#'it's not that i'm illiterate' me when i lie

[balfiere]

#ishin spoilers #yakuza ishin spoilers #like a dragon ishin spoilers #yakuza #yakuzaedit #yakuza ishin #like a dragon ishin #okita soji #majima goro #ryu ga gotoku #龍が如く #gamingedit #dailyvideogames #dailygaming #mine #'it's not that i'm illiterate' me when i lie

[reiderwriter]

✍️Introduction and Masterlist✍️

About me: Hi! I'm Kacie, I'm 21, and I use she/her/any pronouns. I'm from the UK but I'm currently an English Teacher in South Korea (if you want to know more I'm totally open to conversations about it!) and this is my side blog, so I follow and respond to comments from @studykac

Writing: At this point in time. I only write for Spencer Reid. I will pass on any requests that focus on other characters because I don't currently write for them. A lot of my work is also NSFW. If you are under the age of 18, do NOT interact with any of my posts that are tagged #maturereiding - please block this tag!! When my requests are open you can request through the Ask box, or through DMs, but please keep in mind I do have a full time job, so I will do my best to get things out quickly. You can find my recommendations in the tag #reiderrecommends!

Other interests: kpop, especially Seventeen, SHINee, NCT and BTS, Criminal Minds (obv), NCIS, reading any genre of books (here's a link for my GoodReads page), Percy Jackson, languages (learning Korean currently!), English Literature, Jane Austen etc.

Requests are: CLOSED (open again in October) - find my request guidelines here!

Writing:

Spencer Reid x Reader NSFW

Everyone Looks Better in a Sundress // 3.8k

Summary: The AC at the BAU decides to take a holiday during a summer heatwave, and when you decide the FBI’s dress code is merely a suggestion, you unwittingly catch Spencer’s eye.

Warnings: Dom!Spencer, sub!reader, semi-public sex, fingering, car sex, degradation, name-calling, edging, praise-kink, dumbification

Everyone Looks Better in a Sundress pt. 2 // 2.4K

Summary: After a hot encounter in your car, Spencer pulls you inside your apartment hoping to give you some more relief from the heat.

Warnings: Dom!Spencer, sub!Reader, soft Dom, oral (M receiving), pet names, degradation, face fucking, messy sex, creampie, breeding kink

Margaritas and Mistakes // Part 1 // Part 2

Summary: On a group night out, you get a little more drunk than you want to, and when Spencer shows up looking like the love of your life and not just your coworker, you realise that the margarita’s are having more of an effect than they should be.

Warnings: Suggestive language, dirty talk, heavy petting, hickeys, making out, mentions of arousal etc. (part one)

Show You What Devotion Is ❤️‍🔥

Summary: After a lustful encounter on the jet, you and Spencer decide to try out a friends-with-benefits relationship. What you didn't expect was for his sex drive to be so high, and your need for him to overpower your ability to function properly.

Warnings: So many, check the post for details.

More Than Words 🫶 // 8k

Summary: After telling a white lie to your family about your relationship status, you're forced to ask your coworker Spencer to pretend to be your boyfriend for a weekend wedding.

Warnings: Mostly fluff, penetrative sex, creampie, mentions of Spencer's childhood.

The Us That Could've Been 💔 // 5.7k

Summary: They say to get over a man, you have to get under another. Spencer isn't sure why the idea of you doing just that makes him feel so bad.

Warnings: angst, unprotected sex, creampie, spoilers for season 8, mentions of Maeve, Spencer is emotionally illiterate etc.

Unhappy Holidays 👻🦃🎄🎆// 5k

Summary: You're unlucky enough to run into Spencer Reid at holiday celebrations four years in a row. In the New Year, you're resolving to rid him from your mind forever, but you never were one to stick to resolutions 👻🦃🎄🎆

Warnings: Enemies to lovers, low-key work rivals, semi-public sex, car sex, hate sex, fingering, thigh riding, creampie, unprotected sex (no condoms but contraceptive mentioned), slight spoilers for s4 of Criminal Minds (but not really).

Spencer Reid x Reader SFW

The Lightbulb Moment // 4.8k

Summary: You want Spencer all to yourself for the first few months of your relationship and he's only too happy to comply. Unfortunately, you're two dumbasses who can't keep their hands off one another.

Just Hanging Out // 3k

Summary: To kick off your vacation, you find yourself at Rossi's mansion with your team for a big summer barbeque. A hammock in the garden catches your eye, and you enlist Reid to help you have some fun in the sun.

(Not smut but highly suggestive, read at your own discretion).

Isn't She Pretty, Daddy? // 2k

Summary: You're a teacher, and you have to call in one of your students' parents to talk about their recent troubling behaviour. It's more embarrassing than you thought when Spencer Reid shows up.

Series

That's What You Get // complete 💕

Summary: After three weeks on a case in Vegas and a particularly draining phone call from your mother, you decide to take Reid up on his offer to show you the sights of Las Vegas. When you wake up the next morning, you realise that one of the sights was a 24hour Wedding Parlor, and that you're now Mrs Reid.

Genres: Fluff, smut in later chapters, angst in later chapters, happy ending.

Playlist: Me and You in 2024

Summary: One song fic a week throughout 2024!

Genres: Various, check individual chapters for specific warnings!♡

Answered Requests

(NSFW) Request inspired by Taylor Swift's False God 🙏// 2.2k

(NSFW) Request for a soft!Dom Spencer with cockwarming and breeding kink 💕 // 2k words

(NSFW) Request for Reader introducing vanilla!Spencer to a BDSM lifestyle ✨// 0.7k words

(SFW) Request for Reader kidnapped by unsub and saved by Spencer 💕 // 2.2k

(SFW) Request for pregnant Reader and Spencer who is an absolute fool for her 🌸 // 1.2k

(SFW) Request for shamelessly flirting with an oblivious Spencer 😊// 2k

(NSFW) Request for post-Maeve Spencer who uses sex as a coping mechanism 🫡//4.6k

(NSFW) Request for alt!sub!Reader meeting the team for the first time (and they totally think she's the Dom) 🤭// 1.5k

(NSFW) Request for CNC office sex with Spencer 🚫// 1k

(SFW) Request for Spencer finding out you knew Emily was alive 😿// 0.7k

(SFW) Request for training session with Spencer 🤼‍♀️// 1.8k

(SFW) Request for I Can See You inspired angst 🥺// 1.7k

(NSFW) Request for Spencer making the reader beg for it ❤️‍🔥// 1.6k

(NSFW) Request for CNC with soft!Dom Spencer - shower sex 💦// 1.3k

(NSFW) PROMPT REQUEST - Professor Reid doesn't know he's distracting the class 👓// 3k

(NSFW) Request for Sub!Spencer begging reader to dominate him 🫣// 1.7k

(NSFW) Request for Genophobic virgin!Reader ❤️‍🩹// 5k

(NSFW) Request for Professor Spencer with a jealous gf 🐺//2k

(SFW) Request for reader helping Spencer through recovery 🤕// 1k

(NSFW) Request for possessive Spencer reacting to your little black dress 💃// 2.5k

(NSFW) PROMPT REQUEST - Undercover with an "excited" Spencer 🕵‍♂️// 3.6k

(SFW) Request for playing video games with Spencer 🎮// 1k

(NSFW) PROMPT REQUEST - munch! Spencer is obsessed with you 👅// 2k

(SFW) Request for Spencer babying an oblivious reader 👶// 2k

(NSFW) PROMPT REQUEST - sharing a cold bed with Frenemy Spencer 🛌// 3.5k

(NSFW) Request for reader being distracted while Spencer is reading 📚// 1k

(NSFW) Request for Pillow fort sex with Spencer ⛺️// 2k

(NSFW) Request for car confession and oral with Spencer 🚗// 1.7k

(NSFW) Request for dancing the night away with Spencer 💃// 2.5k

(NSFW) Request for the morning after Spencer loses his V-Card 😶// 0.7k

(NSFW) Request for reader confessing to Spencer when he's in his anthrax shower 🚿// 0.7k

(NSFW) Request for Spencer finding readers unusual sensitive area 🤝// 3.5k

(NSFW) Request for Spencer and Hotch!Reader secret relationship 🤐// 6k

(SFW) Request for reader being jealous of Spencer and Lila 🤽‍♀️// 2.1k

(NSFW) Request for gun kink 🔫//3k

#spencer reid #spencer reid x reader #criminal minds #reiderrecommends #spencer reid fanfic #Masterlist #criminal minds fanfiction

[brewed-pangolin]

I'm sorry if I got you sick, I promise it ends at some point (maybe, probably).

For your brain chemistry pleasure, Captain Soap Mactavish would 100% act all stoic and emotionless most of the time.

But imagine the times when that shell breaks.

You two curled up in bed, you ranting about something mundane. Except it's a full body, "let me flail to show you just how annoyed I am" rant. He finds it endearing, cracks a small smile and cuddles you closer.

(And the "ITS NOT CUTE, IM BEING SERIOUS JONATHON")

I'm not gonna lie, I had a bit of fun with this one. Had to add a dash of brat taming at the end because it just felt right.

Hope you like it 💛

You had hit your wits end the moment your body sank into the bed.

Every stress, every snarky comment, every disgruntled maneuver that was thrown at you came bubbling up to the surface as the soft cushion of your mattress molded to your frame.

Leaning back into the array of pillows set around you and the strong arm of your John draped over your torso, you let loose. Released the levee of a pent-up rant as he laid silent and stoic as ever at your side.

"Today was awful, John. Just awful. The second I walked into the office, my boss was already breathing down my neck. Pressuring me with his usual bullshit, reminding me of the deadline like I can't see the calendar hanging behind my desk, and constantly interrupting my progress like he's got nothing better to do.."

You paused. Taking a much needed deep breath in a desperate attempt to calm your nerves.

John's arms tighten ever so slightly around your waist, and he leans in further, yet you pay no mind to his glacial encroachment.

The sudden air flow only fueled the fire of irritation as the demon inside took over once more and continued on with your raging tirade. Arms flailing, accentuating every syllable as your expression grew steadily more cantankerous.

"Then, when I was at the store, I asked an attendant where the baking section was because they clearly renovated and moved every aisle around. To which this disrespectful little twat waffle told me 'open my eyes and read the signs' like I'm some illiterate moron.."

Another breath. Stoke the embers. And release the demonic presence of aggravation within until fully cleansed.

John's eyes lit up at your relentless attack on the events of the day. A smile curling into the corners of his lips, running his fingers along the curve of your hip that you completely ignored as you continued with your verbal and seething regurgitation.

"And to top it all off, while on my way home, I got cut off by an absolute monstrosity of a truck that was clearly driven by a man making up for something. Nice truck, sorry about your dick and you drive like an ignoramus kind of man. And.."

You halted. Voice catching the cage of your throat as his hand gripped into the flesh of your hip.

Your eyes cast down to meet his bright and albeit boyish gaze as he stared up with endearing contentment.

"John. What are you doing?" You ask. Irritated bite to your bellowing bark.

"Ye so cute when ya let loose, m'lass. Cannae help but admire ya."

His soothing timbre at complete odds with the emotional blaze rippling off your tongue. Which only furthered your enraged fire, feeling is ripple beneath your skin and culminate within the depths of your lungs.

"I'm serious, John. Why are you being so obtuse. I'm-"

"Obtuse?" He interjects. Faltering your angered resolve with a single word.

His authoritative persona extinguishing the blaze within as he pulls you down into the bed, tearing an exasperated gasp from your chest as hemoves to cage you underneath his hulking frame.

"Perhaps yer in need of a little attitude adjustment, yeah? Need ta release tha' pent up demon a'yers in a different way, hm?"

"John, I-"

"Nah, m'lass. Not John-"

His rumbling voice traveled like a tremor through the thick density of your bones. And his eyes pierced your soul to easily pull back the rigid curtain of your fiery will.

"I'm yer Captain fer tonight. An' I'm gonnae tame tha' fiery beast a'yers. Understood?"

You nod in response. Finding comfort in his command underneath him as he tore your aggression away with every steely nuance to his words.

"Need ya t'say it, m'lass." He advised sternly. Settling himself between your legs, pulling the faintest whimper from between your lips.

"Yes, sir."

"Good. Now let yer Captain take care a'ya."

And thus began the taming of your fiery attitude that ended with a broken headboard and an overly satiated mouthy beast.

Captain MacTavish Masterlist

#super soap sunday #soap squad™️ #asked and answered #the brainrot of Captain MacTavish #cuddles to brat taming #this man can do it all #captain mactavish #captain soap mactavish #og soap #mw2 soap #captain mactavish x you #captain mactavish x reader #og soap x you #og soap x reader #cod fanfic #cod soap fanfic #call of duty #cod #macravishedbymactavish

[demetris-cocksleeve]

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This bitch on tiktok was arguing with me about creepypasta (dont ask. idk why it's on my fyp either, I left that fandom when I was 16).

It was about people mixing CRPs and Marble Hornets and changing Brian and Tim into Slenderman's (The Operator's) proxies rather than his enemies as they are in Marble Hornets.

He was tryna tell me that if you mix them together and change it like that, you are "media illiterate" and are "uneducated in fandom culture." Let's get one thing straight - Marble Hornets did not create The Operator. The Operator is literally just Slenderman renamed. Sorry, not sorry to break it to anyone who didn't know; you've had over a decade to watch it. Slenderman was one of the OG creepypastas that blew up. It's not even a different version of him in the series. It's just exactly him with a different name.

So (and correct me if I'm wrong) (I'm not), that makes Tim (Masky) and Brian (Hoodie) a creepypasta's enemies.

WHICH MEANS THEY ARE TECHNICALLY CREEPYPASTA OCS AND THEREFORE YOU CAN HAVE A SILLY LIL HEADCANON THAT THEY ARE HIS PROXIES.

It's technically not even mixing fandoms, bc, again, Slenderman is a CRP, and Marble Hornets uses Slenderman as the main villain, meaning Marble Hornets is basically a CRP web series.

Now...

I grew up watching Marble Hornets while simultaneously loving creepypasta stories. But even though I knew they were different veins of a similar subject, I still enjoyed the silly little stories people made with them mixed like that.

Do I mix them now that I'm an adult? No. But I'm not going to lie and say I never did. And I'm also not going to shit on people who still enjoy that dynamic.

It's not "mischaracterization" and it's not "media illiteracy". It's quite simply just having fun with different medias.

Mixing fandoms is, like, a large aspect of the fandom world.

An example based on the first fandom I started writing for: MHA. A pretty popular au for it is Spiderman despite them being vastly different medias.

It's just a small, fun thing that people do.

I know I'm rambling, and that this is out of left field. I just don't get why this man at his big age of 34 had to get so up in a tizzy about two fandoms (that I would argue are technically one fandom) being mixed together by a bunch of 10 year olds to the point of cursing people out and writing whole ass thesis papers in the comments on why he disagrees and that he's right and you're wrong because "how dare you have fun with the content you consume😡😤".

But that's just me.

#lackie lingo #<- rant edition #marble hornets #creepypasta #slenderman #the operator

[promise-you-doie]

Lee Sohee

just something that i pulled out my ass at 4 am in the morning. so if it’s good that that’s great. and if you hate it… that’s because i was delirious, and i wasn’t thinking straight. also there will be grammar errors. i’m illiterate. anwaysssss

Love was never on your agenda. But that’s how it always happens, love sneaks up on you when you least expect it. You accidentally come across the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. You spend hours and hours planning a future centered around them.

Only to watch it fall through the cracks, and leave you feeling hopeless.

That’s what it felt like meeting Sohee.

They told you love would be amazing, it’d make you feel like you were on top of the world. and it did for the first year, but then love became a disappointment. Long conversations turned into loud and aggressive arguments. kisses turned into spewing words of hate. Hugs began to feel like restraints. and love? actually it never changed.

“Tell me you don’t love me? Tell me you don’t still think about us.” He has a strong grasp around both of your wrists, and he’s staring into you even when you turn your face so you don’t have to see him.

“Don’t make this harder on me Sohee.”

“You’re the one making this hard.”

You sincerely wished you could just tell him what he was asking to hear. But you couldn’t, you couldn’t say it, as much as you wanted to. The words were choked up in the pit of your throat and you really couldn’t get it out.

“We weren’t good for each other before, we won’t be good now.”

“That's not what I asked.”

“I don’t have to give you anything.” you try your best to break out of his hold, but that didn't do any good. You fought until he had you pressed against the wall, with your arms above your head.

“Just answer the question, then I'll leave and i’ll never talk to you again.”

“why do you need to know?” you say trying to ignore the obvious answer.

“Because I can’t sleep, it keeps me up. you keep me up. all i can think about is you.”

hearing his explanation, melts you completely. you think that you’d be immune to it now. But he’s always made you feel this way, that’s how much you used to love him.

“I…” you start to confess, and see the way he watches you intently. waiting for you to finish.

“I.. can’t do this.” Why was it so hard for you to lie? “I can’t answer that.”

“why not?”

“I do love you sohee, okay. i can’t go back to the person i used to be before i met you and it kills me. I love you so much that I'm starting to hate myself. Why can’t I just stop? i have a boyfriend now and he’s great but he’s not you and i…” you don’t get to finish because you’re choking on your own tears.

“Love” was a really funny thing, it’s beautiful. it’s supposed to be, and it was at first but somehow it became so painful. like having a thousand rubber bands around your heart and it threatening to pop at any moment.

“Then let’s start over.” by now he’s released your arms and started drying your tears.

i might write this into an entire fan fiction. idk. if you read this thank you so much. i literally woke up out of my sleep to write this. so if it was bad, i warned you

#fluff #riize imagines #riize x reader #sohee x reader #drabbles #riize fluff #riize icons #riize #riize angst #riize smau #riize sohee #mental illness #sohee #lee sohee

[kozh-lucium]

Warning, a rant of BG3 fandom (and of astarion)

BG3 and Astarion stans TM (not normal fans, mind you) made me realize I'm too old for fandom like...this.

Idk if I'm just unlucky or something like that, but the amount of people who equates "nuance" with "let's go full genocide bcs it's fun and to troll wyll/karlach" is too damn high.

Aaaand not surprising, almost all of them are astarion stans tm. Look, I'm not saying all of astarion fans are like this, but forgive me for getting more and more uncomfortable with how some people are acting. So apparently I am not allowed to complain about how astarion keeps being a dick in act 1, but they're allowed to hate karlach and wyll so much because they're "goody two shoes"?

Sorry, it sounds like hypocrisy.

Just the other day i had a fight with several people, over discussion of Gandrel (the gur we met in the swamp). It's crazy for me how they feel the need to invent ridiculous just to justify killing him. I can respect if the reson if "It's more pragmatic" (I mean, i still disagree since we can just lie to him), I even respect more when someone said "lol i did it because I'm an astarion simp, I'll do whatever he ask me to". But to say that gandrel is an amoral character who needs to die because he will make a deal with the hag just to find astarion? Or that he doesn't have proof that astarion is hurting people?

Are these people serious??

It's extra ironic how one of them just before this claim that I imposed modern morality for finding their action to be not neutral, and that faerun being medieval dark fantasy setting is suppsed to be more lenient to evil actions, elyet in the same breath accusing an NPC as amoral for trying to strike a deal with the hag, enought that it's okay to kill him.

For some reason, to them, not liking evil run meams you're media illiterate and can't handle nuance.

Look, i can't handle it, i wouldn't enjoy witcher 2 writing and def. will stake astarion the first chance i got.

Sorry for the long rant. I'm super cranky right now. I hate edgelords like them.

#astarion #wyll #karlach #bg3

[journeytothewest-daily]

Hi! Some thoughts and questions about chapter 14;

Hurray! More Monkey! I was so happy when Sun Wu-k'ung showed up, because he felt like he was from a different genre with his explosive violence and wild boasts.

When Wu-k'ung jumped around and did flips and cartwheels in pain he reminded me a lot of a Looney Toons character, and I could imagine his whole body going red and steam shooting out of his ears

But was it not cruel of Tripitaka and Kuan-yin to lie to him and torture him? I thought Tripitaka's admonition of honesty would be a ruse, but those two seemed a little too willing to torture poor Monkey.

It was, however, very funny when he was asked not to kill people at the drop of a hat, and then journeyed a thousand miles to moan to the Dragon King that his teacher was doing his hole in. I work at a middle school, and that is exactly how any bold 13 year-old will react at being asked to follow basic rules for behavior! Ha ha ha!

I knew plums came in winter (at least, they flower in February and March in Japan), but what is the wild tea that supplants the dying lillies? Is it different from the mountain tea the woodcutter's illiterate wife made him?

I was going to ask why Tripitaka let the hunter and Wu-k'ung kill the tigers, but said that the bandits were off-limits even though all life is equal, but then I remembered that Monkey had sworn to be a Buddhist monk, and it's only fair to admonish him and not the hunter in that case...

Thank you for the encouragement to keep reading! I read 59 books last year and had some very slow periods, so it was very comforting to have a weird (or rather, unusual) book that I didn't have to finish before NYE. At a speed of one chapter per three days, we'll have plenty of time to finish this book this year, and I think I'll start Romance of the Three Kingdoms afterwards, since I've had it on my shelf since 2016! Belated merry Christmas and a happy new year to you!

But was it not cruel of Tripitaka and Kuan-yin to lie to him and torture him?

Yes, I agree with you, imho it was a bit unnecessary since he became convinced by the Dragon to work for him and not to abandon him.

but what is the wild tea that supplants the dying lillies?

I don't know :( My research wasn't fruitful on that.

Thank you for keeping up with the reading, I'm very grateful for your comments. We'll probably finish the book before 2025, as you say (I think, I am bad at maths hehe). I find it "relaxing" as well not to have a deadline to finish a book, and that's why I don't have a reading goal myself.

Happy new year :)

[ae-neon]

aren't you the person who called feyre a lapdog/child bride/breeding cow and mocked her for being illiterate?

i've seen a few posts from you talking about misogyny in the acotar fandom/series. while i agree is an issue that exists, i just don't think you're in any position to speak on it.

What's the best position to be in so I can address misogyny, anon? What are the qualifications necessary? How do I earn the right to address misogyny?

Lapdog and breeding cow don't sound like me so maybe you saw that somewhere else cause I don't think I ever said that

I said Feyre is illiterate because she is? It's a whole ass plot point in the books. Did I lie?

Maybe you were offended by the time I said some fans are as illiterate as she is? (mostly meaning media literacy) You can take personal or general offense to that if you want, I have no right to tell you otherwise

I also said she's a child bride because she's barely an adult when she gets married to a 500 year old man who is among the oldest High Lords in Prythian. Again, canon, sooo??

You're right, this book is full of misogyny, and this fandom is too that's why you came here to try to tell me to shut up right?

I can't speak on the real life negative effects of misogyny in literature because I was mean to your fictional fave???

You acknowledge the misogyny in this bestselling children's book but you're more worried about what I might have said on my personal blog...

What's the position I need to be in to speak on misogyny? Discount my race, gender and the fact that I live in a country with a high gender based violence and femicide rate and quickly explain what about me is so unqualified to speak on misogyny

I'm in the position to speak on it because I can and I want to. And I can be a foul mouthed bitch while doing it if I want to

Sorry to break it you anon but calling Feyre a dog or a cow or fucking goose wouldn't negate anything else I've said

So unless the zen diagram of white feminists, misogynists and people like you is a circle whyyyy did you think coming here to tell me I couldn't or shouldn't address misogyny was the move???

Please don't piss me off lmao

#anon asks #stans being stans #anti dumb bitches

[gayskogul]

So I would like all your thoughts on Andrew's letter at the end of The Charioteer....

If this is your way of saying "I know you just stand on the sidelines and never join in our discussions bitch. pspspsps lets talk about andrew," know that it's gonna work. Let me preface this with 1) I'm illiterate hehe and 2) I didn't do the re-read this year, and the last (and first!) time I've read TC was aug 2022. So this is gonna be me noting stuff down as I re-read the passage now. There will inevitably be some context and earlier moments I'm forgetting, sorry bout that.

So the first thing I'm noticing is that when Laurie disguises his letter with his paper, Mary's been kind enough to tell us that it's right next to a list of downed planes and lost pilots. Thanks for setting the tone, Mary! Now I know how this is gonna sting lol. Next, I notice that by god does Andrew ramble! After his introductory bit where he's saying he's tried writing a couple of times and is moving to London, the words really tumble over each other. It feels very verbal to me; he really writes like he speaks, doesn't he? But I'm guessing that's because he's anxious to put such dangerous thoughts on paper. He's just decked a fella, become disillusioned in his beliefs abt pacifism etc., admitting he has romantic feelings for another man, and quite overtly at that. And then he's like "I thought you felt the same", and that it's all confusing to sift through that without Laurie there ("I found I couldn't see things so clearly when I was alone"). It's all so... raw and earnest, which is just so Andrew imo. That said, him only snapping after Bunny taunts him about Ralph and Laurie's relationship is low key very funny but yeah- he's probably had these home of sexual thoughts swimming around, then had them plucked out of his heat and then thrown back at him by (who he thinks is) his love interest's boyfriend. That must have been mortifying to hear aloud, and it must have sucked to realise that Bunny's taunt was true. These couple of lines, "But it taught me something. The thing you want to kill is really in yourself", is so heartbreaking idk.

Then he goes on to say "ok cool im gay. i guess. my pacifism is a lie. Maybe it always was? anyway im gonna go throw myself under the worst of the blitz, thanks for the kiss." To which I think... girl, same. (stream of consciousness tangent: laurie why do all your boyfriends keep trying to off themselves? Can someone go check up on charles????) And then he's ending his letter begging Laurie to deny his relationship with Ralph and my heart just fully breaks for him. I know I'm notoriously sympathetic to Andrew but imagine writing that kind of thing in a letter to somebody! Something I hadn't remembered is how assertive he is that there's nothing happening between Laurie and Ralph. "Will you please tell me yourself that there is nothing in what he said about you and him? Of course I know there isn't." Now that I read this back, I reckon it has the potential to come off as quite arrogant, depending on how one feels towards Andrew. But then he writes, "But somehow it has got a hold on me; I can't get it out of my mind", and I swing towards thinking that oh noooo, he's so not coping. The whole thing is just kinda painful to read through - but it's such a strong read!

Fig. 1. August 25, 2022. A second plane his hit the Quakenation towers.

I think why Andrew's ending sits with me like a sad, little icy splinter in my heart is because I just feel bad for the poor guy. He basically falls in love with a man, and then quite rapidly undergoes loads of realisations about that (and other beliefs about himself), and then has them violently blow up on him. Then he kinda... doesn't really get any closure? Not that we can see in the text, anyway. Like who knows if Laurie ever does write, even if it's just to follow Dave's (cold imo) advice of writing to him "when you feel he's needing it, not when you feel you must".

I'm not sure if this is just a madman's ravings at this point, clutching at straws for a reading but it boils down to me acknowledging how difficult it can be to come to terms with your queerness (and most of us have got it much easier, comparatively), and I know Laurie knows that, and could probably have helped Andrew out. Let him know he’s not alone, or whatever. I'm not saying he should have ended up with Andrew romantically—nor does he have any obligation to do anything, really—but he's been in that place mentally fairly recently and he's just seen that Dave's a bit weird about it. Considering that he'd felt so strongly about Andrew, it's a bit of a bummer that he just goes along with what Dave says and heads off. It's very sweet and poetic to leave him the copy of the Phaedrus, but girl... how well adjusted did that make the other two, lmao. Ultimately, that might keep Andrew out of trouble, but we know he can be quite stubborn and I reckon it'll probably not make it much easier for him in the long run. Dave and Laurie keep trying to be so protective of him that he doesn’t really get a chance to do anything!

#ramblings #if ur gonna break up with your twink situationship #do it in person! #dont just invite him to the sisterhood of the travelling phaedrus copy #do u think Dave was ever like “yeah i was totally nailing ur dad kiddo”

[trifoliumaries]

I'm not gunna lie, I see those posts mocking people for not removing their cards when the card reader displays to do so (normally directed at older people, population known to more commonly have vision issues?), calling them illiterate and stupid and like.

I'm in my mid 20's but I have some sort of visual processing issue when it comes to text, I do sometimes take a fucking second to process what it says on the screen - like if its saying to NOT remove it or TO remove it - and those posts really make me feel like shit.

I get frustration over dealing with that at work, I used to be a cashier so I get it, but those posts suck sometimes actually. Please be nice to people.

#coda rambles #usually i leave this shit in drafts but i need to stop being such a fucking coward about speaking out loud

[jupitercomet]

Honestly, I'm not sure. I think jtldm Bradley was even worse. I mean, Rafe's at least behaving somewhat kindly, even if it's all a lie. But once I think of a way to give them points, I'm going to do that comparison.

And YES! We should totally put them in a Hunger Games simulator. I didn't even know those existed but it sounds perfect.

I'd love a Topper spin-off abnormally much. Do you think his cute little gf would be even remotely interesting in stuff that he is? Somehow I imagine him with a crystal girlie that's like - look! Rock shiny!🥺And she'd send him pics of like every animal she sees while going to uni. And she'd be so nice that she'd even listen to his finance 'I'm in love with Elon Musk' bullshit without complaining (a.k.a. the woman is a saint!)

Just read through the -🦋anon ask and I'm fully in support of changing the spelling of Makayla's name. She doesn't deserve a spell-able name. Like I need her to look at her ID every time she needs to spell her name (in this too rude?)

I think Rafe would absolutely hate the silent treatment. What do you mean his favourite girl denies him the pleasure of hearing her talk? He's going to his room to cry, excuse him for a bit. He'd be so numb, he won't even make fun of or even notice that Top is literally reciting bad poetry he wrote in an ode to crypto and Musk.

No, because I imagine Rafe secretly vibing to If We Ever Broke Up, and mumbling the 'if we ever broke up, I'd never be sad' as if he wouldn't be absolutely wrecked, listening to Taylor Swift on repeat for weeks wrecked.

oh that's true, but are we giving him "he was traumatized" points?. but yes, I'll definitely do a Hunger Games - do I even have enough Emotionally Constipated Boyfriends™? not Makayla secretly being illiterate 😭😭 do I make it canon? and Rafe 100% hates the silent treatment and he'll make it everyone's problem lmao,,, I wonder if he hates anything else more tho 🤔

no but I see Topper's lil gf so clearly. like imagine she's a philosophy major and loves mythology, and astrology, and crystals yes! and everyone is like "...how?" because they seem like they have literally nothing in common and yet they're always so happy to talk to each other and—

I just imagine him all nervous for a little business fair the college is doing, wearing his little button up and slacks and freaking out about how he’s supposed to network and shit. He makes you shake his hand like 10 times, just so he can get it right.

“Okay, how was that? Did it tell you I’m a confident, well-informed, strong addition to your business?”

You blink, looking down at your outstretched hand. “…Yes?”

“Fuck,” Topper groans, covering his face with his hands. “I just shouldn’t go. I’m just gonna embarrass myself.”

“No! No, you have to go, Top, you’ve been talking about it for weeks!” You exclaim, stretching up to pull his hands from his face so he’s looking at you.

There’s a defeated expression on Topper’s face when he meets your eye. You give him a soft smile, bringing his hands up to your lips to kiss the fingers gently.

“And you worked so hard on everything you’re gonna say,” you continue, taking a step closer so that just your hands are the only thing between the two of you. “I just know you’re gonna have so much fun.”

Topper sighs, eyes darting to the left to avoid your gaze. “Even if I say it all perfectly, it won’t matter. I can’t even shake a hand right!”

“Topper, stop it,” you look at him sternly. “You are so…” You trail off, looking for the exact word you're meaning. “Passionate. And when you talk, you get this look on your face like there isn’t anything else you’d rather be doing.” A smile breaks out on your face at just the mention of it. “I could listen to you talk all day long just because of that look. I love listening to you talk. And they will too. So just do to them what you do to me.”

You can hardly finish your sentence before Topper pulls his hands from yours and grabs your cheeks suddenly. He presses a bruising kiss to your lips, the kind that takes all the air from your lungs and makes you dizzy with endearment. If you could listen to Topper talk all day, you could kiss him even longer.

Topper pulls away when oxygen becomes a necessity, and yet it still doesn’t seem long enough and you chase after his lips slightly. At the sight of your doe eyes and dazed expression, he smirks proudly.

“Don’t, uh,” you open and close your mouth a few times, your voice small. “Don’t do that to the business guys please.”

#wyws— asks #finance bro topper #acatwriteshere #what's up doc

[daisychainsandbowties]

10 17 22 idk if you've done those I'm illiterate

10. Has a piece of writing ever "haunted" you? has your own writing haunted you? what does that mean to you?

EM. YOU. yourself. come over here and ask if i am haunted?? yes, every day, by the image of shannon slipping mary's motorcycle helmet off her head. this:

"then she steps forward and removes Mary's helmet with careful hands and Beatrice has never felt more a voyeur in her life than when she watches Sister Shannon dab the blood from Mary's split lip with the pad of her thumb. Watches Mary bat her hand away, her eyes rolling, "I'm fucking fine" and "Language" a practiced one two punch" ~ tmtl ch. 1

and this:

"Lilith shudders at her touch, makes a mournful sound, then comes awake in an instant.... Beatrice withdraws, sits for a moment on the edge of Lilith's bed before rising. Lilith's melodramatic groan of relief makes her tempted to drop back down, to curl up alongside her and try to pick the pieces out of her, to reassemble them and form an image that's whole, but she resists. All the better to let sleeping Liliths lie."

~ tmtl ch. 3

i terms of other things i think the book of the outsider trilogy by Mark Lawrence is quite haunting, as a story. i find a lot of the poetry i read very haunting. but mostly it is lines like those above - moments of absolute intimacy shadowed by restraint. that line from harrow the ninth that goes "you were so afraid she might touch you. you were so afraid anyone might touch you. you had always been afraid of anyone touching you, and had not known your longing flinch was so obvious to those who tried."

my own writing... sometimes. when i write about sickness, certainly. that feels haunting. but mostly my own writing is when i let the ghosts fly out of the window.

17. talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. tell me about the lore, the history, the things that won't make it in the text.

as you well know i have about eight WIPs. but my actual novel really actually resonates with that very popular line from, again, tasmuir "love is too long and life is too short" but ah... kind of flipped. what happens when the life goes on and the love is there but not the beloved? the story started there, moved onto a dragon with a clockwork heart and a boy and the colour purple, of a very empty landscape and the very loud dead. naturally i have spider-people and none of my characters have bodies without a bit or the horrific or the angelic crammed into them (often both). the lore is a lot, but the story is about gods and spitting in the face of fate. it has Monster Hunter vibes and also a bit of Cormac McCarthy's the road (vast emptiness. two bodies inside it). it has all the things i like - horror and blood and intimacy. but yeah, the lore doc is a chonky boi.

22. how organised are you with your writing? describe to me your organisation method, if it exists.

my entire process involves the notes app on my phone and like three documents all called the same thing except lore 1, lore 2, lore 3 where i dump vomited-up fragments of sentences and half-baked ideas and then occasionally a 8000 word dump of pristine lore. i plot only inside my own brain. my masters thesis supervisor had to cut me open to get a plot outline from inside me, and it was all lies anyway. i am more of a character writer than a plot-specialist, but i feel like once i have My Guys and A Problem the story pretty much writes itself (and i'm so wrong about that). mostly i outline in my brain and then by writing random lines from the start, the midish, and the kind-of-end, and then i do linguistic gymnastics to reach those sentences. (and boy am i clumsy)

i type everything. writing with pen + paper is still not my favourite thing to do - still slow and a bit painful - so i prefer to type. i have calluses, in fact, from typing, which is really quite embarrassing.

#em but not pvp #casper writes #you ask me an organisation question like you don't already know i have clown blood

[crazycletuskasady]

Aight so, it's no secret how I feel about this dude. But personally, gimme your thoughts on Cletus Kasady. In depth if you want about the character, if not I don't mind. (I'm more of the man behind the symbiote guy, but Carnage is pretty cool too.) Just curious dude👌🏻

Firstly, thank you for the ask. I always feel giddy whenever someone asks me for my opinions.

When I was having my intense hyperfixation, consuming as much Carnage/Cletus stuff as possible and also causing me to create this blog, I too preferred the redheaded serial killer over the symbiote. I think now though I've grown to appreciate both.

Having red hair myself, I have grown a bias towards others with it, especially since I was bullied and isolated for it so it gives me a sense of comradery? I suppose. In terms of his personality, I would not realistically condone or defend his actions. However, since he is a harmless fictional character, it is a guilty pleasure of mine to indulge in and root for this murder hobo. I suppose he fulfils a sort of power fantasy in that regard. While I acknowledge and sympathise with his background, I believe he is beyond any sort of redemption. Besides, he wouldn't make a fun villain if he stopped being one, and villains are Just That Cool ™.

He's also very charming in his own special way. From what I remember, a lot of people portrayed him as being pretty dumb, like the illiterate kind. I originally never had any affinity for this type of character but now I find it rather endearing and amusing if executed well. He's also got some pretty memorable quips and phrases across different adaptations. As my blog might indicate, the 1994 Spider-Man series version is like my all time favourite. He's very memeable but still threatening as needed.

Unfortunately I've never had the opportunity to read through the comics myself, only seeing what bits and pieces get shared and talked about on the internet. So this gives me limited insight on those story arcs and depictions. Although I am very fond of the relationship he fosters with his symbiote AKA Red (I guess the same can be said for Eddie and Venom. This is another thing I used to be against or disinterested in).

I won't lie, I have simped pretty hard for this man before. I can of course understand why others may not like him or if they find my tastes concerning lol. There's just something thrilling about a himbo that has already shed blood and could easily take your life too. I don't really have an "I could fix him" mindset since, again, I think he's well past that point. I guess the main drive is like a sort of morbid curiosity.

Anyway yeah, that's my little ramble and a look into my probably unhealthy mind lmao. Likely haven't got all my thoughts out properly because it's late and it's been a while since I've been deeply invested.

#ask #answered ask #cletus kasady #carnage

[like45]

Are you ready to talk and take a dive into the thrilling world of horror movies? I know I am. I'm so excited to kick off this blog and connect with my fellow horror movie fans. Let's get this journey on and popping.

Hi, I'm Chaniyah Pattmon I am a freshman at Washburn University, I major in Mass Media with concentrations in film and video and I have a minor in psychology. You know how weird it would be if I was taking a biology or anthropology major with a minor in physics and I'm sitting here talking to you about movies more so horror movies as like a passionate way? yeah, I know crazy. No need to worry I do hope to one day be the next Stephen King or Alford Hitchcock, who knows, I sure as heck don't.

https://chaniyahpattmon.blogspot.com/2023/09/introducingme.html

In the next few blog posts, I will discuss the top 10 must watch classic horror movies and it's not just going to be some of my favorite horror films I will ask other people and get their take on some classic horror movies as well. I will give you guys a V.I.P tour of the most iconic horror movie locations (obviously I'm not going to literally take you there, but you can go on google maps when I give you the locations if you want that V.I.P experience.) from those top 10 movies maybe even a few more if you're lucky enough to get that. I will more so importantly give you the fun facts about these movies because why not, wouldn't you want to know about the facts behind some of the greatest horror films ever written? don't say no because you know you do it's not ok to lie.

I promise you I won't bore you with these topics I'll try to make them at least fun enough to where you can come back and read it in your spare time, Hey! you might even mention it to a couple of friends at school or in your neighborhood and say " hey I read this blog, and the guy really knows her stuff bro, you should check it out", I don't know I'm just going off on a tangent here. Like I said who knows where this is going to go but I'm on the journey with you just as you are with me. I really hope you enjoy it as much as I do because horror films are life and think people would know about more things and be very cautious when it come to that, like when your babysitter home alone with two kids and you get a call asking you about your favorite movie, we all know to leave that situation or if your illiterate friend has watched a tape that will kill you in seven days and he watched it 5 days ago....we should all be well enough to know if you believe it or not to not watch the darn movie.

Again, I'm just a kid who's come to tell you horror movies hoping you'll like it and maybe even watch the lists of horror movies I'll list; I don't know what you will decide it's up to you I won't degrade or hassle you if you don't pursue in reading this but whoever does leave a comment and tell me what you thought about it. I'm Chaniyah it was great to meet you and see you at the next blog.

#horror movies #horror film #movies

[sadi-fics]

New Official Sadi-Bloodmoon rp rules/fandoms post!

Oh boy, things have finally calmed down in terms of rp, a lot of my other stuff has died down, and my life is relatively calm as of late, so I figured "Time to lose some hurhurhur".

That being said, I deleted my old post in favor of using this one from here on out. I'll semi frequently update my profile status to say " rps open/closed" in the future to avoid confusion. Now let's get onto the fandoms section of this post!

The main fandom I'm looking to be involved in rps with is JJBA, and it is my hyperfixation at the moment, but I'll list a few other things I want to try just for the sake of building bridges.

-JJBA parts 1-5 (Burnt out on this one right now, Sorry)

-Helluva Boss/Hazbin Hotel

-Super Mario Bros

-Star Wars (closed due to lack of interest)

-Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler (CURRENTLY CLOSED, I'M BURNT OUT ON THIS ONE, WILL UPDATE WHEN I FEEL READY FOR GRELLE AGAIN)

(Edit: Adding a section about AU'S and crossovers...) Yeah, in general, just ask me if you have any ideas, but I've done several au related things at this point, and a few crossovers, and I feel like some that I can handle are as follows:

-Old West AU

-Mermaid / Sea Life AU

-Cottagecore AU

-Modern AU

-Fairytale / Magical Creatures AU

-Gods / Demigods AU

-Mafia AU

And in general, I'm open to new things as long as you ask me first!

And now for the most grueling part! The rules!

Please don't approach me for an rp if you're underaged, I'm not looking for an rp with minors, or to go to prison. And please don't lie about your age to get into my DMs, that shit's not okay.

As stated previously, you must be 18+, the reason for that is that I want the content of our rp to contain smut, but it won't be immediately, there should be a build up to smut between two characters.

Tell me about any and all triggers or sensitivities you might have so I can avoid triggering topics, our rps are meant to be a safe space for both of us.

No scat, vomit, or diaper fetish.

No pedophilia ships, incest ships, zoophile ships, or proshipping in general.

I'll be checking your profile to see if you're a proshipper, map, zoophile, terf, or anything problematic, I tend to form friendships with my rp partners, and don't think I can be friends/rp with bad people for the sake of my own mental health. You should also have your age in your bio so that I have confirmation that you're a legal adult.

Active hours really don't matter all that much, replies can just be whenever you're able to write, my reply schedule will probably be inconsistent too, so you don't have to feel bad if you fall asleep or have to work. But, please let me know if you're going to be inactive for more than 2 weeks, I would greatly appreciate it!

I only do OCxCanon ships, and prefer to double up, you do my crush, I do yours, equivalent exchange!

I'm not too picky about reply lengths, but more than 6 sentences in a semi lit to literate writing style would be ideal. I don't do illiterate roleplay, sorry.

If I happen to be inactive for more than 2 weeks, feel free to poke me, I really don't mind.

I only roleplay on discord, sorry

Where to contact me?

If you dm me on either of my Tumblr blogs, I may take longer to contact you back due to notifications on here being silly for me, so here's my discord info.

Shoot me a message or a friend request or something if you're interested! Don't just comment on this post saying "interested", you little dorks. If you read the whole post, include the word "fork" in your first message, that's the secret word.

#i roleplay with my ocs and some canon characters #roleplay #looking for rp #semi lit rp #literate rp #jjba roleplay #jjba part 4 #helluva boss #helluva boss rp #star wars #star wars rp #kuroshitsuji #black butler #super mario #super mario rp #I wanna frick Bowser okay?!?! #FUCK

[incarnateirony]

"No, no, no, no" Yes, yes, yes, yes "No, no, no, no" Yes, yes, yes, yes

"Ain't no such thing as trust, nor justice So disgusting, you're all ass-kissers You will die, spell curse came from hell"

Past is what you don't wanna dwell

"It's all BS, it's all garbage"

I say neither, it's vice versa

Lost in himself Maze he has made

"Ayo, what?"

Just tryin' to reach out, reach out Ain't those bluffings? Gonna get you out

"Hm… Nothing but middle finger Hate talkin' to ignorants, stop the wimpers"

Misunderstanding, man That's too much overreacting Better go retract the statements on it You can own it

"I am flawless" More like thoughtless

"Your crew loves that gibberish To me that's illiterate Makes me want to obliterate it"

You just love being bitter-y, don't ya? I'm thinking you just might be You just like me I'm just lucky Just took it wrongfully and it just might not be Entirely your fault

Just let it go Open the door

"No words can mean anything At this point so we must battle"

That's just you And that's how you mishandle things Mishandle, handle now

"Now you're tellin' me what to do? Lemme tell you who rule"

Come on, this ain't nothing to rule over This matter, brother You and I, we ain't so different I guess I had more blessings Without it you got belligerent But I totally understand Glass was half full for mine

"And it looked half empty for me"

Maybe that one glass made the path we took Who knows?

Chasing stars afar (so, so far) Overlooks his own path (dark, dark night) Where is light? When needed, he didn't get it Enough for a man to lose sight For a frail pride

So lost in the starless night Sun don't rise on the blind mind Around and around, there goes now Waiting for another falling Let there be stars to guide him the way In this poor night So numb, he's become so numb Weights of life, So exhausted

He will not be who he's not So sick of lies over lies but Can't tell what is a lie anymore He's going so numb

So lost in the darkest night Where's the love? When one needs it?

Just let it go Maze he has made

#Youtube