#being myself

[uaravsh]

"There comes a time when you look into the mirror and you realize that what you see is all that you will ever be. And then you accept it. Or you kill yourself. Or you stop looking in mirrors."

- 𝚃𝚎𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚆𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚊𝚖𝚜 (@uaravsh )

#writing #poetry #tumblrpost #literature #quotes #relatable #art #dark academia #lit #quoteoftheday #myself #being myself #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #spilled ink #quotation #books and quotes #life quotes #quotes and words #uaravsh

[anonzentimes]

i think being on twitter and tumblr/just starting to overly ramble and be myself more has actually been beneficial for me overall not only because it's really healthy but because it has allowed me to improve at learning to know what words I want to use which is something I've struggled with a lot in my life but it's becoming a little less of an issue now

#ramble #be yourself #just kind of being silly #existensial #i think #two not interest zen rants in a row i apologize 🦅 #rambling #silly #:3 #twitter #being yourself #being myself #tumblr #expressing myself #expressing yourself #talking #vent?

[randik-86]

I bleed,

I hurt,

I cry,

I ache,

I scream,

I feel,

I hate

I suffer,

I hope,

I wish,

I dream,

I smile,

I laugh,

I love,

I empathise,

I sympathise,

I understand,

I listen,

I accept,

I decline,

I despise,

I am human...

©️randik86

#spilled ink #©️randik86 #just human #original poem #just me #being myself #true self #writings #thoughts #deep feelings

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

Opening To Change: Learning How To Let Go.

Change hasn't always been an easy thing for me. In the beginning, I had suppressed myself in order to hold on to things that didn't need saving. Holding on to friendships that lasted since high school, to deeply trying to change the circumstances with me and another lover just so we wouldn't have to break-up. I made it my mission for long-term things to stay inside of me for as long as possible, til I realized it was the death of me. I was killing my insides all because I would have to face being alone for a while. And it worked.. until it didn't. My health declined, and I was forced into the unknown because your health and spirituality due tie closely together after all. Believe it or not, the moment I had to go to the hospital I realized I had no one left, but my mom of course. But in those moments I had to understand it would be more them. Because my circumstances were making me sick, all because I chose to stay in it.

Don't get me wrong, the people in my life are not to blame for my health declining. It was my choices that I kept for the longest. Not wanting to switch to becoming vegan, not wanting to travel alone or do anything by myself, always waiting and wasting away... Because I was scared to be and do things, alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone.

It sounded terrifying.

Having to be by yourself is one thing, but being alone with your THOUGHTS?

Thats a different type of hell.

Having to let go made me accept the things I could not change, but helped me see that there was a reason why I had to move on.

As much as it hurt, I couldn't just walk away with the pain.. I had to make something out of it.

At some point I would let go of all my sorrows by walking to the waterfalls near home, and communing with my ancestors & God Almighty themselves.

I NEEDED this. I needed the friends to mistreatment, the exs to misunderstand me. The family members to not appreciate my talents, my skills, my appreciation for them, etc. I had to see it. So that I could let go. I'm open to change because I know that there is more for me around that corner I have been peaking on the other side of. Remember me & my truth, is the exact reason that faith in beside me & I go where God & the mountains tell me to go. I dont NEED the same old energies to see me, I need me. So being alone worked, because it helped me face myself & overcome the damages that society had placed near my doorstep as a little girl. I had to accept the fact that most people that I loved, would not adore me as I did them. So I changed my structure, and changed the way I thought of them in the process. This was so that the new me could take shape, and I could feel the power of love that had been missing for so many days.

So as I write this, if you're problem is with letting go of people, environments, and so on so forth, you have to check within first. Because its YOU that you aren't letting go of. So it focuses on the things around you externally, then internally. Guess you have to decide whether it'll be your insides or the out. But all in all, one will win this round. You just gotta choose you more often. K? <3

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[sunshineanddaisiescaitie]

After a couple weeks of being depressed I feel good as fuck and hot as fuck 😘✌🏼 that's the vibe I want this year 😌 ashnikko never fails to hype me up

#chubby #blue eyes #blue hair #chubby girls #ashnikko #i love her #being myself #this year ima rock it #lets get it #cheerleader #cheer #cute

[fionna-cookie]

So... I got invited to a weeding in July which is amazing and I'm so freaking happy for both.

It's my father in law and his girlfriend.

So I decided I need a fitting dress. I love gothic and renaissance stuff... So I decided on something special but this time I ordered it in navy blue and not black:

I was like: "Freaking hell... You look so fat after recovering from your ed..."

I was mad. Seriously. But you know what. Screw my thoughts and my bodydismorphia. I gonna wear this bc I want to and I think it's gorgeous!

I got curvy after recovery but I was before.

So why the hell should I hate myself for this. I had no life on eating nothing and purging. Now I got a new home,a job and love.

Sometimes I really need to remember to accept what my body is now. It's hard and I don't know if it will eber get better... but that is the same thought I had underweight until I recovered. So maybe... maybe also this will change.

#ed related #ed #ed 🦋 #eating disorder recovery #eating disorder #anorexia nervosa #anorexic #anorexia #buliima #bulimic #bulimia #bulimyc #body dysmorphia #mentally ill #mental instability #mental disorder #ed situation #adult ed #ed struggles #ed reality #ed recovery #ed rant #me #new dress #anorexik #anor3c1a #being myself #diary #ed diary #feeling insecure

[michaeldagaymerx]

Video game conventions sound fun. I might start going to them as I’ve just learned they exist. Also bear pride exists too. Might go to some of them also. I’m trying to get out of my comfort zone and do things more outside of the house. I barely go out and I kinda want to change that. I just met with the person in charge of a mentor program and I really want to learn more life skills and be more independent. They do uber and maybe I’ll learn to drive someday. I want a job someday very soon too. My doctor said I seem a lot more mature since my last visit. I feel more mature tbh. I’m growing up guys. Not a kid anymore 😁

#independence #independent #personal growth #being myself

[hotdogsfordinner]

Simply Being Myself

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[uaravsh]

"Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I'm not living."

- Jonathan Safran Foer, "Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close" @silentroad

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[letmescreamwhatifeel]

I just want to earn and be independent and live my life alone and peacefully, i want to study Architecture,read history, psychology, read and write poetries, make arts, practice gymnastics, dance while screaming to Bollywood songs whole night, try new food everyday, i want to explore every Lil beautiful thing that exist in this world and care for people the way they care for me, i want to be enough for myself and not be dependent on anyone to live my life, I just want to be someone i already am.

#desiblr #desi aesthetic #being the elite #being myself #desi dark academia #desi tumblr #indian academia #spotify #desi academia #independent

[wordsofwisdomandsoul]

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[whispersofsilence]

Not Yet In Full Bloom - A Plain Jane's Monologue

I’m your average kind of person. A bit fairer than my peers, average height, average built. Black hair. Brown eyes. Pretty generic. I’m not well off, but not to the point of starving either. My family is pretty average too. There’s mom and dad, and our pack of dogs. I have no siblings so they’re kind of like my brethren. Grew up in a small town, yada yada yada. My life is pretty much a tad bit more boring than most. But I think it’s nice, quiet, and simple. And I think it suits me just right.

I don’t style my hair. I get haircuts every now and then, But I have never colored my hair. I am more of the next-door type of person. Or at least that’s what I think of myself. I am turning twenty-six this year, But I only know how to apply three kinds of makeup: Foundation. Lipstick. And eyeliner. And by that, I mean the pencil ones. Not the savvy liquid ones you put on the upper eyelids. Oh, I do know how to put on eyebrow pencil. Or used to, since it’s been years since I applied one.

I do like putting on nail polish though. Not for the girly stereotype associated with it, though. See. I like painting my nails. I feel like an artist every time I do. And, I have never done a manicure or pedicure either. Just the idea of it scares me. Quelle horreur! Oh, and I do not like the smell of perfume. I am not allergic to it. The scent is just too much for me. I can tolerate the mild ones though, especially flower scents. I don’t wear jewelry, either. That one, I am a bit allergic to. I’m especially annoyed at earrings and necklaces. I wear them on special occasions though.

In my closet, you would see a few dresses, yes. Mostly jeans, loose shirts, and cardigans. I prefer casual clothing more than anything else in the world. Teenagers nowadays dress more adult-like than I do. I still prefer wearing my comfy sneakers, Over small heels, or even flat shoes, or sandals. Comfort over style. At any day of the week, my friend! And I prefer to go around without a bag either. Blue jeans, a white shirt, sneakers, and maybe a ponytail. Oh, and my prescription glasses! How could I forget those? They’re much easier to remove and care for than contact lenses!

I don’t drink. I don’t smoke. I don’t date. People would consider me a “goody two-shoes” But I don’t think that is necessarily the case. I don’t drink alcohol because I don’t like the taste of it. I don’t smoke because it stinks. Big time. And the reason I don’t date is because, I don’t believe in dating as a necessity to life. It was, is, and never will be my priority. The world is amazing! There are so many other things to do! I am honestly too busy with life that I want more “me time.” I really can’t imagine sharing my time with someone else.

I do have friends though. I mean who doesn’t? Friends make the world a better place. They are there for you when you need them, And can be annoyingly present when you don’t! School— society— is tough! It’s an introvert’s nightmare. Fitting in but having bouts of wanting to stand out, Then feeling irritated when the spotlight comes on? How contradicting! Yes, my life is a paradox. It could I am really like this, or perhaps confused, Or I’m still in the stage of figuring myself out. However late it is, at this point in my life.

I am a self-proclaimed late bloomer. I am the type to stay at home, just sleeping, Than the type to hangout with friends on a Saturday night. I was like that in high school. I was like that in college. And I can most certainly say that I am still like this today. The only difference perhaps is that I do make the effort now, To go out and meet with friends from time to time, Organize meet-ups, chat about our separate lives. I guess that’s how things are when you get older. You learn to value friendship, and work to keep it going. Maybe it is a form of coping from the daily grind, I don’t know.

I can’t particularly say that I am living a happy life right now. Stress from school, from personal life, and everything in between, Do get in my head, more times than I would want to. But still I go, I go, I go. One step forward, or maybe one step back. The point is, I am moving. I am not stationary. I am moving. I believe that the life we lead is an epic journey. There will always be smooth sailing days, and tumultuous ones. But it is through these moments in our lives that we grow. It is here when we become better versions of ourselves. I am a Plain Jane, and my life may not seem as colorful as others. But hopefully the time will come that I, too, will go into full bloom.

#being myself #life #poetry #poets of tumblr #poets on tumblr #original poetry #original writing #poem #Poems #poems on tumblr #original poem #creative writing #writing

[blackplaaague]

"But these quote-unquote 'boring' societal norms like romance and gender exist for a reason1!!"

Yeah. To be broken.

Binary exists as a thing for computers and whatnot; societal concepts exist to provide a glimpse into different human cultures. The norms exist so we have a baseline idea of what most people have, like, or want, and I, personally, am exempt from all that.

If you disagree I'll crawl through the screen and eat your eyeballs.

Outdated concepts like gender roles and having only one religion are boring, and I do what I want, when I want, until I die, and then I'll continue to do whatever I want.

#death mention #queer #pride #being myself #lgbtq+ #gender #gender neutral #gender identity #gender norms #gender roles #I hate gender roles #they can all die #in a meat grinder #jerma style #meat grinder #meat grinder time #no legit serious babes #if you try to make me conform I will eat your eyes #I'll marry my best friend #I'll believe in everything #I'll become a sueprnova when I die #religion #eyeballs #I can tag this whatever I want #no one reads the tags #punk #breaking the mold #hehe haha #I will destroy space time #die

[sexualrevoluti0n]

So things ended with my partner and I. I thought I'd feel sad, and while yeah obviously there are things I miss, things I'm disappointed and annoyed about, there are so many good things that I had missed - I can eat the foods I love whenever I want! I spent so long only cooking and eating food my ex could manage with his sensory issues, and over the last few months I've decided to eat all of my favourite foods whenever I want to, and its been amazing! I can go abroad again, which I've desperately wanted to for soooo long - I have a family home in another country that I've wanted to go back to and to take my partner to to share parts of me with him, introduce him to people, explore places I knew he'd love, but he was always too scared of being somewhere he didn't speak the language, or of being around people in a busy place like airports, train stations etc, so I never went back. I'm booking to go out by myself in a month so I can do all the things I've been missing for the past 5 years.

I can start looking back into doing training in another country, which I gave up on because my ex couldn't deal with the idea of living more than 30 minutes away from his family, and also wasn't ok with the idea of me being abroad for months at a time since he wouldn't have been able to support himself independently. I remember telling him early on that my plan was to live in one part of the world for 6 months and swap to the other hemisphere for the other 6 to get the most sunlight and help my SAD. And I don't think he took it seriously until I brought it up once I was getting into the language learning and he told me he could never do that. And I just, deflated at realising he hadn't taken my plans seriously and that now I couldn't do them. I also found a masters I wanted to do in Denmark which I was planning for but after he said that I stopped looking, and now Brexit has happened and a lot of the learning abroad opportunities aren't affordable anymore. But I can see what things are still available and affordable now and start making plans again!

I can finally use the name I want to and don't feel held back in my transition and needing to hide myself. When I was changing my name he said he wouldn't call me by a new name so I chickened out and hyphenated things instead of outright changing them on my deed polls, and when I talked about dysphoria from my boobs he said he might not be attracted to me if I got top surgery so I just pushed all that shit waaaay down. And now, I don't have to anymore! I feel free and like I can try things out without worrying if it'll lose me my relationship, cause I only have to care about what's right for me now!

Of course there are a lot of things I miss, it was 5 years and we were planning on getting married, but I'm focusing on the things I can do now which I wasn't able to for so long, and there's so much relief!

#personal #relationships #transition #travel #health #mental health #being myself #self-actualisation #self-actualising #relief #it's going to be ok #i love myself and deserve to treat myself well #education #university