#you’re not too far gone

[aniah-who]

God is closer than the distance your shame makes Him out to be.

#God is close #God never left #christian #jesus #faith #god #hope #photography #christian blog #the prodigal son #god is merciful #the goodness of god #true love #real love #thank you jesus #hope in god #jesus loves you #jesus is calling #there is hope #god is faithful #have faith in jesus #you’re not too far gone #god is with you #god is with me #god is with us #shame and regret #no more shame #moving forward

[foxbox21212]

#you’re not too far gone #christian #born again #christianity #jesus #reads

[thebirdmanhewatches]

Going feral about hinndredd and hinndredd Louie really all the hinndredd characters and versions of characters it’s where a lot of the older ideas regarding when hinndredd was on earth went along with the door lore, the Hamilton rip-off, the older version of current earth patchwork back when he was just a original patchwork reboot and not his own thing inspired mildly by bojack horseman, the older nightmare fuel reboot and associated lore, thauriel, Magnus tilby, more distilled and combined forms of characters that are sometimes somewhat demigod esc, the tower with myself at the top of it, azazel/cult on his endless quest to dig a pit, the scp characters, Magnus tilby, stuff regarding the origins of bauddalins, both types of joy(which ended up basically zombies without me noticing), every dropped plot thread that has ever existed, Magnus tilby

#hark says i #100%birdmade #ocs #<*| hinndredd #<*| bauddalins #oc lore #my oc lore is so self referential and tangled no one but me can decipher it #when you get two separate reboots of the exact same guy deep you know you’ve gone to far #when every remotely separate evolution of Louie Howard has been made into their own characters you’re in too deep #fuck I’m actually three patchwork reboots deep if I’m putting the first fully fledged form of the first proper patchwork reboot in hinndredd #hinndredd doesn’t count hinndredd doesn’t count #see having new ideas is hard so when I get bored I go back to old ideas but do them different this time #hence the fucking joshes(technically louies but Louie would be so pissed if anyone else had his name and I respect him) #I offer him a seat as a god of this world Ives made but he has no free will so he cannot take it I keep the option open for him though #oh shit there is another Louie Louie from back when they went to space but as previously stated Louie cannot think for himself so he cannot #actually be pissed at me #I could just not have louie from back when they went to space but a lot of hinndredd stuff is from just after his era and he and all the cha #racters surrounding him are so unique from their later counterparts I can’t help but include them #old Nora and Eira where fucking wild #plus like I want space travel and no one else does that except from Bob who’s lore is exclusively a David bowie animatic and becomes the god #of natural death after getting scooped by birds #aka god aka myself #so many bobs too I just don’t make a big deal out of it because they’re all from mostly irrelevant lore and I don’t like them

[hotcheetohatredwastaken]

currently how long are bdor and its prequel when combined wordcount wise

you brought up 200k and i am both terrified and intrigued. like thats impressive. i am in awe. i can barely put a sentence together much less that many

Okay let me give you a lay of the land. And before we begin, I just have to say that I am so, so sorry. I gave you such a wrong number.

BDOR Arc 1, as of its official word count right now, is 152,892 words. It’s completely written and ready to be published save chapters 15, 18, 20, 24 (12,000 word chapter that has to go 😱) ch 27-29, and then it’s pretty much smooth sailing (with a few minor edits in there and a few scenes to add) until ch 75-76, which need some tweaking, and then the final ch 78 needs a bit of an adjustment as well, and I may delete it completely. All of these chapters specifically mentioned above are in various stages of editing, but generally the story at this point is solid. The final chapter count will probably be 80-82, because there are a few beats that need to be hit that haven’t been, some characters to flesh out more, and lovely beta reader @needfantasticstories revealed some logic errors that I need to spin up some bullcrap to cover💀. I have 9,000 words of notes for things to change in pages, and about that amount of changes in google docs as well. So I’m estimating 160,000 words for the final product there, if not more.

Arc 2 is where it gets SO dicey. My word count in my final doc right now is 44,424. I have another 6,000 ish words of notes in pages to change/tweak scenes/general scene layouts. I have another 15,884 words that have been digitized but haven’t made it into the final document because they need editing. Add onto that about 30?? Pages handwritten that haven’t even made it that far. I usually get about 600-750 words per page, so let’s tally that up to a generous 45,000 since I write front and back. There is leeway of about 20,000 words in there too, because there’s a big chunk of time (heh) I am considering only hinting at happening, but I have written out in their near entirety.

The thing is, I’ve probably written about half of arc 2 with all of that.

So assuming I keep that 20,000 chunk, and assuming I double my word count as I think I will, the final tally here is nearly 110,000 already, which will probably grow to an estimated 200,000 if not more. I am working on cutting this down XD, so stay tuned. The main plot is generally solid, but there’s a LOT of little subplots I need to wrap up lol.

Prologue: this is a little side thing I meant to just be cute little scenes from Twi and Wild’s past and it got away from me. An official 28,424 words of this are written. I’d say I have another 15 handwritten pages (front and back counted, i should clarify) in various stages of editing, so let’s say a generous 11,250. The thing is, I have a LOT of ideas, and once I finalize arc 1 and arc 2, I’m going to have a lot of free time to dig into this while the other story comes out (I probably need to start updating multiple times a week if I want to get this story out before I turn 90 XD). So this number will most definitely grow, but for now it is an estimated 39,674.

Final estimated word count (if I did the math right and also didn’t underestimate my ability to purple prose), everypony?

396,174 words!!

Oh Lord I don’t think I’d realized before I tallied everything up that it was actually this long. I think this project has run away from me. I just wanted to play with my blorbos not write the next Ancient Greek Epic. What the heck. I need to go lie down.

Also just took 3,500 from the final count because I realized I had double counted a chapter sorry ignore that.

But yeah I am hoping to cut down arc 2, so maybe 350,000? That’s being optimistic in my ability to not be longwinded though.

#should I like #update my status on ao3 #I think I have in the notes that it’s 120000 #I was in denial when I wrote that #and actually hadn’t tallied it up #but going through it like this?? I’m scared #all I can do now is hope and pray that arc 2 doesn’t get away from me #arc 1 is too far gone #I kinda hate that you asked this question #you’re making me face my own hubris huh #linked universe #lu #linkeduniverse #ao3 #cheetoanswers #BDOR #blooddropsonroses #I’m so sorry everyone #Lu Wild #wild linked universe

[wiser-girl]

I can’t believe I’m actually gonna make this Newtmas You’re Losing Me edit bc NO ONE ELSE IS DOING IT

#WE THOUGHT A CURE WOULD COME THROUGH IN TIME? #TOO FAR GONE TO BRING BACK TO LIFE??? #TRIED TO BE THE BRAVEST SOLDIER? #also maze runner anon if you’re seeing this yes I’m once again having my annual phase of being obsessed with them #newtmas #anyway it’ll be here some point in the next 48 hours probably so look forward to that #my post

[dahldahlbills]

nano day 7

total word count: 1085

made it through the first week!!

#had a not so great day and spent most of my evening crying so I almost didn’t write #but I knew I would feel even worse if I didn’t so I sucked it up and got some words down #but hey 7 days of consistently writing 1000+ words?? that’s p solid #hoping tomorrow is a lot better and that’s today’s Events won’t put a damper on the rest of the week :/ #if not maybe I will set aside an hour or two to draw and listen to podcasts to help ✨escape✨ #was hoping writing would be a good enough distraction but the thing about writing #..is that you’re thinking the whole time #and when you’re thinking.. well ! you end up getting stuck in your head and spiraling. as one does #what sucks is that I had a lot of extra time today that could’ve gone towards writing #but I was so upset I just ended up sleeping and moping #also I haven’t drawn in like a week and I’m not happy about it :/ #anyway the portion of scene 5 that I’ve written isn’t too bad. I’m enjoying the dynamic of the two mcs so far #dahl does nano 23

[swordmaid]

so I was looking up the tenets for lolth’s paladins and I found this little list. not sure how canon exactly this is but I thought it was interesting -

kind of laughing that shri’iia does the exact opposite in act 1 which leads to her oath breaking. she girlflopped so badly lolth decides to drop her ass then prob hunt her ass down for being an embarrassment and a failure. like girly was not exerting her power at all - it’s her first time in the surface ever and she’s surrounded by people who could literally kill her any given moment (considering all the stories she heard abt how surface dwellers hates drow) not to mention that the tieflings you encounter when you see lae’zel were ready to attack you that just fueled her paranoia. > she was not sowing discord at all she was laying low and keeping her mouth shut …!! she has no allies here! and she doesn’t know where she is! and there’s an illithid tadpole in her head! it would be foolish of her to paint herself as an enemy when she’s already so out of her environment so she keeps her mouth shut … thoughts to herself … bides her time and sees who’s useful to her and who’s not … she can always get rid of the ones that she doesn’t need later but for now she’s seeing what she can work with first …… > have a plan… shri’iia had no plans…. at all. she was following lae’zel around because the crèche was her only lead … but then they mentioned a druid named halsin who’s a very good healer so she turned her objective to that … then a goblin mentions their priestess is a healer too so guess she’s looking for her as well… honestly who thought making the drow who’s never been to the surface and literally does not know where she is or what she's doing the leader of the group a good idea….. in my hc the leader is gale

#but I’m like 🤭🤭🤭 at the idea of shri’iia being considered an embarrassment by Lolth just bc apparently lolth paladins are pretty rare #like she doesn’t give her blessings easily and they mostly go to her clerics but to a paladin … and for someone who’s not noble birth too…. #like she had potential ..!! she was mentored by a matriarch of a noble house ..!! but then she flopped soo badly 😭😭 #and I hc mid/the end of act 1 she still hasn’t accepted that she’s an oathbreaker and she’s still delusional thinking that she can get #lolth’s favour again it’s like no 💗 girly. she hates your ass 💓 if you ever return to menzoberranzan she’ll turn you into a drider probably #and it’s only in act 2 where she accepts that she is an Oathbreaker. and she does Not need Lolth. and Lolth doesn’t deserve her (delusion) #but I love that idea for her bc she was So proud of herself … and she devoted herself to her goddess to the point that her sense of self is #essentially Gone.. but then she gets rejected. so now the thing she’s most proud of is taken away from her #by HER own actions no less .. like she can’t blame anyone bc it’s her own fault ..!! and that’s what stings more ..!!!!! she’s the one who #fumbled the bag … so it’s like where do u go when the very thing you dedicated your whole life to rejected you #and you’re so far away from home. and you CAN’T even go back home.. where do you go. no choice but to keep going…. #then she eventually accepts the role as an oath breaker bc it's the only thing she has left. her oath no longer binds her ; every choice #she makes is hers and hers alone.. which is so ..!! girls when you're faced to reclaim your own agency or else you'll fall into the void #you're left with ...!!!!!!! also it is so perfect bc the oathbreaker dialogues are all abt freedom and agency of self. #being free from dogma and making your own decisions! and you also want others to be free too … #and the fact that the oath breaker knight helps you make that decision I hc she becomes similar to him as well #where if someone chooses they want to be free she will help them … but it has to be their own choice … #which ties in perfectly with the act 2 and 3 quests esp for the companions .. all abt making ur own decisions … #so the leadership role goes from gale then to her … #should be heading to bed bc I have an early start tomorrow but hrk head filled w thoughts of my oc... #but act 1 shri'iia is essentially her getting such a bad grade at being Lolth-Sworn Drow that lolth disowns her 😭 #im so ill at the thought of her not being able to return to menzo tho ... i dont think the underdark is safe for her either like she should #b getting hunted like sport .... maybe thats why she released the vampire spawns down there lol #like <3 revenge. everyone loves revenge especially an ex oath of vengeance girly <3

[lettertoanoldpoet]

i will never be over the vanishing point/anti-curse parallels. slipping into the undertow nobody knows why don’t feel bad i’ve always been too far down to reach and i was long long gone before you got to me -> i’m swimming back you say you don’t have to make it bad just cause you know how

#progression of a theme. like. do you see it #do you see it?? #SHE’S swimming back. she wasn’t too far down to reach. she doesn’t have to make it bad #it’s like a self fulfilling prophecy. telling yourself you’re long long gone = making it bad. making everyone believe it #but you don’t have to do that. you can swim back you don’t have to make it bad. etc #this is the literal anti-curse to that. #vanishing point is also Very first chorus of not strong enough. thematically #these songs are just so beloved to me. and they’re always on my mind #yes anti-curse is a song about almost drowning and yes it’s one of the most hopeful things she’s ever written. #anyway. i should end my post-midnight-ramblings and actually go to sleep #parallels

[mebiselfandi]

I have insane cramps rn and just saying if my brother was here I wouldn’t feel any better but at least he would’ve ‘coincidentally’ made flapjacks for breakfast

#no cause when I think about it it’s so crazy like #only my brother could understand #like we have other siblings but none of them understand the extent to which our parents were insane #like he does says shit and does things where I’m left thinking that’s not normal and you’re deeply traumatized #but it makes me feel better cause I do the same things too #like yeah we both crazy #I’ll never forget when me and my brother were driving around town with his girlfriend #and we were laughing talking about our childhood #he he laughs and says how our mum used to lock the freezer and the pantry every day before she went to work #which is by far the least bad thing she’s done #but I was just looking at my brother like do you even realize that’s not normal babe😭 #stop kekeing for a second and deep what you actually just said #and his girlfriend was like 😃😟😰 #but anyway my brother has gone to war (he got a 12 hour shift job) when will he return I miss him (it’s his turn to cook I’m tired)

[no-nightingalez]

Florida man runs for president after taking away the rights of all trans people in his state

#who tf even likes desantis #even my conservative mom dislikes him #yk you’re bad when republicans think you’ve gone too far #trans #transgender #presidential candidate #fuck desantis #ron desantis #florida man

[cauldronofmorning]

“Queer is a slur is never in good faith just a terf dogwhistle” frustrates me so much.

#I had a trans woman partner who got bullied with the word queer and she didn’t like it. that does actually happen! #and it is a slur! people have a right to be frustrated with it even if you enjoy it and reclaim it #like yeah of course plenty of terfs say it but the minute you say an argument can never be made in good faith I think you’re too far gone

[thevampirearchive]

@ everybody who is still mad at the new IWTV and refusing to watch it: don’t, nobody has you and your family at gunpoint so idk why y’all pretending like it’s that deep. Grow up, find peace, go enjoy the books in peace and let the rest of us be, abeg. Ain’t nobody wanna read your long winded ass think-piece D- graded essays about how you perosnally feel robbed. Anne rice didn’t know you or your Dad, bitch, pipe down.

#y’all are such losers lmao like what? sure be upset if you’re upset but THINK PIECES! I’d say touch grass but I fear some of y’all too far- #gone* #pls heal lmao #IWTV #go to therapy or smt idk like lmao y’all this heated over AN ADAPTATION? 🎻 here

[hornyforthevirginmary]

I’ve truly lost it. I’m imagining my blorbo going through the airport

#I can see him. waiting to pick up his checked bags. checking the time #he would be seated next to the most annoying screaming child ever #would he watch a movie? what movie? what does he think of the shitty airplane food #does he sleep during the flight? is he fascinated by the sunset above the clouds #do his ears pop? does he chew gum or suck on candy during take off? #fucking tsa. he would 1000% get pulled over for a chat #I feel like this is the point where you know you’re too far gone #like if you’re imagining blorbo at the airport then what’s even the point #where do I even go from here?

[lightspren]

google how do i be a normal person

#kit talks #still panicking about ants in my car. it’s fine. #i want to sleep for 100 years and never deal with anything stressful ever again #this whole year so far has been one thing after another and i’m so sick of it. i’m so tired #and i’m being melodramatic right now but i’m just so frustrated #every time we think the ants are gone we find another one wandering through #and every time it jacks my anxiety back up to 1000 #and then i feel guilty for being such a slob that i got ants infesting my car #and then i feel guilty and stupid for being this freaked out over goddamn ants #and then i continue to be freaked out of the ants themselves #and do you know how stressful it is to feel like you’re getting exposure therapy every time you drive your car? #and do you know how ridiculous and stupid that feels too? #i’m so fucking tired #if you reply to this know i really appreciate it but i may not respond #too busy with the Wallowing

[goldensunset]

cheers to this guest lecturer for nearly giving me a heart attack making me think there was a paper due tomorrow that i hadn’t even heard about so i couldn’t focus the rest of the lecture and like rushed home and opened the site to find there was nothing at all

#when you’re gone for a week and only check your email (which sends notifs when assignments are due in 24 hours) and nothing else #it is not difficult to be convinced that A Big Thing Is Happening That You Didn’t Know About #i already (for shame) had an awkward experience in german class today #the entire class session was spoken entirely in german about a comic we were meant to have read and i only minimally participated #the prof afterwards was like ‘did you manage to follow along ok?’ and i had to tell him yeah i fully understood the conversation #i just didn’t contribute words of my own bc um. i didn’t have any material from which to draw forth words #which is tooooootally on me i could have and should have done the reading while away #he’s been nice and forgiving but i couldn’t teehee my way out of that one #and yet somehow he still was like ‘oh do you want me to postpone your quiz on friday’ SIR you are being way too nice #i completely do not deserve an extension on any of this i ran away to another continent for a week just for funsies #i easily could’ve done the work and studying i just kind of Suck it’s my own fault i should’ve been more responsible #so i told him oh no no i can fully handle doing all this work in the next two days and i’m fully ready to study for this quiz #which like. let’s be real based on what i heard in class today uhhh yeah this should be a cakewalk i am far more skilled than he realizes #i still have to study but like. the last minute grind is what i do best i’m genuinely not concerned and ik good resources if i get stuck #peach rambles #but anyway about this guest lecturer guy. he was talking about meditation and mentioned stuff that might be distracting us #and said something about ‘that paper you have due tomorrow in this class’ #twice #which made me FLIP #i guess he was referring to a theoretical paper in a theoretical class? #that might be theoretically causing stress #because we don’t have this class physically tomorrow and there’s nothing open online due tomorrow so there can’t be anything #but like sheesh bro

[sashimiyas]

dont even say that reina, u give us so much lovely content all the time <33333 and I like how u kept in the detail that osamu is secretive, I wish he knew that we want to know every single thing about him. how can u make a blurred selfie of our faces squished together your lock screen but not tell me u have a twin. hes so silly. how are u today reina <3

he’s so silly but i’ve imagined it comes from a place of shame! atsumu and osamu did fight about their futures and osamu vowed to prove to his brother that he made the right decision. but the restaurant he got hired at turned out to be a front for illicit business and now instead knowing how to julienne he’s learned how to load 9mm pistol instead.

but maybe there is a reason for everything, he thinks as he taps his phone screen awake to the blurry vision of your face. he’s not a complete idiot, making sure that your features are still unrecognizable to the curious eye, but an unsteady hand has always been enough to catch your radiance. even you bloom in his watch and he may be the most unrefined of bodyguards there are.

he’s not quite past the shame, still carries a self pity that he can’t quite resolve, but if all the pain and suffering he’s endured has led him to you, well… he strokes his thumb across the slope of your cheek, half way into switching screens as he does so, then clearly it’s all been worth it.

#reina.receives #bodyguard! osamu #my days have been well #busy busy with plenty of projects and presentations and exams in the upcoming days #my eyes hurt like i’ve been crying but i think that’s because i forgot to wear my glasses #osamu with a blurry selfie :( like i never thought of that #it makes me sad thinking about the way he looks at it at night #a sense of yearning in him that makes him frustrated bc how far can continue pushing past this line until he’s gone too far #and he hates as much as he loves how you’re so receptive to it. he can tell you like him and he wishes you didn’t #wishes that your touch isn’t as easy to receive #wishes that you weren’t so good to him and so kind because he can hardly hold himself back but one word from you will be enough