#<- living up to this today

[pookapufferfish]

yall, big post time about this blog

(it's nothing bad )

(images to make sure people see this)

so uhh, my eyebleeding colours and rain world banner and pfp may be gone soon so that I can fully hyperfixate on new stuff

I love rain world, never leaving the fandom (and still very much drawing all my fellas)

but I really have needed to experience other stuff. With rain world, I came here, got way more love and attention than I knew what to do with. met new friends, got new experiences, got new memories good and bad.

Honestly through the years my fixation on rain world felt more strained, it brings comfort yes but i also needed new stuff. and aus weren't helping, and roleplays never really work for me. and some friends became ex friends. and new trauma was made. and while I still love the scugs, and they are a part of me. I feel like this new fandom I am falling into has more love and fun experiences I can learn and grow with.

i need to stretch my skills and improve, i need growth and rest. I need to fall in love with something new. like I did with rain world.

These are my earliest rw art I have saved (25 july 2022? apparently, but i did change computers at a point and that might have changed the date) and my most recent full artwork (26 april 2024)

I have improved a lot, but now I feel stagnant, i feel like i need new challenges outside of school work.

i was stuck in a real time loop of draw or people stop seeing me, talk to all my friends about their problems or they will all leave me, hide how I feel because people might abuse my feelings. But I know none of that is true.

And as I have said before, this is a blog for all my dumb stuff and hyperfixations. I love people, and I love this community. and I hope my art still makes people happy

might even start doing more oc stuff. i leave college after this year and i might need a portfolio. I hope some of you stay but I understand if me changing might be a bit much and you unfollow.

But really I am still the same guy, you can still send me rain world asks, and talk about rw ocs, and I will still add rw to my queue, and I am not unfollowing any of my mutuals. Who knows maybe this is a phase and I will come right back to this

And I know I can make a side blog but really this feels like a thing for my main blog, if you want I could adapt a side blog to have all my rain world art and I can keep posting rain world more there. if people want that.

But i feel like my art as a whole will get better from this. and maybe I can be that fun art guy rather than just the poly ship rain world guy who has a lot of weird issues.

TLDR: My blog is changing. I still will do rain world stuff but my focus will be everywhere else. This is for my mental health and so I can improve my art. But i am still a big rain world fan and that won't stop any time soon

time for my isat era

#rambling ray #<- living up to this today

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[zivazivc]

. . . 😳

#hey uh floyd what the fuck are you saying?? #trolls #dreamworks trolls #i feel no shame for making this #just like JD feels no shame airing out his pits like that #trolls 3 #trolls band together #trolls branch #trolls john dory #trolls floyd #they're roommates now and they live in a sitcom #my art #trolls comic #i came up with this while walking the dog today #i kept repeating it in my head all the way home just so i wouldn't forget it #so much for enjoying a walk in the snow ajdbscbsdjhc

[cayliecoltrane]

quick lil ETHOwO redraw

#guys whgat the fuck was with todays video. #so much goofiness and at the end we got IRL PHOTO NUMBER 2 LIKE WHATTTTTTT #etho <3 #hc etho #hermitcraft #ethoslab #hermitcraft etho #ethoslab fanart #ethos lab #i just think hes neat #he is so chronically offline #also i played two shows this weekend and they were awesome #i live in new york and i did the math and according to my calculations 🤓🤓 2.6 of my followers live in the nyc area #so maybe next time i have a show ill post about it and 2.6 of my tumblr followers will show up????? ethUwU?? 🥺🥺🥺

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 4.5: Morning Period.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #mdzs au #Yunmeng Jiang training arc AU #This is 4.5 because it was originally all supposed to be part of the same comic #This part wasn't as punchy and I was close to scrapping it but I figured I'd at least give it a chance. #Despite the fact I already had it in pencils...cleaning it up took a very long time. Still hate it. Sunken cost fallacy enacted: It lives. #Okay quick commentary (I'm very late to post today) #While this is supposed to be a 'snapshot' of routine - Wei Wuxian slept in. Normally he is up earlier. #Meaning he delayed the dueling part of the day. Hence LWJ's hand gesture. #I also imagine that LWJ and JC have a bit more of a friendship in this AU since they spend a few hours in the morning sans WWX #I always enjoyed how JC and LWJ on paper seem like they would get along but Do Not in canon. Let me have a world where they do.

[curioscurio]

The worst part is that when fat people talk about their struggles with fatphobia they're expected to ALWAYS have a disclaimer saying "Body shaming of all kinds is bad uwu even skinny shaming we're all victims of the same caliber of a body shaming society!" Lest they be seen as one of those Mean Fatties who hate skinny people and thus DESERVE to be systemically seen as unhealthy and lazy by society. I shouldn't have to reassure you that, yes, if someone tells you to eat a burger they're being an asshole. because I'm too busy being told I should kill myself for looking like a whale lol

#also listen if youre young youre really lucky to grow up in the Thicc thighs save lives era because the world is much kinder to #to plus size folks today than they were when i was a teenager #its still not great but theres real options now besides $100 jeans from torrid. now theyre $60 :) #fatphobia

[payasita]

📝❌ unsatisfactory

#cult of the lamb #cotl #doodles #please help im gonna be up for hours waiting for my lighting assigmment to render #my ass missed yesterday's assignment on top of today's I'm gonna go LIVE in the DIRT #anyway. this is narilamb

[professorcalculusstanaccount]

You’re my favorite blog with an amazing costume and stellar art, so I hope to bestow upon you the small pleasure of asking you:

Trick or treat?

Thank you very much! I'm incredibly honoured to be your favourite blog! I know this is late but please accept this treat, happy belated Halloween!

#asks #fanart #tintin #adventures of tintin #captain haddock #archibald haddock #comic #halloween #trick or treat #i have no time to check for mistakes in this i will just have to live with them #haddock knows what a child is #i cant really imagine tintin and haddock celebrating halloween normally because it just wasnt really a thing in europe until very recently? #like im 24 and it was introduced here a little before i was born #halloween as it exists today is pretty american #i know a lot of people who arent that old who didnt even think about it growing up lol #i love halloween tho #it's a holiday that's purely optional and you can celebrate however you want it with whoever you want #alcohol tw

[aceofintuition]

He opened up the drawer and made himself a nest while I was at work one day

#I heard today os the day to share your chaos demons?? #Zira really living up to just enough of a bastard during this #Zira a cat #Sorry for inactivity lately I am getting ready to Move #caturday blazeathon #Chaos demon #Caturday

[crabsnpersimmons]

a little while ago @linafoxoficial challenged me to draw Sun as HUGE as i could so...

i'm taking it one step further (:<

i challenge y'all to draw Giant Sun

ALL AROUND THE WORLD!

i'll tag a few people, but there's no obligation! this is just some silly fun (:

@starriegalaxy @vacantfields @inkydoughnut @nikolliver @thatmooncake @normal-about-the-dca @oobbbear @sulfadimethoxine @cookiiemancer @cacaocheri @scribbyizback @ren-054 @endu115 @eggcromancer @ohno-the-sun @imclou @aquacomet @horrific-dunce @haruka-636 @zamjd @vodyaniks @ghosteii @strawberrytamii @cosmog-mcgee

and anyone else who wants to join!

it's okay if you're not used to drawing buildings and backgrounds, neither am i 😂

i did a little comic, but feel free to do whatever's most comfortable for you, as long as it's Giant Sun in all his anxious, big-nosed glory standing next to a landmark of some sort.

(PLUS, lina's birthday is coming up in May, so this is a like a fun little gift for lina as well!)

so here's lina's Giant Sun in... Toronto! 🇨🇦

now go! send Giant Sun across the globe!

#Giant Sun around the world! #world domination baby! #fnaf sun #fnaf dca #dca fandom #Giant Sun #i don't actually live in Toronto #i can't do the city life #but i go there for work often #i went today actually ha ha... #and i have absolutely been stuck in traffic because of a Blue Jays game #on multiple occasions #it's the worst #but the image of Giant Sun next to the CN Tower was too fun to pass up #crab art #traditional art #bright colours

[tei-to-tei]

December 5 - Solidarity

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | ...

#rottmnt #rise fanart #rise of the tmnt #rise leo #rise donnie #disaster twins #in reference to the dec4 early snack post: #yeeeah they were not napping in the living room *sigh* #really rushed im sorry today is horrible - i might redo this one someday (they got paint everywhere except on the paper shh) #this might be the last “turtle tots” one #idk what the hell i'm doing tbh #i can't believe i've doodled stuff 5 days in a row #daily challenges are so hard #really hoping i can keep it up just for my own sake <3 #teidoodle #tei's dec23

[shima-draws]

I’ve watched FMAB a thousand times but Greed’s death STILL gets me every fucking time. 1. Him realizing that Ling is going to get hurt and possibly killed by Father if Greed doesn’t leave his body, 2. Greed coming to terms with the fact that he’s definitely going to get killed by Father but he’s willing to make the sacrifice for Ling, and 3. Greed discovering that what he wanted was what he had the entire time, and that was true friends who would stick with him through thick and thin, who would share the same experiences and failures and triumphs and still love him despite his homunculus status. I’m so.

Also I’m SO pissed at the fact that Pride got to live but Greed didn’t. In my brain I kept saying “Well yeah I guess it makes sense for all of the homunculi to die bc they came from Father and HE has to die” but then I remembered that Pride LIVES and that makes me so salty. Out of all the homunculi Greed deserved to live the MOST AND I JUST. FUCKIGN.

#It’s been years and I’m STILL in denial #I’m living in my fantasy Soulmate GreedLingEd AU. Don’t fucking talk to me about canon #Anyway we finally finished FMAB today. My roommate absolutely LOVED it lol #But of course he would it is The anime of all time after all ;) #Shima speaks #FMA #FMAB #Fullmetal Alchemist #Greed #Ling Yao #Also it fucks me up EVERY time that Ed and Ling are the Last People Greed sees before he dies #The last people he looks at #The two people he cared about the MOST #AND. Greed’s death is what gave Ed the final push to defeat Father #Both he and Ling were DEVASTATED at Greed’s death and I’m. SO fucking normal about it #GODDD. God. G o d

[kanrix]

After getting back into Moral Orel recently, I stumbled onto your blog while going through the Clay tag and I have to say I love your art of him and the other characters so, so much! Imo I think you managed to capture the tone of the show (especially the vibes of the darker episodes) greatly through your shading and colouring, and it's always nice to see another Clay fan (regardless of how much of a dumpster fire he is, he's still my favorite and is cute so I'm at a crossroads)!

That said, after specifically coming across your househusband and single father drawings of his, I wanted to share an idea I've thought about for the past few days - the idea of Clay just being a single father to Orel alone without Shapey in the picture either bc Bloberta divorced him and left prior to the show started OR bc she died shortly after Orel was born and therefore didn't have Shapey with Stopframe to begin with - and how this would have affected the series overall.

I know this is kinda dark but after rewatching the series and seeing Clay's relationship with his own dad - I can't help but wonder if this would have screwed up Clay's own relationship with Orel even more so than it already is in canon - especially if Clay being the father of the year he is he blamed Orel for Bloberta's divorcing him/Bloberta's death. Additionally, I can't help but think about how Bloberta's not being there would have affected Clay's relationship with Stopframe early on too, you know?

Sorry for the long ask, I just wanted to see your thoughts on this after seeing how well you were able to capture Clay's character through your art; also, I hope you have a great day!

Oh anon, that's a bit hard to imagine. I don't exactly like the thought of killing bloberta off so she probably just got a divorce.

I don't think he's capable of going to "the next level" with Danielle, not yet at least.... But I think this allows for clay and Dan to see each other more often, even though he has to live with the dread that comes after he's more willing to "let go" around dan. The divorce hit him hard, obviously. He feels like it's shameful to also be "the woman" of the house, now that bloberta isn't there.

#ask #anonymous #moral orel #there's more stuff i could say but you know how it is #he already lives with too much shame and disappointment. sure he can go on and on with danielle but god forbid they actually kiss. #he does not want to add more to the pile #raghhh HED FIND MORE WAYS TO RUIN HIS life is what im saying #sigh. i really have to pull up the every clay puppington video #sorry fellas im not me today

[korolrezni-nikolai]

when i show up to a who’s the biggest lewis hamilton fan competition but nico rosberg is already there

#my man was whipped on live tv today #nico stand up !!! he’s just a man #he’s so down bad #nico rosberg #lewis hamilton #brocedes #f1 #formula 1 #f1blr #formula one #mercedes #mercedes amg petronas #toto wolff

[slavhew]

knights in pajama armor

#homestuck #hom3stuck #home24ck #home2t4ck #dave strider #karkat vantas #sollux captor #davekat #admin draws #fanart #and last of my cache. which i forgot to share yesterday bur WHATEVAR #labs almost over let me live. #actually i could post more pencil doodles later i did those in class today. lol #but for now this is the last of the digital stuff more or less #i was gonna fix up and do that last one proper but ion wanna. its doneeee #i am so. sleepy. and i did that first one at like 2 am months ago and it still is probably one of my best karkats so far #ms paint beloved for late night bullshittery #edit FUCK me i forgot to include this old doodle. beescakes solkats bewitched me ok i had to draw them

[bottombaron]

you know, i can handle a little bit of fun "Nandor is dumb" talk, but i have a net-zero tolerance for any implication that Nandor is not educated.

Nandor would have been incredibly educated in his lifetime.

even (or especially) as a soldier in the Islamic World. being a soldier was more like getting sent to boarding school that's also a military camp. they weren't just concerned with creating loyal fodder for war. they were building the next government officials, generals, accountants, advisors, etc. it was important that young men knew how to read, write, speak multiple languages, learn philosophy...sometimes even studying art and music was mandatory.

if he was nobility (and its most likely he was), take all that shit and multiply it exponentially. Nandor would have been reading Plato at the same age most people are still potty training. he would have been specifically groomed in such a way to not be just a brilliant strategist and warrior, but also diplomate and ambassador of literally the center of scientific and cultural excellence of the age.

so like yeah, he can be a big dummy sometimes, sure. but that bitch is probably more educated than any of us will ever be.

#wwdits #nandor the relentless #Nandor #what we do in the shadows #i think its obvious by how much Nandor loves to read that he grew up educated #it's one of my favorite character traits of his #anyways #this was just your local psa abt the depth of Nandor's character and intelligence #and how the medieval islamic world was like - so much more advanced than it's western counterpart it's hilarious how ppl mischaracterize it #(by hilarious i mean it makes me want to break something) #this was in my drafts lolol what did i read that made me vent this? idk #also 'islamic world' is just a term some historians use to describe a specific geographical location and historical age #kind of how 'western world' is used today #it doesn't mean it's specific to one religion or nation but the broader time and location #meaning that Al Qolindar or Persia or Ilkhanate or w/e you want to call where Nandor came from #the same expectations of education and it's vibrant social/cultural world remain an accurate image of the middle east in the medieval age #if you come from the west like me #think The Forum + The Library of Alexandria + Paris/Florence + and idk anything else u think of when u think of 'Western Excellence' #and then imagine of all of that in one place at one time and then u might get close to what the world Nandor was living in as a human