#well jesis christ

[kokocharm]

i try not to share art on here too much cus im embarrassed of it more or less but I file compressed mont so hard they became a doodle in the margins of my math paper

#lucky speaks #my art #montserrat #no #not the font #well technicallt the font #but theyre my goofy undertale oc #i want to talk about them #dumbass. skeleton! #them and roguefort nedd to duke it out already #jesys christ

[llycaons]

oh son of a fucking bitch I just wrote out this whole long thoughtful rec summary with the pros and cons of this somewhat iffy but overall very good and powerful and memorable fic and only THEN do I vet the author and uh. I can’t rec this!

#and it was a rape recovery fic too. god the irony #motherfucker stop writing incest I swear to GOD #well! I found my limit everyone! I can't in good concious write what they created down in my little author notes section #nope! too much! #not just one but multiple?? and explicit?? jesis christ #ficblogging #rape m #incest m

[spextronaut]

My thoughts on this week’s episode of the Mandalorian:

I really hope this episode is good considering it’s, yk, the last episode of the season

“Moff Gideon is alive” no shit Bo-Katan

I’d like some helmetless Din pls as payment for how shit this season has been

he’s so babygirl fr fr

oh shit he’s a badass babygirl good for him

GROGU SAVING HIS DAD!!!!!!! IM FUCKIJG CRYING

“I need you to be brave for me” BROOOOOO 😭😭

“You with me?” DIN SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH

if Din doesn’t remove his helmet at all I will fucking cry Pedro said we’d get more helmetless Din content 😭

R5 you fucking icon

“I’m sorry I don’t speak binary” bro. bro. fucking he. I cry

R5 my favorite anxiety ridden droid

Mandos always slay fr

mkay well that decoy didn’t fucking work

Another death from the looks of it but at least I don’t give a shit about this dude

This is some s2 shit thank god I adore he

Omfg I adore him look at this fucker what a badass

R5 KILLED A DROID WHAT THR FUCK

goddamn rockstar slide what a slay

R5 can fly?????

Grogu my absolute beloved

why are there people in tubes that seems kinda illegal

FUCKING JUMPSCARE JESYS CHRIST

The armorer really seems sus and idk how to feel about it

I miss when Din had the Darksaber smh

I won’t complain about Bo Katan and the armorer slaying so hard tho I love that

????? What the fuck???

Grogu really shouldn’t be here ngl

Don’s getting his shit rocked that’s always fun

Oh god not these fuckers a 3v1 is far from fair

GROGU SAVE YOUR FUCKING DAD AGAIN!!!!

if they kill Grogu. I swear on my fucking life I’m not coming back

GROGU BEAT THEY FUCKIN ASSES

Din ain’t doing too hot rn that’s not great

HELL YEAH “I’ve got this. Go save your kid” IM FUCKING CRYIJG

DIN DJARIN YOU FUCKINH ICON I LOVE YOU

THEYRE FIGHTINH TOGETHER FOT THE FIRST TIME I LOVE THIS

“You did good, kid” IM NOT CRYING NO NOT AT ALL

HE BROKE THE FUCKING DARKSABER???? I DIDNT INOW THAT WAS RVEN POSSIBLE

YES DIN AND GROGU BEAT HIS ASS

if they kill these icons I’m gonna start crying

DO NOT HURT GROGU THATS ALL I WANT

GROGU OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT A FUCKING ICON I LOVE YOU THATS SO AWESOME YHIS SCRNE IS FUCKING GROGEOUS WHAT THE FUCK

OHHH HE EEPY 😭😭

if Grogu bathes in the living waters I will cry

OHHH MY FUCKING GOD HES GONNA DO IT WE FULL FUCKING CIRCLE RN

OHH MY GOF HE SO SMALL

“Apprentice” fuck off he’s your son

IF HIS PARENT GAVE PERMISSION. OH MY FUCKING GOD

OHHH MY FUCKING GOD

“I will adopt him as my own” FUCKING FINALLY THANK YOU THANK YOU THSNK YOU

DIN GROFU. DIN GROGU IH MY FUCKING GOD OH MY FUCKING GOD IM CRYING HES BIS SON NOW ITS CANON WAAAAA

AND THE MYTHOSAUR IS STILL HERE WHAT A SLAY

fuck off I don’t care about Bo Katan GROFU JS DIN’S SON FR FR

okay nevermind we relit the forge that’s fucking awesome

THE LITTLE LEGS ONFG HES SO EXCITED

WE BACK TO BOUNTY HUNTING!!!! THANK FUCKING GOD!!!!

IM SO EXCITED FOR NEXT SEASON ITS GONNA BE SO FUCKING GOOD

DIN GROGU 😭😭😭

IG-11 IS BACK OH MY FUCKING GOD IM CRYING IM SOBBING NOOOOO FUCK

remove the helmet. please. please I’m begging

HES GOT A FROG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

are you fucking. Not a single helmet removal all season. I’m insulted

But omfg this is a 10/10 episode I loved it so so much everyone was a badass this was such an improvement

I’m actually gonna come back for next season now since the set up for next season was great and I’m really excited for more bounty hunting shenanigans. And Bo Katan should be relocated to a more minor side character again, but I understand why she was more the focus of this season now it’s good setup for next season

Overall it was a really fun episode and I’m excited to see where they take it from here, even tho I’m disappointed that Din didn’t take his helmet off at all this season

#the mandadlorian #the mandalorian season 3 #the mandalorian #the mandalorian spoilers #the mandalorian season 3 spoilers #the mandalorian season 3 episode 8 #the mandolorian s3 ep8 #the mandalorian chapter 24 #din djarin #grogu #bo katan kryze #the armorer

[blushing-starker]

Hey! Just quickly sneaking in here to tell you you are adorable and wonderful! I know the struggle you are in right now so well!

What goes through your mind? What is your favourite movie? And what's the best (your favourite) starker prompt you ever received, read or asked?

I send you a big hug...

...okay forget that hug, I send you tons of hugs 🥰

🦉

An owl! A pretty owl! I love owls! Ah, I'm blushing, thanks love😘 praise and validation are better than any caffeine.

Oh favorite movie. Definitely Inkheart. I enjoy (adore, worship) Princess Bride but it's too short for what I need. Inception is great yet it's not exactly for any mood. Same with The mummy with Rachel Weisz. they're great movies and I love them! But inkheart is an any day movie, you know. I definitely recommend it. And the book too!

Um, @professional-benaddict 's little Peter are to die for. She fulfils her prompts beautifully. And my god, rafni sure knows how to wreck my heart with the darker fics. The one with mafia boss Stephen and Tony, well the ones with those two and sub or little Peter are heaven.

@starkeristheendgame does such glorious works of art that I always have to take a minute to breathe afterwards. She's one of my go to blogs, actually. The one with god!Tony had me up in the morning and I screamed at her for all of five minutes because of it.

@starkerflowers this angel has such a wonderful understanding of the dynamics between starker both in and out of canon. Every single fic nails it, that characterisation is to die for. And such variety too. But like. Flowers daddy!Tony has me wheezing, ok!

@sinditia listen. Listen. I am so enraged at the fact that her recent series, the rewrite of hc, iw, and endgame, the one I've been reblogging whose name I'm too sleep deprived to remember, I'm so sorry, doesn't have more notes because Jesus Christ, get her a meeting with sony. The plot, the characters and their relationships, the banter, the dialogue, the descriptions, the heartache, the WHUMP. just, do yourself a favor and read it. You'll cry but we can cry together.

@vaguekiwi just. I cant. I won't do any homework if I say how much I love gracie's work. Like, glass ceilings and bedframes (why can't I remember the complete titles, jesus)? and under a violet rain? Excuse me ma'am, you wanna let me breathe? Hold on to your seats, ladies and gentlemen, as we take a ride to whump town. After that, the tour through incredible attention to detail and well planned plot. Around lunch time, symbolism. So much symbolism it hurts to feast on such beauty. Ah, but don't forget, AMAZING GODDAMN DYNAMICS THAT HAVE ME SHRIEKING. Right. The end of the ride stops at. Oh look. It doesn't stop.

@cagestark she could write one paragraph and it would have me sobbing. I mean, the mafia au fics alone are a monument to her skills. I've re-read them five times over. The tone, the atmosphere, the sheer complexity in the story, the hurt and the development of feelings that don't just come out of nowhere, the process of falling in love. It makes me fall in love.

@tonystarkisaslut they ripped out my heart and made me eat it with the divorce fic. Of course, there are like fifty other gorgeous works but. That fic. I needed kleenex. I accent even read it completely because I'm afraid I'll finish all the tissues in the house. The characterization, they were so them and so true to what they thought, and the flashbacks never seen out of place and morgan, and the nicknames, and Peter's hurt and Tony s reaction and the realization that he wouldn't be spending so much time with her. I cant.

@twokinkybeans jar of dirt. The kinktober card fills and the exposition of these characters to new situations they never even dreamed about. But. jar of dirt. Jar of Dirt. JAR OF DIRT. Puppy Peter alone? Had me screaming? The openness of these two characters? Their love for each other? How they always made sure they were safe? Their trust? The fact that they felt safe enough to say this isn't really comfy in any and all moments? How theres aftercare? And pure love that isn't entirely based on sexual aspects? 100000000000/10

I could keep going but I've spent nearly two hours here so saving for next time. The favorite one I received was the Pepper x Peter one, actually. It lead me to Priceless Peter Parker and that in turn gave me the confidence for Pretty little muse, won't you be my lover? I would have never started posting starker on ao3 if it weren't for that prompt. I'm incredibly grateful for it.

I dont think this is what you had in mind, but thank you so much for the ask and the hugs, dear one. I needed them this week😘💓

I almost forgot!

@petersmocha jae has created so many beautiful fics that it's impossible to pinpoint my favorite. All of her works are absolutely mesmerizing and in point with the prompts. (But her little Peter is precious af, I squeal whenever she posts something sweet with him and his kind daddy!tony) (and the text messages! so much talent! so many plot points I didn't expect! When her sub!Peter shyly admits he's into iron daddy! How Tony never makes him feel bad about it! How he's like, babe, I feel the same way! How he disciplines peter! How Peter follows!)

@vanillapeter van does such great moodboards! I love them with all my heart! The penguin one is my fave! Her choice for the pics! The lighting! The quality! The lovely drabbles! How she makes sure the story is clear! How pure and innocent her Peter is! The softness of it! The joy I get when she pops into my dash! Her early bday gift I have as my background! Her understanding of colors!

@starkermoodboards THE PLOT I GET FROM JUST A GLANCE! she's been on a roll and I can't choose my fave! The colors! The back story! How it all fits like a puzzle piece! The delicacy of peter! And then bam! The strength from peter! The banter between starker! I adore!

@heyimstarker JESYS EVERYTHING! From all the fandoms! The angst! The feels! The ache! The burn! The slow slow romance that lights me on fire! THE PROSE AND POETRY! The elegance! The way it can enrapture me! The understanding of the characters!

#Sophie loves her starker fam #👑 #🐇 #i dont have an owl on the keyboard! #Owl darling

[saintobio]

Okay so i read p1 of pov and God fucking damn. The way you made iwa so freaking hot and attractive 👁👅👁 my 🐱 went 😍🙈😀 but jesis christ he's an asshole but he's hot and i ogle toxicity. Lord. Well done. A+

“i ogle toxicity” 😭 omgjsdfs fuckboy iwa is really out here living in our heads rent free and i dig that hhhhh

#ask #pov: he’s a player and you’re his favorite game

[littleharmony-iq]

[texting]

Jade: are you guys almost home?

Leigh-anne: well we were heading home.

Leigh-anne: and half way there I forgot I asked Perrie to go and get me some water, and we accidently left her there.

Jesy: we had to drive all the way back to find out she was actually in the trunk.

Perrie: I don’t even know how I got in the trunk either.

Jade: jesus christ, remind me to never let you three go shopping together again.

#little mix #incorrect little mix quotes #4/4 #jade thirlwall #jesy nelson #perrie edwards #leigh anne pinnock

[smorgasbordofobsessions]

liveblog: “bonds” movie

gonna waste more of my time

tldr: this movie dragged its ass and i cannot believe that the four man team of shikamaru, kakashi, shino, and sai never became a real thing in canon because what a great fucking team like i honestly gained a month of life just from the idea of it

right off the bat we have brooding sasuke behind a waterfall and this IS the immediate drama i’m here for

shirt off, of course, cause you gotta

platoons?

the 3D animation looks crrisp

this is a fucking battleship!!!

i don’t know what the fuck happens in this movie but i’m hoenstly locing the premise of it so far

invasion for the win

oh this is konoha

THEY HAVE FUCING KUNAI GUNS?!?!?!?!?!

oh so these land of sky ninja are really just out here indiscriminately killing nice

oh hey naruto

who the hell is this oddly dressed dude?

shikamaruuuuuuu

kakashi and yamato!!

okay so... i never though i’d say this, but please i want to see sasuke again

mainly because i don’t care about this doctor dide - just get me back to the action

oh so this boy i s actually a girl

SAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SAI I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

LOOK AT HIS BEAUTIFUL BIRDIE!!!!!!!

AND HIS TUMMY!!!!

NO ONE TOLD ME SAI WAS IN THIS MOVIE!!!!!!

HE LOOKED SO GOOD IN ACTION!!!!!

I FEEL SO BLESSED TO HAVE SEEN HIM!!!!!!

i’m being givien lige

FUCK OROCHIMARU!!!!!!!!!!!

oh the role of that doctor dode has suddenly become relevant

some dumb shit is about to happen i can tell

thank you sakura

this dumbass really went for a scalpel and yep here’s the dumb shit i knew would happen

woow surprise surprise amaru’s a girl i couldve never figured that out

also like... ow the fuck is naru affected by a fucking posionous fish bite like the dude has the fucking jyuubi???

also i’d be blushing if i had a girl sucking on my thigh too

yooooo watch this doctor dude be sketchy as shit

YO AMARU HAS A CRUSH ON DOCTOR DUDE

but aso like of course anruto didn’t think that amaru was a girl because he barelt notices them anyways

WHERE IS MY SASUKE/NARUTO MEET UP!!!!!!!!!!!1

wow symbolism

oh bye bye doctor dude

this movie is dragging for real thoguh

honest to god we didn’t need this much time for this part of the storyline

they fucking left the firl haha

oh so we reallt about to have hinata be the damsel in distress

zero tails what the fuck????

YES SAI!!!

i’m fucking lLIVE!!!!!!! for shikmaru jesis

also um... to talk my fave characters down a bit, it really is taking two of y’all to fiight against four people?? please. y’all can do better

also i can taste the sasunaru reunion

also no fucking way this fucking zero tails is the thing that brings ouf the kyuubi like please

oooohhhhh the zero tails brought up saasuke AND talked about how naruto can’t save people so yUP KYUUBI TIME

paused the movie so three things:

you really trying to tell me that naruto needed the jyuubi’s chakra for this poor excuse of a fight?? bullshit

all naruto needed to do was tell amaru that doctor dude believed in her and that broke her of her possession? bullshit

of COURSE doctor dude was sketchy as hell and is somehow still alive through what i already know is gonna be bullshit reasons

a continuer. i have 52min left in this movie jesus christ

SHINO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

WAT A GREAT FUCKING TEAM WHAT TH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

fucking brilliant teamwork what the actual fuck

this tunnel gave me sasunaru reunion vibes and... can it happen in this movie please

i’m glad they’re giving naruto one braincell having hiim be sispicious of the doctor dude

okay, half a braincell

with this explanation of the zero-tails, then sasuke should be the SOLE possessor of the zero tails

doctor dude went super saiyan

no not super saiyan... uugghhh there’s this anime but i don’t know what it’s called but this dude looks JUST LIKE one of the main characters

god i wish i knew more anime/cartoons that featured anthro animals beause i can see it in my mind but i just don’t know the title. i know it’s not beastars though

“super activation fist” -sideeyes-

please, i’m begging for sasuke to show up i can’t believe i have to sit through this mess

naruto really out here getting his ass beat though like... no

“i’m not gonna stop until i beat you with this fist!” -sideeyes-

this movie is dragging its ass jesus

amaru wanted to kill herself but naruto said no but hoenstly i need something to happen

this move is taking FOEVER

oh so NOW naruto can beat doctor dude’s ass because wMoTiOnS have been realized i’m vbuibghsbfnjbhjbfhrbfhra

SASUKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LITERALLY SHED A YEAR BECASE HE’S HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

NARUTO IS SHOOK BECAUSE ASUKE EXISTS

SASUKE DN’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THIS DUDE FUCKING TRY HOM!!!!!!!!!!!

CHIDORI SENBON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND HE DIPPED !!!!!

sasuke saved this entire fucking chapter of this movie

so of course doctor dude is allowing himself to get absorbed into the zero tails

sasuke couldn’t give less of a shit and anruto is concerned about sasuke

100% on brand

sasuke: “this is painful to watch” FACTS

of course sasuke and naruto working together as a team because they know each other so well due to their shared brotherhood and rivalry

i still fucking hate the design of sasuke’s curse seal form BIT i support him having his shirt off

sasuke legitimately couldn’t give less of a shit

lowkey mad that sasuke’s not talking more in this movie because you KNOW he’d have some killer lines

thank you sasuke

wow

naruto’s fucking EYES when he looks at sasuke

i cannot believe that i’ve been shittingon sasuke for so long i’m actually ashamed of myself

but also this fucking naruto sacrifcing himself is like... not off brand, but also like no

i’m highkey mad that we don’t see my new favorite team actually doing some fighting BBUT i’m just glad that the idea even exists because it’s prime beef

this was honestly... such an anticlimatic ending and hhow the FUCK is amaru gonna fo anything??

oh so she’s gonna die with naruto so naruto doen’t die alne/??

dumbass

plus - we all know that sasuke would’ve saved naruto like literall not even a question about that

we really missed out on some stellar sasuke dialogue

#naruto #liveblog #mypost

[yaz-the-spaz]

If you see this, post a snippet of your wip

saw this on a random post in the ziam tag and decided to partake

this is from my ziam/ot5 peter pan au...i know y’all were probably hoping for 2.0 fic snippets but too bad, this is what you’re getting lol

Zayn brushes aside a couple of leafy branches, holding them open for everyone to pass through as he chats idly with the tree the branches belong to.

“Hey, Steve, how are you this morning?”

“Oh, I’m wonderful, Zayn! Beautiful morning, isn’t it?” a deep voice says and though Liam can’t pinpoint exactly where on the tree it’s coming from he somehow knows it’s coming from the tree itself and not anything or anyone else.

“A beautiful morning indeed,” Zayn replies with a smile.

There’s a pause and then a soft gasp and the same deep voice whispers, “Is that him?”

“It is.” Zayn nods proudly. “I’m showing him the Fairy Kingdom today.”

“Oh, how wonderful! Do give the other fairies my best, will you? Especially Leigh, it’s been so long since I’ve seen her!”

“I certainly will! Have a good day, Steve.”

“Oh, you too! You too!”

There’s a shiver from the branch Zayn’s holding and then it stills again and Zayn lets it fall back into place now that everyone is through. Perrie flits ahead, a little golden figure lighting the way almost like a lightning bug, but much brighter, slightly bigger, and more golden instead of yellow-green.

“It’s him! Look, it’s him!” he hears in faint whispers all around him but he can’t pinpoint where exactly it’s coming from because it seems to be coming from everywhere all at once.

“Don’t mind them,” Zayn says with a wave of his hand. “It’s like Pez said, they’re gossipy things, they’ll calm down eventually, once the excitement wears off a little.”

Liam nods, goes back to following their little ragtag group through the trees, faint whispers following him along the way.

They wind through the forest for a while, sun half-blotted out by large leaves and tall trees, surrounded by indistinct murmurs, going in what feels like indiscernible circles to Liam but clearly must be an actual path that he can’t quite make out because eventually they stop at a thick copse of trees that Perrie flits easily through and then disappears. Zayn lifts another group of leafy branches for them to step through and Liam stops short, awestruck yet again.

Zayn had called it a kingdom before but for some reason the word hadn’t really clicked in his head. He’d still been imagining some little clearing in the woods with tiny little bird-size houses hanging from the trees and a bunch of fairies shyly peaking out from behind branches and between leaves but this. This truly is a kingdom in every sense of the word.

It’s like peeking into a whole other world. There are a thousand little doorways and awnings and little buildings built into the trees, small houses and shops in, around, and atop the trunks and branches, tons of fairies flitting around to and fro like they’re on important business or late for their nine-to-five—which for all Liam knows they very well could be—little stretches of pathways on the forest ground and a series of connecting branches and thick vines that the fairies hustle past and fly over almost like streets and highways. It all stretches on for miles, as far as he can see, and in the distance a grand, sparkling marble castle almost as tall as him with a large glittering blue pond out front complete with a statuesque fountain in the center. Two fairies locked in an embrace with one arm around each other each, reaching with their other hands to grasp some sort of torch together where water comes spouting out of the top and cascading down to the pond beneath their feet.

“Whoa,” Liam says breathlessly as he stares out into the distance, watching what must be thousands of fairies zoom back and forth over and down all the pathways behind trees and over and behind shops and houses and even down towards the sparkling castle. “Is that where you live?” he says to Perrie, still unable to tear his gaze away but hoping his question is clear enough.

“Me? Heavens no, although I do visit quite often. Speaking of which, I’ve actually got something I need to attend to at the moment. Jesy’s going to kill me if I’m late. Or Leigh if Jesy doesn’t get to me first. You boys all right to give him the tour?” she directs to the other four, to which they all nod and then she’s flitting away, down towards the palace.

“Late?” Liam repeats belatedly. “How can she be late? Isn’t she sort of…in charge? Like…like the queen of the fairies or something?”

“The queen? Perrie? Oh God, can you imagine?” Louis says bursting into laughter so hard he doubles over.

Harry and Niall are snickering into each other shoulders and Zayn has his lips pressed together clearly holding back laughter too but he shakes his head letting out a single chuckle as he says, “No, Perrie’s not a queen. Far from it although she is friends with a lot of the fairies in the royal court, including the princess herself. They don’t have kings or queens, see, just princes and princesses. Don’t ask, it’s a fairy thing. I don’t really understand it. But anyway yeah, Perrie is definitely not a queen or a princess, though she has been deemed as what’s virtually the equivalent of a knight or a royal warrior in terms that might be more familiar to you.”

“Oh,” Liam says dumbly, and then, “Actually it’d probably be more accurate to say dame since she’s female, although if she’s a warrior maybe knight would still be correct since dames never actually fought as far as I know. I shouldn’t have just assumed though…I don’t know why but I guess I always just figured T—um, Perrie was the queen, or princess, rather. You know since she’s the one in all the stories and everything.”

“Don’t let Leigh hear you say that,” Niall warns. “She’ll have your head.”

“Like I said before, there’s a lot the stories got wrong,” Zayn adds.

“Who’s Leigh?”

“Leigh-Anne. She’s the actual princess,” Niall explains.

“And she’s still a bit bitter about not being mentioned in Barrie’s stories, so you might not want to mention it when you meet her,” Harry says, patting him affectionately on the back as he steps forward to lead Liam further into the kingdom.

“Wait. I get to meet the Fairy Princess?” Liam says excitedly.

“Christ, this one’s excitable,” Louis says with a roll of his eyes as he steps past Liam to fall in step behind Harry. “You’d think we were taking him to meet the actual Queen of England. Wait. It is still a queen, isn’t it? Or are they back to a patriarchy over there?”

“No, it’s still a queen,” Liam says, jogging a little to catch up from where he’d stopped in place in his excitement. “Sorry, I don’t mean to be such a weirdo about all of this, it’s just…this is stuff I’ve only ever heard about in stories and movies and things. I never thought it could actually all be real. And now that I know it is and I get to actually meet all the people and creatures that were a part of it, even if they weren’t all mentioned, it’s still just…really cool. Like…like meeting your heroes or something, you know?”

Louis shrugs. “Wouldn’t know. Didn’t really have any good heroes in my time to look up to. At least not where I was from. It was more just every man for himself and if life dealt you a raw deal, tough luck. You did what you could for your family till you couldn’t anymore and that was it. Anyway, aren’t we supposed to be giving a tour?”

“Right you are, Tommo,” Niall says with a little skip as he takes Liam’s arm and directs him over to a row of shops that start near the ground and go all the way up into the trees...

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#peter pan au fic #my fics #wip's #ziam #ziam fics #mine #to any and all fic writers feel free to join in!

[montell70]

Hello everyone welcome to Reaching out Radio International, we are a ministry team working in love and unity in one mind one accord sharing the love of Jesys and the Gospel into the world! Tonight's program is 'God's Hour of Truth' with host Prophet & Evangelist Edward Franklin Eberly. His message title tonight is 'THE REALITY OF BEING IN JESUS' As a Christian what does it really mean to be in Jesus? How do we get to the place that we are to be in Jesus in a working reality and not just words? How does it affect our personal lives and ministries? This message is about God's Plan and the way that we need to have a mindset or focus on as well as what we need to do to come to the place which that is a working reality in our lives. Unless we are moving towards this mark or goal and maintain it, we can never have the degree of peace, boldness, confidence, stability, and live an abundant and fruitful life in Jesus Christ that God teaches us in His Word. This message must be taken to heart especially in this season of God shortly before the return of Jesus if we are going to receive and do the Greater things that God has for us. We thank you for listening, for your continued prayers and support as we share the Gospel into the world. May God use us to prepare the world for the coming of the LORD that all will be found ready!!

[thelasthundredmiles]

April 3rd, 1973

[continued]

and now we have the other side of the coin--

something has got to give. After work tonight I came home and started cleaning up their motherfucking dump. God do I hate living here.

□ Ok, ok, agreed-- I am well aware of the fact that I am in better circumstances than I have been in months. I look back over this past year beginning with that trip to Gulfport with Gayle to take my furniture home. Christ, I am so fucking tired of living in make-shift furnished rooms that reek of cat piss-- alone alone alone continually wondering what’s to become of me. Christ, I feel so weary. Anyway, the point is-- for what it is-- this apartment is a hell of a lot better than living with Jesi and Angela in New York-- or, God forbid, the Y-- it’s better than those crazy nerve-jangling months in that efficiency with Margie. So-- it’s the best place I’ve lived in months-- the circumstances surrounding my existence are in better shape than they ever have been. But I am very very unsatisfied. 

Unsatisfied.

This isn’t what I want. This isn’t how I want to live.   

Davis is coming next Wednesday night. I wonder what a stranger walking into this apartment would think of me.

--Oh shit, I can see through the logic of that. The problem is that I am so continually dissatisfied with my self-- me. This unending limbo-- half neurotic bourgeoisie and half liberated freak.

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[thelasthundredmiles]

October 4th, 1972

[continued]

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Sitting here at my desk I just remembered what afternoon classes at high school were like--

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After I got home from work today I read Jesi’s diary-- her journal. I wince at writing that-- at vocalizing it-- actualizing it by writing it. The act itself [as a private, personal eperice] doesn’t bother me half as much as writing it. 

I’ve also read Angela's-- in fact, I’ve stayed pretty current in it. I started reading them-- and that’s why I read Jesi’s today-- to find out if they are writing anything about me.

That’s insane, I know-- but it’s compulsive-- I stand there like a thief flipping through the pages nervously-- afraid that I’ll be caught. It’s almost as if I’m so insecure I have to know if they’re down on me. 

     down on me-- Jesus Christ.

No word from Angela.

But tonight I get a couple of news notes from Jesi-- to start with-- just last night she commented on the fact that I was on the telephone-- “probably long distance” and that I didn’t have any money. Then she went on about how I don’t contribute anything, anything to the house--

Goddam! I never eat there-- God does she have some nerve-- Never contribute! Goddam! I am furious-- I am absolutely-- totally furious-- 

I do not even like Jesi or Angela-- I haven’t liked them since we met-- God knows why I’ve maintained this facade of shared interests-- 

Well tomorrow is, payday-- immediately after work I’m going to the Sloane House Y and pay for a week’s rent--

     Fuck Shit Goddam--

I’m so nervous and upset and depressed. I feel like screaming and crying and

     oh god I want to die--

the very quiet, simple fact of the matter is that-- at this point in my life I cannot deal with Angela and Jesi--

Let it be remembered, my dear, that I do not take any shit off anybody-- or is that no shit off nobody?

Fuck it.