#tw: CSA

[quietmtntown]

cartman has a big history of CSA..trauma

@ccartman

#tw: CSA #south park #cartman #eric cartman #gifs #theres a reason cartman tries to maintain a domniant personality

[maslows-pyramid-scheme]

They claim men don't enter professions just to commit sexual crimes, but this Australian man worked in a childcare facility and allegedly raped, sexually assaulted, and/or exploited 91 girls over a 15-year period.

We need to trust our instincts and scrutinise any man who wants to work with vulnerable people (children, people with disabilities, the elderly, etc).

#it's the same story over and over and over and over again #those poor girls </3 #(obligatory notallmen) #radblr #feminism #tw: csa

[wizzard890]

#succession #tw: csa #like the constant CONSTANT jokes about the topic where he's the victim #the sudden bedwetting before he was just sent away to school #the feelings of responsibility for keeping his family happy and together and Good we're all Good #his self-loathing around sex and intimacy #the way his siblings refer to his physical abuse in a pretty blase way but everything around When He Went Off To School is vague #the show spends a ton of time showing that his actual memories of his childhood are on two tracks: what his siblings saw and what he felt #his father convinced that there's something wrong with him #some fatal crack that can't be fixed - and roman agrees #and PARTICULARLY in the most recent episode when he reveals he couldn't breathe normally around logan #and shiv goes to ask frank and karl 'how bad was dad' #like I don't think logan was the one who did this specifically to roman #but it was clearly someone logan knew #shiv the girl with the selective memory but the girl who knew not to be around those men #being moved enough by her brother's pain to confront the panicked sliver of a question: did dad do this? and if not - did he know? #logan didn't like women but he loved his little girl #shiv was safe #roman? not so much #'why bastard? why base?' why indeed roman

[allaboardthechuchutrain]

I recently finished my rewatch of RGU and I watched episode 30 again knowing what's coming and all that Akio does to Utena.

"you don't act like the school's chairman, you seem almost dangerous"

Utena is scared of him!! She thinks he's dangerous! SHES RIGHT. When they arrive at the hospital and he starts caressing her ankle (which is unfortunately reminiscent of something else), she says he seems dangerous. She's scared and uncomfortable and trying to get him to stop (asking about Kanae on the ride to the hospital, saying "it's fine really, no it's fine" you don't have to carry me!) and after he kisses her she feels sick and doesn't eat and it's fucking heartbreaking

Even earlier in the episode, she says that he isn't acting like a chairman should act and when she sees him watching her she looks scared and she hurts herself and he seems dangerous

But who is she supposed to turn to? The guidance counselor? The vice principal who is also a creep?

something something about how these adults who should take care and look out for their students just end up pushing her further into her abusers arms

#rgu #revolutionary girl utena #utena tenjou #akio ohtori #tw: csa

[opinated-user]

LO, fourteen year olds and incest

for a while now i have noticed a trend of LO to concentrate on the age 14 specifically, even more specifically about incest, and i couldn't understand why. let's count the ways in which 14 as an age appears in LO's works. 14 was the age of Elethyn Crane in the Scar universe. she has a crush on Ascentia (now called ass-ana), her adoptive older sister, and this is completely normalized by everyone in the family.

14 was the age of sexual consent in Equestria in the fic stockholm. the cutie mark crusaders, all of them with explicit sex scenes between each other, are all 14. one of them seduces a pedophile (rainbow dash) and later has sex with her older sister. this same character admits that she found out she was a lesbian by watching her older sister naked. 14 was the age of the girl in that disgusting video in which LO defends incest, pretending it was in response to a concerned father that never existed.(link to archived video so anyone can confirm) 14 was the age in which CLO was mentally/metaphorically raped by G in pokemadhouse. they were both raised together, almost like sisters.

so what, someone might ask. 14 is still underage, it's a child anyway, so why does it matter that 14 as an age appears so frequently? what i didn't realize until Courtney started talking is that LO was 15 when Courtney finally managed to stop the molestation at her hands. meaning that Courtney was 14 when LO's absurd fantasy of being "in love" with her sister ended.

LO has been romanticizing the 14 year old version of Courtney for years throughout many fictional characters, across multiple fandoms. all this time, she has been writing nothing else but cope fics where her "love" is normalized, accepted or even reciprocated. fics that she has continued to write even to this day. the concerned father in that video was supposed to be her own father reacting to the news of their "relationship." LO's advice of "don't do anything" is what LO would wish her father did. it all finally makes sense now and i hate it so much.

#lily orchard #courtney orchard #tw: incest #tw: csa #tw: rape

[milkyspine]

— gynecologist, room 202

#mine #writers of tumblr #poetry #spilled ink #writing #okay to rb #poem #spilled words #tw: trauma #tw: trigger #? #tw: flashback #tw: csa #tw: sa #tw: rape #got triggered at the gynecologist #don't know if it was the disposition of the person or what they were saying or the invasive vulnerable feeling of the whole thing #it was just awful #like i was back there #felt 8 again and stupid #following directions even when i wasn't okay #maybe next time will be better. if i can make myself go to another appointment #anyway #i hope every bad memory you've ever had leaves you alone #hope you sleep well and never think of it again #wishful thinking maybe but i'll hope for it anyway #you deserve that

[thefemalejoker42069]

say it with me ladies: I will be the last little girl in my family tree who is sexualized and if any man tries to change that then he will die a slow and painful death‼️‼️

#radblr #radical feminism #tw: csa #radical feminists please touch #feeling mad today #radical feminist community

[virtualstarrr]

Revolutionary Girl Utena and Neon Genesis Evangelion: Parallels Between Characters and Their Relationships

PREFACE: I wrote this a few years ago and never published it; I was around 15 and I don't think everything I said was entirely accurate, however I do feel like I made connections between these two shows that I haven't seen many talk about, so I'm gonna post it. If anything I say is off, feel free to correct me!

Anyway:

Something I've realized while rewatching Neon Genesis Evangelion is how similar Rei and Gendo's dynamic is to Akio and Anthy's in Revolutionary Girl Utena. Here are some characters and dynamics that I thought were similar, most of them revolving around the characters' connections to Anthy or Rei:

Asuka and Nanami as Antagonists

Anthy and Rei both have very quiet personalities. Both are stoic and appear off-putting to others around them. The characters Asuka and Nanami similarly hold disdain for Rei/Anthy and berate them for being weird.

Nanami harbors jealousy towards Anthy after seeing her in a relationship with her brother. Even though she resents her, the two are both in similar incestuous relationships. Anthy's situation could be a reflection of what could happen to Nanami if she took her relationship with Toga too far. But luckily Nanami realizes that she never really had feelings for her brother, and that she just wanted his validation. But before Nanami realizes all that, she acts as an antagonist to Anthy. She's constantly bullying her, and calling her out for her "weird" behavior. Asuka is similar with Rei. She's not necessarily jealous of Rei but she does project her insecurities on Rei, just look at the elevator scene. She calls Rei a doll for being subservient to Gendo, but she herself is afraid of becoming one. Nanami and Asuka, on the surface, couldn't be any more different than Anthy and Rei, but in reality Anthy and Rei represent a lot of the Nanami and Asuka's insecurities, or reflect the situations they're in.

Gendo and Akio, Both Abusers

Anthy and Rei are both extremely loyal to Akio and Gendo. Throughout each series, they are used to attain Akio/Gendo's goals, with Gendo's being to reunite with Yui and Akio's to maintain power over everyone in Ohtori. Because of how reliant Gendo and Akio's plans are on Rei/Anthy, they both get to know a lot about what's going on behind the scenes in the story, where other characters may not.

Akio and Gendo are very similar to each other, too.

Akio is able to manipulate people using sex. He even sexually assaults Anthy. Anthy endures Akio's abuse for so long that she's scared of leaving him; what if she escapes and finds that the world outside Ohtori is even more cruel?

Like Akio, Gendo also uses sex to control the women around him. He takes advantage of both Akagi and Ritsuko, disposing of them when he no longer needs them, just like Rei fears he will do to her when her use runs out.

Rei exists to obey Gendo. She's a clone, made to serve his desires. Rei wants to leave Gendo, she wants to die but he needs her to achieve Human Instrumentality. All she knows is to be obedient to Gendo, so she continues to follow his orders without considering her own feelings.

Anthy and Rei are cursed to serve Akio and Gendo, and though both dislike their situations, they see no hope of escaping. Not until Utena and Shinji step into their lives.

Utena and Shinji, the Protagonists

Utena spends the whole series selfishly playing the role of the prince, but once she begins to understand Anthy's situation, she is able to give up princehood and inspire Anthy to leave Akio. Utena doesn't save Anthy, but she gives her the courage to leave her situation, to decide for herself that she wants to leave.

Shinji shows interest in Rei's feelings. He encourages her to express herself, and tells her to smile. While Gendo sees Rei as a disposable clone, Shinji cares about her in a way Gendo never did. He wants her to be happy. While Shinji's motives are still selfish (with Shinji failing to understand Rei, just as Utena still treats Anthy as an object in her attempt to "save her" through the duels), he still shows more concern for her than she's ever experienced from anyone else.

[The scene where Shinji tells Rei to smile visually reminds me of RGU's finale. Shinji looks down on Rei, just as Utena does Anthy. Shinji tries to pull Rei out of the entry plug (the duty she's bound to— being a pilot, being Gendo's servant), as Utena tries to pull Anthy out of her coffin (trapped with Akio, the revolving system of capitalism and patriarchy, as well as literally being stuck in the cycle of abuse).]

Rei chooses to sacrifice herself, and after her death is replaced by her clone Rei 3. Rei 3 carries Rei 2's emotions but doesn't understand them at first. In the End of Evangelion, when Gendo tries to use Rei to start the Third Impact, she rejects him and chooses to start the Third Impact on her own will. (Possibly because of Shinji's influence).

Gendo and Akio Again

I think the similarities in these scenes are interesting.

Gendo stands over Rei as Akio stands over Anthy— each man exerting power over these girls. Gendo reaches down to grope Rei, trying to control her, and Anthy reaches up towards Akio to comfort him; Akio is using his emotions to manipulate and maintain his control over Anthy.

The lighting in these shots is similar. I don't know how either Anno or Ikuhara meant for the colors used in these scenes to be interpreted. I can only give my interpretation. Red is predominant, especially in the shot from Evangelion. A color that can represent passion. Perhaps this is Gendo's passion for power, for Yui, for eternity? Love and romance are often represented by red, and that includes lust. The red background could show Gendo's lust for Yui— literally in the sense that he's attracted to her as her partner— but most importantly, in the sense that he lusts after her, he desires to return to her. This lust extends to Rei, Gendo's recreation of Yui as well as a vehicle to which he can use to reunite with Yui. [Note: it's implied that Gendo sexually abused Rei, which isn't surprising considering she's a clone of Yui and the way he uses sex to control and manipulate. In the scene pictured above, he gropes Rei's breast— this is right before Rei rejects Gendo and takes the form of Lilith.]

Not only does red represent lust, but also power. It's a bold color, dominating both of these shots. It contributes to the sense of control Gendo and Akio have over Rei and Anthy. Red is used in this context often in Utena. The character Touga manipulates the girls around him in a similar fashion as Akio and Gendo (while also being manipulated by Akio). He manipulates Utena and his sister Nanami, taking advantage of their affection for him (both girls later realizing they never felt for Touga romantically). And Touga's red hair color, like other characters in Utena, signifies this power he holds.

In the RGU shot, red mainly covers Akio. Yellow is also prominent, centering around Anthy. Yellow is most often associated with Nanami in Utena, who represents jealousy— as I mentioned earlier, in her relationship with Anthy—, as well as Nanami's innocence, and perhaps ignorance.

Akio holds control over his Anthy, his victim. Her innocence is highlighted in this scene— she's not ignorant to what's going on, nor is she innocent in that sense. She's informed of and contributes to Akio's system. However, she finds herself trapped in this system, making her Akio's victim. In this sense the innocence in her attempt to comfort him contrasts his desire for power. He knows what he's doing. He cries fake tears. In the climax of RGU, Akio weaponizes his emotions in an attempt to get Anthy to stay. The colors emphasize Akio's power and Anthy's lack of agency in comparison.

Akio is trying to maintain his power over Anthy through these false tears.

Conclusion

Ultimately Gendo and Akio fail to maintain their control. Anthy breaks out of Akio's system, and Rei becomes Lilith on her own accord. It doesn't completely end their goals. Akio's system is still maintained for the rest who chose not to leave, and Gendo is able to reunite with Yui during the Third Impact— even if it is a false perception of her. But their initial plans fall apart, and the characters they've been attempting to manipulate are eventually able to escape. This doesn't just apply to Rei and Anthy, but also the other protagonists— the pilots whom Nerv abuses for their goals, and Utena and any of the other characters who find the courage to leave Ohtori. Evangelion focuses on Shinji's monologue primarily, but the show's message inspires the audience, and by extension the other characters, to live a fulfilling life despite everything. Utena and Anthy both escape Ohtori, but the possibility is there for any of the other characters that question Ohtori (a larger representation of abuse, capitalism, patriarchy, and systems that bind us) to escape as well. Ultimately these characters, these people, these systems don't have as much control as they project onto others. They influence so many aspects of life, but it's not impossible to defy them.

Ok, I've just been incoherently rambling so maybe this post has no point, but hopefully it makes SOME sense. Maybe, maybe you can see what I mean by all of (or at least any of) this. Sorry if this makes zero sense and means nothing. That is, if anyone does see this. But hopefully some enjoy my ramblings

#revolutionary girl utena #neon genesis evangelion #analysis #evangelion analysis #revolutionary girl utena analysis #utena #rgu #evangelion #anthy himemiya #akio ohtori #gendo ikari #rei ayanami #tw: csa #tw: inc*st #tw: abuse

[buddiebeginz]

I feel like no one talks enough about what a piece of trash Liv's mom was. She knew at least to some extent what Gordon did to Aaron and never tried to help him. Some people might be able to argue that she was afraid of Gordon and stayed quiet for her and her daughter's safety but she did nothing for years. And even when she knew the truth was out she actually argued against Aaron and was poisoning Liv's mind with lies.

I'm glad she did eventually help with Aaron's case but it was like the very bear minimum that she could have done. Speaking as someone who is also a survivor of CSA (by my male babysitter) if I knew that someone was aware of what happened and kept it a secret or didn't try to help it would only make my trauma worse.

Even though Aaron wasn't Sandra's bio kid and even though I'm sure he was difficult to parent at times Sandra was still partially responsible for him and she failed him. Honestly I think she felt like if Gordon was focusing on Aaron he wouldn't turn on her and Liv which is exactly why she moved out when Aaron did.

Personally I think that Sandra should have had to face some kind of punishment along with Gordon not as harsh but something. Unfortunately even abusers don't usually get the punishments they should so people who cover up the abuse certainly don't.

I'm just glad that Liv got some semblance of a good family with Aaron and Rob before she died because both of her bio parents were spectacularly awful. Rewatching the 2016 eps Liv annoys me a lot but I try and remember that the reason she acted out so much is because of the environment she came from.

#emmerdale #aaron dingle #robron #tw: sa #tw: r*pe #tw: csa #rr* #rr031716 #emmerdale rewatch

[royjamieprompts]

Super whump jamie centric prompt / trigger warning for CSA, SA, james tartt and zava being assholes. It could be RJ/RJK (but also would love soft Will being present somehow and I love coach Bear and Jamie silent supportive relationship) ................................................................................................... ................................................................................................... I just have the icks every time I see the way Zava is around Jamie, both the way he touches him and talks to him, so I couldn't help but think of a scenario in which those touches go slightly beyond what is in canon and into sexual harassment and assault (grabbing him in inappropriate places, threatening him, making sexual gestures, and general violence like grabbing him at the back of his head like in the weight room) etc. Now from Jamie's POV he first of all struggles with "learned silence" and is unable to enforce boundaries (which is a very common thing among survivors of CSA and we're assuming he's not ever said anything about Amsterdam and this is pre-bike ride with Roy + he's canonically bad at setting boundaries with his own father and already has an off relationship with his own body #LCA). He also doesn't want to antagonize the team again since they're finally friends again and they're all super into Zava so he just really struggles every day with Zava being a piece of shit to him, everyone loving his abuser, even the coaches not taking his suggestion when he puts it out as "for the good of the team" etc

Maybe he finds support in an expected figure like Trent Crimm or Leslie or Will (my heart has a soft spot for Jamie and Will cuddling, a couple of puppies!) or Dr OSullivan or Dr Sharon.

To make it even worse, but it's not really part of the main prompt I guess, there would be something even more awful that could have happened aka either Denbo/Bug (who are aware of Amsterdam) harassing him once back in Manchester (threatening to tell Georgie or making jokes about maybe Jamie not liking it cause it was a woman) or someone at Man City academy (like a doctor or a physio - I feel weird it being a coach because then it'd make the royjamie of it all very hard to explore - who sees Jamie struggling post-Amsterdam, being irritable and sad and zoning out and who gets him to open up) actually betraying that trust and taking advantage of him and him being unable to speak up about it both because he just did and look what happened, but also, of course, because of shame surrounding it (and it having happened again) and not wanting to cause pain to Georgie and not wanting to be kicked out of the team like he's being threatened. So you can see how this all would cause even more conflict in Jamie wanting to speak up about Zava to the coaches at Richmond.

(Sorry for the angst! It would all, of course, need a good those of hurt/comfort because that is what we live for in the end. This is just the bad stuff of the prompt, but it can go in any direction in terms of how he does bring it up and recovery and getting help and the RJ/RJK of it all).

Zava gives me bad vibes all around, and he definitely pushes Jamie's boundaries in ways that make Jamie uncomfortable, so, unfortunately, yeah, I could see this happening, making the whole Zava arc even worse for Jamie.

I hope that all the coaches, not just Roy, find out about it because I need them all to realize that Jamie was right about Zava from the get go. I will forever be bitter at the show for the conclusion of the Zava arc being that he left himself and not that the coaches realized he was ruining the whole team's dynamic exactly like Jamie said he would. And this would make it soooo much worse.

#Roy x Jamie #Roy x Jamie x Keeley #Fanfic Prompts #TW: SA #TW: CSA #Zava #p.s thanks for the prompt #This is the first one since November

[allieisacrybaby]

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[danmeiconfession]

This 3rd on is the most baffling take for me. I still wonder wtf do they even smoke to excuse slavery. Mind sharing those high quality weed with me? You know who you are so you don't have to pretend like you don't know what's going on.

"QJL is such a kind man! SJ should be grateful that QJL had taught him. SJ killed 'innocent' Qiu men" those who think that I hope you all die and reborn as a slave with your past memories where how you've excused slavery. Let's see how grateful you will be to your 'owner' who at a whim can end and make your life a living hell. I hope they own you so well that you have no control in your life and cannot help but take whatever your 'owner' gives you as food in a silver platter; be it them beating you up, SAing you or teaching you how to read or write. Then you'll know how SJ felt when he was a slave under QJL.

QJL is a freak who had sexual pleasure into beating SJ. He used to tie him in bondage (the Chinese raw claims that). He even forced SJ into sexual acts (tho SJ being a virgin, I don't think they were penetrative). Even your 'Holy mother of God SY' claims QJL to be a pervert. Yeah, you would comment on it being unreliable shit. Just how can you be so hypocrite? When that shit claims something in negative light about SJ like 'he abused talented disciples/he SAed NYY' you pretty much believe it to be true but when that same shit claims SJ is SAed himself you call him unreliable? SJ is afraid of men in general. He is afraid of his own sex. Why? LBH went thru the abuse as well but he did not developed this fear unless SJ was rly SAed by QJL. But no, pls turn a blind eye to it.

You are the worst. Tbh I'm wasting my time even commenting about it. Slavery defender doesn't even deserve it.

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#shen jiu #svsss #scumbag self saving system #shen qingqiu #tw: SA #tw: csa

[abybweisse]

With how certain parts in the story play out or are portrayed, do you think Yana exploits or down plays O!Ciel’s trauma sometimes? For example, during Noah’s circus arc, that panic attack he has is caused when he was exposed to Kelvin’s doings which triggered his trauma. Yet at the same time, actions like Ran Mao hugging O!Ciel and pushing him into her chest makes him flustered. The interaction doesn’t make him panic in the same way even though he suffered at the hands of both men and women in the cult. I can mostly chalk it up to Yana putting in fan service in when it comes to how he is framed in certain instances or in situations like the corset scene, but overall, is his trauma only there when the plot needs it?

Our earl's trauma on display

I'd say the trauma is there all the time. It's just that much of the time he can somewhat control how he reacts. He regularly suppresses his emotions, anyway, because it's the only way he can move forward on his goals. Consider this part of his act, pretending to be the "better" older twin. He knows real Ciel went through the same ordeals, but he probably assumes his older brother would have faced each new day with all the strength he could muster... if he had survived instead. It's probably on his mind more often than we actually witness, but since he's not the main, title character, we don't see his thoughts as often.

If he were constantly displaying the effects of the severe trauma, he'd pull a revolver on Sebastian when he's called upon to wake up each day. He'd be jumping out of his skin to run away whenever a creep like Druitt showed up. Or crouching down to go into the fetal position and scream. That sort of thing. He'd be too much of a mess to let the plot progress. He wouldn't be able to function very well. Basically, he'd be like he was during the witch arc, until Sebastian was 90% serious about devouring his soul then and there.

Honestly, the series would be hard(er) to read, if we were constantly getting the full brunt of the effect those traumatic events have on him. As a victim of childhood abuse myself, with the repetitive intrusive thoughts and flashbacks I already have regarding those long-past experiences, reading and seeing illustrations of similar ongoing suffering would be somewhat detrimental... possibly. What I experienced wasn't as terrifying or horrific as what happens to him and his twin (though the abuse lasted way longer for me), and I don't have any real triggers. Regardless of what happened to me, I do my best to carry on with the day-to-day, even on days I'm thinking about it more than usual. Whatever PTSD I might have isn't nearly as severe as it could be. A series written that way -- our earl constantly showing us how he suffers from trauma -- would be downright unreadable for a lot of people. Some find it too emotionally difficult, as is, and dropped the series.

I expect that what he mentally goes through, after the abuses, is pretty much the same thing all day, every day. It's repetitive, pestering him, and he has to brush away thoughts about it. He does the best he can to hold himself together. He tries to focus on revenge. On Funtom. On his duties as watchdog. Whatever... to think about something other than that timeframe and those memories. What's shown to us (of the trauma) are the times when it's just too much for him to maintain that composure... as well as what caused the trauma in the first place. I'd say that is quite enough to get the point across.

It's sad that a lot of those scenes are given fan service treatment. Sad mostly because it means there's still a large chunk of the fandom that practically demands it. I'd prefer a lack of glamor and sexualization in those moments. I know a lot of fans would agree with me. But she can't please everyone all the time. And what sells, sells.

#black butler #kuroshitsuji #our earl #tw: csa #tw: child abuse #ptsd #living with ptsd #ptsd in literature #coping #coping abilities #portrayal of ptsd #childhood trauma #portrayal of trauma #anon asks #i answer #answered asks #nov 14 2023 #sorry for the delay