#wandering pain

[phdmama]

I just got fucking CALLED OUT by my 15 year old daughter. I was showing her some new charms I got for my charm bracelet and she said, “I’ve noticed you do this thing a lot, mom, when you’re talking about stuff you love that makes you happy. You always say, ‘I know it’s silly,’ but if you love it and it makes you happy, it’s not silly. If it brings you joy, it’s important. It matters.”

#if it brings you joy #it's important #it matters #where did she even come from?? #how did she learn this?? #she's so fucking wise #dunno what I did to get so lucky #but damn #wandering pain

[evercelle]

hold that heart close... happy birthday, wanderer!!

#genshin impact #wanderer #scaramouche #ever makes art #i finished this drawing two minutes too late... clown emoji #HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANDERER you have so very many painful years behind you but infinitely more hopeful ones ahead

[maudiemoods]

Yow outfits WOO

#hater and dominator are next #also clopin of course #also i keep get agonizing images of characters in maid dresses! its so painful #might just have yo draw it out #anyway #maudiemoods art tag #wander over yonder #woy #i suggest ignoring my tags btw

[arrgh-whatever]

#security bots are a pain to draw #the wanderer #archibald

[onlytruepain]

#genshin impact #chiscara #them finding e.o again after scara becomes wanderer #i like pain #scaramouche #tartaglia

[damianito]

Blueberry kisses 🫐

#♡ #artist on tumblr #Fanart #Genshin impact #原神 #Chiscara #Scarachilde #Childe #Tartaglia #Ajax #Scaramouche #Kunikuzushi #Wanderer #& other fucking name this bitch have #Anyway i just wanted to draw something sweet of them #cause i am still in pain over the fact that Childe doesn't know how Scara is anymore #I AM COPING

[okiroash]

GT doodles

#ghost trick #sissel #ghost trick spoilers #yomiel #I am so normal about them #something about. A guy who's been through hell and back #and his only friend? a cat #10 years is a long time #sissel's presence alone had given yomiel ideas to do instead of wandering about.. distracting him from his pain probably.. ough.. #since yomiel is like... 'dead' he can't eat sleep etc #if he gets money.. most of them is spent for sissel's well being.. #I need a moment #cat dad of the century #👁‍🗨!

[lunarharp]

scribbled miserable qifrey comics all night...more later

#witch hat tag #orufrey #since readership has fallen on them i've started bothering less about making comics readable which will..affect readership . Oh Well !! #symbolises my madness. when im in a wild mood where i need to wander on the moors screaming i go back and undo orufrey progression #back to the pain era it seems . stuck in the timeloop forever until we have complete resolution. the dagda of it all

[alchemania]

“Don't you hate her?”

Furina turned, eyebrows raised in confusion. “Huh?”

“Your creator. Don't you hate her?”

The girl pondered a moment, looking unsure. “I..don't know.”

“You should,” he asserted. “All this time you had to suffer alone, for what?? People who didn't even care about the real you?? People who were ungrateful and selfish and only cared about themselves, at the end of the day??”

“Not everyone is like that,” Furina protested, shaking her head slowly. “I ..did suffer, but it all worked out in the end. Besides, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her-”

“The same could be said for my mother,” Wanderer interrupted, eyes flashing. “I came into being because of her, but that doesn't make her a good person, or a good parent. She hurt me. These two facts can coexist. Focalors created you, yes, but she also subjected you to 500 years of suffering where you couldn't confide in ANYONE or risk losing everything. Wasn't that awful?? Wasn't it a horrible time? You were all alone living on a hope and a prayer, and if it went wrong, it would have been all for nothing. You were a means to an end, and what do you have to show for it? Sure, everybody was saved and all was well, but now you're just - a person, and people hate you for what you did, people hate you for what you DIDN'T do. Was it worth it?? Are you satisfied?”

“I am,” she nodded, after a beat. “Because, this is what I was created to do. And, I'm free now. I don't know what I'm going to do, but at least my life is mine. I can do whatever I want. I can live.” Wanderer's jaw clenched, and Furina frowned, nervously. “..why are you so angry?”

“Because SOMEONE has to be!” he shouted, voice cracking. “I mean- I heard about the trial, they were gonna kill you- they lured you there because you wouldn't talk, right? And then after everything, did anyone apologize to you or- praise you, for all the hell you went through? Anything??”

“.. Neuvillette is taking care of me.”

The pain on Wanderer's face was almost palpable, at that.

“..anything else?”

“.. it's fine," she tried to appease. "It's not like I serve any purpose anymore. Like I said, I did what I was created to, so I'm not of any use and-”

“Stop.”

“..what?”

“STOP- talking like that,” Wanderer snapped, eyes suspiciously glossy. She sounded so much like him, who he used to be, and it hurt so badly.

A blank sheet of paper has infinite potential, but it is nothing as long as it is empty, he'd said, a good while ago. He'd been wrong about himself, and Furina was wrong now.

“You're not just - what you were made for. You don't - what happened to you is wrong. You're not DISPOSABLE now that everything is over.”

“It- it was for everyone's sake, compared to my suffering, it's obvious what's more important! I had to save them! It’s what I was born for! It doesn't matter -”

“It DOES,” he yelled, eyes glowing an almost neon icy blue, and she startled. “Stop acting like your suffering was something that was necessary. Stop acting like it was just for the greater good. That doesn't matter! The fact of the matter is that you suffered, and you were hurt, and you're STILL hurting! And- barely anybody is there for you..your creator, she should have been there for you, she should have protected you, but she didn't. She didn't. And you - you have every right to be angry with her, for not being there for you. For you being unable to live, until now. It was wrong, even if it was, as she claimed, for the greater good. Don't defend her.”

"She loved me-"

"And she left you, so not enough."

Just like my mother ..

“...Wanderer,” Furina ventured, worry all over her face.

“What?”

“You're crying…”

..oh. He hadn't even noticed, but his cheeks WERE wet, and he put a hand to one with a start, quickly scrubbing at his face. “Ah-” and he pulled his hat over his face, to hide it.

“..it was a lot. I often wondered when everything would end. I wanted, to tell someone so badly what was going on,” Furina admitted, and Wanderer looked up, eyes red from weeping. “There were a lot of times I didn't think I was going to make it, but. But I did, and, and everything was okay.”

“But are you?”

There was a long pause, and the two of them stared at each other until Furina slowly shook her head no, hot tears streaming down her cheeks.

“See? You're - we're both so messed up, from everything, and no one was there,” Wanderer almost whispered, looking out the window. "No one was there to help. ..You're strong as hell, I'll give you that. If I was in your shoes, I don't know if I would have made it. It seems people are stronger than I've given them credit for..”

It was something that surprised him, again and again.

“I just don't understand why you care..”

“.. I don't know why I do,” he shrugged. “Maybe because you remind me of myself, and. It hurts, looking at you and feeling like I'm looking in the mirror. But someone has to be in your corner and -”

“And you want to do that?”

A pause.

“..Well, if you don't stand up for you, no telling who will.”

“You don't have to cry over me. I'm -”

“If you say you're not worth it, I am going to bodyslam you,” Wanderer growled, eyes flashing, and Furina put up her hands.

“I wasn't going to! I was going to say that I will be okay. Not now, but. Eventually. I'm healing. I promise. There's people who care, like you.”

Wanderer fell silent then, looking away, and she reached out and squeezed his hand. “Thank you. I'm still wrestling with - with what I want to do and where I'll go but. It's nice to know that I'm valued just for existing.”

“That's all you need to be valued,” he muttered, looking to the floor. “You don't have to prove the worth of your existence. It's fine to just be.”

“..are you talking to yourself, or me?”

He looked to her then, expression unreadable, and she smiled sadly, in understanding. “Both is good. It's okay to just be. We're here, and we'll be okay.”

“Yeah,” Wanderer whispered, giving a shaky breath. “..we will."

#screaming crying #i will probably go back and clean this up later but i just wanted to get it out there and start yelling #i think wanderer would be so so angry about what happened to furina and it just. weighs heavy on his heart and he's like god. GOD!!! #his heart is way squishier than he would like to admit he's ready to square up so quickly and had it not been for focalors being dead #oh BABY he'd have Some Words For Her #genshin impact #wanderer #furina #4.2 spoilers #AUGH I ALMOST FORGOT TO TAG SPOILERS SORRY SORRY #please god i am going to explode i am thinking so hard im in pain #ue ue ue ue ue #loved but left behind..... #a means to an end..you feel me... #im dyin scoob

[xxstealla]

Traitor Pt.3

scaramouche x reader angst

In which scaramouche "prefers Haypasia's presence over yours"

tw: Mentions of Dottore

The following weeks for Scaramouche were terrible. His plans to become a god were ruined by the almighty traveller.

The Fatui, namely Dottore left him to rot and Haypaisa didn’t even bat an eye at him after his defeat.

The hollow walls of the building the two of you once shared reflects the emptiness of his the place where his heart was supposed to be.

The worst part is you’re gone and it was all his fault. He thought he didn’t need you anymore. He didn’t need a personal so emotional to hinder him in his route to godhood. He didn’t need someone he could potentially endanger. He didn’t need to have someone who makes his chest bleed everytime he sees them hurt. He didn’t need someone who makes him feel so vulnerable. He didn’t need someone who makes him feel so human.

Guilt was gnawing at him now. The emptiness you left upon him was larger than he anticipated. He thought it would be worth it to set you free from his mommy issues, but was it worth it after all? 

He wants to find you and tell you that he didn’t mean all the words he said, all the hurtful things he did.

But it was too late. 

No matter how much he longs for you to come back and tell him for everything that he did and his words never impacted you with that radiant smile you always wore, you looked so happy with that Liyue bastard. 

Perhaps in another life, free from the shackles of his responsibilities, the persona he had created, and the titles he bore, he could love you wholeheartedly.

“I’m so sorry y/n. I know my apology means nothing, I know I can’t take back the pain I inflicted onto you. But this ache is too much to bear. Every time I wake up, the bed feels too cold without your warmth. The kitchen is gathering dust with no one needing food. The cabinet on the floor remains untouched with all your favourite snacks inside. I can’t do this, everywhere I go, I see your face, it’s like the ghost of you haunts me and you’re not even dead. Well I’m probably dead to you anyway, but I just want you to know, if there ever comes a day you want to reminisce, or if that green emo guy breaks your heart, I will be in the husk of our home. In any case, I hope that the future you find with that guy will make your smile twice as large as when you were with me.”

I am listening to happier by Ed sheeran while writing this, so you can probably see the references.

#genshin x y/n #angst #genshin #wanderer x reader #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x y/n #wanderer x y/n #pain #genshin angst #genshin x reader #wanderer angst #scaramouche angst #kunikuzushi x reader #xiao x y/n #xiao x reader #haypasia

[phdmama]

Okay pals. If you want to send me some good mojo in like, 12 hours, that’d be amazing. Day 1 of new career is tomorrow!! 😬

#wandering pain #new job new career

[plantacorns]

scara in his silly fluffy big harbinger coat. i was obligated to draw this he looks so funny lol

#genshin impact #genshin fanart #scara #scaramouche fanart #scaramouche #my art #art #sobs… the pain of trying to find a lineart style i like #wanderer fanart

[drawlypsy]

TW: blood, implied torture, obscured torture, pain, Dottore being Dottore...Lots of Scaramouche's tears. Dottore's segment taking liberties with Wanderer and Lumine showing up to shank him like the rat bastard he is. Did this for dear @venranae and because I have had an absolutely awful week. This is PART ONE - PART TWO will be coming shortly and will involve less of...well...all this.

#scaramouche #wanderer #genshin impact #dottore #pain #this is just pain #this is what happens when I have a shit week and I take it out on sad bois #comic #genshin impact fanart #tw: injury #tw: implied torture #tw: pain #tw: crying

[jinxedruby]

Inktober/Linktober Day Eleven: Wander/Monsters

#whoops it’s late November when did that happen #they wandered straight into a monster camp #but I only drew two monsters because they caused me enough pain alone #inktober #inktober 2023 #legend of zelda #ruby draws #legend of zelda fanart #linked universe #linktober #linktober 2023 #lu wild #lu hyrule

[theravenloftwanderers]

Dying Star

"You are still among the living... while I am no longer alive... I dare say I've been dead for centuries already. This is maybe how it should be..."- Tatyana Fedrovna First of all, owch Tatyana. SECOND OF ALL--

#the ravenloft wanderers #strahd von zarovich #barovia #ravenloft #dnd #gothic #vampire #curse of strahd #strahd #dnd 5e #ophelia wellings #ireena kolyanovich #ireena kolyana #tatyana federovna #im addicted to the pain their friendship gives me #send help

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

could i offer you an L in these trying times?

#death note #death note fanart #l lawliet #my art #small doodle for today #the last thing i did was the lineless misa (excluding nonsensical painting) #and i was like. wow! i like it lineless! (proceeds to not do lineless anymore) #i’ll do it again sometime else i’m just feeling some nice lines. they feel like home :) #anyways y’all want to hear about my day because i said so. if you don’t then that’s not my problem #anyway i got nothing done today (boo) #because instead i was sick and in pain and i could not go home until like 3pm but i had been on campus since 6am #so i just wandered about trying to find someplace to hide #because everything was so loud and too warm and it was wet outside so i couldn’t be there and there were too many people #and i need to sit on the floor. i need it. chairs ruin me actually #so i was just pitifully wandering #i tried to do some assignments bc deadlines are approaching but i couldn’t focus so i was a bit useless today #as soon as i got home i just dry swallowed a number of pills and now i’m better and i drew L (yay) #now i’m going to go to bed at like 8pm because i’m trying to be more well-adjusted #on other news. i plan on stacking a pile of library stools to inconvenience that man tomorrow. very exciting stuff #:)