability, we legit do not know what to do with ourselves when we lose it.

We are MORTIFIED that we could lose ourselves.

But what is God's ideal? A fully functioning body. A fully functioning soul. A fully functioning brain. We are CALLED to be healthy, we are COMMANDED to be whole. Whether we want it or not.

So basically, the current predicament I think you find yourself in (and you're NOT the only one, it's perfectly natural, believe me) may be: You want to be healed and feel better, but you don't want to lose the autism because you would not know who you are without it.

These two statements cannot coexist.

And so my question to you would basically be: Does God's power over your life stop at your identity? Are you able to sacrifice your entire identity for his healing? Everything you have known? Can you surrender yourself and trust him to catch you? Can you trust that you are still loved even if you're brand new? Can you dare to believe that you will feel more like yourself than ever before, despite not yet knowing what that might possibly be like? Can you love him enough to obey him to be whole? To give the years you have lived, your whole existence, down to your very thoughts and neurons, into his hands, even if it takes years to adjust?

Your self?

I... don't know what to say to this ask, truly. I will think on it.

I suppose the other thing that occurs to me is more physical things, such as one of the things I hate about myself being the self harm scarring (of which there's... suffice it to say. A lot.). Do I believe that in theory, God could take that away and leave me unscarred? Yes, in theory. But in practise - well, his own Son still had scars that showed he'd lived. I don't know that God would heal such things.

I recently heard someone say something like 'God took the trouble to make you autistic, why would he not want that to be the case' which... I'm not 100% convinced of, but anyway.

As for whether I think autism is a disability? One. Thousand. Percent. I'm diagnosed with moderate support needs autism, level two, which while it's a more significant level than I expected (I expected level one or not at all), I can say that autism is disabling in some areas such as social things. It's in the condition. It's a disability.

As to your second assumption? Yes, Jesus has healing power and can heal anything. We can move mountains if we have enough faith. But why? If God's made me this way, well, this is the way he's made me. Why would he do that if he wanted me to be healed. I am aware there's some level of fallacy here, because of the miracles Jesus did on earth, but bear with me - we can move mountains, but why? We gotta be convinced that that's what God wants, right?

As to your third assumption - lol yes. That's all I'll say.

Fourth - where'd I say I didn't want to change anything about myself? There are many things I wish to change about myself, I just dunno how to.

Anyway, feel free to come back and chatter at me, whether via asks or dms or what have you. I'm here. Thanks for your ask.

#ask #anon #disability anon

[itzalizeyyy]

hii I go by Alizey when online ! (ali - zey) but you can always just call me Ali or Zey for short !

A little late but here a little introduction about myself ! lets get into it ‼️

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About me:

• 14 🎈

• Freshmen 🥳

• Scorpio ♏️

• Lgbt 🏳️‍🌈

• She/her ✌🏼

• Love anime ! Anime I have watched are promised neverland, erased, haikyuu, one punch man, death note, etc.

• Love style / fashion . I absolutely love doc martens, flannels, varsity jackets, Jordans, cargo pants, etc.

• books are life. I have read: The Hate U Give, Concrete Rose, They both die at the end, The First to Die at the End, It ends with us, It starts with us, The perks of being a Wallflower, The outsiders, etc.

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Things I know:

* Law of assumption

* Non-dualism (recently learned)

* Reality shifting

* Void state

* 3d / 4d concept

* Any tips / advice in general

Really, you can ask me anything, and I wouldn’t have a problem answering or giving you any advice. But if it something I am not educated on, I definitely let you know.

My main thing I am following now is non-dualism. That will be my main topic on my page. However, I still respect other concepts and don’t mind helping / guiding you with them !

ASKS I WILL NOT ANSWER:

It has come to my attention there are quite some asks I will not answer for the reason that the ask is too repetitive and have been answered countless of times and have many blogs about it already.

“Why can’t I see my desires?”

“How can I manifest?”

Basically anything else that traces back to the physical/manifestation. This is about non-dualism since it has nothing to do with manifestations in the first place. If it is about manifesting topics, then i understand.

Backstory / journey:

Its a rollercoaster. My journey of realizing all of these interesting topics took place in a span of two years.

I learned about reality shifting first in late may / early june in 2021. I learned about it through tiktok which was very full of misinfo. I legit thought that I had to drink gallons of water in order to shift 💀 I know now that not true but at least I was hydrated 🤷‍♂️

I quickly left shift tok and went on other platforms which were Amino and Reddit. I created a lot of posts about reality shifting, scripting, affirming, Motivation, void state, and really anything on both platforms. I was on Amino for a year and 196 days. I am not sure how long I was on Reddit, most likely about a year.

In the beginning, I overwhelmed myself a lot with shifting. I did a lot of unnecessary methods in short periods, put symptoms on a pedestal, had a hopeless / negative state of mind, and it just became an obsession.

That all changed when I learned about an amazing creator that went by the name Vanilla on Amino.

She shifted and enter the void over hundreds of times for years. And she made many posts about the sub-consciousness, void, awareness, etc.

She was the first person that introduced me to the 3d / 4d concept and how natural awareness is. And now looking back she did help me and many others, but I made the mistake of idolizing a blogger / teacher.

I had this mentality where nothing she said was wrong. That was not true. She preached about something called a “ time gap” between the 3d and 4d. Meaning the gap between what you have (3d) and what you want (4d).

I understand that whatever concept, or mindset you want to follow is completely fine and individual. But my mistake was only putting her teachings and beliefs on a pedestal and I ended up limiting myself.

I am no longer on Amino or Reddit. Shifting Reddit was pretty toxic in my experience. I never had problems with amino in terms of toxicness. It's a wonderful community and I learned a lot of good things there. But I sort of became burnt out of all the posting on amino so I left to better help myself and my mental health. And now I am here on Tumblr and it is a great community from what I can see.

I knew about the law of assumption and Neville Goddard for about a year, I posted about it, but never fully committed to it until recently. But now I discovered non-dualism, and I just felt like that resonated with me more.

And that is basically my chaotic journey. I never really felt skeptical or felt like any of these topics or concepts were far-fetched. I mean even before my reality-shifting journey I knew about astral projection and lucid dreaming, and I just always had this feeling that there has to be more than just being human. This just can’t be all there is..yk? It just felt so limited. And when I learned about these topics, well I wasn’t really surprised.

Advice

My biggest advice is to follow what resonates with you the most, and maybe that could even mean not following anything at all if that is what benefits you. I would also say to embrace the journey, to embrace self-discovery, because once you are living the life of your dreams, you may still look back to your journey, and cherish those memories and perseverance that you showed and all of the change of perspectives that you had. I get that it is hard to be grateful for anything here if you have unfavorable circumstances, bad experiences, unhappiness, etc. but I feel like there only exception to be grateful for, is you, awareness. Be grateful for your own nature, power, potential, abilities, etc. Don’t just give credit to bloggers for helping you, but also give credit to yourself for being able to take in the knowledge, to be open-minded, to let people influence your thinking in a good way, and to let that open opportunities for you.

Regardless if you are a reality shifter, astral projector, lucid dreamer, law of assumption lover, non-dualism learners, or whatever it may be…we all have one thing in common and that is that we all awarenesses, and these concepts are helping us realize our most natural and true selves.

That is all I gotta say. a few non-dualism posts will be coming up soon ! as always take care <3

#void state #lawofassumption #reality shifting #shifting journey #loa blog #loassumption #non dualism #non duality #nondualism #nonduality #loa #conciousness

[hqwkeyes]

one other thing i have been absolutely dying to address: THE ROOKIE WINTER FINALE

if u haven't seen it and want to, don't look below the cut bc SPOILERS

hi. hello. fuck.

okay first a bit of backtracking: it really took ashley tim's back surgery to realize that they weren't gonna work? not the whole "my coworker knows my boyfriend better than i do" thing? or all of the other obvious things like how she's a lifeguard and he hates the beach?? no??

also super fucked of her to dump him literally as soon as he woke up after a potentially life-altering surgery but that was a given i guess...

ANYWAY TO THE GOOD STUFF

so it's been super obvious for these first 7 episodes prior to the finale that tim and lucy's relationship has changed quite a bit since the whole undercover op thing but girl i did NOT expect this so soon

okay so in these last two episodes, what the hell made chris think he and lucy should buy a HOUSE together? like sure he was thinking about tamara too, which is sweet because it shows that he really cares about lucy and her relationship with tamara. but also he was super pushy about the whole house thing in the first place. like he kept calling her about it while she was at work after she asked if they could talk about it later that night?

and also, he surely saw the news where she literally witnessed a woman get blown up, so why did he think it was okay to call her to push the whole "buying a house together" thing on her AGAIN, and without mentioning the case at all? and how was he not noticing how cold and closed off she was being? if anyone i care about was acting like that toward me, i wouldn't just brush it off like that, but maybe that's just me??

then ofc there's the whole tim getting fucking whiplash from how fast he turned his head to ask about lucy moving in with chris. the communication between those two in those episodes was absolutely incredible, especially in episode 8 like god damn. he showed just how much he cares for her in the way he was trying so hard to be there for her. like was he probably going tf through it bc he had to ask her if she loved someone else? yeah.

and omg when she said "he's just not" and looked at tim like GIRL turn this car around and find chris so u can break this off immediately bc EVERYONE knows who you want 🤦🏻‍♀️

side note but sgt. grey and aaron were mvps in that episode, pushing those two together.

anyway, the communication was impeccable, and i CANNOT BELIEVE TIMOTHY FINALLY STARTED MAKING SOME DAMN MOVES OF HIS OWN like holy shittt mr. rule-follower wants to risk it all to be with her?? and she was the one who was like "idk if its worth the risk"??? role reversal fr. but no they're so cute, all confessing their feelings for each other

LIKE THE MF SMILE ON HIS FACE WHEN SHE SAID YES TO DINNER

i do not condone cheating of any kind and emotional cheating is tricky and a slippery slope, but i do respect lucy for wanting to properly end things with chris before going out with tim (ofc)

ALSO OMG

IM SORRY CHRIS IS JUST AS DUMB AS ASHLEY BC THIS MAN WALKED INTO THE OFFICE TO ASK TIM BRADFORD IF HE THOUGHT LUCY WOULD LIKE A CERTAIN HOUSE.

I REPEAT: CHRIS WALKED IN. AND ASKED TIM. IF HE THOUGHT LUCY. WOULD LIKE A CERTAIN HOUSE. IN WHAT WORLD????? LIKE IM SORRY U ARE GOING TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S COWORKER TO ASK THAT? AND YOU'RE GONNA MOVE IN WITH HER? LIKE BUY A WHOLE HOUSE WITH HER EVEN THO TIM KNOWS WHAT SHE WOULD LIKE BETTER????

my heart breaks for chris but like bestie how can you be so utterly blind?

the way tim was legit fake smiling at him icbbbbb

and the way lucy broke up with chris the way tim said to... like girl 🤦🏻‍♀️

aND THEN SHE RAN ALL THE WAY BACK TI HER JOB TO SEE HIM AND TELL HIM SHE BROKE UP WITH CHRIS LIKE NOT EVEN A MINUTE TO BREATHE? TO PROCESS IT ALL? NO?? i mean me neither he's fine or whatever BUT FR GODDAMN

but they were all sweet and smiley and cute and the writers and directors know exactly what they were doing ending the episode with that scene.

all i have to say is they better not fuck this up i stg.

anyway, super lengthy rant over im sorryyyy

#hqwkeyes #the rookie #rant #chenford #winter finale

[leastdatablebracket]

ROUND 2, MATCH 18

Propaganda under the cut!

Cameron Conner

Propaganda

very religious and judgmental about the witches in the town - especially because the playable character is a witch

Shane

Propaganda

He is absolutely rude to your character, for like a looooooong time. And when you finally romance him, his room that he adds to your house is a alcoholic hellhole filled with empty cans. You cannot get rid of this room, it is there forever.

Man is literally a severe alcoholic when you meet him. He needs therapy not romance… 

Beer

Alcoholic 

His room is dirty, he goes back to being an alcoholic, and he's not attractive

he hates you until you start dating, will call you ugly, looks like he smells

I just think he's overrated 

ive got personal beef with this man i married him once on one of my save files and it was the only time ive ever divorced a character in stardew valley

HIS ROOM WHEN YOU GET MARRIED IS LITERALLY THE WORST. IT'S A DIFFERENT WOOD GRAIN FROM THE REST OF THE HOUSE, THERE'S DIRTY FOOT STEPS IN THERE CONSTANTLY, AND HE HAS A SPILLED SODA CAN ON A CARPET. 0/10, I HATE HIS ROOM.

more propaganda for shane as one of the submissions notes he is implied to have become an alcoholic again after you get married or he at least has enough random lines about drinking alcohol or plans to drink alcohol to make it seem like thats what's happening which doesnt pair well with his 14th heart event which intentionally makes the farmer and marnie think that hes drinking again n the reveal is that actually hes just been playing video games but legit he will still say stuff that comes across as him having a drinking problem after the event (divorced him cause i kept getting those lines after i got his 14th heart event n it genuinely just made it seem like he was lying to his spouse and marnie about his drinking problem) also throwing stones from glass houses cause shane ALSO kisses the farmer unexpectedly during his 10 heart event the main difference is that you're allowed to be uncomfortable when elliott does it while with shane it just assumes you'd be fine with suddenly being kissed n then has the farmer kiss him back elliott's 10th heart event is sucky but that doesnt change that shane's 10th heart event also involves him kissing the farmer suddenly its just portrayed positively

Anti-Propaganda

YEAH, HES KINDA RUDW AT FIRST, ITS CALLED DEPRESSION (AND HE APOLOGIZES LATER IN THE STORY TOO). He pushes the player away beacuse he doesn't want to get attached, he's an alcoholic bcs his life is pretty shit. He takes care of Jas, who's not his kid but I think he's her God father (I'm really not sure, either way, he's her legal Guardian) beacuse her parents fricking died. Literally the only job available in this horrible town is JOJA MART where let's be honest, he's treated like trash, additionally If you go with the community centre route, you take his job away from him. AND HE DOES GET BETTER WITH DRINKING. In his 6 heart event you find him next to a cliff, drunk, where he tells you how his life is a (quoting) pathetic joke and why shouldn't he just roll off this cliff right now. Afterwards he asks you to get him to a hospital, next day he comes to apologize for the whole thing beacuse in his mind It was embarassing, even though he doesn't remember most of it, and tells you that HE DOES GET THERAPY, he got himself a therapist! All he needed to change was a bit of your support, its not that you fix him either, he's the one that chooses to go to therapy, he's the one that chooses to stop drinking, after marrige he almost completly replaced alcohol with soda, which, yeah not the best, but its a step in the right direction, people don't change overnight. I have nothing in his rooms defence, I hate it with burning Passion as well. Of course I don't expect It to be clean, he's still a person with depression, but the alcohol dialogue is unnecessary, feels like the game kinda forgot abt his arc, but that's rlly the only bad thing in my opinion. I feel like most people who hate him don't understand depression and character growth.

#round 2

[bullet-prooflove]

Killing Me Softly Part Three: Share the Wealth - Alexander 'Tig' Trager x Reader

Tagging: @mortal--soul @yourwinchesterbros @buddinglinguist @spookyboogyuniverse @nessamc @ritasantosworld @bl4ckt00thgr1n @anime-weeb-4-life @redpoodlern @ravencrow83 @nu1freakshow @oureternalbond  @the-wandering-lunatic @lexondeck @keyweegirlie  @theplacewhereallthedemonsgo

Killing Me Softly Series:

Part One: Livid - You and Tig are at an impasse.

Part Two: A Stay of Execution - You and Tig talk.

It’s over a month later that Jax approaches Tig. He’s sitting at the bar in the clubhouse, sipping from a beer as he reviews the latest figures from Cara Cara. Website traffic is through the roof, subscribers just keep rolling in, the business is going from strength to strength. It’s one of the best investments he’s ever made, he may only own a quarter of the business, but he is making bank and the best part of all it’s totally legit.

Jax slides into the stool alongside of him, a cigarette hanging between his lips as Tig pushes the paper towards him so he can study the documentation. They each get one at the end of every month, but Jax hasn’t had the time to read through his copy. He takes a drag from his cigarette, the smoke pluming from his mouth before he nods his approval.

“Your girl knows what she’s doing.” He says as he reaches out for the ashtray further down the bar. His fingers hook it, and he drags it towards him before tapping the ash off the end of his cigarette into it.

“Yea my girl knows her shit.” Tig tells him, removing his own cigarette from the packet beside his beer. Jax removes his lighter, igniting the flame as Tig puts it between his lips. He lights the cigarette before returning it to the interior pocket of his cut. “You take it to table, and it validates everything we were saying when Clay tried to kill the deal the first time. He gave her three months to turn it around and she has.”

There are four equal share partners in Cara Cara. You, Tig, Jax and the Sons.

When the studio had first burned down, Clay had been dead set on cutting ties. He didn’t want the club to be involved with the rebuild, it was a dead business he had stated, there wasn’t enough money in pussy. He’d wanted the club to focus on the gun trade, the higher risk, the higher pay off he’d declared. The problem was most of them had just done a fourteen-month bid in Stockton for gun running, and no one wanted a repeat performance. The porn business afforded the club some legitimacy, it was a steady flow of income that built up the club’s reserves.

When you had inherited the business, you had played it smart, making a series of changes that had played better than any of them had expected. You’d gotten Juice to move the servers offsite, just in case. You set the girls working webcams in their down time, building stronger relationships with the subscribers and more consistent content. You’d taken the time to research other niches, making your categories more inclusive.

When the studio had gone up in flames it didn’t affect the websites, they were still up and running, still serving up premium content. You’d implemented a disaster plan in the early days of your tenure, and it had served you well.

During the physical rebuild, the girls worked the cameras from home, keeping the livestreaming side of the business going. You had built up a good enough relationship with Dondo that he was comfortable lending you his premises and equipment for a fair fee when he was off scouting talent out of state or wasn’t using certain sets. You had a couple of rough cuts you’d rescued the night of the fire, so Cara Cara kept producing.

Yourself, Tig and Jax had fronted the money for the rebuild of the premises, rendering virtually no additional cost to the club. Some of the guys had pitched in on the construction side of things, lowering some of the outgoings. It’s become a communal enterprise.

“This is going to going to keep us on the straight and narrow at least for a little while longer.” Jax tells Tig as he folds the paperwork and inserts it into the back pocket of his jeans. “No one can deny we’re making enough money to consider expanding in the future.”

Expansion. Tig wonders what that will look like in the future, he doesn’t tell Jax that you’re already meeting with Nero Padilla, looking into bigger and better business opportunities. He’s keeping his mouth shut until you’re ready to bring it to the MC.

“I need to talk to you about something.” Jax says, withdrawing the cigarette from his mouth and blowing out a smoke circle. Tig, follows suit, he watching the ring disappear into the air as Jax continues. “Georgie Caruso, he’s complaining that your girl’s been fucking with him and his business.”

Tig stubs his cigarette out in the ashtray.

“That’s probably because she has been.” He tells his V.P frankly. “Luann was her friend; she feels like this thing with Georgie is disrespectful to her memory. She understands that the club needs him, but…” Tig shrugs his shoulders. “I don’t blame her for wanting a little payback.”

“Hm.” Jax nods his agreement before his gaze strays to through the open doors to where Clay is sitting at the head of the table. “It’s not the decision I would have made, but it’s the decision we’re stuck with until he outlives his usefulness.”

The two of them don’t mention the fact you shoved a gun in Georgie’s face and almost pulled the trigger. It’s not something that either of them wants Clay finding out about, it would really fuck up the shit they’re trying to do with turning the MC legit.

“She being safe with it?”

Tig considers the question.

“There’s no proof she called OSHA on him, just like there’s no proof she told his vendors he’s been haemorrhaging cash recently, so that they’d call in their accounts and deal with him on an upfront basis only.”

“Did OSHA shut him down?” Jax asked as Tig took a swig of beer.

The porn business was highly regulated, just like any other workplace. If you cut corners, they would come down on you like a ton of bricks, close down your studio, slap you with fines. Failing their inspection could literally kill a small business.

“Georgie’s a bit of a dirty boy.” Tig informed Jax. “He doesn’t wipe down his sets, thinks it’s too costly between takes. I heard they also found a couple of pharmaceuticals. He has thirty days to turn his shit around, in the meantime his girls are defecting to more upmarket establishments.”

“Cara Cara. It gives us more diversity, bigger names, better revenue.” Jax smiles as he shakes his head. “Your old lady, she’s fucking terrifying.”

“I wouldn’t fuck with her.” Tig tells him resolutely. “She’s got bigger balls than most the guys in here.”

“No doubt.” Jax agrees before jerking his head towards the table where Clay sits as the figurehead. “You ready to take this shit to Church, give them the good news about their investment?”

“You know me brother.” Tig says, draining the dregs of his beer. “I’m all about sharing the wealth.”

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[dynamoe]

on anon because i'm a bit shy but i just wanted to let you know that i really adore all your venture bros work! i read all your fics over the span of a weekend and now i'm just sitting here like "damn, i wish i could read more of this!" it's just such a joy to see your illustrations alongside such spot-on character interpretations and such hilarious prose :) it's really clear just how passionate you are about billy and pete! really excited to see where your stories go next!

The best way to my heart is to care about my dumb writing. Oh Nony, you have nothing to be shy about. Praising me isn't shameful. (Being me, however, is.)

I hope you repeated this sentiment over on AO3 under a pseudonym; that's my trophy room. I can point to and say "SEEEE! PEOPLE LIKE THIS! IT'S LEGIT! [ATTN ALL: read/comment on Boy Genius & TJAD]

(give me a compliment and I draw a picture for you. Everyone wins!) ← back to 2022’s Billy & White index

Thank you, Anonymous, for the kind words but you didn't include a question in this "ask" so I'll have to make one up and pretend you asked it.

→ "Damn, I wish I could read more of this!"

COULD you read more of it? A lot more? I want to finish both Boy Genius & Tomorrow's Just Another Day by the end of the year which means I have to update them, like, every week. I worry about antagonizing the AO3 community and I already feel like an outside intruder posting there.

→ "It's just such a joy to see your illustrations alongside such spot-on character interpretations and such hilarious prose :)"

It's a joy to see a sideways smiley instead of an emoji.

→ "It's clear just how passionate you are about Billy and Pete!"

I glommed onto these guys perfect embodiment of wasted potential to reflect how loser/dork/slacker/fuck-up culture has changed since 1990. I'm using them to dredge up nostalgia and anti-nostalgia. But I worry my Billy & Pete have so little to do with the canonical Billy & Pete.

→ "(I'm) really excited to see where your stories go next!"

T.J.A.D: Billy & Alison drive off on their road trip, but she ambushes him with an unscheduled stop. Pete, against his better judgment, agrees to DJ again at a different bar .

BOY GENIUS: The airport has found their lost luggage. Billy meets the other "Boy Geniuses" (all actual children) registered for the World Super Science Conference.

BOY GENIUS (flashback): Billy's mom has a new man in her life— Ronald Motherfucking Wilson Goddamned Reagan.

Are these spoilers? I haven't written any of this yet, so I think they aren't spoilers.

❓CLICK HERE TO ASK ME YOUR OWN QUESTIONS❓← back to 2022’s Billy & White index

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[trans-cuchulainn]

So about your post about seeing a psychologist, I legit had my psychiatrist today tell me they thought I had been formally diagnosed with ASD... Which is literally never a thing anyone has ever said to me, mentioned, nor have I been diagnosed with. I'm now very confused. 🙃

Anyway, suffice it to say, mental health and neurodivergence is big oofs and don't feel bad if it's oofing you too.

honestly i have been brainweird for years and i am significantly less insane than i have been at various points in the past (rip 2013, 2016, and tbh a lot of 2022 because Trauma Brain was 100% winning that particular fight last year, especially april-july). i just actually have access to healthcare right now and therefore can pursue something i have wanted to explore for several years. that's the only thing that's changed. in many ways i am doing much better than in the past because most days i'm only debilitatingly anxious about things that are actually stressful and not like, the concept of a green metal-ended treasury tag or any of the other tiny small things that used to result in spiralling breakdowns

this is of course why my brain is going "well we're probably fine because we haven't been fired for brainweirds for a whole year now" (they pretended it wasn't for brainweirds but it was for communication style and trauma so, it was brainweirds) bc obviously if i am holding my life just about together at the edges, i am Fine

but. you know. the nature of being in crisis is also that your life tends to be wildly unstable and disrupted which is not conducive to waiting months for a referral to get any kind of treatment for anything ever. and seriously. i have moved house so many fucking times. the NHS barely even knows where i live at this point. but stability is required to get healthcare and i am currently reasonably stable so i am getting private healthcare via my job (because occupational health referred me, because if they're gonna pay me peanuts i'm gonna extract the balance from them in every possible benefit i could possibly access, frankly)

anyway all of this is to say that i am only a normal amount of insane at the moment (i have some exceptionally stressful things going on but they would be stressful for anyone regardless of mental health). i am just making the most of having access to A Healthcare occasionally!

#answered #anonymous

[sewercentipede]

love that I can write 10 walls of text like a whole dissertation about my lifetime of dealing w my parents’ abuse and cruelty and neglect, and my husband will read all of it and respond to all of it with thoughtful and empathetic and loving kindness and understanding he never gets annoyed by any of it he’s just so caring

it feels amazing to — after a lifetime of being treated like shit, abused (verbally emotionally financially and physically), dismissed, belittled, criticized, shamed, blamed, traumatized to where i lived my whole childhood until I was 20 (when i legit just had enough, packed what I could fit in my now-husbands car one night, and ran away to live w him) in a constant state of fight/flight and fear of what kind of retaliation/punishment I’d face for every single action I’d take or thing I’d say however benign — find and have a life partner who makes me feel safe and secure and heard and loved and lets me make mistakes because he meets my mistakes with understanding and love and empathy and treats them as teaching moments instead of moments of terrifying trauma and blame shame punishment etc.

I’m still, even after almost 8 years of being with him, regularly amazed that I have a partner who wants to hear what I’m thinking and feeling and is happy to listen to me rant about my feelings (or read about them) and appreciates me opening up to him and is always there for me. Always. and frequently communicates that he is there for me always and loves me always and wants to hear everything I’m thinking and feeling., without judgment, and never ever ever shames or criticizes me or has raised his voice at me.

and when I have issues with him (which is like So rare basically only 1 thing ever) he hears me and believes me and takes it seriously and we talk it out and he actually changes his behavior. and that makes me so much more open and willing to hear him when he talks about his issues with me and it makes me want to change my behavior too and therefor I actually work on changing it. bc it’s not coming from a place of criticism or control, it’s from a place love and respect and self-respect and what will benefit our team and therefor our lives together. and him showing that he is capable of changing a behavior of his in order to meet my need for security/respect, I see that and I see that he is a person who deserves the same treatment in return, so he deserves a wife who will change a behavior he wants changed in order for his need for appreciation/respect to be met. It’s just that simple. Any kneejerk ego reaction or defensivness i learned growing up, with him I’m willing to recognize it and work past it and grow out of it for our relationship because our relationship and how we view each other are based in genuine love and care and appreciation , not resentment , so I feel pride and joy becoming a better person to make him happy, because I want to.... I love making him happy, because he deserves it, because he works hard to make me happy and care for me and it shows (because he believe I deserve that). Basically conflict resolution is infinitely more successful when someone shows you, every day, that they respect you and value you. It makes you respect and value them back.

I just feel so lucky to have found someone who is like this and that he’s my husband!!! and so I’ll always have this source of healthy love that someone decided I was worthy of enough to commit to being my partner and team mate for our whole lives thru everything that happens; he chose me. every day he chooses me.

I’m so grateful for him because I won’t ever get anything but abuse, defensiveness, threats, blame, shame, neglect, cruelty, rejection, manipulation, criticism, dismissal, belittlement, gaslighting, and terrifying traumatic punishments from my parents. they’ll never change, they’ll never acknowledge my pain, or any other emotion i have, they’ll never empathize with me on anything, and they’ll never listen to me or admit they’ve ever hurt me or wronged me.

and Lately I’ve been truly beginning the process of realizing that fact about my parents—that they’ll never apologize for the trauma they inflicted on me that I must spend my whole life healing from, that they don’t care that they abused and still abuse me, that they don’t even feel sorry and never will, that they won’t ever admit responsibility or feel accountable, and that I won’t ever receive any amount of empathy, acknowledgement, or understanding from them in their lifetimes—and figuring out how to accept it. and it’s really fucking painful and heartbreaking. but when I think about my husband I feel a sense of relief and safety and hope that I’ll be okay: because while I can’t I get all those things that I need emotionally and physically from my parents, and I sadly never will, I can (and do) get them from the one person I chose to have in my life instead, and this knowledge makes life much easier, more beautiful, more joyous, more peaceful, more loving, happier, and healthier.

and with that comes the prospect that eventually, I will no longer even desire or need any respect or love from my parents. because the respect and love I get from my husband is enough, and it also makes the contrast between toxic relationships/ppl and healthy ones so stark that my standard for how I should be treated has changed; it’s become based on respect, not fear/avoiding punishment. my husbands love is helping me heal the wounds of my parents’ past and current and future treatment. and he is constantly teaching me the tools to love, empathize with, and care for myself. his love helps me grow and become a better person, and that’s the kind of love I want and deserve. love that pulls me up, holds me accountable, makes me want to reciprocate out of genuine care, teaches me how to love myself, and makes my soul blossom with joy and appreciation. my parents can’t give me that. they’re not capable, they don’t have the tools, so all they know is how to be miserable, drag people down and crush their souls, because that’s what happened to them and that’s what they do to each other, and they don’t want to change that.

#long post

[thegreatzombieartisan]

Hello,

I agree with most of what you wrote the Tolkien fandom. People dislike this or that. And trying to make shows into fan service.

I didn’t particularly agree was your take on the whole “touch the darkness” and how it’s “arrogant fan fiction.” Is it really bad for show runners to add their own creative input?

To be fair, PJ’s movies were far from perfect adaptations and did have some of his preferences. He sacrificed psychological and spiritual depth of the books for more action oriented films. I particularly disliked the addition of crass humour, e.g. reducing Merry and Pippin to comic relief. But that’s neither here nor there. Overall, great films.

When PJ’s films came out, readers understandably had a harder time excusing the changes and enjoying the movies for what they were, but their voices drowned in the joy of the new larger audience.

Now we have a situation where new adaptation has to somehow please book fans and movies fans.

One thing the Rings of Power dis better than PJ was diversity. Good People are white and “bad guys” are all dark skinned in LotR trilogy was just cringe. But of course that’s a problem too.

Bonjour / Hi!

Thanks for your patience. I went on vacation, had work stuff, and forgot to reply to my post. Also usually Anon Asks merely “passionately” disagree without offering arguing points. One of the last refuted the idea of Sauron masturbating. People have opinions.

On PJ trilogies. C’mon, without comedy duo!Merry and Pippin we’d never have “Fool of a Took!” Jk jk. I’m not recalling crass humor in the LotR films. TRoP definitely does. Yep, the films are less action-oriented. But if you recall, they were shot all together to save money. PJ was on a budget. It was crucial that Fellowship be successful because he needed to reshoot a lot of scenes but didn’t have the money. Action has a a bigger pay-out than spiritual depth.

On adaptations & diversity. Some decisions with PJ’s films weren’t great. To Tolkien, “black” symbolized corruption of the spirit. Orcs and Nazgûl are symbolic and described as “black” but not literally. Tolkien was openly anti-prejudice. That being said, White supremacists (hate groups) love LotR. Men of the West who are lighter vs. Sauron’s darker-skinned less advanced “Men of Midnight”? Well Tolkien had his blindspots. Gotta consider political/cultural climate. PJ tried more inclusion with The Hobbit but only as extras.

I assume your last sentence references people disliking the TRoP diversity. It’s expected. Many people have unconscious biases on what a hero or leader looks like. I’m a woman in tech, well I know. It’s often (but not exclusively) obfuscated behind lore or Elf hair disagreements, etc. Not a fandom thing. It’s a people thing. Pity that online is a poor medium to facilitate meaningful discourse that leads to changing views.

On fandom. What’s fandom but one step from the general population? In a true community, members have a shared understanding on definition of terms, engagement, rituals, and accountability, etc. Does a fandom have that? I wager fans whose ideologies, worldviews, cultural norms, beliefs, etc. are reflected in the mainstream are more likely to assume consensus. Fandom is like a nebulous city. A Tumblr space is like a neighborhood. A discord room can be a community since it’s contained and allows for moderation. Are you tracking? Adjust engagement expectations accordingly.

Must adaptions aim to please both book readers and film fans? Impossible! That goes for anything in life. Fans have opinions. Consider/incorporate, don’t consider/incorporate. We’re still showing up, sometimes even when it’s blah being served. Here’s the thing: Amazon marketed the show to a broad general audience. Many general viewers were legit confused with story points that relied on lore references. I point to Amazon execs for this inconsistency.

Understand that Amazon’s business model uses original productions in part to increase traffic to its storefront. Naturally there’s an incentive to target broader audiences. Also the culture relies heavily on cutthroat metrics for decision-making. It undoubtedly put writers in an untenable position.

In response to your “touching the darkness” question. To be clear, it’s not “bad” because it’s not a moral issue lol. It’s inevitable a creative’s beliefs will influence their work. As previously shared, I find the theme compelling. It’s merely inconsistent with devout Catholicism which is a a huge draw for me personally. But not everyone. Like if the manner (not the decision) Galadriel rejects Sauron is meant to be an act of empowerment, she’s not a Tolkienesque heroine. It is what it is. Still gonna keep watching because its nonetheless entertaining.

On “arrogant fan fiction.” It was an out of context reference to an interview TRoP show runners did where they claimed to have improved upon Tolkien. Look, when you say things like that, you gotta know what you’ve started lol. It’s great seeing lore fleshed-out. I’m glad Miriel is more than a beautiful prop. To me personally, that + Haladriel, and a few other things were better than canon. Otherwise, show runners need to take a stadium amount of seas lol

Happy to carry-on via Asks but feel free to DM. I don’t bite 😌

#the rings of power #doylist #meta #lord of the rings

[incarnateirony]

*Shealyn's denialist retardation and avoidance intensifies, adds new vanity plates, tries to be retarded in Norse today, misses what she's reblogging again*

Shealyn, you've never done a real magic trick in your life, you just chased and abused and tried to destroy the Magi of the path you spewed heretical delusional octopus jibberish in the name of. It doesn't matter what pantheon you run to, but yes, I do have badass music taste, since you keep confusing me with Loki, and yes, even if it burns me out. I've made that incredibly fucking clear.

I love that this bitch just keeps trying to rotate her shit to find something, too. Hermes and the dance moves! Loki and the music list! Um. Anubis and the kitty kibble! All the godshadows and her Therapy Book! Anything but addressing the screaming lady in her head she confessed to on main! Today's distraction is ROCK MUSIC. Tomorrow... whiny reblogs begging the universe to think about her FEEEEEEEEEELINGS. On Sunday, if we turn a bunch of posts sideways without reading them, maybe she can find a way to validate-away with a half printed motivational poster what has her crying inside because she goddamn knows better. Her inner goddess is weeping but the monster of shadow born from her obstructing her own light is too obese on the chewed on foreskin of her ex to release its ego.

What is it gonna take for someone in her life to intervene and go, you know what, Shealyn. The octopus jibberish from the cited anime was never real. So your communication with him isn't legit. Which would explain why you don't know any of his doctrine stuff or axioms or whatever Aaron is talking about that the rest of the practicing world DOES know. Maybe we should listen to the psych worker and elder magi, and not to the god of death you think is telling you to feed the cats. Because I think he just jacked your playlist and blog again. You HAVE had an alarming escalation in required medication and self-harm habits that you've had to shave yourself bald over. Maybe there's a correlation here. And you know in hindsight, it IS pretty weird that you're up your ex's ass in social circles three years later, that should have pegged us as unhealthy behavior, sorry for contributing to that.

But no, that would require her, and them, to have been like. WRONG about something. If they scour tumblr hard enough they might find a post to interpret that makes their weird rapey bullshit okay.

No, y'all. She's schizoaffective and you've fed it until it became full blown stalker obsession x literally made a fucking cult to her ex husband and now you're ALL too motherfucking embarrassed to look at it.

Also yes, Shea. Very much the Best Comment. Thank you. Thee Crustdaddiest. You're still schizoaffective and still riding my astral dick. And now you fucked up and got Mark on it.

Avoiding the truth doesn't change it, it just prolongs how long I'm going to embarrass both of you while picking your brain to pieces.

Is being humiliated one of your fetishes too now? is it a kinky thing? maybe I'm just playing into your horny lying cultist hands by embarrassing you like this, is this another way you get off on me?

or are you so braindamaged you forgot we went over this being in the exact time period you fucked up and got Mark bound to me and you kept changing the color of my otherwise identical-across-entities prescription lenses on every different "character" or "god interpretation" you were doing for a hot minute there.

Because that's what people that Actually Talk To A Deity have to do. Interpret what they look like. Not "this is how I see him." This is how you interpret text you pretend talks to you at night. But you done fucked up and attached to me, and you know, we've been over this, you dumb broad.

But yes, Thee Daddiest. Technically they forgot the most important Thee. But I respect the effort. The -est suffix imports the essence of Thee enough, Thee Crustdaddy, or The Crustdaddiest. See, language is fun!

Lady... we're STILL doing this?

My bad that old avatar generator didn't have the exact nose bridge you'll try to bitch about as different. Just like you didn't notice the Pan with the spider after I started yelling HEY YOU LLOTH OF THE TENTH HOUSE ARACHNE WHO SHADOWS HER OWN ALTAR. "man I just got this vivid visual of the pan that looks weirdly like Aaron's icon going BOO, I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!" MAN IT WAS REAL RED WHEN I WENT THERE LAST NIGHT TO DEAL WITH MOON MOON "IDK THIS GUYS NAME BUT I'M PROUD OF HIM. IF HIS HAIR IS SHORTER, IS HE A DIFFERENT DUDE????" Me: LMAO ENJOY YUGIOH BRAINROT "we'll draw the guy on hieroglyphics... and paint him BLACK... even without giving him actual black features, we just keep changing the skin tone on the same dude's face and caling it a different guy. But this one has a side shave!! SEE, DIFFERENT GUY WE SWEAR." me, sitting there with my clippers shaving my head: you're literally all brain damaged.

I can ALMOST forgive Mark for missing the Ash in the Pyramidhead thing, because your lying ass intentionally will hide from him what that is and it does look different, but the others yall, it's outright embarrassing to watch, but I've been saving your fanart. Very useful actually.

fuck me running with a pitchfork. Like friggin... artistic blackface to try to dodge being called out on their shit. Changing hair length and hair dye color but still drawing the same motherfucker over and over again with the same general essence and the same glasses throughout, even in the egypt piece where they painted him dark but still gave him caucasian ass facial structure with the same fucking glasses same as "Loki" and "IDK his name but I'm proud of him" which conveniently match the facial shape of "Hermes", or "Rhys", or "Coyote", or whatever she's fucking waving around my bullshit under today pretending it isn't me and mine and my shit and my work face identity you know the fucking song by now. Hell Egyptian Dude direct transited the purple lips and other details from the icon I had on my blog for a month to reclaim my own motherfucking face from your theft. But I guess a haircut and blackfacing him changes everything. Fucking flaming candied jesus on a pogo stick, you guys.

Also sidebar but this is the funniest timing to me rn

No seriously, nobody finds it weird that while she runs further and further from the concept of Hermes beyond compulsively giving in to a few evocations I've forced out of her letting her think it was rebellion or whatever... now it's LOKI with the dance moves, and it's LOKI telling her to do her therapy. Because therapy and Workbooks and Playlists are all totes common Loki associations, and not just her trying to transplant her bullshit to escape to another language like that'll help.

Hey dumb dumb, Loki is just as easy to travel in the unconscious right now for the same reasons.

YEAH NO

NOTHING HILARIOUS GOING ON HERE.