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PICK A CARD: The ☆Glow-Up☆ 2024 Has Planned For you

♠︎ “At bottom every man knows well enough that he is a unique being, only once on this earth; and by no extraordinary chance will such a marvelously picturesque piece of diversity in unity as he is, ever be put together a second time.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

Disclaimer: This is a general reading, take what resonates.

p1 → p2 ↙︎ p3 → p4

✧ Pile One ✧ (queen of cups, 5oC rev., 10oC, the chariot, the magician, 4oS)

Release.

➣ The central theme of this glow-up is inner fulfillment. You are on a journey of true self-love. The queen of cups is sitting proudly at the front of the spread. Major water energy here. You are unraveling emotional trauma down to your roots and reevaluating past attachments and burdens with the six of cups.

➣ I picture floodgates opening, allowing all of the pent-up emotional turmoil to release and finally free you on a deep psychophysiological level. You released something, an attachment or mindset that was set in motion during your formative years that was hindering your ability to hold compassion for yourself.

➣ Shuffling my music, "Daddy Issues" by the Neighbourhood came on. I also saw the hierophant while shuffling the cards. You experienced a lot of undervaluing and emotional neglect in your home. Emotions in your home were taboo and possibly even punished.

➣ I feel like the people around you growing up, were either always dissatisfied with you in some way or made you feel small. Since this is a group reading, it is hard to word this without excluding a large chunk of the audience, but some of you grew up in a home situation where any form of outward self-love or expression was met with a lot of negativity and ridicule.

➣ This forced you into hiding your true self which groomed you into a mental space full of self-criticism and doubt. In your mind, you were unwanted or inherently broken in some way and deserved less. The way you were treated created deep emotional wounds in your young psyche which made it hard to feel satisfaction within yourself or with the outer world.

➣ With the five of cups, I get the sense that you had felt you were in a desert and unable to fill any of your cups so to speak. Baby, that’s coming to an end. The ten of cups is at the center of your spread with a big ass RAINBOW touching corner to corner. The drought is over. The dark days are over. The sun is shining and you can taste hope again.

➣ On this self-love journey, you are currently grieving (releasing) a degraded perception of yourself along with any beliefs that inhibit you from feeling good about your character.

➣ You are realizing just how enough you are and flushing out all of the poison that was crammed in your head about being inadequate. You are freeing yourself from the chains of feeling unworthy of a good life.

➣ You will find true beauty in every corner of you. Beauty in your laugh, beauty in how you dance, beauty in how you take care of yourself, beauty in what you care about, inner beauty that cannot be taken from you or scaled down. You will nurture your inner world, thus adding color to your outer world.

➣ During this major life-changing period, your view of reality will flip in a way you never thought imaginable. Life will feel worth living again. Your music will move you more and the swift pass of wind will invigorate you with new ideas for creative projects that will propel you forward to lifelong prosperity.

➣ I’m hearing 🎵 “… I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so proud of you” from Make Me Proud by Drake. Congratulations babe, you just broke a fucking karmic cycle. 10 of cups, following the 5 of cups??? You have graduated from a dark knight of the soul and are now approaching new, abundant energy.

➣ The universe is proud of you. Your ancestors are proud of you. Your inner child is proud of you. Your God(s) is proud of you. All of the cells in your body are proud of you. You have released something cosmically within you. Please hug yourself and have a good cry because you are doing something you never believed you could. Your hopes and dreams are unfolding.

➣ Get ready to make your daydream your reality. With the chariot, you’re prepping to TAKE AWWFF BABY. The release of this blockage has raised your energetic vibration and is ushering bountiful opportunities into your life, new passions, new ideas, and new connections.

➣ Your newfound faith in yourself is going to give you the courage to go out and experience life. Most importantly you will find satisfaction in the mundane. Every frame of your day will be brighter and feel better. You have gone from 5 empty cups to an eternally flowing fountain. Take the time to thank yourself for all of the hard work you put in to get here.

➣ Advice: Extend yourself grace. During this period, you will have enlightening moments that will unlock pieces of the puzzle surrounding your trauma and a lot more will make sense and become easier to process.

➣ However, as the flawed humans we are, we tend to make sense of something and then turn around and beat ourselves up for not realizing it sooner. Or, minimizing our pain and criticizing our past selves for not doing more about it because hindsight truly is a dirty dawg. No that is not how it works.

➣ That’s like when you were in school and the teacher would start bullying you for not understanding a subject. YOU HAVE A DEGREE??? I’m fourteen?? Of course, you can say it's simple when you have already “graduated” and learned from it, not when you’re in the middle of experiencing it. You gained clarity during this tower moment and can now see the bigger picture and liberate yourself.

➣ Younger you fought to make your way through the fog and deserves grace because you would not be here today without your younger self’s perseverance. Forgive yourself for the time it took to get here and see the beauty in your evolution throughout the journey.

➣ Also, drink plenty of water and get rest!! It’s Pisces season, and a Pisces new moon is coming too. Most of your trauma will unravel while you’re unconscious. Please get plenty of rest and hydrate. This pile has Cancer/4th house energy written all over it. Mother yourself during this period. Clean your room, make your favorite foods, watch cheesy movies, and splurge on special skin care. Pamper yourself. okay I'm done. KISSES.

"My consciousness has outgrown this vessel"

✧ Pile Two ✧ (4ofS, the tower, the wheel of fortune, the emperor, the lovers, judgment, 7ofW, ace of wands)

Life's gotta always be messing with me (you wanna see the light) Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I) Can't I take away all this pain? (You wanna see the light) I try to every night, all in vain, in vain

Justice.

➣ I asked for a song to explain the central theme of your reading and I got "Freak on a Leash" by Korn. I get the feel that one of the main struggles of your life path is unfair judgment. People are quick to create a false narrative of you and run off with it.

➣ If you read my last PAC, “What is most alluring about you”, you may have chosen pile 2 or 3. With the seven of wands, you are constantly under attack.

➣ Take what resonates but I see a few scenarios. People may be quick to paint you as a bad person without getting to know you. Your public reputation was heavily influenced by rumors from people who intentionally wanted you to be disliked. People will take something small, blow it out of proportion, and try to impose it as a character flaw. Oh, you don’t eat the crust on your sandwich? How wasteful! There are starving kids out there, you’re so inconsiderate!! and then everyone else in the room who claims to not like you (but are truly your biggest fans) are oooing, ahhing, and egging that hating ass bitch on.

➣ I’m seeing a bus. You may have been betrayed and thrown under the bus a few times before. This is the pile of my Lilith placements. Your power is your ability to garner attention, both good and bad. You attract a lot of envy. The ugliest emotion, in my opinion. It’s partners in crime with greed.

➣ For some of you, I am getting the message that all of this underserved hate has sent you into a dark mental space and driven you to take an attempt on your life. And if you like my messages or my readings please believe me when I say this,

I know you are meant for greatness. I picked up on your energy and you found this reading for a reason. Just like the Universe and everything within it, we go through cycles. And I know this is a long, painful cycle but it will come to an end and you will get out of this darkness. From the bottom of my heart, I feel your importance and I am happy you are here to share this moment with me. Keep swimming, I support you, the Universe supports you. The sun is rising and is offering you a new beginning.

➣ In this dark period in your life, the negative attention may have outweighed the good. I see a theme of being outcasted and isolated. Severe bullying. For some, even abuse. Like pile one, you have gone into hermit mode and isolated yourself from the unfair judgment of the world.

➣ But head up muffin, the scales are balancing, and the wheel of judgment is turning in your favor. Following the wheel of fortune, you got the fucking emperor!!! You will come out of this on top. The people who kicked you while you were down will have to swallow their pride and kneel to shine your shoes while you sit rightfully on the throne. The public scrutiny you face needs to balance itself out karmically.

➣ Think Megan Thee Stallion. I won’t bring up any of her business, but if you've been keeping up with social media, there is a good chance you are well aware of it. That woman has gone through the unimaginable, one traumatic event following the other all while facing an obscene amount of public scrutiny. She had to go into solitary and off the internet to rebuild her life. But guess what??? MY GIRL STAYS ON TOP>>>>> After all the bullshit she endured, she’s coming out on the top of the charts, brand deals with major conglomerates, she is the people’s princess.

➣ That’s going to be you. You have dealt with a lot of injustice in your life, now you’re coming out of your “rehabilitation” and all of the people who spent the better half of their day attempting to tear you down will have to watch your rise like a phoenix and fucking weep.

➣ People were constantly taking from you , now the universe (whatever you want) is preparing to give you the power to replace what you have lost tenfold. Ace of wands, I see that life is handing you the metaphorical talking stick. The king stick. You are being blessed with a flame in your belly (activated solar plexus chakra) and the chance to completely reinvent yourself.

➣ There is a lot of king and authority messages here, the ball is in your court. You are being released from the shackles of public perception and these next few months will be filled with inspiration and willpower to prove everybody wrong and showcase your strength. I feel like a good chunk of this group will get chances to be in positions of authority or importance.

➣ This is going to sound silly but I got this exaggerated imagery of a mean person calling you poor and ugly but the next year you drive past them in a Bugatti with their sugar boo in the passenger seat. HELLOOOO.

➣ With the lovers, I see you are coming in union with what is rightfully yours. In the grand scheme of cosmic law, you are owed good fortune and it is on its way. With the tower, I see an explosion and people fleeing. You’re going to pop out stronger than ever and that’s going to scare people cause whatever superiority they got from painting you as inferior is going to blow away and their true scummy nature is going to be seen.

➣ After this, there may even be people who pretend to be your friends and claim they supported you all along. Have faith in your discernment. I have faith in your discernment. It will all be okay pookie.

➣ Advice: Just keep swimmin' my love. <3

"The child who is not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel its warmth."

✧ Pile Three ✧ (queen of wands, knight of pentacles, 6oC, page of pentacles, 10oW, 3oW, the hermit)

It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Awaken.

➣ Regardless if you’re a woman, a man, somewhere in between, or none of the above, you are approaching a newfound understanding of your sexuality. For some of you, it is a full-blown sexual awakening.

➣ Some people here are realizing their sex appeal, others are coming to terms with their lack of sexual attraction, some are learning what they like in sex and what they’re attracted to. Yes bae, all of it; the whole spectrum of sexual exploration is here.

➣ There is an emphasis on attraction to yourself. You will see a huge shift in your physical appearance. Yes, your style will change but the main reason for this glow up is because you shifted the perception of yourself into a higher light. You’re allowing yourself to feel desirable and embracing the aspects of yourself you once shunned.

➣You will carry yourself in a higher regard and this will open doors for you. Look into the mirror and give yourself a nice smack on the ass. Your self-esteem is sexy.

➣ Pile one is on a watery emotional self-love journey, this pile is all about fire and finding out where sexuality and passionate relations fit into your life. 5th house (flings, passions, hobbies), 8th house (sex and rebirth), 9th house (adventure, connecting with your soul tribe).

➣ I asked for a song to tie up this message in a cute little bow and I got the 639 HZ frequency. This is the frequency of love, radiation, and positive energy. It is the frequency of the heart. The heart chakra is opening significantly during this glow-up.

➣ You are opening yourself to adventure and sending a high vibe out into the ether. I see a sunflower and the queen of wands is decked out in bright yellow, you are stepping into the spotlight and attracting a lot of attention. I would say Venusian attention because the aura here is very romantic and collaborative. It's like the universe is spraying you with extremely magnetic pheromones and having opportunities run at you.

➣ You are going to get a lot of offers. Love offers, career offers, party invitations, you’re going to be involved with exclusive circles. You are realizing your self-worth and now you’re attracting things and people who also see value in you.

➣ This isn’t going to resonate with everyone, but I sense that for a few of you, there is going to be a reconnection with a past lover or a past friend from your childhood (or just the past in general). I also sense a theme of using your attractiveness and people’s attraction to you to your benefit. Somehow monetize your appeal.

➣ It is like you finally released your ugly duckling mentality and you woke up and went, “WOAH, what can I do with this???” Lmao you discovered you’re an undercover member of the pretty privilege club.

➣ Yeah, with the page of pentacles and the ten of wands, I’m seeing an entire life path open up for you. Your passion and fiery energy will get you places, and you’ll go on adventures exploring your opportunities with that. Some of you will even become spicy content creators or do some risque sex work. Orrrrrr just venture into a career path you weren’t courageous enough to do before.

➣ You’re a giant magnet energetically right now (I mean c’mon, 639 HZ???) you’re attracting a lot of romantic suitors. But watch out, they’re not all good suitors.

➣ I pulled another card and got Justice in reverse. Some people will try to get over on you. Also, the person on the justice card looked strangely untrustworthy when I flipped it over. Once again, practice your discernment.

➣ Your romantic and passionate life is taking off and it's going to be extremely exciting, especially if you are coming out of a period of stagnancy. However, with the 3 of wands and the hermit, the cards remind you to remain centered and plan bigger. Your passion, attractiveness, and sexuality will amount to more than hookups and shallow relationships if you invest in yourself wisely.

➣ You are unlocking an advantage you have in this lifetime. Open yourself to career endeavors, social networking, and creating a strong foundation for your talents and hobbies. Yes, date and have fun but don’t spend all of your energy in one place. Your attention and your energy are your greatest currencies.

➣ To expand on the hermit, I need to emphasize you are going to be getting a LOT of attention soon (I’m getting Sun-conjunct-Venus energy, is that in your natal chart or is there a transit with Venus right now or something?). You will receive more eyes on you than average and this might overwhelm you and push you into hermit mode.

➣ That is okay, let life flow. During those moments to yourself, dream big because you have the power to pull your dreams into your reality. You will meet lifelong friends during this period. I am sensing a power trio for some of you.

➣ Advice: To wrap up, we all know attractiveness is social currency, and you are coming into a great deal of social wealth baby. But please spend it wisely and do not lose yourself in the crowd. Keep up with your self-work and take introspective breaks away from people so you can figure out how to best utilize this awakening for you.

➣ You look really good in red currently. Red hair. Red lips. Red clothes. Red jewelry. The color red is bringing you a lot of abundance. Okay bye. MUAH. <3

"I said mom, I am a rich man."

✧ Pile Four ✧ (page of swords, knight of cups, wheel of fortune, temperance, 7oP, the devil rev.)

Ascension.

➣ OMG I’m so sorry, I wrote a novel for the other piles but this one is going to be short. Maybe you were drawn to another pile mainly and this is your secondary pile. BUT IT’S SHORT BECAUSE ITS FUCKING AWESOME.

➣ The song I channeled for you was named “Elniño Prodigo” and I want to say the artist is Love Record but I'm not too sure. This means child prodigy. When I was laying out your cards, I got this sense of anticipation and impatience. Theeeennn BOOM the wheel of fortune, temperance, and the seven of pentacles smack me in the face.

➣ Oh me oh my, you are chilling in the universe’s womb just BAKIN’ being prepped for a complete rebirth. You are a prodigy, you are not meant to live an ordinary life, you are being prepared for a unique journey. I know this is going to sound hard to believe because I feel like with this pile, a large portion of your life was spent in waiting.

➣ Do you feel like you are a late bloomer? If so, trust me, it is for a reason. Whatever you build in this lifetime will be built slowly and have a solid foundation because your legacy is meant to withstand the test of time and last long after you leave this Earth. This period you’ve spent waiting is you getting your ducks in a row and sowing your seeds for the next evolution of you. I said something like this in my last pac, if that's you, heyyyyyyy i’m glad your energy stuck around, i love it.

➣ Do you have Pisces or 12th House placements mixed with Saturn significance? Whatever this glow-up exactly holds for your future is a secret. It’s the universe’s divine surprise to you. I did not get any energy detailing exact events, just something big in the works behind the scenes is making its way to you.

➣If you’re reading this pick a card there’s a good chance you’re spiritually attuned and can feel this cosmic shift happening. Something about your energy is so excited. I imagine a hyper dog being held back by a leash because it's not quite time yet.

➣ If you’re in a period where you’re not seeing any life progression and it's causing you anxiety, relax, you are on the right track and you are where you need to be. You have not wasted time, time really isn’t even fucking real. Everything is moving slowly for a reason.

➣In this “boring” period you are meant to tap into your inner world and curate what you want your life to look like. Create vision boards, imagine your future hobbies, involve things that mentally stimulate you, keep the spark of curiosity in your life, and nurture your inner dreamer.

➣ You are connecting with your sensitivity at this time, finding the sweet spot where your mind and heart meet, and letting it fuel your zeal for life. Get these thoughts on paper. Journal them, draw them, sing it, and call this energy into the 3D. Your life is about to have a complete 180. Maintain faith.

➣ You’re seeing a lot of synchronicities currently. Animal synchronicities and repeating numbers(111,444,222,1144,1414). You’ll find strangely personal messages in music and media. Maybe you’re seeing shapes repetitively pop up around you in your environment, like stars or eyes.

➣ Patience is a life lesson for this pile, there is a lesson to be learned in the stillness of your life. You are mentally restless right now, slow your body down and try out parasympathetic regulation techniques to calm your racing thoughts. Go swimming, take a class, try out a new hobby. In this “womb” era, enjoy your last moments of stillness because your life turns up a notch. I’m not even getting rebirth, I’m getting BIRTH. No matter your age, your life is truly beginning in this new season.

➣ Advice: I see a lot of clouds. I see angel symbolism. You’re ascending. You’re shedding old skin, letting go of dead weight, and you’re growing wings, getting ready to experience life to the fullest. Maintain hope that your life will pick up pace and become exciting again.

➣ Find peace in this waiting period. Listen to bird sounds!!! They are going to calm your mind and elevate you emotionally. You’re growing your wings and getting ready to take off like a bird, you should learn from the best. Okay, I love you, the universe loves you, MUAH <3.

"Your sim has gone stir-crazy!"

watching tumblr shit on my images in real time is just...

On a lighter note, I know some of these piles are heavy, I posted my first reading two days ago, and the support I received has brought so much joy into my life. I love doing this, if you like this me doing this, I'll do this forever. I am eternally grateful for all of you likes, reblogs, and comments <3

Also, some of these piles are connected, feel free to poke around and pick up on messages spread out for you. okay, I'm done. kisses! MUAH

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teapartyprincess4two · 11 days

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Omgg can u do some matt x actress!reader hc?? Love you xx

Actress- M. Sturniolo

pairing: Actress!reader x Boyfriend!Matt

classification: SFW & NSFW head cannons

warnings: some 18+ content, use of y/n, established relationship, slight cursing

summary: head cannons of Matt with an actress girlfriend!

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☆SFW

Matt thought he knew everything there was to know about fame; the screaming fans, the off guard photos, and the rumors. When he started dating you, though, he was shocked at the intensity of your life.

☆ Every time you’re out in public, you get recognized by a fan or paparazzi, without fail.

☆ You’re waiting in line for your coffee, holding Matt’s hand as you engage in meaningless, light conversation with him.

☆ A loud gasp interrupts you mid sentence, causing you to look in the direction of the noise.

☆ A fan stands there with a hand covering their mouth, eyes blown open in pure shock. “Oh my God! Y/n?! Can I have a picture please?”

☆ You never turn a fan down and soon, when other people realize who you are, it’ll become like a little meet and greet, and Matt becomes the photographer.

☆ When the paparazzi recognizes you, though, you’re not as quick to pose for a picture.

☆ “Matt, don’t look,” you warn, eyes darting between him and the paparazzi snapping pictures of you through the restaurant window.

☆ Matt never listens, he immediately cranes his neck to see what you’re talking about. “I said don’t look!” you squeak, trying to pull his attention back towards you.

☆ “Fuck off,” Matt groans, throwing the paparazzi a middle finger and returning to his meal with you.

☆ Matt is always excited about your newest project, whether you’re playing a main, side, or background character.

☆ You’re getting ready for the premiere of your newest film, Burn It.

☆ “Matt what are you wearing?” you laugh.

☆ “Just supporting my girl,” he replies. He does a small twirl, showing off his outfit. He’s wearing a shirt with the movie poster printed on the front, your face right smack in the middle and the title in bold letters right above it.

☆ “It’s the premiere, you gotta dress up,” you laugh, secretly enjoying the sillyness of it all.

☆ “Fine. But I’m wearing this under my suit,” he replies, exiting the room. After a while, you start hearing the trailer to the movie playing from your room.

☆ He’s equally as supportive of your small roles.

☆ “Hey guys! So Chris, Nick, Y/n, and I are at the movie theater and we’re about to watch Y/n’s new movie The Escape,” Matt says, introducing the theme of their YouTube video.

☆ “Babe, I literally played cashier #3,” you chuckle from behind the camera, holding a big bucket of popcorn.

☆ “I’d watch it if you played a piece of grass,” he replies seriously.

☆ Whenever a new movie of yours releases, you’re usually booked and busy with press tours and interviews.

☆ During these interviews, the initial questions are usually about the movie, but as the interview progresses they become more personal.

☆ “So, Y/n, have you found Mr.Right?” the interviewer asks, fidgeting with the cue cards in front of her.

☆ The question is corny, and you’ve been asked it millions of times before, but you always answer truthfully because you’ve never hidden your relationship status.

☆ “Yup and his name is Matthew Sturniolo,” you reply cheekily, sending the camera a wink. When Matt watches the interview, he feels like a fan who just got a shoutout.

☆ There have been roles that require you to kiss your costars and Matt is never a fan of those.

☆ “Beautiful take!” the director exclaims, clapping his hands loudly in approval. “But let’s get it one more time! Add a little more fire! More passion,” he instructs, snapping his fingers.

☆ Matt joined you on set today, and quite frankly he wishes he didn’t. He hates seeing you kiss another man, even if it is just for show.

☆ Once the director gets the perfect shot, you’re all sent to lunch. “Hi baby,” you hum, walking over to Matt and wrapping your arms around his waist.

☆ You go in for a kiss and he quickly leans in, wanting to claim you in front of everyone.

☆ You are no stranger to rumors and speculations, especially not when a male costar is involved.

☆ “Actress, Y/n trades in her YouTuber for a REAL celebrity,” “Y/n found a new boo?,” “What happened to Matthew Sturniolo and who is the new guy in Y/n’s life?”

☆ Matt can’t stop reading the gossip newsletters and blogs, and even if he knows they’re just rumors he finds himself becoming sad.

☆ “Matt! Where are you?” you shout through the house. You find him on his bed, scrolling relentlessly on his laptop.

☆ “Whatcha doing? Wanna play Mario Kart?” you ask, crawling into bed next to him. Your eyes blow open in shock when you see his screen.

☆ “Matt stop reading that shit!” you exclaim. “I can’t help it,” he groans, running his hands down his face.

☆ You snatch the laptop and drag him out of bed for a night full of Mario Kart and cuddling on the couch.

☆ With a schedule as busy as yours, it can become difficult for you to make time for your personal life.

☆ “I miss you,” Matt whispers through the phone. You’re on a press tour for your newest film and your side of the bed has been empty for 2 months now.

☆ “I miss you too, baby,” you murmur. It hurt to know that you still had another month of this tour left.

☆ “When you come back I’m never letting you go,” his voice is sad, but he knows 3 months isn’t forever.

☆ “I can’t wait,” you giggle, eyes falling on the digital clock across the room. It’s getting late and you have an early interview tomorrow.

☆ “I have to go baby, but I’ll call you tomorrow, okay?” Matt’s sad to let you go, it feels like he rarely hears your voice nowadays if it isn’t playing from his TV.

☆ “Okay, beautiful.”

☆ When you’re invited to events or award shows, Matt always joins as your plus one.

☆ “And the nominees are…” the announcer says, listing the names as she reads them from the teleprompter.

☆ Matt squeezes your hand when your name is said, a hug smile spreading across his face.

☆ “The winner for best actress in a leading role is…” the suspense is killing you, but you feel the victory in your soul.

☆ “Y/n!” The entire crowd cheers at the mention of your name and you can’t help but shoot up from your seat in excitement.

☆ “Oh my God, Matt! I won!” You exclaim, pulling him in for a kiss.

☆ You scurry on stage, nervous hands taking your award and preparing for an improvised speech. You end the speech with a special thanks to your friends and family, making sure to specifically thank Matt as you blow him kisses from the stage.

☆ He watches with teary eyes and a huge, dopey smile.

☆NSFW

Matt loves joining you on set and sometimes things can become a little heated between you two.

☆ You hated photo shoots, especially when it involved lingerie and/ or bikinis. Matt, on the other hand, loved photo shoots and he was always quick to join you for them.

☆ “I’m so cold,” you shiver, plopping onto the couch next to Matt. You’re wearing a lingerie set so small that you might as well be naked.

☆ “I know of a few ways to warm you up,” Matt replies, only half joking. He wiggles his eyebrows suggestively, earning an excited giggle from you.

☆ “Oh yeah?” you tease, pulling him in for a kiss.

☆ Before you know it, he’s pushed your panties to the side and is fucking you so hard the couch is moving with each thrust.

☆ Although Matt knows your relationship with your male costars is purely professional, he can’t help but become jealous.

☆ “How was work today?” Matt asks, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead.

☆ “Eh same old same old. We’re stuck on the same scene,” you reply, hoping he won’t ask any further questions.

☆ “Hmm that sucks,” he hums. “What scene is it?”

☆ You gulp nervously, knowing how much Matt is going to hate your answer. “The bathroom sex scene.”

☆ You feel his body stiffen immediately. “It’s just because the set is small and the angles are awkward,” you continue.

☆ “Mhm,” is all he says.

☆ Later, when you’re getting ready for bed and doing your nighttime routine, he pins you against the bathroom counter and fucks you dumb.

☆ “This pussy is mine,” he grunts into your ear, earning a whimper from you.

☆ When you’ve been gone for long press tours, he becomes needy and you two have to resort to phone sex.

☆ “I miss you, baby,” he murmurs. “I miss you too, so much,” you reply.

☆ “No, like, I miss you,” he reiterates, allowing his hand to travel below the waistband of his sweats.

☆ “Touch yourself,” you instruct. “Pretend it’s me.”

☆ You continue to talk him through it, not stopping until you hear his beautiful, breathy moans.

☆ “You did so good,” you praise and he swears his dick gets hard again.

☆ When you finally do return from your long trips, Matt is extremely needy.

☆ He’s waiting for you impatiently at the airport, ready to engulf you in his arms as soon as he sees you.

☆ When you get home, he attacks you with a bunch of kisses until they become more needy and passionate.

☆ His hands wander all over your body, massaging and kneading at your skin like it’s the first time.

☆ You push him back into the bed and straddle his lap, bouncing on his cock until he’s satisfied.

☆ “Oh my God!— Fuck! I love you,” he moans, bucking his hips into you as he climaxes.

☆ “Holy fuck. Maybe I should go on tour more often,” you giggle, peppering kisses along Matt’s face. “Please no,” he mumbles.

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MASTERLIST

a/n: 📸📸📸 working on Arranged Ch.2, a Johnnie fic & another Matt headcannon!

Also ily2 thank u for the request! xoxox - L.A.M.B👼🏻💗

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mythicmin · 1 year

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Overwatch NSFW Alphabet(s)

MDNI!! If you are under the age of 18, please DNI. Character requests are OPEN. Just slide into my ask box and specify which character you’d like to see :)

𝑱𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒆 𝑴𝒄𝑪𝒓𝒆𝒆 / 𝑪𝒐𝒍𝒆 𝑪𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒚

A = Aftercare ;

McCree is a firm believer in aftercare. Chances are you aren’t getting up to do ANYTHING for at least an hour. (unless he has somewhere he needs to rush to.) Need to pee? He’s gonna carry you. Thirsty? Hungry? Give him a second, he’ll be right back with your favorite drink/snack.

B = Body part ;

You can’t look me dead in my eyes and tell me he isn’t an ass man. He’s practically obsessed with it. Doesn’t matter where you’re at or who you’re with, chances are he’s got his hand on your ass or in your back pocket.

C = Cum ;

Bro is definitely a slut for facials if he can’t cum inside of you. There’s just something possessive about it, like he’s marking you as his.

D = Dirty secret ;

Secretly wants to get topped, cmon he’s a cocky little shit. Put him in his place and make him beg for you. ❤︎︎

E = Experience ;

I am a firm believer in thinking he’s got some kind of old fashioned way of thinking. He knows what he likes, but doesn’t have much experience with it. I know we all love fuckboy McCree, but him being a virgin makes me giggle.

F = Favorite position ;

Doggie. Need I say more?

G = Goofy ;

Bro is a whole clown in bed and you can’t change my mind. He knows how to act serious when need be, but he always wants to see you smile. Even if he’s balls deep in you.

H = Hair ;

I think he manscapes a bit, he’s never bare though. There’s always some sort of hair framing his cock, clean shaven just isn’t his style.

I = Intimacy ;

Lil western baby treats you like the princess/prince you are. Sure he loves fucking your brains out, but making love to you is another favorite past time.

J = Jack off / Masterbate ;

I don’t really know to be honest, I feel like he’d think he’s too busy to get himself off. But maybe it’s just hidden cockiness that only you can get him off.

K = Kink ;

Anal. I know this man eats ass as well. I just know it. Bro also definitely has a daddy kink. (or maybe that’s bc i’m projecting bc he’s so fine.)

L = Location ;

Anywhere.

M = Motivation ;

He really gets going when you slowly touch his arms/chest while making eye contact.

N = No ;

Sadly, threesomes. I think he’s just too possessive.

O = Oral ;

He loves both giving and receiving, but he enjoys making you fall apart with his mouth. Playing with that cigar should’ve warned you he was gonna be a beast with his tongue.

P = Pace ;

Whichever you want. He can deliver both fast or slow.

Q = Quickie ;

Loves them. Especially if y’all are out and about doing something.

R = Risk ;

He literally doesn’t care if y’all get caught with him balls deep in you.

S = Stamina ;

I feel like he cums fairly fast, but can go for a few rounds.

T = Toys ;

He’s iffy on them. He wants to be the one to make you feel good, but watching you thrash against the vibrator he’s holding gets him feeling some typa way.

U = Unfair ;

He’s so mean sometimes, bro is a WHOLE ASS tease and he knows it.

V = Volume ;

I don’t feel like he’s overly loud in the moaning or groaning criteria, but he’s definitely a smooth talker blowing your back in.

W = Wild card ;

Pull his hair while he’s giving you head and bro is putty in your hands.

X = X-ray ;

6” soft , a lil over 7” hard. (circumcised)

Y = Yearning ;

I SWEAR THIS MAN CAN TURN HIS SEX DRIVE OFF AND ON DEPENDING ON HOW MUCH OF A COCKY BASTARD HE WANTS TO BE.

Z = Zzz ;

Always waits until you’re asleep first.

god i love this man.

hope you enjoyed!! lmk who y’all wanna see next ! ❤︎︎

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darkcircles4lyfe · 3 months

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Behind the locked door

In honor of Izuku’s mask disintegrating into rubble, I think it’s finally time for me to really dig deep into his character. I’ve been keeping this one in my back pocket for a while. Amid all the talk about Izuku’s fading narration, the “control your heart” subplot, I’ve been trying to find the words to articulate how I know exactly where this is going, at least on a certain level. Most recently, I read this meta from pika who brings up how the word “control” alone can be misconstrued (by us). And then I thought about how a while back I made a similar point, although I said Izuku was the one who got it wrong. At that time, I was holding back a huge piece of evidence because it was external to the story and I wasn’t sure it would be received well. As a result, my argument fell a little flat. Well, now—after 411, right before leaks for 412—it might be my last chance to play this card.

So about that external evidence. I struggle to bring it up because it’s gonna sound an awful lot like I’m projecting onto Izuku if I don’t do it justice. But… I look at the way his storyline has been going lately and I see a pattern emerging that I’m very familiar with. Fortunately, I don’t have to dump a bunch of personal junk on you in order to illustrate this pattern, because a certain personality typing system already has it all figured out: the Enneagram.

Now, hang on. I’m not one to put people in boxes. My trans ass? I managed to get a different result every time I retook the P0ttermore quiz. MBTI, zodiacs—not my thing. But the Enneagram comes the closest I’ve ever seen to covering all the bases and revealing actually meaningful insight, at least for myself. On top of that, I find it extremely useful for fleshing out fictional characters, hence this post will be taking advantage of that.

For those who aren’t familiar with it, here’s a quick overview: The Enneagram consists of 9 individual personality types, each arranged carefully in a sequential, circular manner. They are also simply named 1 through 9. While this might seem kinda basic, there is actually a surprising amount of nuance and fluidity involved. Typing is done largely through personal introspection (you don’t really have to take a test). Adjacent numbers share some core themes with each other, and according to a web of arrows between them, one type can take on either positive or negative traits associated with other types depending on how emotionally ‘healthy’ they are, causing a lengthy spectrum of different ways each type can manifest. That part gets kinda complicated to explain here, so for more info, the Enneagram Institute website is a decent place to start. I also highly recommend the Enneagram album by Sleeping At Last (and if you really want to dedicate some time, the accompanying podcast) to really get inside the heads of the types on a deeper level.

My interest in applying the Enneagram to Izuku comes from observing how differently one can interpret his character based on whether you read him as a 2 or a 9. And even though no one uses this language to talk about him, the distinction accounts for a bunch of different rifts in the fandom: whether you appreciate bkdk’s relationship, whether you can acknowledge Izuku’s flaws and weaknesses, the severity of his vigilante/rogue phase, and most importantly the gravity of his concealed heart, his rage, and what it all means—what he needs in order to grow and triumph.

Discussion of Enneagram types in the fandom is pretty scarce, but where it exists, I have only seen him labeled as a 2. Type 9 and type 2 can be similar at a glance in a lot of ways (actually, 9s can be mistaken for any type because they are like all of them combined). It’s easy to see Izuku as a 2 because he is the helping hero archetype. He puts others’ needs above his own and he is always ready and eager to help. If you listen to Sleeping At Last’s song for 2, you’ll notice that it’s all about care and noble sacrifice with the underlying theme of neglecting or even harming oneself: “I just want to build you up, until your good as new, and maybe one day I will get around to fixing myself too.” Sounds pretty obvious, right? Well, here’s the thing. You really get to know what your type is by how it hits you where it hurts, so I like to focus on each type’s basic fear and basic desire, first and foremost, as a tell. A 2′s basic fear is of being worthless and unloved. Consequently, their most basic desire is to be loved. And 2s have been taught through their negative experiences that love is conditional, something they have to earn from others. They need to be needed. So let’s say you think Izuku is a 2. This means you consider his heroic, self-sacrificing tendencies to be a result of his growing up quirkless and being told he is worthless and powerless because of it. Through this lens, he is trying to prove himself to the world by being useful. Along these lines, you may also assume he is trying to prove himself to Katsuki. Taking this train of thought even further, you may interpret Izuku’s relationship with Katsuki as an obsession of his, where he is either blind to Katsuki’s more negative traits in favor of gaining his love and praise, or else bitterly determined to prove him wrong. This is how a 2 might behave in an unhealthy relationship with an 8, which, yes, I do think Katsuki is an 8. That’s a tangent for another time, though.

But does Izuku ever “need to be needed?” It’s worth noting that while 2s’ search for validation might seem insincere, it is actually motivated by a deep, heartbreaking insecurity. They think they don’t even deserve love unless they are useful to someone, so they do everything they can to be worthy. Does Izuku show signs of this motivation?

If I stop to think about it, I can’t exactly see this in Izuku’s character. Yeah, his dream is to be a hero, and in his childhood, he was denied that dream. However I think we need to take a step back from that for a second if we want to dig deep. I mean, a lot of the other characters also behave heroically, act selflessly, and strive to help. Does that mean all of them are 2s as well? Of course not. So let’s instead turn to observe how Izuku acts with his loved ones, friends, and peers in other/adjacent contexts:

Inko: He is committed to protecting his mother from fearing for his safety. He wants to be good enough to not cause her to worry, rather than good enough to make her proud or make her love him. Idk about his father but at this point I think it’s safe to assume he is deeply unimportant.

All Might: I would describe their relationship as one of mutual responsibility. Izuku feels a responsibility to uphold All Might’s legacy, All Might feels a responsibility to teach him well. Because of this mutuality, I don’t think it quite makes sense to say Izuku deliberately seeks approval for its own sake. You know what I mean? They may be a mentor and a pupil but in practice they are almost more like co-conspirators. They don’t really have a power dynamic going on.

Shouto, Tenya, other friends: Izuku seems to take an interest in what makes his friends tick, and he sets himself aside in order to both analytically and intuitively determine what’s wrong and how to solve it. Examples include his fight against Shouto in the sports festival, and his stubborn concern for Tenya’s reaction to his brother’s forced retirement. He will put himself in the line of fire specifically when confronted with another person’s inner demons. This is not a labor that is asked of professional heroes, it’s just who Izuku is. You can also extend this observation to how he sees through Tomura to Tenko, but I’ll get to that later. Basically, while 2s seek to help in all kinds of ways, a 9’s strategy is always centered on the realm of the mind.

Kota: Adjacent to the paragraph above, before Izuku literally gets into a position where he needs to save Kota, he becomes interested in the boy’s point of view out of genuine curiosity. He doesn’t go “oh no, this kid doesn’t like heroes, I better get him to like heroes.” Instead he seeks out information as to why he thinks that way, and patiently listens. He’s sorry about what happened to Kota, and he understands. Twice (ch 71 and 72), he recognizes the fact that everyone has their own point of view on quirks, and he can’t really do anything about that.

Mirio: This might be one of the most telling examples. Mirio is the platonic ideal of an All Might successor. He’s “perfect.” He even looks the part. While this initially makes Izuku uncomfortable, he doesn’t become insecure and defensive over it. On the contrary, he easily comes to the conclusion that actually, Mirio should have One for All. Just like that (ch 172). If Mirio hadn’t dismissed the “hypothetical,” he probably would have gone through with giving it to him. That’s not how a 2 would respond. A 2 would double down and aim to be better than Mirio by trying to establish some relationship of need, fueled by the insecurity. Their shared subplot with Eri would have looked pretty different, I think.

Katsuki: I’ve mentioned before that I believe their rivalry only exists because Katsuki put it there. First of all, we can see that after the sludge villain incident, Izuku weirdly takes Katsuki’s dismissal of Izuku’s help as practical advice. Like, “oh yeah, I guess what I did was pretty stupid and dangerous, and I’m not cut out for this hero stuff. Now I can move on and find a realistic career.” Hello?? He accepted that so easily. So Izuku clearly isn’t motivated by a desire to prove himself to Katsuki. Even when he proclaims he’s going to surpass him, it’s like he’s happily mimicking Katsuki, not reacting based on insecurity or pride. Izuku is content to meet Katsuki wherever he is, and he’s satisfied with whatever kind of relationship they are able to have, including a rivalry, so he isn’t vying for his affection either. We can observe this when he gives up the role of reaching out a hand to save Katsuki to Kirishima, and also when he thinks about how “blessed” he is to even have a normal conversation with Katsuki. He doesn’t push things. It’s also stated in Deku vs. Kacchan 2 that Izuku doesn’t excuse or overlook Katsuki’s “bad side” but still admires him for his other traits. This is not at all characteristic of a toxic 2x8 relationship.

When 2s are at their very worst or pushed into unhealthy situations, they tend to become more needy and self-centered, even downright manipulative. But at Izuku’s worst, when he went rogue, he pushed everyone away to avoid being a burden. When the refugees at UA tried to prevent him from returning, he was like, “you’re right” and would have turned back immediately if not for his friends, loved ones, and other people who care about him telling him it was all okay. Meanwhile, Katsuki, in true 8 fashion, was pissed off at being rejected and having to deal with Izuku’s stubborn and evasive side (oh yeah, have I mentioned 9s are actually stubborn as hell?), but he made sure to establish that they are (he is) here to step in when Izuku can’t handle things by himself. Katsuki even opened up and admitted to his own weaknesses to show why mutual support is so important. Tbh, a lot of the above can be construed as just super healthy type 2 behavior, but not this. The way Izuku acts at his lowest, and his dynamic with Katsuki? Totally different. Dead giveaway for a 9.

Let’s get into the type 9 itself in more detail to show how it applies to Izuku more deeply—seriously, it’s beat for beat. One of the key differences is, while 2s seek validation, 9s are actually resigned to the belief that they aren’t important. Similar to 2s, a 9′s basic fear is of separation, but their basic desire is actually just peace or harmony rather than love. Notice how these motivations are just like a 2’s, except they have the “self” part taken out. With that in mind, they “achieve” their basic desire through selflessness in and of itself, without the need for recognition. That’s not to say that 9s are better than 2s. In fact, a 9 can be worse, in a way. If unhealthy, they will seek peace at almost any cost to themselves. In other words, they can be more self-destructive while still under the impression that they are doing just fine. “Peace” may refer to the expression of empathy, fulfilling the needs of others, sheltering someone, or mediating a fight—but also to repressing their own opinions and needs, not “rocking the boat,” ignoring negative emotions, or becoming a vessel for someone else to vent to.

What about inner peace? 9s value serenity, and thus they have a complicated relationship with the most tumultuous of emotions: anger. On the surface, 9s look like the type that is extremely slow to anger and highly tolerant. However, as much as they would like to believe this about themselves too, deep down, 9s are afraid of what might happen if they lose control. My phrase for it is this: I feel like a bottled tornado. Personally, I also think of anger as a basic desire to make others feel your pain—not necessarily sadistically, but in an effort to be known, to be understood. The difficult thing to grasp, especially for a 9, is that this is NOT inherently a bad thing. It isn’t wrong to seek sympathy. On the contrary, it is harmful to tell yourself that getting angry is wrong, because it’s like telling yourself that your pain is wrong, your pain doesn’t matter.

The problem is it doesn’t stop there. A 9, in shutting down their anger, ends up with such a low opinion of their own heart, their other emotions dull along with it. They cry less, laugh less, love less. It’s often said that they “fall asleep” to themselves. It all starts with anger. It’s interesting to note how different this whole mindset is from toxic masculinity—where men only feel allowed/able to express emotions through anger. This is sorta like the opposite. Anger becomes the dam rather than the river. For Izuku, I want us to consider that his suppression of anger carries with it the implication that he is hiding other things, too. It’s a given. There’s a whole sea of feelings out there, and we can only see the waves hitting the shore. This brings me to the whole “control your heart” thing. I do think it is worth mentioning that Banjou didn’t just tell Izuku to exercise control. He also told him that his anger could be useful if it is harnessed. With this added context, “control” here means “to master.” And Izuku seemed to grasp this concept… sorta. I think that if Izuku is like a 9, we can assume he has trouble understanding how anger could be a worthy source of strength. His emotions in relation to Katsuki feel more like a weakness to him, a character flaw in a hero, who is supposed to be detached and selfless. But he’s trying to understand, even though he’s afraid of it. He essentially applied the same strategy he used for mastering OFA itself: incremental strength training. Which, okay. Take a moment to absorb how odd that is, in relation to emotions, specifically. Does one learn to cry incrementally? Does one learn to use anger by bottling a fucking tornado?? Like, what, you think you’re gonna be able to let out juuust the right amount of air to avoid an explosion??? No, man… if you want to be the master of your emotions you have to be willing to sit with them. Confront them. Listen to them. Take them in completely and accept them as a part of yourself.

For someone like Izuku, though, it is very difficult to imagine how this is even possible. Tomura, as with every villain, can be used to reflect his hero counterpart’s greatest fear about himself. Tomura literally touches everyone and everything with his rage, and as a physical manifestation of that desire to pass his own pain onto others, destruction radiates from his fingertips. Thus, losing control in this manner must be Izuku’s worst nightmare, as if he would be completely unable to stop the collateral damage like an infinite line of dominoes. But his anger is not something he can overcome, as such.

An overarching theme in this heroes vs. villains conflict is that the villains are not merely obstacles to be overcome. Just think back to Himiko’s bitter rejection of the heroic sense of superiority. She demanded not to be pitied, condescended to, or lied to. Likewise, the answer cannot be that Izuku needs to restrain himself where Tomura doesn’t. What purpose would it serve to show that Izuku is better than him? Certainly not saving Tomura. If this was a battle against AFO, it might have been a different story. In that case, Izuku would have to overcome his emotional manipulation tactics. Tomura, on the other hand, is not so strategic. With his strangely childlike tendencies, he must relish making Izuku mad because it brings them closer to the same wavelength. It’s his own twisted way or seeking sympathy, or at least, the closest thing to sympathy he can get anymore, because he believes he is beyond saving. With that in mind, Izuku isn’t going to get anywhere unless he rises to meet him. Izuku has to match Tomura’s hatred with equally strong emotions of his own, whatever they may be, or else face the loss of OFA (as established in 305). This is not an easy thing to ask of a 9, once they have started to pull the blood from their extremities, become cold and numb. Bringing back circulation is painful and makes the skin crawl.

In case you’re worried about the focus on anger here, I want to reiterate that concealed anger in a 9 is just one sign of so much more. Back when everyone started fretting about Izuku’s habit of self-sacrifice, which would have been the only thing we need to worry about if he were a 2, I was freaking out because Izuku was also starting to look like a person who has too many secrets. You don’t even have to acknowledge the possibility that he lied about what triggered blackwhip. It’s written all over his face all the time these days. It’s especially noticeable when you contrast him with Katsuki after all his own growth. Katsuki confides in people. He acknowledges his weaknesses. He enjoys being himself. He asserts his place. He thinks about Izuku all the damn time and now he even lets himself be soft about it. All this warmth while Izuku is distant, muted, and blank. I know all too well what this state of mind is like. Man, I hate secrets. You get to the point where you don’t know how to talk about even the simplest most inconsequential shit. And the bigger things? They’re like a growing snowball of words in your throat that cannot possibly fit out of your mouth. The “easiest” way to cope is to simply fade into the rhythm of life. Go with the flow.

Since 9s have a natural curiosity about the interiority of other people, they may choose to focus on that in order to divert their own attention away from themselves. Taken to the extreme, they will lose track of their sense of self. Like I said, you can see Izuku doing this as he fights, analyzing the psyche of his opponent, and his match against Shouto in the sports festival was a fantastic early example. They became friends because of how observant Izuku is. His emotional intelligence and intuition are very strong, but gradually, as he has taken on greater responsibilities and experienced more trauma, he has gotten worse at applying these skills to himself. You know, we go on and on about how his narration has been reduced to nearly nothing, and it’s not just an absence of introspection, it’s an absence of self. It creates a lack of ownership over the narrative—what should be his narrative.

Right now, he’s focusing on trying to see Tomura as a person, figuring him out. I think it would be really satisfyingly ironic if in the process, he ends up uncovering insights about himself instead. It’s about time we learn what Izuku’s secrets are. I don’t actually think that Izuku mastering anger will constitute the emotion that is strong enough to keep Tomura from taking OFA. Moreover, he can’t expect to reach Tomura’s core, Tenko, unless he exposes his own. Rather, anger is the conduit for Izuku to unlock something else. Think of the way he described how Katsuki is his image of victory. The feeling manifests when he asserts a stronger sense of self (the urge to win) and he becomes more free with his words. I have no doubt that Tomura has the power to make unfiltered honesty spill out of him. He knows how to bring out his selfish needs, his pain, his pressure points, his fears, his insecurities. Hell, maybe Mt. Fuji erupting is a metaphor. I want to see Izuku explode while Tomura watches with mad glee. But then I want Izuku to Realize Things such that it finally sets him free. Then, instead of Tomura witnessing yet another person he touches fall apart, he gets to see someone become whole.

"I let the scale tip, feel all of it. It's uncomfortable but right. And we were born to try to see each other through. To know and love ourselves and others well is the most difficult and meaningful work we'll ever do." --Sleeping At Last, 'Nine'

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hsr-texts · 9 months

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find your cinderella

꒰‧₊˚✩彡‧꒱ ┊ ━━━━ prologue

꒰⸝⸝₊ʚ♡ɞ ┊ streamer!reader x mystery hsr character ꒱

꒰⸝⸝₊ʚ♡ɞ ┊ otome event ꒱

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꒰ ☰ DESCRIPTION ┊ ━━ When you do an unboxing livestream for your subsribers, you find an invite to an exclusive event called the "Find Your Cinderella" masquerade gala where you are guaranteed to find your supposed true love, as a rather enthusiastic manager told you. ꒱

꒰ ☰ NOTES ┊HIII omg you guys THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT!! Getting 1k followers is so crazy for me because I've never had a blog be received with this much love and support before so I've decided to make an extra special otome game style fanfic! ꒱

“Guys, look! The package just came in!”

You rushed into your studio, holding a sizable metal box. Inscribed on the sides was a logo of two masks, resembling a certain Aeon. Placing it down on the floor, you gave a sigh of relief. “Aeons, that was heavy!”

Your eyes glanced at the live chat and saw all the messages, curious about the package.

“Seems like you guys are more excited than I am,” You couldn’t help a small chuckle leaving your lips. “It took me quite a lot to get a hold of this limited edition package from LumiPro. Like, do you guys know how much it cost?”

A few comments popped up trying to guess the price.

You shook your head. “100,000 credits.”

The chat then flooded with shocked emotes and comments. It was more than a fair reaction. You found yourself silently thanking the stars that your current occupation as a streamer granted you a steady income. Otherwise, you probably would’ve had to eat the same type of cup noodles for months.

“Anyway!” You clasped your hands together. “Let’s open it up already! I’m dying to see what’s inside. What could possibly warrant such a steep price?”

Your index finger pressed on the button at the top and heard a voice.

“Vocal identification. Please state your name.”

You uttered your name. It was a good thing you added an auto-censor to your setup so that any sensitive information that could get you doxxed would be redacted in the stream. You didn’t want stalkers showing up at your home after all.

“Permission granted.”

Faint clicks of metal against metal could be heard as the mechanisms worked to unlock the box. A hissing noise came from it as the lid opened. You watched, feeling anticipation and eagerness bubble within your chest.

A hologram was projected from the box, showing a person wearing professional attire. They smiled.

“Thank you for purchasing from Luminous Productions. We’ve curated a package that we believe would be of most use to you. For further questions, you may contact support on our site. We hope you enjoy it to the fullest.”

You took a peek and gasped at the sight. “Guys, oh my god, they just gave me a new PC!”

They must’ve done their research because you did mention in your stream a month ago that you were looking for a better PC.

The chat seemed to be as excited as you were, knowing this meant you’d be able to go back to your regular streaming schedule.

You could tell this was a real high end PC after seeing the graphics card and CPU model. Not only that, but it came with a new headset, keyboard, and mouse. You took out the stuff and gently placed them on the floor, letting the viewers see it.

After noticing that there was more in the package, you rummaged around for the other objects. Your hand made contact with some sort of fabric so you pulled it out.

Your eyes widened as you realised that it was a fancy outfit. Upon looking, you could estimate that it was your size too. Was this tailor made?

“Holy shit…”

It seemed like it was for a real special occasion, not even just your run-of-the-mill party that regular people go to. This outfit would probably fit right in with a red carpet event for rich folks or celebrities. Well— One may say, “Hey, aren’t you a celebrity too?” but you weren’t cocky enough to claim the same status as those with inter-galactic levels of fame.

A slip of paper fell out of the outfit’s pocket and you turned to see what it was.

You squinted in confusion. A ticket…? After picking up, you couldn’t help but notice the holographic shine to it first. How pretty.

“Find Your Cinderella Masquerade Event?” You mumbled in confusion. Who was Sugo? You couldn’t recall knowing anyone that went by that name.

Suddenly, the screen flickered for a moment and a new window popped up next to your stream.

A person showed up, wearing what you could only describe as a pink clown outfit that somehow combines cuteness and gaudiness in one. They grinned at you with amusement.

“Heya to all those viewers watching at home!” Even the way they spoke seemed to have a theatrical ring to it. By the way the chat was going insane, the people watching the stream could also see them.

“My name is Sugo and I’m the event organiser of the Find Your Cinderella Gala, or the FYC Gala for short,” they introduced themselves with a flourish. “Pleasure to meet you.”

“Uh… hi?” You didn’t know how to respond. This was quite a bizarre experience to have someone hijack your stream to introduce themselves. Was this legal…?

They chuckled. “Yeah, sorry for the sudden appearance but I figured that it would shake things up a little. I’m sure your dear fans appreciate having two exciting things happening at the same time. You can bet that this’ll go viral too~”

“Right… So what exactly is this Find Your Cinderella Gala?”

“Glad you asked, dear anomaly!” They beamed. Eh? Why were they calling you anomaly?

“See, I’m doing a collaborative project with LumiPro. I proposed to them a large-scale event with celebrities from all over the galaxy, which would be broadcast to every streaming platform out there. The premise is simple, all attendees are there to find their one and only, their true love, their Cinderella, you get the idea.”

“So it’s a speed dating event for rich people?” Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion. It sounded like a stupid idea. And yet, a part of you was intrigued.

“Right on the money! What a clever streamer, it’s no wonder you got such high compatibility ratings with the other attendees~”

“A what?”

Their eyes gleamed with amusement. “So, we didn’t just pick the celebrities at random. I bet you’re wondering why a small time streamer is getting an invite to such an exclusive event, right?” They tilted their head, leaning on their desk.

You nodded slowly. It was still a mystery to you why you’d be invited when there are far more famous people in the galaxy.

“Behind the scenes, we’ve been developing an advanced algorithm that can find your best match in a group. How it works is that we pick a participant, feed it available information on said participant, then it calculates how well the person would get along with those within the group,” they explained, “What’s interesting for your case is that your average compatibility score with the group is 90%. Most folks that got tested only came up with a 60% average compatibility rating.”

You raised an eyebrow at this in skepticism. “Don’t you think that’s just a bug or something?”

They shrugged. “It could be, but we’ve done several tests and it always came out the same. We were hoping to add you in to act as an outlier to our pool of data.”

“So I’m just a guinea pig for your weird little experiment?” You gave them an unamused look.

“It’s just to see if your results were really true or if it was just a mistake on the algorithm’s part.” They shrugged. “I’m sure it’ll be a fun time for you regardless of my motives. A win win for all parties involved, don’t you just love that kind of thing?”

“I guess but doesn’t this come with strings attached?”

Sugo whined. “Ughhh, you’re gonna make this way less fun if you go in already knowing what you’re getting!”

“What kind of sane person would do something without knowing the full details?!”

A groan came from them. “Booo, that’s so boring! Life needs a special surprise factor that keeps things fun and interesting.”

They sighed after. “But fine. If you’re so skeptical, then I can throw in a 500,000 credit compensation if you end up not enjoying it. So even if you do lose, you still gain something!”

You stayed silent, trying to figure out if this was really worth the trouble of dressing up and going to a party.

“Anyway, that’s all the information I’m contractually allowed to give out. It’s your choice whether you want to go or not.”

“Can I have some time to decide this?” You asked them.

Sugo nodded, smiling in amusement. “Of course! It’s not good for a show to spend too much time on exposition, after all. Let’s give the player some time to shine, hm?”

“I have no idea what you’re saying.”

They giggled, ignoring what you said. “Bye bye! I’ll see you at the gala!”

Their window disappeared, leaving you with your viewers again.

You sighed. What a strange person. Did you really wanna go? It’s not like you had much to lose. Plus, you would be lying to yourself if you said you didn’t want to find out what that compatibility rating was all about.

“What do you think, chat? Should I go?” You turned to the screen, waiting for their input.

#honkai star rail #hsr #honkai star rail x reader #hsr x reader #jing yuan x reader #dan heng x reader #gepard x reader #sampo x reader #blade x reader #welt x reader

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sonder-paradise · 1 year

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Oooh, am I seeing this right? Requests are open! ( ᗒᗨᗕ ) I’ve been waiting for this day..! If you can, can I please ask for Chuuya and/or Dazai drabble or oneshot (whichever you feel like) with an enemies to lovers trope? I’m a sucker.. thanks and I hope you’re taking care of yourself! <3

𝐅𝐥𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐫 𝐅𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠? — 𝐁𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐨𝐮 𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲 𝐃𝐨𝐠𝐬

◊ ft. chuuya nakahara, osamu dazai, gn!reader

◊ genre. enemies to lovers, drabbles, pining the hell outta each other

— 𝐂𝐡𝐮𝐮𝐲𝐚 𝐍𝐚𝐤𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚

"what the hell was that?"

chuuya's voice echoed from the hallway as the two of you trudged down after a rather inconclusive mission. it wasn't primarily your fault that you had forgotten the new series of instructions he had given you on the spot.

but then again, it was basically his fault for going off-script as well. you frowned, grasping the arm you were currently nursing.

"what do you mean, 'what the hell was that?' what the hell were you doing?!"

"i was doing fine. i thought i told you if things went south to go back to base."

"oh, shut up. i practically saved your life, nakahara."

"i didn't need that help, l/n. you're a pain in my ass anyways."

the two of you shot a glare at the other before the ache in your limbs caught up with you both. he flinched, his leg clearly going through a rather upsetting time in addition to your arm.

"c'mere let's get fix up before the Boss lectures us both," you sighed, pulling him into the room.

he frowned, shifting down on the seat across from you. upon noticing the way you struggled opening up the first aid kit, he clicked his tongue, reaching out a hand to snatch it from you.

"hey!"

"shut it. you're fucking arm isn't even working. i'll do it."

"i don't nee—"

"i didn't ask."

oh, this man! this stupid, idiotic fool! the very thought of his callous tone was enough to burn your bones and grind your teeth.

he grasped your arm, eliciting a loud wince. you expected him to scold you for the noise, but instead he lessened his pressure, holding your arm as if it were porcelain.

"sorry," he mumbled. and you practically didn't catch it if not for the fact he had gotten ever so close to you. his hands carefully bound the arm that you nursed and there was this... odd look in his pretty eyes.

wait, pretty?

you paused, starstruck at the mere thought of finding chuuya nakahara of all people 'pretty.' but there was something fascinating and hypnotizing about the way he gazed at your injuries. he seemed almost upset at them.

"stop glaring at my arm, there's nothing i could do about it."

"yeah, right. at the very least, stop squirming you're fucking up my wrapping."

"it's too tight."

chuuya paused, looking up at you before leaning in just a bit closer. a wicked smile crept into his expression and a spark of something close to lust and hatred seeped into his eyes.

"complain anymore and i'll tie your pretty, little wrists together."

— 𝐎𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐮 𝐃𝐚𝐳𝐚𝐢

"you're infuriating, dazai."

"idiotic, perhaps?"

"antagonizing."

"absolutely vexing?"

"oh shut it, we're supposed to be working right now, not fooling around in a silly cafe."

dazai grinned, cupping his hands around a warm mug of coffee. you rolled your eyes at the smile, finding this situation to be nothing less than nonsensical.

"we're supposed to be looking into the assignment fukuzawa gave us. can you please explain to me what we're doing here?"

you tapped a finger against the desk, observing the foolish man before you. he was certain a character. a wild card, if that was accurate. but, even now, when the two of you were supposed to be at work, he was fooling around.

"what's wrong? do you not like our little outing?"

dazai took a sip from his drink, smiling like a mischievous child. it's clear he's trying to overrun your patience, but you were not willing to let that go.

"i just think we should be working."

"ah, but we are, my darling! i'm working on a side project on my own."

this again. you were certain this was the fifteenth time he had mentioned this silly little side project of his. whatever it was, he clearly was getting closer to the conclusion of it.

"what's wrong, y/n? not liking the company?"

"not at all, actually."

he gave you a brief pout from behind the cup. there's something oddly adorable about it. just from the way he seemed so earnest towards you. as if there's something he wanted to admit for the first time.

"sorry," you mumbled, seemingly surprised at your own apology.

"not need, i'd say you aren't exactly my cup of tea either."

oh, you have half a mind to throw hands with this man right here and now. but you pause that thought when he flashes that familiar grin all over again.

"but those sorts of feelings are what people usually sort out on first dates, no?"

"i suppose so... wait... first date?"

dazai seems amused at this. the laughter that trickles out from him as you burning from the neck up.

"yes, first date. is this not what this is? after all the hard work i put into planning my little side project..."

oh, this little bastard...!

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cookstorys · 1 year

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𝙱𝚛𝚊𝚝

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Character- Markus Baker

Show/Movie- Ginny and Georgia

Warning- sneaking in, mentions of sex, making out, getting caught

Author Note- 🤏🏾This close to almost being smut

Females DNI ‼️

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“Thanks for the great time girls but I gotta go do a project.” You smiled as you walked up to your room. “Ok sweet peach,” Georgia yelled. Before you could even sit in your desk seat there was a knock at your door. You opened it to be greeted by the birthday girl herself, Ginny. “Do you think you could stall for me? I’m trying to sneak out and-“ “Sure.” You cut her off. “Really?” She asked surprised you were so ok with it. “Happy Birthday.” Ginny silently screamed and went for a hug which was an uncommon action for your twin to do. “Thank you, I swear you won’t regret it.”

She walked towards her room and you closed your door. Once again before you could pull out your laptop there was a knock on your window. ‘Great’ You looked towards it to see the ‘bad boy’ next door, Marcus. You went to open it and he slipped in. “Hello, baby boy.” He smiled but you just cringed. “Baby boy?” You asked with a smile. “You don’t like it? I thought you would since-.” Marcus cut off his sentence when you gave him the look. “Sorry geez.” He laid on your bed. “Why aren’t you celebrating your birthday.” He asked. You walked towards your bookshelf beside your desk. “I wasn’t born until 12:01 so my birthday isn’t until tomorrow.” You answered. “Where the fuck did I put that book?” You asked yourselves out loud.

“You mean this one?” You looked towards Marcus to see him holding up the very book you were looking for. “Yes actually. Markus what are you doing.” You laughed. As you were walking towards him he had somehow pulled you into his lap. “Nothing.” He answered with a smirk. Tho you guys didn’t exactly have a label for this ‘thing’ you guys had, it was pretty clear you both had feelings for one another.

“Oh really?” You smirked and went in for a kiss which Marcus quickly returned. Even tho you never really had anyone like this at your old school(s) you guessed you were pretty good. Since Marcus always seemed to enjoy himself. You kissed him a little harder, with a lot more passion now. He followed the kisses down your neck leaving marks behind his trail. You held a moan inside.

You couldn’t hold the urge anymore, your hands traveled to his pants struggling with the pants zipper. “Wait, I thought we were going to wait?” Marcus asked as he pulled from this neck kisses, out of breath. “I thought that’s where we were going?” You asked embarrassed now. “No I’m not saying I didn’t want it to not go there, I just wanted to make sure you were sure before losing your v card.” You smiled, he cared.

“I’m more sure than ever.” You responded kissing up his jawline to finally make it to his lips. He smirked and kissed back. Your arms found their way back to his hair as he went back to kissing your neck. You started grinding your hips on his lap. You didn’t know what you were doing. He threw his head back, in the pleasure your guessing, and your hands went towards his zipper.

“Where is Ginny?“ Your mom yelled as she opened your door. You and Marcus looked at her with traumatized expressions and broke apart. “Ma, me and Marcus were only-“ She held out her hand to stop you. “I can only deal with one child crisis at a time.” She exhaled and closed the door. “I’m dead.” You sat on your bed. “Well, at least we can continue,” Marcus whispered and went in for a kiss. You dodged it and pointed toward your window.

“Brat.” You said to him

#male reader #ginny and georgia #marcus baker

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camaro-and-smokes · 1 year

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Wounded deer

My entry to @steveharringtonbingo card 1, square B1: Shoulder to cry on. Also entry for @billyhargrovebingo card 1, square B1: Busted lip.

Rating: Teens and up Warnings: No warnings Characters: Billy Hargrove, Steve Harrington Relationships: Billy Hargrove/Steve Harrington Tags: Bruises, Angst, Harringrove, Angst and Hurt/Comfort Words: 1,262

Summary: Sometimes Billy came in with a black eye, or a busted lip - like today - and Steve didn’t ask why. Because when he came in like that he was like a wild animal, a wounded deer. Once you gain its trust to let you help it, you better not make any fast moves or it runs off and never comes back.

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Steve opened the front door and his eyes grew large. “Wha-what's that?” Steve asked when Billy pushed past him through the door. “A new jacket,” Billy mumbled. “No...okay, yeah, it’s a nice jacket. But...” Steve pointed vaguely at Billy’s face. Billy grimaced. “‘is nothing, okay?” he snapped. “Let it go.” Steve’s brow furrowed and he crossed his arms on his chest, his lips as a tight line. He wanted to know, he wanted to help, but... “Okay,” he sighed.

Steve knew that something was off at Billy’s home. But he also knew that what he and Billy had...he wasn’t sure what they had. Billy came over, mostly they just talked but lately they'd also started to make out.

Sometimes Billy came in with a black eye, or a busted lip - like today - and Steve didn’t ask why. Because when Billy came in like that he was like a wild animal, a wounded deer. Once you gain its trust to let you help it, you better not make any fast moves or it runs off and never comes back.

So, he walked to the bathroom and came back with the emergency kit and handed it to Billy. “Just...if you want to clean that up. I mean, you don’t have to. Not for me. But...for you.” Billy took the box and looked at it for a while. “Thanks,” he whispered, and went to the bathroom, locking the door behind him.

Steve stood in the foyer the whole time Billy was in the bathroom. When Billy came out, Steve saw that he had a butterfly bandaid pulling the sides of the cut together and bloody wipes in his hand. “Where can I put these?” he asked quietly. “Kitchen. Come,” Steve said and started towards the kitchen.

Once they got there, Steve opened the bin door for Billy and went to the fridge. “Want a beer?” “Sure.” But Steve didn’t offer it for Billy to drink. Billy held the cold bottle against the cut and closed his eyes. “I just want you to know that...if you ever feel like it, you can--you can, you know, talk to me about it,” Steve said. When Billy glared at him, he raised his hands in a placative gesture. “Only if you want to. You don’t have to.”

They stood like that in silence for a while: Billy holding the bottle against his face, glaring, and Steve his hands held up. “I’m here for you,” Steve finally said. “I’ve been here for you for a while. I hope you know that.”

Billy knew. He’d known for a long while. Ever since they started this...thing. He didn’t know what it was that they had. All he knew that being with Steve was easy. Well, ever since they had settled what happened at the Byers. He didn’t have to worry when he was with Steve. He felt safe with him.

But he also didn’t want to bare his insides to anyone. While he knew he could trust Steve, it was really hard to open himself up. He’d learned to live with keeping everything inside - because that was what real men did - and letting the walls down he’d so meticulously built and kept up...it horrified him. But even now, as he glared at Steve, he just wanted to cry. Because he didn’t want to keep Steve away. He wanted Steve to know.

And that thought was what broke the dam.

Billy looked away his chin quivering and his lashes fluttering as he desperately tried to keep the tears from falling, but failing. He wiped his face angrily, but the tears kept rolling on his cheeks like a waterfall, and he cried quietly there, in Steve’s kitchen, the salt of his tears stinging the still raw cut.

Steve bit his lip when he saw Billy broke into tears. He didn’t think, he just acted. Before he realized what he’d done, he was hugging Billy, his arms wrapped tightly around him, his chin on his shoulder. Just holding him.

And Billy hugged him right back. Big, ugly sobs fell out from his mouth. “I can’t...I--I...” he stuttered. “I just can’t... It never ends.”

“It’s okay. You’re safe,” Steve whispered and hugged Billy tighter.

The words made Billy just cry even harder. He knew Steve meant what he said. Really meant.

No charade to make him think that maybe this time would be different. No empty promises of never to be hit again. No apologies that led him just to be disappointed by actions.

Steve felt his neck and shoulder get wet. But honestly, he didn’t mind. It was the very first time Billy really opened up - even though not by words - and while Steve still didn’t know what was actually going on, he sure as hell wouldn’t let tears and snot on his skin and shirt spoil the moment. They could be cleaned away.

But he wouldn’t let this wild and wounded animal get spooked and run away. Because at that moment Billy needed him. And it meant the world to Steve. More than he had ever thought it would.

They hugged until Billy’s sobs finally eased. Then Billy let go and pulled himself away. He turned and wiped his eyes with the heels of his palms and his nose to his sleeve.

Steve grabbed a stack of tissues from one of the cupboards and handed them to Billy.

Billy nodded as a thanks and blew his nose to one and taking another to wipe his whole face. “I’m sorry I messed tonight. I didn’t come here for this," he said between hiccups.

“Hey. You don’t have to ever be sorry for that. Not with me.” Steve was quiet for a while, pondering if he should say the words he was thinking out loud. “I don’t know what’s going on. I guess it has something to do with your dad?” He looked at Billy for a while saying nothing. Billy still wouldn’t look at Steve. “This isn’t the first time you come here with a bruise of some kind,” Steve continued. “But you don’t have to tell me. I see that you hurt, and all I wanna do is to... to be there for you." Billy just nodded, trying to ease his hiccups. “You want to drink that beer?” Billy shook his head. Steve took the bottle from the table and put it back into the fridge. “I got Advil. Want one?” After a while Billy nodded. Steve dug the box from a cupboard and handed it to Billy with a glass of water. Billy grimaced as he opened his mouth to eat the tablet he took from the box. He emptied the glass with just a few gulps, and handed it back to Steve. “Wanna watch a movie? Or something?” Steve asked. Billy nodded.

They went to the living room, and sat on the couch, both in the either end. Steve looked at Billy and placed his arm on the backrest. “Hey. Come here.” Billy finally looked at Steve. He had red eyes that pretty much matched the reddening around the bruise on his lip. After a while, he got up and snuggled onto Steve’s side. Steve smiled to himself and wrapped his arm around Billy’s shoulder, placing a kiss on his head.

Billy closed his eyes. A wave of utter relief ran through his whole body. This is where he wanted to stay for forever.

Safe and far away from the rabid wolf he knew would at some point finally eat him alive.

#harringrove #harringrove ficlet #billy hargrove #steve harrington #steve x billy #billy x steve #angst #emotional hurt/comfort #hurt/comfort #steve harrington bingo #billy hargrove bingo #suometar writes

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zeglythofficial · 3 months

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Tarot 2.0 briefly said that Francis wasn’t a fan of J? What’s the tea on that omg

Oh sorry I cut that out of the notes lol because I didn’t think people cared about J tbh

Me: wait what! Why does Francis not like J?

Pulled: Seven of swords

Tarot 2.0: this is the deceit and trickery card. how did J get this role? He auditioned?

Me: R signed on after J got the role so you be the judge of that

Tarot 2.0: hmmmm I see then. So Francis does like J or at least tolerates him but J wasn’t his choose to play Sir-whatever-the characters name is. I’m still confused though

Me: R was Francis only choice for Lucy Gray

Tarot 2.0: sure but I’m not understanding where the deceit is coming from. How was J deceitful if Francis knew they were dating unless he regretted it? Wait. Hold on….let me get this straight: Francis wanted R as Lucy Gray so he signed on her bf who happened to “audition” and get the role?

Me: Francis said he didn’t know—

Tarot 2.0: well that’s fucking bullshit. I don’t believe in that coincidence shit. Francis had to know those 2 were dating so it’s something else going on here. Where’s the deceit and lies coming from?

Me: J lied about liking wine apparently. And Francis found out after gifting him an expensive bottle.

Tarot 2.0: oh. Okay. That’s disrespectful and now I’m seeing what the problem is. Francis didn’t actually have a problem with giving J the role because he wanted R that much. His love for R outweighs his other casting choices for the movie. He was cool because R and T were perfect so J didn’t matter much. It seems like he got along with J just fine and grew to like him but J disrespected him with lying about wine and whatever else. It was a slap to the face since they bonded over it.

Francis is nicer than me because I would have asked for my bottle back.

Me: unfortunately J left the bottle to rot in a warm car so it got ruined. T made fun of him and let everyone know during the press tour.

Tarot 2.0: T is petty because he knows Francis is bothered by it. Very cunning. But no, Francis was legit disrespected and disappointed by that. He feels like J is lucky to have gotten his role and be dating R.

J is very stupid tbh. He had one job (take the role seriously and not annoy Francis) and he failed to do that.

Something else is off though. J is doing another project, right? Is it with Francis?

Me: no it’s with Nina (the producer)

Tarot 2.0: ahhh I see. Yeah Francis feels used tbh. He should. R is getting J many connections and he’s blowing it. J doesn’t know how to network properly. R can only do so much. Oh well.

#my answers #about j #tarot 2.0

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c4rdsharp · 1 year

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STARTER CALL.

meechi. well, fuck it. i'm throwing it out there. LIKE / REPLY if you want a short starter from Luck! Any verse applicable if you want to specify!

#( out of character. ) hold my cards i’m projecting #( starter call. ) don’t worry. that was only a warning shot.#// specify if you're a multi please but otherwise!

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dei-lab-assistant · 4 months

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Nothing Builds a Friendship Like a Crisis (part 4)

Co-written with multifandoms27

Summary: Mokuba has been kidnapped as the two of you performed his monthly inspection of Kaiba Land. Reginald O'Malley, the president of rival gaming company Knightly Rook, is responsible for the kidnapping, and has challenged Kaiba to a tag duel in order to win back Mokuba. To your surprise, Kaiba asked you to be his partner for the duel, since Yugi was out of town. As you head to the rooftop helipad, you hope you're not getting in over your head. Dub canon plus a version of DSOD. Female Reader. Set maybe two years post DSOD. (This chapter does not contain playing the card game...) Fun fact: I always write my Reader character with personality and specific description. Each reader character also has a specific place in the Yu-Gi-Oh world, and is basically an OC with set connections and feelings about the various canon characters and other reader characters. This is reader B, who is immune to the siren song of romance, cheap, eccentric, logical, and hands-on. Word count: 1,647 You can read part 1 here. You can read part 2 here. You can read part 3 here. You stood inside the elevator which had roof access, feeling the floor press against your feet as you and Kaiba shot upwards. The doors slid open to reveal a helipad. Stepping out onto the roof, you squinted in the blinding summer sunlight as heat radiated up from underfoot and down from above. After ditching your hat, abandoning your sunglasses, and replacing your t-shirt with a fitted black shirt and a short white vest, you had run after Kaiba, barely catching the elevator in time. Now, staring at your shadow, you smiled at your silhouette; it was angular, with your capris falling to your midcalf, and the vest cutting off halfway down your torso, with a high collar and flaring out shoulders. It was a good image, a strong outline, and it sort of reminded you of something… Team Rocket. You groaned.

Kaiba strode past you towards the helicopter, his hair ruffling in the wind created by the rotors. He moved without hesitation. This was your last chance to back out, but your mind discarded the suggestion. When you jumped into a project, you didn’t look back. This was no different. As the artificial wind and engine noise increased, you followed Kaiba inside the helicopter, feeling the sudden lack of blustering air as you pulled the door shut behind you. It was surprisingly quiet inside.

You almost planted your face against the window during takeoff. For a few minutes, the excitement of being in a helicopter drowned out everything else. Settling down on the bench opposite Kaiba, you tried to focus on your deck and prepare for the upcoming duel. “You look nervous.” Kaiba commented. “I am nervous. We’re about to duel for your brother. What if I’m not up to the task? What if we lose?” You regretted sharing your worries as soon as you said them.

“I don’t lose.”

“Oh, we both know that’s not true.”

Kaiba scowled at you. “I don’t lose to two-bit schemers like O’Malley.”

Fair point. Kaiba was an excellent duelist, one of the best in the world. “I might. I’m a decent duelist, but my deck is hardly top notch, and—”

“You won’t hold me back. I’ll win on my own if I need to.” Kaiba’s voice was ice. His eyes softened a smidge. “But you’re a competent duel partner.”

Kaiba believed in your ability? You gave a faint smile, he wouldn’t have asked you otherwise. “I try.”

“You better.”

After a few minutes of silence, Kaiba spoke up again. “Let me see your deck.”

Switching to the bench Kaiba was sitting on, you pulled your deck out of your belt box and spread the cards between you. Working at a game shop brought advantages; you had managed to get some decent cards, and were using one of the new ‘archetypes.’ When you first found out about the Kozmo cards, you knew you wanted to try and build a deck with them. But even with an employee discount, and Yugi’s Grandpa helping track down cards, you had barely managed to build the simplest form of the deck.

“Hm.” Kaiba grabbed his silver briefcase from the floor and opened it. His laptop was strapped into the lid, and the base of the case held thousands of dollars worth of cards. Your eyes widened. “Borrow a few for your deck.” It sounded more like an order than an offer.

“I can’t start swapping my cards right before a duel! It could mess up my strategies.” It was stupid, but you didn’t want to feel like you owed him anything.

Kaiba planted his fingers on a few of your cards and slid them across the bench towards you, “I’m offering you a chance to replace your weak staples with stronger options. Take it.”

“Fine, but I’m giving them back after we win. I don’t need your charity.” You took the briefcase from Kaiba and perused the contents. This would require thought. After selecting a few cards like Ice Dragon’s Prison and Pot of Greed, you showed Kaiba the chosen cards and slipped them into your deck. He nodded approvingly.

Kaiba pulled out his own deck, rifling through the cards idly until he found one of his favorites.

“Can I look at one of your Blue-Eyes?” You were surprised at your own audacity, but if you wanted Kaiba to treat you like an equal, you would need to act like one.

“Sure.” Extending two fingers, he held the card out.

Up till now, you had only held the ripped Blue-Eyes at the game shop. This one was beautiful. You could imagine its roar. Feel its presence. Holding the card was an honor—you felt like Kaiba had handed you part of his soul.

“Do you know what that card represents?” Kaiba asked.

“You?”

Kaiba almost smiled. “You spend too much time with Yugi.”

You realized your mistake. “Your power.” It wasn’t a guess anymore, you knew you were right.

The corner of his mouth twitched upwards for a moment, before seriousness won out again.

You knew the card text without needing to look at it, “This legendary dragon is a powerful engine of destruction. Virtually invincible, very few have faced this awesome creature and lived to tell the tale.”

“Listen,” Kaiba stared at you intently, “We’re about to step into enemy territory. You can’t show weakness or fear, because our adversaries will pounce on any opening you provide.”

You nodded. “I’ll try, but I don’t feel overly confident right now.”

“Your feelings don’t matter.” Kaiba slammed his deck down on the bench between you. “Do you trust me?”

“Yes.” It was the truth.

“Then remember my power is behind you now, and act like it.”

“Kaiba…” You saw no deception in his eyes, only trust, and determination. “Thank you.” You handed back his card, realizing he was letting you into his world because he wanted you at his side. Taking a deep breath, you asked, “How long until we arrive?”

“Less than an hour.”

You leaned back against the wall, which vibrated as the copter beelined for your destination. Closing your eyes, running over everything your deck could do, you tried to focus, until the events of the day caught up to you, and you dozed off. Some time later, your head jerked up as your eyes flew open. It was too quiet. The helicopter had landed on another roof, this one in rolling mountains, surrounded by forests. Standing near the front, Kaiba held a muttered conversation with the pilot. You stretched and rubbed your neck. “This is our destination?” Outside the helicopter, men in suits and sunglasses gathered—a security team. Closing your eyes, you rolled them to slightly reposition your contacts; it was almost time for action.

Kaiba strode to the door. “Remember what I told you.”

You cracked your knuckles, nodding. “Let’s do this.” Nerves settled themselves; playing a game was easier than waiting for it to begin.

Throwing open the door, Kaiba jumped down. Inhaling deeply, you drew yourself up to your full height; you had always been comfortable with yourself—it was time to stop worrying about manners and act more like Kaiba. You grinned, casually stepping out the doorway and landing beside him. It was cooler here than in Domino City, the air filled with the buzz of cicadas and birdsong.

“What are you doing here?”

Hearing the quiet murmur, you turned to Bishop, who shifted slightly under your gaze. “Surprised to see me?”

“I went to considerable expense to keep you out of this mess, Ms. l/n.”

“Why’s that?” You asked, remembering Kaiba’s words about the high cost of the drugs in your slushy.

“I didn’t want to see a naive little girl get caught up in this game.”

“I’m four years older than Kaiba.” You weren’t angry, you had always looked younger than your age, and you certainly lacked experience in these high stakes games. “But I appreciate your concern.”

“Your boss is using you.” “Hnh.” Kaiba crossed his arms. “I like being useful. Besides,” you slid your hands into your pockets and leaned back against the helicopter, “I make my own choices, Bishop.”

“Suit yourself. But I wash my hands of your fate.”

Before you could reply, the nearby elevator entrance dinged. As the doors slid apart, Mr. O’Malley strolled out before they finished opening. He grinned. “Ah, Mr. Kaiba, I’m so glad you could join us!” The security men parted to allow their employer through. “And you’ve brought a woman with you. I’m impressed. Perhaps even the intolerable Seto Kaiba can attract a pretty face.”

“Don’t waste my time with your ludicrous assumptions, O’Malley.”

“Darling, the girl is obviously a gold digger.” From the elevator emerged a woman with bottle blond hair and flashy jewelry, her makeup and clothes trying desperately to hide her status as a middle aged woman in her forties. She wore a sleek black dress with brown fur accents perfectly matching O’Malley’s tie.

“Allow me to introduce the missus.” Holding out a hand to his wife, who took it with a regal air, O’Malley presented her as though royalty. “My dear queen Sasha—bright as fireworks in a summer sky, ambitious as Caesar, and lovely as the Ring of Kerry.”

“Am I supposed to be impressed?”

“Now now, Mr. Kaiba, no need to be rude. I’m sure your own queen has many lovely qualities as well. While her devotion to the white king shows a certain lack of wisdom, I’m sure she possesses other charms.”

He was still using chess metaphors, you noted.

“Get to the point, O’Malley, we’re here for Mokuba.”

“Ah yes, your poor little brother. The lad’s been quite adamant you would come for him.”

“Where’s Mokuba?” Kaiba’s tone dropped lower, bristling with hostility.

“I’m not a cruel man. I shan't keep such devoted brothers apart for long.” Turning gracefully, O’Malley looked back over his shoulder at them. “Please, follow me.”

#Seto Kaiba x Reader #Yu-Gi-Oh #Seto Kaiba #Yugioh DM #My content

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sequoiareachesforthesky · 4 months

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Various observations on Hotaru from the hit project by @tsumigram and what I get out of them

Warning : this post is a mess. You may feel like some obvious stuff is missing. You'd be right.

In this post, I'm going to list various observations I made based on citations. Then, I'll be trying to link these observations together within a small, more cohesive analysis (don't expect very in-depth analysis or theorizing, I'm not very good at it).

Here goes part 1 (citations, and then what i get out of them, specifically the highlited parts)

“I don't feel particularly averse to this place… rather, I can't say I really care. I can't remember any distinct preferences of mine.” - Character profile

“I'm fine with anything” - Timeline convo 07/12/23, talking with Remi about the name she should give them

“Chise : Are you a boy or a girl? I asked Ego, but she said it's not written on your prisoner card. Hotaru : Ahh, I mean, you can decide.” - Timeline convo 13/12/23

“Next year. I need to move out of this house. Who was the one wishing for it?” - Memory Report, Record n°3

-> Hotaru has, according to them, no preferences/tastes, no real personal identity, no sense of self. [1]

“It’s enough of a crime that I’m here. Right into Hell, I’ll take you with me” - Undercover

“The things that I like are getting on my nerves. Everyone thinks they're weird, so I can't stand them. Is it? Is it? As I see it, I'm the same as other people. I don't get what do I have to change.” -Memory report, Record n°3

-> As Hotaru sees it, there's something wrong at the core of their identity (your very existence is a crime ; what you like is wrong) [2]

“Ego-chan is really easy to talk to. I don't know what your real intentions are, but it makes me feel that you want to understand me. So, thank you.” - Character profile

-> Hotaru wants to be understood [3]

“Hm-m. Rather than judgment of sins, as you say, it sounds like an assignment of a role.” - Character profile

“You feel burning cold beneath your body; it starts to spread from your unmoving fingers, going further and further until becoming unbearable. You’re trying to wake up, you’re trying, desperately opening your eyes only to be pushed forward the next moment — right into the blurry air.” - Undercover

“In fact, Remi-chan named me Hotaru.” - Voice drama

“Another life that you'll give me.” - Voice drama

-> Hotaru is often the object of the action in matters that concerns them personally (objectification). Their agency is constantly being taken away, they are forced into things/roles they didn't choose. [4]

“Hotaru: Ahh— May I call you Ego-chan? I don't intend to disrespect your position as the warden, but I prefer to remember people's names.”

“Hotaru: I'm really doing my best to be respectful to people’s names. Because names hold a lot of meaning.”

“See you later, young lady. Or do you hate being called that? Not in particular. I see. I'm respectful, so I wouldn't refer to you in any way that you hate.”

“I changed my name in papers, but everyone keeps on calling me by the old one. This is so cruel”

-> Hotaru gives a lot of importance to respecting people's names and not referring to someone in a way they don't like. They give a value to what people choose to be called. [5]

(note : there's so much more to say about Hotaru and "names", they even explain in details what names mean to them in their voice drama, but this part is only about the intersection between the theme of "names" an the theme of "choice")

“Aren't you too old for being a school bully?” - Timeline cconvo 22/12/23

“Those girls pick on you.” - Memory Report, Record n°2

-> Bullying appears to be a core theme of Hatoru's story. In both of these instances, they are accusing others (girls) of being bullies. [6]

“Hotaru: It makes me feel a bit left out. Ego: Why so? Do others pick on you? Hotaru: Ahh— May I call you Ego-chan? I don't intend to disrespect your position as the warden, but I prefer to remember people's names. Ego: That's a sudden change of topic.” - Voice drama

-> Here, when Ego brings up bullying and ask Hotaru if they are being bullied, Hotaru avoids the topic. [7]

“Sorry, I can't really remember my name nor age. I know it's inconvenient, so if I come up with a way to refer to myself, I'll make sure to tell you first.” - Character profile

“Ego: Ahh, I suppose. …This is my first interrogation ever, so it might have been a little awkward… Hotaru: It's fine. Rather, I must be giving you more trouble since I barely can give information about myself.” - Voice Drama

“Ego: Jacka told me about your situation, so I won't ask you for a self-introduction. Hotaru: Sorry for the trouble.” - Voice drama

“Ego: That's a sudden change of topic. Hotaru: Sorry for that.” - Voice drama

“Uh… As for why I feel left out… I might get a bit talkative here. Do you mind?” - Voice drama

“I might be too dramatic, so don't overthink it.” - Voice drama

“There's no need to. I might go with another one later. You're going to get tired of making new prisoner tags each time, so it's better to leave a blank space.”

“Next year I'll do it. This is the worst, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.” - Memory report, record n°3

-> Hotaru apologizes a lot (x) and overall seems to be worried about being bothersome to people around them (x). They want to avoid annoying others at all cost. [8]

“Maybe… the reason why I forgot my name is that no one cared to remember it.” - Voice drama

“It’s uncomfortable to be remembered, right? I know your faculty, too.” - Memory report, record n°2

-> Being remembered is something ambivalent in Hotaru's story : it's important, valuable, yet it can cause you to be stuck in the past against your will by being associated with things that aren't related to you anymore (there's a loooot to say about Hotaru and "remembering", it's the amnesia man we're talking about after all) [9]

“Compared to everyone, it's like I don't really have a life. Either I'm dead already, or wasn't born yet.” - Voice drama

“Another life that you'll give me.” - Voice drama

-> Themes of birth/rebirth [10]

“It’s enough of a crime that I’m here. Right into Hell, I’ll take you with me” - Undercover

“Well, maybe you'll go to Hell and pay for it. Not that Hell exists.” - Memory report, record n°2

=> There's a couple of mentions of Hell in Hotaru's story, and with religious undertones since it's Hell with a capital H. [11]

Ok, now, my broad analysis (I don't think I'm very good at those so here goes nothing ig) :

Hotaru doesn't feel like they have their own identity (1), because they can't remember anything about themselves. Their life is a complete blur (as we are often reminded by pretty much every piece of content about them). Despite that, they also seek to be understood (3). There's a kind of contradiction in this: if they have nothing for themself, what is there to understand? As I see it, this desire to be understood is a remnant of their past life. Maybe there's nothing to understand anymore, but the effort is always valued and appreciated. They may also see it as a way to help them find their own identity : if others figure out things about them, they could start understanding themself better.

This importance that Hotaru gives to trying to understand others may result from the fact that others have never tried to understand them in the past. This can link to points [2] and [6] : people has made Hotaru feel as if there was something wrong with them without trying to go past that first impression and it turned into bullying. I think Hotaru has been bullied in the past, and that might be why they avoid the topic when Ego asks them if they are getting picked on (7), because it feels too personal, too close to home, even if they currently have no memory of it (avoidance as a coping mechanism).

in addition to the bullying, there's the fact that Hotaru may have lacked control over their life and choices as a whole (4). The way Hotaru has been treated by others could be the cause of their current behaviour : Hotaru apologizes a lot and doesn't want to bother others (8), which couls be because of low self-worth induced by the way others have treated them.

Because they know what it feels like for your choice not to be respected, Hotaru has developed a strong attachment to the importance of respecting other people's choices (5).

Now I haven't mentioned it because it's quite obvious, but Hotaru's story relates a lot to identity, and also gender. If we assume the person talking in the Memory report, record n°3, they changed name but others kept dead-naming them. It could technically be because of reasons that don't relate to gender identity, but I think we can assume it is as the topic of gender is also part of Hotaru's story and character (they use any pronous, according to them they don't care about being seen as either a boy or a girl, the Memory report record n°2 mentions specifically whether or not calling someone "young lady", etc.) Also the theme of "being reborn as a new person" (10) tracks with the idea of transitioning. Assuming Hotaru is some flavour of transgender, it's likely that this part of their identity was one of the target of their bully/bullies. Probably not the only one (cf citations in point [2]), and bullies will attack anything they can find in you anyway, but it shows how transgender youths are at a higher risk of not being accepted by their peers.

Very vague hypothesis about Hotaru's crime : The way Hotaru has been treated may have led them to seek vengence and kill someone, which could be the reason why they're here in Tsumigram. Aside from that, I don't know, there's mentions of taking someone in death with them ("Not that Hell exist. Does it? We'll see." "Right into Hell, I’ll take you with me") but I don't have enough analysis skills to get anything beyond that. Could've killed someone (or multiple people) with the intetion of killing themselves right after but didn't go through it in the end.

Anyway this post is kind of a mess, I didn't even really touch on the topic of memory, amnesia and stuff and barely mentioned the religious undertones but I just thought I'd do. something. This is more of an exercise for me on how to articulate my thoughts.

#tsumigram #analysis #i guess

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the-nosy-neighbor · 2 months

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Sunny

Information and speculation about a concept that Clown has made clear is no longer part of the project.

Notes gathered from Tumblr/Clown’s posts:

Was a bird character in early stages of development for WH. Sunny was a brazilian (?) bird that was bilingual. He was pictured with maracas.

Sunny was dating Frank, which leads everyone to say that Sunny is Frank’s ex.

Sunny had a bright and friendly personality, and served as a foil to Wally.

Wally would have eventually murdered Sunny to hide his secrets.

Clown stated that Sunny was created as a sort of hero character, but over time, Clown believed that the story shouldn’t have a hero.

Sunny would save everyone by exposing Wally.

Concept photos show Sunny on the phone, as a foil to Frank (opposites)

On the sticker sheet, Sunny’s name is upside down, which led my partner to turn the image upside down, which gives us a 9 instead of the 6 we were looking at.

Partner also mentioned that the other characters are holding their numbers, but Sunny’s is in his mouth.

We wondered if Sunny wasn’t going to be resurrected and become the 9th neighbor or a ghost or something, but Clown has been very insistent that Sunny is gone and no longer part of the project. (in light of conversations tonight, I might have been speculating about the wrong neighbor as a ghost)

Could Clown be throwing us off?

“Some say Home is the 9th neighbor” some say because others say Sunny was the 9th neighbor?

Edit: the guestbook has a comment that says "where did the 9th neighbor go?"

But, there is a phone without an owner and it looks old and beat up (also, made of wood). Could this be Sunny’s phone? The phone/card illustration (opposites) shows him on a red phone, and he is #6, where Frank is 3 (also yellow).

I’m not sure if the you’re free/i’m sorry graphic is Clown’s. It really looks like their style and resembles art I have seen of Frank (insert image of Frank with female hands in front of him) and also Wally (hand coming out of his mouth)

You’re Sunny, You’re Free: This image shows Sunny looking heroic, obviously behind some kind of door, with each character’s hands touching him. Could be in fear, supplication, pushing? The lightened image shows the many sets of eyes on this guy.

Looks like the notes on Sunny's shirt

On the site, one of the first pictures in the roll was an ad for some Playfellow products, with a blank spot and letter write overs. Let me tell you, from the beginning I have been obsessed with clarifying some of these images, and I have learned how to use photoshop way better as a result of my obsession:

When I first manipulated this image, I was convinced that there was some kind of Moon-headed guy there in the dark. I could see a crescent moon shape. I was convinced (and I wrote some about) that there was some kind of moon character to balance out Sally’s character, as there are sun and moon combos around.

But when I really started thinking about Sunny, I looked at this and thought, not a crescent moon, a beak. Sunny was pushed out of this ad, because he was pushed out of the show/reality/whatever. Sally comes in as his replacement. For the life of me, I can’t think of why Clown wouldn’t have just called the new character Sunny. After all, she is the sun.

This could all be wishful thinking because I really like this character. When compared with the other characters, Sunny is fun and cool. Plus, Sally is an actor who came in on a deus ex machina (fell from the sky, OK). She is another kind of petty and weird character who just replaced this other guy, almost like an actor in a recast role.

Sunny image/ad for fisher price people style toy. The neighborhood exists and the children have seen it.

“The Neighborhood”; Sunny. The Neighborhood’s happiest little blue bird flies in with a dance in his heart! It’s like he’s really here! So we’re going to get rid of it for good! We’re all going to get rid of it! we’re going to get rid of it for good! We’re all going to get rid of it! we’re going to get rid of it for good! We’re all going to get rid of it! we’re going to get rid of it for good! We’re all going to get rid of it! You’re going to get rid of it for good! We’re all going to get rid of it! You’re going to get rid of it for good! We’re all going to get rid of it! You’re going to get rid of it for good! We’re all going to get rid of it!

I think it is very possible that Sunny will make another appearance. Maybe he will only appear as a memory.

#welcome home #welcome home theories #wally darling #welcome home arg #welcome home wally

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j-ellyfish · 9 months

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https://www.tumblr.com/ellawritesficssometimes/170519291923/i-know-this-might-sound-like-a-radical-thing-to?source=share

Do you think germany is reincarnation of holyrome?

[Link to post]

Not exactly. I kind of disagree with the conclusions of that post.

In my opinion, Germany and HRE are two separate people, mind and body, but they share a connection.

First of all:

• If Germany and HRE look so much alike, they must be the same person or at least share the same body, right?

(X) Not necessarily.

Germania is also, fundamentally, Germany with long hair, yet no one would argue that Germania and Ludwig are the same person. It is very clear that they are not, despite their resemblance. Everywhere, it is stated that Germania is his grandfather, period.

Then why would that be different for HRE? Why can't they simply share a resemblance?

Hetalia Collezione hadn't come out yet when that post was written, but it contains a couple clues.

Obviously, the most blatant one is the line of text that was suspiciously taken away in the volume's "revised" version, where Germany is listed as HRE's younger brother. This was later changed in a way that no longer mentioned Germany but simply said HRE has many brothers:

This is pretty sus and I don't think it was a mistake but rather might've been retconned/hidden due to many people's reaction, but anyway, there's another clue that is still there and it shows how Germany and HRE looking alike is probably just the same case of simple resemblance between them and Germania:

[Source]

It seems that Himaruya just decided to make all of post-Germania Germanic characters more or less similar to Germania appearance-wise depending on how close he believes their heritage is to their ancient relative. In fact, this is mentioned also in Saxony's Collezione bio:

[Source]

Aaand, if we want to be super-super accurate, Germany and HRE don't share the exact same eye color. They don't in their early card and they also don't in the anime (sadly we can't make a comparison with newer material because as far as I know, HRE hasn't gotten a fully colored pic in quite a while):

HRE's eyes are typically depicted as a darker blue compared to Germany's.

•

That post also argues that this scene is a clue that they are the same person:

He’s wearing a nightgown…exactly like the one Holy Rome was wearing in chapter 187.

Yes, I’m aware that the nations are born in nightgowns, but there’s multiple ways of interpreting this. The nightgown/birth motif is definitely there, but… Look at the one German nation holding Germany’s hand. He’s crying. Now, put this into perspective. How would you feel if you thought your little brother was dead, only to find out that he’s been alive all this time?

This is, in my opinion, quite a reach.

The German Nations being excited, even moved to tears to see Ludwig for the first time, as well as Prussia insisting on calling him brother (like he used to do with HRE) can be explained by something else:

They are simply aware that HRE and Ludwig show a resemblance.

If you thought you had lost a beloved little brother to death, and then happened to find another little boy who shares a striking resemblance with him ... Wouldn't you feel instinctively drawn to him? Wouldn't you feel an innate sense of love and protection towards him, because you're projecting onto this boy the feelings you have for your late sibling?

It doesn't really need to be HRE to sparkle such an interest, he simply needs to:

Be clearly of Germanic origin, hence one of your kind, incarnating a Germanic territory (and they probably guessed he could be nothing other than the German Confederation, and was welcomed wholeheartedly because it was a sign that their unification project was going in the right direction, despite HRE's loss);

Look like him

That's it. The first point would resonate with the Pre-Unitary States' condition as Country Personifications: if a new sibling is born, at that time, it means that it's a sign of destiny, HRE didn't die in vain, and the German Confederation is meant to go somewhere, otherwise a new Personification wouldn't be born out of that patriotic belief.

The second point would resonate with the siblings' human side: as I said earlier, any human would also feel naturally excited and emotional if they crossed path with a kid that reminded them heavily of a late beloved, and they'd feel drawn to the kid and feel instinctive sympathy.

•

So, what's the connection between HRE and Germany?

Here's how I see it.

Much like how Germania shares a strikingly resemblance with HRE and Germany because they all kind of represent the same geographical area (more or less), HRE and Germany look very alike because they were brought to life by virtually the same group of humans.

After the idea of a German Unification took off, a growing group of (pre?) German humans, as well as at least a part of their State Personifications (Countries can also influence each other's existence, as it was apparently America's belief to turn Finland into Santa), began developing a sense of unity, of 'German culture' that united their States beyond politicall borders.

So, the generation of humans that kept HRE alive between the late 1700s and early 1800s, before France defeated him, is actually the same that blew life into a new, post-HRE, unifying German personification: Ludwig!

Once HRE came back from the Napoleonic War, he was most likely no longer a Nation, he had turned into a human and died because of the wounds and illnesses he had caught on the battlefield and accumulated through the centuries.

While he was struggling on his last years of life, the "spirit of Unity" that humans have for their land/culture and that blows life into their Personification, had left HRE, but took a new shape and was blown into Ludwig, who at the time was about to spawn into existence.

He was already around HRE's age because the 'German patriotism' was already mature enough, HRE's experience as a political entity didn't go to waste but served a purpose in how the German Confederation came to be.

Once Ludwig was found by the Pre-Unitary States, they realized his identity and crowned him as German Confederation.

•

I think, because they were brought to life by the same group of people, Germany and HRE share, at least partially, the same soul.

Germany has a body and a mind of his own, but his soul has very vague memories of a past life.

I think Ludwig occasionally has this very vague sense of deja-vu, the thought of something so old and blurry, too far away in the back of his mind to grasp, something he's not even sure is real. Might be the memory of a dream, or of a thought, perhaps the memory of a fervid childhood fantasy.

That's because his soul wasn't "new", it wasn't a blank canvas when he got it, and HRE's existence left a very faint trace on it.

However, I wouldn't call it amnesia, because I'm pretty sure Germany is unable to remember, no matter how many hints he's given.

It wasn't his life, in any way, and those memories are too fragmented and blurry to make any sense, or to be grasped even for just one second. And the more he lives on, the more new experiences he has, the further back and forgotten those faint memories will get.

... Also, not to promote myself but years ago I wrote a fic about this. Maybe the translation is not the greatest bc it was originally in Italian (though I translated+revised it directly in English a couple years ago so there's no longer a finalized Italian version, it's English only), and I wrote it before HWS so there might be some canon divergence but here's a link if anyone would like to check it out!~

[Birth of an Empire]

#hetalia #aph germany #aph hre #ask #ary spoke

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mymarifae · 1 year

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assigning the project sekai characters tarot cards because i’m autistic. pulling from both the major and minor arcanas because working with just the major arcana was way too restrictive and also featuring my actual deck 💗

ichika: Eight of Pentacles

the eight of pentacles indicates that your life recently changed directions and you are now putting your all into your new goals. it's the card of commitment, basically; nothing will deter you from taking this path. reversed, the eight of pentacles is more about self-improvement and development over achieving goals. it may be telling you that you're focused on perfection to your detriment (ichika's struggles with lyric writing and so forth). take a step back and readjust your perspective.

saki: Ten of Cups

the ten of cups represents happiness and emotional contentment. you're surrounded by your loved ones, and you help each other reach your highest potential. keep following your heart and listening to your intuition; you're on the right track! the ten of cups reversed means a lack of harmony in your relationships. you have become disconnected from your loved ones. it can also indicate that your life in general has become unbalanced. you're doing too much; remember to reel it in. keep your expectations realistic.

honami: Queen of Cups

you are a compassionate, nurturing force. you're a master at supporting others, and you are quick to pick up on when things are 'off.' you're creative and in tune with your subconscious. the queen of cups reminds you that you are stronger than you know. reversed, the queen of cups serves as a reminder to take care of yourself too. it can indicate that your emotions are overwhelming you or that you're out of touch with them. learn how to ground yourself; learn to reconnect with your inner self and feel things truthfully.

(bonus: seven of wands reversed fits honami perfectly in don't let doubts hold you back and in putting feelings into words. the main message of this card when reversed is "sometimes conflict is necessary. stop compromising yourself to appeal to others.")

shiho: The Lovers

the lovers is about Choice. it's about choosing who you want to be and how you want to connect with the people around you. it's about open communication, and vulnerability and trust. build harmony by accepting the duality of life and yourself. on the flip side, the lovers also means you're denying your heart. you've become disconnected and you need to repair your relationships. it can signify a moral dilemma and serves as a reminder to stay true to who you really are. (hint hint l/n's main story And the RWY arc)

minori: Queen of Wands

you are upbeat, brave, and determined! stay that way; own who you are and show the whole world. the queen of wands indicates that you are a natural leader, and that your bright nature tends to inspire others. you truly bring out the best in the world. reversed, the queen of wands focuses on self-respect and confidence! it also indicates a period of introversion where you take the time to build up your sense of self. learn how to own who you really are and express it with no reservations (applies to minori in her younger years).

haruka: Five of Cups

you made a mistake. a situation didn't turn out how you hoped, and now... you're wallowing in it. you're stuck in the past. and life is passing you by. there are new opportunities within your grasp, but you're too afraid to reach for them. the five of cups reversed tells you to forgive yourself for your mistakes. the past can't be undone. open up your heart, even though it's scary, and learn how to have hope for the future again.

airi: The Sun

the sun is a very bright card. it represents optimism, success, and a general zeal for life. your positive, radiant energy draws people to you, and it's what makes you so damn resilient. you're full of energy and you're thriving on your current path. the sun reversed tells you that you're being too negative. this negativity is holding you back and is confusing you, and you can't see the way forward. be more open-minded. (airi's struggles with feeling seen as a 'real' idol because of her variety show work)

shizuku: Eight of Cups

the eight of cups represents disappointment and a lack of fulfillment. something hasn't turned out how you thought it would and now all you want is to walk away from it entirely. the eight of cups asks you to ask yourself what brings you joy. reversed, the eight of cups can indicate that you're caught between walking away and trying one more time. really listen to your intuition and reevaluate your values and what's important to you. listen to (and trust) your heart. stay hopeful for the future.

kohane: Ace of Wands

this is the card of pure potential. you can accomplish great things - if you can figure out how to direct your energy. you have the motivation to pursue a new path in life, but you need to act now. no time for indecision. just... go for it! reversed, the ace of wands can mean you're struggling to define your purpose. you don't know where to direct your abundance of potential. have patience; not everything can be accomplished all at once. take the time to learn from the world around you.

an: The Moon

the moon represents repressed fears and emotions. rather than dealing with your feelings, you pushed them way, way, way down into your subconscious, and maybe this worked for a time. but now something is causing them to resurface. you need to listen to yourself. you need to work through these feelings, or they'll just keep haunting you. the moon reversed indicates that you are overcoming your fears. don't give in to the temptation to repress them again; keep facing them. it's the only way you'll grow and reach your highest potential.

akito: Nine of Wands

you are resilient and you have the ability to overcome all challenges, even when you don't think so. you have something special to bring to the world, a dream truly worth pursuing, and others may try to tear you down for it. don't let them dim your light. you are so close to a major turning point. keep your head high and stand your ground. the nine of wands also encourages you to seek the support of your loved ones. reversed, the nine of wands indicates struggle and exhaustion. don't take on more commitments. it can also indicate that you're being too defensive. focus your energy inwards and don't fuss over what other people think about you.

toya: The Star

the star is about healing. you have a renewed faith in the world and yourself and you are entering a period of contentment. you have realized who you are at your core and you're embracing it. the star also indicates high levels of creativity and inspiration. channel this energy well and craft a better life for yourself. the star reversed represents feelings of hopelessness, anxiety, and also a lack of confidence in yourself. you find no joy or satisfaction in your life's pursuits. make a change. heal, and move forward.

tsukasa: The Chariot

the chariot represents a strong will and the ability to triumph in difficult circumstances. it's about ambition and determination! if you don't like the way your life is going, change it! you have more power than you may think. keep going; own your destiny. reversed, the chariot represents the feeling of being Stuck. of being blocked in by obstacles all around you. it's a reminder to resist the urge to give up and keep pushing. (sky's edge, anyone?)

emu: Wheel of Fortune

yes, the wheel of fortune is usually used to represent karma and luck. BUT - it also represents big change. it's for the greater good, but that doesn't mean it's easy. the wheel of fortune reminds you that good times will always circle back around, and to cherish the happy moments instead of fretting over the future. also, release good energy into the world and the world will return the favor. (emu's dreams of making everyone smile and kaito's theory of the Circle of Smiles, yeah?) the wheel of fortune reversed is about resisting change, but i don't believe that applies to emu (anymore) so we don't need to spend time here.

nene: Page of Cups

new beginnings; to reach your highest potential, you have to let your imagination flow and dream big. explore your creative self. really expand on those skills. stay open-minded and embrace your inner child. let yourself believe anything is possible. reversed, the page of cups represents self-doubt and mental blockades. you know what you want to pursue, but you're afraid to reach for it. stop fearing the possibility of mistakes and learn from them. follow your heart, regardless of the outcome.

rui: King of Cups

you are beginning to master your emotions and creativity. you are balanced and calm, even when life throws you curve balls. stay true to your feelings and don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. you know how to look at things from a logical and an emotional perspective and can draw on both to make decisions. be wary of leaning too far into logistics. reversed, the king of cups is about really looking at yourself and gaining a deeper understanding of how your emotions affect you. you may be tempted to take control over these deeper feelings, but remember that too much control is just as bad as not enough.

(bonus: ten of swords applies to rui in regards to wxs's story arc. ten of swords is basically like... painful, inevitable endings. a fundamental change is coming and you're trying to fight it, but it needs to happen or life can never move forward.)

kanade: Strength

strength is... well, strength! it's the card of courage and passion. it's about taming your worst feelings and channeling them into something constructive, instead of letting them control and destroy you. it's about patience and inner calm - and quiet power. strength reversed is a representation of self-doubt and losing control. it may also be a warning that you're lashing out. it's not that you're weak; it's that you're letting your fears and doubts consume you. as we see kanade do in the past, in depths of despair.

mafuyu: The Tower

the tower represents a massive upheaval in your status quo. everything you thought you knew about yourself has been destroyed, but the tower only destroys false foundations. things may feel chaotic and hopeless, but from the ashes will come a better life. usually the tower's instigating event is from an unexpected outside source, but when the card is reversed it indicates that you are tearing down your own false foundations. the tower reversed reminds you to not rebuild what you once had. start all over again.

ena: Temperance

temperance brings patience, moderation, and balance into your life. learn to maintain an even temperament and don't let the little things eat away at you. let them go; learn how to redirect your energy to the things that really matter. temperance is also the "alchemy" card, and what is art if not a form of alchemy? now i know this doesn't sound like ena but that's because this upright meaning houses everything she needs to work on. reversed, temperance means you're out of balance. you've lost your sense of inner calm. you're behaving recklessly, and there is a lack of harmony in many of your relationships. temperance reversed demands that you find your flow - now. it's a call for profound self-healing.

mizuki: Six of Swords

the six of swords represents a state of transition. essential change awaits you, but something is holding you back. what old ideas, habits, memories, and feelings are you clinging to? because it's time to let them go and move forward. you are slowing your own self-growth. six of swords reversed indicates a similar state of transition, but on a very private, personal level. it also means that you know what you need to do to move forward, but you're reluctant to do it. and if you're really struggling to let go of the past, it may be because there is something you need to understand - some lesson you didn't finish learning. resolve those problems now. don't push them aside anymore. letting go of the past is scary, but six of swords is gently reminding you that it'll propel you forward into a better future.

#looks at you with my big autistic eyes #project sekai #leo/need #more more jump #vivid bad squad #wonderlands x showtime #nightcord at 25:00 #25 ji nightcord de #long post #this is a cross post from twitter i never put any of this here because. well i forgor #wanders off

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