I wanted to say that outside of semantics and divisions - I am simply happy to find communities that welcome with kindness - that welcome you by a good heart and not the ability to conform. I am happy for the opportunity to be surrounded by people who care.
It's a funny world we live in - making the same mistakes over and over, multiplying the same suffering by billions. I don't think I hope for an utopia anymore, I don't think such a thing exists - but you can't call me hopeless either. And that's what matters.
As a side note - this piece is set in DanceAU, which might be better known to Patrons so far, but still it was the best and most fitting option for this occasion..... also there are 12 DanceAU pieces incoming, because I might be making another calendar so. get familiar with these mutts
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literally fucking sobbing screaming tearing my hair out shitting bricks looking at this image bc it hurts me SO fucking bad now that we’ve seen izzy in s2. look how fucking devoted and in love he is even THEN when they were ALREADY fucked up and falling apart. he was still so in love. he was still so fucking happy to serve. so sure that everything was gonna work out his way. that they could be happy (or as happy as pirates can be). and now it has actually gone so far that IZZY FUCKING HANDS OF ALL PEOPLE is fucking broken and can’t take it anymore. izzy fucking hands is crying because of how hurt he is. izzy fucking hands is going to leave edward teach. the man who was still in love even after he was fed his own severed toe. they have fucked up that fucking badly. it’s over.
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i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.
you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.
and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts
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TW Blood
sooooooo i made a thing and i definitely didnt cry while drawing this (i %100 did cry)
hell of a way to introduce myself to a new fandom ik but the sskk brainrot has been so bad and ive only been here for like a week
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Extra muscles?????? If you don't mind me asking, how does that even work, and what would be the benefit to removing them?
ive got a mutation that gives me extra accessory (see: useless) muscles in my elbows! they are connected to muscles on both sides, which means they serve no purpose <3 muscles need to be attached to bone on at least one side to actually, y'know, do stuff
it's called the epitrochleoanconeus muscle (pictures below from link)
because of its positioning over the ulnar nerve, im highly susceptible to nerve damage (particularly in my right arm, since im right handed) and i have to be really careful with what i do lest i suffer The Effects
unfortunately i can't actually get them removed because, while they r causing problems Every Day Of My Life, they're also the only things keeping my ulnar nerves from slipping out of place and getting pinched (i can actually feel my nerves moving whenever i extend my arm!)
i had surgery on my right arm back in 2020 to segment the muscle such that whenever i use my arm the muscle splays out when it's inflamed instead of just bearing down fully on the nerve. so good news is my arm isn't technically as bad as it used to be, but nerves heal extremely slowly so the damage to my arms is like, cumulative cause a few days off from work isn't really enough for them to be Fine whenever something as small as playing games on my phone can hurt me
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