#✨childhood trauma✨

[apollo-zero-one]

Can we get some special love for middle children with eldest daughter syndrome. For whatever reason you had to be the big sibling to your elder sibling too. You had to grow up in the shadow of someone who you were also expected to be responsible for. You had to grow up extra-fast so you could be your elder sibling's guide and mentor and babysitter even though your family clearly favored them and they were given more opportunities in life. You have a weird slightly dysfunctional relationship with your elder sibling because of that.

You deserved to be a child too. You deserved to be seen. You deserved help. You deserved better. I hope you are able to find a place where the only person you have to take care of is yourself. You shouldn't have to carry your whole family forever.

#eldest daughter syndrome #middle child #✨childhood trauma✨ #childhood trauma

[myersesque]

the "that was kinda fucked up" to "woah. jesus. what the fuck. that was really fucked up" pipeline is real. can someone invent time travel so i can wrap 13 yr old me in bubblewrap rq

#✨childhood trauma✨ #the startling realisation that ur NOT a terrible person u were just a DUMB TRAUMATISED MENTALLY ILL CHILD #but that comes w the BONUS EXTRA-STARTLING REALISATION that OH FUCK #THAT MEANS IT WAS FUCKED UP THE *OTHER* WAY #like damn. what the fuck /lh #og #vent

[the-fandom-abyss]

I think you should tell her that she doesn't have a say in what you're given to. Because if someone tells me that I'm the bad guy for getting given a day off because it 'fucked their week' I would tell them off for calling me the bad guy for being given a day off.

She demanded I change it to the Friday because she will be home that day. And if my work can give me that day off well they can surely change it to the Friday.

I would love to have the confidence that you have. In situations like this, I shut down. I often forget to reply because when confronted, I forget how to speak, my mind goes blank and I seem to just comply. I don’t know how to do it, I wish I could.

#anon #I need confrontation lessons #the more I think about it #the more I start to think #✨childhood trauma✨

[essenceofarda]

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#still think abt the time an (adult) male relative told me (when i was 10) that I 'needed to lose weight or no man would ever find me sexy' #which IDK feels like a shitty thing to say to anyone but especially a girl who had yet to even reach puberty lmao #and who wasn't even That overweight at the time Nor had body image issues until that moment going forward lol #ironically... I ended up having some ED issues and gained a bunch of weight from then on #mainly bc i had some CSA trauma in my early childhood way before that conversation so I internalized the idea #that if I was fat no man would give me unwanted attention #however... this thought process (on top of other things) led me to believe for almost my entire life that no man would find me attractive #or like me or love me at ALL unless I either lose a bunch of weight and maybe not even then #which is kinda why I'm overall uninterested in men even if the attraction is technically there? #I lost interest in even male Friendships tbh bc i internalized this idea that no man would be interested in me even platonically 🤔 #anyway. just something I'm working through in therapy but every once in a while I wonder why it's so hard for me to lose weight #and then I remember... ah yes.. '✨trauma✨' lol #funky's personal tag #delete later probs #anyway. I can't really talk about this stuff easily outside of therapy irl so I just be yelling into the void sorry guys :(

[mydarlingdahlia]

Someone yell at me and tell me that I’m deserving of love bc I don’t think I am in the slightest

#charlotte rambles #this is so random #but it’s true #i’ve always been convinced that i’m nothing and not deserving of other’s love #even if i was told otherwise #the perks of ✨childhood trauma✨

[going-to-superhell]

The fact that I apologise whenever I ask a question properly isn’t normal

#that’s called ✨childhood trauma✨ #‘it’s okay to ask’ NO THE FUCK IT ISNT #t r u m a I have trauma and I’m gay #unintelligible gremlin noises

[char4925]

I’m generally surprised there’s basically no angsty stuff for ddv. Like there’s SO much potential, Mickey’s missing wife, memory loss, loneliness, lost hope, guilt, etc! Like ESPECIALLY the mc, they literally abandoned & forgot about their kingdom full of people who are trapped, lost some/a lot of their memories, people being gone (not dead but you can get them back), not to mention the condition the valley itself is in when you get there. The player’s gonna feel a whole lot of guilt for what they did, possibly trying to overwork themselves due to them trying to “make up for it” (they’re already doing enough to make up for it). They do this to the point that everyone’s incredibly concerned for their wellbeing (including the villains!), so when someone finds the ruler passed out the ones who have been there longer would nonchalantly would carry them/find someone to carry them to their house while the newer ones would be very confused as to why they’re so nonchalant about their ruler being passed out (maybe even dead). The last part would hilarious but the rest is just pure angst.

#dreamlight valley #disney dreamlight valley #disney #ddlv community #ddlv #ddv #angst #My player oc Zakia would 100000% overwork herself so often that residents are used to it #she has a different type of ✨trauma✨ #the rest of my main character/protag ocs (who I play as in their respective games) be out here fighting what are basically gods #being betrayed #& saving the world while she overworks herself to death bc she feels bad about leaving a bunch of fictional characters #in a place that is basically a metaphor of childhood imagination #she has a trauma related reason for it but STILL #lot of tags bc of character limit #Also all of protag oc’s lore of their respective games change to fit their backatory & character #like Abbott (PSMD protag) isn’t & never was human #just came from a world with humans

[superspoonie24]

Anna: *is neglected and abandoned for majority of her life, starting at like age 5*

Anna: *runs into someone who actually sees Her and notices Her and doesn't act like she's invisible or a burden for the first time in over a decade*

Anna: hey sister I desperately want to notice me and will accept even the tiniest bit of attention from, here is a man I just met that is, *checks notes*, actually talking to me. I'm going to marry him.

Elsa: that's ridiculous! You just met him.

Anna: ~~yeah and in the few hours I've been with him he has talked to me more than you (or anyone else really) have in like 13 ish years~~ Oh haha yeah but like... I Know him and he's a prince!

Elsa: No. I don't approve.

Anna: ~~who the hell are you to approve??? You. Don't. Talk. To. Me.~~ Oh. Uh. Well can we talk about it? (Definitely is not desperate and terrified to lose the tiniest shred of a shred of a relationship she has with her sister) *Reaches out for the attention and affection she is so starved of*

Elsa: *freaks out, reveals giant secret, runs away*

Anna: holy *shit*... I gotta go make sure she's okay!! ~~I gotta make sure I don't lose her.~~

Anna: *goes after Elsa and gets shamed by another stranger for A going after her and B 'falling for a man she just met'*

Elsa: *rejects her more and tells Anna she is better off without her*

Anna: *heartbroken cause the last member of her family, the person she idolizes and so desperately wants love from, Keeps Rejecting Her.*

Anna: *leaves heart broken ~~and heart frozen~~ to go back to the only person this whole night who has shown her undivided 'love', attention, care, affection*

Hans: *is an asshole out of no where????*

Anna: *heartbroken AGAIN because she really can't trust anyone and maybe it's her own fault she's so unlovable.*

Elsa: *Is gonna be killed*

Anna: *is on the brink of literal death and when it comes to going after the stranger who is actually pretty nice and kind and likes her for her and treats her with respect vs the person who she has longed for her entire life even though she keeps pushing her away, she goes after her sister because despite it all she still wants Her love, hell just her Attention above anything else.*

The movie: This is true love 🥰

Me, definitely not projecting my own life onto this at twelve: Hold up this hurts a lot and I relate to these characters wait-

My sister: This movie is mine and only I get to sing and only I get to love it cause it's mine. But if you sing it perfectly and never mess up any of the words or notes I guess I'll let you watch with me.

Me: Really???? 😍🥺🥰🥺😍

...

Okay so this was going to be a critique about how Anna is seen as naive and dumb and it is used against her the entire movie without ever acknowledging *why* she's like that. And how a lot of fans don't see it either. But then it really just turned into me trauma dumping lmao.

But seriously. I feel like most of the neglect and abuse talk ends up being towards Elsa cause she visibly struggles more. And Anna hides it because she has to. Her parents were so worried about elsa that they didnt have time for her pain too. So it's hidden. But it is most definitely there. And it deserves to be mentioned and talked about.

Also this is a very common situation for emotionally neglected people to find themselves in. They cling onto someone showing the slightest bit of decency and believe it's good and amazing cause when you're starved, you'll eat poison if it might help for just a moment. Cause something is better than nothing. And when the something is bad and hurting, the pain of going back to nothing is worse. So you're stuck with a Hans believing it's what you deserve because of years of neglect and abuse.

But yeah. Anna is just dumb and naive. Definitely no trauma on her end.

Bottom line:

Anna deserves better. In canon and from fandom. And ESPECIALLY from Disney.

#frozen #frozen 2 #anna #anna of arendelle #elsa #anna and elsa #disney #movie analysis #disneys frozen analysis #neglect #abuse #childhood neglect #child abuse #emotional neglect #hans sucks #trauma dumping ™ #✨ p r o j e c t i o n ✨ #projection #man this isn't even talking about her desperation in the second movie EXCEPT OH WAIT THEY CUT THOSE SONGS CAUSE FUCK ANNA'S DEVELOPMENT #HAHAHAHAHA IT'S ALL ABOUT ELSA AND ANNA IS JUST A SPARE #SHE'S THE SPARE QUEEN NOW THAT ELSA HAS RUN OFF #can't wait to see how they butcher frozen 3 #can you tell I'm mad? #aly vents

[widevibratobitch]

omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee

#and i still havent texted my friend back even tho she texted me a week ago and i told her ill text her back this week when i have the time #and i DO have the time. im just fucked in the head and the prospect of having a conversation with another person where i again #have to pretend im not at the very brink of a serious mental and emotional breakdown. is making me lose my fucking mind #ik she's having a bad time rn and she needs the reassurance and jesus fucking christ i tried i had two long conversations with her #that were allllll about her. only her. not a single word about me. that's fine. this is what people need in such moments right #to just get patted on the head and hugged and told their suffering is real and what happened to them is unfair and just made to feel #that for a moment they're the centre of attention and it is all about them. this is normal. this is why therapy exists. #so i try to give this to her but it is fucking draining. and i NEVER get the same treatment back. like she caught me crying at uni last week #and like yes she'll say some nice things but she'll always find a way to turn the conversation back on the topic of ✨her✨ #like we started talking about my therapy and i finally got to actually say a word or two about what im dealing with. but then she goes #'yeah im just trying to figure out what's wrong with me when i listen to you haha like i could never cut myself cause it looks ugly. #ofc it doesnt look ugly on you haha but i could never lol' #like thanks haha good to know ill just shut up then and steer the conversation back onto you why dont i. i mean its not like #i spent over an hour a few days back sitting with you and listening to your talk about your childhood and validating you and not saying #a word a single fucking word about myself even tho i was also going through it myself but who cares right. and now im the bad guy again #because im not texting back. #i feel like im finally fucking snapping cause at this point im properly fucking angry. IM having a bad time too. IM going through it too. #I have bad coping skills and had a fucked up childhood and traumas in my life TOO and im allowed to just not be able to handle it #i really wanna break something lol maybe therapy's working after all lmao #oh also this is why i dont eat breakfast. i do it once and then feel guilty and suicidal lol normal behaviour #pojebie mnie zaraz przysięgam na boga mam dość kurwa BASTA

[empyrangel]

Been trying to convince myself that I’m not traumatized by parents and that I don’t have mommy issues, but I decided to re-read pjo in honor of the casting of the show.I got to the page in tlt where Percy went home for summer break and was talking about how great his mom was and how much she cared for him, and I have to admit, I don’t think it’s normal to start crying when reading a couple pages of a character having a good relationship with their mother.

#traveler from another world ✨ #percy jackson #pjo #pjo tlt #the lightning thief #sally jackson #trauma #childhood trauma #mommy issues

[thatonebasicfan]

About to put a 10 year old Harry through the wringer.

#a.k.a i'm writing whump #and it's a lot #i would just like to clarify that i have always had a good childhood before this whump fic gets published #harry however #did NOT have a good childhood #and sirius is about to grab his wand and webley and ruin the dursleys #fanfic #harry potter #✨trauma✨

[inkandarsenic]

Something about the fluffy family moments between the Cuthberts always makes me tear up.

#i know what it is #it’s the trauma #they all love each other #so much #somehow #I don’t think I ever had that #always felt like I was #kind of a burden #not really wanted #childhood trauma #makes everything #✨SPICY✨ #anne with an e #anne shirly cuthbert #marilla cuthbert #matthew cuthbert #Cuthbert family #Anne with an e Netflix

[buck-n-dots]

🚒 fandom: 9-1-1

🦋 characters: evan "buck" buckley

🍓 regular tags: teen dad evan "buck" buckley, teen pregnancy, trans male character, trans evan "buck" buckley, implied evan "buck" buckley has BPD - borderline personality disorder, implied hypersexuality

❗ warning tags: implied noncon, implied childhood sexual abuse, referenced underage, slut shaming, implied/referenced physical abuse, implied/referenced child abuse

✏️ words: 224

💛Reblogs and replies mean the world to me!!!!💛

He could not believe it. Even though the pregnancy test, with its little lines, was right in front of him on the bathroom counter, he could not believe it. Him? A dad? Who- Who was the other father? Was Evan really so much of a slut that he was the kind of person who couldn't remember who he'd had one night stands with?

He feels sick to his stomach. He can't let Maddie or his parents find out, not under any circumstance. They'd cut him off and kick him out, especially if they found out he slept with people older than him. Way older. And-

It's not like they care anyway, something seems to say.

And Maddie had left with Doug, had abandoned Evan, so that means Evan is... alone. Alone with a child he recklessly concieved. Alone with an uncaring, alcoholic mother and a physically abusive father.

He'll have to tell them if he wants to stay off the streets. He's 15. They... They can make him get rid of the baby, but... Evan finds he doesn't want to give up the child growing inside of him.

He gently presses a hand to his stomach. "It's just going to be me and you, baby," he whispers, fear dripping from his words.

Evan hides the pregnancy for only another month before everything falls apart.

#911 show #evan buck buckley #911 fox #911 fanfic #🦋 clown car.txt #📃 fic showcase #trans #trans writers #trans evan buckley #writers on tumblr #first fic? first fic #fanfic #fanfiction #whump #angst #✨ uh oh! childhood trauma! ✨ | bad buckley parents fics #🔪 comfort? what comfort?

[un-pearable]

📁 UM um fiona 🙏

fiona my oft-neglected beloved…. i think she and mina mongoose have a History. there was something. not necessarily on either side of platonic or romantic but they had some wacky sonic comic adventure off screen sometime after fiona ditched the freedom fighters and mina was on tour w/o ash,, let mina get some of her frustration out and be a little morally gray for funsies and let fiona have girl friends. or girlfriends. both is good. it didn’t last but they know each other and absolute No One gets why

#this is both bc i think they could relate to each other but not be enough for each other #and also be feminism. they both deserve a less shitty dynamic. they aren’t Friends Friends but there’s an understanding between them #i want mina to be morally gray. i want fiona to have her own network of people she knows across every shade of archie’s fucked up morality #i. i get the feeling i’ve talked about this before??? have i??????? i need to reread archie so bad. anyway point being Girls. like them. #we are ignoring the questionable relationship with tails in both situations i am talking purely from a ‘trauma from my childhood shaped by w #ar and getting dragged into a conflict i was unprepared for’ level of relatability #archie sonic #text✨ #ask game #fiona fox

[triforce-of-mischief]

Fanfic Ask - B, Q, V

Sweet Hylia I answer one ask and another pops up! /j

B (Any of your stories inspired by personal experience?): Absolutely! Bunny Bumps and Bruises is like 90% based on something that happened to me that day. Sicktember Day 11 is a mashup of me going to the ER for pneumonia when I was like 8 and me going to the ER recently and remembering how much being in a hospital freaks me out. And then I dumped it all on poor Lege. 💜

Q (Do you have any discarded scenes/storylines/projects?): Probably that Zack and Wiki crossover fic I told Dragon about.

V (A secondary (or underrated) character you want to see more of in fic?): Hmm I think in this fandom we're pretty well balanced? I could always use more Ravio though.

#fable writes #fable gets personal #fable's asks #chatting with squiggles! #I feel like I keep needing to say this (bc social anxiety) but I dont have anything against healthcare workers /gen #I have a lot of respect for healthcare workers #I'm just a civilian with trypanophobia and a lil bit of childhood trauma that never got addressed ✨

[austerulous]

Sorry for going quiet.  It has been a Week™.

#( rant warning here there is no obligation to read these tags ahjgwf ) #highlights include: #✨ my daughter biting / lacerating her tongue ✨ #( it wasn't even an accident - she was literally thrown by my friend's son ) #( the incident shook me up there was so much blood pouring out of her mouth all over her beloved plushie bunny and all over my clothes ) #( the situation was handled so poorly by my friend and her son that it's got me questioning the whole friendship ) #( her nonchalant unapologetic reaction reeked of ' boys will be boys ' and that makes me go feral ) #( i'm happy to report my daughter is fine now and her tongue is healing beautifully though we were worried she would need stitches ) #✨ me thinking i was going to lose my job ✨ #( i had a meeting on tuesday where i had to defend my role within the company ) #( which was easy because i do everything around here ) #( sales! customer service! office admin! import documentation! hr! all this in two days a week ) #( my job appears secure but i've kind of fallen out of love with it now ) #✨ my dad unhinging at my son for no good reason ✨ #( which not only frightened the little chap but also brought my own childhood trauma bubbling to the surface ) #( my dad apologised to me yesterday and showed genuine remorse for his behaviour ) #( hi my name is puffin i'm 33 years old and my father has never apologised to me for anything so this took some processing ) #✨ marital discord ✨ #( not going to elaborate on this much but i carry the team at work and i carry the team at home and i'm just so tired ) #anyway!! #friday is my work-free child-free day so i hope to be around #i have a few more smooch asks to send #i want to answer those kink asks and reply to dms #i'm not ignoring anyone i'm just 🥴 trying to survive #on the bright side our swallows have returned and are rebuilding their nest in the garage #and i have done some work in the garden and it's looking lovely #there's a long way to go but baby steps still count #ilu all and i hope you're having a good week so far ♡ #take no shit do no harm be kind to yourselves #◈ — ooc; puffin speaks