#this is just me scratching the surface of ramble

[pencilofawesomeness]

Hello!

*Taps fingers together* I come to bug you regarding the Secret Santa exchange!

I saw your character prompts and decided to try and mix all three. I wanted to ask if there was any Laxus + Cobra brotp, or Cobra + Thunder Legion friendship headcanons you'd want to see added?

If not headcanons, then anything in particularly you would like to see regarding the five of them?

Hahahah hello there, mystery person~

Oooo you bring to the table a tantalizingly interesting prospect. I do have waaaaaay too many thoughts, and many of them are admittedly steeped in my own AU because I accidentally sold my soul to it (as authors do) so by all means, do not feel encumbered by my thoughts/ideas. Treat them as a buffet to pick and choose and take inspo from, because unfortunately you just gave me license to ramble :D

(and this is going to be rambley; too tired to make this cohesive beyond bullet points)

(I love these idiots very much)

—Laxus and Erik brotp is so real to me, fam. It's the "hey we got a lacrima bestowed upon us, whoo" bonding, for one, but beyond that, the sort of....quiet mutual understanding of what it is like to have a "father" figure who is just treating them like a weapon, making them *stronger*, with a faux sort of affection. Beyond the trauma, though, they are both deadpan assholes and I love that for them. If Erik (and this is the htryds coloring) spends a good deal of time having the braincell, then with Laxus he can channel the little-shit-little-brother energy and bully him a bit, and Laxus can be grouchy back and know that Erik can parse through the emotions and figure out what's genuine or not without him figuring out how to put in the effort.

—Also, depending on the setting, they both have the tendency to pull the ~too good for you~ bad boy vibes as a defense mechanism, which makes it utterly unusable on each other, which is fun. Mostly, though, Laxus and Erik have the ability to enjoy a mutual quietness, so to speak; not trying to prove anything, but just leaning back and being normal young adults (with a little salt on the side) and doing whatever. That said, Erik is a bit too much of a dark mirror of how things could have been worse for Laxus, if Ivan was more involved, and this leads to Laxus winning the "big brother instinct" award of the two, which is an experience Erik is not used to but....does not necessarily hate.

—This is a fun headcanon that I haven't had the chance to incorporate into my series yet, but they have fun little music debates. Laxus got Erik into the magic of using music to calm the overstimulation, but they have wildly different tastes. Laxus loves rock and roll and metal, and Erik turned to liking types of bluegrass and straight up classical music. They meet in the middle at alt-rock. They are both always trying to win each other over on certain songs or genres. It works surprisingly often but it's part of the fun to swear undying rivalry to the other's favorite.

—For more Cobra-specific vibes (aka the canon edgemaster), I can see them being a bit more competitive with each other. Which quickly doesn't work when they have completely different specialties, but an effort is made.

—Also something I haven't had the chance to capitalize on outside of the scenarios in my head, but Bickslow and Erik definitely have a fun "we perceive you but we don't care" vibe that I love. Your secrets are obvious but not their business. Sometimes they people watch together for the fun of it, because all of the thoughts they *do* have regarding the things they know have got to go somewhere.

—Evergreen, being the queen of gossip, really really wants in on this. They tease her for it though, and purposely dangle that tea on a string. (Though sometimes Ever *does* get in on it, mostly when it comes to roasting anyone who was particularly rude or annoying, or the silly speculation at the expense of friends, like figuring out what job Nab will eventually go on or what animal Bisca will adopt next.)

—On this same note, Bickslow and Evergreen both have insufferable little sibling energy amongst the Thunder Legion squad, nevermind that Bickslow is the second oldest. Mostly it's just really fun to tease the more serious ones.

—Though Ever and Bickslow are also the most keenly aware of what it is like to be feared. Truly feared. Having eye magic that isn't quite controllable (as a kid, especially) will grant that experience. It is their unspoken agreement never ever to speak of this, of course.

—On an individual note, it is worth it now to bring up that I am an avid fan (read: it's canon to me and sometimes I forget it's not real canon) of the theory that Bickslow was one of the kids experimented on by the Bureau of Magical Development. He's got that unhinged flavor that comes from straight-up trauma, and it does add more context to his otherwise creepy magic. I also hc that the babies are all deceased test subjects, and that is why they have stuck with him all this time. (I am very passionate about the babies as characters, unfortunately, and my little mini series I'm doing for them on tumblr is proof. I am soooo normal.)

—Another theory I love, and that I have somewhat brandished into my own spin, is that Freed is half demon. He sees this as an awful thing, raised by his human parent (mother, in my case), without any real context for demon culture other than the fear of it, so that's why he's super edgy and has locked all of his demon traits away into a single form he swear never to uses unless things are ~Dire~ or whatnot. It's really not that bad though lol.

—The fact that Erik will Know Freed's secrets bother him immensely. Freed is, unfortunately, *just* a smidge too dense to realize that Bickslow has also known all along, just because Bickslow is strangely very good at keeping things to himself, whereas Erik's magic is more obvious. In my au, Laxus knows too, and is literally just waiting for Freed to admit it, because it's not that big of a deal, really.

—Laxus is also the only one who (at first) knows about Bickslow's past, among the team. Mostly because of some variant of Laxus having seen/met him when it was all raw. Depending on the au flavor, this either is what gives the chaotic dude and the stoic dude a sort of mutual respect (closer to canon) or makes them the og best friends (htryds style). In the latter case, they are each other's impulse control and/or voice of reason, which is probably unfortunate because they're not great at it. This is why Bickslow has doodled drawings on half of Laxus's furniture and why Laxus gets away with avoiding his problems a little longer than he should.

—Freed is simultaneously the most responsible and the most edgy and ergo reckless of the crew. Everyone agrees he's got to value his safety just a little bit more. He's also the only one who consistently remembers the schedule/to-do-list.

—Erik shares the "living itinerary, doesn't have executive disfunction problems" braincell with Freed, and in the right conditions, they work very well together. Bonding over the experience of herding cats, that is their teammates.

—Not a headcanon but I want to whack all of them with sticks. The Sad Boi Stick, the Whump Stick... All flavors. Getting the ones who never fess up to their trauma a good thwack makes the trauma spill out, and I enjoy the possibilities that entails. Put them in Situations. >:D

—I do also appreciate them being silly-goofy, too, of course. No need to be angry all of the time, in some of their cases. (They all need affection so bad. The hurt/comfort allure of it all. Just sit down and admit they need it, etc etc.) Something that is conveniently done after a good physical and emotional thwacking— *gets dragged away forcefully*

#ask #secret santa #server gift exchange #anon #idk how to tag this so that you might see it #headcanons #a bit of htryds flavor #team thunderstorm #thunder legion #erik #cobra | erik #this is just me scratching the surface of ramble #it's almost 5am my thoughts quit and I need to go to bed #but I'm not a quitter #feel free to ask for more clarification if I did not fulfill what you were hoping for #also feel free to ignore me if you have ideas in other directions #I may have my biases but I appreciate all flavors in this house #that said I'm not fond of any of them being overly mean #outside of their villain arcs I guess? #doesn't seem to be sustainable for them anyway #also freed's obsession gotta be dialed back a bit #or addressed #that aint healthy bruh #he needs a gentle head bonk #most of them do for various reasons actually #but I will stop rambling now #thank youuuuuuu #good luck have fun

[yuckydraws]

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Healing & Growth

(gif made by my friend @robanilla-arts is below - slight warning for flashing! Thanks again, Rob!)

#if you feel like reading it - I'm gonna ramble in the tags. #Don't really feel like having it attached to the post for forever... cause what if i just wanna reblog some fairysona art?? #anyways #this year sucked a lot. in a lot of ways. but im grateful for it. #healing is stupidly hard and annoyingly enough? not linear in the slightest. Yet infuriatingly - it is worth it. #I am far from done with healing. I've barely scratched the surface. #but im learning and connecting with myself along the way. #The biggest step I've taken this year is working on my people pleasing ways. it's a bad habit birthed from a lot of different traumas. #but it no longer rules my life. #I am not passive anymore - and surprise! that doesn't make me a horrible or evil person. #my kindness is no longer a weakness. its still a part of me and always will be. i won't let go of it. #but it is no longer to a fault #there are people undeserving of my kindness... i realize that now. I know what i will and will not put up with in every kind of relationshi #im still learning and exploring - and i've said a lot of goodbyes this year. I'm sure i will say more. #but that's okay. #some relationships are forever - some serve you for a while and teach you a lesson when they end. #and some relationships stick around and don't *have* to have a deeper connection #and that's also okay. #I didn't think I'd make it through this year in all honesty. I was very close to ending it all on multiple occasions. #But. for what it's worth - as of now im glad im here. #i will continue to struggle and have my hard times. im not naive enough to think depression just goes away. #but im okay for now and im moving forward. #there will be pauses and abrupt stops and likely some good ol' rotting involved. but when i can - ill be moving forward. #i will not speak a word of 2024 because no matter what it will have it's ups and downs. #but i will continue to keep working on myself. and that's all anyone can do in this weird life. #if you made it through all of that... uhhhh wow you got a crush on me or smth? /j/j/j/j #but fr - if you read this far... thank you. i hope you're faring well and that you have a happy celebration tonight. #sleep well and dream well when it comes to you #yucky draws #my art

[wynandcore]

I am very not normal about Beck yet I can’t possibly convey how many thoughts I have,,, just know there’s a lot

#I don’t think this even scratches the surface of how I feel about his situation #I’ve seen multiple people call him ‘the terrible son’ in my tags and I love this congregation of ppl pointing at him and calling him ugly #/pos #he’s not even that ugly it’s just the first thing I think of. I mean look at those eyebags. holy hell he’s literally me #i ramble #tron uprising beck #tron uprising

[suntails]

Hiya!

I saw your SilRuggie post and I feel you on the "Silver and his many boyfriends" part.

Idk what it is about Silver but he's so... Shippable?

Like I ship SilVil, KalimSil and JadeSil which are kinda popular. But it's also stuff like RidSil and LeoSil (oh so much brainrot currently about LeoSil,) Which aren't as popular.

He's probably my most shipped character like... EVER.

(I may have gotten some ship names wrong)

IT’S THE CHEMISTRY IT’S THE WAY HE HAS CHEMISTRY WITH SO SOSOSO MUCH OF THE CAST!!! he’s so deeply just…good, and he cares so earnestly, and he has examples of interactions with almost fuckgng everyone at this point. like i can understand why someone would ship just abt any silver ship, i GET it, bc theres so much potential. i think i have like…3? that im neutral on? maybe?

also hearing u associate silvil with the kinda popular ones, im fuckign weak at the knees. that is incorrect but im pretending ur right bc it makes me oh so happy

#ask #nervouslywaitingforlife #its the way i like all of em. i love him he deserves love #silvil i have a manifesto abt #silkali i think they are best friends in LOVE with each other but specifically as friends. not that they love each other tho. theyre IN LOVE #does that make sense. IN LOVE as FRIENDS. IN LOVE. theyre married #jadesil gives me ‘theyll take rugged nature walks together’ and jade is so refreshed to have someone so sincere and sweet in his life #someone u can read like a book someone who will earnestly appreciate u. silver will love jades dedication and isnt put off by him like most #bc he sees ppl for the good in them. wipes a tear #silrid i feel so strongly abt. i firmly believe theyd be very sweet and good to each other. horse girls. riddle picked sil specifically for #his master chef partner. he chose him intentionally. silver acknowledges and appreciated riddles dedication and work ethic and talks highly #of him. in book6 ch6 iirc thats when riddle gets taken by styx and the way silver SHOUTS in worried fear. he LOVES him #i do think theyd get divorced but not in a funnt leovil way in a sad ‘things just arent working despite us loving each other’ way. adult yk? #leosil should take naps together. those are my thoughts. i want ruggie and sebek to find them passed tf out in the gardens on a reg basis #and this only scratches the surface of dear catríonas thoughts on sil ships. u didnt even mention silsebe and thats his most popular ship #i like him w ruggie too and jack and jamil and and and and AGGHHH dies #ADDING TO MY TAGS. FORGOT TO MENTION SILIDIA TOO. OH MY GOD THE FUCKING POTENTIAL AAAAAAGGHHHH take me off the stage i could ramble forever #me violently pointinh to my conspiracy board and detailing his chemistry with every single person in the cast

[selkies-world]

OK so I got a birthmark on my ribs removed on Tuesday & Holy fucking shit these dressings are annoying, and removing the dressing last night ended up ripping the scar off & it was bleeding like a pig, but the blood was really gelatinous & colder than my skin, which was weird. Now it's been maybe 19 hours since changing the dressing, and the tape / dressing feels really warm over where I packed it out.... and I wanna take it off. But I know I need to keep it covered, partly to help it heal but also because some part of my brain wants to dig my fingers into it (the same part that tells me to dig my tongue into the hole in my gum after getting my back teeth removed. That bit of the brain) and obviously that isn't great.

#also: no it wasnt cauterized #or stitched #because the GP done it in her office after i asked for a hosputal referall & she said it was only cosmetic so the hospital wouldnt do it #so i let her just do it on the lil examination bed #and it took maybe 10 minutes??? #she yanked it off (after numbing & cleaning it) then used some kinda razor thing to scratch away at the skin surface to smooth it out more #then she just held the tissues to it for a few minutes & wiped the blood up & packed it then put a large dressing bandaid over the top #and sent me on my way #gee someone remind me why i dont like doctors again....??? #blood #bl00d #blo0d #bl0od #wound #injury #gore #g0re #selkie rambles

[missionkittyroyal]

replaying fe3h and i firmly firmly believe that it is a crime thay sylvain doesn't get more a-level supports--though i'm sure this has been said before

and yeah, something something analysis of his character and how he tends to keep most people at arm's length and has trouble with true sincerity (just watched sylvain and lysithea's b support where this is briefly addressed) but like...

maybe they could have added a mechanic after a certain support or an additional part 2 paralogue for sylvain where a supports could be locked off until they're completed because he's not mature enough, willing enough, responsible enough, etc to connect with the people he engages with. but after the paralogue or whatever (really keen on the paralogue idea though) he starts that growth that leads him to become margave gautier

listen...homie doesn't even have an a support with dimitri and he grew up with him, right? how messed up is that? surely the major beats of their relationship doesn't end with sylvain hiding dimitri from a girl???

hmm hmm anyway i've grown very attached to sylvain and his untapped narrative potential and also he's my dancer on this playthrough plus rng somehow managed to turn him into a magical dancing monster and he always ends up on the front lines because i know he'll wreck everyone

#fire emblem three houses #fe3h #sylvain jose gautier #fire emblem #analysis #take what you will from this #but this is just barely scratching the surface of my thoughts about how much narrative potential in general we are missing in three houses #i am feeling very strongly about wanting to learn more about the crests and hero relics #i also came back to a theory i had about why cursed beasts form around people who don't have crests but are wielding or affected by a crest #or something artifically created to mimic a crest #also rewatching the scene where solon uses kronya as a sacrifice for the zahras spell?? and whatever he pulled out #looked and sounded suspiciously like a crest stone?? #which was likely something reverse-engineered by twsitd and thw agarthans #rofl anyway hit me up if you want to hear my ramblings on that too #and i'll make a post sooner rather than later #also i have dorovain brainrot and i'm writing a little something for them in between busy times

[feralghxuls]

@sinewtwine

WELL. since you asked so nicely.

(and ofc i gotta tag my co-conspirator @citruspuppy bc without them these vicious little freaks wouldnt exist as they are uwu)

long story short, maybe alpha needed some behavioral correction, and maybe swiss was looking for a brat project, and maybe alpha likes it a little too much how swiss breaks him down to his very essence and then has the nerve to make him talk about his ~feelings~ afterwards. and maybe swiss ends up falling in love with the little freak. and maybe alpha realizes that somehow swiss is the only one who knows him at all beyond surface level and maybe he hates that enough to lash out at swiss, only for swiss to take control of the situation like he always does and put alpha right on his ass (and really thats what he was looking for after all, he just still doesnt know how to ask for what he wants)

and yeah maybe they both know who's gonna end up on top but they fight it out anyway, cause sometimes alpha is just too wound up and swiss cant turn down a good fight, esp when he knows how brutal it'll be if alpha tackled him in the middle of the hallway and went right for the throat for it. and it kind of really pisses alpha off how swiss lets him get away with that and makes it look like alpha wins that fight until theyre alone later, because how dare swiss know alpha and his life well enough to know that how much shit he'd cause if he disciplined him in front of his pack, waiting instead until no one else is watching to unleash the fury that alpha pulled that shit. and it really pisses alpha off (read: he loves it so much it rolls back around into anger bc he doesnt know what else to do with an emotion so strong) how he knows that the more vicious and nasty swiss is with him, the sweeter he'll be in the aftercare and the tighter he'll hold alpha while he purrs all over him and drags his most deeply buried feelings up out into the open, makes them both look at it raw and bleeding in front of them

and i mean, come on. absolutely no one (read: rain, because he's the only one swiss told) believed swiss when he swore up and down he wasnt gonna fall for alpha, he was just a project, he hasnt had much opportunity since dew has shaped up so well but the first time he had alpha bleeding and ragged before him and he saw the pleading in his eyes, he knew he had something so very precious wrapped up in explosive spikes and he'd dug his way right to the middle of it, had his thumb on the trigger and he'd never press it. he'd come close, sure, he'd taunt alpha and wave it around in front of him, but he'd never really do it. but man...something about the impossible level of trust alpha places in his hands, and how he sees that he truly does want to be better, he just has no idea where to start, has never had any kind of guidance to untangle the everything thats gone wrong his whole life, how alpha had started out seeking destruction but had never bothered to think about the rebuilding...yeah. it gets to swiss. right in the soft spots of his heart

and maybe this is going somewhere. probably not, though. probably if no one intervenes they'll destroy each other. but maybe not, maybe this has a happy ending somewhere down the line

#dorito.txt #dorito writes #can you believe this isnt even all of it? #this just scratches the surface of the swiss alpha dynamic baybee #also lmao at me at the beginning like 'long story short' *proceeds to write an entire essay* #its 2am and im just rambling. about swiss and alpha. i have a lot of feelings. #alpha is like dew but 20x worse #he turned into way more of an asshole #theres like 100 more layers of asshole burying his hurt little heart #and swiss has plenty of shovels to dig through it all #anyway. slams that post button #there's a confession in the carnage

[zombiesama]

I have opinions about allergies being disregarded as a disability and not taken seriously

#rice rambles #'lets give these characters random food allergies bc its funny' you wouldnt say that about any other disability but its ok with allergies?? #and thats just what made me make this post it doesnt even scratch the surface of the ableism ive seen abt allergies

[ourtermporarybrilliance]

You'll never find a bitch more obsessed with catholic imagery than a former catholic, bonus if Italian.

It's me I'm the former catholic. And I'm Italian, a southerner even.

#me sitting arms crossed being like it's not fair how pretty everything catholic is #cathedrals ? house goals if you ask me #mater dolorosa ? so pretty it hurts #anything pertaining the via crucis ? tragically beautiful #ex votos and priests' paraphernalia ? the artistry is INSANE #the role of judas ? fascinating #and this is just scratching the surface... i am truly interested in the bible's content #i find it fascinating from an anthropological point of view #i might be atheist but i do recognize the book's importance #and its being a testament (eheh) of men's need to find explainations to life and ...stuff #mythology has ALWAYS fascinated me and that one of the reasons i loved studying latin and ancient greek in highschool #getting close to the classics and their research on humanity and its coming to be and its natural laws etc... #so yeah #i am reading the bible even if I'm atheist because i find myths to be fascinating #but i also (affectionately) resent my former creed for having such interesting imagery that i cannot define ''mine'' anymore ueue #ramblings

[scattered-winter]

also: top 5 composers!

OHHHH THIS WAS A HARD ONE ,,, these aren't in any particular order because if I had to first choose only FIVE favorites and then put them in order of most -> least favorite I would simply CRY

sarah schachner

her most notable work for me is the reboot call of duty: modern warfare soundtracks <3 here are some of my absolute favorites from her <3

modern warfare main theme (2019)

into the furnace (2019)

modern warfare II (2022) (I LOOOOVE the difference in instrumentation between the two main themes <3333333 they're both soooo good in their own unique way <33333)

hindsight (2022) (2:12 to the end is my favorite section of it)

the bitter end (2022)

john paesano

soooooooo many things. he's done the maze runner trilogy, ps4 spiderman, daredevil, and soooo much more, and every single one of them fuck severely. some absolute musts from him:

battlin' jack murdock (daredevil)

fogwell's gym (daredevil)

the maze runner (the maze runner trilogy)

finale (the maze runner trilogy) (bro when those STRINGS COME IN!!!!! LEAVES ME IN SHAMBLES EVERY TIME)

what's next (the maze runner trilogy)

i'm sorry (the maze runner trilogy)

spider-man (marvel's spider-man)

make it right (spider-man: miles morales)

steve jablonsky

if you've been around for very long you've probably heard me ramble about the transformers soundtracks. they're what made me watch the movies in the first place and by god if the movies were as good as the music they would be absolutely phenomenal. but alas. I'm sure jablonsky has more work outside the transformers franchise but I haven't expanded my reach beyond them just yet.

the all spark (transformers)

optimus (transformers)

bumblebee (transformers)

arrival to earth (transformers)

sam on the roof (transformers)

prime (transformers: revenge of the fallen)

NEST (transformers: revenge of the fallen)

i claim your sun (transformers: revenge of the fallen)

i rise, you fall (transformers: revenge of the fallen)

sentinel prime (transformers: dark of the moon) (spotify is SOO winterphobic so hardly any tracks in either this album or age of extinction are actually on spotify :(

it's our fight (transformers: dark of the moon)

our final hope (transformers: dark of the moon)

tessa (transformers: age of extinction)

hunted (transformers: age of extinction)

autobots reunite (transformers: age of extinction)

leave planet earth alone (transformers: age of extinction)

sacrifice (transformers: the last knight)

history of transformers (transformers: the last knight)

your voice (transformers: the last knight)

did you forget who i am (transformers: the last knight)

sir edmund burton (transformers: the last knight)

seglass ni tonday (transformers: the last knight)

we have to go (transformers: the last knight)

henry jackman

my favorite works of his are from captain america: the winter soldier, but I also really love what he's done with x-men: first class :]

lemurian star (captain america: the winter soldier)

project insight (captain america: the winter soldier)

fury (cptain america: the winter soldier)

taking a stand (captain america: the winter soldier)

time to suit up (captain america: the winter soldier)

end of the line (captain america: the winter soldier)

cap's promise (captain america: civil war) (shitty movie. great soundtrack.)

first class (x-men: first class)

rage and serenity (x-men: first class)

x-training (x-men: first class)

hans zimmer

I know he's like. everyone's favorite. but it's for a good reason because goddamn

dream is collapsing (inception)

one simple idea (inception)

dream within a dream (inception)

paradox (inception)

time (inception)

a watchful guardian (the dark knight)

why do we fall? (the dark knight rises)

now we are free (gladiator) (its worth mentioning that zimmer collaborated with quite a few people on this one)

at wit's end (pirates of the caribbean: at world's end)

up is down (pirates of the caribbean: at world's end)

one day (pirates of the caribbean: at world's end)

drink up me hearties yo ho (pirates of the caribbean: at world's end)

i'm spider-man (the amazing spider-man 2)

my enemy (the amazing spider-man 2) (pharrell williams put his entire PUSSY into this one btw)

you need me (the amazing spider-man 2)

i'm moving to england (the amazing spider-man 2)

i chose you (the amazing spider-man 2)

the rest of my life (the amazing spider-man 2)

no place like home (the amazing spider-man 2)

and as a nice lead-in to the next composer, here's a choral piece from zimmer that I really like: aurora (peaceful choir: new sound of choral music)

eric whitacre

one of these is not like the others <3 whitacre doesn't do movie soundtracks, because he's largely a choral composer who creates pieces for choir groups to perform. his work is very special to me out of everything else on this list because I've performed a lot of it onstage, and they all hold very special places in my heart because of the memories I have practicing and performing those pieces with my choir that was practically family to me <3 he uses cluster chords in his music a lot, which basically means the notes clash together in a very specific way to create the most gorgeous overtones and atmosphere and it's just oughghghghghghghh <333

lux aurumque (light and gold)

five hebrew love songs: temuna (a picture) (light and gold)

five hebrew love songs: larov (mostly) (light and gold)

the seal lullaby (light and gold)

sleep (light and gold)

i carry your heart (i carry your heart) (the lyrics from this one come from one of my most favorite poems of alllllll time btw)

sing gently (sing gently)

#i cheated and gave you six. cope with it <3 #in order to understand me as a human being you must first listen to all these songs <3 btw <3 #and just know that these 6 are only scratching the SURFACE of my fave composers. i have sooooo many #but ty for asking you literally made my entire day w this <333333 #teehee :3c #<- guy rambling about music and having a GREAT time <3 #leo 🌻 #winter rambles about music #ty for always indulging me :] <3

[bytebun]

hm… although i more or less stopped progressing (purposefully) in my technical art skill, id reached a point where i could easily “see” ways to improve - like if i wanted to work on any particular aspect (perspective, anatomy, style, comic pacing, etc.) i’d know exactly how to go about it

I’d… like to reach a place like that with my other abilities - programming or engineering or design are all just so big that i don’t even know how to identify what i should be pursuing. the sort of stuff i’d really like more experience with (firmware & hardware development) only seem accessible through doing actual jobs involving those skills. i cant see the ”path” to improvement; i dont know what resources i can access (most of the stuff online seems too basic, aka for complete beginners, or too expert level)

but like, ”art” is also such a broad category of skill… maybe its because i know what i want from my art, and not at all from my tech skills…

#I…….. probably I should reach out to people and ask and get mentors and stuff… I would rather die tho LOOOOL #I don’t even know what I would ask like I think I just straight up need an apprenticeship 🤣 which can be achieved by getting a job #but like I don’t want a job (yet) my everything hurts. I just wanna make some cool shit #I think. Well. I’d like to figure out how to use docker properly and ci/cd stuff for projects and probably contribute to a couple of open #source projects to figure out how I want to do my own software set ups #firmware; though…. Mm………. #I COULD get an fpga but what would I even make #like maybe I should just do some stuff for kicks… build a radio or whatever. #some sort of silly thing just to learn how to work with motors and sensors and Bluetooth #AND I really actually need to work on my real time operating systems stuff #This is like… a lot though… each of these could take me months to just #barely scratch the surface of. Which is… fine but also I do need a job at some point #So many things I want to learn I become paralyzed by indecision #I’m still trying to learn Chinese Rn lol #bytebun rambles #actually what I really want to do is a welding course

[jmrothwell]

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#thinking out loud #rambling just rambling #may delete later #Nothing makes me go 'oh this ISN'T a typical way of thinking' than certain fandom things #see a fic where they 'take it slow' and looking at the timleine like 'that's slow' #than oooooooh that's right I'm demi #seeing a bunch of people getting up in arms about but they're friends! #and I'm like. . .you can't be best best friends with your romantic partner?? #ooooooooh that's right I'm demi #and that's just scratching the surface #not even going into the gradient rainbow that is poly and 'what IS romantic love really?' #like seriously what IS it??? #I DON"T think I'm aro because I def don't think of my work friends the same as other relationships I have #but like no one else ever reaches that point of where does friend ship end and romance begin??? #is this more ooooooooh that's right I'm demi???? #or is this more in lines with the ooooooh wait am I poly??? #sorry for having a bit of an identity crisis there #the world is so full of color and gradients I don't know why anyone ever tries to label it in terms of black and white???

[astaraelthesnek]

Time zones

Part 1 Part 3 Part 4

Firstly: North America. Why? Canada isn’t too bad, the lines are just a bit off, apart from stupid Island of Newfoundland that decided to be -3½ hours when it is clearly all in -4. But generally, not too bad. Again, most of America isn’t that bad, with the lines going a bit wonky, until you look at Alaska. Alaska is almost all in -10 or -11, but no, they just had to be in -9. Hawaii is also wrong, but they get the benefit of the doubt for spanning three time zones and just picking one, apart from the fact that some of the islands are in -12, so they could have picked -11 to use the centre one. The Aleutian Islands are worse, which span +12 to -11, but are in the time zone of -10. America, stop trying to be special, just follow the lines. Then we move down to Mexico (I know it's more in Central America, but geographically it makes more sense to include it here), which again, for the most part is OK. The lines are a bit off, but its fine, except for that tiny little eastern bit that claims to be -5 when it is clearly -6. The rest of Central America is great, with an honourable mention to Panama and Costa Rica for the perfect split down the time zone, and a questioning look at the Dominican Republic who are claiming to be in -4 instead of -5.

#time zones #maps #time #country #rants #ramblings #random #so this is the second long paragraph i have done and i have barely scratched the surface #i have a good chunk of it written in a word doc and overall so far it is at 1000 words and i havent finished it #and so far i have posted about a quater of the full thing #why was i cursed to get obsessed with this #like #like it isnt even useful information #when am i ever gonna be like dont worry #i know what timezone alaska is in #its just random knowledge that is stopping me from learning stuff that i need 2 know 4 exams #and its not even particularly enjoyable because mostly it just aggravates me #at least i can now write out my frustration and u get to read it #have fun :)

[crowtobio]

in a perpetual state of insane over kagehina

#please talk to me about them oh ym godhrhrhfgjhhhhh #sometimes i come on here and try to ramble about why i love kghn but jts just so hard bc there r so so many aspects of them that i adore i+ #just cant express that succinctly idk #their unwavering faith in each other #the belief they both have that theyll both make it to the world stage one day #they both struggle so much to accept their strengths and try so hard to be something they srent #tobio trying to emulate oikawa as a setter and shouyou trying to become the little giant #and its only because of the other that they can finally accept their actual strengths #and understand what they are and how to utilise them #without the other neither of them wouldve made it anywhere idk #like it goes deeper than just without the quick shouyou wouldnt have been put on the team or w/e #theyve just both had such a profound impact on the other in pretty much every way possible #you really cannot discuss one character without mentioning the other #like if u want to go into any depth on either of them you HAVE to mention the other #this is not coherent they drive me insane they are everythign to me #please talk to me about them jm so AAAAAAAAAAGGGHRNNHGGGGHHHNNGRGRHHRHGRRRAAAAAAAAA #also like this really is just scratching the surface #there is just so much to talk about with them #if u follow me and u havent read haikyuu…. please….. #the last 70 or so chapters are just #incredible #nothing will ever top that for me i think #no i still have not recovered from ch 387 thanks for asking

[combeauferre]

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#cannot wait to go back to therapy i need someone to beat out of me the deep rooted feeling that i will never be good enough #my old therapist telling me that she thought i was doing better when we'd rly only ever scratched the surface #i just wanna not feel like i hate myself half the time i wanna think nice things about myself #sigh #incoherent rambling #ignore me #im okay it's just one of those nights

[yourgentlegirlfriend]

Vendetta! Leon x a younger reader who dresses up for him? Like just hard porn of reader in a little maid dress for him… and him fucking her so hard while she’s in it.. idk.. man Leon just deserves a pretty partner who dresses up let’s him fuck her whenever or however he pleases…. His little baby… his stress toy.. his whore.. omfg 🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣

EVERYONE SHUT UP RN I NEED. First request post of the night hehe. It’s NOT proof read so any mistakes just pretend they’re not there ok babies

DISCLAIMER: This blog is strictly 18+! Please do not interact if you are underaged or don’t have age indicators anywhere in your blog! tysm

It’s very short but it’s just a little blurb!! hope you guys don’t mind that ofc i have tons of stuff in my inbox rn </3

afab reader x older! vendetta Leon

Vacation. Leon simply just wanted some time off. He felt so bad that everytime he came home you were so excited to see him, rambling on to him about how you made him dinner, and you folded all his clothes for him. His heart aching as he put his hand up as a signal for you to stop talking as he popped the pain medication in his mouth, washing it down with the lemonade you had made him. His eyebrows frowned as he looked up, noticing how clean the house was, how you even put his jacket up for him as soon as he got home. He felt so guilty, knowing that even on top of doing college, you did all of this for him every single day.

His hand grabbed at the railing of the stairs as he walked up the steps, noticing the light from door shut off. Fuck, you were going to bed. Right when he reached for the door, it swung open.

Knowing Leon had been so stressed, you’ve been doing everything to make him feel better and nothing was working. His tension built up more everyday, even his kisses were rougher. You scrolled online for hours before finally finding it. The perfect little maid outfit you knew would push Leon so blissfully over the edge. Leon’s eyes scanned every inch of your body. The way it was skimpy but not overly skimpy, your thick thighs pressing against each other, the pretty apron resting so beautifully on your waist.

“For me?”

Leon’s words came out so seductively and it shot straight to your core, your shy side drowning you as you nodded your head up to him, your fingers playing with the lace of the outfit. Leon’s head shook as his hands reached out, smoothing over the softness of your chest.

“So pretty.”

He mumbled as he pushed you into the room, almost stumbling but he caught you so fast by the hips. His touch was rough, only to your skin though. He wanted to ruin you, all his anger was now surfacing but to his cock, himself sighing as he licked his lips as he pushed you face down into the bed. Your back arched up into him, your ass pressing so perfectly against his strained cock suffocating in his jeans. You knew him so well, your body pushing back into him, your skirt lifting revealing the plain white panties under, a small wet patch forming on the outside. Leon loved the simple things. His hand stopped your grinding, a yelp leaving your lips as he tore at the panties. He tossed them somewhere but didn’t care knowing he would buy you brand new ones later.

“Wanted you to take your time and enjoy..”

Your pretty glossed lips pouted back at him as he picked you up, throwing you further into the bed. His eyes rolled as his hand reached down, lifting your hips in the air. The sound of his belt unbuckling made your fingers grab at the sheets in excitement, but before you could even look back at him again his cock was so deep in you, your walls struggling to shape around him. A broken cry left your lips as you tried to pull your hips away from him but he grabbed at your waist, pulling you up so your back was flush against his still clothed chest. Your head shook as he began to push in and out of you. No matter how many times Leon fucks you, his cock will always just be to big.

“Leon please- ‘s to much”

You whimpered out as your smaller hands scratched at his arm. He was so big compared to you, it was scary how easily he could overpower you. Leon smirked against the shell of your ear as his hands ran over the lacey material of the dress.

“Cmon’ be a good little girl, let me use my pussy.”

Leon whispered in your ear before his palms pushed you down back onto your stomach, his hands holding at your hips as he drilled into you. The room filled with the sounds of his low growls and groans, and the smacking of his pelvis hitting your ass. His body leaned over yours, kissing the back of your neck as his thrusts went from fast and harsh to slow, and overly deep. With every stroke small whimpers left your lips as he kissed at your shoulders.

“That’s my fucking girl.. Always here for me huh? With this tight little- mm fuck.. so fucking good for me.”

Your whines and moans stopped, making a laugh leave Leon’s throat as his hips stuttered. He reached down pulling your hair away from your face to watch as you chewed at your puffy lower lip, your body already riding through its second orgasm. His grip got tighter on your hips as he plunged himself further into you, a whimpered moan leaving his lips as strings of his cum shot into you, your face twisting in blissful discomfort. Leon sat on his knees, his hand running over the back of your thighs smirking as he watched his cum make its way out of you, his fingers shoving it back into you before he carefully flipped you on your back.

A sigh of content left his lips as he laid his head against your chest, your fingers plunging into his hair as he took in your scent, listening to your heart beat.

“Wanna talk about it?”

You whispered down to him as he shook his head in response.

“Maybe tomorrow angel, let me relax.”

He mumbled, kissing your skin as his eyes closed.

#leon kennedy #resident evil #leon kennedy imagine #leon kennedy smut #leon kennedy x reader #resident evil x reader #vendetta leon #older leon kennedy #yourgentlegf