#this is hitting very hard rn

[goblinsbriide]

“O..bichad bhi gaye, Toh bhi kya hai…Tera dard toh saath hoga, Agar aa gaye aansu…Toh kya mera chehra, Toh yaad hoga….”

#so good waa #❤️‍🩹.txt #ok jaanu #jee lein #hindi music #neeti mohan #ar rahman #a.r. rahman #bollywood music #Spotify #this is hitting very hard rn #mera chehra toh yaad hoga hi na? #jab woh uss jagah jaata hoga theek hai aur bhi log hai lekin #uss jagah pe par it won’t be the same

[shima-draws]

Still going through it emotionally btw. I've seen a lot of character death in anime but it's been a WHILE since I've seen one as brutal as Ace's, especially bc of Luffy's reaction to it. Character death isn't unusual but the trauma and PTSD that comes after it isn't really shown that often so Oda actually showing Luffy going through it is. Oof. That shit HURTS bro. And the fact that Luffy's immediate reaction is to just. Self destruct. To hurt himself and risk his own life?? Like it was never explicitly said but I could see the suicidal intent there and jesus CHRIST. Just sitting there watching him refuse to accept it and then mourn and grieve was absolutely brutal;; Not to mention the fact that like. We can see him having PTSD flashbacks. It was just written very well (too well bc I'm still a goddamn mess) and I gotta commend Oda even tho he's putting me through the fucking wringer

#A character death hasn't hit me this hard since Eugeo tbh. It's been a While #Actually thinking about it yeah Kirito's reaction to that was very similar to Luffy's #And Kiri actually. Did genuinely try to kill himself bc of it. Like it wasn't even subtle #Anyway. Woof. I'm fine ahaha (lying) #Do you ever just go through it emotionally and just need to lie down for a while. That's where I'm at rn #One Piece #One Piece spoilers #Suicide tw #Self harm tw #Monkey D Luffy #Luffy #Portagas D Ace #Ace #Ask to tag #Shima speaks

[metukika]

spirit teru

#claw accidentally kills him and he just haunts his apartment now #that or something very ordinary like getting hit by a bus and hes just extra bitter about it cuz hes supposed to go out in a special way! #in big denial about being dead.. let me quote an old reply from twt #specifically premob teru being in hard denial like yeah i always become an electric mist and scurry around my room #like a rabid dog whenever someone tries to enter my apartment i always do that im so alive rn #mp100 #teruki hanazawa #metukikart

[kissmefriendly]

It’s really kinda sad painful and interesting that the Captain’s death is one of the few where we don’t see him become a ghost. We almost expect it but the final shot of that scene is just him laying lifeless on the floor (and I suppose there there’s some mirroring between his and Kitty’s death, especially through the cinematography). How horrific must that have been when he did become a ghost? To be able to see Havers and trying to reach out to him, trying to get through to him only for Havers to never know he was still there, alone. Having to listen to all the nasty comments made by the other officers. To watch Havers leave the house for a second time, unable to get his attention or say goodbye.

#I find it interesting and very sad that Kitty and the Cap are just shown lying there completely lifeless #and we EXPECT them to become ghosts like with Humphrey Julian or Thomas #but they both just lie there #even the cinematography with the placement of Eleanor and Havers and the overhead camera just… #these both hit me so hard #especially considering their almost father-daughter relationship later on #I just have alot of feelings about this choice #I’m kind of tired and in some pain so my head is woozy #no idea if I’m making any sense but that choice really struck me #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts spoilers #i might elaborate #but I haven’t stopped thinking about it tbh #I wanna go into more depth about Kitty and the Cap’s deaths as mirrors but uhhh brain is slow and stupid rn

[prolibytherium]

I don't care about ""romance"" or """hurt and comfort""" where issues are (temporarily or otherwise) resolved via effusive declarations of love and devotion and praise I want to read more fucked up people fumbling their way through their best approximations of intimacy and human vulnerability like "What are you doing. Oh ew wtf are you crying? Are you good? Don't get snot on my shirt" etc but no one understand smy visions

#I have to do everything MYSELF #Genuinely I love writing about interpersonal dynamics between low empathy people with weird attachment styles it is probably my #key historical trend in OC dynamics and etc #Both with platonic friendship and/or romance it's very endearing to me. Love people who sincerely care about each #other and do it in ways that suck so fucking bad #The ways having low empathy and/or disordered personality can affect relationships when you genuinely care about someone but are #woefully unequipped to deal w/ some emotions and etc can be very interesting and something I wish I saw in Media more often #but unfortunately it's already hard enough to get people past step fucking one of 'low empathy and/or cluster b does not mean evil abuser' #Am not expressing myself very well rn I have a really bad headache and yet I hit the post button

[allonepiece]

i cannot remember which volumes these are from, but they are very precious to me

#oh odas old artstyle hits hard rn... #his current style is GREAT and i love it very much but there's something about the old one that's so fascinating #op #one piece #sanji #nami #zoro #chopper #luffy #usopp #the rat posts

[hyaesia]

on the move

#sigmund corp #eva rosalene #neil watts #rosawatts #to the moon #finding paradise #impostor factory #catsart #sigcorp #a homebaked post #art block is hitting me very hard rn halp

[aurrieattorney]

wough. being ill sucksssss. appreciate having a clear nasal canals or w/e if you're currently well rn

#very. hard to type rn. thebone upside of being. a home body is that it happens less often #but it still hits like a truck when i do catch them

[wyllsravengard]

idk what ramadan is gonna look like for me this year lol

#z.gen #i try to be more on my deen and i will do it this year #like hitting all of my prayers when i normally hit like 3/5 etc #no substances which fluctuates yearly since being calisober is what got me off other drugs but should be fine this yr #a lot of people wont listen to music either but i honestly dont listen to it much during the day regardless #having a very night time schedule is helpful during ramadan #i think im gonna try and focus on establishing all of my prayers #i dont really care to talk about my faith much cause its so genuinely no ones business #but i am muslim i just dont follow the practices of any of the four major sunni schools strongly for other reasons #im not shia either tho... looking #none of it matters rn cause i cant fast anyway LOL but its okay #its just like. kind of hard to celebrate islam with whats going on in palestine #like a lot of my fellow muslims get really obsessed w the aesthetics #but the month is about refraining from worldly desires and practing restraint and is generally anti consumerism #so its like. idk if i care for fun silly ramadan recipes. im gonna try to organize stuff with my mosque again inshallah

[bylersrise]

im aiming for this fic to be at LEAST 10k words but no way will it be done before like march i be having writers block every other day, i write like 500 words at a time at most and it's literally looking like it should be on wattpad how do yall do this

#writers block hitting me hard rn #i have ideas #but i can't put them into words #i can see the whole thing in my mind #like a movie #but it's not coming together very well #yall probably don't even care #oh well #mini rant #anyways #byler #byler endgame #stranger things #byler ao3 #byler fanfic

[redrocketpanda]

I'm doing a lot of processing at the moment and turns out that Atsumu has become a very dear blorbo for dumping all of my feelings & processing into (they don't call me atsumucore for nothin')

I've written exactly two scenes for this in my phone notes app and I'm not sure if it'll ever become a fully realised fic, but boy... do I need to hear the things that are being said to Atsumu right now. And so I'm writing these scenes for myself, but I think maybe they'll resonate with a lot of the other broken trauma babies out there too

#let me just drop this here and then go and CRY into my pillow #the day that one of my partners identified me as Atsumu was literally one of the times of my life where i felt the most seen ever #bakugou has hard core teenage avery energy and i adore him with all my heart #but atsumu hits so close to the bone for me #and so now atsumu gets to be my Identity Blorbo #enjoy #skts #sakusa #atsumu #sakusa kiyoomi #miya atsumu #sakuatsu #hq #haikyuu #pls be gentle. i am very fragile rn #handle with care in big red letters

[hyunrun]

tw ed in the tags !!

#im feeling sooo awful abt my body today its crazy #i dont wanna relapse but also i have prom and grad coming up so its very very tempting #silly side note but ive been friends w some moots on edtwt longer than I've known some of my irls and that's crazy to me #anyway i was looking at tweets of me being so majorly uber excited abt final hitting 45 kg T-T like man omfg #feb 23 me was the skinniest id ever been and i was thriving !! #and i highkey wanna be that again #was my hair thinning and did my face look so gaunt it scared me at times? yes #did i also feel my prettiest + have the most external validation from strangers etc ever? also yes !! #i feel fat and ugly rn but I'm also just very averagely weighted #but i have a naturally broader built but i feel like i look bigger even if I'm not ?? 9ufdkjhjs #anyway its scary looking through old tweets bc I'm talking abt skipping lunch like everyday and stuff like that's scary !! don't do that #but also it makes me wanna do it again like if i could look like that again... id genuinely kill myself for it #i was kinda also p healthy back then LOL only ate god food #cardio every evening + muscle training every morning #anyway teehee thats all i very much dislike my body rn and i hope i can lose a bit so i don't feel like dying <3 #i have hope bc im only 5kg off what i used to be so !! shouldn't be too hard yaaya if i can just get back in the 40s ill be happy like a 47 #i got this !! hopefully will not destroy myself in the process yay #tw ed

[autistic-katara]

girl help the hyperfixation’s returned but i already binged all the short angst fics featuring my Mental Illness™ in one night

#i shouldntve done that since i need to be awake today #but fuck if took me like 2 hours very tops to read everything from now to end of april last year what the fuck #also i can see i’m still the only person to have written that typa angst for kyoshi #(this is abt atla btw) #(if u couldn’t tell by my last few rbs lmao) #seriously though guys #my fellow atla fans #(specifically fellow zukka fans bcz it hits hard like that) #can we please write more short angst that caters specifically to my mental illnesses #or idk just whoever’s writing it’s mental illnesses i’m probably not the only one with this problem #i would suggest organising an event but there isn’t rlly a word for “angst/hurt/comfort shorter than 10k notes mental illness centric” #so can we just idk all write more #check my kyoshi fic for what i mean except it’s kinda bad so idk 😭 #if someone gave me an idea i’d be down to write it but i don’t have one rn #atla #fanfic #ryan shut the fuck up

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it #its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul #crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to #say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to #let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to #physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill #somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes #energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating #and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make #work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics #so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while #i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation #rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all #the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals #like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too #but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them #if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she #works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology #i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying #at least i get to work with some culturs this week #unrelated

[dontcallmeeds]

Whoops

#I saw a post on tumblr and immediately ran to rewrite the entire episode into steddie #I know it’s been done but bro I watched the party scenes like over and over and over last night #bc there’s so many random Steve time gaps he could’ve been meeting Eddie #very fitting I was Charlie Kelly for Halloween the year bc I’m hitting that Pepe Silvia hard #I CANT WRITE SMUT RN IM FULLY SEC REPULSED IM SORRY SO HERE WE ARE WRITING DISGUSTING STEVE PAIN #idk how I never noticed he’s crying when he leaves the bathroom #season 3 is my main comfort season then season 4 then season 2 so that’s probably why #eddie munson #stranger things #steve harrington #steddie #pre st4 Eddie Munson #joseph quinn #stranger things 4 #Joe keery #stranger things season 2 #ST Halloween party #the bullshit incident

[charmac]

how’s the sugar fic going i’m trying so so hard to be so patient and good

I’m so proud of you for being patient you’re doing a great job.

It’s coming along, still got a chunk to write though, there’s some interesting things in this chapter that are taking me some time to get down… as well as just, you know, general life distractions

But this counts as research, okay?

#sugar daddy au #ask #also we’ve going through a heatwave #it’s very hard for me to write when it’s hot #bc the heat makes me wanna die #but we’re getting there!! #also the baseball is a joke cos it’s just a coincidence you sent this ask while we’re playing the phillies #but it’s also. not a joke cos. the phillies play the padres where we are in the fic.. LOL #so fun coincidence or whatever! #tatis just hit a HR while typing this #don and mudd were showing their hot dogs (literally the food) on screen while he hit it #lmfao… #anyway this isnt relevant at all #but if you read all this i’ll give you what im struggling with rn #macden are watching game 3 nlcs #phillies have a few errors #i wrote a little thingy where mac gets mad like typical mac rage at the game and dennis calms him down #idk if i wanna keep it tho cos it fucks with the mood for what happens after that #so that’s where we are! #what happens after is that mac sucks dennis cock btw #spoilers for those of you still reading this for some reason #lmfao